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The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind

By Ali Khamseh
One man's quest to talk, in any shape or form. There's not much consistency other than the man itself, and the subjects can vary from anything to nothing.
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Chapter 83: I Hate Jordan Peterson
With the advent and the oversaturation of "public intellectuals", it's hard to not notice a growing number of them who spew their political and social ideologies as indisputable facts; and one of the more prominent one of them is a Canadian professor who rose to fame by getting involved in a cultural war of his own making, Jordan Peterson. Sometimes, one hates Jordan Peterson and what he represents in public debate. A Brief Look at Jordan Peterson - SOME MORE NEWS:
August 05, 2022
Chapter 82: Getting Covid
After the missed chapter, first of its time, "The Last Thoughts of a Busy Mind" is back. The specter of a disease has roamed the human world for the past two years, and the mental decay and the existential emptiness that it brings sometimes can rival its physical symptoms. So when one, despite care and effort, doesn't manage to escape the slippery hands of the specter, sometimes it's imperative to vent frustration, discuss feelings and cough one's lungs out.
July 29, 2022
Chapter 81: You Know the Parents!
When one looks back at most of the insecurities and the mental anguish of one's young life, the answer inevitably can be drawn back to the people who raised one from an embryo to a full-fledged adult. Their mistakes, their behavior and their actions creating a man or a monster within one's life. Parents, simply, need to understand.
July 15, 2022
Chapter 80: I Bought a Mug from a Supermarket
There's a phenomenon called "mundanity", which is described as the quality of being mundane. When one's views of their own expectations are skewed, mundanity is oftentimes seen as a negative and oftentimes as a curse. But, mundanity is not set in stone. When one's definition of "mundane" changes, maybe mundanity is not as mundane as it once were.
July 08, 2022
Chapter 79: The Feeling of Burn Out
When one extends one's ability and stretches one's mental capacity for creative work passed a certain threshold, the thought of continuing on that creative path will become arduous and sometimes may appear impossible. The feeling that one experiences at that point is a feeling commonly known as "burn out", and one can feel the reaches of it through time. Check out my appearance on "Stamper Cinema":
June 30, 2022
Chapter 78: It's Getting Hot...
With summer leaving the horizon and finally arriving at town, the weather has a tendency to be warmer than it was once used to be. With warmer weather, for people for whom warm weather is a true nuisance, comes a litany of questions and feelings. From harmless and fun like what cold drinks is one to make, to anxiety-inducing questions on Climate Change and Global Warming, and their scope.
June 24, 2022
Chapter 77: Sometimes You Need to Get Mad
The feeling of anger is one that has a lot of controversy surrounding it, which makes it harder for one to express it as usual as other feelings. Though, the converse of expression of anger is the accumulation of it; and that might lead to unhealthy behaviors. So, for balance and for the good of one's health, sometimes anger is the emotion one needs to express.
June 16, 2022
Chapter 76: Catching Up
When one is away from a regular conversation for an not insignificant amount of time, there are issues and points of interest that remain undisclosed. When one returns to that regular conversation, those points are in need of a revision. It's time when one returns once more, for the sixth time, to catch up on what has happened. Check out my appearance on "Broken Bulbs": Check out my appearance on "The Geekoning Podcast": Editing Writing: Check out my appearance on "Editing Writing": Stamper Cinema: Special Chapter #4 - I Wonder What Kamiab Is Doing Tonight?: F.D Signifier: AK88 Studios:
June 10, 2022
Special Chapter #4: I Wonder What Kamiab Is Doing Tonight?
In this episode, I sit down to talk with a friend of mine situated in another country, Kamiab. We met each other in a group catering to Persian Whovians, and despite some incredibly immature interactions, remained friends and started to talk more and more. So we decided to discuss the current state of "Doctor Who" and "Star Trek", Kamiab's interactions and plans for the gaming industry, and some needlessly political takes on right wingers and left wingers. Check out Kamiab's article on "The Batman" for Movies, Games and Tech:
May 20, 2022
Chapter 75: Almost Like Being in Love
As the current season comes to an end, it brings with itself anticipation and resolution. As new journeys, exciting and breathtaking, take shape and ask for one to step in their way; it's hard to not want to look back and look at the desolate wasteland behind. But, sometimes one can go on not looking back or looking too far, when that one feels happy and content. When it almost feels like being in love.
