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Behind the Illness

Behind the Illness

By Ali Vee | Wallflower Studios
A mental health podcast dedicated to the education of mental illness and the psychology explaining it, and ending the stigma surrounding mental illness.
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True Crime Summer Series Ep. 3: Brenda Spencer

Behind the Illness

True Crime Summer Series Ep. 3: Brenda Spencer

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True Crime Summer Series Ep. 4: Charles Manson
Charles Manson is one of the most notorious killers.... but only he wasn't actually a killer. What were his diagnoses?  Do you blame it on his mental illness or do you think he's evil? True Crime Summer Series ends June 18, which is also the big announcement stream! www.behindtheillness.com www.discord.link/behindtheillness
27:47
May 21, 2021
True Crime Summer Series Ep. 3: Brenda Spencer
A case of the Mondays... 16-year-old Brenda Spencer opened fire at an elementary school, killing two and injuring 9. But why did she do it? True Crime Summer Series goes through June 18! Be sure to join the new discord server! www.discord.link/behindtheillness www.behindtheillness.com
18:60
May 14, 2021
True Crime Summer Series Ep. 2: Jeffrey Dahmer
Jeffery Dahmer, the serial killer also known for cannibalism.... what was his official psychological diagnosis? True Crime Summer Series goes through June 18! www.behindtheillness.com
25:19
May 13, 2021
True Crime Summer Series Ep. 1: Mary Bell
Mary Bell was an 11 year old serial killer.... Ali talks about her background, her psychological diagnosis, and what she's up to these days. *Trigger Warning* New and improved website is coming SOON with a blog dedicated to the summer series Huge announcement June 18!
41:05
April 30, 2021
It's okay to be proud of yourself!
Guess what? It's okay to be proud of yourself!! True Crime Summer Series - April 30 www.behindtheillness.com
24:43
April 14, 2021
What is being in therapy like?
Ali talks about what it's like to be in therapy, what to expect, how to find the right one, etc. True Crime Summer Series begins April 30! www.behindtheillness.com
33:40
April 14, 2021
I Found My Voice
I found my voice against all odds, and I hope you do too.
31:48
April 9, 2021
Let People Love You!!
UV, this is for you... Let people love you because you are worthy and deserving of love. I promise. I wouldn't lie to you! True Crime Summer Series begins April 30! www.behindtheillness.com
53:43
April 2, 2021
Depression is not an excuse!!
Have you ever been told you use depression as an excuse when you can't be productive? Ali has, and she talks about it in this week's episode of Behind the Illness. True Crime Summer Series begins April 30! www.behindtheillness.com www.facebook.com/writtenbyalivee
36:40
March 26, 2021
Stop calling the police for a mental health crisis!
Should we call the police for a mental health crisis? Ali talks about it. True Crime summer series - April 30 www.behindtheillness.com
29:51
March 5, 2021
National Eating Disorders Awareness Week
Ali talks about National Eating Disorders Awareness Week (February 22-28, 2021) and doing our part to bring awareness to how serious eating disorders are. Ali's return to streaming is March 2nd (Time TBA) at www.twitch.tv/xhappynerdx Check out the Wallflower Writing Club at facebook.com/wallflowerwritingclub and be sure to ask for an invite to the discord! TRUE CRIME SUMMER SERIES - Starts April 30! Website: www.behindtheillness.com
34:16
February 26, 2021
How does exercise benefit our mental health?
Ugh, the dreaded word... "exercise"... gross. But let's be real. It does help with our mental health! Ali talks about that on this week's episode of Behind the Illness. TRUE CRIME SUMMER SERIES - starting April 30!
30:57
February 26, 2021
Grief, part 2: Losing a best friend... or two
Ali talks about losing two of her best friends in a continuation of last week's episode. New website: www.behindtheillness.com TRUE CRIME SUMMER SERIES starting April 30th!
40:19
February 12, 2021
Grief, Part 1
Plain and simple... it sucks to grieve. Ali talks about the grieving process and how to overcome it. Summer series begins April 30! New website: behindtheillness.com
49:06
February 5, 2021
TWITCH LIVE STREAM: #BreakTheStigma mental health weekend - 12/12/2020
Hear Ali tell her story during a live mental health weekend on Twitch in December 2020. 
01:37:36
January 28, 2021
Cyberbullying pt. 1
So good to be back! Let's talk a little about cyberbullying... how it affects those who are bullied, statistics of adolescents that experience it, and a little bit of how we can combat it. Part 2 coming next week!
26:38
November 20, 2020
S3E3: Men, Your Mental Health Matters Too!
We are losing our men to suicide every day because they do not feel like they can get help for their mental health. MEN... YOUR MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS TOO!! www.writtenbyalivee.com/behindtheillness
32:38
October 2, 2020
S3E2: Why Do We Compete With Others When We Should Be Competing With Ourselves?
I ramble. It's just who I am. Haha. Why do we compete with others when we should be competing with ourselves? Why do we set ourselves up for failure? Let's go in depth a little bit... it's important to remember that we only need to focus on being better versions of ourselves than we were yesterday or five years ago. www.writtenbyalivee.com/behindtheillness Behind the Illness LIVE!! Sundays starting on 9/27/20 at 8pm CST. Come join me in talking about mental health and just having a chill time. Twitch.tv/behindtheillness Remember, if you want to chat, you'll need to make a Twitch account (which is free). If you don't want to make an account but want me to include your question or comment, send me an email at behindtheillnesspod@gmail.com.
47:17
September 25, 2020
