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Lyrics: "Every morning when I wake, I thank God, and put a smile on my face. Risin' - no need to know why...this Love transcends Time & Space. That's why I continue to rise. We'll continue to rise. Oh yeah. Rising -  no need to know why...this Love transcends Time & Space. That's why every morning when I wake, I thank God, and put a smile on my face. We're on the rise. We're on the rise - oh yeah! Thank YOU for being oh-so patient. Thank GOD. Rise - oh yeah. This Love is here to heal all the Nations. Let's rise. We'll continue to rise. I will continue to rise. Rise up! This Love: here to heal all the Nations. So, let's rise. I will continue to rise."

Join me in singing this healing vibration -- words: "free, enlighten me" -- mantra chanting is the new rap

In conversation with my Physics PhD best friend from childhood, Morgan Walker, I read the journal entry I wrote the morning of an unexpected Past Life Regression Meditation led by Shayoon and Alexander Mendeluk. This Lightforce Experience was soul-transcending, and I immediately wrote detailed account of it all. In fact, that makes sense...because as my Consciousness expanded in ways I'd not known possible, I became awakened to a time that my soul lived on Earth prior to 1996, where I kept a leather-bound book clenched tightly throughout my life. 

In this life, it was the 17th-18th Century in a palace bordering the South of France and Austria. I was a princess -- daughter of an aristocrat. I had a forbidden love to a beautiful melanin-rich man -- who, I -- Carina -- have dreamt of many times in many ways. He served my family, and our Forbidden Love led to his being brutalized: it was because of me. For the first time I can recall in my karmic cycle, I was directly told to oppress someone for the color of their skin and I refused. I vowed to dedicate my soul's journey to ending all cycles of abuse and oppression.

This is my purpose in life. My mission is to connect with Love as a conduit of the Divine. 

Listen for this one of a kind conversation. New discoveries, old friends, past Selves. 

It was better to have loved and lost that to never have loved at all. Thanks to Princess Solana for helping me find the words. Piano instrumental by Piano Nest, cover by Carina Dorthy Krehl | CDK  

Lyrics: "Good day in my mind, safe to take a step out Get some air now, let your edge out Too soon, I spoke, you be heavy in my mind Can you get the heck out? I need rest now, got me bummed out You so, you so, you, baby, baby, babe I've been on my empty mind shit I try to keep from losin' the rest of me I worry that I wasted the best of me on you, baby You don't care Said, not tryna be a nuisance, it's just urgent Tryna make sense of loose change Got me a war in my mind Gotta let go of weight, can't keep what's holding me Choose to watch While the world break up and fall on me All the while, I'll await my armored fate with a smile Still wanna try, still believe in (good days) Good days, always (good days) Always inside (always in my mind, always in my mind, mind) Good day living in my mind Tell me I'm not my fears, my limitations I disappear, if you let me Feeling like (on your own) Feeling like Jericho Feeling like Job when he lost his shit Gotta hold my own, my cross to bear alone, I Ooh, paid a deal, way to kill the mood Know you like that shit, yeah, groovy baby, baby Heavy on my empty mind shit I gotta keep from losin' the rest of me (losin' the rest of me) Still worry that I wasted the best of me on you, babe You don't care Said, not tryna be a nuisance, it's just urgent (it's urgent) Tryna make sense of loose change Got me a war in my mind (my mind) Gotta let go of weight, can't keep what's holding me Choose to watch While the world break up and fall on me All the while, I'll await my armored fate with a smile Still wanna try, still believe in (good days, good days on my mind) good days (good days on my mind) Always sunny inside (always in my mind, always in my mind, mind) Good day living in my mind Gotta get right, tryna free my mind before the end of the world I don't miss no ex, I don't miss no text I just choose not to respond I don't regret, just pretend shit never happened Half of us layin' waste to our youth, is in the present Half of us chasin' fountains of youth and it's in the present now Always in my mind, always in my mind, mind You've been making me feel like I'm Always in my mind, always in my mind, mind"

THIS is my favorite episode of 2020. Watch on Youtube to see what I mean. Shaza is a sweet, talented artist in Egypt who found me on twitter during a CDKx LIVE stream, and we have been friends ever since. She was open and vulnerable with me, allowing me to teach her some drawing techniques...which led to us having a lesson on FEAR. https://youtu.be/zAdGBF2cxxc

In this special feature episode, Julian Barnes interviews me (for his Engineering Grad Project) about the creative process and Art Entrepreneurship. He asks thought-provoking questions, and I reflect on my business journey thus far -- pointing out mistakes I've made and learned from, and talking about the direction I am taking my company in the coming years. 