April 29, 2022
Chapter 74: I'm a Geeky Boy, in a Geeky World
The world today seems absolutely maddening, and for the most part is it dangerously depressing. With a history of injustice and ineptitude and the overbearing weight of an uncertain future crushing one's hopes and dreams, every human being needs moments of solace and recharging. For some it takes the form of medication, for some it takes the form of physical activity, and for some it's expressing love and admiration for a particular universe. Check out my appearance on "Yorick Radio Productions": All Ages of Geek: My Letterboxd account:
April 21, 2022
Chapter 73: Puttin' on the Ritz
To maintain a presence online is a task that can bring burnout and doubt more often than one is ready to handle. There are many recipes for supposed success in the ever-connected world of today; but sometimes one is stuck between those recipes and what they are meaning. What does it mean to chase that success, if one is sacrificing their work? TGTBTI - Jafar Khan Az Farang Bargashte: Thought Slime:
April 15, 2022
Chapter 72: Contradictory Thoughts
There are times that one goes into a trance of revising one's thoughts and realizes a peculiar phenomena: One can believe in two contradiction as one and holds them as equal truths. Whether meritless or meritorious, the contradictory thoughts manage to disable some part of one's brain function; maybe as a defense mechanism or as a last tool of gathering control. Because We're Not the Same: Ali Khamseh YouTube Channel:
April 07, 2022
Chapter 71: A Bit Closed Off
Revelations and re-evaluations can come from everywhere and in any situation. Sometimes one's friend tells an innocent remark that will bring out a truly disturbing thought, and sometimes one does things without realizing them until they are pointed out to them. One of these revelations may be that despite having a long relationship with people, one can still remain a bit closed off.
March 31, 2022
Chapter 70: The 15th Century
Different parts of the world function on different calendars, and one such calendar remains to be the Persian one. With the year 1401 reaching the mortal coil, a new century has dawned: the 15th century. The new century, which marks the beginning of so much more and the contemplation on what has came and went before.  Bill Making Stuff:
March 24, 2022
Chapter 69: Nice
Sometimes the needs of a joke outweighs the need of clarity. When a joke stares at one right in the eye, no matter how derivate or how repeated, its call needs to be answered. Even if that joke is as tired and overused as a number that every child from the age of 10 will snicker at, sometimes one gets to the episode with the number "69" on it, and has to just audible sigh: "Nice". Yorick Radio Productions:
March 18, 2022
Chapter 68: One Insecure S.O.B.
Insecurity is one ailment that resembles the mythical Hydra. For each head one cuts off, two more sprung out more resilient than before and more bloodthirsty than ever. The Hydra feeds on negativity and increases it tenfold. So when one's life is riddled with insecurity it grows harder and harder to escape its ever present claws. When one is down, the shadows of insecurity run high. Bonus content - If you want to watch the original recording of the episode that I mention at the beginning, you can go to this link:
March 10, 2022
Chapter 67: What a Wonderful World to Have a Quarter-Life Crisis in
When a year passes in one's life, the prospect of reaching the end line becomes clearer. Though a birthday is a joyous occasion of celebrating the life that wasn't blown out for a full year, it is also a stark reminder that what remains is getting more scarce. So when a birthday is passed, it might have good consequences to lounge back and reflect on how one's life has been spent. TGTBTI - Sir Gawain and the Green Knight:
March 03, 2022
Chapter 66: All the Little Things
Content Warning: During the last third of this episode, I experience a live anxiety attack. It's nothing serious but if that makes you uncomfortable, proceed with caution. There are a lot of things, little and insignificant, that can add up to the amount best exemplified in a mythical mountain such as doom. When that tends to happen, it's easy for a week to pass by like nothing of significance was done but yet there happens to be an everlasting feeling of frustration and aggression. But as much as one tries to stay away, some things are inevitable.
February 24, 2022
Chapter 65: Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
The strict British nanny once told the world that the word "Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious" is used when one doesn't know what to speak of, and sometimes that is what happens to one. When a week is filled with apathy and a sense of uselessness, and there are a myriad of issues overwhelming every hour of every day; sometimes the best thing one can do is to say "Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious".
February 17, 2022
Chapter 64: A S---ty Writer, a S---ty YouTuber, & an Absolute Idiot When It Comes to Discussing Art
To end a relationship can be an arduous task, filled with an unhealthy amount of emotions pouring in from all sides. But sometimes that outpour of emotion can lead to words that not only hurt, they scar. When words that were given in confidence are used to humiliate and attack; the result may not just be termination of a relationship, it may be termination of a friendship.
