Toxic Bliss

Sometimes it's hard to let another suffer the consequences of their own actions, especially when that person is a narcissist who has their hooks in your mind, body, and soul. Brighter days are coming though, just a few more storms on the horizon first!

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In this episode, Mike suddenly needs a place to stay and thinks my apartment is his best bet! He discovers that I have a new beau and is anything but pleased. Will he just move on quietly or put up a fight?

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Published on: January 05, 2020 at 3:33 PM

A Bonus Episode for the New Year! Herein I tell the tale of Mike and his magic blanket of doom.

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It finally happened. Mike is really gone. I'm moving on. There's a lot to heal, but there's a lot of hope and a new bright spark on the horizon! As with all things narcissist though, the end is never really the end, is it?

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Mike has been back for a few days but it's not going well. Something inside my brain finally clicks and the end draws near!

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Mike comes 'home' once again. Can we make it work this time or is it true that a narcissist never changes? I'm willing to give it another shot, but I'm not sure my heart is really in it.

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We're back!!! Today we pick back up with the story as Mike returns for yet another attempt at salvaging our relationship. There is marshmallow fluff involved. How could it go wrong??

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This is a special off-narrative episode discussing a case that's happening in Florida right now, the Michael Wayne Jones Jr. case. I'm talking about this here as narcissistic abuse is front and center of this case and it's an important look at what happens when narcissistic abuse turns fatal. 

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This is a clip of an interview I did just today with Eddie! He was a good sport and agreed to come on and talk a little about his experience dealing with Mike and the craziness that ensued. Have a listen and see what you think! :)

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Still more therapy! Will it ever end? And just as I'm starting to come to terms with some harsh realizations about Mike and his behavior, he calls again and wants to come home. Someone make the merry go round stop. I want to get off!

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In this episode I discover a peach-flavored parasite has taken up residence in my brain. I work hard with my therapist to try to exorcise it to no avail. Can I overcome this? Probably not, but I will give it a good try!

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I bet my therapist needed therapy after talking to me. Join me as I relive the conversations I had with my therapist in trying to recover my brain from the toxic cesspool of Mike's gravitational pull. Spoiler - it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be!

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 How fast can a narcissist destroy the very thing the say they want? Less than 24 hours! Come relive this astounding day with me as I reflect on the many lessons it taught me.

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 Therapy is going sort of well but my focus is off! Mac and I watch Sesame Street and The Easter Bunny appears in the middle of winter? Oh wait.....

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 Uh oh! Mike got busted for the secrets I discovered and then he picks a fight with.. the Fire Department? I never said he was the brightest bulb on the string! Find out what happens in today's episode!

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 Can Mike and I have our happy family once and for all? Maggie shows signs of distress. I discover Mike's "special friends" and it doesn't end well. Surprise!

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 In this episode, super happy wonderful news! My son is born and he is perfect! Also, Mike calls and tries to ruin everything because.. narcissist!

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Spring has sprung! Join me as I ponder the meaning of life, experience a Divine Intervention and make up new words like "unfunctional!" Oh and yeah, stuff about that narcissist, Mike. Ew.

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Christmas is in the air and I am filled with the holiday spirit! Mike is filled with some other kind of spirit - does he ruin our holiday or does he find peace with the world? Tune in to find out! 

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 Mike moves in with me, Mom and I go to some tag sales, and I try very hard to pretend life is normal! Will I succeed? Also, if anyone knows Tori Amos, I need to talk to her!

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 I break Mike out of prison! (Sort of!) A long train ride home to my mother and my pregnancy causes some issues! Tune in to find out what shenanigans Mike gets up to next!

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Bombs! Bombs exploding everywhere! Pregnant and tossed out of the house - Mike gets arrested (again) and Tina flies the coop? Listen in to see how this all plays out and who comes out of it alive! (We all come out alive, it's just a saying!)

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Eddie meets Vampirella - or does he?? A baby is born! And Mike wants to go skinny dipping. All I want is 5 minutes of silence. Do I end up getting it? Tune in to find out! 

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A break from the narrative to discuss a narcissistic mother in law and the havoc she loved to inflict on my life. Cops, spies, kidnapping attempts, lawsuits - you name it, we've got it all!

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Fire ants attack! Locked out of the car? Oops! Baloney is gross and so is Hamburger Helper, at least when Mike cooks it.. Ahh, life with a narcissist is a neverending funhouse ride of horror!

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Special note - I'm adding a trigger warning for the second half of this episode. If you are sensitive to the topics of pregnancy or miscarriage, please skip this one - or at least the second half. Thanks!

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Handcuffs, police, crab legs, warrants, and the chicken dance! What more could you ask from a podcast episode??

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July 4th! Independence Day! We celebrate with a cookout and fireworks and a trip to the beach! All seems relatively perfect and blissful until the next day when we take a trip to the pool...

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In this episode, I start to deal with the fallout from Mike's big secret. We all have to find a way to adjust to the new situation and try to find brief moments of peace wherever we can. Is Mike keeping more secrets? And what on earth is in all of those shopping bags, anyway??

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Monumental lies, more love bombing, bad decisions, hopelessness and a memory blackout! Gee, could my life get any more blissful? Check out today's episode to see what happens when Mike and I finally arrive in Florida.

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In today's installment, Mike and I head off on a trip to Florida - with a few complications along the way, of course! This episode focuses on the intensity of Mike's 'love bombing' and how I am quickly becoming ensnared in his web of deceit and manipulation.

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A new plan is hatched, I made my decision about whether or not to take Mike back and something about moving across the country?? Come along with me on this journey as my world begins to split into multiple facets of reality. Can I keep them all woven together? Let's find out!

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In this installment we find out what happens with the first real life meet up! Does Earthpeach make it to my home? Do we fall madly in love and live happily ever after? Alas, we already know that this isn't that kind of fairytale! Tune in to see what unfolds as we go deeper down the rabbit hole of narcissism.

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In this episode Mike and I face a few uphill battles - will our plans to finally meet in person fall apart? The gaslighting, crazy-making and manipulation are becoming overt and pronounced, but I still can't see the forest through the trees. At one point I'm faced with a decision to consciously chose which reality I would prefer - will I make the right choice? NAH! Because that would mean the series would be over already! Join me on this journey as we peel back the layers of narcissistic abuse.

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Welcome to the first episode of Toxic Bliss! This podcast series is about a journey through the perils and heartaches of surviving a narcissistic relationship. In the first season, I will tell my own story of narcissistic abuse and how I finally escaped from it. I hope that shedding light on the personal stories of survivors can help, empower and enlighten others who may be facing similar situations. There is light at the end of the tunnel but getting there first requires an understanding of how it all came to pass. Come take this journey with me, whether you're a survivor yourself or simply curious about the topic!

Please also follow the link below to my partner podcast with Paul from Reporting Live From My Sofa!