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The iDiLL Mentality

The iDiLL Mentality

By Anthony Esquibel

Anthony has been a licensed therapist for the past 10 years. This podcast was created as a means of coping with divorce and COVID through personal disclosure but has expanded to so much more. The podcast now features guests who participate in powerful dialogue about the role of mental health in their journeys, including topics that currently cover trauma, substance abuse, and eating disorders.
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T.R.E.A.M.

The iDiLL MentalityFeb 21, 2024

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T.R.E.A.M.

T.R.E.A.M.

I try to make a mental health remix to get people excited for trauma talk. It doesn't last long, so I just make dad jokes while explaining how the word "trauma" has gotten muddied over the past few years.

Feb 21, 202409:11
Judging Myself with Extra Steps

Judging Myself with Extra Steps

I confront insecurities with my chicken legs at the gym, explore what contributes to self talk, and forget how old I am.


#mentalhealth #selfcare #NewMexico #therapy

Feb 01, 202413:35
Kindness is Mad Expensive

Kindness is Mad Expensive

Don't let people tell you that kindness isn't affected by inflation either. Also, bandwidth. Its my new favorite word.

Jan 15, 202409:56
A Day in the Life Featuring Blest
Jan 01, 202430:22
Blind Sided by the Sound of Freedom

Blind Sided by the Sound of Freedom

Feel good doesn't necessarily mean think, good. My ex buying a KONY action kit is timeless humor. Golden Boy documentary was great.



#Kony #TheBlindSide #SoundofFreedom #Conspiracy #Adoption #MichaelOher #OscarDeLaHoya #GoldenBoyDocumentary

Aug 23, 202313:52
Control Your Narrative

Control Your Narrative

Celebrities aren't the only ones who have to worry about their narrative. "If I let you tell it" should be reassurance, not a warning.

Aug 16, 202314:06
Risky Business

Risky Business

Never let them guess your next move. Or whatever the kids say. New job, new set up, and new commitment.

Aug 11, 202309:07
Men Will Literally Start a Podcast...

Men Will Literally Start a Podcast...

Men avoid therapy, but not dudes I know? Joker is an incel therefore I never saw that movie. Porn, what is it good for? Or whatever Aretha Franklin said.

Apr 19, 202316:18
Hello, Inconsistency, My Old Friend

Hello, Inconsistency, My Old Friend

New logo thanks to the master of graphic design Giphted aka @gabriel.tarin !

therapists need love too, Craig. My car analogy breaks down. i've been to a lot of marriage therapy apparently.



Apr 17, 202315:52
Making Space

Making Space

Living Rent Free pt 2? Who knows. You can't just ignore ish. Or it's going to pop up and punch you in the face. Make space for what you need and what you want. 

Jan 10, 202316:45
Living Rent Free

Living Rent Free

do you have couch surfers living rent free in your head? do you struggle to keep your energy pure? is it your money and you want it now? find out on this episode of the iDiLL Mentality.

Dec 15, 202221:42
breakdown of a Jeenyuhs

breakdown of a Jeenyuhs

I tease a few changes in my life, claim that 2023 is finally my year, and walk the tightrope as I discuss the fall and treatment of Ye. If you enjoy inconsistency, I'm your guy!

Dec 08, 202219:37
25 to Life

25 to Life

I am baaaaack. I get right into discussing how trauma imprisons us into certain beliefs about our life. Also, I dance now? Live your best life, its longer than you think it is.

Sep 14, 202110:29
A Day in the Life Episode 6 - Juliet and Food Addiction

A Day in the Life Episode 6 - Juliet and Food Addiction

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.

On the fifth episode, we talk to Juliet about food addiction. Juliet discusses how her early childhood experience shaped her food habits and what she did to overcome them. I discuss an experience with Pop Tart cereal that traumatized me. 