February 11, 2022
Chapter 63: Uni
Education is a historically fundamental part of youth and early adulthood. You are enrolled in a school to learn the basics, and you enroll in a university to continue those basics. Ideally, this historically fundamental part is a mixture of hard work and enjoyment for following a passion or a desire; but as time and time shows the world is far from ideal. Check out my appearance on "Story-Power": Check out my appearance on "Politically Entertaining with Evolving Randomness (PEER) by Elias":
February 03, 2022
Chapter 62: 2022, Part II
A new year approaches and with it comes the gratuitous task of looking back to what has conspired through the past year. What plans and what promises were kept and what was lost in the march of time; and what came without no plans and what is hoping to come still. A new year approaches and with it comes the plans, the retrospectives and the resolutions. Check out my appearance on "Politically Entertaining with Evolving Randomness (PEER) by Elias": Wait, I've Seen it Before: I, Crafter:
January 27, 2022
Chapter 61: 2022, Part I
A new year approaches and with it comes the gratuitous task of looking back to what has conspired through the past year. What plans and what promises were kept and what was lost in the march of time; and what came without no plans and what is hoping to come still. A new year approaches and with it comes the plans, the retrospectives and the resolutions. Politically Entertaining with Evolving Randomness (PEER) by Elias: AK88 Studios: Special Chapter #3 - They Call the Wind Siavash: YASP! YouTube Channel:
January 21, 2022
Special Chapter #3: They Call the Wind Siavash
In this episode, I sit down (in person!) and talk with a friend who I've known since 2018, Siavash. We met each other through friends and acquaintances in our Art University, and hit it off with an obsession with certain movies and certain YouTube personalities. So we decide to discuss those YouTube personalities, an array of different movies, the end of 2021 and how the year was, and Siavash's battle with something that is usually reserved for people of older age. Check out Siavash's Instagram: AK88 Studios:
December 31, 2021
Chapter 60: For Once, Looking Forward
When one's life goes through cycles of depression and mediocrity, it might be often hard to ponder what is coming and anticipate that with glee and joy. But life is nothing if not unpredictable. Sometimes, out of seemingly no plausible place, there will be an occasion where one will look forward to what is coming on. For once in a long time, one will look forward to the passage of time. Wait, I've Seen It Before!: YASP!: AK88 Studios: Email me at:
December 10, 2021
Chapter 59: Western August in November
In a desire to dedicate a significant amount of time to one's favorite genre in filmmaking, it's good to orchestrate ways of integrating that genre into one's life for a full month. That may come as catching up on one's watch list, or organizing watch parties, or creating a self-inflicted challenge. This is the third option, this is "Western August in November". Download the PDF here: Wait. I've Seen It Before!: YASR! - A Tribute to Stephen Sondheim: Email me at:
December 03, 2021
Chapter 58: Duality of a Human Nature
The residual emotional turmoil of a situation piled on top of another one can result in apathy and misery, and it very well can cripple any working mind. So it might be fair for one's brain to try and look at some surface level desires and short term happiness goals to try and soothe the ache. To ignore the bad is foolish, to ignore the good is destructive. Check out my appearance on "Broken Bulbs": TGTBTI - Sweeney Todd:
November 25, 2021
Chapter 57: Waiting for the Miracle
Emotions are sometimes hard to keep under control. As life spins more out of control and insecurities and fears start to show their ugly heads, one's emotions start to wreak havoc on one's life. When these emotions get too rowdy, it seems like one's life is in dire need of a miracle, even one that would look like a disaster at first. TGTBTI - Sweeney Todd:
November 19, 2021
Chapter 56: The Real Possibility of Returning to the World that Was
The world has changed no doubt, and there are many cries of a return to the world before the changes. As humanity slowly tries to return to that world, whether smartly or out of impatience, there's a sense of anxiety. When the world has been a locked down experience for a couple of years, is it odd to feel a bit of unease to leave that state fairly soon?
