A Medic's Mind

Episode 51: Natalie Harris

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A place where you can hear my ramblings on PTSD, Depression as well as daily observations and challenges about what it is like to navigate the murky waters of life while swimming among the "normals"...
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Episode 106: Untitled
This episode contains a piece that I am working on for the upcoming book, A Medic's Mind. It is not a complete piece. It is just to give you an idea of some of the stuff I am working on as well as what you can expect from the book when it comes out some time in 2019 or early 2020. Enjoy!
March 21, 2019
Episode 105: Turn It Around
Yesterday was a bad day with relation to PTSD symptomology and I have some things to say about it. I also talk about the importance of "turning it around," thinking differently when spinning in those thoughts of negativity and self-loathing.
March 19, 2019
Episode 104: Ambulance Stories
On this episode I beguile you with some tales from the boo-boo bus!  Have a listen, see what you think.
March 15, 2019
Episode 103: The Kit List
On this episode I discuss the importance of a kit list and how I have been unwittingly using one as a civilian in my daily upkeep against PTSD.
March 14, 2019
Episode 102: My Response To Fifth Estate OPP Interview
Acting OPP Commissioner Gary Couture has just failed his entire police service. He claims there is no link between PTSD and being an OPP member - abhorrent!!! Have a listen to my response here.
March 13, 2019
Episode 101: Rear View
On this episode I read an original piece that is not featured on amedicsmind.com. This is work in progress but if you'd like to e-mail me with thoughts, impressions and idea's that would be very welcomed! Thanks for listening!
March 11, 2019
Episode 100: Heather
On this, the 100th episode of A Medic's Mind, I have my good friend and publisher, Heather Down on the podcast to speak about Brainstorm Revolution, my time in Bellwood and much more.  Sit back and listen to what I consider to be my favorite episode!
March 10, 2019
Episode 99: The Gretzky Episode (More About Me)
Episode 99, folks (the Gretzky episode). This one is a bit of a step away from the macabre styled nature of what I normally discuss and instead is an anecdotal retelling of some of the lighter moments of my youth.  Have a listen, see what you think, maybe have a laugh (hopefully).
March 9, 2019
Episode 98: To Pill Or Not to Pill... That, is the question
On this episode I discuss some of the reasons behind my apprehension towards taking pills to assist me in my plight against PTSD. 
March 8, 2019
Episode 97: Embrace The Unknown
In the midst of some rather serendipitous blessings by the universe, I think I have finally found my new mantra - embrace the unknown! On this episode I talk about a blanket, a streamer, depression and resilience! Sit back, grab a tea or a coffee and let's get started!
March 5, 2019
Episode 96: I Wanted To Be a Hero.
Been a busy couple of days for me with book signings and a rough few nights with respect to nightmares (adventure sleeping). Today's episode contains a blog read about what has been on my mind throughout these challenging days and nights. Have a listen.
March 4, 2019
Episode 95: Another Book Signing
Well, another book signing is in the... books... (bad pun). Anyway, it's done, complete and what a great time it was. It wasn't without its vexations mind you, but it was great nonetheless.  I share my thoughts on how speaking about mental health is helping me grow and advance within recovery and what its like to speak with people who just "get it". Also, the big city can be a... strange place... Have a listen, you'll see.
March 3, 2019
Episode 94: Thursday Night Nightmares
On this episode I dive into what it's like to start EMDR and give some thoughts, worries and feelings towards that and nightmares.
March 1, 2019
Episode 93: Paramedic (Thank You)
I have some thoughts on what it was like being a paramedic and what it all means to me now.
February 28, 2019
Episode 92: Irony of an Imbecile
This podcast contains a blog read from my website: amedicsmind.com.  Had a recurring nightmare last night, so I wrote a post about it and my thoughts towards it.
February 26, 2019
Episode 91: McChicken Down
Find out how I combine women, McDonalds and failed romance in this episode of a blog read from amedicsmind.com
February 25, 2019
Episode 90: Lexicological Drill Sergeant
So, I've decided to start doing something - find out what that something is on this episode of A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
February 24, 2019
Episode 89: Nightmare Basket
On this episode I dive into what has been keeping me awake at night and some of the tools that I am utilizing to help combat that.  Want to know what a nightmare basket is? Tune in and find out, maybe you can make one too?!
