Complex PTSD Recovery: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
By CPTSD, Complex Trauma, Generational PTSD, Relational Trauma
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The Dangers of Intellectualization and Rationalization pt I
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Defense Mechanisms, here we come. Today, let's talk about the ways people hide themselves (reality of their motivations and emotions) from themselves (conscious awareness and acceptance), starting with two BIG HITTERS.
Stay smart... but self-aware out there.
Cheers Fuckers!
MFJESS
REPOST! Apply It | Repersonalization Pt II - A New Life for Your SELF
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Reposting continues! May I divert your attention to this post from SUV living after fleeing my family in 2021.
ENJOY THE GROWTH and
Cheers Fuckers
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Original Blurb:
September 2021
Well, I'm a sucker and I won't leave you hanging. Everyone gets Part II - take your "self" motivation and do something with it.
So we dove down and reconnected with the fact that we're real, actual, autonomous animals on this planet last time. We got in touch with the awareness of "Self" that's always been here and always will be. Now what?
Let's strengthen your continuous identity, put hard times into context, and start figuring out how to live the way we actually always wanted. Spoilers: It's going to take everything you've got. Better to live trying than die waiting for something to happen.
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 7: YOUR RESILIENCY
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We'd be remiss not to bring up 5 more points: the components of your resiliency. You're more tenacious than you give yourself credit for. Let's give ya self-recognition a boost.
Don't dismiss you, Fucker.
Cheers!
Jess
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 6: Intrinsic Motivated Life
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Pulling all our work together, what do we get? Behavioral change, directed from the inside-out. Living based on personal values. And final recognition of the cumulative self we've become.
HAIL YOUR SELF
And Cheers, Muff.
MFJess
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 5: You are Human & Self Forgiveness
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What enables empathy towards ourselves and others? Recognition of humanness.
Cheers, Fuckers! TSIF
MFJess
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 4: Empowerment & Entitlement
What ARE you realistically entitled to?
4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)
They'll shake your hand while pissing on your leg, plead and then pulverize promises, and generally give the sense that they're one hundred people who share a face. But why?
Let's talk about narcissist personality structuring that ranges from neurotic to psychopathic, but never hits the mark of "maturity." Meanwhile, creating the condition I've titled simply: There is no Integrity without Integration.
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Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 3: Self Authority
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What ARE you an authority on? And if your answer is "nothing," lemme help you flip that perspective.
Cheers, Fuckers!
MFJESS
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 2
Authentic vanity and self-sufficiency. Today we ask "what CAN you feel authentic pride about?"
Your self Authority, Authenticity, Integrity Pt 1
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Let's work through the positive aspects and negative pitfalls of being an embodied self.
"So fucking what?" Narc-Integrity Supplement (pt III)
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Ep Notes:
The end of intellectualizing. Time to apply the knowledge we just gathered for our own narc dealings.
Stay safe out there and Cheers, Fuckers.
MFJESS and Markus Barkus
Narcs: NO INTEGRITY WITHOUT INTEGRATION pt II
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Ep Notes: Let's compare narcissism to the levels of personality functioning that range from "mature" to "psychopathological," with all the neuroticism and borderline functioning in between.
Hail yourSELF and cheers, Fuckers.
MFJess
"Feel good about yourself." For Real. Building self Esteem x Parts Work
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"Just feel good about yourself!" Great. Except your brain was drafted uponst narratives of self-derogation for 'safety.' So, now what? Let's talk about using the concept of adaptive narcissism and the self-supporting traits it encompasses for parts work... starting with your gd Managers.
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Narcs: NO INTEGRITY WITHOUT INTEGRATION pt I
There is NO INTEGRITY WITHOUT INTEGRATION, and these fuckers use relationships as stand-ins for doing the work.
4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing
It's the cc'd video version! "Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from achieving this safe, centered, self-supportive, resilience-boosting psychological station, and the easiest way to achieve the "healthy self" that's never been otherwise defined. Adaptive Narcissism. Plus, we'll be discussing how AN relates to VN and GN; reiterating the truth that going small with your self is not the answer to trauma recovery.
