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Confessions of a Trap Yogi

Confessions of a Trap Yogi

By Mila "Kels the Yogi" Marshall

I confess meditation, yoga, and mindfulness has changed my life. Welcome to the podcast and playlist. I like to think of this as soundscaping for the soul. I'm a Chicago girl all day long, I'm a mom, an entrepreneur, I'm a doctoral candidate and so much more. Don't get it twisted I'm a yogi but don't push me LOL...this practice has so much to offer and I've loved every second of being a trap yoga teacher. Confessions is about being real and using the wisdom from some of our most phenomenal rappers and music artists. Music moves me, calms me, inspires me, lifts me up.
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Confessions of a Trap YogiMay 11, 2018

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Mad Hurt

Mad Hurt

Hey y'all1

I'm back and better than ever at least I think I am. Ever been so angry you messed around and hurt yourself moving too fast? Imagine doing that on a daily, On this episode of COATY I admit to how I fumble when my feelings are hurt.

Aug 09, 202310:44
Care like I imagined how you doin it damnit!

Care like I imagined how you doin it damnit!

Ok...It's been some time. I'm not in a good mood. I'm not in a good mood because I'm in my thoughts about what folks should do, how they should do it and what it means when they don't. Learning how to stay in my lane can drive me insane. Being mindful IS NOT a walk in the park and if it was it would be a park with broken glass, random stray dogs and I don't have on any shoes LOL. It isn't easy being breezy. 

This come back episode is just me confessing what it feels like to be honest about my expectations of others. My feelings get hurt when folks don't read the imaginary script I wrote for their role in my head. HOW DARE THEY! 

Ultimately I get to the conclusion that I'm either jealous our lonely believing thoughts that are hurtful more easily than thoughts that aren't. The mind is a circus so no wonder I think everyone in front of me is a clown. 

Oct 24, 202232:48
Sleep Meditation

Sleep Meditation

Tiredness is draining. Practice letting go of the day and letting in the lightness of rest. Enjoy this guided sleep countdown if sleep seems to escape you. Practice not forcing sleep but acknowledge how you may be hindering your own rest. Be mindful of your sleep rituals...treat bedtime like the love of your life. Be caring, take your time, savor the transition and be present to take it all in.
Apr 06, 202007:32
Free from Fear Meditation

Free from Fear Meditation

Scared? Anxious? Feeling frightened? The mind can feel overwhelming with the sharp thoughts that pierce our peacefulness. This guided meditation is an invitation to sit with the those feelings and acknowledge while accepting that they too will pass.
Apr 05, 202014:06
3 part yogic breath pranayama

3 part yogic breath pranayama

A bit of breath practice teaching 3 part yogic breath.
Apr 04, 202004:10
Clarity Meditation

Clarity Meditation

Confusion can be distracting...calm your heart and mind inviting clarity for correct understanding. A busy brain and stress can block us from seeing what is real. Practice bringing in some peace and clear a path for truth to parade. Make time for meditation so that living is less of a mirage and you can see the miracles with full awareness. (~7.5 min)
Apr 02, 202007:40
Sweet 16

Sweet 16

You'll feel better in a minute. 60 seconds and 16 sweet affirming words to remind yourself of who you are. Baby there's nothing like a gentle reminder of the truth, so claim it. Have a seat and consider 16 words, this affirming gentle guided meditation is meant to be quick and fast but made to last. Make your list and repeat each word after "I Am". Breathe in for I Am, exhale ypur affirmative statement or word. Make this your own. It can be the same word repeated or a new list daily listen to yourself...what are you affirming to be real and true? Then every opportunity you have to show those words are real....take it and live it and show it.
Feb 20, 202001:01
I Am Worthy Meditation

I Am Worthy Meditation

A gentle and relaxing connecting to self. Perfect for developing a ritual of building the courage for your self worth. Yes you are valuable and worthy of all good things.
Feb 17, 202005:07
Guided Meditation for Peace in Parenting

Guided Meditation for Peace in Parenting

I confess. I was a mess recording this meditation. I've been embarrassed to admit I'm not the best mom and I've struggled with using my practice to parent better. There I said it. The hardest part of being a parent and yogi is the guilt and shame of not being good at breathing and using the practice in my home. Resentment is real. This is my way of opening up and claiming freedom from the idea that I need to be perfect...I just need a wish to grow in my parenting so that I can be a better mom and raise mindful human beings.
Jan 16, 202005:07
Smile & Be Happy Meditation

Smile & Be Happy Meditation

Feelings...we can get in them, they can control us. But what happens when you decide to not let your heart get highjacked? I'm stubborn on any day ending with "day", so when I'm in my hurt feelings and bad thoughts I stay there on purpose even when I know how to get out of them. People tell you to smile it will be better. The truth is...it will be better if you smile or don't smile. The real invitation is to lessen your suffering by gifting yourself some practical peace. Choosing to be happy is a practice. Enjoy.