November 12, 2021
Chapter 55: The Dream Project
Sometimes, when the air is quiet and the desire is satiated; one can look up and dream on. One can dream of flying in the air, one can dream of living happily ever after, or one can dream of what they would do given the opportunity to do anything in the field they love. Sometimes, when the air is quiet and the desire is satiated, one can dream of that one project they'd give anything to create. Born in Quarantine - Man of La Mancha:
November 04, 2021
Chapter 54: Living in a State of Perpetual Fear
What will happen when one lives under the eyes of a repressive feeling that will crush many joys and desires at once through intimidation and years of subjugation? The results are never pretty, and often times maybe living in this state will create a monster of sorts. A giant behemoth of anxiety and frightfulness, sitting atop one's chest, looking down in one's eyes. Send me an audio message from Anchor:
October 28, 2021
Chapter 53: Overwhelmtion
With the world moving at such a pace that no one man can get a hold of it, there's sometime a faint feeling in the air as one looks around and sees all that is done and all that is need to be done. That faint feeling can be quite devastating if left unchecked, and if checked it can bring a sense of shame to one. But why is that? Why does one feels shame when comes to grasp with overwhelmtion? Check out my appearance on "Fancy a Blether?": Check out my appearance on "The Basement Binge": The Extreme Podcast: The Basement Binge: Story-Power:
October 21, 2021
Chapter 52: In Search of the Need to Feel Bad
When one's accustomed to the feeling of despair, or resentment, or the simple broad concept of "unwell"; sometimes to feel good is somewhat of an unnerving experience. When life seems to be working well, and when everything is in order, sometimes one's brain tries hard to find irregularities (or in their absence, conjure them up out of nothing) just to bring that shine down and make everything the usual murky color. Well, not this time! TGTBTI - Omerta City of Gangsters: Email:
October 15, 2021
Chapter 51: Trekkie Code
As one walks through life, one gathers interests and some of those are in the world of fandoms. But when one enters the fandom, the desire to share that fandom and that universe with the world is intensified, and if one's lucky, they will influence other beings of indulging in those fandoms. Such is the tale of a little known fandom who don themselves "Trekkies", and one's friend who gave his word a chance. Check out my appearance on "The Goblin's Corner": Fancy a Blether:
October 08, 2021
Chapter 50: Master of Non-Communicative Skills
One's formative years of childhood is utilized to develop skills and puts them to use for the rest of one's life, but sometimes there are hiccups in that development. When one is alone for most of one's formative years, some skills develop faster and some don't develop at all, and as many things in life, unbalance can have rather uneasy consequences as the years pass by.
October 01, 2021
Chapter 49: The Official Stamp of Talentlessness
The feeling of being judged based on a merit that is not anything other than a desire to recognize and cheat the game, should not be a contributing factor for mental unease; but even if the authority is rejected, the feeling of getting an official statement that your work lacks any value is not a pleasant feeling either. It's not a good day for one to have to endure the possibility that he might be known officially, as a hack. Nobbel87 YouTube Channel:
September 23, 2021
Chapter 48: Hope
When one falls into the same holes over and over again, is it the definition of stupidity? Or a bit of hope? What is hope, if not a way for one's brain to look at all that is wrong and all that is broken and say with a whisper: "this time it'll be different". Hope can be such an aphrodisiac for life, but also a good reminder of all that isn't right.
September 17, 2021
Chapter 47: F--ked Beyond Emotion
There are passages of time in anyone's life, where they lay there unmotivated and waiting. The world around them is going swimmingly, in a brisk pace and with not upheaval; but something does not feel right. There's anticipation, there's a sense of wrongness, above all, there's no emotions left. That's when one's emotions are so tired that they leave the body as a whole, that's when one is f--ked beyond emotions.
September 09, 2021
Chapter 46: Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood
It's the return, and the hopeful constant continuation of one's quest to keep talking against all odds and purposes. The glorious comeback, and the hope that there must be better days ahead, and the realization that the past days were fruitful as well. Maybe in conversing about these topics, misunderstanding is apt; but one can only implore the lord that they will not be misunderstood. Special Chapter #2 - The Name on Everybody's Lips Is Gonna be Parsa: TGTBTI - American Gods: The Goblin's Corner:
September 02, 2021
Special Chapter #2: The Name on Everybody's Lips Is Gonna be Parsa
In this episode, I sit down to talk with an old friend that I have known for six years at this point, starting from our university years, Parsa. We met each other on the hallowed halls of our Art University, and our bond has grown more recently with our shared love of certain movies and ideas. So we discuss therapy, life under covid, Parsa's headline-breaking news and Mark Manson's "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck".  Check out Parsa's Podcast, it's in Persian:  Check out my appearance on "Myth & Magic" podcast:  Check out my appearance on "The Greatest Movies of All Time" podcast:  Check out AK88 Studios Youtube Channel Update:
August 13, 2021
Chapter 45: On the Back of Promises
With every end, there's a possibility for a promise; the promise to return, or not to. With every going, there's the possibility for a promise; the promise to come back one day, or not to. When a journey comes to a stop, it leaves one with an array of promises, some spoken and some unspoken; for as long as life goes on, there's a promise of some kind. My Instagram:
July 22, 2021
Chapter 44: One Year Anniversary
To live for one year is an achievement in and of itself, and humanity celebrates it by a birthday, or an anniversary for one's birth; since to be alive for a full year is hard enough. So, this marks the one year anniversary of one's quest to speak to anyone and everyone being alive; and it went through much highs and lows, but stands here in front of an audience, one year older.
