I Wasn't Loud Enough The First Time Podcast

Part 2 of the conversation with my homie Kmatt (@heyitskmatt) and I.   We bring you this, the not-so-original but very impactful notion of “Saving a little for yourself.” Hit us on our socials & let us know what you think!

March 6, 2023

My homie KMatt (@heyitskmatt) and I FINALLY let y’all in! We have insightful conversations often, and I thought it was time to share. On this episode, we’re going there…. like…heavily against the grain. We’ve asked ourselves, at what cost do you sell away privacy, access, and honestly, sanity to socials and IRL!? Especially as communications/social media pros. We bring you the not-so-original but very impactful notion of “Saving a little for yourself.” Hit us on our socials & let us know what you think!

March 6, 2023

We made it to episode 50! If you’ve been listening for a while, you know how pressed I’ve been to make it to 50 episodes. It took three years to get here, and I’m so excited! when talking about post p clarity, please know that the P stands for p**d***c ! (i’m being somewhat sensitive because I know we’re over talking about it🙃) but this episode isn’t about the P, it’s about what happens after the P and how much we have to look forward to now that P is behind us. Enjoy!

February 15, 2023

After almost a year off, I’m back with more episodes of IWLEFT! 🥹🥳 Make sure you’re following me on IG to stay updated when new episodes drop! @anire_theeglobalcreative

February 4, 2023

Unstoppable Stacie is just that! From her journey of infertility, adoption, chronic illness, and more; Which isn't even the half. Life threw Stacie all kinds of curves balls, but she just will not stop. Stacie goes within and leverages her spiritual gifts of intuition, dream premonitions, and her overall connection to spirit to reshape her reality. Please know that this isn't a conversation solely on trauma, we're talking about working through that shit!

April 20, 2022

Have you heard about the concept of 10,000 hours? Putting in this amount of time on talent or interest is said to make you an expert of your craft. I know many creatives like myself have new ideas, inclinations, and hobbies ALL THE TIME. Although I believe being a jack of all trades is fine, I know that many of us would love to have that ONE thing that we know like the back of our hand. Let's talk about what and how to put in those 10K hours!

April 5, 2022

Obviously, we love artists and creatives on this podcast. So guess what, HERE’S ANOTHER ONE! But don’t get confused, each special guest is a one-of-a-kind creator. Maya is no acceptation. As a self-taught artist and fellow Aries, she’s sure to stand out in any crowd. A native New Yorker with an educational background in Marketing & International business and film photography. She’s no stranger to fast-paced and ever-evolving places: That's the beauty of who she is. The limit does not exist for this visionary!

March 28, 2022

I just love when purpose goes deeper and wider than your initial goals! I'm realizing that this podcast is for creatives, artists, and dope ass people who need encouragement as they do things that no one has done before! This podcast is your reminder that you are NOT crazy, your ideas can and WILL work! Your time is NOW!

March 20, 2022

Stop waiting for a celebrity to led you! Wherever you see a need, you can fulfill that now, as you are with what you have.  Jaden Brianna is doing just that! She is a content creator, photographer, YouTube Influencer and student. Jaden uses the lessons of her background and experiences to inspire people to embrace their mental health journeys. Instead of waiting on a celebrity or influencer to inspire a change in mental health, Jaden realized she too had the power to change her mind and help others along their journey.

February 24, 2022

Learning that you don't need and really will NEVER have all the answers can SET YOU FREE! Walking your steps becomes the only path once you're in the season of not knowing. The beautiful thing is, you don't have to know and God will carry you anyway.  On this episode, our company is Tierra Smith. Tierra is a Freelance Journalist, Entrepreneur and Founder of Wins For Black Girls. Tierra uses her knowledge from her MMC from Louisiana State University and B.A. from Grambling State University to eloquently express herself and advocate for Black girls every single day on social media AND in real life! Wins For Black Girls has shown up to host Black Women Marketplace in Houston, TX; a space where #SHOPPINGBLACK and supporting Black Women is the prominent goal.

