#045. DONE. [SERIES END]
November 27, 2020
#044. CHILLING EMAIL
Six days ago, I woke-up feeling very different. Shortly afterwards, a BBC TV producer emailed me. Coincidence? Let me read you the email...
November 20, 2020
#043. MEN WHO CRY
Men who cry openly, how do you feel about it? Seeing Joe Rogan - one of the world's most 'Alpha' men - crying this week forced me to ask some very searching questions of myself. Help me get to the bottom of this, please.
November 13, 2020
#042. ASHAMED. I GOT IT WRONG
Netflix series 'Dating Around' had a profound impact on me this week. Never has my initial judgement on someone been so wildly unjustified as it was for college professor Ben. You have to watch this guy. Let me explain. PS. One day, my future documentary 'The Train' is going to be my biggest ever release... so here's a love note to my future self x
November 06, 2020
#041. WARNING: ADULT CONTENT
This week, we talk about serial killers, emotional abuse & my penis.
October 30, 2020
#040. DISAPPOINTED LISTENER
I received a DM from a listener today. She confessed to being "disappointed" in me for something I said in a previous ep. I read her message on the show. Also this week, my awkward BBC interview, uncanny personality tests & how US singer Kalie Shorr made a giant contribution to my week.
October 23, 2020
#039. LIVING AS AN OUTSIDER
Ever had an entire week where you feel zero kinship with society? It's debilitating. In this episode, I explain. Also this week, I give you an exclusive peak into my book, now it's half-finished, plus share mild regrets I have about last week's show.
October 16, 2020
#038. SCUMBAG MEN
I was rebuffed by a woman this week, and frankly, my response was perfect. I compare my response to documented accounts of men reacting poorly to rejection. Also this week, we dissect a stunning scene from a Louis Theroux' documentary and examine my next girlfriend.
October 09, 2020
#037. I'M WRITING A FU**ING BOOK!!!
I dedicate this episode to anyone who, like me, waits for conditions to be perfect before attempting something new. Truth is, I'm the least equipped poerson to write a book.... I'm terrible at goal-setting, lack discipline & overthink everything. Yet staggeringly, despite all this, I've written 5000 words in 5 days. Here's how I've done it...
October 02, 2020
#036. FEMALE TURN OFF?
Women.... what's the most off-putting thing a man you're attracted to reveal about himself? I have a wild admission about women's clothes for you this week. Also, I play a recently-found clip from my early days in radio (recorded 2003)..... a clip I believe would be UNACCEPTABLE in today's "woke" culture. How has so much changed in 17 years? Has too much changed?
September 25, 2020
#035. AN APOLOGY
I said something in episode 33 that... based on your response, warrants an apology. Also this week, let's discuss whinging artists.
September 18, 2020
#034. BAD MOOD ALL WEEK
My family friction, horrible temper & Elysia's decision to quit the adult sex industry.
September 11, 2020
#033. BEER & PORN
Do you want to work in porn? Thousands of people do, right? This week, I offer my theory on how you can. Also, I unveil big plans for my website, tell you what happened to my newspaper pitch, show you where to get free beer & completely rethink my views on fame.
September 04, 2020
#032. FAKE NEWS STORY ABOUT ME?
I was invited to write an article for a big newspaper this week. It was an unmissable opportunity. Unfortunately, if I accepted, I'd be committing some kind of fraud.
August 28, 2020
#031. ATTRACTIVENESS EXPERIMENT
A guy I recently saw at a birthday party was unnecessarily good-looking, As a result, I want you to consider my attractiveness experiment. Also this week, I reveal whether the cute girl I DMd has replied....
August 21, 2020
#030. DEEPLY UNCOMFORTABLE
In this episode, I descend into an anxiety nightmare - as I message a girl I met 3 days ago. She attended one of my PR training events in London. In the message, I tell her I think she's beautiful. Why? Because she is. Also this week, I discuss worrying ADHD symptoms I appear to have. Plus, I read another uncomfortable message I had to send a very nice guy - a guy who I feel was ringing me more than I would like. This episode is a fucking hot mess.