July 16, 2021
Chapter 43: MMORPG Tycoon 2
Of various ways to tell a story, sometimes none is as effective as the medium of videogames. They swallow one through their mazes of emotion of storytelling, and give the experience unmatched by most other forms of art. Now, what if one could be the creator of this experience? What if there was a meta-experience that allowed one to create their own videogame, using a videogame?
July 08, 2021
Chapter 42: Persistence
The act of seeing the hardship, providing poor results, and even embarrassing oneself on more than one occasion and then living to see yet another day and another attempt, is a virtue worth praising but a virtue that most times needs a smidgen of remembrance. It's easy to forget one's uphill journey into something greater, and it's easy to forget what it entailed when looking back at it through sheer transparent memory; so one needs to look back every once in a while and feel that journey and what it lead up to. Crackpot Theories: AK88 Studios:
July 02, 2021
Chapter 41: The Obligatory Persian Chapter
To be bilingual, is a blessing and a curse; especially when you approach the bilingual ability without a balance. As one language gets stronger, if you forget to exercise the other, it becomes weaker and weaker. But that's the upside of having a mother's tongue, no matter how weak it gets it's forever embedded into one's brain. And sometimes, one needs to speak in their birth language, just out of obligation, or out of promise. My Wax Museum:
June 24, 2021
Chapter 40: Betterment
There's an undying quest, happening in an unrelenting cycle in the mind of every member of the human race. It's a quest that gives the illusion of going forward. It's the quest that satiates the little voice in the back of one's head. It's the quest with the most vague journey and the most outrageously vague reward, but it's one that all go through. The destination? Some undisclosed goal called betterment.
June 17, 2021
Chapter 39: Ghosts of the Past
What is the purpose of a ghost? It's to frighten or to delight? One might express that the purpose of a ghost is purely in the eye of the beholder. They can be beautiful transparent memories wrapped in a fabric of their own making, or they can be a reminder of death itself wearing tattered remainders of some poor soul's clothing. All that they are, they are a specter, and one can't always foresee them when they appear out of thin air. Broken Bulbs: X Soldering Iron:
June 11, 2021
Chapter 38: Grapefruit
The tart, tangy and sometimes sour taste of a citrus, something that can be categorized as simply an "acquired" taste; but also can be a good way to separate one's life into manageable time chunks, not unlike pieces of a grapefruit. Whether juiced, cubed, carbonated or peeled, a grapefruit is something more than just a natural hybrid, it's a symbol. It's a way to look back at memories, it's yet another segue into jumpstarting that nostalgia, whether that is healthy or not.
June 03, 2021
Chapter 37: I am the Very Model of a Modern Major General
In a world filled with jacks of all trades, and masters of none; what if one is not even proficient enough to be called a jack of all trades, let alone master of none? The anxiety, the unforgivable nature of the world, and a sad and ugly truth of a lack of any marketable skill can bring about the old moniker of the great modern major general, who knew anything except what he was required to know. A comical bit, that much like other comical bits, can become harrowing when experienced outside the realm of comedy.
May 27, 2021
Chapter 36: A Creature of Habit
Our habits have power over us, to some extent they are how we go on living and create who and what we are. But they are also harmful, if they fall into the comfort zone; whether that habit is something as severe as addiction or something as light as binging. Habits need re-evaluation every once in a while, and what can one do when one is faced with the question of "Why am I doing this?" and finds the answer to remain habits?
May 21, 2021
Chapter 35: Great Unexpectations
For some, partaking in a journey without a set course of action might seem like an adventure, and for some the exact scenario might be considered a horrifying nightmare; but what happens when the set course takes an unexpected turn, either towards a shortcut to something beautiful or a cliff with no warning signs? The question of what does the unexpected brings, is one that can throw any sane human used to working with a set plan into some form of self-assessment, and maybe even showcase something clearer than what they perceived themselves to be.
May 14, 2021
Chapter 34: Laziness
How does one justify or diagnose laziness? If laziness is an ailment, it needs symptoms. But symptoms for laziness are shockingly similar to other ailments. It could be depression, or lack of material, or simply a bad mood. But what if all of them, were just reasoning of a brain trying to justify a bad trait; trying hard to justify "laziness"?