February 28, 2022

Everyone is always admiring that ONE person who is FREE. They freely express how they feel from the way they dress, speak and show up. But what people miss is that we can ALL be free, if we allow ourselves.  Our company, Victasia Parker is honestly a girl who can never be defined! She's a multifaceted individual as an artist, tarot reader, rapper, and an over all creative. Simply said, she's a soul who lives without limitations!

February 24, 2022

Self care is about more than bath bombs, glasses of merlot and mani pedis'! Clearing your mind, evaluating your mental health, and nourishing your soul are MAJOR parts of self care too! Everyones journey to connecting to themselves and adopting self care tools is also different. This episodes company, Senethia Johnson, is the creator of tst_fragrances. Beyond owning a raw, natural and organic beauty business specializing in handmade soaps, candles and more, Senethia's purpose is to encourage, inspire, and motivate women to be the best version of themselves through self care and self love.

February 22, 2022

Her viral hair wellness videos helped her gain over 1 MILLION followers on TikTok in less than a year!! Felicia B. Christian is a Reiki Master, Manifestation Expert, and Healer currently on the road to building a multi-million dollar brand. She is a Hair Growth Scalp Care & Wellness specialist and the CEO and founder of Mahaqni SL. Not only does she heal, she educates as a Non-surgical Hair Replacement Specialist with over 20+ years of experience. As a woman who’s suffered from Alopecia for years, she’s a huge advocate for a complete life of wellness and self acceptance: blooming from the power of manifestation! Socials:  IG @feliciab.christian @mahaqni_sl TIKTOK mahaqni_sl

January 19, 2022

Paris Ellis is an artist and humanitarian who has used her grit and creativity to build We Matter Period and ArtchiDesigns. As founder of We Matter Period, a service-based nonprofit dedicated to educating, empowering, advocating for equity & solving the lack of PERIOD resources. By supplying free PERIOD Care Products in schools, shelters & streets around the world: Paris has led the organization in receiving over 24,000 donations of products across the country & is continuously expanding. We Matter Period stands on the principle that “Menstruation is NOT a choice & everyone deserves to feel confident & loved!” Serving as a self taught artist, Paris created Artchi Designs after losing her grandfather, Archie in 2018. She felt compelled to honor his legacy and created the company name to emphasize ART  and CHI. Chi signifies the vital energy or force within yourself and DESIGNS that are larger than life. Through Artchi Designs, Paris channels the energy of “Making Everyday a Masterpiece.” IG: @parisellismade @​​we.matter.period Website: https://artchidesigns.com/

January 16, 2022

Not this being the LAST episode of 2021!!! Also, it's 12/21/2021 Thank you all so much for riding with me. In this episode, I encourage you to bring fulfillment to YOURSELF, harness your energy, and resolve the things that are holding you back. If you are reading this, I'm proud of you! You made it, you're built to win and thankfully, you create your own energy!

December 20, 2021

Everybody has to go!  Eventually, everyone's clock will run out. I don't mean this in a way to make you panic, but if it does, think about why you feel that way. What is it about us that makes us think we will continue to get day after day on this planet? Even worse, so many days are wasted because we lack the confidence, drive and desire to be bold or dare I say, LOUD ENOUGH THE FIRST TIME, to seize the day.  With all that we've accomplished, all that others have gone through just so we could LIVE, we must do just that! Live to the FULLEST! Right where we are with the money we have, the bodies we have, and the circumstances we have TODAY.

November 29, 2021

After a slighttt break, IWLEFT is back AGAIN and with a refreshed look and heightened vibes (who knew we could get higher, right?)  "I'm MY ancestors wildest dream??" is a fun series where myself and our company poke around at the idea of what our ancestors' wildest dreams really were and how we specifically, individually, may or may not be achieving them.  Dee Brady is a dope creative, fellow FAMU alum and risk-taker who provides interesting perspectives on the topic. Dee also has her own creative ventures as a podcast host with @Liquid_Era and is a certified, bonafide, visionary as a Brand Strategist and Partnerships Entrepreneur.  Make sure to follow her on IG: @_DeeBrady, and YT: Deebrady .  And if you knowww you need more structure and creative insights, book her for her services! #PayBlackWomenForTheirWorth

November 17, 2021

Back again with part 2! Before even pressing play, make sure you listen to part 1 on episode 32!  The question is still being posed with some added passion, a few curse words here and there (maybe a lot), but overall, a lot of intro/outro-spection about these rules we default to.  Enjoy!

