I Think So. . .

Thank you for tapping on. I have been missing in action for a little while.

I asked AI why I disappear and it told me, I am a perfectionist and if I feel it's not gonna be what I absolutely want it to be, i'd prefer not deliver it... There goes the therapists jobs 🤣

Anywho. I'm a little rusty from my disappearance. In this weeks episode i'm talking about how words need to be expressed, but in that expression we need to create a distance or better said not attach to the words that we're saying. Regardless of what we’re saying.

As beings we really want to be heard, validated, acknowledged, were not comfortable with people, not agreeing or seeing our point of view. So every time we say something, we kinda go in with an agenda... to have the other person see our side. So we express ourselves in such a way, that will we be believed, understood ... we become the story, the expression.

Expressing ourselves undoubtedly gives us a sense of liberation. Attaching ourselves to the meaning does not.

Join me in the 30 day challenge mentioned in the episode and come and find me after you done it and let me knnow the transformation.

Until the next episode ... ✌🏾

So the questions are, are we trapped in the same cycle?

Is living in the Now even possible ?

How can we insert ourselves into the Now and move on from that space?

Do we ever get to start a fresh?

We are a continuation of yesterday. Constantly being brought back (quite naturally) to where we left of the day before.

Fighting to place are minds in peace, only to get wrapped back up in what's our everyday.

It's like we are taking constant brief escapes.

Anywho let me know what YOU think. And until the next episode watch your thoughts 💭

What if we were the virus? What if we are living inside a being that could detect weaker 'cells' that was causing damage or turbulence to it being. What if you could believe in anything as long as you stay firmed and strong in those beliefs, didn’t waiver and cause a breakdown within the being body. The last concept I haven't discussed here but it would appear that there is some strength to that argument, as it's not as if the being has preference to only the things that are good. I had these thoughts for long and wanted to just let go and let out all original thought, as a way to release my self from the repetition of thinking. And allow higher frequency thought to be picked up upon. I hope you enjoy this episode, you have to be pretty open for this one and until the next episode stay strong and watch your thoughts.

Edit: As I am listening back for the umpteenth time, there's more to add here.

So it feels like there's a way to act inside this body whereby you can go undetected and also each section could be controlled by different programmers and the programmers roles are just to ensure=, that you stick within the program.

You can also seem to move to different locations around the body, whereby it maybe easier to live and breathe. Whereas some sections of the body are dense and you constantly have to fight for your existence.

Like we are the bodies consciousness and it goes through cycles and phases. And when the body dies we move onto another body.

And we're all just fighting for some significance and a better more freer place to be...

Anywho much more to add at another time.

xxx

The turmoil of not really knowing why you don't want to exist is exhausting in it’s  self. 

The things that appeared, to not be working out, were seemingly the clear reasons as to why everything felt too much, but for me there felt like this underlying reason that I couldn't tap into, that made saying things are not working out for me, a really silly idea for not wanting to exist. 

This deeper reasoning, makes it difficult for those who see you go through the silent turmoil, or wake up to the person they love dead. 

There are some things that can't be explained, medically. So the only other route is to look for the answers spiritually. Well at least that what i believe. I will be making an episode soon on my true thoughts about what i believe is happening with suicidal  thought and action.

So until the that episode please watch your thoughts it could be a matter of life and death❤️

Spotify listeners let me know what you think of the video..Don't know if Anchor viewers can see it🤭

To this date there is not one relationship I've been in that should have lasted past the 3 year mark! Period And because of my continual overriding of this fact I now have Fibroids. Sounds drastic but the new research is there ! Have a listen and tell me what you think..

After attempting to produce 1 piece of content for multiple platforms and failing, I manage to come with this! Your thoughts need an anchor and any anchor will do. The more negative the better.

On this week episode, I know I say that like I released an episode every week😅. Anywho, I speak about how your thoughts only exist because we anchor them into our thinking and if we don't attach to them they can't exist.

I missed being on here. I actually have 3 episode in draft to release so be sure to subscribe and check them out when i let them go:)

Until the next episode Watch Your Thoughts

Azania❤️

Hello June, Hello May, Hello September ... like argg kill me now!

But that's the thing, we just keep on repeating the cycle, never stopping to think, why do we do things this way. And only when we're burnt out, disillusioned with life, do we stop to consider, what's it all about.

in this episode I talk about feeling tense around the start of each month as for many years I have bought into the concept of fresh beginnings and all that comes with it. It's only when I realised, that not everything I wanted came to fruition, no matter how many times I wrote it out and down.

It's the first of the month, how could we look at it differently or maybe we could just ignore the monthly reset and go with the natural flow.

