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A Medic's Mind

A Medic's Mind

By Matthew Heneghan
A place where you can hear my ramblings on PTSD, Depression as well as daily observations and challenges about what it is like to navigate the murky waters of life while swimming among the "normals"...
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Episode 176: Wishful Thinking
2020... the year of years, so to speak, of recent times. It's been a year fraught with challenges and unexpected happenings the world over. Our ability to travel has been impacted by these changes and challenges alike. So, the other day I was reminiscing on a time not so long ago where I found myself in the heart of New York city with my best friend in the world. This episode is a story within a story. It's poignant and telling of how magical the city of New York truly is.  I hope you enjoy it! Link to the book:
September 18, 2020
Episode 175: Pictures
Inspired to write after watching a particular scene unfold on television, I was forced into rumination about my feelings on pictures and their placements within homes... have a listen, you'll see what I mean.
September 11, 2020
Episode 174: Burning Love
On this episode, I recount a tale of a bad date, and the promise of better times ahead. This is, Burning Love. Don't forget, my book: A Medic's Mind, is available wherever books are sold!
September 5, 2020
Episode 173: Star Party
In this return episode I recount a less than pleasing encounter with PTSD that I while away on vacation. A MEDIC'S MIND IS BACK!!!!
August 29, 2020
Episode 172: Hot Moon Howling
July 6th is a tough day for me, historically speaking. I am doing my best to stay out of the deep end of the depression pool, so I wrote a story that engenders some happier ruminations. Enjoy!
July 6, 2020
Episode 171: Father...
A day late but none the less relevant; here is my Father's Day post.  Father's Day has always held obfuscating meaning for me. It had typically been a day not celebrated in my family, and rightfully so. But that does not change the fact that when I was kid, this day and its festivities were always something that provoked a stir of introspection for me. I write about that in this story of my father... #fathersday 
June 23, 2020
Episode 170: Donnybrooks and Ninja Turtles!
Finally, a new episode! Thank you for your patience and support.  On this episode I conclude my story with a phone call to my buddy, Sean, who is featured in this anecdotal tale of mine. We discuss the event in question, celebrity favorites and more. Enjoy! #christopherwalken #celebrityimpressions
June 17, 2020
Episode 169: Farnham
This episode is a little lighter and may even elicit a chuckle or two, hopefully...  This story takes place during my military days. Specifically, basic training. I wrote this to remember something more fond during this time of uncertainty and an unrest. I hope you like it.
May 29, 2020
Episode 168: The Picture
On this episode I speak about the cover of my book and how it came to be. I explain the nuance behind the capture. Is it a simple selfie? Surely not. Have a listen, see what you think. #yyz #ptsd #paramedic
May 17, 2020
Episode 167: UpTalk With Sean Conohan
I was recently featured on a podcast (the UpTalk Podcast) and had a conversation with its host: Sean Conohan. A distinguished paramedic and communications officer with many years of experience in the field. Here is a link to his show!
May 6, 2020
Episode 166: The Air is Poison
I have a blog read for you folks. Thank you for your patience while I struggle to get these episodes out there. I appreciate your support, kindness and compassion. Thank you. This episode explains a little bit about what I have been doing since the start of this COVID-19 pandemic and how I have been coping with the lingering grief of my sister's unexpected passing. Lisa, I love you.
April 28, 2020
Episode 165: QuaranTALKING!
Hello, folks! Sorry for the delay in getting these things out consistently, but I'm trying. On this episode I figured I would chat with you all about some of what's been on my mind during these new and uncertain times. The new "normal" so-to-speak. #covid19 #isolation
April 14, 2020
Episode 164: The COVID Special
Sorry it's been a while, folks. On this episode I read a story that I wrote and a story that was written for me by a very dear friend. My hope is that this episode can add some levity to the heft of our new every day lives... Things are uncertain out there at the moment and there is only so much of it that we can control. Hopefully this can act as a brief respite for the heaviness of it all. #covid19 #stayhome
March 30, 2020
Episode 163: Needles And Nightmares
This episode contains a blog read from my website: It is entitled: Needles and Nightmares. It was born from a nightmares that I woke from recently.
March 13, 2020
Episode 162: Calling Out Heather Mallick
On this episode I respond to an opinion piece by the Toronto Star's: Heather Mallick. Link to the article can be found in this episode's show notes.