February 23, 2019
Episode 88: The Photograph
Lat night I came across something that evoked some pretty strong emotions from me. I wrote a blog post about it over at: amedicsmind.com. As I so often do, I turned it into a podcast episode, I hope you enjoy it! Or in this case, take something from it. Cheers!
February 21, 2019
Episode 87: Recurring Nightmare
On this episode I speak of what it is like to suffer from recurring nightmares and what I do to combat the lingering after-effects of said anathematization. Have a listen, see if you relate.
February 19, 2019
Episode 86: Social Media
On this episode I talk about social media and how and when to walk away.  If you're interested, take a seat, have a listen, see what you think. 
February 18, 2019
Episode 85: The Chairs Are Purple
This episode is a blog read that was motivated by the events of an event that I had the honor of taking part of recently. These are some of those events and thoughts surrounding them.
February 16, 2019
Episode 84: Six-months!
Come, celebrate six-months of sobriety with me. I have some thoughts on what I have learned in the first six-months of my sobriety, I'd like to share them with you.
February 13, 2019
Episode 83: 1-Victory, then 2...
In the midst of a depression dip, I figured I'd come on and record some thoughts about what it is that has been rolling around in the ol' medic's brain...
February 12, 2019
Episode 82: Nocturnal Bellum
This episode contains my latest blog read of the same title. I hope you are able to take something away from it. Thank you for your support, I am not averaging over 70 listens per episode, that's incredible! Thank you!!
February 10, 2019
Episode 81: Cupid's Rusty Arrow
Valentines Day is fast approaching, so, I got some thoughts on that day and the little f***er with the arrows!
February 9, 2019
Episode 80: Staging
On this episode I talk about "staging" and what that means in paramedic land. This is a point of contention with a lot of medic's and their sup's, we'll break it down on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
February 7, 2019
Episode 79: Goose
This episode is of a blog read where the titular hero is the main focal point of the prose. I hope you enjoy it, and find it as amusing as I do and did!
February 5, 2019
Episode 78: Dawson And The Thesaurus
This episode I dive into what it's like to be an old man now (my birthday) as well as revealing some confessions replete with music and song...  Have a listen, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
February 4, 2019
Episode 77: Toe Grabber
This episode is where I express how angry I wish not to be and some of the tools I am using to make that happen. Find out more on this episode!
February 2, 2019
Episode 76: Vortex of Thought
This episode contains a blog read that was written about a flashback that I suffered through when in my therapists office. Have a listen if you'd like to know more.
February 1, 2019
Episode 75: I Was Brave... Once...
On this episode I am so rudely awoken by another nefarious bout of adventure sleeping (nightmares) and these are some of my thoughts about the unwanted trip to adventure land! I was brave... once... long ago...
January 31, 2019
Episode 74: Okay, Let's Talk
This episode is in honour of Bell Let's Talk day, 2019. I have written a story about a man that I once knew and how his death taught me a very important life lesson about suicide and depression. Greg, this one is for you and those like you...
January 30, 2019
Episode 73: Time Is All I Need
I had a friend reach out to me recently and his situation got me to thinking rather introspectively about my own demons and the nature of alcohol and the role it played in my life; find out what that is on this episode of, A Medic's Mind...
January 27, 2019
Episode 72: Yes, Warrant!
This episode contains a blog read from a post that I had written some time ago. It is a first hand tale of my time in the army and some of the... interesting things that can happen when you are a private in the forces. Have a listen here.
January 25, 2019
Episode 71: Bullies Of The Mind And The Playground!
There is a titular hint as to what this episode contains - we're talkin bullies!  Strap in, the c-bombs are plenty!
January 24, 2019
Episode 70: Tickets, Please
This episode I read a new blog post that I have written over at, amedicsmind.com.  This is about an event coming up and some of the thoughts that I have towards it as well as something that I am doing for that event to make it a little more special to me...  Have a listen!
January 22, 2019
Episode 69: That 70's Savior
Had a hard day, bad nap and nasty headache today; I tell you all about it on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
January 19, 2019
Episode 68: Jackets Part 1 & 2
This episode combines both reads of Jackets part 1 & 2.
