Complex Trauma Recovery; We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers

Complex Trauma Recovery; We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers

By C-PTSD
Complex trauma, anxiety, and depression are poorly-understood life cripplers. Getting a grip on your trauma brain and inflammatory body stands in the way of actually living. But you can do it... with the right mindset and support. You aren’t doomed, damaged, or broken. You aren’t a victim. You aren't alone. After everything you've been through, you’re a tough, gritty, determined, Traumatized Motherfxcker.

Join the community at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the Socials @TraumatizedMotherfxckers. Let's really talk about Trauma.

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Fear and Helplessness controlled my life; There is no merit in worrying
It's a marathon episode of back-to-back blog posts, motherfucker! Talking about the mindset of fear and helplessness running the show of your life. What's stopping you from doing things you know you should? Probably yourself. For me, life gets stunted on repeat by runaway catastrophic thinking and sense of pending doom that fills my traumatized brain. How can you get started on anything when you're convinced it's going to be disastrous or deadly? Ya fucking can't. Where do these victimized assumptions come from and how to get steppin. Then, the merit of worrying must die. Discussing the major problem with always being "10 steps ahead." How did this MF transition from an agoraphobe who was anxiety-attack-level-terrified of driving to packing up and doing that shit errday, across thousands of miles? Well... the answer may be insulting. "Think less, do more." How? Wanna read the blogs? Find them and a whole lot of other trauma living articles at www.t-mfrs.com. While you're there... Subscribe to get on that Newsletter train. Join the Discord community for daily support with MFs like you. Reach out anytime to share your story or tell me this sucks!
59:08
July 2, 2020
Shaking off shitty behaviors and getting trauma on track
A wild update 'cast from adventures in trauma; off the cuff and sharing a busy week of learning & developments. PLUS - A fellow trauma traveler from across the globe reaches out! Sharing the goosebump-raising voice message sent from an amazing New Zealander, now proud to call herself a Motherfucker. A gift I accept with so much gratitude, and oh, her beautiful accent. This week... your motherfucker's actually keeping the trauma terrors at bay. Why? Because I'm finally not acting like an asshole to myself. Turns out, when you calm down, do the things that you know support your trauma recovery mindset, and stop indulging in your shitty habits, everything can change pretty quickly. PSA: consume the right information, keep up with your mental health management practices, and watch your perspective change your world. Also, talking about all the exciting and unexpected shifts happening! Holy MF! The pressure of people actually caring, the universe shifting away from shitting on my everyday parade, and the spontaneous trauma-healing words I never thought my mom would say. Healing generational trauma. You know, I'm starting to think there's a purpose to all this.  Wanna jump into trauma recovery like a MF? Join the Traumatized Motherfucker Community on Discord! Hit up www.t-mfrs.com to apply for membership! While you're there, feel free to get in touch, subscribe to the blog/newsletter, and read trauma recovery lessons shared from fuckers like you. 
48:33
July 1, 2020
"Maybe in 10 years" with Daniel and Jess - Talking Vulnerability, Trauma Mindset Recovery, and Terrible Relationships
The very first episode of "Maybe in 10 years." The conversation and interview portion of the Complex Trauma podcast. Because no one needs to listen to my voice all day.  Traumatized Motherfuckers' Community Makers/Moderators Daniel and Jess sit down with a fine box of wine and talk Trauma. And motherfucker, maybe it's that sweet rush of Franzia, but we cover a lot of ground.  Topics include; getting over the fear of being vulnerable, learning about our diagnoses, leaning into depressive days without sinking the whole ship, and why relationships might not be the best choice for anxiously attached humans like us.  For more information, visit www.t-mfrs.com.  Wanna chat? Write in! Or, sign up to be a part of the private Discord community to get one-on-one mental health jabber with these Traumatized Motherfuckers.
