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Holding in Your Truth For Way Too Long

Breaking the Cycle: Speaking Your Truth in Toxic Relationships

When you hold in your truth, thoughts, feelings, needs, and wants, for so long, they become impacted. And when you finally do speak your truth, it has the potential to come out way too strong and all wrong.  This episode talks about the consequences of holding back your truth in toxic relationships and provides insights into recognizing and overcoming these patterns. Learn about the signs that you're not speaking from your heart, the effects of suppressing emotions, and how to start voicing your truth safely and effectively. Discover the importance of emotional regulation and reappraisal, and find out how to navigate your healing journey. Reclaim your voice and break free from the cycle of manipulation.

00:00 Understanding the Impact of Toxic Relationships

00:59 Five Signs You're Holding in Your Truth

07:30 The Consequences of Suppressing Emotions

13:30 How to Speak Up After Holding Things In

16:31 Embracing Your Authentic Self

25:23 The Journey of Healing and Growth

To learn more about our host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, visit:

Kate Russell is an accomplished author and memoirist, well-known for her powerful and thought-provoking works such as "Ironing Out My Life." In this episode, we will be discussing her memoir, which explores the long-lasting impact of child abuse on various aspects of life.

Throughout her career, Kate has gained a strong following and recognition for her authentic and heartfelt storytelling. Her books, including "Ironing Out My Life" and others in the "Portrait of a Dysfunctional Family" series, address the challenges of overcoming a difficult past and the resilience required to navigate the lasting effects of trauma.

As a seasoned writer, Kate shares her personal experiences in a way that resonates with readers who have faced similar struggles. Her work sheds light on the importance of self-reflection, healing, and personal growth in the aftermath of abusive environments.

Kate's powerful storytelling and commitment to raising awareness about the impact of abuse make her an influential figure in the realm of memoirs and personal development literature.

In this episode, the host, Deborah Ashway, welcomes Kate Russell to discuss her deeply personal journey of growing up in a toxic environment marked by child abuse, addiction, and generational trauma. Kate shares her experiences with alcoholic and drug-addicted parents, the impact of these dynamics on her life, and her path to recovery and resilience. She discusses the raw and honest truth of her memoir, the importance of confronting one's past, breaking cycles of abuse, and the healing potential of sharing personal stories. Kate also talks about her writing process, challenges, and how her belief system and intuition have guided her through recovery. The episode touches upon her career as an actor, her future plans, and the significance of maintaining a connection with her 'God voice' for hope and resilience.

00:00 Introduction to Kate Russell and Her Memoir

01:35 The Story Behind 'Ironing Out My Life'

02:31 Kate's Early Life and Family Background

03:25 Impact of Parental Addiction and Abuse

07:16 Kate's Journey to Sobriety and Healing

18:48 Challenges in Writing the Memoir

26:28 Navigating Audition Anxiety

27:21 Embracing Authenticity in Acting

30:15 The Battle of Internal Voices

32:06 Addressing Childhood Trauma

38:09 The Journey to Sobriety

41:35 Reflecting on Recovery and Belief

45:18 Complex Relationship with Mother

48:31 Future Plans and Book Promotion

To learn more about today’s guest, Kate Russell, visit:

In this episode, we are joined by Tara Sundem, co-founder of Hushabye Nursery, the nation's first nursery focused on neonatal abstinence syndrome (NAS). Tara shares insights from her three decades of experience as a neonatal nurse practitioner and discusses the groundbreaking work Hushabye Nursery is doing to support pregnant and parenting families struggling with substance use. She details the nursery's holistic approach that involves creating a calm environment for babies and providing comprehensive support for the parents, helping families stay unified and thrive. Tara emphasizes the importance of addressing stigma, building trust, and offering hope to transform lives. Despite challenges, including recent federal funding cuts, Hushabye Nursery remains committed to its mission of giving every baby a healthy start. Tara's compelling narrative and dedication highlight the critical impact of specialized care for NAS and the potential for positive outcomes even in challenging situations.