A window to the transcendent, integral to our culture, Art. 

You say you want a revolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world
You tell me that it's evolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world

But when you talk about destruction
Don't you know that you can count me out
Don't you know it's gonna be
All right, all right, all right

You say you got a real solution
Well, you know
We'd all love to see the plan
You ask me for a contribution
Well, you know
We're doing what we can

But if you want money for people with minds that hate
All I can tell is brother you have to wait
Don't you know it's gonna be
All right, all right, all right

You say you'll change the constitution
Well, you know
We all want to change your head
You tell me it's the institution
Well, you know
You better free you mind instead

But if you go carrying pictures of chairman Mao
You ain't going to make it with anyone anyhow
Don't you know it's gonna be
All right, all right, all right

THIS IS MY MANIFESTO:

take it for what it is.

Whether we like it or not, we all exist here.

Wouldn't it be nice if we could all get along?

I embarked on the journey

not knowing what it meant,

always getting more.

Understanding,

learning

how to accept.

Sure can't

turn back.

That shit

don’t work.

Goodness gracious,

Gods gifts on Earth.

If we could just say,

“I hear you.”

Looking inward at myself,

I sometimes question if

I'm going crazy

but

deep down I know

I simply walk a path less traveled that veered left at the fork of normality. The opposite direction -- a paved road: easy to walk on but no flowers grow. La piccola isola al largo delle questioni più profonde del mondo. Illusione libertà, che libertà è veramente tua mentre altri piangono per il tuo aiuto? You – and at my saddest time – I permetti l'acqua salmastra nelle tue orecchie. Can’t even hear my own conscience that way. Self-reflection, introspection, recollection of the words and teachings of all the wise prophets that came before me. Lorde said there is no such thing as new ideas -- just new ways to express them. Liberty chimes, rings from bell hooks: “love is the will to extend oneself for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth. love is as love does. love is an act of will, namely both an intention and action… …to truly love we must learn to mix various ingredients: care affection recognition commitment respect trust as well as honest and open communication.” To say “I love you” and mean it… I think it's letting ourselves drift in the wind. Moving my arms like wings, seeing light, knowing I’m that. It's beautiful, and I just love the world like that so much peace and freedom come from that presence, but, so much questioning and anxiety. This shit is hard. The journey isn’t supposed to be easy. I've got to learn to let go if I want to reach that point of transcendence that I speak of. Speak into fruition. SYZYGY. Celestial bodies, Vast everything. Identify as it. I promise if you speak your words aloud, the universe will hear you. To everything, Turn! Turn! Turn! there is a season, Turn! Turn! Turn! and a time to every purpose, under heaven. I feel like I'm floating most of the time. My friend tells me I look like I could get hit by a truck and keep walking. I spend my days pooping out rainbows

 Why not?

Universal God,

that manifests from

moving,

changing,

growing,

energy and space

all around me

if I have one wish,

LET IT BE

Open the Mind's Eye

wide enough

for my brothers and sisters to see

how these cuts run deep

and for many are still bleeding.

Open their eyes

wide enough

to see

so they know to

open their hearts

and we can truly know love.

Cry-Baby blossoms.

Smile in the mirror.

I smile.

LOVE IS THE ANSWER.

Don’t hold back on love.

Oh cruel, cruel world...

look at what you've done to us?

If I could smoke fear away,

I'd roll that motherfucker up,

and I take two Puffs.

I’d dip it in keif one time

and say

“I am

good enough”

Shout it!

Louder!

At the top of your lungs.

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Beautiful,

colorful

people of the world:

Be unafraid.

Be well.

Go with love:

FORWARD...

This is a special episode of CDKx, made possible by Gary Vee's incredible community. Thanks to each of those who took a moment of time to express your Truths, and thanks to all listening. There is something for each of us to gain from this episode -- no matter what age we are in this moment. Blessings. 

x

At the Inkedsomnia Virtual Art show, we all connected on deep levels with one another. 

Healing & catharsis of art, a bit of Q&A, and sharing the only thing I know for certain. Florence asked many of the questions. Inkedsomnia Virtual Art Show Event! 

 The Truth Beyond Insecurity is that real wholeness is rooted in Self Trust. 