4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing
"Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from achieving this safe, centered, self-supportive, resilience-boosting psychological station, and the easiest way to achieve the "healthy self" that's never been otherwise defined. Adaptive Narcissism. Plus, we'll be discussing how AN relates to VN and GN; reiterating the truth that going small with your self is not the answer to trauma recovery.
Your Ailing self and How to Fix It... with GranAdaptiveNarcissism
Where does narcissism become 'a psychological tool necessary for adaptive functioning in the face of adversity'? Today in the continuation of our focus on Adaptive Narcissism, we examine a paper on the flawed reporting measures used in traditional Narc research and delineate "self" supporting traits of the various narcissistic subtypes. Asking the question: bitch, you think you special? And if not, how can you start?
Parent-Child Ambivalence, Guilt, and Care Perception | Extra Research
Count this as an extra dive into 3 research papers. What's the connection between perception, caregiving burden, parent-child ambivalence, and guilt?
4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt
Why is the decision to sacrifice or save our brains so difficult to make? Let's talk about subconscious narratives we probably all carry, the ambivalence-guilt connection, and the power of perception on caregiving burden.
- Find the transcript at t-mfrs.com
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- Need some FilOb support? There's a group coming for that dontchaknow. Stay tuned.
Cheers FCKRS.
4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist
A big 'nouncement; so long TMFRS! Then let's talk about what constitutes a VulNarc versus "a person with CPTSD." Where does the chronic manipulation come from? How are recovery resources used for trauma-unhealing? What's up with the hostility and antagonism?
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Lots to cover in this mashup of "time, space, and energy" meets "VulNarcs" and "trauma-selves."
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For even more detail, check the newly updated Narc Collection at Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers
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And thank you again for the past 4 years of gettin nerdy together. See you in the next evolution.
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3.12b. Sex on Parts and Survival Programs
This year we spoke about Intimacy. Now it's time to confront *Intimacy.* Let's look at the discrepant programs that live inside of us, gathered across a lifetime of adaptation to extreme events and unhealthy narratives. We're talking Sexual Healing vs. Internal Family Systems and deprived needs.
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3.12a. Transference, Projection, Monkey-barring, Displacement
We're tying up loose ends in our discussion of relationships! Today, discussing the cognitive copy-pastes we accidentally carry out between past and present relationships - and they ways they set us back in our recovery goals while creating abusive dynamics.
Need more thoughts about transference in all its forms? I've got another hour of material and an animated vid on this one. Check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for more help, or go to t-mfrs.com to get your pubpod transcripts and learn more about the project.
Cheers y'all!
Self-abandonment vs your best Spanksgiving
Let's cut the brainy shit, the real answer to surviving the holidays is not abandoning yourself.
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Stay safe, support yourself, and see you soon Fucker!
MFJess and Marcus Barkus
3.11. Ten Destructive Responses that Set Off Trauma Defenses
Back to NonViolent Communication! Here are 10 things the experts say destroy our attempts at vulnerable disclosures and requests. Just in time for the holidays, let's talk about why these conversational reactions burn our t-brains and why people are programmed to use them, anyways.
For the full transcript and all the doods, check t-mfrs.com and get ready to peruse for hours.
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3.10. Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamics
We learn to neglect ourselves at an early age and then everything goes to hell forever after. Stuck in unfixable suffering, toiling away with ineffectual attempts to comfort ourselves, and possibly... destroying our own lives, in an attempt to end the self-deprivation through backdoor methods.
Let's talk about needs and what happens when we learn there are "required" versus "unallowed" ways we're permitted to care about ourselves.
If this show made your eyes get real big, you may want to check out this full episode series. Hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and jump into the "NonViolent Communication Collection" for all the episodes, videos, workbooks, and reflection exercises on self-neglect. And we'll be returning to talking deprivation in a few weeks :)
Cheers, Fuckers!
Jess
3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication
"Depression is the reward we get for being good children."
NVC helps yer relationships, sure. But it'll also rewire your t-brain trashhabits, emotional misunderstandings, and shit perspectives if you use it solo.
Let's talk about the roots of the worst of us; our unmet needs and beliefs that deprivation = goodness. Which create vicious cycles of projection, unfulfillment, and relational abuse.
Like reading along and looking at scribbles? Find your transcript here, Fucker.
Ready to dive headfirst into this conversation, or any of our other topical focuses? Hit up "Collections" of episodes, workbooks, videos, polls, bonuses, and more at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers.
