Finding Myself Through Obesity

Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Update on what I’m up to lately. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

Today’s episode i talk about how we have moved out of our house and into a trailer on our property. We are starting our journey to building a new life for our family. We are leaving the busy city to have more time for connecting with ourselves and the people we love. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Today’s episode we are talking about moving out of my parents house and breaking financial ties to them so i can improve my relationship with my husband. I am having to face the fear of their disappointment in me when I’ve always wanted to make them proud of me. But I’m learning that i need to stop pretending to get acceptance and work on accepting myself. ——————————————————Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Today’s episode we are talking about Michael Singer‘s book the Untethered soul. We are discussing part two which includes chapters 5 through 7. Reading books and learning from other mentors are a good way for us to continue to heal and learn and be the best versions of ourselves. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

I feel like I’ve been really stuck the last little while. Today I’m talking about what I plan to do to keep moving forward. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Going back to the beginning and be aware of what I’m missing in my life right now. Breathe, meditate, be kind to me. So many different things to be aware of now. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a healing health journey but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

Today we are continuing to talk about my fear about money and learning about abundance. I had some cool things happen this week to break through some of those layers. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a journey to losing 150 pounds but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Today we are talking about how we can tune into the frequency of abundance by creating more High frequency emotions. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a journey to losing 150 pounds but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

Today we are talking about the process of finding out who we truly are. Who is the truest version of ourselves? How do we find her? I am still working on learning this. This is my journey of me documenting my process of healing my emotional weight. Here is the Sarah Blondin meditation link: https://insig.ht/u8nDYWBRAmb. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a journey to losing 150 pounds but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1

Today we are talking about distraction. Specifically this week I’m becoming aware of how I am distracting myself. What am I not wanting to look at? I’m still stuck in feeling negative thoughts and feelings. So I am filling my days up with a ton of distraction. Today I’m talking about that distraction and possibly some things that I could do to help me be more present. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a journey to losing 150 pounds but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Podcast link: https://anchor.fm/aleisha-black Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.

I’ve been feeling a lot of the same feelings I was last week. Disconnected, Emotional, scared. So I took some time to think about what I am doing differently this past couple of weeks to create all of this negative emotion. Welcome to my podcast! I am on a journey to losing 150 pounds but I don't want to just diet and gain it all back again.  I want to really figure out why I am eating.  What am I lacking in my life?  What is food doing for me?  What is food covering up and protecting me from?  I want to discover what I am currently believing?  Where did I learn that belief? What do I want to believe and share the journey of how I am going to change my thinking around those issues so that I can start having a healthier relationship with myself.  In turn it may naturally help me develop a healthier relationship with food. You can find my blog below where each episode is in text form. My blog: www.findingmyselfthroughobesity.com Find me on My socials! Aleisha Black https://www.instagram.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Fb page: Finding Myself Through Obesity https://www.facebook.com/findingmyselfthroughobesity/ Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aleishablack Pinterest: https://pin.it/1dClmUP Apple podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/finding-myself-through-obesity/id1584763817 Spotify- https://open.spotify.com/show/4GVenYQk47F77Sp3pwbNy7?si=97jUywvLSw-bbbuMXmkHyw&dl_branch=1 More About me: My name is Aleisha Black. I was born and raised in St George Utah. I’m 43. Mom of 4. Wife for 25 years to my high school sweetheart. I’m a singer and performer. I’ve struggled with my weight since I’ve been married. So a big part of my story and learning was through my experience of losing 85 pounds that I documented on YouTube in 2018. Then I gained it all back after having some emotional trials come up for me and my family. I was filled with shame and depression especially where I lost weight so publicly. I was constantly wishing that I would figure out how I could get myself back onto a Weightloss plan. But I couldn’t get myself to do it. I couldn’t even eat good for more than two days. I was scared to lose weight just to gain it back again. So I decided to start a podcast documenting my journey of losing weight a new way. By using breath work, meditation, mindfulness, digging deeper into the beliefs that I have been holding me back. I’m focusing on healing inside so that I can release the weight. I always say that fat people know how to lose weight. They know how to restrict their diets. They know how to lower their carbs. What we haven’t been taught how to do….. is how to love ourselves and listen to ourselves …. Especially through moments of uncomfort. Learning how to show up for life and not be afraid to fail. Learning how to embrace our imperfections. How do we celebrate ourselves? How do we learn how to value who we are without others validating us? I am hoping that once I heal the emotional weight I’ve been holding on to…. that my outer appearance will mirror and heal too. I am documenting the process on my podcast and I am so excited to see what I learn about myself and also how I could possibly help others who are in the situation that I’m in which is being obese, but wishing they weren’t. Wanting to be healthy but not knowing how to stop eating.