August 14, 2020
#029. FEMALE HYPOCRISY?
US comedian Whitney Cummings recently interviewed fellow comedian Nikki Glaser. During their chat, Nikki told a story about a hot guy on an airplane. Nikki's view of the encounter pissed me off, and I want to explain why. Also this week, let's discuss my modeling contract and a new TV format I've written called 'Desserted'.
August 07, 2020
#028. MY EX & THE RICH DOCTOR
My ex was hotter than me, and everyone knew it. One of her clients was a handsome doctor. All the nurses found him attractive. He would often flirt with my ex. Although I have an unflinching belief she never did anything with the dude, can anyone ever be 100% certain of their boyfriend or girlfriend's fidelity? Let's dicuss...
July 31, 2020
#027. WORST THING A FRIEND COULD DO
What's the worst thing your best friend could ever do to you? What could you never forgive? This week, I discuss the lack of sensitivity I recently showed my best mate. PLUS, a spectacular new feature debuts on today's show. Enjoy!
July 24, 2020
#026. I'LL REGRET THIS EPISODE IN THE MORNING
A listener sent me a comment I don't agree with, so I spend most of this episode taking the piss out of the poor guy. Also this week, my half-assed casting for a Burberry commercial and the woman who hates the word 'breasts'. PS. I'm ashamed to admit it, but maybe fame is the one thing I actually do want, despite what I've said in many previous episodes.
July 17, 2020
#025. THE DAY SHE WENT VIRAL // EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW WITH KATE OVENS
Aged 26, Kate Ovens has amassed an online audience of over half-a-million, thanks to her 'Man Vs Food' style challenges. Becoming an influencer wasn't without obstacles, though. In the early stages of her YouTube journey, Kate faced mocking from friends and fellow university students who failed to see the point of her making videos. Now, having been featured in mainstream news and regularly working with major brands, Kate joined me to discuss fear, failure and going viral.
July 10, 2020
#024. WHY I WANT MORE £££ FROM MY MODELING AGENT
My modeling agent rang me yesterday. Let's go through that phone call! Also this week, I dissect the last two podcast episodes of this podcast - which featured special guests Ellie Flynn & Elysia Nicole Downings - revealing the one thing that annoyed me. And finally, if my daughter told me she wanted to worrk in the adult industry, how would I respond? American pornstar Charlotte Stokely makes a convincing argument for such a profession. Let's explore...... 🇺🇸
July 03, 2020
#023. SECRETS OF AN ONLINE SEX GIRL // EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW WITH ELYSIA NICOLE
Struggling with financial difficulties, in 2018, Elysia Nicole Downings turned her back on a career as a professional wedding photographer and transitioned into online sex work. Nowadays, sometimes earning £700-a-day, Elysia is open, honest and uncompromising in her support of the online sex industry. Elysia and I explore the realities of being a 'cam girl' in 2020.
June 26, 2020
#022. ILLEGAL SEX ADS, POLICE MISCONDUCT & UNDERCOVER STINGS WITH ELLIE FLYNN
Undercover Journalist Ellie Flynn and I discuss men, abuse, money, sex, catfishing, the adult industry and her undeniably impressive wardrobe choices. Ellie's catalogue of BBC documentaries have attracted well-earned praise, with NME hailing her as "BBC Three's shining star". Eye-opening, unsettling and dark themes aplenty, I find Ellie's stories captivating - so inviting her onto my podcast was a total no-brainer.
June 19, 2020
#021. IT'S ALL MY FAULT
YES OR NO...... all the problems, difficulties & challenges in your life are YOUR fault? This week, I downloaded an audiobook called 'THE POWER OF YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND', and for the first time in my life, I realised how my fear of fame is most likely the SOLE cause for my lack of progress as a writer, creator & filmmaker. With significant changes happening to this podcast from next week, this is the perfect time for us to talk about this, so let's.....
