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By Antonio Myers

Autism is my super blessing! I'm a high-school valedictorian, college graduate, world traveler, disability advocate. I'm a Unitarian Universalist. I'm a Progressive Liberal. I'm about equal rights, human rights, civil & political rights, & economic, social, &cultural rights. I do servant leadership, boundless optimism, & Oneness/Wholeness. I'm good naked & unashamed! I love positive personhood, love your neighbor as yourself, and do no harm! I'm also appropriately inappropriate! My self-ratings: NC-17, XXX, X, X18+ & TV-MA means empathy! I publish shows at 11am!
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The logistics of my family man life and the logistics of my callings are always butting heads.

The logistics of my family man life and the logistics of my callings are always butting heads.

“I would make an excellent spouse, excellent parent, excellent pet-owner, and excellent roommate, and yes, those things would be magnificent for me personally to do. However, I am called to do servant leadership and social entrepreneurship within the majority of time at rape crisis centers, domestic violence shelters, homeless shelters, animal shelters, adoption centers, foster care centers, autism centers, daycare centers, aftercare centers, arts centers, community centers, recovery centers, retirement centers, schools, clinics, hospitals, prisons, psychiatric institutions, environmental centers, family centers, network centers, cancer wards, prevention centers, family planning clinics, crisis centers, crisis services, intervention centers, health centers, pregnancy centers, wellness centers, stabilization centers, care centers, reproductive health clinics, resource centers, etc.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 16, 202402:05:27
I was forced to spend most of my boyhood time (5 years old-6 years old) in the infamous red-light district Washington D.C. (14th Street NW, Logan Circle.) due to the women sex workers' "thing" for me.

I was forced to spend most of my boyhood time (5 years old-6 years old) in the infamous red-light district Washington D.C. (14th Street NW, Logan Circle.) due to the women sex workers' "thing" for me.

“In the 1970s and 1980s, a portion of 14th Street became known primarily for its red-light district. Several strip clubs and massage parlors were concentrated roughly between New York Avenue and K Street, while prostitutes plied their trade around Logan Circle. However, rising land values eventually pushed out the adult businesses. The Source Theatre, founded by Bart Whiteman in 1977, was given some credit for the area's revival. Whiteman stood outside the theater to escort people inside in order to make them feel safer.[5] During the 1980s and 1990s, Logan Circle, although dominated by Victorian homes that had survived mostly untouched by redevelopment or riots, was considered an unsafe neighborhood by many due to overt drug use and prostitution that existed in the neighborhood.[17][18] During this period, property values in the area began to increase, but issues of homelessness in the area came to the forefront. Fourteenth Street, NW became widely viewed as Washington's red light district. It also became an area for small, independent theater companies that acquired relatively cheap space north of the circle.” -Wikipedia. “I sat on the benches, walked on the streets, moved on the grass, and roamed the parks within Logan Circle, Shaw neighborhood, The U Street Corridor, and 14th Street NW in Washington D.C. as a five-year old in the late 1990’s. I frequently encountered, conversed with, saw the sex work, saw the sex workers, and hung out with pimps, brothel keepers, clients, customers, madams, procurers, and panderers the most in Logan Circle, The Shaw neighborhood, The U Street Corridor, and 14th Street NW at that time. I saw pimping, brothel keeping, madaming, procuring, pandering, customering, and clienteling the most at Logan Circle, 14th Street NW, Shaw neighborhood, and The U Street Corridor.” Antonio Myers. “Procuring, pimping, or pandering is the facilitation or provision of a prostitute or other sex worker in the arrangement of a sex act with a customer.[1] A procurer, colloquially called a pimp (if male) or a madam (if female, though the term pimp has often been used for female procurers as well) or a brothel keeper, is an agent for prostitutes who collects part of their earnings. The procurer may receive this money in return for advertising services, physical protection, or for providing and possibly monopolizing a location where the prostitute may solicit clients. Like prostitution, the legality of certain actions of a madam or a pimp vary from one region to the next.” -Wikipedia.
Apr 15, 202401:45:32
Most of my sex partners in my past were mothers of autistic children, single mothers, white women, and women in their 40's and 50's.

Most of my sex partners in my past were mothers of autistic children, single mothers, white women, and women in their 40's and 50's.

“There was no feuds, no drama, no tabloid behavior (verbally and non-verbally) when it came to the single mothers, the children, and myself. I discuss how I was wrestling with parental acute trauma/romantic acute trauma, parental secondary trauma/romantic secondary trauma, parental vicarious trauma/romantic vicarious trauma, parental compound trauma/romantic compound trauma, parental complex trauma/romantic complex trauma.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 14, 202401:02:02
Biblical black folks (final episode on The Bible.) Jesus, the child advocate and women’s advocate.

Biblical black folks (final episode on The Bible.) Jesus, the child advocate and women’s advocate.

“The main reason for studying the black presence in the Bible is because if we can't accept that our Bible is a multicultural book, how can we accept multicultural churches? It is difficult to see the black presence in the Bible because you won’t read the terms black or African but you will read the terms Ethiopians, Cushites, Egyptians, Hebrews, or other tribal terms. Ethiopia is mentioned 45 times in the Bible; add this to the number of times Egypt is mentioned, and Africa is mentioned more than any other landmass in the Bible. It should also be noted that the "Middle East," including the Holy Land was connected to Africa until 1859 when the Suez Canal was completed and had been referred to North East Africa for the majority of modern history.

From Genesis to Revelation there is a great deal of proof that blacks are present throughout the Bible:

In the Hebrew, Adam (or Ahdahm) is defined as swarthy, dusky, reddish-brown soil, dark-skinned like a shadow. Aphar: The soil from which Adham was made, meaning: dust, clay, always very black or very dark brown in color. (The Biblical History of Black Mankind by C. McGhee Livers)
The Garden of Eden was described in Genesis as having been near a four-river system in the region of the lands of Cush, Havilah, and Asshur, which today would be near the borders of Eastern Sudan, Ethiopia, and Eritrea. The birthplace of humanity was confirmed when the oldest human remains were found in Ethiopia in 1974. Science and the Bible are often at odds, but one thing both confirm is that the birthplace of humanity was in East Africa. (Eden: The Biblical Garden Discovered in East Africa by Gert Muller)
Many of the Hebrew patriarchs married or had children with women from African tribes. Abraham had children with Hagar and Keturah both from African (Hamitic) tribes. Moses married Zippora, who was Ethiopian. Jacob had children with two handmaidens from African tribes, and these children became the patriarchs of two tribes of Israel. Studying the black presence in the Bible can open the door to discussions about racial justice and dispel the myth that the Bible is the "white man's book." It is this myth that has kept many people of color from the gospel. By whitewashing the Bible, we prevent future generations from experiencing the beauty of the biblical text. Black people should know that they have always played a central role in God’s plan for humanity and were not an afterthought of the creator.” -https://sojo.net/articles/faith-action/black-presence-bible-uncovering-hidden-ones.
Apr 13, 202457:09
The painful reasons why I do not attend any houses of worship & why I avoid some secular establishments.

The painful reasons why I do not attend any houses of worship & why I avoid some secular establishments.

“I am not a member of any houses of worship because it’s excruciating to find houses of worship that fights for autism equality when it comes to taxation, social insurance, public health, public schools, public services, labor law, regulation of markets, to ensure distribution of wealth, social mobility, the creation of safety nets, economic justice, equality of outcome, a fair balance in the distribution of wealth, opportunities, and privileges within a society where autistic individuals' rights are recognized and protected, and equal opportunity. It also excruciating to find houses of worship that fights for autism equality when it comes to •Courts
•Education
•Electricity
•Emergency services
•Environmental protection
•Health care
•Mail
•Military
•Public buildings
•Public libraries
•Public parks
•Public policy
•Public utilities
•Public transportation
•Social services
•State schools
•Telecommunications
•Transportation infrastructure
•Urban planning
•Waste management
•Water supply network. Many people will place their condominiums above me." -Antonio Myers.
Apr 12, 202456:25
I follow Jesus who is black, person of color, neurodiverse, neurodivergent, autistic, Jewish, refugee, immigrant, flirt, husband, father, dancer, social drinker, life of the party, and party animal.

I follow Jesus who is black, person of color, neurodiverse, neurodivergent, autistic, Jewish, refugee, immigrant, flirt, husband, father, dancer, social drinker, life of the party, and party animal.

“The sense that each of them is gently teasing the other, and each enjoying the matching of wits. For all of the interesting people Jesus meets in John, I think this individual is the most interesting and that’s part of why this story is there in the Gospel. There’s a word game. A kind of “He said – She said”. The Samaritan woman starts by using the literal meaning of words and Jesus starts by using the symbolic meaning, and then, just when you realize what they’re doing, they both switch and do the opposite. It takes two people to do that, and to enjoy it. I can almost imagine Jesus smiling at the joke when the woman talks to him. And her smiling back.
In short, maybe these two liked each other.
Give me some water, says Jesus. Clear enough. He wants the wet liquid. You’re a Jew, she answers. Theological. She’s stalling. If only you knew, I’d give you living water, he says. Wait a minute – all of a sudden we’re not exactly talking about H2O anymore. Give me some of that living water that ends thirst, says the woman, and I won’t need to haul it up the hill. Making fun of Jesus and his flipping back and forth…just a little. Water, water, water, and water, but not the same meaning each time. Literal, figurative, symbolic, real – lots of the double entendres that are characteristic of flirting, and all in only a couple of verses!” -https://unsettledwords.com/2014/03/21/did-jesus-flirt/. Congratulations to us:
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Apr 11, 202402:48:13
The DEIB Jesus (Diversity, Equity, Inclusion, and Belonging) is The Christ figure to me. He's for Egalitarianism and equalitarianism.