October 12, 2021

You hear it all the time "We are our ancestors' wildest dreams" BUT in what ways? . . I thought about this for a while-that phrase has always stunned me! The conversation is often surrounding getting degrees, working a job, or getting a "bag" but you know me, what about your soul hun? Did they really dream of us doing MORE labor? . . Maybe it’s self-soothing to justified the rampant capitalism we innately surrender to….but let me re-focus! . . All I’ll say is knowing MY and OUR people, hearing the stories about how outspoken, direct, driven and unique they were, I think back to my direct ancestors and what their dreams would be for me based on who they were as individuals. . . I think their dreams for me were grander yet simpler than I realized...

September 28, 2021

Why Would EYE Switch Out A Dime For A Penny?! Yes, Memphis-born rapper Moneybagg Yo has is my muse for this episode.  When I heard that line, I didn't think about a relationship, I thought about my dreams (plans) and how I am only cheating myself by not making them as big as possible. Even more than that, I'm looking forward to the day that I am no longer talking about what I want to do, but reflecting it in my life. I will not be just a dreamer forever!

September 11, 2021

How many of us sold candy in middle school? Did someone's homework for a quick buck or found another creative way to be our own boss as a child?  Why does that drive stop? It might be because our confidence dwindles over time. But no worries, this episode will give you that spark again! Troyia Monay had an eye for fashion and a passion for entrepreneurship as a teenager when she sold her own designs to her classmates.  She always knew that her future was bright, as long as she hustled for it. This YouTuber, boutique owner, business coach, content creator, and all-around girl boss shares her journey to being a full-time entrepreneur and knowing her greatness THE FIRST TIME.  As you listen to this episode, remember, don't overthink it. Come in with the confidence to be yourself at the very beginning. @TROYIA MONAY •YouTube: Troyia Monay •Business Coach: @herhustleacademy •Boutique Owner: @shopwantedwardrobe

August 30, 2021

Tired of hearing about mental health yet?  Welp, more needs to be said and will be said. Hopefully, this episode makes you laugh and serves as a reminder that you and your sometimes cloudy, stuffy, and musty brain matter!

August 16, 2021

Hear me out, or don't: This was no easy episode; I had to take my own advice and encourage myself to be #loudenoughthefirsttime.  As you listen, you'll find out why.  First, I am NOT the one to fight you to drop the pork chop! I don't fight, and I don't argue... that's not my ministry. However, I'm a nerd when it comes to documentaries, lectures, and interviews, and I love to share what I learn! Also, if you knew how many people ask me if I still eat eggs, and seafood or if I'm starving (obviously not-?¿?¿), then you'd know why I had to make this episode.  SO much is misunderstood about veganism. So I decided that instead of raising MY blood pressure (which is very unhealthy : ), I should do my part and provide resources to anyone who wants to know more about veganism (even my already vegan fam out there!) In this episode, I talk about some of the research and the benefits of a vegan/plant-based L i f e s t y l e. Now, I am not here for ANY foolishness (just a little if it's fun) so if you have Google-able questions, please, in #DrUmar's voice, look it up!  There are so many opportunities for us to live better and be better. As many people today are awakening and are open to learning about vegan + holistic lifestyles, it is my pleasure to share my experience with you! Enjoy.

August 2, 2021

On this very special episode, we have company! Yasmire Whigham is the owner of Within Me LLC, a company she launched almost a year ago to spread positivity and self-love. She's a yoga instructor, and she makes and sells her own line of incense! After spending her entire life trying to conform to norms that weren't meant for her, she's finally building a life she genuinely loves.  We talk about her incredible, spirit-driven journey of leaving her corporate job and starting her own business; let's unravel what's within.