Apr 24, 202149:21
Yours vs Your Turn

Yours vs Your Turn

I break down a R & B song and how it should be something we all learn about. Also I forgot how to say 6lack, and how some people we choose in our lives are equivalent to carnival games.

Apr 15, 202110:19
A Day in the Life Episode 5 - Zack and Codependency

A Day in the Life Episode 5 - Zack and Codependency

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.

On the fifth episode, we talk to Zack about codependency. Zack shares how the role he had in his family shaped a "need to be needed", the impact on personal relationships and what he has worked on to overcome it all.

Apr 09, 202152:32
A Day in the Life Episode 4 - Drew and Trauma

A Day in the Life Episode 4 - Drew and Trauma

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.

On the fourth episode, we talk to Drew about trauma. Drew discusses how early childhood trauma affected his growth as a person, created an addiction to acceptance, and how he strives to overcome it. 

Mar 25, 202147:38
A Day in the Life Episode 3 - Gabe and Excess

A Day in the Life Episode 3 - Gabe and Excess

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.

On the second episode, we talk to Gabe about excess. Gabe reflects on how beliefs about excess from family culture and rap culture merged into difficulties he had with drinking. 

Mar 20, 202147:21
Moving Through Grief

Moving Through Grief

Very personal podcast for me with this one.  Loss and grief management are the focus. I also freestyle some grief stages .

Mar 06, 202110:20
A Day in the Life Episode 2 - Julian and Motivation

A Day in the Life Episode 2 - Julian and Motivation

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.

On the second episode, we talk to Julian about motivation. Julian went from being unhappy with his life circumstances to getting a short movie recognized at film festivals. 

Follow https://www.facebook.com/delaluzfilm/ on Facebook for the short film's release. 

Feb 27, 202152:28
Triggered!

Triggered!

Do I need a trigger warning for an episode about triggers? Or is that not how it works? Anyway, I talk about what it means to me and what it could mean for the world. 

Feb 24, 202108:52
A Day in the Life Episode 1 - Ray and Substance Abuse

A Day in the Life Episode 1 - Ray and Substance Abuse

A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences. 

On the first episode, we talk to Ray. Ray discusses his struggles with substance abuse, how he wants to control his own narrative and what he feels alcohol abuse has cost him. 

Feb 15, 202143:02
I'm Back....To Read the Room

I'm Back....To Read the Room

The hiatus and then the breakdown of how to read the room. I also want to be Dr. Phil with F bombs.

Feb 12, 202110:39
State of Battle Rap

State of Battle Rap

The game has changed because of COVID. How Dance with the Devil got your boy into battle rap.

Feb 12, 202110:28
Moving the Goalposts

Moving the Goalposts

I go live for the first time. Lets talk about people who can't keep their story straight and what that means.

Jan 08, 202110:35
The Punch Paradigm

The Punch Paradigm

Lets talk the art of angry man poems again! New URL card, I don't know what its called. Hopefully Drugz don't beat me up.

Jan 06, 202113:08
The Glow Up!!

The Glow Up!!

New logo, new intro and some new energy. Lets talk about the Glow Up. 

Jan 01, 202110:58
Write Your Own Movie

Write Your Own Movie

Are you writing your life story? Or are you letting others take the lead role and making it into a Nicholas Cage flick that goes straight to VHS? You decide.


Also big updates coming.

Dec 06, 202016:33
Going Viral With COVID

Going Viral With COVID

Another battle rap moment went viral, this time with COVID. See what I did there?

Dec 01, 202008:13
Good Kid Sad City

Good Kid Sad City

I talk about Lupe's comparison between himself and Kendrick and the pettiness of it.

Dec 01, 202012:10
Protect Your Energy and Living Rent Free

Protect Your Energy and Living Rent Free

I explore some millenialisms and how they are actually pretty helpful for understanding self care.

Dec 01, 202009:10
Social Media and Mental Health

Social Media and Mental Health

Facebook? More like Faceitweareallslavestoitbook.

Dec 01, 202011:15