January 18, 2019
Episode 67: Jackets - Part 2
On this episode I read the second part to my earlier podcast/blog; Jackets! This one is about my paramedic jacket and what it meant to me, represented to me and what it all means to me now. If you feel like it, have a listen, get to know me just a bit better as I talk about, jackets...
January 18, 2019
Episode 66: Bro-sponder's
On this episode I speak about having coffee with a fellow first responder and friend.  It is nice to be able to speak openly and pointedly with someone who "gets it". Have a listen.
January 17, 2019
Episode 65: Gillette
On this episode I discuss masculinity and what role it has played in my life as well as the bravado that at times has hindered me.
January 15, 2019
Episode 64: Just One Thing
Today was kind of a rough one for me. It was a day of unique and potent challenges and with that comes repercussion, rumination and introspective brooding - things I excel at! In this long winded and somewhat chaotic episode, I try to come to some kind of philosophic answer - come, join me!
January 15, 2019
Episode 63: Jackets. Part 1
On this episode I read for you something that I am currently working on and am hoping to published into an upcoming book that I hope to release or at least finalize this year. This is called Jackets. I will not say too much more about the piece itself, but I would like to say that this piece was read within the confines of my newly constructed sound booth!  It's not complete but the audio should be noticeably better (especially with earphones). Have a listen, see what you think!
January 13, 2019
Episode 62: A New York State Of Mind
On this episode I think back to my bro-trip with my best buddy, Drew, to New York City!  What an epic time it was; we got drunk with the creators of the show: How I Met Your Mother, won free Letterman Tickets, saw Tom Hanks, got drunk and puked outside of a cab that in turn left us for dead on the side of the lower east side... good times!
January 12, 2019
Episode 61: Adventure Sleeping
Another unforgiving night plagued with nightmares; these are some of my thoughts...
January 11, 2019
Episode 60: Page 33
This episode consists of a blog read that was written after our most recent book signing.  Something really positive happened to me while I was out at the book signing and I felt the need to write some things down... so I did. Check em out, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
January 10, 2019
Episode 59: Books And Signings And Coffee Oh My!
On this episode you can hear me speak about our latest book signing as well as learn about where and when our next one will be!  (Spoiler - Brampton, Ontario - Quarry Edge Chapters). Listen to it here, on A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
January 9, 2019
Episode 58: Fear And The Flu
Amidst man-flu 2019, I am also beleaguered by PTSD and its nefarious nighttime torment - nightmares. Here, I orate some what I am feeling at 04:45 on a Tuesday...
January 8, 2019
Episode 57: Mia
On this episode, find out why I am the antonym to romance. Also, who is Mia? Find out on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
January 7, 2019
Episode 56: This One's For You...
This episode is a little different than what I usually propagate, but I felt it was the right way to go. Have a listen, see what you think.
January 6, 2019
Episode 55: Medic Matty
I recently had a conversation with a good buddy of mine about a medical drama on TV. He asked me a question related to one of the treatment modalities and it got me to thinking about how my brain used to work when in, Medic Mode. I loved it!! On this episode you can hear me discuss the good, the glorious and the positive yet ruminative things about some of the things I love and miss about being a paramedic.
January 5, 2019
Episode 54: Nick And I
On this episode I am speaking with Nick from, lifeexperienceofnick.com.  We discuss depression and what that means to us, as well as diving into our usage of alcohol and the negatives of waking up on that side of the bed.  Stick around, this is a fun one with some serious talk and a few chuckles in there too!
January 4, 2019
Episode 53: New Year, Same Day
On this episode I read from one of my most recent blog posts over at www.amedicsmind.com. It's the start of a brand new year, and this is what I was thinking about at the close of an old one.
January 3, 2019
Episode 52: Year In Review
Well, 2018 has been a year folks. These are my thoughts on it.
January 2, 2019
Episode 51: Natalie Harris
On this episode I have the one and only, Natalie Harris! Author of, Save My Life School and Daily Lessons From Save My Life School as well as, Brainstorm Revolution! We discuss all this Brainstorm as well as chuckling about her adventures of taking the bus... Have a listen and please, be sure to check out these links to see if you can support some great causes; Dyvrse Clothing Brand and Natalie's blog at, Paramedic Nat.