March 6, 2020
Episode 161: Chatting With Pragmatic Paramedics - Jason and Aaron
I was recently asked to be a guest on the Pragmatic Paramedics podcast - we discuss the book, PTSD, EMDR and yes... a dildo! Enjoy!
February 28, 2020
Episode 160: The Virus
In lieu of current global affairs, I felt compelled to write a story that I feel relates. This is called: The Virus.
February 22, 2020
Episode 159: Just Chattin
On this episode I go over what has been happening for me over the past while. Enjoy!
February 12, 2020
Episode 158: Sauga 960 Interview
This episode is a recording of a recent radio interview that I was a part of alongside my publisher and friend, Heather Down. 
February 4, 2020
Episode 157: Níos sine Deirfiúr,
Grief and depression have been holding me captive over the past couple of weeks. On this episode I share some honesty as to what that has been like and where I am going from here.
January 22, 2020
Episode 156: Super Brat
This episode is deeply personal to me. Our family has suffered another unimaginable loss. Writing has been my outlet for some time now... so I wrote this in hopes that it will help me heal. Rest in peace, Lisa. 
January 11, 2020
Episode 155: Egyptian Blue
Welcome to the first episode of 2020! Kicking off a brand new decade with a brand new story for you all, a story that includes some exciting news! So, grab a tea, a coffee or whatever you please, sit back and let's get this decade rolling!
January 2, 2020
Episode 154: Yule Laugh
On this Christmas'y episode of the podcast, I tell you about my holiday season so far and I dive into some stories of the past. Hope you enjoy it!
December 28, 2019
Episode 153: Chapter 6, Sting
Merry Christmas and happy new year, everyone! This episode contains a full, free and fully rendered chapter from A Medic's Mind the audio book! I hope you enjoy it.
December 22, 2019
Episode 152: Tonight, It's Hers...
***Trigger warning*** (some sounds throughout the recording may be troubling to some listeners - discretion is advised) This is a story motivated by a recurring dream/set of symptoms that I have been having as of late. They are very specific and I do not know what the causation of them are... but I am working on it. This episode tells that story.
December 14, 2019
Episode 151: A Man And His Wings
On this episode I take a page from Mike Rowe's prestigious playbook and narrate a story that I have written and produced about a real person (other than me) in a way that make you listen till the end. It's also a tribute to the memory of this who perished on December 7th, 1941.
December 8, 2019
Colonel's Chicken
This story takes place on Valentine's Day. I am releasing it now as my mum's birthday is coming up soon and anyone who has followed the podcast will know... that's a big day. Mum... this one's for you!
December 3, 2019
Episode 149: Epiphanies with Rev.Jessie Brandon- Heather Down
On this episode you get to hear an interview between Heather Down (founder of Wintertickle Press the publishing house responsible for A Medic's Mind) speak about the book and how it came to be as well as some other projects that she has worked on and is involved with.
November 23, 2019
Episode 148: Bookingham and Home
Last week, I had the privilege and honour to go back to my home town for a book signing. This episode is a reflective episode of that experience as well as the unveiling on my brand new MM intro theme song! Enjoy!!
November 16, 2019
Episode 147: The Reality of Today
Tomorrow comes with memory of what can only be described as the worst of my time. I am feeling low, sullen and sad. I figured I'd bleed thoughts into the mic for a while.
November 5, 2019
Episode 146: The Lifeless Driver
This is a blog read episode of a story that came to me the other night while sitting in a contemplative state.
October 28, 2019
Episode 145: Bitter Sweet
In lieu of today being the day of the book signing, here is: bitter sweet...
October 19, 2019
Episode 144: Grateful
On this episode I struggle through a man cold to bring you a narrative of what I am grateful for on this looming Thanksgiving day!
October 13, 2019
Episode 143: The Objective Inadequate
This episode is a blog read of my most recent post over at: I tell a story of inadequacy and how the mind can make you believe something that may not actually be true.
October 6, 2019
Episode 142: Responding
This episode is a blog read of a post that I wrote a few days ago called: Responding... have a listen, I think it will makes sense as you do.
September 20, 2019
Episode 141: Not Selfish
I came across an online post about the late Chester Bennington. The comment section of said post was nothing short of abhorrent and dissatisfactory. I share my thoughts on the topic of suicide on this episode of A Medic's Mind.
September 17, 2019
Episode 140: Rocking Story
Today I have a special one for you; something really splendid happened to me recently and it really is too good not to share! This story involves a rock, Superman, two fantastic women and Newfoundland!