00:00 Introduction to Tara Sundem and HBA Nursery

00:46 Mission and Vision of HBA Nursery

01:14 Challenges Faced by Families

01:40 Support and Hope for Families

03:20 Tara's Journey and Inspiration

04:37 Creating a Healing Environment

09:48 Behavioral Health and Medical Integration

12:56 Challenges in Providing Care

19:44 Success Rates and Follow-Up

25:29 Foster Care Challenges and Creative Solutions

25:57 Support Systems for New Mothers

27:48 Family Involvement and Tough Love

28:55 Success Stories and Continuous Support

30:30 Addressing Stigma and Educating on Addiction

36:23 Overcoming Family Skepticism 

43:22 Future Plans and How to Support Hushabye Nursery

To learn more about today’s guest, Tara Sundem, visit:

In this insightful episode, Julian Bermudez, a dedicated practitioner specializing in psychedelic integration work, shares his journey and expertise in helping individuals navigate through trauma and rediscover their authentic selves. Julian discusses the historical and spiritual significance of psychedelic experiences, the fundamental aspects of self-inquiry and emotional development, and the integration of these practices within modern therapeutic settings. He emphasizes the importance of re-connecting with oneself and highlights transformative success stories experienced by his clients. Through a blend of direct therapeutic techniques and psychedelic experiences, Julian’s work aims to heal deep-rooted pain and promote personal transformation. Listeners gain profound insights into the potential healing power of psychedelic therapy and how it challenges and complements traditional mental health approaches.

00:00 Introduction to Julian Bermudez and His Work

00:49 Julian's Journey into Psychedelic Integration

01:46 Understanding Psychedelic Integration

04:17 Traditional Therapy vs. Psychedelic Integration

06:14 Navigating Pain and Defense Mechanisms

07:50 Building a Practice of Self-Inquiry

08:53 The Role of Psychedelics in Therapy

12:27 The Science Behind Psychedelic Experiences

17:22 Protective Mechanisms and Reprogramming

21:12 Case Study: Addressing Toxic Relationships

22:09 Understanding Early Life Adaptations

23:08 The Conflict Between Attachment and Authenticity

24:26 Recognizing and Addressing Unmet Needs

25:58 Building Self-Compassion and Self-Care Practices

26:50 The Role of Psychedelic Experiences in Healing

28:10 Navigating Altered States and Protector Parts

33:01 Transformative Breakthroughs and Success Stories

38:13 The Future of Psychedelic Integration in Mental Health

41:10 Key Takeaways on Healing and Transformation

42:46 Closing Remarks and Contact Information

To learn more about today’s guest, Julian Bermudez, visit:

In this episode, host Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, welcomes De’Ann Richter, head coach at Breast Cancer Conqueror, to discuss the interplay between traditional and holistic approaches to health, particularly in the context of breast cancer recovery. De’Ann shares her journey from working in health food stores with her grandmother to becoming a surgical trauma nurse and advocate for integrative medicine. The conversation turns to the 'Seven Essentials System,', which includes guidelines like using food as medicine, reducing toxic exposure, balancing energy, healing emotional wounds, and more. De’Ann emphasizes the importance of personalized care, stress management, and the mind-body connection in cancer treatment. The discussion also covers common misconceptions about holistic medicine and offers advice for those newly diagnosed with breast cancer to empower themselves and take control of their healing journey.

00:00 Introduction to Deanne Richter

01:23 Deanne's Early Influences and Nursing Career

03:33 The Seven Essentials System

08:19 The Importance of Emotional Health in Cancer

18:11 Advice for Newly Diagnosed Breast Cancer Patients

23:39 Effective Stress Management Techniques

24:03 Exploring EFT Tapping for Stress Relief

25:26 Tailoring Stress Management Approaches

26:43 Monitoring Inflammation and Health Markers

31:52 Balancing Traditional and Natural Treatments

34:29 The Importance of Belief Systems in Healing

36:48 Staying Informed and Expanding Knowledge

38:03 Future of Integrative Medicine

41:06 Empowering Patients in Their Health Journey

45:03 Conclusion and Contact Information

To learn more about today’s guest, De’Ann Richter, visit:

In this episode, we discuss the multifaceted world of music therapy with guest Crystal Luk-Worrall, an HCPC registered music therapist, EMDR therapist, and clinical supervisor based in London, UK. Crystal shares her journey from being a musician to a therapist, emphasizing the importance of combining music and emotional wellbeing. She talks about her work with the adoption community, the role of music in processing trauma, and how music therapy differs from traditional talk therapy. Crystal also talks about the challenges and misconceptions in music therapy, how music can be used to regulate emotions, and how parents can use musical techniques at home to support their children. The conversation wraps up with insights on the importance of love, co-regulation, and the supportive role of music and imagery in EMDR therapy.