Azania❤️

What happens when you start noticing your thoughts and then expose them?

In this episode I moan quite a-lot about Instagram and the perils of trying to delete your account. But more than that, I talk about catching the thoughts that send you to the sunken place and speak about what I did to get back.

Keeping the script short and sweet today as I have a YouTube video to edit and the wifi here in Zanzibar is quite shite, so it may take me all night, although I want to release at 19:00

So until the next long winded script, keep watching those thoughts.

Azania ❤️

I don't like routine or repetition much. So recognising the patterns that life takes you in was a long time coming, although it shouldn’t have been.

In this episode, with my slightly flat voice haha, I talk about how at the end of 2021 I became so acutely aware of not wanting to repeat this dead cycle, or at least from the same perspective as I had been. I also speak about relinquishing me connection to spirituality.

In other great news my notebook dedicated to thoughts is ready 🥳🥳🥳 Not sure why I cannot use the link button😏, once i figure that out i'll be back with a link, maybe google azania love mind notes on Amazon.

Until the next episode...Watch Your Thoughts ❤️

First of all, Mission,  Keep Africans in Africa is all about guiding those Africans that believe everything is perfect further a field is to show them it's not. And Melanated peoples still struggle within these countries. Also It's about updated them on how to really be free, which I understand, having access to jobs gives certain freedoms but to understand you're still a slave to the jobs in other countries. 

I know people will say there are some studying for less or free in other peoples institutions, but the doctorate you may be studying for may not be worth it. There are many doctors, professionals leaving there jobs for the freedom of working online or creating business they actually love.

I also know the argument for being able to earn and save more with menial jobs, but it still comes at a cost.

Ok that said, In this episode I give an example of how thoughts get ingrained in our minds and eventually come back to bite us in the mental a£$$.

When we put a lot of energy, emotion behind the things that occur for us we inevitably end up ingraining that thought or thoughts to our neural pathways.

This is why any childhood traumas, experiences keep repeating over and over in our mind. They then attach to similar thoughts and can spin us out of control in no time. Which is why it's important to pay attentions to our thoughts at all times, until we have this practice on lock, so to speak.

I give an example of how my I let my passion for justice spill out onto instagram and how I cleaned it up.

We are what we eat and we are also what we pay attention to. When your beginning to work with thought and thinking it's really important to not allow yourself to get to distracted with what's happening outside yourself and outside of what you can control

Sasa, I am going to leave it there and thank you so much for listening and until the next episode 

Watch Your Thoughts 

Azania ❤️

Have you ever touched your body without thought ? In this quick little episode I speak about how our thoughts are always there telling us what we should be thinking and feeling about our bodies. I didn't mention that our thoughts have been programmed, but i'll go into that at a later date. 

For today, the take-away is, what exactly does our body feel like without thought.

It's the repetition for me. 

Thoughts have a way of just repeating themselves. They can quite happily just say the same thing over and over again.

Take me for example I spent 20 years staring at my belly ( after giving birth ) wondering what I was now going to do about this distinctly 'ugly' belly. The thoughts kept on plaguing me around size, shape and attractiveness. Regardless of what I tried to do / change about my stomach, the thought always keep me focused and unhappy with what I was looking at.

In this episode I talk about not focusing on the issue, i.e. my belly is fat, or whatever the body issue is and focus on the thought itself. Putting the thought in the spotlight. When you do this the thought acts different.

I don't want to be hear. I speak about this in depth, in another issue, but it is just to be aware that the same thing happens when the thought continues to throw into your awareness, what's the point, of you being here, I believe using the last episode technique and thinking about the thought not the real worlds issue, can challenge the way that you think about that said issue.

If you’re  listening on this through Spotify i am sure I've left a space for questions, feel free to send what your thinking about thought.

Until the next episode, keep thinking about your thinking and Watch Your Thoughts.

In this episode I talk about finally releasing this podcast on THOUGHT and how said thoughts has stopped me from, in the most dramatic ways. Living my life in the way I visualise it to be. (I actually wrote something else however it disappeared so I'm now guessing what I had said before.)

Anywho, I briefly mention how thought plagued me to the point of not wanting to be here, and how once I began to understand the nature of thought for my self, not only have I started to know thought better and how it moves, hides and disrupts I am also able to recognise how to speak to thought in a way that allows you live in a better state of being.

I also quickly say I am in the process of creating a thought journal and how and what to write in so you don't further ignite the wrong thoughts.

I would love to create a community based around thoughts, that's not just for stuffy academia, to where understanding your thoughts is attainable by all.

Well I look forward to the next episode.

Thank you for reading and listening 

Azania