... and help this one-person operation keep rolling, while you learn.
Cheers!
Jess and Barkus
3.9a NonViolent (Effective) Communication
Ever feel "unheard"?
Well, here's the key to getting your point across and sparking collaboration rather than opposition.
Today, we're talking about NonViolent Communication (NVC) - the 4 step framework for communicating effectively about emotions and unmet needs without stimulating defensive reactions or leaning on your own deeply ingrained control tactics... And so much more.
Wanna transcript and some doods to listen along with? Find it here!
Looking to do more than scratch the surface on NonViolent Communication? Check out the new NVC "Collection" as it populates on Patreon! We're wrapping about all the NLP details and recovery implications with whiteboard vids and workbooks, to boot, at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers.
ps - your patronage makes this entire project possible. Thank you, Fuckers.
Cheers
MFJess
3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)
So, how do we apologize "the right way"... Rather than creating MORE damage through half-assed "I'm sorrys"?
Today, let's talk about the 5 points for offering a real apology for sake of true relational healing... And four examples of how NOT to apologize, unless you actually want to make the emotional abandonment experience worse for your partner.
Looking for 10 more examples of terrible non-apologies? Hit up the recent episode "Non-Apology Apologies" over at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. And fuckle up for NonViolent Communication month, coming at ya in September.
For the transcript version of this (and every) episode, go to t-mfrs.com. And do some extra CPTSD learnin while you're there.
Cheers, Fuckers!
MFJess
3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)
How DO we heal what's been broken? I've got a short phrase for you - it's what we've all needed to hear all along.
And let's talk about the timeless wounds patched up by real apologies, as we prepare to talk about shitty apologies next time.
Hail yerSelf and Cheers Fuckers.
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Extra "survival Fs" to give in relationship; Fronting and Feigning
We all know about the 4 survival Fs at this point. But how about the additional F reactions- Fronting and Feigning?
Let's talk about learned reactions that keep us feeling safe in relationship... while rotting out the connection, engaging manipulation tactics, and using fear as a self-defense.
Looking for more "real relationship talk"? Well that's the order of the month, over in the private podcast stream. We're dropping four full episodes of "less fluffy" relational conversations, talking about how relationally traumatized partnerships actually tend to shake out... and how to "read them" before you're in too deep.
See you there!
And cheers, Fuckers!
MFJess
3.7. Determining "Are they a good relational partner?" before committing
We've talked a lot about committing fully to relationships and overcoming our conflicts together, through examining the subconscious wounds that actually underly our relational upsets.
But here's my question: Is that realistic?
Today, we talk about getting clearer on the contents of our potential and current relationship partners' preprogramming, through checking our own somatic experiences, our shared trauma histories, and their adaptions to the social systems that raised them.
For alllll the relationship x CPTSD details that will reframe how you view other people and yourself... hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and join the private conversation around relearning "healthy relating."
Prepare to reflect.
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Mailbag! Episodic memory integration, internal recalibration, borderline fears, and beyond
Let's run through a bunch of messages today, and end on a trauma recovery inspired tune - sent by a gifted MF putting their skills to good use for all of us. We'll talk about fearing borderline diagnoses, redesigning life to meet our recovery needs, the utility of journaling and trauma narration, and beyond.
Thanks again to Somber Mercy for their share and song submission! Find them at instagram.com/sombermercy
If you want to be a part of the Mailbag or Motherfuckers Speaks episodes, send your shiiiiiit to traumatizedmotherfxckers@gmail.com to get on the show, in written or recorded form.
Cheers y'all
MFJess
3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationships
Ever feel like "the issue" isn't really "the issue" in relational conflict? That's because the real issue is buried under layers of protective instincts that keep us unable to fully connect or communicate... but very capable of fighting, endlessly.
Let's talk about "conscious relationships" and their trauma recovery utility, as we discuss methods for resolving unescapable conflict detailed by IFS couples therapy practitioners.
Hankering for the full details on this relationship recovery talk? Hit up the private community and long-ass episode stream at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers, and git all the extra bonus resources this month at any subscription level!
Then stay tuned for next month, as we get into the "relational real talk" that brings this conversation down to t-earth.