September 9, 2019
Episode 139: I'm Moving
As I was packing to move to my new apartment, I came across something pretty cool. Let me share it with you on this episode of: A Medic's Mind.
September 6, 2019
Episode 138: The Christmas Steps
Hey, folks! So, although this titular episode is a little out of season... I wanted to bring a little Christmas spirit into the mix. So, I have a story for you. I recorded this in July, so please, ignore the July references at the intro to this post and enjoy ! 
August 23, 2019
Episode 137: The Pay Fallacy
On this episode I give my opinions on the promulgated myth that just because you are paid good money, the pitfalls of a task should not affect you.
August 13, 2019
Episode 136: The Girl and Her Guitar
Story time, on this episode of: A Medic's Mind. This one is a lighter one... enjoy.
August 4, 2019
Episode 135: The Rumble
On this episode I reminisce back to my first ever fight! Did we win? Have a listen and see for yourself...
July 27, 2019
Episode 134: A Dog Named, Sadie
This episode is on the lighter side and contains a blog read from my mischievous youth. Enjoy!
July 21, 2019
Episode 133: From My Doorstep to Temptation
On this episode I speak about what it is that keeps me sober and how it is that I am able to maintain that sobriety.
July 14, 2019
Episode 132: A Man called, Brother
July 6th is a tough day. I am trying not to get bogged down in the low of it all and instead have chosen to try and honour a friend, a man I called, brother, in a different and more deserving way. On this episode, I tell you about Colin Wilmot
July 6, 2019
Episode 131: Waitress Therapy
This episode is a blog read from a post I call: Waitress Therapy.
June 25, 2019
Episode 130: Shania
This episode is blog read from A story from when I was in the army... 
June 19, 2019
Episode 129: Sunburn Second Read
On this episode I read for you the story that is featured in the anthology: Brainstorm Revolution available where ever books are sold!
June 14, 2019
Episode 128: Matt's Creek
On this episode I not only explain my new intro music and the tragic circumstances surrounding it, but I tell you of another broken thing... me.
June 10, 2019
Episode 127: Ending Paramedic Week With Stories
I figured it would be a good time to share some less serious anecdotal experiences with you all, so, here they are!
June 2, 2019
Episode 126: Paramedic Services Week
In honour of Paramedic Services Week, I have written a piece that I would like to share with you.
May 31, 2019
Episode 125: One Night
This is not your typical fairy tale. This is however a true story and rightly or wrongly, I am the focal point.
May 21, 2019
EPisode 124: A Smile Hides A Frown
On this episode I discuss what things look like from behind my mask...
May 20, 2019
Episode 123: Any Plans?
An episode dedicated to Mother's Day.
May 12, 2019
Episode 122: Burden of Blessing
A blog read episode from
May 10, 2019
Episode 121: Imsomnia Randomness
On this episode I babble on about some things and stuff. Also, I am not a good person (you'll see).
May 3, 2019
Episode 120: Pleased to Dickens
Something pretty special happened to me recently so I decided to write it down. This is a blog read of that something special!
April 28, 2019
Episode 119: PTSD versus PTSI
Language matters; let's talk about terms, folks
April 28, 2019
Episode 118: Chaos Orchestra
This episode contains a blog read of a post written after a heinous nightmare suffered during an unplanned nap.
April 23, 2019
Episode 117: Furorem
This episode is a blog read of my latest prose that can be found at
April 20, 2019
Episode 116: Stop Thinkin About It
On this episode I discuss other people's expectations and why they can f*ck off! 
April 16, 2019
Episode 115: Angel Aaron
This is a blog read that will explain to you a little bit about why I hate crowded places and busy spaces. Perhaps you can relate. Please, if you feel so inclined, don't forget to head over and check out Chapters Indigo where my book is on pre-sale now! A Medic's Mind. Please click the link to find out more. Thank you for all your support and kindness.
April 12, 2019
Episode 114: Yes? No? Maybe...
On this episode I read a new piece I wrote recently that discusses my inability to date on a serious, committed level.
April 10, 2019
Episode 113: Brother, I Got You
On this episode I speak ambiguously to a fellow brother and healer of the sick, dying and wounded. A man who is struggling.
April 6, 2019
Episode 112: Let's Talk Nightmares
On this episode I dive into what nightmares are like for me. I go into detail about what they look like, what I feel like and what I do during and afterwards to cope.
