East Morning Moments

Shit to make me write again!! Of course it’s tragic that my bro had to loose his mom and I’m certainly there with him but we need to celebrate these beautiful moments. This is the beginning of new families. This is a huge step. A beautiful step. One I know they are all ready for. I really do feel so proud of all of my bro’s. It’s a blessing when you can find that person you want to be with for the rest of your life. From my sister getting married in April to my brother just a couple weeks ago and now my bros step up and hitting their home runs and retiring with bare accolades. What more can I truly say. It makes me truly hopeful for my future as well. If I haven’t mentioned it before, besides being an artist I also aspire to start a family and be a great husband and eventually an amazing dad. My bros are leading the charge in that aspect and showing the way. Life has a funny way with itself as well. I met someone.

Interesting. It’s what this all is to me. Like i share my morning thoughts yes but the feelings that lead me to these think pieces are so deep. I’ve literally been taking a lot of these “all men” or “most men” statements really personally these days. I find myself looking for someone to blame as well for this. Women for their choices. Men for their behaviour. I’m human and my growth is infinite. This is a stop on my path so no worries. My podcast is here for me to share my thoughts but this week I found myself wanting to have a discourse about these feelings and topics. Yes topics, because it isn’t just the misandry that I’d like to address. In my pilot episode I said that I’ll be sharing my thoughts here because there often isn’t anyone I feel like I can have these conversations with. I think it’s mostly to do with my perception of how some of these topics would be received. I always want to understand things and talking it out and having hard conversations help with that understanding that I so desire. But I’ve been called misogynistic before. I’m often misunderstood. So I keep these deep feelings that give birth to these confusing thoughts to myself. But I will cry to the wind for a cry in the wind is often heard as a cry of the wind.

Too often are people locked into jobs that they don’t like and don’t bring any fulfilment to their lives. It makes the days longer. The body weaker. The mind more on edge and ready to snap. Well I don’t know about all that but I do know that people work jobs they hate for the monetary gain and nothing else. Thats a bit sad in a day and age where you can become whatever you’d like to be professionally. Sometimes, also physically once you have the money to do so. My twin islands though may be a bit limited in what you can do though so I get that and having to do something for money. It’s a rock and a hard place. One of my dreams is to be able to change that about my country. When people are afforded the opportunity to do what they love it improves their quality of life. Doing jobs that we hate is a practice that should be and needs to be phased out but for now, dow what makes you content.

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Just want to say Happy Birthday to Tevaughn and MJ again. Time has brought them around the sun another year, which is a fantastic thing. Worth the celebration of thirteen nations. And that's just the pre-game. The real celebration would be global. But yeah. Time. It brings growth and death altogether at the same time. I wanted to focus primarily on the positive in the episode this week but I am saddened by the life and light lost this week. A great dude with a speed demon. Was chatting with another artist that knew him and we went into the topic of having affairs in order for our passing. Especially because we tend to have unreleased works laying around. I have no one who has access to my works that I’ve locked away on my laptop and I never considered it greatly till now. I don’t know what my friend left behind for his loved ones but maybe I should prepare something for mine. I’ve also been watching Manifest and I have a trip to Jamaica planned for next month so… If you know the show and can make the connection you’d get it. I pray for more life for my listeners, my supporters, friends, family, and chosen family. Love.

I have a lot of passion for this franchise and all its lore. It's not like the Master Cheif hasn't been characterized well, it's just that he's never been seen like this. He is afraid to take action but has to because the world's fate depends on him doing just that. This is a soldier that's been through years of service. His experience as a soldier has brought him to this point of viewing his actions, all his actions, under a microscope because he sees the ripple effects of his previous actions or inaction. This installment sees the Master Chief taking on much more responsibility and blame than is rightfully his to take. He claims the responsibility because as the leading officer he should have commanded his partner, his soldier(Cortana his previous AI), better. This war that he's fighting now, started because of her. He made the decision that lead to her gaining the power she did to create this situation. At one point, the Chief is asked what is he fighting for, and his response, although badass, was sad and indicative of a broken soul. His answer was that fighting is all he knows. Abducted at the age of 6 and indoctrinated. The first lives he took was that of fellow soldier at the age of 14. This is someone with real emotional trauma. At Escharum's end after battling with Master Chief you see him showing great compassion to his fallen enemy and he explains it as in the end, all Eschrum was just a soldier. Hoping he had done the right thing. Questioning his choices. You can tell that this is also what the Master Chief is going through as well. Questioning his choices. He respects his enemy because he sees himself in them. Master Chief is a hero to all humans but so is Atriocs to the Banished. And whereas Atriocs is considered a monster to the humans. To the Banished, Master Chief is the Demon.