May 07, 2021
Chapter 33: Almost...
When one looks back at one's own life, probably the most gruesome thing one can encounter is that horrifying whisper of "almost...". Looking through one's academic endeavors, one's career and many a project, the word one least expects to notice is "almost...". So why is that word, is the only thing one can look back at and say with certainty, that it has always been there? You can now email me at:
April 29, 2021
Chapter 32: A New Perspective on M.B.
Memories of someone who one considers important to their journey through the highs and lows of life, can sometimes be looked at through rosy-tinted glasses or through a haze of emotions that once fooled one into feeling a connection. But what if that is not the truth or at least it's only part of it? That is why there's need to sometimes look at those memories and look at those human beings with a new outlook, with a new perspective.
April 23, 2021
Chapter 31: Obsession
The voice you heard, once upon a time, is back yet again and this time with a tale of woe. To a mind that is trying hard to express itself, obsession is an unwelcome but always present companion. To express means to relief one's brain of burden; and to keep quiet means building more and more structures out of a subject that might not require that much thought. To obsess, oh, what a miserable existence.
April 16, 2021
Special Chapter #1: Amir Reza the Glamour Cat
This episode has me sitting and talking with one of my closest friends, Amir Reza. We met a while ago online, and even though our physical interactions have been very limited, he is one of the people who knows about me and my life the most. So we talk about video games, our shared fear of death, Amir Reza's cat and our lives as perpetually single bachelors with anxiety issues. P.S. this was our first attempt at using Anchor and I wasn't aware that app is also sending signals so the audio quality is not the best. There's a lot of voices that are heard twice, and even though it's noticeable, I don't know any way of fixing it. So, lesson learnt, and we will change our approach the next time we do this. Check out YASP! (Yet Another Shitty Podcast!):
April 09, 2021
Chapter 30: A New Beginning
When a journey ends, is it truly the end? Or is it just the beginning of a journey to a new destination? Life is an unpredictable monster, and new sensations bring new obsessions. One can easily stay within their confines, or one can begin something anew. Maybe a new hobby? Maybe a new gift? Maybe a new way of life? One can only know, when one tries.
March 05, 2021
Chapter 29: A Video Game Idea
When one is enthralled by an experience, it is not uncommon to want and recreate that in another form; maybe even as experiences for others. Thus begins the imagination of something grand, brought upon by the virtue of "Sid Meier's Pirates", and taking form into an idea for a series of unlikely mechanics and underdeveloped ideas.
February 26, 2021
Chapter 28: Weakness
How can one define strength? The amount of context and the amount of different sources of pressure on a brain at any given moment is so vast that to define strength seems impossible; and yet the human brain tries to define it at any given moment. Is one truly weak? Or is it the accumulation of many moments of weakness in succession? Is one truly strong? Or is luck playing a bigger part than it confesses?
February 19, 2021
Chapter 27: Imposter
The human brain works in mysterious ways. It requires accolades and praise to feel that rush of good emotions; but at the same time when it gets them it falls back on many insecurities to achieve one goal. That goal being proving that the one the brain controls is an imposter. When world seems out of order, when one tries and nothing is gained; one has to ask the odd question: is there some validity to the calls of imposter? With a special guest, Kiarash.
February 12, 2021
Chapter 26: Hobbies
Idle hands are the devil's workshop, so to keep them busy it's better to work on one's own workshop. The act of finding, enjoying and doing a hobby, is one of the most enjoyable pastimes that humanity has created for itself. It gives a weary mind who might lack creative force something to focus on, and it gives way to creating something beautiful and majestic, if not completely personal.
February 05, 2021
Chapter 25: OCD + GAD
Disorders. Disruptions of normalcy, or merely manifestations of genetic memory? Whatever the reason, whatever the cause, whatever the root, disorders are a part of the life for many a human. Everyone have their own brand of disorders that do their job to destroy their routine, to some extend even make life obsolete. This is a tale of two disorders, and one man's brain.
January 29, 2021
Chapter 24: The Man Who Sold the World
Music, in its core, is a subject of passion. The music that one listens to can define their view on the world, the rhythm of their life and the magnitude of their failures. So with something so close to passion, it's inevitable that the question of "taste" is more than prominent. The music taste takes so many forms, and brings on so many judgments; it makes groups, and makes isolation.
January 22, 2021
Chapter 23: Loneliness
Loneliness is a condition too familiar to many a modern person. To be alone, almost seen falsely as a virtue, is a curse that riddled the life of many greats and many smalls, and the effects of which can break a soul or leave a scar so deep that healing seems unbearable in and of itself. Loneliness is the curse, that bewilders and beguiles; and brings that outspoken question: Why?