April 4, 2019
Episode 111: Writing
On this episode I talk about the writing process and what you can expect from the book itself.
April 4, 2019
Episode 110: A Week In The Mind
I give out an update of my book, A Medic's Mind as well as discuss some of the upcoming and prior EMDR sessions that I have recently been exposed to. 
March 31, 2019
Episode 109: Back To New York
On this episode I tell you a story about my second trip to NYC and what it was like to drink beer with Carter Bays and Craig Thomas (the creators of How I Met Your Mother).
March 29, 2019
Episode 108: Dear Friend
On today's episode I read for you a letter that I wrote to a friend following a conversation we had the other night. I have some shared feelings with my friend as well as some opposing ones... find out what the letter say on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
March 24, 2019
Episode 107: Advice For New Medics
On this episode I throw out some subjective advice and thoughts for new medics entering or thinking about entering the profession. I also touch on what it's like to leave the profession before you feel you are ready to...
March 22, 2019
Episode 106: Untitled
This episode contains a piece that I am working on for the upcoming book, A Medic's Mind. It is not a complete piece. It is just to give you an idea of some of the stuff I am working on as well as what you can expect from the book when it comes out some time in 2019 or early 2020. Enjoy!
March 21, 2019
Episode 105: Turn It Around
Yesterday was a bad day with relation to PTSD symptomology and I have some things to say about it. I also talk about the importance of "turning it around," thinking differently when spinning in those thoughts of negativity and self-loathing.
March 19, 2019
Episode 104: Ambulance Stories
On this episode I beguile you with some tales from the boo-boo bus!  Have a listen, see what you think.
March 15, 2019
Episode 103: The Kit List
On this episode I discuss the importance of a kit list and how I have been unwittingly using one as a civilian in my daily upkeep against PTSD.
March 14, 2019
Episode 102: My Response To Fifth Estate OPP Interview
Acting OPP Commissioner Gary Couture has just failed his entire police service. He claims there is no link between PTSD and being an OPP member - abhorrent!!! Have a listen to my response here.
March 13, 2019
Episode 101: Rear View
On this episode I read an original piece that is not featured on This is work in progress but if you'd like to e-mail me with thoughts, impressions and idea's that would be very welcomed! Thanks for listening!
March 11, 2019
Episode 100: Heather
On this, the 100th episode of A Medic's Mind, I have my good friend and publisher, Heather Down on the podcast to speak about Brainstorm Revolution, my time in Bellwood and much more.  Sit back and listen to what I consider to be my favorite episode!
March 10, 2019
Episode 99: The Gretzky Episode (More About Me)
Episode 99, folks (the Gretzky episode). This one is a bit of a step away from the macabre styled nature of what I normally discuss and instead is an anecdotal retelling of some of the lighter moments of my youth.  Have a listen, see what you think, maybe have a laugh (hopefully).
March 9, 2019
Episode 98: To Pill Or Not to Pill... That, is the question
On this episode I discuss some of the reasons behind my apprehension towards taking pills to assist me in my plight against PTSD. 
March 8, 2019
Episode 97: Embrace The Unknown
In the midst of some rather serendipitous blessings by the universe, I think I have finally found my new mantra - embrace the unknown! On this episode I talk about a blanket, a streamer, depression and resilience! Sit back, grab a tea or a coffee and let's get started!
March 5, 2019
Episode 96: I Wanted To Be a Hero.
Been a busy couple of days for me with book signings and a rough few nights with respect to nightmares (adventure sleeping). Today's episode contains a blog read about what has been on my mind throughout these challenging days and nights. Have a listen.
March 4, 2019
Episode 95: Another Book Signing
Well, another book signing is in the... books... (bad pun). Anyway, it's done, complete and what a great time it was. It wasn't without its vexations mind you, but it was great nonetheless.  I share my thoughts on how speaking about mental health is helping me grow and advance within recovery and what its like to speak with people who just "get it". Also, the big city can be a... strange place... Have a listen, you'll see.
March 3, 2019
Episode 94: Thursday Night Nightmares
On this episode I dive into what it's like to start EMDR and give some thoughts, worries and feelings towards that and nightmares.
March 1, 2019
Episode 93: Paramedic (Thank You)
I have some thoughts on what it was like being a paramedic and what it all means to me now.