The DEIB Jesus (Diversity, Equity, Inclusion, and Belonging) is The Christ figure to me. He's for Egalitarianism and equalitarianism.

“Diversity refers to the presence of variety within the organizational workforce, such as in identity and identity politics. It includes gender, culture, ethnicity, religion, disability, class, age or opinion.[2][15] Equity refers to concepts of fairness and justice, such as fair compensation and substantive equality.[15] More specifically, equity usually also includes a focus on societal disparities and allocating resources and "decision making authority to groups that have historically been disadvantaged",[16] and taking "into consideration a person's unique circumstances, adjusting treatment accordingly so that the end result is equal."[2] Finally, inclusion refers to creating an organizational culture that creates an experience where "all employees feel their voices will be heard",[2] and a sense of belonging and integration.[15][17]. Egalitarianism (from French égal 'equal'), or equalitarianism,[1][2] is a school of thought within political philosophy that builds on the concept of social equality, prioritizing it for all people.[3] Egalitarian doctrines are generally characterized by the idea that all humans are equal in fundamental worth or moral status.[4] As such, all citizens of a state should be accorded equal rights and treatment under the law.[5][6] Egalitarian doctrines have supported many modern social movements, including the Enlightenment, feminism, civil rights, and international human rights.[7]” -Wikipedia.
Apr 10, 202401:16:35
The sexual assaults against Jesus, the bodily harm against Jesus, Biblical misogyny, & Biblical people with disabilities.

The sexual assaults against Jesus, the bodily harm against Jesus, Biblical misogyny, & Biblical people with disabilities.

“Roman crucifixions sought to degrade and dehumanise their victims in ways that destroyed their dignity and stigmatised their memory. Paul speaks of the cross as a ‘scandal’ or ‘stumbling block’, but the significance of this language has never been explored in terms of sexual violence. The Crucifixion of Jesus examines crucifixion as a form of torture, state terror, and sexual abuse. It reads recent accounts of torture alongside the presentation of crucifixion in the Passion narratives and other Greek and Roman sources.

Outlining compelling reasons for viewing Jesus as a victim of sexual abuse, it examines why this unsettling aspect of the narrative has remained ‘hidden in plain sight’ for so long, and what place it might have in discussions of rape culture past and present. It also asks whether other acts of sexual violence and rape might have happened during the mockery in the praetorium, or even on the cross itself. It argues that although the acknowledgement of this ‘unspeakable violence’ is deeply disturbing, breaking the silence can nonetheless have constructive consequences.

In addition to offering a more historical understanding of crucifixion, this book illuminates positive new aspects of resurrection, making it a probing read for scholars of biblical studies and for those interested in the interplay of religion and violence.” -https://www.taylorfrancis.com/books/oa-mono/10.4324/9780429289750/crucifixion-jesus-david-tombs.
Apr 09, 202402:15:26
I 💯 promise to never ever again by erotically reckless, sensually reckless, and sexually reckless.

I 💯 promise to never ever again by erotically reckless, sensually reckless, and sexually reckless.

“When it comes to eroticism, sensually, and sexuality, I will never ever again be •rash
•careless
•thoughtless
•incautious
•heedless
•unheeding
•inattentive
•hasty
•overhasty
•precipitate
•precipitous
•impetuous
•impulsive
•daredevil
•devil-may-care
•hotheaded
•irresponsible
•wild
•foolhardy
•headlong
•underadventurous
•overadventurous
•over-venturesome
•under-venturesome
•audacious
•death-or-glory
•ill-advised
•injudicious
•misguided
•harebrained
•madcap
•imprudent
•unwise
•ill-considered
•unconsidered
•ill-conceived
•unthinking
•indiscreet
•mindless
•negligent
•tearaway
•harum-scarum
•bull-in-a-china-shop. I do not condone any part of my sexual past at all whatsoever.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 08, 202401:00:41
Autism presence in The Bible

Autism presence in The Bible

“So, here are 10 more signs he was not a neurotypical: Non-conformist Dislike of authority and hierarchy Low regard of tradition Disregard of social rules High in honesty and humility Highly egalitarian Highly out-group social Stands up for the bullied and underdogs Very accepting of diversity in general (liberal) Non-materialistic and idealistic. In the style of popular blog posts, here are my favourite 10 indications that Jesus was on the spectrum: He went missing as a child and was found debating with wise men He had a temper tantrum/meltdown in the temple To her face, he called his mum “Woman” (lack of social etiquette and empathy) He had an encyclopedic knowledge of scripture (special interest) Had no respect for authority. In fact, he changed the authoritarian God of the Old Testament into a loving and forgiving God “I am not of this world (John 8:23) — wrong planet syndrome Frequent fasting: might have been a sign of gastrointestinal problems total isolation from society (“into the desert”) He slept less: “Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.” His father (Joseph) was originally believed to be elderly when he married Mary and wasn’t alive by the time Jesus was a young adult (only accompanied by his mother).” -Andreas Hofer.


Apr 07, 202401:57:44
The full humanity of Jesus

The full humanity of Jesus

“Jesus is a refugee and an immigrant so he empathizes with DACA. Plus folks tried to push him off of a cliff, tried to stone him, so life is not sugar and rainbows for him. Jesus feels that it is shameful that lack of love is often easy to justify, even though it is never right in his sight. He feels that our neighbor is anyone of any race, creed, or social background who is in need. He also feels that love means acting to meet the person’s need.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 06, 202457:48
Joseph: A Male Sexual Abuse Survivor In The Bible by Ashley Easter (my final church episode.)

Joseph: A Male Sexual Abuse Survivor In The Bible by Ashley Easter (my final church episode.)

“In the Bible we find many stories of abuse and sexual abuse of women, but did you know there are also stories of sexual abuse and sexual harassment of men?

There is the well known story of Sodom and Gomorrah where the Angels, who were perceived to be men, were sexually harassed by the men of the city who wished to violently gang-rape them. Lott took them into his home for safety but tragically offered his daughters to be gang-raped instead. Thankfully the Angels did not allow the young women to be abused in this way. This story is nearly identical to the story of the gang-raped concubine in Judges 19 where the men of the city all gathered with violence on their minds. The only major difference is the concubine was a woman (not a man) and she was raped (not spared like the male Angels).

There were also practices in the Roman empire common in the New Testament times were boys and male slaves could be sexually abused by their owner, master, or benefactor without legal repercussion because they were of a lesser status (this is called pederasty). Some scholars believe that the greek words arsenokoitai and malakoi in 1 Corinthians 6:9 are specifically speaking out against these predatory practices of sexual abuse where a dominant, high status man (viewed as masculine by patriarchal society) would sexually abuse a young boy or slave (seen as “effeminate” because of their lesser power in their patriarchal society). (1)

I have mentioned before that Jesus, who came to earth as a man, experienced a form of sexual abuse on the cross as well. Forced stripping and forced public nakedness falls under the definition of sexual abuse.” -https://www.ashleyeaster.com/blog/male-sexual-abuse-survivor-in-the-bible.
Apr 05, 202431:22
The slimey grimey crime time (my last organized crime episode.)

The slimey grimey crime time (my last organized crime episode.)

“Emotional Instability:

Agitated

Anxious

Dramatic

Emotional

Excitable

Frenetic

Frightened

Hysterical

Insecure

Jittery

Labile

Melancholic

Moody

Nervous

Overemotional

Overwhelmed

Paranoid

Restless

Tense

Thin-skinned

Tremulous

Worrier

Arrogance and Superiority:

Arrogant

Boastful

Conceited

Haughty

Know-it-all

Narcissistic

Patronizing

Pretentious

Smug

Vain

Dishonesty and Deception:

Conniving

Deceitful

Disingenuous

Duplicitous

Liar

Mendacious

Shifty

Sneaky

Untrustworthy

Antisocial Behavior:

Abusive

Aggressive

Aloof

Anti-social

Belligerent

Brutal

Bullying

Criminal

Cruel

Destructive

Hostile

Jealous

Malicious

Manipulative

Ruthless

Sadistic

Violent

Judgemental and Close-Mindedness:

Bigoted

Dogmatic

Intolerant

Judgemental

Narrow-minded

Xenophobic

Inconsideration and Rudeness:

Abrasive

Blunt

Callous

Careless

Disrespectful

Inconsiderate

Insensitive

Rude

Tactless

Uncaring

Uncharitable

Unfriendly

Laziness and Irresponsibility:

Apathetic

Complacent

Indolent

Lazy

Procrastinator

Irresponsible

Undisciplined

Insecurity and Lack of Confidence:

Cowardly

Insecure

Timid

Unconfident

Pessimism and Negativity:

Bitter

Cynical

Negative

Pessimistic

Resentful

Sulky

Impulsiveness and Lack of Self-Control:

Compulsive

Impatient

Impetuous

Impulsive

Reckless

Immaturity and Childishness:

Foolish

Frivolous

Immature

Juvenile

Silly

Self-Centeredness:

Egocentric

Hedonistic

Self-centered

Self-destructive

Selfish

Odd and Strange Behavior:

Bizarre

Idiosyncratic

Odd

Strange. -https://prowritingaid.com/inspiration-decks/character-traits. All of these traits describe the criminals of my childhood.” Antonio Myers.
Apr 04, 202418:51
I have peace in my heart regarding the world of religion (my final episode on the faith community.)