January 15, 2021
Chapter 22: The Settlers - Rise of an Empire
The world is full of broken promises, from one to another, from one to a group, and even from one to themselves. So when one comes back to a world that they left behind so many time just to enjoy one of the last remnants of a genre slowly dying out, fulfilling a promise is merely that chocolate syrup on top of a pretty good sundae. The syrup that would be missed, if it wasn't there.
January 08, 2021
Chapter 21: 2021
When a new year approaches, it's finally time for one to look back at all that happened and to plan for all that is yet to happen. Maybe the blind optimism, or maybe the conditioning of looking at something somewhat new is the reason, but the association of all the misery with a particular number on a calendar is a tradition; one that a broken mind can look forward to with some degree of excitement.
January 01, 2021
Chapter 20: Sleep Deprivation
Sleep is more than just a great equalizer for the brain to gather all incoherent thoughts into a line and create coherence; sleep is also the guardian of the gate to the unwanted and unnerved thoughts that are safeguarded during the day. So when sleep is weak, it gives way to all kinds of craziness being free. The results? Something incoherent for sure, but also may contain that old nuggets of looking into someone's brain all curtains risen. 
December 25, 2020
Chapter 19: An Actor Prepares
Acting is often one of those most discussed topics of a movie production. With many different schools of thought in how it should be presented or appreciated, it's no wonder that for many people acting is something so inherently interesting. But what does acting mean to someone who is not one? What is that passionate profession for someone without passion? How does one prepare, if one isn't an "actor"? 
December 18, 2020
Chapter 18: Politics
The stench of a politician, the gagging sensation of witnessing a lobbyist, and the disgust of reviewing politics. No matter how much one despises those foul feelings, politics remains there; always glaring like a hungry beast. So in some instances, there needs to be a confrontation. One last punch, before leaving the beast and keep running.
December 11, 2020
Chapter 17: Musical March in November
Musicals are such a grand form of art. They mix the joy of music and song, with the storytelling fit for a king, and they reach that harmony of creating something out of this world. Imagine, if you will, the grandeur of Musicals through a whole month; the joy, the rhythm, the stories, simply said, the musicality. What's not for anyone to enjoy? Download the PDF here: Download the Music Album here:
December 04, 2020
Chapter 16: Dave Allen at Large
After some time apart, the voice you heard once is back again; and it's here to adhere to a promise long into making. A comedy show from half a century ago, revisited through modern eyes. Will it find a new home in the annals of comical genius? Or will it be yet another relic of the past that carry the rather unfortunate stench of its era? Will the laughter outpace the date? All and more will come back for yet another chapter in the quest to talk.
November 27, 2020
Chapter 15: Season Finale
For every beginning, there is an interlude. For every sequence, there is a transition. For every note, there is silence. Here is that interlude, that transition and that silence. The final step, and yet the very first one. The end of an era, but with the promises of a new one. Goodbye, and hope to see you all soon for the start of a new beginning, for the first frame of a new sequence, and the first noise of a new note. The Youtube Channel:
October 16, 2020
Chapter 14: The Baker and the Doctor
From two corners of a vast country, from two different cultures, two different races, two different dialects, two men were born and two men had families. In Isfahan, an illiterate baker working day and night in the vicinity of literal fires to bake sweet treats for people of all ages who relied on him for their daily bread; and in Tabriz, a highly skilled doctor who resolved people's daily ailment and brought them back to full health. These two men, were patriarchs of two families; and from those two families came a boy and a girl and the result of that union was the man whose voice you hear.
October 09, 2020
Chapter 13: Relocation Depression
As a creature of habit, to move from a situation to another can be startling; or maybe even worse, it can be a burden on a broken psyche. To experience that sadness seems like a logical step in dealing with mortality; but the result, whether logical or illogical, can remain a thorn in one's side and bring one to their knees, wishing for an ear or an eye to witness them. To remain alone in the midst of depression, is a curse; for which there seems to be no cure.
October 02, 2020
Chapter 12: Language
The tool that is used more often than any other, and has the ability to shape one's thought and one's feelings through its use and misuse. A truly powerful invention of the mankind, designed to control and to liberate. From "Look Onto My Work, Ye Mighty" to "Quoth the Raven: Nevermore", language has been there for the human since birth through death. But what if one lives in an unharmonious paradox with it? What if one is restricted through this tool, by the nature of his birthplace?