I need to reiterate that you don't owe anyone shit and no one owes you shit. You really have to accept people for who they are and if you can't that's absolutely ok. I had a fishing analogy that I cut from the episode: "A fisherman can't pull a catfish out of the waters and want it to change itself into a shark, or a shark into tuna, or tuna into mackerel. Why do we now think that we can bring someone into our live's and have them change for us? Granted, it does happen sometimes but it shouldn't be expected. One thing a good fisherman knows is where to go fishing for the type of fish he wants. Go where the fish you want swim and if you happen to catch something you don't want, throw it back." Feelings are hard to escape and again, I'm not against the friend zone area I just believe that being there is a choice. You decide ultimately where you expel your energy. If you don't like the conditions of your surroundings, find better ones.

The Daily Reminder: "In a world where everyone settles, it's remarkable to follow your passion and create a life of freedom. It takes courage to do something that not everyone else is doing. Taking accountability for your own life makes you the architect of your future self. Be willing to risk everything for the fire in your soul, always choose freedom over the soul suffocating system. Sometimes things may get rough but always believe in yourself, there's a higher purpose unfolding through you. Be patient and keep giving energy towards the vision of your highest self until it has no choice but to manifest. You got this.

Take risks. If you win, you will be happy. If you lose, you will be wiser."

We are spiritual beings having a human experience. However, the dangers of inhabiting a physical form can many times deter us from having the transcendent experiences that we need in order to evolve.

My guest for this episode is MJ - a professional creative and dear friend who shares a personal journey she had on an early morning hike in Speyside, Tobago.

The “yes” person archetype was interesting to learn about and I’m sure that most of you listening can relate to one of the 7 inner child archetypes mentioned. I was really good at figuring out really quickly what someone would like in their interactions with others. I lied a lot as well to fit in. I’m practicing to be more truthful now though. It’s interesting how badly we get messed up in our formative years just to spend our adult lives suppressing or healing traumas. All this while struggling against a capitalist system that has no concerns over creating benefits for us.

Ok, I know I say I'm ready to have kids but y'all should really take that with grains of salt. Like a lot of salt. Enough to kill a frog, truly. I'm probably just in a growing/healing mode. There's a lot you learn from yourself during the process as well. I've digressed. Getting back to the topic at hand. Recognition and accountability. That's the goal honestly. Stop seeing yourself as better for someone than what they choose for themselves. If you think like that. I spoke and used Hal as an example but in reality, the nice guys women tend to meet aren't that obvious at all. There are some who are but most aren't. Men, check your brethren. Make sure the ones you surround yourself with aren't abusers or manipulators. It's a small start but it'll help us protect our women.

Does anyone else do these audits of themselves and what they've accomplished in the past year? This episode is rambly and that's because I'm still trying to understand the idea that I've conceptualized. Usually, my mind bounces around a lot as well. That's how East Morning was started. The idea of auditing yourself I believe has always been around though. Maybe just not on your birthday like clockwork. I'd say one shouldn't concern themselves with these things. Live and enjoy life to the fullest but I've recently been listening to the teachings of some philosophers and truly balance is the best answer. The past does need to be analyzed and the future considered but make sure to be present in the here and now. Also be gentle with yourself.

So if you came for the episode referenced, it's season 1 episode 2. Calm Within the Storm. For everyone else, thank you for being a loyal reader of the description. I think it's important to note that stepping back and taking your time with the storms in your life is ok. Sometimes the storms we face are so imposing that we may believe that our inactivity will lead to our demise but it isn't always true. Recognizing the difference between a life threat and something that feels like a life threat is a whole other episode. One that I don't believe myself capable of doing justice. Just yet. It's ok to take your time. Never let a storm cause you to make hasty decisions and at the same time don't relegate yourself to being indecisive. Being a proper functioning adult is an intense balancing act. One you get better at with each passing year and the more you learn. Take your time to learn as much as you can. 

Letting go of friendships and relationships shouldn't be so hard. Again I believe that in an ideal world this would be the truth every time. Unfortunately, there's no such luck for us. Sometimes we hold onto relationships that have stopped meeting our needs long after we should have and we get hurt severely because of it. It brings to mind the meme with Jesus(yes Jesus) asking the young girl for her teddy bear and her not wanting to let it go. The whole time though, Jesus has a bigger teddy bear behind his back that He's waiting to bestow onto her. If only she'd let go. We hold ourselves back from certain greatness in our lives because we fail to let go. And like I said in the podcast, not because your needs aren't being met, means you can treat a person however you want. Everyone deserves to be treated with love, no matter how much we've outgrown them. No matter how much they've outgrown you. Just don't be a dick. Sometimes we grow together and other times we grow apart. That's life. Don't be a dick about it.

The importance of communication shouldn't be understated. The difficulty of establishing proper communication though is another story entirely as well. Being able to communicate openly with someone is so freeing. Most times this is easier achieved outside a relationship. It's interesting how as friends you'd communicate everything without hesitation or reservations but in a relationship that effective communication breaks down. It's funny because the relationship is where that type of communication is needed the most. Consideration for the other person is always an excuse for watered down or lacking communication but is it really considering the other person when you now have them in the back of your mind for hurting you by doing something they aren't even aware of? Effective communication is key. Always be willing, open, and receptive to it.