I have peace in my heart regarding the world of religion (my final episode on the faith community.)

“I don’t fuss and fight with people who oppose tattoos, profanity, and believe in the Levitical Laws and the Deuteronomy Codes. I experience tranquility, calmness, restfulness, and peace with people of faith.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 03, 202426:38
The beauty of secularity (my final episode on the secular community.)

The beauty of secularity (my final episode on the secular community.)

“The secular community are of civility, neighborliness, community awareness, service, empathy, kindness, integrity, compassion, honesty, reasoning, curiosity, critical thinking, communication, resourcefulness, reflection, motivation, self-discipline, leadership, perseverance, determination, and resilience.” -Antonio Myers.
Apr 02, 202425:04
Verbal sex coaching adult films and non-verbal sex coaching adult films (last sex/porn/erotic episode.)

Verbal sex coaching adult films and non-verbal sex coaching adult films (last sex/porn/erotic episode.)

“There are survivors of sexual dysfunction and neurodiverse adults who are saying that adult films need to show verbal sexual consolation, non-verbal sexual consolation, verbal sexual consultation, and non-verbal sexual consultation. We’re saying that adult films need to show the protective mechanisms from being fractured, shattered, hurt, ruptured, splintered, smashed, in pieces, collapsed, destroyed, pulverized, crumbled, mutilated, bruised, injured, damaged, rent, split, cracked, mangled, dismembered, fragmentary, disintegrated, shredded, crushed, gashed, defective, and busted.
We are also saying that adult films need to show co-stars physically and innerly keeping each other from falling, from lacking erotic stability, and from having unbalanced/unrounded/unadjusted/non-unified sex. We decided to have audio, written, video/visual adult films that are corrective and curative for us.
So many adult films when it comes to us are not functioning properly, inoperable, in need of repair, in disrepair, out of order, disorderly conduct, gone haywire, out of whack, gone to pieces, on the fritz, on the blink, faulty, incoherent, unintelligible, mumbled, muttered, discontinuous, spasmodic, erratic, intermittent, irregular, shot, screwed up, ineffective, unsuccessful, not whole, not intact, not sound, internally crippled, and gone to pot. It is okay for adult film co-stars to ask each other, but more importantly, honor the most the favorites and least favorites of sexual needs, sexual desires, and the sexual dynamics. Sex had its own special effects, camera angles, camera shots, visual effects, sound effects, camera expressions, camera movements, and mechanical effects. When it comes to sex, the entire bodies and entire souls of the lovers are perfect to me. Entire body exploration in every which way and entire soul exploration in every which way are sexual necessities.” Antonio Myers.
Apr 01, 202401:05:24
The sexual past of both my pre-adolescence and my adolescence. Final episode on this topic.

The sexual past of both my pre-adolescence and my adolescence. Final episode on this topic.

“General Guidelines for Sex Ed: Ideally, we should start having conversations and reading books with our kids by age five when they're still open, curious and unembarrassed. By age nine they become more modest and by 12...yeah, better not to start at 12 unless you enjoy being scrutinized, critiqued, and shut down by your kids. That doesn't mean don't talk about this stuff when they're tweens and teens (definitely do), but if you've been doing it all along in age-appropriate ways, it won't be totally awkward. ​ Early on we want to teach out kids about body parts, safe touch, and how babies are (usually) made. We want to teach about consent in general (see page on Boundaries & Consent) and consent regarding sex specifically. - We need to explicitly tell our kids that people only engage in sexual touching when everyone agrees. - We need to explicitly say that sex is not for kids and EVERY big kid and adult knows that. - We need to explicitly say that an adult should never ask them to keep a secret because adults know that children don't keep secrets from their parents when they're young. ​ Around age eight we want them to know their body is going to change so we want to make sure the topic of puberty is normalized. ​ By late middle school kids should know all about sex -- the different kinds, their values, birth control, and STIs, so that when sexual experimenting and dating starts they can make good choices for themselves. ​ Teens who have recurring conversations with their parents about sex-related topics are more likely to delay sex until they are older, and use birth control when they do become sexually active. If you're clear about what you want for them, they'll be more likely to adopt similar hopes so give them a clear message about your personal values and beliefs about sex and relationships. Believe it or not, most teens name their parents as the biggest influence in their decisions about sex. ​ We want kids to know their personal limits before they go out on a date with someone. We can encourage them to consider how far they're willing to go that night with that particular person. We also want them to have as clear a sense as possible about what their personal rules are. For example, how many dates before there's any physical touch, what they're willing to do and not do in a car or public place, etc. Of course they're not robots and they also possess impulsive teenage brains so they may not always stick to the rules but having guidelines in place helps in the heat of the moment. You may also decide to have family rules about dating. Maybe your child has to bring home their love interest at least twice before there's a private date. It's our job to help our kids be savvy daters and relaters.” “Just to be clear, sex positive parenting does NOT mean teaching your kids to go ahead and have sex anywhere with anyone or multiple people at the same time. ​ Sex positive parenting is the philosophy that sexuality is a natural, healthy and positive part of childhood, adolescence and adulthood and that children deserve to be educated about it. ​ A major goal of sex positive parenting is for kids to engage in sexual activity only when they're socially, emotionally and physically ready. Ideally, they come away from their first sexual experience feeling like they made a good decision, and that sex is a positive part of life.” -https://www.thefeministparent.com/mixed-messages-confusion.
Apr 01, 202432:19
Many women gave me mixed messages about sex, sexuality, romance, living arrangements, sensuality, dating, marriage, kids, pets, & eroticism.

Many women gave me mixed messages about sex, sexuality, romance, living arrangements, sensuality, dating, marriage, kids, pets, & eroticism.

“My relationships with women consist of due regard, consideration, thoughtfulness, honor, attentiveness, politeness, courtesy, civility, deference, high regard, high opinion, reverence, veneration, appreciation, approbation, recognition, acclaim, sensitivity, gentleness, generosity, and respect.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 31, 202447:47
Resolving and solving work-family conflict

Resolving and solving work-family conflict

“How does an inactive lifestyle affect your body?
When you have an inactive lifestyle,:

You burn fewer calories. This makes you more likely to gain weight.
You may lose muscle strength and endurance, because you are not using your muscles as much
Your bones may get weaker and lose some mineral content
Your metabolism may be affected, and your body may have more trouble breaking down fats and sugars
Your immune system may not work as well
You may have poorer blood circulation
Your body may have more inflammation
You may develop a hormonal imbalance. “How can I be more active around the house?
There are some ways you can be active around your house:

Housework, gardening, and yard work are all physical work. To increase the intensity, you could try doing them at a more vigorous pace.
Keep moving while you watch TV. Lift hand weights, do some gentle yoga stretches, or pedal an exercise bike. Instead of using the TV remote, get up and change the channels yourself.
Work out at home with a workout video (on your TV or on the internet)
Go for a walk in your neighborhood. It can be more fun if you walk your dog, walk your kids to school, or walk with a friend.
Stand up when talking on the phone
Get some exercise equipment for your home. Treadmills and elliptical trainers are great, but not everyone has the money or space for one. Less expensive equipment such as yoga balls, exercise mats, stretch bands, and hand weights can help you get a workout at home too.
How can I be more active at work?
Most of us sit when we are working, often in front of a computer. In fact, less than 20% of Americans have physically active jobs. It can be challenging to fit physical activity into your busy workday, but here are some tips to help you get moving:

Get up from your chair and move around at least once an hour
Stand when you are talking on the phone
Find out whether your company can get you a stand-up or treadmill desk
Take the stairs instead of the elevator
Use your break or part of your lunch hour to walk around the building
Stand up and walk to a colleague's office instead of sending an email
Have "walking" or standing meetings with co-workers instead of sitting in a conference room.” -https://medlineplus.gov/healthrisksofaninactivelifestyle.html. “I am applying all of this good advice to my life.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 31, 202438:27
Many mothers of autistic children (Autism moms), many black women, and many church women are urging me to be their husband and father of their children.

Many mothers of autistic children (Autism moms), many black women, and many church women are urging me to be their husband and father of their children.