TWITCH LIVE STREAM: Let's Talk about Self Care! (9.16.20)
Catch my live streams about mental health on twitch every Wednesday at 12pm CST!! www.twitch.tv/happynerdgaming
51:33
September 19, 2020
TWITCH LIVE STREAM: World Suicide Prevention Day (9.10.20)
Audio from my live stream on Twitch on 9.10.20 talking about World Suicide Prevention Day. Catch my mental health streams on Wednesdays at 12pm CST at www.twitch.tv/happynerdgaming
01:01:52
September 19, 2020
S3E1: Practicing Self Care
Heyyyy friends!! It's so good to be back!! So let's talk about self care... why do we not practice self care more? Especially in times like we're living in. Give more more ideas than what I talk about in this episode... leave me and others more ideas. How do you practice self care? Write a list, post it on social media, and use the hashtag #behindtheillnesspodcast. POLL: Should I post the audio from my mental health chats on Twitch on the podcast? Should I post the video to YouTube? Or both?? Let me know on any of the social media accounts! I'll post an official poll on social media as well so be on the look out for that! www.writtenbyalivee.com/behindtheillness
39:21
September 18, 2020
S2E8: It’s Time For A Break...
I love each and every single one of you... season 3 will be here September 18, 2020. Behind the Illness merch: www.teespring.com/stores/behindtheillness
10:11
August 21, 2020
S2E7: Mental Health and Video Games
Ali talks about the benefits of video games for our mental health, tells her story of why video games mean so much to her, and asks for feedback about what you think about video games and how they help your mental health. If you want to watch Ali stream games and talk mental health during the stream, go to Twitch.tv/HappyNerdGaming! Website: www.writtenbyalivee.com/behindtheillness
32:41
August 14, 2020
S2E6: Mental Health Inaccuracies in Joker
Ali talks about the mental health themes and inaccuracies in the movie Joker starring Joaquin Phoenix. Part 2 (as randomly thought of by Ali in this episode) will be uploaded as S2E10! New website: www.writtenbyalivee.com/behindtheillness
37:19
August 7, 2020
S2E5: Movie Review | The Perks of Being A Wallflower
Please be aware of the trigger warning in the beginning of the episode. Ali talks about The Perks of Being A Wallflower, a movie about a teenager battling with PTSD, depression, anxiety, and guilt after his best friend dies by suicide and his aunt dies in a car accident. New episode of Behind the Illness is up every Friday, ready to listen to on your morning commute.
33:37
July 31, 2020
S2E4 Book Review | Notes On A Nervous Planet by Matt Haig
Ali talks about Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig, which talks about living in a world of technology that encourages us to be anxious, unsocial, and sometimes even mean humans. Buy the book here: www.behindtheillness.com/links along with the other three books Ali has reviewed on the podcast. New episode every Friday, ready to go for your morning commute. 
01:01:13
July 24, 2020
S2E3: Book Review | Reasons To Stay Alive by Matt Haig
Ali talks about Reasons To Stay Alive by Matt Haig, a book that she calls her favorite. In the book, Matt talks about his experiences with depression and suicidal thoughts, all while advocating for and inspiring those who battle with depression.  Go to www.BehindTheIllness.com/links to purchase the book. New episodes of Behind the Illness every Friday, ready first thing in the morning for your commute to work.
48:39
July 17, 2020
S2e2: Book Review | If You Feel Too Much by Jamie Tworkowski
Ali talks about If You Feel Too Much by the founder of To Write Love On Her Arms, Jamie Tworkowski. Link to purchase the book is at BehindTheIllness.com/links. 
20:56
July 10, 2020
S2E1: Book Review | Are U Ok? by Kati Morton
Season two is upon us! Ali starts a book review series starting with Are U Ok? by Kati Morton. Are U Ok? is a guide to caring for your mental health and is what Ali considers to be somewhat of a "mental health bible." www.BehindTheIllness.com
23:00
July 3, 2020
Episode 10: 20 Questions
In episode 10, the final episode in season 1, Ali has some fun and answers some questions about herself, her career, and the podcast. Check out the brand new website!  www.behindtheillness.com
35:11
June 26, 2020
Episode 9: Being A Mental Health Advocate
Ali talks about being a mental health advocate and how you can become one. www.writtenbyalivee.com
29:55
June 19, 2020
Episode 8: Communication
In episode 8, Ali talks about the importance of communication when talking with others who don't suffer from mental illness, as well as the communication with someone who says its "all in our heads." www.writtenbyalivee.com
24:38
June 13, 2020
Episode 7: Black Lives Matter
In episode 7, Ali explains why we have to stop being complacent in our fight for our fellow human beings.
27:32
June 5, 2020
Episode 6: My Stays In A Mental Hospital
Ali talks about her stays in a mental hospital.
17:20
May 29, 2020
Episode 5: I Didn’t Talk For 13 Years
Ali talks about overcoming selective mutism and being bullied because of it throughout her school years.
23:54
May 22, 2020
Episode 4: Getting Help Is Okay!
Guest Kayla McKern talks about her mental health journey and that it’s okay to get help for your mental health. To read Kayla’s blog post on my website, go to www.writtenbyalivee.com/kaylamckern1
26:44
March 20, 2020
Episode 3: Battling Addiction
Special guest Kayla McKern talks about battling with polysubstance abuse.
22:22
March 13, 2020
March 10, 2020
00:24
March 10, 2020
Episode 2: Depression & Social Anxiety
Ali talks about living with depression and social anxiety in the past and on a daily basis.
26:39
March 5, 2020
Episode 1: I’m Not Lazy
In episode 1, Ali talks about not being able to have a job because of depression and anxiety.
20:49
January 18, 2020