February 28, 2019
Episode 92: Irony of an Imbecile
This podcast contains a blog read from my website:  Had a recurring nightmare last night, so I wrote a post about it and my thoughts towards it.
February 26, 2019
Episode 91: McChicken Down
Find out how I combine women, McDonalds and failed romance in this episode of a blog read from
February 25, 2019
Episode 90: Lexicological Drill Sergeant
So, I've decided to start doing something - find out what that something is on this episode of A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
February 24, 2019
Episode 89: Nightmare Basket
On this episode I dive into what has been keeping me awake at night and some of the tools that I am utilizing to help combat that.  Want to know what a nightmare basket is? Tune in and find out, maybe you can make one too?!
February 23, 2019
Episode 88: The Photograph
Lat night I came across something that evoked some pretty strong emotions from me. I wrote a blog post about it over at: As I so often do, I turned it into a podcast episode, I hope you enjoy it! Or in this case, take something from it. Cheers!
February 21, 2019
Episode 87: Recurring Nightmare
On this episode I speak of what it is like to suffer from recurring nightmares and what I do to combat the lingering after-effects of said anathematization. Have a listen, see if you relate.
February 19, 2019
Episode 86: Social Media
On this episode I talk about social media and how and when to walk away.  If you're interested, take a seat, have a listen, see what you think. 
February 18, 2019
Episode 85: The Chairs Are Purple
This episode is a blog read that was motivated by the events of an event that I had the honor of taking part of recently. These are some of those events and thoughts surrounding them.
February 16, 2019
Episode 84: Six-months!
Come, celebrate six-months of sobriety with me. I have some thoughts on what I have learned in the first six-months of my sobriety, I'd like to share them with you.
February 13, 2019
Episode 83: 1-Victory, then 2...
In the midst of a depression dip, I figured I'd come on and record some thoughts about what it is that has been rolling around in the ol' medic's brain...
February 12, 2019
Episode 82: Nocturnal Bellum
This episode contains my latest blog read of the same title. I hope you are able to take something away from it. Thank you for your support, I am not averaging over 70 listens per episode, that's incredible! Thank you!!
February 10, 2019
Episode 81: Cupid's Rusty Arrow
Valentines Day is fast approaching, so, I got some thoughts on that day and the little f***er with the arrows!
February 9, 2019
Episode 80: Staging
On this episode I talk about "staging" and what that means in paramedic land. This is a point of contention with a lot of medic's and their sup's, we'll break it down on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
February 7, 2019
Episode 79: Goose
This episode is of a blog read where the titular hero is the main focal point of the prose. I hope you enjoy it, and find it as amusing as I do and did!
February 5, 2019
Episode 78: Dawson And The Thesaurus
This episode I dive into what it's like to be an old man now (my birthday) as well as revealing some confessions replete with music and song...  Have a listen, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
February 4, 2019
Episode 77: Toe Grabber
This episode is where I express how angry I wish not to be and some of the tools I am using to make that happen. Find out more on this episode!
February 2, 2019
Episode 76: Vortex of Thought
This episode contains a blog read that was written about a flashback that I suffered through when in my therapists office. Have a listen if you'd like to know more.
February 1, 2019
Episode 75: I Was Brave... Once...
On this episode I am so rudely awoken by another nefarious bout of adventure sleeping (nightmares) and these are some of my thoughts about the unwanted trip to adventure land! I was brave... once... long ago...
January 31, 2019
Episode 74: Okay, Let's Talk
This episode is in honour of Bell Let's Talk day, 2019. I have written a story about a man that I once knew and how his death taught me a very important life lesson about suicide and depression. Greg, this one is for you and those like you...
January 30, 2019
Episode 73: Time Is All I Need
I had a friend reach out to me recently and his situation got me to thinking rather introspectively about my own demons and the nature of alcohol and the role it played in my life; find out what that is on this episode of, A Medic's Mind...
January 27, 2019
Episode 72: Yes, Warrant!
This episode contains a blog read from a post that I had written some time ago. It is a first hand tale of my time in the army and some of the... interesting things that can happen when you are a private in the forces. Have a listen here.
January 25, 2019
Episode 71: Bullies Of The Mind And The Playground!
There is a titular hint as to what this episode contains - we're talkin bullies!  Strap in, the c-bombs are plenty!