July 20, 2021

Peanut butter? Meg? 4c curls? How thick is the thick of it for you? Some call it the "trenches" or being "in the mud." VERY challenging places to work through but necessary. I know that the thick of it is for a REASON, we're supposed to walk away with something new. Everyone's thick of it is something different, but regardless, be proud of YOURSELF and live a life of gratitude! You're making it!

July 6, 2021

Let me tell you about my personal side effects of detoxing that no one talks about.  I went beast mode at the beginning of 2021 with vegan detoxes. BUT that left me ending the last one a week earlier.  I will say that detoxing is a powerful game-changer IF DONE CORRECTLY. However, not being prepared/not doing your research takes away from the experience. In this episode, I walk you through where I went wrong with doing vegan detoxes back to back. Also, please know that there are PLENTY of positives that I gain from detoxing as well!  I hope you enjoy this episode! 

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June 6, 2021

Do you believe “it” will happen? Then act like it! I owe it to myself and all people and things that have helped me be who I am and where I am. I don’t have a choice but to believe in myself! Let this episode serve as a reminder to WHY you should believe in yourself so much that it scares you! When you count all the “little things” that have happened for YOU (not to you), you will be S H O C K E D. Everything has worked out so you can be where you are; evaluate that.

May 25, 2021

On this very special episode, we have companyyyyy! Jamesia Monroe is a Motivational Holistic Health Coach and Kemetic Yoga instructor.  We sat down to talk about Kemetic Yoga, holistic health, chakras, life path numbers, and the nitty-gritty of healing work, specifically Black women learning how to be LOUD ENOUGH; the FIRST time when it comes to our healing!  We also share our journeys to healing and our realizations about health disparities in the Black community.  Divinely enough, May is mental health awareness month! After this episode, I hope you are more informed, inspired, and empowered to tune into the voice within and take charge of your mind, body, and spirit on YOUR healing journey! Jamesia is not only a speaker but a teacher with awesome Instagram pages (@kemunity_yoga and jamesia.monroe) offering a life-changing 8-week chakra program. Check out her services to become a student!(https://linktr.ee/Kemunity.Yoga)

May 9, 2021

It's easy to look for a savior when you don't believe in yourself.  Sometimes we look at a celebrity or a significant other as someone more worthy of praise than we are. Remember, you lack NOTHING! Often, the thing we admire most about another person is something we THINK we don't have. But, I'd like to inspire you to believe differently. To believe you are more capable than you think. I'm here to tell you that WE ARE THE ONES WE'RE LOOKING FOR! I hope you feel empowered after this episode!

April 21, 2021

What does singleness mean to you? Can someone pleaseeee help me?! What the FREAK is livin' single? I've heard all types of definitions of what "singleness" is. Sometimes it's situationships, (That I am not into. Refer to season one's episode "I don't wanna play no games") or singleness depends on who's asking. Either way, I am completely confused! My singleness is FORREAL! No phone chirping, no dates, no prospects, no lineup or roster. But I started to feel weird admitting that. In this episode, I bring you into my spiral of confusion! I also ask that you DM or comment on IWLEFT's TW or IG and let me know what you think singleness is.

April 13, 2021

Have you ever been so worried about perfecting a project that you didn’t even start it or complete it? We have to stop doing this to ourselves! We get so tied into the small details and obsessed with perfection that we don’t even give ourselves a chance to START! I promise IT IS WORTH IT! Because even if you “fail,” you will learn something new! Stop being so worried about being perfect! Perfection does not equal excellence! Ever heard of the saying “a perfect MESS”? Point proved! Remember, the world needs and wants what you have; give yourself a chance.