“In the intersection of work and personal life, the work–life balance is the equilibrium between the two. There are many aspects of one's personal life that can intersect with work, including family, leisure, and health. A work–life balance is bidirectional; for instance, work can interfere with private life, and private life can interfere with work. This balance or interface can be adverse in nature (e.g., work–life conflict) or can be beneficial (e.g., work–life enrichment) in nature.[1] Recent research has shown that the work–life interface has become more boundary-less, especially for technology-enabled workers.[2][3][4][5]” -Wikipedia.

"When I read Dianne M. Stewart’s “Black Women, Black Love: America’s War on African American Marriage,” I felt seen in her descriptions of the systemic forces working against us. Stewart lays out the issue masterfully when she says, “Most heterosexual Black women in America today, whether parenting offspring or not, are single by circumstance, not by choice.” Stewart continues, “The trouble is not with Black women failing to value marriage; it is the shrinking demographic of those whom Black women want to marry . . . In some cases, Black women lack dating prospects within their socioeconomic group, and in other cases, they don’t have any dating prospects at all!”

She characterizes Black women’s lack of opportunities for love and marriage with Black men as “the nation’s most hidden and thus neglected civil rights issue to date.” Stewart provides the historical receipts that reveal Black love as a contested site in this nation and details the way that the “war on African American marriage” was waged in the past and present." _ Ekemini Uwan.

"I have always found the idea of blaming the autistic child for the deterioration of marriage unfair to autistic people. Yet, when my own marriage ended, I couldn’t help but wonder if any of those ideas behind the eighty per-cent divorce rates and autism might in some way be true.

A single mom of an autistic child for several years now, I’ve seen that when relationships fall apart, we begin by looking outside ourselves for the external causes to blame. No matter what the circumstance, illness, disability, death are the certainties of a full life. We make vows for better or for worse, even if most of us want the “better.” Frequent divorce seems to reflect the advent of the re-start button — an impatient, quickly gratified culture with many options at our fingertips, and a waning attention span. It’s perhaps an unforgiving view about what as I see as the marriage du jour — the one that bypasses commitment. Even so, two people who come together with the best of intentions (or delusions), sometimes cannot endure the stress when faced with life’s many challenges. This has nothing to do with autism.

Consider some of our flippant views about marriage and commitment against the last decade of autism in the media. The media and many in the medical field created an environment of fascination and fear about autism. Most parents relate to the panic we felt on the day of the official autism diagnosis. We heard and read that we had a six year window in which to cure our children. That is, we were told that if our children didn’t talk and lose those autism behaviors by the age of six, our children were doomed to be autistic for the rest of their lives. With such pressure, as individuals and couples, we can be extremely challenged. Coping with stress and even grief is different for all people. Press restart?

It shouldn’t come as a surprise, then, that autism is frequently blamed by some autism charities, and in the media, for divorce. When we blame something else other than ourselves, such as perpetuating the notion that autism is to blame, the innocent autistic child is targeted." _Estée Klar.

Mar 30, 202435:07
How do I meet my romantic needs & my sexual needs? Yes, I am still open to my autism mom companion.

How do I meet my romantic needs & my sexual needs? Yes, I am still open to my autism mom companion.

“Benefits of being an autistic mother:

Our clinical experience is that there are many benefits to being an autistic mother. These include creating a home environment where neurodiversity is accepted and admired, as well as encouraging knowledge, creativity, and originality in problem-solving. There is empathy for being bullied, teased, socially rejected and humiliated and a determination to prevent their autistic child having those experiences.

Autistic mothers ensure there is consistency and routine in daily activities and expectations. There is a preference for logic rather than obedience and seeking opportunities to boost their autistic child’s self-confidence. Autistic mothers can easily explain their autistic child’s social and sensory perception to peers and teachers and encourage an understanding and acceptance of autism that may not have been experienced in their childhood.” -By Professor Tony Attwood and Dr Michelle Garnett.
Mar 29, 202448:23
Final episode on the good parts of mainstream porn entities (human rights champion adult performers.)

Final episode on the good parts of mainstream porn entities (human rights champion adult performers.)

“Porn performers aren’t respected in our society and nothing underlines this fact better than the Stormy Daniels/Donald Trump scandal. When the world learned that President Trump had tried to buy porn performer Stormy Daniel’s silence about their affair before the 2016 election, she was the one who was skewered in the court of public opinion. Trump, on the other hand, emerged unscathed.
This is business as usual when it comes to the treatment of porn performers in our society. Porn actors aren’t seen as worthy of respect.
As model Amber Rose told Marlow Stern, Senior Entertainment Editor of The Daily Beast:
“Porn stars are here for our convenience. Everyone uses them when they want to use them and then throws them away after. We don’t respect them enough.”
Stereotyped and stigmatized, porn performers are denied their humanity. It doesn’t make a difference that the stereotypes aren’t true.
Feminist porn director, Erika Lust, told Dazed:
“It’s often assumed that to be an adult performer you’re troubled, on drugs, have money problems and no self-esteem. Even though those cases certainly exist, it’s not a fair judgment to pass on to everyone who chooses to do adult films, and it’s not my experience at all.”
When society denies that porn performers are three-dimensional beings with the same needs and desires as other people, this creates a world in which it’s okay to deny them their rights.” -https://aninjusticemag.com/its-time-to-stop-the-unfair-violation-of-porn-performers-rights-3f9c9b153e87.
Mar 28, 202444:20
My final episode on porn etiquette

My final episode on porn etiquette

“2. Porn overemphasizes visual stimuli
Researchers have gone back and forth on whether cisgender men’s and women’s brains differ in their responses to sexual imagery. The latest research appears to show that there’s no difference.
Either way, I know that the way I like to have sex has been shaped by watching porn, rather than, say, reading or listening to it.
Along with showing a variety of penetrative sex positions, the typical porn scene features an assortment of camera angles. These often focus on women’s butts, boobs, and vaginas, while minimizing shots of the men’s bodies other than their penis.
Male pornstars have talked about this: “You need to get yourself in uncomfortable positions, because it disconnects you from the scene. And it allows the audience to put themselves in.”
This has definitely distorted how I show up in the bedroom. It’s hard to imagine feeling pleasure if I closed my eyes or was wearing a blindfold.
Just like with the emphasis on penetration, focusing on vision is a narrow way to experience sex. There are sensations, sounds, words, tastes, smells, and who knows what else floating around the room.
In fact, a new study found that people who place more value on their sense of smell in romantic encounters consistently had a stronger sexual desire for their partners.
Fortunately, there are now a number of sites the feature audio porn. “Audio really stimulates someone’s inner life, their imagination, which is fertile ground for sexual fantasy,” writer and host of the “Why Are People Into That?!” podcast Tina Horn told Men’s Health. There’s also erotica, or written word porn.” -https://jeremymohler.medium.com/5-ways-porn-conditions-men-to-have-worse-sex-cc3bf4f6c777
Mar 28, 202453:12
Female misogynists within my youth (The Nice Girl Syndrome)

Female misogynists within my youth (The Nice Girl Syndrome)

“The Misogynistic Puritan

The Misogynistic Puritan takes the ideal woman to be domestic, subservient, nurturing, kind, mild-tempered, alluring, youthful, and sexually pure prior to marriage. She has adopted this feminine ideal from her misogynistic husband, family or acquaintances.
She takes herself to be pretty darn close to the feminine ideal. She is subservient, always standing behind her man as a solid pillar of support.
She hates women who deviate from the feminine ideal and takes it to be her life's mission to find ways to discipline them and ultimately get them on the "right track. The Misogynistic Self-Critic

The Misogynistic Self-Critic is disdainful toward women who are not very feminine, whether it’s because they choose not to be or because they are just bad at acting in a traditional way—for instance, women she takes to be too fat, too big, too masculine, too angry, too loud, too competitive, too hardcore, or too alpha.
She is in favor of traditional gender roles and will use any opportunity she gets to preach their social virtue. Men should be dominant alphas, women should be soft and compliant.
She may regard herself as one of the feminine misfits. The Misogynistic Self-Loather

The Misogynistic Self-Loather has adopted a general attitude of contempt toward every one of her own “filthy” kind, including herself.
She regards women, including herself, as promiscuous, manipulative, dishonest, irrational, incompetent or unintelligent.
She tends to be in denial about her own self-loathing but not usually about her contempt for other women.” -https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-mysteries-love/201908/12-ways-spot-female-misogynist.
Mar 27, 202452:24
Laius Complex, Parentification, Jocasta Complex, Phaedra Complex, Oedipus Complex, and Electra Complex.

Laius Complex, Parentification, Jocasta Complex, Phaedra Complex, Oedipus Complex, and Electra Complex.

“I talk about The Sexual Covert Incest, The Sexual Jocasta Complex, Sexual Laius Complex, Sexual Parentification, Sexual Phaedra Complex, The Sexual Oedipus Complex,
and The Sexual Electra Complex.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 27, 202455:13
Sexual acute trauma, sexual complex trauma, sexual chronic trauma, sexual secondary trauma, sexual vicarious trauma, sexual trauma bonding, and sexually adverse childhood experiences (SACEs.)