December 31, 2018
Episode 50: Bro Talk 2
Half way to 100, what better way to hit the halfway point than with an episode of, Bro Talk! On this episode you will hear us discuss celebrities working on the ambulance, books, stripper stories and our thoughts on love and romance... buckle up, this might get bumpy...
December 31, 2018
Episode 49: Hello, Reaper
On this episode I read from a blog that I wrote over at, www.amedicsmind.com. I had a horrible sleep, a slumber enamoured by nightmare and pernicious memory recall.  I speak about it all on this episode.
December 28, 2018
Episdoe 48: All I Could Want For Christmas
On this episode, you will hear me orate why I think depression is just a big ol' bag of dicks and a bold faced liar! You will also hear me talk about puppies, porno and leg lamps... strap in (no pun intended) it's gonna be a show!
December 27, 2018
Episode 47: And To All A Good Night
Hear how I spent the last few hours of Christmas and why those moments meant so much to me.
December 26, 2018
Episode 46: A Christmas Story
A read from my latest blog over at, amedicsmind.com. This is my first venture into fiction writing and it just felt a little more fitting than anything that I have been writing and thinking on lately. Enjoy! And Merry Christmas!!
December 25, 2018
Episode 45: Holiday Blues
Sorry, folks, not a very jovial episode. This is an oration episode where I discuss my proclivity towards negative thought, and my struggle to maintain any sense of yuletide joy.
December 24, 2018
Episode 44: The Phone Call
On this episode you will hear me orate my most recent blog post from, www.amedicsminc.com.
December 23, 2018
Episode 43: Bro Talk
On this episode I have my first call in to the podcast and we discuss being a soldier and being a medic. 
December 22, 2018
Episode 42: Stories By Medic
On this episode you can hear some festive and perhaps raunchy tales from my time on the ambulance.  Sit back, grab some nog or whatever you wish, it's story time!
December 21, 2018
Episode 41: Cognitive What Now's?!
On this episode you hear me discuss my issues with confidence and perceptions towards life, love, self and other's.
December 21, 2018
Episode 40: So, This Is Christmas
On this episode I read a blog post I wrote about a call that I responded to when I was a paramedic. And of course, it takes place around Christmas time...
December 19, 2018
Episode 39: Giving Thanks
An older post, but still relative to how I am feeling around Christmas time.
December 18, 2018
Episode 38: The Interview And The Question
I was recently interviewed by a local radio station for the promotion of the book, Brainstorm Revolution, and it was... interesting. An overall great experience, but some unique turbulence within it also. You can have a listen here.
December 16, 2018
Episode 37: Almost Famous...
On this episode, find out about my early career on the radio and why that is important today.
December 15, 2018
Episode 36: The Grinch In Me
It's holiday season and I am in no way feeling festive nor bright and cheery. The yuletide train skipped my stop - I discuss it on this episode of, A medic's mind the podcast.
December 13, 2018
Episode 35: Not So Serious #5
Another installment of, Not So Serious. Come, sit back and listen to tales of a man named, Snook, and how he almost killed a stripper...
December 11, 2018
Episode 34: Mingling With Muggles...
Today, I speak about interactions with the "normal," of the world and contemplate a PTSD protocol book for my mind.
December 10, 2018
Episode 33: Numbers And Drumsticks
On this episode I read my latest blog from www.amedicsmind.com
December 8, 2018
Episode 32: Happy Birthday, Mum
Today, December the eighth would have been my mother's 70th birthday. I had some thoughts and feelings that I wanted to share with you.
December 8, 2018
Episode 31: Oops!
On this episode I discuss why I think I'm an asshole, and reasons why I probably shouldn't.
December 7, 2018
Episode 30: Another night, Another Bad Dream
I just woke from a nightmare, here are some of my thoughts.
December 7, 2018
Episode 29: What NOT To Watch
I am usually pretty careful about what I watch due to triggers regards PTSD, but sometimes I am careless with WHAT I select to watch... Find out more, on this episode of, a medic's mind.
December 4, 2018
Episode 28: Smells And Confirmations
On this episode I discuss further details about what PTSD has been like for me over the past several days.
December 3, 2018
Episode 27: Triggers
On this episode I speak about triggers and the ways in which I handle them... or try to...
December 2, 2018
Episode 26: Entitlement
On this episode I reveal some of my annoyances towards entitled people and how that impacted me as a medic.