March 30, 2021

"Age is just a number. Life and aging are the greatest gifts that we could possibly ever have." - Cicely Tyson I believe there's a difference between someone being an elder and an older person. Have you ever had an experience with an older person where they insisted (sometimes in a maniacal way) that you knew nothing just because you were young? Did they also figure they reigned supreme simply because of their number of years on Earth?  I've had SEVERAL experiences like this. I don't believe it's necessary to be torn down, disrespected, or dismissed because I am a young person. EVERYONE has a story! Everyone has wisdom to share. We ALL deserve the space to use our voices and be respected in return.   The number of years someone has lived does NOT signify their knowledge, character, or wisdom.  What I've learned from many of my experiences is that "Old fools do live."

March 16, 2021

It's so easy to be negative! TOO easy! What is something that you love and don't talk about enough? That's where more energy should flow! (Where attention goes, energy flows.) We often talk about our upsets, disappointments, and shortcomings in this world but stutter when it's time to talk about what we ACTUALLY enjoy... that's GOOD for our well-being! In this episode, I want to remind everyone, simply promote what you love!

March 2, 2021

*TRIGGER WARNING* (This episode is more intense than usual. We discuss sexual assault, abuse, and various types of traumas.) We do not simply heal; we are in a constant state of heal-ING. The "ing" takes dedication, awareness, and ongoing WORK, amongst other things. In this episode, my good sis Nadia (UPDATE: @IamNadiBody is now @LOWKEYNadia on IG) joins to discuss just how deep healing gets. We go over why it's important to heal, when you know it's time and how to heal. Of course, we talk about the different things we are healing from, including our traumas. With both of us being vegan and embarking on our holistic health journey, we hope the gems we've shared will inspire you to begin healing and do so with enthusiasm! We encourage you not only to start but to find resources and a community where you feel supported.

February 15, 2021

Do NOT think in limitations! Whatever you want to do, someone else has done it! Here's a reminder in case you needed it! There are several ways to get what you want and need for inspiration. Don't sleep on them: be inspired and go for it!

January 31, 2021

Welcome back to the podcast, and welcome to the new year! Let's bring in 2021 by making our own philosophies! In this episode, I talk about my journey to finding my own "why." Why I wake up in the morning, why I do anything and why I should make my own philosophies, and why YOU should too!

January 13, 2021

The message is very simple, BE YOU!! In every space and every place. Be loud enough THE FIRST TIME !!

November 16, 2020

Often times the answers that we are looking for are right in front of us: all we need to do is CONNECT! Connect to the people in our circles, opportunities and with ourselves. We can shed our egos and doubts in order to be more open minded and progressive. Most importantly this episode is about looking beyond our own understand and seeking guidance from those around us! Enjoyyyy

November 3, 2020

Detachment is a beautiful thing! (In the right situation). Sometimes that's all we need. I detach to re-center, re-focus and ground myself. I love reading Buddhist teachings and have adopted them for spiritual development. Honestly..... detachment has been my favorite lesson so far.  Holding on to EVERYTHING leaves little room for you to grab anything. Do you ever wonder if your things are running you? Are you on a hamster wheel? Do you take other peoples perceptions personally? I did. I still do! BUT I love when I realize how and where I waste my precious energy and I simply detach.  "In silence, outside of flustering and confusion that the world brings, our answers await." -Nebula  I hope you enjoy this episode.

October 19, 2020

Have you heard Miss Lauryn Hill's "I gotta find peace of mind" ? if not, please do.  We know the world is a MESS. Always has been and will probably always be. Since Eve and Adam bit the "apple" or since our monkey cousins jumped out of trees and started walking upright or whatever you believe, the world has literally been in SHAMBLES since day one. Relieve yourself of the illogical notion that you are responsible for saving mankind. Just go cry.  With all things considered, your life does not have to be..... a mess. Or sad. Or an abyss of depression and grief. Peace is obtainable.  What does peace look like to you? Create it, find it, whatever, just get yourself a piece of peace before you give up!  Allow yourself the space for peace. Make arrangements for peace. You deserve it!