January 24, 2019
Episode 70: Tickets, Please
This episode I read a new blog post that I have written over at,  This is about an event coming up and some of the thoughts that I have towards it as well as something that I am doing for that event to make it a little more special to me...  Have a listen!
January 22, 2019
Episode 69: That 70's Savior
Had a hard day, bad nap and nasty headache today; I tell you all about it on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
January 19, 2019
Episode 68: Jackets Part 1 & 2
This episode combines both reads of Jackets part 1 & 2.
January 18, 2019
Episode 67: Jackets - Part 2
On this episode I read the second part to my earlier podcast/blog; Jackets! This one is about my paramedic jacket and what it meant to me, represented to me and what it all means to me now. If you feel like it, have a listen, get to know me just a bit better as I talk about, jackets...
January 18, 2019
Episode 66: Bro-sponder's
On this episode I speak about having coffee with a fellow first responder and friend.  It is nice to be able to speak openly and pointedly with someone who "gets it". Have a listen.
January 17, 2019
Episode 65: Gillette
On this episode I discuss masculinity and what role it has played in my life as well as the bravado that at times has hindered me.
January 15, 2019
Episode 64: Just One Thing
Today was kind of a rough one for me. It was a day of unique and potent challenges and with that comes repercussion, rumination and introspective brooding - things I excel at! In this long winded and somewhat chaotic episode, I try to come to some kind of philosophic answer - come, join me!
January 15, 2019
Episode 63: Jackets. Part 1
On this episode I read for you something that I am currently working on and am hoping to published into an upcoming book that I hope to release or at least finalize this year. This is called Jackets. I will not say too much more about the piece itself, but I would like to say that this piece was read within the confines of my newly constructed sound booth!  It's not complete but the audio should be noticeably better (especially with earphones). Have a listen, see what you think!
January 13, 2019
Episode 62: A New York State Of Mind
On this episode I think back to my bro-trip with my best buddy, Drew, to New York City!  What an epic time it was; we got drunk with the creators of the show: How I Met Your Mother, won free Letterman Tickets, saw Tom Hanks, got drunk and puked outside of a cab that in turn left us for dead on the side of the lower east side... good times!
January 12, 2019
Episode 61: Adventure Sleeping
Another unforgiving night plagued with nightmares; these are some of my thoughts...
January 11, 2019
Episode 60: Page 33
This episode consists of a blog read that was written after our most recent book signing.  Something really positive happened to me while I was out at the book signing and I felt the need to write some things down... so I did. Check em out, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
January 10, 2019
Episode 59: Books And Signings And Coffee Oh My!
On this episode you can hear me speak about our latest book signing as well as learn about where and when our next one will be!  (Spoiler - Brampton, Ontario - Quarry Edge Chapters). Listen to it here, on A Medic's Mind The Podcast!
January 9, 2019
Episode 58: Fear And The Flu
Amidst man-flu 2019, I am also beleaguered by PTSD and its nefarious nighttime torment - nightmares. Here, I orate some what I am feeling at 04:45 on a Tuesday...
January 8, 2019
Episode 57: Mia
On this episode, find out why I am the antonym to romance. Also, who is Mia? Find out on this episode of, A Medic's Mind The Podcast.
January 7, 2019
Episode 56: This One's For You...
This episode is a little different than what I usually propagate, but I felt it was the right way to go. Have a listen, see what you think.
January 6, 2019
Episode 55: Medic Matty
I recently had a conversation with a good buddy of mine about a medical drama on TV. He asked me a question related to one of the treatment modalities and it got me to thinking about how my brain used to work when in, Medic Mode. I loved it!! On this episode you can hear me discuss the good, the glorious and the positive yet ruminative things about some of the things I love and miss about being a paramedic.
January 5, 2019
Episode 54: Nick And I
On this episode I am speaking with Nick from,  We discuss depression and what that means to us, as well as diving into our usage of alcohol and the negatives of waking up on that side of the bed.  Stick around, this is a fun one with some serious talk and a few chuckles in there too!
January 4, 2019
Episode 53: New Year, Same Day
On this episode I read from one of my most recent blog posts over at It's the start of a brand new year, and this is what I was thinking about at the close of an old one.
January 3, 2019
Episode 52: Year In Review
Well, 2018 has been a year folks. These are my thoughts on it.