June 14, 2020
#020. ATTRACTION SCREW-UP
If not for my liberal outlook on life, there's every chance I'd be mortified, embarrassed or enraged by who I found myself attracted to this week....
June 07, 2020
#019. CONFRONTING MY SOCIAL MEDIA ADDICTION
A break from social media is an absolute must for me right now. In this episode, I share the text message I sent my best friend explaining why. Also this week, I reveal my honest opinions on BBC's hit show Normal People & answer your listener questions. Thank you for sending them.... 🌹
May 31, 2020
#018. SHOULD SAYING "IT'S NOT FAIR" BE BANNED?
I've always hated the term "IT'S NOT FAIR", especially when said by adults. Boris Johnson's chief aide, Dominic Cummings, incensed the nation this week, fuelling calls for his immediate dismissal. Among the rage, were claims that "IT'S NOT FAIR". This week, I explain why I hate that sentence. Oh, I got a monstrously negative review of my documentary 'Waiting With a Killer' this week, so let's talk about that, too.
May 24, 2020
#017. STALKED BY FAME
My allergy to the IDEA of fame was discussed in episodes 1 & 14. This week, yet again, by total fluke, I stumbled across two more interviews where celebrities explore the drawbacks of being 'known'. Let's discuss this issue (again!), make some outlandish predictions about my future documentary project 'The Train' and reveal the influence US comedian Kate Quigley has had on this podcast x
May 17, 2020
#016. MY PROBLEM WITH WEDDINGS & MCDONALD'S
Realising that you might bring very little value to your friendships isn't a moment to celebrate, but it's certainly one to contemplate. This week, I asked some searching questions of myself and my friends. In this episode, I encourage you to do the same.
May 10, 2020
#015. I DID IT FOR SELFISH REASONS
I came perilously close to letting a friend down this week, but at the eleventh hour, for selfish reasons, I decided against it. This is the story.
May 04, 2020
#014. WHY BBC, NETFLIX & SKY MIGHT THINK TWICE ABOUT A DOCUMENTARY FROM CK GOLDIING
'Playing The Game' is an undeniably wise strategy in any industry, especially the entertainment industry. In this episode, having recently watched brilliant documentaries from Ellie Flynn & Stacey Dooley [both BBC stars], I share the doubts I sometimes have about my inability to 'play the game'. .
April 26, 2020
#013. WOMEN WITH HAIRY ARMPITS & LOTS OF MONEY. YES PLEASE.
Victoria Beckham should pay the wages of her furloughed staff should she? Bollocks. Let me explain why. Also, British singer songwriter Chloe Howl has hairy armpits, Let's talk about that, too. PS. I have a few months of Metacognition training via YouTube under my belt, so naturally, I'm a pro at showing you how your mind works..
April 19, 2020
#012. JEALOUS OF A GUY HAVING SEX
If a 40-year old guy is sleeping with a 23-year old woman, who am I to take issue with it? I'M THE JEALOUS FUCKING GUY, THAT'S WHO. Let's discuss...
April 12, 2020
#011. AROUSED BY POTATOES!! OH, AND EXCLUSIVE COMMENTARY ON MY NEW DOCUMENTARY
Cheap supermarket food is beautiful, as is my new documentary. Let's talk about both x
April 05, 2020
#010. SHARK ABUSE: HERE'S WHY IT UPSET ME
I just watched a shark being killed on TV. My emotional response outstripped anything I've experienced while seeing COVID-19 take thousands of innocent HUMAN lives? That felt like an obscene imbalance of priority, and I wanted to know why. Here are my findings....
March 29, 2020
#009. PERVERTED PLEASURE IN COVID-19?
My love of a great boyband reached new heights this week, and for that, I must thank this absurd corona virus pandemic. It's been an unimaginable, crazy week.. but an even crazier 24 hours. Let me explain....