Sexual acute trauma, sexual complex trauma, sexual chronic trauma, sexual secondary trauma, sexual vicarious trauma, sexual trauma bonding, and sexually adverse childhood experiences (SACEs.)

“Trauma bonds (also referred to as traumatic bonds) are emotional bonds that arise from a cyclical pattern of abuse. A trauma bond occurs in an abusive relationship wherein the victim forms an emotional bond with the perpetrator.[1] The concept was developed by psychologists Donald Dutton and Susan Painter.[2][3][4]

Two main factors involved in the establishment of a trauma bond are a power imbalance and intermittent reward and punishment.[2][1][5] Trauma bonding can occur within romantic relationships, platonic friendships, parent-child relationships, incestuous relationships, cults, hostage situations, sex trafficking (especially that of minors), or tours of duty among military personnel.[2][6]

Trauma bonds are based on terror, dominance, and unpredictability. As the trauma bond between an abuser and a victim strengthens, it can lead to cyclical patterns of conflicting emotions. Frequently, victims in trauma bonds do not have agency, autonomy, or an individual sense of self. Their self-image is an internalization of the abuser's conceptualization of them.[7]

Trauma bonds have severe detrimental effects on the victim. Some long-term impacts of trauma bonding include remaining in abusive relationships, adverse mental health outcomes like low self-esteem, negative self-image, an increased likelihood of depression and bipolar disorder, and perpetuating a generational cycle of abuse.[1][5][8][9] Victims who develop trauma bonds are often unable or unwilling to leave these relationships. Many abuse victims who experience trauma bonding return to the abusive relationship.[10][11]” -Wikipedia.
Mar 27, 202401:09:14
Double living also known as living a double life is cancerous to inner living and outer living.

Double living also known as living a double life is cancerous to inner living and outer living.

“My past double-living makes me feel sad, unhappy, sorrowful, dejected, regretful, depressed, downcast, miserable, downhearted, down, despondent, despairing, disconsolate, out of sorts, desolate, bowed down, wretched, glum, gloomy, doleful, dismal, blue, melancholy, melancholic, low-spirited, mournful, woeful, woebegone, forlorn, crestfallen, broken-hearted, heartbroken, inconsolable, grief-stricken, down in the mouth, and down.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 26, 202441:02
My vocational singleness, my vocational child-freedom, my vocational pet-freedom, my vocational living alone.

My vocational singleness, my vocational child-freedom, my vocational pet-freedom, my vocational living alone.

“Vocational singleness also known as perpetual singleness means my permanently not being married, my permanent not having pets, my permanently not having children, my permanently living all by myself. I mention that I am the least excited about romantic intimacy.” Antonio Myers.
Mar 26, 202434:01
Traumatic self-medication and fake relationships of my past. I 💯 revealed all of my past traumas.

Traumatic self-medication and fake relationships of my past. I 💯 revealed all of my past traumas.

“Self-medication, sometime called do-it-yourself (DIY) medicine, is a human behavior in which an individual uses a substance or any exogenous influence to self-administer treatment for physical or psychological conditions, for example headaches or fatigue.

The substances most widely used in self-medication are over-the-counter drugs and dietary supplements, which are used to treat common health issues at home. These do not require a doctor's prescription to obtain and, in some countries, are available in supermarkets and convenience stores.[1]

The field of psychology surrounding the use of psychoactive drugs is often specifically in relation to the use of recreational drugs, alcohol, comfort food, and other forms of behavior to alleviate symptoms of mental distress, stress and anxiety,[2] including mental illnesses or psychological trauma.[3][4] Such treatment may cause serious detriment to physical and mental health if motivated by addictive mechanisms.[5] In postsecondary (university and college) students, self-medication with "study drugs" such as Adderall, Ritalin, and Concerta has been widely reported and discussed in literature.[5]

Products are marketed by manufacturers as useful for self-medication, sometimes on the basis of questionable evidence. Claims that nicotine has medicinal value have been used to market cigarettes as self-administered medicines. These claims have been criticized as inaccurate by independent researchers.[6][7] Unverified and unregulated third-party health claims are used to market dietary supplements.[8]

Self-medication is often seen as gaining personal independence from established medicine,[9] and it can be seen as a human right, implicit in, or closely related to the right to refuse professional medical treatment.[10] Self-medication can cause unintentional self-harm.[11] Self-medication with antibiotics has been identified as one of the primary reasons for the evolution of antimicrobial resistance.[12]

Sometimes self-medication or DIY medicine occurs because patients disagree with a doctor's interpretation of their condition,[13] to access experimental therapies that are not available to the public,[14][15] or because of legal bans on healthcare, as in the case of some transgender people[16] or women seeking self-induced abortion.[17] Other reasons for relying on DIY medical care is to avoid health care prices in the United States[18] and anarchist beliefs.[19]” -Wikipedia
Mar 25, 202433:35
Final episode on monogamy, marriage, unmarried life partnerships: affair recovery & affair recuperation.

Final episode on monogamy, marriage, unmarried life partnerships: affair recovery & affair recuperation.

“Types of Affair Relationships
You might hear an affair being referred to as a romantic affair, an emotional affair, or even a cyber affair. Some people simply call it being unfaithful or cheating, though variations of the term "affair" have been adopted by some in consensually nonmonogamous relationships as well. Common types of affairs include the following.

Romantic Affair
Affairs may be romantic, which can be referred to as an "affair of the heart." Romantic affairs are commonly in the form of sexual liaisons that include some level of romance and emotional attachment.

When agreed to by both parties in a relationship, the term may also be used to describe a form of non-monogamy, though this is less common.

Casual Affair
A casual affair is most commonly considered a mainly physical sexual relationship between two people without the expectation of a more formalized romantic relationship. It may also be referred to as a "fling." Emotional Affair
A platonic or nonsexual relationship may also be considered an affair. An emotional affair lacks sexual intimacy but has intense or enduring emotional intimacy.

Emotional affairs can easily evolve into sexual affairs and be just as threatening to the primary relationship. Even when this type of affair doesn't cross the line into becoming physical, the impact can be just as detrimental. The intimacy involved in emotional affairs can often be deeper and more intense than the intimacy in a solely sexual affair.

Cyber Affair
An online or cyber affair is one that occurs online via chat, webcam, email, or text. It may be anonymous, or it may be between people who only know basic information about one another, such as their names, but have never met. Or it may occur online with someone the person knows in real life. Quite often, a cyber affair has emotional and/or sexual undertones.2 The partners involved in a cyber affair may never meet in person, but the emotional connection and often sensual nature of the affair can strain the committed relationships that one or both of the affair participants are in.

Sanctioned Affair
The term "affair" might also be used to describe part of an agreement within an open marriage or relationship. With a sanctioned affair, a couple agrees upon which forms of sex or emotional intimacy are permitted with someone other than their primary partner. These may include swinging, dating, polyamory, and ménages à trois or group sex.3

An open marriage or consensual nonmonogamy that works for both parties has to play by the rules that they agreed upon at the start. Otherwise, this type of affair is no longer "sanctioned." -https://www.verywellmind.com/marriage-affair-2303083
Mar 25, 202451:34
No safety in infidelity, the dangers of cheating in relationships (final affairs episode.)

No safety in infidelity, the dangers of cheating in relationships (final affairs episode.)

“What are the main reasons why people cheat?

Do men stray more than women?
Men have always been more likely than women to cheat, or at least to report having done so, but researchers have noticed a shift in recent years: 16 percent of adults—about 20 percent of men and 13 percent of women—report that they’ve had sex with someone other than their spouse while married. But among adults under 30 who have ever been married, 11 percent of women report having committed infidelity, as opposed to 10 percent of men.
Why do most people stay faithful?
As widespread as infidelity may be, a substantial majority of romantic partners do not stray. One recent survey found that the primary reason individuals remained faithful, not surprisingly, was that they were satisfied in their relationship. But the second-most-common reason was worry that cheating would make them feel guilty, and the third-most-cited reason was fear that their own partner would retaliate by cheating on them.
Why do some partners wrongly accuse each other of cheating?
Many couples struggle when one partner wrongly believes the other has been, or continues to be, unfaithful. But research into such dynamics finds that an individual’s belief that they are being betrayed tends to some extent to indicate that they themselves are having thoughts about someone outside their relationship. In other words, they were projecting their own wandering eye onto their partner.


Are there couples that embrace infidelity?
Many partners are in committed but open relationships, a cohort that demographic research finds to be growing. But a smaller group of couples embrace cuckolding, which typically involves a man encouraging his female partner to have sex with another man while he watches them, or is set up to happen upon them. Research finds that voyeurism, masochism, the thrill of the taboo, female empowerment, bisexuality, and misogyny may all play into this drive.” -Psychology Today.
Mar 25, 202401:01:31
(Final episode on these subjects) emotional maturity womanizing, emotional maturity manizing, and emotional maturity non-binary-izing.

(Final episode on these subjects) emotional maturity womanizing, emotional maturity manizing, and emotional maturity non-binary-izing.