See you there!
MFJess
3.6 Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanation
Why do we start close relationships and love connections feeling one way... only to watch them disintegrate, become survival-based, and turn into "resentment"?
Let's walk through the easiest explanation ever told; pulling in our Internal Family Systems education to discuss the greatest relational obstacle of them all.
Looking for a lot more relational talk? Good news! It's been the theme of 2023 over on the private stream. Check this month's special triple research episode release and get all the extra resources, no matter how you subscribe.
See you there, and cheers, Fuckers!
MFJess
Mailbag! "I feel unfixably 'wrong' and sabotage everything"
The perfect email to reflect the topic of the month - needing to understand our own unconscious brains before we set them loose on others - is here! Let's hear from a young listener out of Ohio (sorry) who asks about the continual feeling of "wrongness" that's been birthed from {TW} childhood sexual abuse, and all the ways it's ruined ongoing attempts to recreate their life and relationships. Plus, what this Muff suggests you can do about it, on a SUB-C level.
Check t-mfrs.com for the transcript to this episode, if you've got similar work to do (hint: we all do). And hit up all those shows mentioned in the rundown in the private podcast stream, as you also support this spread of traumaknowledge by supporting my ability to do the werk as a patron of the project.
And cheers, Fuckers!
Jess
Early lessons in relational danger: "When the perp is your savior" by Leanne
So we're littered with vulnerability and trust issues... and plenty of recentish events can dominate our reasoning about "why."
But really, those interpersonal shuttdown instincts likely started a lot earlier. We carry unseen wounds from decades ago that stack up to create sky-high obstacles to human connection, which get validated down the line to form solid fucked up core beliefs about ourselves vs. the human species.
Today, we're hearing the story of a MF like you, reflecting on an early toddlerdom experience with The Woman Who Raised Her that would logically lay the groundwork for future withdrawal from close interpersonal connection. Let's hear from a community pillar, Leanne, as we release a MFs Speaks episode from the private vault.
Don't forget - getcher reflection prompts at t-mfrs.com if you want to do werk alongside the episode, and be sure to holler at Leanne when you hop into the closed-door community!
3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections
We MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the truth is, the abuse recreation is mutual and it all starts in the place we attempt to willfully ignore - inside ourselves, within our preferred and hated personality aspects.
Let's talk about acquisition of conscious and unconscious identities that fuck up our relational attempts equally. The ways Protective, Exiled, and Distractive brain programs inject chaos and abuse into our connections. And why we first need to get vulnerable, intimate, and trusting with our own brains... if we don't want to repetitively create hellish, self-fulfilling abuse prophecies with others.
It's the start of a big discussion going down in the private podcast stream and support community. Support your future relationships and this DIY educational effort at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or t-mfrs.com.
And cheers to all yer parts.
MFJess
"Recovery Emotions vs. Life Obligations" Mailbag!
You wrote, I do my best to answer! Today's Q: "Your episodes trigger the fuck out of me, therapy is going to do the same.... so how do I keep up my hyper-functionality while the emotional tides rage?" My A: I wish "do yoga about it" worked across the board. But it don't, so let's approach this from another direction. Talking Manager vs. Exile parts, Self reliance, and making external changes so we can do internal work.
Gotta question of your own? Send em to traumatizedmotherfxckers@gmail.com
Looking for the society-scorning episodes and self-management episodes I mentioned throughout? Find em here!
Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships
Why don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns?
It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's talk about relationship hangups from an experiential standpoint, integrating what we've heard from the research with real life brain operations to demystify disorganized feelings about closely connecting with others.
Check out t-mfrs.com for more info and blogged transcripts of each public episode.
To help yourself help yourself, while also helping this project to support MFs round the world, hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the full years-long conversation and private Discord support community filled with unfluffy folks like you.
And cheers y'all
MFJess
3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship
"So how do you feel about relationships?
Complicated?
You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly? Or you try to? You get stuck in them? And haunted by cycles of unfulfillment?"
Today, let's talk about the obstacles we face when considering relationships or landing ourselves in them. The ways we attempt to protect ourselves from them. Why shallow, distanced relationships plague PTSD sufferers. And how vulnerability, intimacy, and trust are necessary foundations for our long-term healing.