January 2, 2019
Episode 51: Natalie Harris
On this episode I have the one and only, Natalie Harris! Author of, Save My Life School and Daily Lessons From Save My Life School as well as, Brainstorm Revolution! We discuss all this Brainstorm as well as chuckling about her adventures of taking the bus... Have a listen and please, be sure to check out these links to see if you can support some great causes; Dyvrse Clothing Brand and Natalie's blog at, Paramedic Nat.
December 31, 2018
Episode 50: Bro Talk 2
Half way to 100, what better way to hit the halfway point than with an episode of, Bro Talk! On this episode you will hear us discuss celebrities working on the ambulance, books, stripper stories and our thoughts on love and romance... buckle up, this might get bumpy...
December 31, 2018
Episode 49: Hello, Reaper
On this episode I read from a blog that I wrote over at, I had a horrible sleep, a slumber enamoured by nightmare and pernicious memory recall.  I speak about it all on this episode.
December 28, 2018
Episdoe 48: All I Could Want For Christmas
On this episode, you will hear me orate why I think depression is just a big ol' bag of dicks and a bold faced liar! You will also hear me talk about puppies, porno and leg lamps... strap in (no pun intended) it's gonna be a show!
December 27, 2018
Episode 47: And To All A Good Night
Hear how I spent the last few hours of Christmas and why those moments meant so much to me.
December 26, 2018
Episode 46: A Christmas Story
A read from my latest blog over at, This is my first venture into fiction writing and it just felt a little more fitting than anything that I have been writing and thinking on lately. Enjoy! And Merry Christmas!!
December 25, 2018
Episode 45: Holiday Blues
Sorry, folks, not a very jovial episode. This is an oration episode where I discuss my proclivity towards negative thought, and my struggle to maintain any sense of yuletide joy.
December 24, 2018
Episode 44: The Phone Call
On this episode you will hear me orate my most recent blog post from,
December 23, 2018
Episode 43: Bro Talk
On this episode I have my first call in to the podcast and we discuss being a soldier and being a medic. 
December 22, 2018
Episode 42: Stories By Medic
On this episode you can hear some festive and perhaps raunchy tales from my time on the ambulance.  Sit back, grab some nog or whatever you wish, it's story time!
December 21, 2018
Episode 41: Cognitive What Now's?!
On this episode you hear me discuss my issues with confidence and perceptions towards life, love, self and other's.
December 21, 2018
Episode 40: So, This Is Christmas
On this episode I read a blog post I wrote about a call that I responded to when I was a paramedic. And of course, it takes place around Christmas time...
December 19, 2018
Episode 39: Giving Thanks
An older post, but still relative to how I am feeling around Christmas time.
December 18, 2018
Episode 38: The Interview And The Question
I was recently interviewed by a local radio station for the promotion of the book, Brainstorm Revolution, and it was... interesting. An overall great experience, but some unique turbulence within it also. You can have a listen here.
December 16, 2018
Episode 37: Almost Famous...
On this episode, find out about my early career on the radio and why that is important today.
December 15, 2018
Episode 36: The Grinch In Me
It's holiday season and I am in no way feeling festive nor bright and cheery. The yuletide train skipped my stop - I discuss it on this episode of, A medic's mind the podcast.
December 13, 2018
Episode 35: Not So Serious #5
Another installment of, Not So Serious. Come, sit back and listen to tales of a man named, Snook, and how he almost killed a stripper...
December 11, 2018
Episode 34: Mingling With Muggles...
Today, I speak about interactions with the "normal," of the world and contemplate a PTSD protocol book for my mind.
December 10, 2018
Episode 33: Numbers And Drumsticks
On this episode I read my latest blog from
December 8, 2018
Episode 32: Happy Birthday, Mum
Today, December the eighth would have been my mother's 70th birthday. I had some thoughts and feelings that I wanted to share with you.
December 8, 2018
Episode 31: Oops!
On this episode I discuss why I think I'm an asshole, and reasons why I probably shouldn't.
December 7, 2018
Episode 30: Another night, Another Bad Dream
I just woke from a nightmare, here are some of my thoughts.
December 7, 2018
Episode 29: What NOT To Watch
I am usually pretty careful about what I watch due to triggers regards PTSD, but sometimes I am careless with WHAT I select to watch... Find out more, on this episode of, a medic's mind.
December 4, 2018
Episode 28: Smells And Confirmations
On this episode I discuss further details about what PTSD has been like for me over the past several days.
December 3, 2018
Episode 27: Triggers
On this episode I speak about triggers and the ways in which I handle them... or try to...
