Death before dying

A podcast of Scorpio season calibre- she’s a heavy one.
Speaking greatly to my personal experiences with the wounded masculine (not just within men) with a hyper focus on some darker experiences within it since my last podcast in March.

In this episode I sit down with my dear friend bill. He is a retired Coroner and RCMP officer. He was my neighbour for 3 years. Its been a privilege to get to know him and hear stories from his life’s work, and now you can be too!

Logan joins me to share his very vulnerable journey with addiction, weight gain/loss, the karmic lessons we’ve shared with one another and healing old wounds. This is only the tip of the iceberg. Logan still has lots to share and I look forward to another podcast with him very soon! :)

a half coherent ramble on my love hate relationship with human design, talking about projector “not being heard” problems. an update on my family dynamics and grieving/surrender/finding acceptance and talks about supporting people with su!cidal ideation.

Back with another solo ramble. My New podcast episode labeled “witchsickness” can be found in my DB4D highlights or on Spotify. Integrating the sex death and transformation of Scorpio season during my 8th year profection year in astrology (more Scorpio themes). Externally showing up as my usual work in progress to offer my humanness and confusion during some grief. I chat about my going home, family dynamics, the death of my music teacher, forgiveness and reclaiming abandoned parts of myself. There will likely be a second part to this.

In this episode I sit down with Stephen to talk about my tumultuous relationship with alcohol and Stephen’s much different relationship with it. We also speak a bit of how it shows up differently in our cultural backgrounds. We of course relate it to astrology. When you drink you activate the subconscious, so you look to your moon sign. Mine is in Aries. Aries is the god of war. Wherever it shows up there is a battle. And I’ve undoubtedly had a battle with the self. Poor Stephen has been on the receiving end of that battle to self love. One I win a little more everyday but have not yet conquered. Sexual trauma gets brought up as a trigger warning.

Unpacking accountability with my former partner! What do we do when we ask for accountability and do not receive it? How do you appropriately play the role of the victim without over identifying? When we go grasping for forgiveness from people who hurt us we only get hurt more. We keep in an energetic bond that allows the person that hurt us to keep hurting us. It gives our power away. All forgiveness must come from the self. Don’t get me wrong though, accountably helps this process.
I say this, and I’ve said things similar things - because this is logic but I still show up in my humanness and go energetically chasing this. But each time I find myself in these lessons I can let go quicker finding myself back in my truth. There will be a second part to this podcast ✌️

My good friend jaz and I sit down to share our vulnerable experiences and processes associated with abortion. In an attempt to end stigma and potentially aid others in their own grieving process.

I met Ilene Heart in the INELDA end of life doula program that we took together in 2018. She has worked in the field of psychotherapy for several decades. I am honoured and privileged that she has chosen to share some of her experiences and wisdom that has come from that work.

In this podcast I talk about my experiences with the wounded healer archetype in regards to some unserving relationships I have found myself in and how I’ve navigated my way out by reclaiming accountability, autonomy and remembering that we are all just mirrors of one another.

Trigger warning ⚠️
In this episode I dive deep into my personal experiences with the wounded masculine and rape culture. I show up in vulnerability while in the process of grieving a partnership to mirror some ways I try to break my own patters that I too have been susceptible of in the narratives that has shaped our world.

Kevin joins me to talk about his native heritage, the importance of understanding story telling, music and the power of forgives!

Kimi and I sit down to discuss the cycles of life, death and rebirth. Kimi is a gifted reiki and massage therapist. We chat about her travels and background that lead her to the spiritual healing path. To connect with kimi find her on Instagram: @kimika_sundari

Join me as one of my childhood best friends shows up in true vulnerability. 15 + years and this taurus will be forever reaching to the wise Pisces for guidance. She is the first person I recorded with and we learn it caps at 2 hours. Forever grateful to have this one walking along side me on this crazy path of life. ♥️🙏

Forever banished from the garden of Eden for refusal to be subservient. Fired up in my Lilith energy. 🔥

Hear me rant about my experiences with serving. 💁🏻‍♀️

Part to of my journey to the self.

Join me as I try to dissect my own life story, listen with an open heart and open mind. Also be cautious of trigger warnings as it is filled with trauma.