During the Inkedsomnia Virtual Art Show, I explain my Lies We Tell Ourselves series to the virtual guests. I answer the questions they have around the series, and explain the process of creation. 

During the "Lies We Tell Ourselves" Inkedsomnia virtual show (hosted by Kelsey Lipps and Charlie Powers), I tell the story have a heart to heart I had with spiritual enlightened guru Michael Singer (although I know for certain he would laugh at hearing someone call him guru).

I have been in the back and forth stage of interviewing for a prospective job position as a Creator with VaynerMedia / Team Gary Vee. This was my behind the scenes process of preparing the content I submitted for the project brief I was assigned. Thanks to Rashawn Evans for strategy session, and 501 BAM (Bryan Miranda) for the drone footage. Check out the videos on Youtube by searching CDKx. 

In anticiption to release the illustrative book Thank You, Dammit, it is my pleasure to share the foreword here and now. Thank you for being YOU! I am grateful for all the ways you may have challenged my thinking throughout my life. 

"Lies We Tell Ourselves": finding Truth beyond insecurity.

This series of 6 oil paintings and poems document my conscious awakening, which began in 2019.

At the time, I defined "lies" as: "intrusive 'harshidities' our subconscious tells us about our Selves with no real basis; harsh realizations that (if examined deeper) would lead to growth do not count. Falsehoods that hold no bearing."

To condition the mind. To shut down insecurity. I asked, "If we became comfortable with this, maybe we would not lie to ourselves so much?"

This year of becoming aware of Awareness led to true Metamorphosis for me as an individual.

I knew these "Lies We Tell" were universal, and I also knew I needed to look within to begin to understand. So, I documented a list of every single lie I observed the voice in my head telling.

- "I can't"

- "I have to"

- "I'm over it"

- “I’m too much”

- "I'm not enough"

- "I'm having fun"

- "I'll just do it once"

- "I don't care what they think of me"

(and so on)

Deeper examination prompted the realization that lies, or as I began to call them, "happiness blockers," stem from the following:

- Denials & Defense

- Falsehoods Other People Sold Us

- Lack of Self Confidence, which can lead to...

- Self Deprecation

- Lost Sense of Purpose

Consciousness holds more power than the subconscious mind. Metamorphosis is the journey to freedom.

The titles of each painting and poem are:

1. “Carina” or "Archetypal Figure"

2. “Charmeleona”

3. “By Then”

4. "Smoke Fear Away" or “Not Good Enough”

5. “Dreams”

6. “Mucho Mistrust”

6 poems to complete the series, played in chronological order. Each poem has a YouTube video of the painting to show the visuals. Titles: Carina/Archetypal Figure, Charmeleona, By Then, Not Good Enough/Smoke Fear Away, Dreams, Mucho Mistrust.

Al and I met via Facebook a few months ago, and his determination to fine Truth led him to my art show. Our conversation about Conscious living and Consciousness spun into a deeper conversation with Damani about the state of the World, humanity, society, and the players who run it all (as conversations with Damani tend to do

Conversations with passersby at the Art Walk in Gulfport. Special thanks to Margo, Lenore, Miranda, and others for stopping to talk about art and lying. Thank you to our sponsor, Carroway + Rose, to Gulfport Chamber of Commerce, and art jury, as well as The Gabber Newspaper. Thank you James Briggs, Lynn Taylor, Brenda McMahon, and so many more.  10.2.2020

This episode is a conversation I had with a Lyft driver back in March. We saw the mass hysteria that was beginning to erupt, and had an open dialogue where we shared our perspectives...how often does that happen nowadays?

Over dinner, Damani and I briefly discuss the ways that humanity will be tracked on a piece of paper in the near future. I observe the awe of how our society is now measuring social interaction. Laughter, anger, sadness -- can be measured. "We did a lot of sharing in the 20's."

In this episode of CDKx, I extrapolate on the phone, with my mom, over the concepts that lead up to the track, "Ridi Pagliaccio" which is part of my upcoming album, "In the Twenties." This song will be accompanied with performance, as I embody all that is Force. I will portray the most insidious forces which constructed this crooked system we exist in -- White Patriarchy. 

We will listen to a SNEAK PEAK, discuss what the performance may look like, and finally lead into some conversation about trusting the Self. 

Special thanks to our sponsor, and all the people that make this Life thing so fucking worth it -- especially YOU!

I am grateful.