52:44
June 27, 2020
Endless Trauma Loops; Why do they happen and how to forgive mistakes on repeat
For the past 2 years, I've had major epiphany moments about my trauma journey and recovery .I've made enormous progress in changing my mindset and behaviors to change my life - working towards building one I actually want, instead of one shaped by trauma. And then... I found an old journal that effectively demonstrates that I've known this information all along. Since, you know, a decade ago. I've had all the answers, I've known the right steps to take, and I've relived the same trauma patterns over and over again. What the fuck, self? What have you been doing? Loving this life of misery so much you couldn't give it up? Today, I'm talking endless trauma loops. Where do they come from? What's up with this trauma programming, inner critic, and fucked up core belief system? How does history repeat itself without being noticed? And how can we break these patterns before another decade flies by?  Plus... how to forgive ourselves for mistakes on repeat. Thanks, Universe.  If you've got something to say or just want to connect with other Traumatized Motherfuckers, search the Socials @traumatizedmotherfxckers! Find us at t-mfrs.com and request to become a member of the all-new community platform. Or, reach out at traumatizedmotherfxckers@gmail.com anytime to tell me what's up in your traumatized world. 
28:31
June 26, 2020
Complex Trauma and insecure attachments. Why romantic relationships wreck my world
I'm not proud to admit, I have bad relationships. I get obsessive and anxious. I fall into unhealthy patterns with unhealthy people. And I let them destroy my life from the inside out.  Part of this pattern is due to insecure attachments and trauma brain. The other part? My love for equally damaged animals. I'm a sucker for "helping" people at the cost of helping myself. I'm drawn to people with problems. I'm skilled at orienting my life around someone else's. I'm great at being a little helper and telling myself that's all I'm good for. Thanks, trauma! It's easy to beat myself up, to feel like a "dumb girl," or to chide myself for being an emotional martyr... but the fact is, I never learned about healthy relationships. I have good intentions, but I can easily care too much for people who don't even care about themselves. And every time, I get blown off-course from wherever I was headed with my own life and mental health recovery. How about you? Wanna chat daily? Pop over to t-mfrs.com and sign up for the online community platform. We're talking trauma and offering mutual support 24/7. See you on the server!
23:41
June 25, 2020
Leaning into dark emotions; Getting honest about my lost relationship
So... for months I've been doing well, spitting optimism, and riding highs. But this hasn't been totally honest with myself. There's been something bubbling under the surface that I haven't wanted to deal with. I haven't been acknowledging the truth about a dangerous-feeling emotion. And it hasn't been doing me any favors. The more you avoid, the more the feeling disrupts your motherfucking life.  Today, I'm talking off-script about how I lean into uncomfortable feelings and pull out the compartmentalized emotions without losing myself in a depressive pit... and exactly what's been churning under the surface in my life. Spoilers: I'm embarrassed to say, it's a lost relationship. And not even a good one.  Wanna become a real Motherfucker? Join up at t-mfrs.com. New Discord Community platform out NOW! Request to join and let's rap daily.
28:30
June 24, 2020
LIVE from my childhood home; Experiments and Results in C-PTSD management
Who’s back home and losing my trauma recovery footing? This guy!  When we left off, I was talking trauma and triggers caused by revisiting my roots. What’s happened since then? Instead of fleeing from my discomfort for the safety of Atlanta.... I’ve been doing a lot of experimenting. These are the trials and the results in managing my trauma responses in my most triggering environment. Am I pulling it together this time? Or falling apart, like so many times in the past? To share your experience revisiting difficult places and relationships, get in touch through the site, instagram, or FB group! I’d love to hear about YOUR trauma recovery, and so would a lot of Traumatized Motherfuckers. Don't keep your experience to yourself - help someone who needs to hear that they aren't alone. Search the Socials and DM me @ traumatizedmotherfuckers, visit www.t-mfrs.com to use the Contact pages, or just send me an email at traumatizedmotherfxckers@gmail.com. Talk to you soon!