"Here Are 10 Signs of Emotional Maturity:

1. Being Flexible- It’s all too easy to assume things will go according to plan, or that a situation or event will go smoothly because it has each time in the past. When it doesn’t (and that is often a “when” than an “if”), an emotionally mature person is able to think things out and come up with a viable Plan B or even C as needed so that a situation can be dealt with, and still move forward not letting the bump in the road ruin the entire plan.
2. Taking Ownership & Responsibility- An emotionally mature person is able to own up to their own mistakes and not immediately look to blame others. This takes a level of self-honesty and acceptance. If things keep on going wrong, an emotionally mature person will look inwards for answers as to what thoughts or actions may be contributing to the situation and works towards a better understanding and course of action moving forward.
3. Knowing That They Don’t Know Everything- An emotionally mature person knows what they don’t know, and also knows that their own way of doing things may not be the only way or even the best way. They don’t argue “just to be right” or to show dominance to be in charge. They keep an open mind and have open ears and eyes to look for situations where they may be able to learn something, as well as know when they may have something positive to contribute to a situation that can help others.
4. They Look for Learning and Growth From Every Opportunity- An emotionally mature person is on the lookout for what can be learned from any situation or opportunity, and searches for the growth opportunity within it, asking “How can I learn and grow from this?”
5. They Actively Seek Out Multiple Points of View To Help Inform Their Own- Emotionally mature people actively seek to inform their own opinions by actively seeking out the points of view of others. They don’t feel threatened by disagreement, but look to be informed by people, and aren’t afraid to question both their own convictions, knowing that they don’t exist in a vacuum. It’s not about an argument to prove who is right; it’s about wanting to be informed by different points of view to further clarify their own points of view, or recognizing that perhaps their point of view may even be wrong.
6. They Stay Resilient- In the face of upsets, setbacks, or disappointments, an emotionally mature person will acknowledge their feelings, identify what can be done, and then decide what steps to take to move on.
7. They Have a Calm Disposition- Emotionally mature people do get mad but do not let the emotion dictate their response. They aim to have a clear mind with the goal of having rationality dictate how to effectively deal with a situation and also see all of the available options to come to a successful resolution. They know that when emotions override rationality, clearness of thought gets blurred and can limit the options for dealing effectively.
8. They Believe in Themselves- Emotionally mature people don’t have a false sense of self that is ego-based and deluded. But they do have optimism in their own ability to use effort and patience as a way to establish the belief that they are equipped to deal with whatever life may through their way.
9. Approachability- Emotionally mature people are able to and prefer to talk WITH people, not AT them. They have genuine empathy for others, an open mind, and work towards not being judgmental of others, knowing that judgments are often based on preconceived notions can impede their ability to know someone and their truth.
10. A Good Sense of Humor– Emotionally mature people realize that all of life can’t be taken seriously. They do realize the importance of getting done what needs to get done, but they realize the importance of having fun and laughter in life as a great coping mechanism and pressure release from stress." -
10 Signs of Emotional Maturity - American Behavioral Clinics


Mar 25, 202426:43
Healthy monogamy, healthy unmarried life relationships, and healthy marriages.

Healthy monogamy, healthy unmarried life relationships, and healthy marriages.

“The concept of limerence "provides a particular carving up of the semantic domain of love",[16] and represents an attempt at a scientific study of the nature of love.[17] Limerence is considered to be an emotional and motivational state,[9] attachment process[18][10] or even obsession.[11] It is typically experienced involuntarily[19] and is characterized by intrusive preoccupation[20][21] and a strong desire for reciprocation of one's feelings.[22][23]

For Tennov, sexual desire is an essential aspect of limerence[24] but the desire for emotional commitment is greater.[25] The sexual desires of Tennov's interviewees were overshadowed by their desire for their beloved to contact them, invite them out and reciprocate their passion.[26]

A central feature of limerence for Tennov was the fact that her participants really saw the object of their affection's personal flaws, but simply overlooked them or found them attractive.[27][28] Tennov calls this "crystallization", after a description by Stendhal in his 1821 treatise On Love. This "crystallized" version of a love object, with accentuated features, is what Tennov calls a "limerent object", or "LO".[29]” -Wikipedia
Mar 24, 202444:28
Rules for healthy womanizing, healthy man-izing, healthy non-binary-izing, healthy non-monogamy, and healthy promiscuity.
Mar 24, 202434:19
Final episode of my being a Christian kid in the crime world (I mostly used the dictionary.)

Final episode of my being a Christian kid in the crime world (I mostly used the dictionary.)

“I used my spiritual gifts of being an apostle, prophet, evangelist, pastor, teacher, service, exhortation, giving, leading, mercy, word of wisdom, word of knowledge, faith, gifts of healing, working of miracles, visions, discerning of spirits, tongues, interpretations of tongues, helps, administration, fellowship, hospitality, intercession, effective witnessing, composing spiritual music/spiritual poetry/spiritual prose, interpretation of dreams, and craftsmanship to overcome the organized crime part of my childhood. I used the Seven gifts of the Holy Spirit to overcame the family dysfunction such as wisdom, understanding, counsel, fortitude, knowledge, piety, and fear of the Lord. I used the Nine Fruits of the Holy Spirit to overcome the dysfunctional home I was raised in such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Organized crime has both the seven deadly sins and the works of the flesh. Many people in church have told me as an adult that I possess the spiritual gifts of both marriage and celibacy.” -Antonio Myers:
Mar 24, 202401:09:00
My final episode on my compound childhood traumas (100% freestyled this episode.)

My final episode on my compound childhood traumas (100% freestyled this episode.)

I am daily healing and recovering from all of these traumas. “The Types of Trauma
There are several different types of trauma, with differing consequences for mental health.

Acute trauma reflects intense distress in the immediate aftermath of a one-time event of short duration. The reaction itself is short-term, resolving on its own or with the help of counseling. A car crash, physical or sexual assault, the sudden death of a loved one, or even a medical emergency can create acute trauma.

Chronic trauma refers to the harmful effects of events that are repeated or prolonged. It can develop in response to persistent bullying, neglect, abuse (emotional, physical, or sexual), and domestic violence. Because of its repeated nature and inescapability, chronic trauma often has serious mental health consequences for individuals.

Complex trauma can arise from experiencing repeated or multiple traumatic events of differing types from which there is no possibility of escape, such as repeated child abuse. The sense of being trapped is a feature of the experience. Like other types of trauma, it can undermine a sense of safety in the world and beget hypervigilance, and constant (and exhausting!) monitoring of the environment for the possibility of threat. Complex trauma experienced in childhood has been associated with the development of borderline personality disorder as well as PTSD.

Secondary, or vicarious, trauma arises from exposure to other people’s suffering and can strike those in professions that are called on to respond to injury and mayhem, notably physicians, first responders, and law enforcement. Over time, such individuals are at risk for compassion fatigue, whereby they avoid investing emotionally in other people in an attempt to protect themselves from experiencing distress.

Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) cover a wide range of difficult—and potentially traumatic—situations that children under the age of 17 either directly face or witness while growing up before they have developed effective coping skills. ACEs typically disrupt the nurturing bond between children and caregivers and can negatively affect the normal course of development; the emotional injury can last long into adulthood. The loss of a parent; neglect; emotional, physical, or sexual abuse; and divorce are among the most common types of adverse childhood experiences. Research has shown that the more ACEs a person experiences, the greater their risk for future mental and physical health problems. Child health experts are increasingly attuned to checking for ACEs; it is believed that mitigating or preventing ACEs could prevent many future cases of depression, heart disease, and other common disorders.” -Psychology Today.
Mar 23, 202430:44
Final episode on crime (I freestyled most words) & I do discuss the womanizing & manizing in crime.

Final episode on crime (I freestyled most words) & I do discuss the womanizing & manizing in crime.

“What Is a Womanizer?

A womanizer is someone who has multiple sexual encounters or relationships with more than one woman on a regular basis. While single people can sometimes live this lifestyle without hurting anyone, womanizers may pose as wanting a monogamous relationship but lie to their partner about who they’re seeing on the side.

Sometimes, womanizers will lead women on, allowing them to think that they want something serious or are in love with them. In reality, the womanizer simply wants as many women as possible, whether for sex or just attention.” -WedMD. “What Is a Manizer?

A manizer is someone who has multiple sexual encounters or relationships with more than one man on a regular basis. While single people can sometimes live this lifestyle without hurting anyone, manizer may pose as wanting a monogamous relationship but lie to their partner about who they’re seeing on the side.

Sometimes, manizers will lead men on, allowing them to think that they want something serious or are in love with them. In reality, the manizer simply wants as many men as possible, whether for sex or just attention.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 23, 202401:03:53
Final episode on my past serial womanizing out of trauma, and my mom’s brother's monstrous womanizing. I freestyled every word.

Final episode on my past serial womanizing out of trauma, and my mom’s brother's monstrous womanizing. I freestyled every word.