September 29, 2020

Everybody has gifts! How are you going to use yours? Branding, marketing, new work and mentorship are tools that can guide you toward utilizing your gift. Sometimes you have to embark on the journey to discovery!

September 15, 2020

You are not stuck! The only limits that exist are the ones that we create and agree to! Where you are is temporary and if you want to go further you absolutely can. Just look at how far you've come. I named this episode after one of my favorites songs by Anita Baker. My freshman year of college I played this song on loop at least a literal 50 times. Of course, I was going through "the struggle" but hearing this song helped me pull it together. Find that thing that makes you feel alive again.  A song, movie, place, etc. which reminds you to be grateful. Even through all of our mess there is still something to be grateful for. Even if it's just the opportunity to move on from where we are now.

September 1, 2020

Hopefully the title is loud enough for you, because this episode is exactly that; I don't wanna play no games. After entering the "dating world" if you will, I realized that there are so many rules and games that I didn't know existed. Even after knowing, I've decided that they just aren't for me. Trying to always be a step ahead, mimicking  emotional avoidance so that I convince myself I don't care either, maintaining mountains of secrecy and pettiness, made me feel as though I was slowly changing who I am all in the name of the game. I simply could not keep up and I really didn't want to. Besides, it makes no sense to me to make these (unproductive might I add,) adjustments for a person I'm not romantically interested in. All this energy for a "TALKING STAGE"? I think not! If I wouldn't do this in any other scenario or relationship, why start here? The "benefits" just didn't seem like enough to keep compromising myself for. So, while seeing the bigger picture, I decided in the tune of Chris Brown + Drake's No Guidance that, "I don't wanna play no games."

August 24, 2020

In this episode, I talk about being fat. Also phat for people who don't rock with the word fat. Awkward situations have come up where people have felt the need to remind me that I am bigger than them. I think it's odd that there are expectations for "fat" people as far as self-esteem, relationships, dressing, etc. yet here we are.

August 15, 2020

Inspiration comes from the strangest places. Play this on a walk. Play this in the car. Play this when you need positivity. Play this when you're up late thinking about your next move. Play this when you need new ideas, as will I.  P.S. I was in my Nina Simone, Maya Angelou, and Toni Morrison bag.  Just wanted to share some thinking out loud. I hope the words hit your spirit. If they do, let me know : )

August 4, 2020

Sometimes the best thing to do is let go and let spirit lead you.  On this episode @NadiBody shares her journey to being the boss of her own life. Healing traumas, venturing through academia, professional life and personal life is no joke. However, it can be accomplished with some added humor, patience and grace for yourself.

August 2, 2020

For awhile now, I've been getting messages from people and spirit pushing me to begin on my shadow work. From what I understand, shadow work deals with confronting and healing things that are within our subconscious but rule more of our lives than we think. I surely know that I have been neglecting dealing with loss. I keep getting these messages to tap into the darkest parts of myself, stop running from my truth, emotions, sorrow and loss. So here's me sticking my toe into the pool of my shadows. I don't know if this will turn out to be a kitty pool or an ocean, hopefully it's somewhere in between. Either way, I am excited to be on my journey and I hope everyone else can learn and grow as well. I also created a "Feel Better" playlist on Apple Music compiled of some of the songs I listen to in order to be in a place of gratitude. I hope you enjoy and please don't forget to rate the podcast, leave comments and follow the Instagram page @IWASNTLOUDENOUGHPODCAST or @IWLEFT. Link to Apple Music Playlist: https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/feel-better-list/pl.u-d2b0kxBTGJvAqz9

July 28, 2020

The gag is, we are all brainwashed and will continue to be. But, the other gag is that we can participate in our brainwashing if we choose. How we "self care" goes beyond eating Hershey bars, soaking in bubble baths, sipping champagne and lighting ocean breeze candles. Internal self care is a THING. We can "brainwash" our minds in order to speak better to ourselves and care for ourselves. With all of the influences in life and on social media, it is important that we are accountable in filtering what comes in our mind which ultimately impacts our internal dialogue. July 28, 2020