28:05
June 17, 2020
LIVE: Visiting home and trauma journey backslides
For months I’ve been great (you know, relatively speaking for a Traumatized MF). I’ve been focused, uber productive, healthy, and happy, locked inside my room in Atlanta..... and then I came home to Illinois. Triggers: everywhere. Trauma mindset: ACTIVATED. I’ve been a fucking anxious, fearful, defeated mess, our of nowhere - and I can’t help but wonder.... How can such a high high be immediately followed by a descent to trauma lows? Will I pull this shit back together, or is this another slip backwards on my long trauma trek? Guess we’ll find out in this OFF THE CUFF discussion of recent life challenges.  If you're into the message, come hang out! Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters across the web. Let's rap about really living with Trauma.
26:39
June 10, 2020
An abusive relationship and a new purpose. Origins of a Motherfucker, Part 4.
Lessons; one year after leaving my abusive relationship and losing it all. I'm talking self-shame, inner critics, and forgiveness in the wake of another abusive circumstance. This is part 4 of my origin story; where I’ve been, what I’ve conquered, and how I began my trauma recovery journey after years of giving up on myself. This 'cast is about dark times... but these shadowy days are the origins of Traumatized Motherfuckers, my trauma support project. Let's get honest about it. If you're into the message, come hang out! Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters across the web. Let's rap about really living with Trauma.
19:32
May 28, 2020
Intro to stress, inflammation, and autoimmune disease. My origin story: Part 3.
This is the story of an overachiever lifestyle and decades of unmanaged childhood trauma resulting in autoimmune breakdown and mysterious illness in my early 20's. Part 3 of my personal origin story and my introduction to Trauma. There’s a lot more to say about this ongoing physical illness, but hey, these blog posts turned audio recordings are a start. Here's a concise overview of my rapid fall from ambitious, scientific grace into physical and mental debilitation. The onset of my "Traumatized Living." Don't worry, it was a shit couple of years... but I'm not here to complain. Just to connect. I promise, it all gets better from here.  If you're into the message, come hang out! Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters across the web. Let's rap about really living with Trauma.
17:53
May 28, 2020
The father, the son, and the financial ruin: Part 2 of my Intro to C-PTSD
What are the origins of my childhood trauma story? Where did this Trauma Project start? Buckle up, Motherfuckers. Learn - briefly and sensitively - about my personal trauma story as I continue recording through my original blog posts. The intention? Not to wallow or complain about hard times... but to connect with people who've always felt alone. I'm turning these writings into audio recordings, so strong Motherfuckers can connect without giving up their time and eyesight. Listen along and join the Complex Trauma Battle at Traumatized Motherfuckers.  If you're into the message, come hang out! Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the Socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters across the web. Let's rap about really living with Trauma.
21:57
May 21, 2020
Getting Vulnerable: Intro to my C-PSTD
Listen up! It's THE FIRST blog post I made (and kept) for Traumatized Motherfuckers... read in audiobook style for your easy consumption. Get to know my inner shit from a difficult early life, and see if it sounds a lot like yours. At the end of the day, we’re just Traumatized Motherfuckers (AKA trauma warriors leveraging our pasts to help ourselves in the future).  If you're into the message, come hang out! Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com. Search the socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters across the web. Let's rap about really living with Trauma.
13:44
May 21, 2020
I am the Traumatized Motherfucker
I’ve been too chicken shit to follow through with creating a podcast for the past year. The brutal voice in my head gave a million reasons not to. But Traumatized Motherfuckers don’t let fear determine their lives anymore. And I am the OG TMF. This is my Complex Trauma project, and I hope it can help - first, I just have to take the motherfucking steps. Join the community, find mindset support for your C-PTSD journey, and share your story at www.t-mfrs.com! Search the socials for Traumatized Motherfuckers and DM me with your perspective on trauma matters. Let's rap.
14:55
May 18, 2020