Jan 16, 202004:19
New Year New Heart Call

New Year New Heart Call

An inspiring 5 minute meditation from the February 2020 publication of Mindful. I'm ready for more this year and ready to listen to what my heart is calling for. Enjoy listening, enjoy the journey to your new you.
Jan 12, 202005:00
Speaking My Mind...FRFR

Speaking My Mind...FRFR

Heeeeey y'all! Sharing is caring right?!  So I share what is going on in my head these days. I've been mad busy with life and I'm sure you have as well. Thank you to all the listeners and for those that share the podcast with others. I've been concerned about the cost of self love these days and talk a bit about those feelings I've been having, Secondly I turn and bare my soul...LOL confessions is really about getting things off my mind and being honest...yeah my kid is stressing me out and nope I hate mild sauce. I think you'll enjoy this episodes hip hop affirmation too! Want to read more? Find me at www.milakmarshall.com 

Apr 05, 201938:47
Truth Is

Truth Is

Episode deux is more like a public diary than ever. I guess I'm finding myself less shy but hey...that is one of my confessions. Here I share I don't miss the south side of the Chi. I love my city dearly but real talk I don't miss the segregation or the lifestyle I could afford. I still have some apprehension about saying that publicly but %$#& it that is what Confessions is for. I also am slow to admit some other truths but I do it anyway LOL. I talk a bit about sharing our love on purpose through a sweet story of an email that caught me off guard and I send love to my friends that reached out after the dizzy anxiety attack that hospitalized me. We ride out to E.Nos for our musical mantra and what I love about the track and have been repeating is "Life Golden". We can get so consumed by what we don't have yet or what we think we deserve. Take some time tell yourself the truth about what you have accomplished and live in celebration of those things. Daily I'm reminding myself to step back and reflect on how I ripped some shit, then I let it go and practice being better tomorrow! Love Notes: @djban @exavierpope (Danielle & Lauren) Musical Mantra: E.NosHulkmania Ft. Gilfrontheislands https://soundcloud.com/weknowenos/hulkamania-ft-giifromtheisland Follow me IG: @kelstheyogi Twitter: @KelsTheYogi FB: Kels the Yogi Website: www.milakmarshall.com
Oct 12, 201835:09
The Kickoff Confession EP1/S2

The Kickoff Confession EP1/S2

Season 2 kicks off with a new style. I confess my loneliness and what I really feel like right about now. I show love to some friends and family that have held me down. I chat it up with the question of the day "What the hell is wrong with people?" We all have asked that question, and​ I end with our musical mantra. Getting out of your own way takes intention. So press play.....and yeah I rap sometimes. LOL
Aug 22, 201828:40
Out of Control

Out of Control

The latest episode of Confessions covers what is out of our control. Inspired by Willow Smiths' Female Energy; I talk a little bit about how we mistake access to our partners as an opportunity to control them, their thoughts and actions.
May 11, 201830:43
Check Yourself Before You Check Your Mate

Check Yourself Before You Check Your Mate

Episode 5 I'm joined by Shea @hippiebumpeace from @maroonvillage! We chat it up with some ripped from the headlines and our girl Eryka Badu who ruffled feathers with her recent comments. We have moments of reflections and get into how our practices have helped us in our relationships. Granted your girl isn't a yoga bae LOL but I share some stories and get at the heart of how this practice has changed me, helped me come correct in the matters of love. Shea and I had a dope time together. Her and Rich (baddy hubby lol) have been growing their family and practice together. So we are super lucky to have her insight as she's living in a new body, with new tools to have a fresh perspective on how she deals with the love of her life. We finish up with our hip hop quotable Method & Mary.
Feb 27, 201801:12:40
L.O.V.E. that is Me
Feb 12, 201841:22
Trigger...Happy Bish?!

Trigger...Happy Bish?!

Episode 3 in the first installment of Confessions of a Trap Yogi and we switch it up a little bit. In our convo we go over some of the issues with having sensitive triggers and reflect on how to fine-tune our fuses before we set it off over some beef that really isn't beef. Before I get into it though I send a heartfelt shout out to my people in my life that have been holding me down this week, and share some of my favorites follows on IG. This podcast was inspired by Crucial Conflict no doubt and I leave you with a hip-hop affirmation from the dopest lady lyricist in life....Queen Bahamadia. Find me on IG & FB: @Kelstheyogi Website: www.milakmarshall.com Use the hashtag: #TrapYogiConfessions when you share and leave me any comments or suggestions for topics in my DM.
Jan 24, 201844:52
N.W.A to Y.W.A. "Yogi With A journal"

N.W.A to Y.W.A. "Yogi With A journal"

Episode 2 what it do?! I'm still on 10 for the beginning of the podcast, I share a bit about the other part of my practice, journaling, and meditation through the Reflections Eternal class. Expressing yourself is your absolute right and sometimes we express ourselves in unhealthy ways. Sometimes we don't know how to share, or what to share....sometimes we overshare and under care about what it does or how it feels to the person receiving it. This episode talks about the benefits of journaling and the benefits of learning how to share with yourself about yourself. If you're living in an attitude writing can be therapeutic and a space for your honest thoughts to exist. We chat it up about the benefits of journaling, my life lessons and end with a hip hop affirmation from Dr. Dre.
Jan 06, 201835:38
TYIC...A little bit about me the trap yogi in charge

TYIC...A little bit about me the trap yogi in charge

Episode 1 in the adventures of a Chi girl, trap yogini. Nothing too deep but def far from shallow. I'm moved by heart and I hope it speaks to yours.
Dec 31, 201731:56