December 2, 2018
Episode 26: Entitlement
On this episode I reveal some of my annoyances towards entitled people and how that impacted me as a medic.
December 1, 2018
Episode 25: Ma'am, I'm Sorry
On this episode I read a blog post from and tell you what it's like to have to say, I'm sorry in the face of defeat...
November 30, 2018
Episode 24: Not So Serious 4
Another installment of, Not So Serious, this one is called: There Was A Guy Named, Jason... This is a story motivated by the man himself. He brought this story to my attention and thus caused an immediate call to introspect in the fondest of ways. Have a listen and learn a little about a man who is indeed, not so small...
November 30, 2018
Episode 23: I Would
On this episode I speak about what it was like to be a paramedic and answer the question on if I would do it all again...
November 29, 2018
Episode 22: Sunburn
On this episode I read from an anthology that I am published into; Brainstorm Revolution, available at Chapters-Indigo and Amazon! Great book, please check it out! Anyway, here's my story!
November 28, 2018
Episode 21: Not So Serious 3
Another installment of; Not So Serious. These unabashed confessions of some of the more lighter moments that have transpired in my life, this one is about currency exchange...
November 27, 2018
Episode 20: Regrets
On this episode I discuss regret and what it's like to shower in it. I also talk myself out of that shower and into a better place. Have a listen, maybe you can relate!
November 26, 2018
Episode 19: Please Won't You
A blog read from a call that I once responded to as a paramedic.
November 24, 2018
Episode 18: Hard Knocks
On this episode you can hear me lament about some of my more problematic PTSD symptoms and how the "normals" can easily set them off.
November 23, 2018
Episode 17: F@%k You, Big D
On this episode, I talk about depression and how it manifests itself within me. This is a blog read episode and admittedly there are some inconsistencies with the audio, but it's listen-able... yeah...
November 22, 2018
Episode 16: Sh*tty Days
On this episode I explain how I feel about this already shitty week! Give it a listen, maybe you can relate. Oh! There is a pick-me-up at the end ;)
November 20, 2018
Episode 15: Not So Serious 2
A little mood lightener. I can't promise that this will be objectively funny, but it was a good time reminiscing on some of these events! Enjoy!
November 20, 2018
Episode 14: Hey Cap'
On this episode I reveal the causation of one of my recurring nightmares. This was a hard one to write as well as narrate. Have a listen, on this episode of, A Medic's Mind.
November 19, 2018
Episode 13: Super Matt
This episode contains a blog read of one of my favorite posts. Sit back, listen and enjoy the tale of - Super Matt!!!
November 15, 2018
Episode 12: Waking Up The Dead
On this episode I orate my feelings after waking up from an insidious nightmare. Have a listen, maybe you can relate...
November 15, 2018
Episode 11: Dinner For One
On this episode we discuss bad exes and dinner's for one. Come join me.
November 14, 2018
Episode 10: Tapestry Of Torment
On this episode, you will hear me narrate blog post that I wrote a while back. It is about nightmares and how they manifest themselves within my aching medic's mind.
November 13, 2018
Episode 9: Sober
Today is Remembrance Day, a hard day all around. I have some things I needed to say.
November 11, 2018
Episode 8: Not So Serious
A friend reached out to me and said that he cant wait for some light-hearted podcasts... so, I attempt one here. Sorry for the noise quality, I dont have a pop filter as of yet.
November 10, 2018
Episode 7: I Will Remember Them
A Remembrance Day podcast.
November 9, 2018
Episode 6: Can't Sleep
I couldn't sleep last night because of a myriad of different ailments. I speak about them on this episode of, a Medic's Mind.
November 8, 2018
Episode 3: About Joan
My mother's anniversary is here... the first year of her passing. I had some things that I wanted to share, so, here they are.
November 6, 2018
Episode 5: Ramblings of Remembrance
Amidst a grief spike, I had some things to say. You can listen to em here, if you so choose.
November 6, 2018
Episode 4: The Letter
On this episode I read a letter that I wrote. It is a letter to an... old friend... check it out, on this episode of, a Medic's Mind.
November 5, 2018
Episode 2: The Book Signing
Hear my ramblings on the book signing I had the privilege of attending today!
November 4, 2018
Episode 1: Every "Witch" Way
A reading of one of my blog posts that was inspired by an event that happened to me a few mornings ago.
November 1, 2018