“Hypermasculinity is a psychological and sociological term for the exaggeration of male stereotypical behavior, such as an emphasis on physical strength, aggression, and human male sexuality. In the field of clinical psychology, this term has been used ever since the publication of research by Donald L. Mosher and Mark Sirkin in 1984. Mosher and Sirkin operationally define hypermasculinity or the "macho personality" as consisting of three variables:

Callous sexual attitudes toward women
The belief that violence is manly
The experience of danger as exciting
They developed the Hypermasculinity Inventory (HMI) designed to measure the three components.[1] Research has found that hypermasculinity is associated with sexual and physical aggression towards women[2][3][4] and perceived gay men.[2] Prisoners have higher hypermasculinity scores than control groups.[5]” -Wikipedia.
Mar 22, 202401:05:37
Final episode of sexual sickness (sexual sociopathy and sexual psychopathy.) Sexual personality-disordered individuals exist. I used choosing therapy.com to help me out.

Final episode of sexual sickness (sexual sociopathy and sexual psychopathy.) Sexual personality-disordered individuals exist. I used choosing therapy.com to help me out.

“Impacts of Sex With a Narcissist

If you’re intimate with a sexual narcissist, you may chronically feel “not good enough,” regardless of how you perform sexually. You may develop a negative body image, have patterns of self-invalidation, and experience shame and low self-worth. Long-term, sex with a narcissist may lead to difficulty trusting future sexual partners, trauma symptoms, or even the development of PTSD.

Impacts of sex with a narcissist include:

Low self-esteem
Body image issues
Self-invalidation (e.g., telling yourself you’re selfish for having sexual needs)
Shame and secret-keeping from loved ones
Decrease in sexual desire (specifically with the sexual narcissist, or in general)
Consequences of blackmail
Difficulty trusting future sexual partners
Trauma symptoms and/or PTSD
How to Respond to Sexual Narcissism

How you respond to sexual narcissism depends largely on the nature of the relationship. Is this a one-night stand or a long-term relationship? Are you committed to this person or want to exit the relationship? As a rule of thumb, partners of sexual narcissists should be careful not to reinforce unwanted behaviors while engaging in sex; avoid giving the indication that the sexual narcissist’s behavior is wanted or enjoyable when possible (e.g., by moaning or smiling).

You may try setting boundaries around sex, in which case it’s important that you’re firm in asserting your needs, as wavering may invite a sexual narcissist to violate and push your limits. Name the unacceptable behavior clearly (“Do not choke me during sex”) and restate the assertion as many times is needed. If the sexual narcissist tries to make it about their needs (“But this is what turns me on”), redirect the attention back to yourself.

Boundaries are helpful with a sexual narcissist outside of the bedroom as well. Because sexual narcissists often cheat to avoid the intimacy and vulnerability that comes with a committed relationship, you may want to express to your partner your limits around infidelity. Individual therapy or couples counseling are both helpful resources for discussing sexual narcissists’ patterns and determining how and whether to proceed in the relationship.

Ultimately, it may be in your best interest to walk away, in which case it’s worth educating yourself on what a narcissist does at the end of a relationship. Regardless of how you choose to proceed, it’s important as a first step to consider your safety. Some sexual narcissists may become aggressive or retaliatory when confronted about their behavior.” -https://breakthesilencedv.org/9-signs-of-narcissistic-sexual-behavior/.
Mar 22, 202401:34:36
Final mainstream porn episode (I freestyled some off of the top of my head and I used the dictionary as well.) The 14 different types of sexual narccissism are real.

Final mainstream porn episode (I freestyled some off of the top of my head and I used the dictionary as well.) The 14 different types of sexual narccissism are real.

“Symptoms

Researchers developed the sexual narcissism scaleTrusted Source to highlight important components of narcissism that are typically active in sexual domains. These patterns of behavior usually include:

sexual exploitation
sexual entitlement
low sexual empathy
inflated sense of sexual skills
In addition to the above, sexual narcissists may also display the following characteristics:

high level of sexual self-esteem
preoccupation with sex and sexual sensation seeking
promiscuous nature (the reckless kind, not the ethical kind.)
high levels of infidelity
sensitivity to perceived criticism. Problematic relationship patterns
If a person thinks they may be in a relationship with a sexual narcissist, there are behavior patterns to be aware of, including:

Sexual entitlement: A sexual narcissist may feel that others owe them sex and that they have a right to sex on demand.
Sexual exploitation: They may be willing to manipulate or coerce others into having sex.
Lack of empathy: They may feel that a partner’s feelings or needs do not concern them.
Need for admiration: They may have an excessive need for admiration, especially for their sexual abilities.
Infidelity: Higher rates of infidelity occur with sexual narcissists.
Charming pickup artist: Sexual narcissists will initially be charming and employ manipulative dating techniques designed specifically to get a potential partner into bed.
Sexual aggression: High levels of sexual narcissism and entitlement may beTrusted Source a predictor of sexual aggression.
Convincing a potential sexual narcissist to get help may escalate their behavior since they may not perceive they have a problem and may attempt to put the blame on others.” -Medical News Today.
Mar 21, 202401:29:01
My rich, full, smooth, soothing, soft-spoken, orgasmic, mezzo-soprano bass voice type, my medium vocal range (I mostly freestyled off of top of my head, little Wikipedia.) Final episode on my voice.

My rich, full, smooth, soothing, soft-spoken, orgasmic, mezzo-soprano bass voice type, my medium vocal range (I mostly freestyled off of top of my head, little Wikipedia.) Final episode on my voice.

“I overcame hypermasculinity, toxic masculinity, and stereotypical masculinity regarding voice and voice types. I no longer try to sound like anybody else and the guys who clowned me tried their best to sound like other people. Vocal competitions between males is a vocal trauma complex. I no longer engage in those competitions.” -Antonio Myers
Mar 21, 202443:57
Social media’s corporate greed (I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.)

Social media’s corporate greed (I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.)

“Social media has a history of death threats, violent threats, catfishing, scammers creating duplicate accounts of original accounts, spammers attempting financial crimes, paternity suits and paternity tests, child support custody spats, negative comments, people liking 👍 negative comments with the thumbs up, virtually argumentative commenting against one another, child abuse, adult abuse, victim blaming, organized crime activities, dislike feature on videos 👎, gossip, scandals, scandalous cover ups, blood feuds, body-shaming, sex-shaming, slut-shaming, prude-shaming, kink-shaming, and consent-shaming, etc.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 20, 202445:43
I am a diversity, equity, and inclusion (DEI) type of public figure. I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.

I am a diversity, equity, and inclusion (DEI) type of public figure. I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.

“The underlying structure of the Universal Declaration was influenced by the Code Napoléon, including a preamble and introductory general principles.[14] Its final structure took form in the second draft prepared by French jurist René Cassin, who worked on the initial draft prepared by Canadian legal scholar John Peters Humphrey.

The Declaration consists of the following:

The preamble sets out the historical and social causes that led to the necessity of drafting the Declaration.
Articles 1–2 establish the basic concepts of dignity, liberty, and equality.
Articles 3–5 establish other individual rights, such as the right to life and the prohibition of slavery and torture.
Articles 6–11 refer to the fundamental legality of human rights with specific remedies cited for their defence when violated.
Articles 12–17 set forth the rights of the individual towards the community, including freedom of movement and residence within each state, the right of property and the right to a nationality.
Articles 18–21 sanction the so-called "constitutional liberties" and spiritual, public, and political freedoms, such as freedom of thought, opinion, expression, religion and conscience, word, peaceful association of the individual, and receiving and imparting information and ideas through any media.
Articles 22–27 sanction an individual's economic, social and cultural rights, including healthcare. It upholds an expansive right to an adequate standard of living, and makes special mention of care given to those in motherhood or childhood.
Articles 28–30 establish the general means of exercising these rights, the areas in which the rights of the individual cannot be applied, the duty of the individual to society, and the prohibition of the use of rights in contravention of the purposes of the United Nations Organization.[15]
Cassin compared the Declaration to the portico of a Greek temple, with a foundation, steps, four columns, and a pediment.[16] Articles 1 and 2—with their principles of dignity, liberty, equality and brotherhood—served as the foundation blocks. The seven paragraphs of the preamble, setting out the reasons for the Declaration, represent the steps leading up to the temple. The main body of the Declaration forms the four columns. The first column (articles 3–11) constitutes rights of the individual, such as the right to life and the prohibition of slavery. The second column (articles 12–17) constitutes the rights of the individual in civil and political society. The third column (articles 18–21) is concerned with spiritual, public, and political freedoms, such as freedom of religion and freedom of association. The fourth column (articles 22–27) sets out social, economic, and cultural rights. Finally, the last three articles provide the pediment which binds the structure together, as they emphasize the mutual duties of every individual to one another and to society.[16]” -Wikipedia
Mar 20, 202401:00:07
My erotic and sensual past (I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.)

My erotic and sensual past (I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.)

“Green Flag: The Right Questions

Having a sexual history conversation is a chance to explore what works and then bring that magic into your relationship. The following list of questions can be helpful starting points for learning more about your partner.