For the full conversation on VIT in relationship shitnanigans, hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and stay tuned as we dive deeply into relationships on trauma.
Mailbag! Identifying CPTSD, understanding partners, and coping through relationship dissolutions
My inbox collects a lot of stories and questions... and I think they'd be put to better use anonymously shared with the whole crew. Let's dip into some listener feedback and questions today, asking "Do I have CPTSD?" "How do I understand my partner better?" and "How do I cope in this relationally destabilizing time?"
Wanna get your own recorded feedback? Submit your message at t-mfrs.com or traumatizedmotherfxckers@gmail.com
3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing
So you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find that self-condemnation is a big part of your day to day. Why?
Let's talk about self-judgment taking place on subconscious levels. How your identities mask the ongoing self-loathing that created them. And how to heal that shit, once and for all.
Up for making big changes? Get started with us at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers
Hardening versus Healing
Today, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation.
In so much of this "trauma recovery game" we're inspired to hunker down against past patterns. But is that really healing?
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2. Healing self-contradicting brains with Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy
Ever feel like you've got a whole household of people contained in one skull? Fighting, just like they did in your family home? Turns out, that's normal.
Today, let's talk about Internal Family Systems and the roles cemented in your brain. Protectors, Exiles, Distractors, and their vicious cycles that leave us feeling out of control of our own noggins. Plus, how to work with them, instead of hosting raging battles inside forever.
Looking for more deets or just want to help support this solo-DIY project? It's much needed and appreciated. Hit up patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers to keep the knowledge spreading through diverse social systems.
Check t-mfrs.com for more info on the whole community healing project.
🍻 Cheers y'all
Jess
1. Loneliness and Isolation in CPTSD
Let's discuss the varieties of loneliness, the trends that start in childhood and pervade a lifetime, and the separate condition known as Isolation. Plus, how being a relational castaway can actually benefit our post-traumatic growth (whaaat).
Looking for all the details and community reflections on these lifetimes of loneliness? Find em at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - promise you'll feel less alone.
12. Challenges of breaking the cycle | AKA - generational upset, NC, a new world
Let's talk about the opposition we face during trauma recovery - namely, from our social contacts who aren't ready to have their own histories and perspectives pulled into focus. And, let's discuss the reason why the battle is worth all the effort.
Don't give up, brave Motherfucker. Remember that what you're doing matters. For everyone. ✊
Related eps: perspective series, filial obligaton series, brain programming series, family hijinx series, NC eps, refind yer Self series, inner and outer work series
11. Forming new lives | AKA - reintegration efforts for lasting change
So we do this painful and energetically expensive inner work. And then what? Return to the same old lives? Naw, Fucker. That's the fastest way to hit "revert to draft." Once the integrative inner work starts, the outer labor has to keep up.
Let's talk about supporting our brain changes by building new lives, to enable further cognitive evolution as we keep stepping.
Related eps: inner and outer work series, refind & empower yer Self series, re-association eps, confronting common human fears ep, early season motivation eps
10. The resources needed for brain recovery | AKA - mediums for new perspectives
Aiming for recovery, but finding that you never have the conditions to make progress?
Let's talk about what it takes for a brain to heal. The basic mediums of life that most of us are unable to access in our traumatized society.
Related eps: time distortion series, "rat cage" societal trauma series, inner and outer work series, refind yer Self series
9. Loss of functionality | AKA - overcompensation, collapse, resisilence not resistence
A brain is busy with all those survival processes running in the background and the second-by-second management of triggers and symptoms. So what happens when that system gets overloaded?
Today, we're talking about the pattern of symptom masking/ignorance, overcompensation, loss of functionality, and eventual collapse. And how does "resilience vs. resistance" change our perspective?
Related eps: brain operations series, perspective series, inner and outer work series
8. Internal battles | AKA - healing your disintegrated brain
Back to this self-limiting conversation... what happens when our "selves" are limited by incohesion? When we have inner wars over "the right thing," or oppositional memory and emotional responses confusing every issue?
Let's talk about the battle that rages inside. Revisiting "parts" and how they're the crux of pulling your shit together for long-lasting recovery.
Related eps: fragmentation series, DID series, find and empower yer Self series, inner and outer work series, derealization and depersonalization eps