December 1, 2018
Episode 25: Ma'am, I'm Sorry
On this episode I read a blog post from www.amedicsmind.com and tell you what it's like to have to say, I'm sorry in the face of defeat...
November 30, 2018
Episode 24: Not So Serious 4
Another installment of, Not So Serious, this one is called: There Was A Guy Named, Jason... This is a story motivated by the man himself. He brought this story to my attention and thus caused an immediate call to introspect in the fondest of ways. Have a listen and learn a little about a man who is indeed, not so small...
November 30, 2018
Episode 23: I Would
On this episode I speak about what it was like to be a paramedic and answer the question on if I would do it all again...
November 29, 2018
Episode 22: Sunburn
On this episode I read from an anthology that I am published into; Brainstorm Revolution, available at Chapters-Indigo and Amazon! Great book, please check it out! Anyway, here's my story!
November 28, 2018
Episode 21: Not So Serious 3
Another installment of; Not So Serious. These unabashed confessions of some of the more lighter moments that have transpired in my life, this one is about currency exchange...
November 27, 2018
Episode 20: Regrets
On this episode I discuss regret and what it's like to shower in it. I also talk myself out of that shower and into a better place. Have a listen, maybe you can relate!
November 26, 2018
Episode 19: Please Won't You
A blog read from a call that I once responded to as a paramedic.
November 24, 2018
Episode 18: Hard Knocks
On this episode you can hear me lament about some of my more problematic PTSD symptoms and how the "normals" can easily set them off.
November 23, 2018
Episode 17: F@%k You, Big D
On this episode, I talk about depression and how it manifests itself within me. This is a blog read episode and admittedly there are some inconsistencies with the audio, but it's listen-able... yeah...
November 22, 2018
Episode 16: Sh*tty Days
On this episode I explain how I feel about this already shitty week! Give it a listen, maybe you can relate. Oh! There is a pick-me-up at the end ;)
November 20, 2018
Episode 15: Not So Serious 2
A little mood lightener. I can't promise that this will be objectively funny, but it was a good time reminiscing on some of these events! Enjoy!
November 20, 2018
Episode 14: Hey Cap'
On this episode I reveal the causation of one of my recurring nightmares. This was a hard one to write as well as narrate. Have a listen, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind.
November 19, 2018
Episode 13: Super Matt
This episode contains a blog read of one of my favorite posts. Sit back, listen and enjoy the tale of - Super Matt!!!
November 15, 2018
Episode 12: Waking Up The Dead
On this episode I orate my feelings after waking up from an insidious nightmare. Have a listen, maybe you can relate...
November 15, 2018
Episode 11: Dinner For One
On this episode we discuss bad exes and dinner's for one. Come join me.
November 14, 2018
Episode 10: Tapestry Of Torment
On this episode, you will hear me narrate blog post that I wrote a while back. It is about nightmares and how they manifest themselves within my aching medic's mind.
November 13, 2018
Episode 9: Sober
Today is Remembrance Day, a hard day all around. I have some things I needed to say.
November 11, 2018
Episode 8: Not So Serious
A friend reached out to me and said that he cant wait for some light-hearted podcasts... so, I attempt one here. Sorry for the noise quality, I dont have a pop filter as of yet.
November 10, 2018
Episode 7: I Will Remember Them
A Remembrance Day podcast.
November 9, 2018
Episode 6: Can't Sleep
I couldn't sleep last night because of a myriad of different ailments. I speak about them on this episode of, a Medic's Mind.
November 8, 2018
Episode 3: About Joan
My mother's anniversary is here... the first year of her passing. I had some things that I wanted to share, so, here they are.
November 6, 2018
Episode 5: Ramblings of Remembrance
Amidst a grief spike, I had some things to say. You can listen to em here, if you so choose.
November 6, 2018
Episode 4: The Letter
On this episode I read a letter that I wrote. It is a letter to an... old friend... check it out, on this episode of, a Medic's Mind.
November 5, 2018
Episode 2: The Book Signing
Hear my ramblings on the book signing I had the privilege of attending today!
November 4, 2018
Episode 1: Every "Witch" Way
A reading of one of my blog posts that was inspired by an event that happened to me a few mornings ago.
November 1, 2018
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