March 22, 2020
#008. MINDSET, CORONA VIRUS & ABUSE ft. NLP Coach Debs Bamford
Debs Bamford is an NLP coach. In the first filmed episode of my new podcast, we explore NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) - touching on its benefits and darker applications. Amid the global Corona Virus pandemic, we discuss how our inner beliefs and dialogues shape our lives, plus Debs opens-up about her personal experiences of abuse, divorce, sexuality and more. But, what is NLP? Language teacher Mandavi Pandey describes it as, "Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP) is all about bringing about changes in perception and developing choices in a given situation. The situation can be personal or professional, but it empowers you by giving you choices." Sorry, too vague - so I sought more detail from Debs...
March 16, 2020
#007. DISCIPLINE, HEROIN & ME
On my walk home, while recording this podcast episode, I was stopped by two homeless men. For purely selfish reasons, I'm glad these interruptions happened, because let's face it, they served as convenient distractions from the reality of a man talking to himself on his walk home
March 08, 2020
#006. CAN TOYS MAKE A KID GAY?
A friend recently told me that he wouldn't be happy if his son wanted to play with dolls. He thinks dolls would 'over-feminise' a boy, and the inevitable outcome of that is sexual confusion. Following a lengthy conversation with my mate, I approached a sales assistant in a high street toy shop. Her response was the last thing I expected.
March 01, 2020
#005. I KNOCK ON RANDOM PEOPLE’S FRONT DOOR & OFFER TO DO THEIR GROCERY SHOP
If a total stranger knocked on your door and offered to do your weekly shop for you, what would you say? Seemed like a nice gesture to me, so I tried it. Also, while I have your attention, how judgemental are you on a scale of 1-10? Whatever your answer… I DON’T BELIEVE YOU! In this episode, I explain why.
February 23, 2020
#004. CAROLINE FLACK’S DEATH, LOVE, JEALOUSY & OTHER HURTFUL THINGS
Minutes before recording this week’s podcast, I heard the news about Caroline Flack. Shaken-up and unsure whether it was an appropriate or even necessary talking point, I went with my gut and decided to share my feelings. Also… this week, I received the worst/most personal attack on my appearance from an online ‘troll’. I share the comment with you. Plus, as it’s Valentine’s week, I approached strangers in a coffee shop and asked them if it’s okay to be in a relationship with one person, but still be attracted to other people. I recorded their responses. Have a listen, they’re fascinating….
February 15, 2020
#003. ARE THE BULLSHIT STORIES WE TELL OURSELVES DANGEROUS?
Do you tell yourself negative things? Me too. Sometimes every day. How negative are the things you tell yourself? I reveal some of the bullshit stories I told myself this week, and why it was a real struggle to overcome them. I also discuss why I believe Philip Schofield’s announcement - on live daytime TV – that he is gay was inappropriately handled. Plus, for the first time ever, I use a hidden audio recorder to dive deeper into behaviour between strangers. MUSIC GUEST // RIDER OFFICIAL WEBSITE: https://www.riderofficial.com TWITTER: https://twitter.com/RiderMusicPage INSTAGRAM: https://www.instagram.com/ridermusicpage/ FACEBOOK: https://www.facebook.com/RiderMusicPage/ YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_8fHwfPAhcObjV9B9c6mEg/videos
February 09, 2020
#002. CAN TROLLS BE DECENT PEOPLE?
Following last week’s question – ‘is it okay to describe the TV Producer I had a meeting with as “beautiful”’, I read your thoughts. Plus, for the first time ever, I share hostile comments I’ve received from trolls, and outline why I think trolls are generally misunderstood.
February 02, 2020
#001. MY FEAR OF FAME, INNER CONFLICTS & THE BEAUTIFUL TV PRODUCER
Is it okay to describe a TV producer as "beautiful" in a podcas? it felt inappropriate, so I decided not to. Then I changed my mind, and spoke about it for most of the final ten minutes. Acceptable? In the opening episode of my new podcast, I discuss: my recent meeting with a TV producer, the ongoing difficulties I have with the concept of 'fame' & what I learned about putting myself out there. PLUS, let's get into why Ricky Gervais does it for me.
January 24, 2020