September 25, 2020
Chapter 11: An Ode to Bureaucracy
The weight of standing on your feet all day, clutching a bunch of crumbled papers they so meticulously numbered from "AD-270" to "ZX-740"; and your information written on them time after time, only to be told that what you prepared is insufficient and you need to go through the pain all over again. That is the essence of paperwork, that is the true core of bureaucracy. It's an enemy to comfort, and an ally to muscular spasms. It lives, so it can organize; and it lives, so it can feed on the will to live.
September 18, 2020
Chapter 10: Cradle Will Rock
Bob Dylan once said "We Live In a Political World", and as much as one tend to stray off the cesspool of political discussions, it seems like there's no way to avoid it fully. One of the avenues where politics show its ugly head, is in relation with art. What is art's place in politics? Or what is politic's place in arts? Is art nothing more than a political agenda for the artist? Or is art in and of itself anti-politics?
September 11, 2020
Chapter 9: Friendship
They say it is the fate of each and every member of the human race to remain alone; that loneliness is hereditary and there's no escape from it. Though they fail to mention that even with the possibility of a kernel of truth within those words, humanity does not need to go through his loneliness without accompaniment from those who one calls "friends". Friends are there to share the journey, and friends are there to help each other; and through that maybe, and just maybe, humankind is not always alone.
September 04, 2020
Chapter 8: Anger
Rage has a key to open up those far recesses in one's brain; designed to keep the most private of thoughts away. With anger, words are spoken that come through without any filter, good or bad. With anger, one might feel relieved of carrying a burden that weighed heavily on one's shoulder; but what to do when the anger dissipates? How to live with the aftermath of anger, as if nothing has happened? How much it will break an already broken psyche? Check out my friend over at
August 28, 2020
Chapter 7: Beyond the Sea
The shallowness of admitting that you need to be loved, plagues the brain of many writers and those who want to consider themselves enlightened. "Humankind is born to be alone, and thus it shall remain alone" is a mantra that for many is the basis of their judgement of their wants. But as shallow as it may appear, the desire to be loved and to be wanted is not unheard of. Some do want that someone beyond the sea to look for them.
August 21, 2020
Chapter 6: That Night the World Ended
To write is to create, and what is creation if not seen through the eye of some beholder? To have an audience, to have someone who will look upon the words you put upon a blank page and to have someone to appreciate them is a true gift. A gift that can bring a smile to the lips of an artist, no matter the creed or the era or the age. You can be someone who has put pen to paper for the first time, or the most experienced of writers; when you hear those elusive praises, it will perch your lips into an unwanted grin.
August 14, 2020
Chapter 5: The Lion King
Any human of any age needs to come face to face with the horrifying truth that the art they love is not their own. They need to see as the owner of that piece of art destroy it, or celebrate it. To see it being torn shred by shred, in front of the masses that cheer the executioner and congratulate him on a job well done can bring anyone to the verge of tears. Such is the tale of a little animated movie by the name of "The Lion King", and the merciless butchering of everything grand about it by the hands that unfortunately owned it. 
August 07, 2020
Chapter 4: Sand
"Look onto my work, ye mighty, and despair!" is not just a cry for destruction. It's a will and a want. It's when a human being works hard to leave anything behind. A piece of literature, a drawing, a poem, a musical composition, or even a short movie. Sand is the title for a project that is barely alive as of yet, and may as well change its name before it becomes a fully fledged baby. Sand is here, it's a fetus. Will it grow? or will it be aborted? It all falls on the shoulders of the man who conceived it, and that man is terrified.
July 31, 2020
Chapter 3: Popularity
To be popular, to be wanted; is it truly a shallow construct of the fragile human mind? Always looking for validation, always looking for someone to need them, what does it mean to be popular? Or how can one be popular? It's time to let go of the lies, and the outward appearance of not caring for words of praise from others. What does it mean to truly be unpopular, lonely, and always discarded yet never wanted?
July 24, 2020
Chapter 2: The Parenting Simulator
The urge to have an offspring, to bring someone in the world who you can truly love unconditionally and maybe have someone to love you for who you are. All pretty dreams, but is there something underneath it? Those are the questions that rise when one is faced to a text-based game called "The Parenting Simulator", and has to revisit their idea of parenting; both the pleasant sides and unpleasant sides of it.
July 17, 2020
Chapter 1: The Beginning
Every story, regardless of good or bad, needs a beginning. There needs to be a point where everything starts, and there needs to be a point where you can look back on. Though this is not going to be the best of stories, it still needs a beginning.
July 11, 2020