The iDiLL Mentality
By Anthony Esquibel
The iDiLL MentalityFeb 21, 2024
T.R.E.A.M.
I try to make a mental health remix to get people excited for trauma talk. It doesn't last long, so I just make dad jokes while explaining how the word "trauma" has gotten muddied over the past few years.
Judging Myself with Extra Steps
I confront insecurities with my chicken legs at the gym, explore what contributes to self talk, and forget how old I am.
#mentalhealth #selfcare #NewMexico #therapy
Kindness is Mad Expensive
Don't let people tell you that kindness isn't affected by inflation either. Also, bandwidth. Its my new favorite word.
A Day in the Life Featuring Blest
I sit down with my friend Blest aka Anthony aka government name that I don't fully know to discuss anxiety. How does someone with such a big personality manage anxiety in social and performance situations? My own social anxiety is discussed as well. Enjoy! #ADayIntheLife #MentalHealth #Podcast #NewMexico #LasCruces
Blind Sided by the Sound of Freedom
Feel good doesn't necessarily mean think, good. My ex buying a KONY action kit is timeless humor. Golden Boy documentary was great.
#Kony #TheBlindSide #SoundofFreedom #Conspiracy #Adoption #MichaelOher #OscarDeLaHoya #GoldenBoyDocumentary
Control Your Narrative
Celebrities aren't the only ones who have to worry about their narrative. "If I let you tell it" should be reassurance, not a warning.
Risky Business
Never let them guess your next move. Or whatever the kids say. New job, new set up, and new commitment.
Men Will Literally Start a Podcast...
Men avoid therapy, but not dudes I know? Joker is an incel therefore I never saw that movie. Porn, what is it good for? Or whatever Aretha Franklin said.
Hello, Inconsistency, My Old Friend
New logo thanks to the master of graphic design Giphted aka @gabriel.tarin !
therapists need love too, Craig. My car analogy breaks down. i've been to a lot of marriage therapy apparently.
Making Space
Living Rent Free pt 2? Who knows. You can't just ignore ish. Or it's going to pop up and punch you in the face. Make space for what you need and what you want.
Living Rent Free
do you have couch surfers living rent free in your head? do you struggle to keep your energy pure? is it your money and you want it now? find out on this episode of the iDiLL Mentality.
breakdown of a Jeenyuhs
I tease a few changes in my life, claim that 2023 is finally my year, and walk the tightrope as I discuss the fall and treatment of Ye. If you enjoy inconsistency, I'm your guy!
25 to Life
I am baaaaack. I get right into discussing how trauma imprisons us into certain beliefs about our life. Also, I dance now? Live your best life, its longer than you think it is.
A Day in the Life Episode 6 - Juliet and Food Addiction
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the fifth episode, we talk to Juliet about food addiction. Juliet discusses how her early childhood experience shaped her food habits and what she did to overcome them. I discuss an experience with Pop Tart cereal that traumatized me.
Yours vs Your Turn
I break down a R & B song and how it should be something we all learn about. Also I forgot how to say 6lack, and how some people we choose in our lives are equivalent to carnival games.
A Day in the Life Episode 5 - Zack and Codependency
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the fifth episode, we talk to Zack about codependency. Zack shares how the role he had in his family shaped a "need to be needed", the impact on personal relationships and what he has worked on to overcome it all.
A Day in the Life Episode 4 - Drew and Trauma
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the fourth episode, we talk to Drew about trauma. Drew discusses how early childhood trauma affected his growth as a person, created an addiction to acceptance, and how he strives to overcome it.
A Day in the Life Episode 3 - Gabe and Excess
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the second episode, we talk to Gabe about excess. Gabe reflects on how beliefs about excess from family culture and rap culture merged into difficulties he had with drinking.
Moving Through Grief
Very personal podcast for me with this one. Loss and grief management are the focus. I also freestyle some grief stages .
A Day in the Life Episode 2 - Julian and Motivation
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the second episode, we talk to Julian about motivation. Julian went from being unhappy with his life circumstances to getting a short movie recognized at film festivals.
Follow https://www.facebook.com/delaluzfilm/ on Facebook for the short film's release.
Triggered!
Do I need a trigger warning for an episode about triggers? Or is that not how it works? Anyway, I talk about what it means to me and what it could mean for the world.
A Day in the Life Episode 1 - Ray and Substance Abuse
A Day In the Life is a Mental Health podcast series featuring conversations with everyday people about their mental health struggles, successes and experiences.
On the first episode, we talk to Ray. Ray discusses his struggles with substance abuse, how he wants to control his own narrative and what he feels alcohol abuse has cost him.
I'm Back....To Read the Room
The hiatus and then the breakdown of how to read the room. I also want to be Dr. Phil with F bombs.
State of Battle Rap
The game has changed because of COVID. How Dance with the Devil got your boy into battle rap.
Moving the Goalposts
I go live for the first time. Lets talk about people who can't keep their story straight and what that means.
The Punch Paradigm
Lets talk the art of angry man poems again! New URL card, I don't know what its called. Hopefully Drugz don't beat me up.
The Glow Up!!
New logo, new intro and some new energy. Lets talk about the Glow Up.
Write Your Own Movie
Are you writing your life story? Or are you letting others take the lead role and making it into a Nicholas Cage flick that goes straight to VHS? You decide.
Also big updates coming.
Going Viral With COVID
Another battle rap moment went viral, this time with COVID. See what I did there?
Good Kid Sad City
I talk about Lupe's comparison between himself and Kendrick and the pettiness of it.
Protect Your Energy and Living Rent Free
I explore some millenialisms and how they are actually pretty helpful for understanding self care.
Social Media and Mental Health
Facebook? More like Faceitweareallslavestoitbook.