Can you tell me about your most intense, exciting sexual experiences and what they were like?
What were your favorite moments, and what made them stand out to you?
What drew you to others, sexually?
What did you find attractive about former lovers at first?
How did the sexual relationship begin?
Did it make any difference to you if they initiated or you did?
Were you able to be more present in your body during sex in different relationships, and if so, why was that possible?
Remember: The goal of the conversation is not to gather intel on your partner’s former lover but rather to help you understand who your partner was inside of that relationship. You can listen here for more about this conversation.

Red Flag: Judgment, Jealousy, Inadequacy

Discussing sexual histories requires emotional intelligence, and there are three emotional red flags to look out for before approaching this topic with your partner.

Judgment: If shared information leads to judgment, the discussion will be cut short.
Jealousy: If you or your partner are jealous people, this is not the conversation for you. In fact, it could be dangerous.
Inadequacy: A sexual history review can encourage feelings of inadequacy. For example, one partner might worry that past lovers are superior in some way: a bigger penis, a better body, youth, stamina, etc. Green Flag: Emotional Safety

Preparing to review your sexual histories requires that each partner is granted time to self-assess their readiness for the conversation. Both partners should have total control over if they want to have the conversation, when they want to have it, and what they want to share and not share.

Create safety by reassuring the partner answering that you would love to understand their mind, heart, body, and spirit in this intimate experience as fully as possible.
Offer lots of positive regard for your current partner's desirability.
Let the vulnerability of sharing untold secrets and experiences strengthen the intimacy between the two of you.
If you decide to share, remember that what you did is much less important than how it impacted you. For example, maybe your partner did something wild they would never do with you. Without context, it’s easy to create a false story around the why but perhaps the why is as simple as they were young and drunk. Asking curious questions can fill out the story: What was in your body? What was in your heart? What did your spirit feel afterward? What did it feel like in the moment versus now that you’re looking back? For those brave enough to do a sexual history, there’s a wealth of information to be absorbed. Listen to your partner’s stories or experiences and apply what you can to make your current relationship steamier, stronger, and sexier.” -https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/married-and-still-doing-it/202201/how-and-why-talk-about-our-sexual-past#:~:text=Red%20Flag%3A%20Judgment%2C%20Jealousy%2C,discussion%20will%20be%20cut%20short.
Mar 20, 202401:02:51
The media is like a dull knife, just ain’t cutting, the media's talking loud and saying nothing. I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.

The media is like a dull knife, just ain’t cutting, the media's talking loud and saying nothing. I totally freestyled this whole episode off of the top of my head.

“I notice that media is has fear of being wrong, most media figures will act like there is no need to apologize to their viewers for their misstatements. The media makes it wealth off of learned helplessness and learned hopelessness.” -Antonio Myers.
Mar 19, 202401:01:11
Autism moms and autism dating part 2 (final part)

Autism moms and autism dating part 2 (final part)

“Abroromantic / aro flux: someone who fluctuates between experiencing romantic attraction and not experiencing it, and/or experiencing romantic attraction to different strengths.
Abrosexual / ace flux: someone who’s experiences of sexual attraction fluctuate; they may go through periods of asexuality and periods of experiencing sexual attraction. The strength of their attraction could also fluctuate, going through phases of weakness and intensity.
Ace: an abbreviated term for ‘asexual’.
Akoiromantic/lithromantic: a person who experiences romantic attraction but has no desire or need to have their feelings reciprocated. Sometimes an akoiromantic person’s attraction may fade if a romantic relationship is established.
Akoisexual/lith(o)sexual: someone who experiences sexual attraction to people but has no desire to have those feelings reciprocated. For some, if the attraction is reciprocated, their feelings may fade and they will no longer be attracted to that person. ‘Lithsexual’ is also sometimes used to describe someone who does not like to receive sexual contact but may be happy to give it.
Alloromantic/zedromantic: someone who does experience romantic attraction. An alloromantic person may be allosexual as well, but not necessarily.
Allosexual/zedsexual: someone who does experience sexual attraction, and therefore not on the ace spectrum.
Apothisexual: someone who is asexual and sex-repulsed.
Aro: an abbreviated term for ‘aromantic’.
Aromantic: someone who does not experience romantic attraction.
Asexual: someone who does not experience sexual attraction.
Autochorissexual/aegosexual: someone who is aroused by sex that does not involve themself; it is a disconnection between oneself and the sexual object/activity. Someone who is autochorissexal might have sexual fantasies, or enjoy reading erotica or watching porn, but will have no desire to be involved in the activities themselves. This identity did not arise within the ace community and isn’t necessarily an ‘ace’ identity.
Cupioromantic: someone who does not experience romantic attraction but has a desire to be in a romantic relationship.
Cupiosexual: someone who desires a sexual relationship, but does not experience sexual attraction.
Demi: an abbreviation for demisexuality and demiromanticism.
Demi(a)romantic: someone who only experiences romantic attraction after establishing a strong emotional connection to someone.
Demi-(a)sexual: someone who only experiences sexual attraction after establishing a close emotional and/or romantic connection with another person/persons.
Frayromantic: someone who experiences romantic attraction, but this attraction fades after getting to know the object of attraction.
Fraysexual: someone who initially experiences sexual attraction upon meeting someone, but this attraction fades after getting to know them.” -https://www.oulgbtq.org/acearo-spectrum-definitions.html#:~:text=Aromantic%3A%20someone%20who%20does%20not,and%20the%20sexual%20object%2Factivity.
Mar 19, 202440:41
Part 2 and final part of neurodiversity dating questions

Part 2 and final part of neurodiversity dating questions

“Autistic people may display a range of strengths and abilities that can be directly related to their diagnosis, including:

Learning to read at a very early age (known as hyperlexia).
Memorising and learning information quickly.
Thinking and learning in a visual way.
Logical thinking ability.
May excel (if able) in academic areas such as science, engineering and mathematics as they are technical and logical subjects that do not heavily rely on social interaction.
Having an extraordinarily good memory (being able to remember facts for a long period of time).
Being precise and detail orientated.
Exceptional honesty and reliability.
Being dependable in regards to schedules and routines.
Having an excellent sense of direction.
Be very punctual.
Strong adherence to rules.
Able to concentrate for long periods of time when motivated.
A drive for perfection and order.
A capability for alternate problem solving.
A rare freshness and sense of wonderment.” -https://www.altogetherautism.org.nz/strengths-and-abilities-in-autism/
Mar 19, 202401:06:56
Part 1 of neurodiversity dating questions

Part 1 of neurodiversity dating questions

“1. Are you working on your chosen field?

2. How many hours a week do you work? Would you consider yourself a workaholic?

3. What does your job entail?

4. What is your dream job?

5. Have you ever been called a workaholic?

6. What is your retirement plan? What do you plan to do when you stop working?

7. Have you ever been fired?

8. Have you ever quit a job suddenly? Have you changed jobs a lot?

9. Do you consider your work a career or just a job?


10. Has your work ever been a factor in the breakup of a relationship?” -https://hackspirit.com/questions-to-ask-before-marriage/
Mar 19, 202449:32
Autism mom dating and autism dating part 1

Autism mom dating and autism dating part 1

“Neurodiversity describes the idea that people experience and interact with the world around them in many different ways; there is no one "right" way of thinking, learning, and behaving, and differences are not viewed as deficits.

The word neurodiversity refers to the diversity of all people, but it is often used in the context of autism spectrum disorder (ASD), as well as other neurological or developmental conditions such as ADHD or learning disabilities. The neurodiversity movement emerged during the 1990s, aiming to increase acceptance and inclusion of all people while embracing neurological differences. Through online platforms, more and more autistic people were able to connect and form a self-advocacy movement. At the same time, Judy Singer, an Australian sociologist, coined the term neurodiversity to promote equality and inclusion of "neurological minorities." While it is primarily a social justice movement, neurodiversity research and education is increasingly important in how clinicians view and address certain disabilities and neurological conditions.

Words matter in neurodiversity

Neurodiversity advocates encourage inclusive, nonjudgmental language. While many disability advocacy organizations prefer person-first language ("a person with autism," "a person with Down syndrome"), some research has found that the majority of the autistic community prefers identity-first language ("an autistic person"). Therefore, rather than making assumptions, it is best to ask directly about a person's preferred language, and how they want to be addressed. Knowledge about neurodiversity and respectful language is also important for clinicians, so they can address the mental and physical health of people with neurodevelopmental differences.” -https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/what-is-neurodiversity-202111232645
Mar 18, 202440:08
My callings require me to mostly don’t date by circumstances & by choice. I love being greyromantic.

My callings require me to mostly don’t date by circumstances & by choice. I love being greyromantic.

“I very rarely date and I very rarely have sex because most people are not equipped at all to handle my black extraordinary, my autism extraordinary, my abuse-survivor-thriver extraordinary, and my sexual minority extraordinary self. They (most people) are obsessed with weak commitments, personal peace being pursued without concern for the world’s chaos, making deception “acceptable”, having strength without feeling, pursuing personal needs to everyone’s detriment, abusive power, happiness at any cost, pride and personal independence to the extremes. I am “seen, but not heard” according to most individuals who refuse to affirm me with me.” Antonio Myers.
Mar 18, 202447:41