00:00 Introduction to Crystal Luk-Worrall

00:54 Crystal's Journey into Music Therapy

03:24 Understanding Music Therapy

05:32 Music Therapy Techniques and Benefits

17:27 Incorporating EMDR with Music Therapy

24:41 Challenges and Insights in Therapy

35:34 Advice for Parents and Caregivers

38:40 Conclusion and Contact Information

To learn more about today’s guest, Crystal Luk-Worrall, visit:

In this episode, Deborah hosts Inaya Oakroot, a spiritual guide and founder of Oakroot Spiritual Academy. Inaya shares her journey of healing and overcoming adversity, emphasizing the importance of aligning with one's authentic purpose. She discusses the significance of planetary sounds, crystals, and creative expression in the healing process. Inaya also explains the role of the Akashic records in healing past traumas and breaking free from toxic relationships. The conversation explores the intricate balance between the physical and spiritual realms and offers practical strategies for those seeking to heal from toxic relationships and personal traumas.

00:00 Introduction and Guest Introduction

01:30 Anaya's Personal Journey

02:42 Healing Through Creativity and Spirituality

06:45 The Power of Planetary Sounds and Crystals

09:32 Understanding Balance and Duality

12:35 Anaya's Work and Services

19:03 The Akashic Records and Higher Self

24:04 Healing from Toxic Abuse

29:44 Escaping the Victim Triangle

30:20 Practical Strategies for Breaking Free

30:27 The Power of High Frequency Sounds

30:53 Understanding Negative Thoughts

31:53 The Role of Acceptance

32:19 Exploring High Frequency Sounds

34:51 Impact of Low Frequency Sounds

35:32 Aligning Body and Soul

37:25 Healing Through Sound

38:45 Akashic Records and Healing

51:43 Daily Practices for Self-Care

53:50 Final Thoughts and Contact Information

To learn more about today’s guest, Inaya Oakroot:

In this episode, we are joined by Dr. Emma Jones, a seasoned pediatric hospice and palliative care physician. Dr. Jones discusses her bestselling book, 'The Phoenix Blueprint: Rising Stronger from the Blaze of Healthcare,' which provides practical advice for recovery from burnout based on her personal experiences. She also elaborates on her online group coaching program, Unstuck, which helps clinicians reimagine their roles without compromising their well-being. Dr. Jones shares poignant stories from her palliative care work, illustrates the transformative power of community-minded care, and underscores the importance of recognizing and addressing burnout early. She emphasizes the need for self-care, meaningful work, and the benefits of cultivating a sense of purpose. The episode offers insights into creating sustainable healthcare practices and empowering healthcare professionals to thrive both personally and professionally.

00:00 Introduction to Dr. Emma Jones

01:20 The Emotional Impact of Pediatric Palliative Care

04:08 Remarkable Stories of Siblings in Care

07:56 Understanding Children's Grief

09:55 Dr. Jones' Personal Journey with Burnout

14:29 The Phoenix Blueprint: Steps to Recovery

17:30 Recognizing and Addressing Burnout

21:04 The Unstuck Program: Realigning Healthcare Careers

23:18 Empowering Through Mission Statements

23:54 Unstuck Program: A Hybrid Approach

24:09 Success Stories from Unstuck

24:57 The Importance of Vision and Trade-offs

26:28 Widening the Scope of Life

27:39 Cultivating Purpose to Overcome Burnout

29:09 The Role of Identity in Personal Growth

31:36 Reclaiming and Redefining Identities

40:22 Living in the Present Moment

42:23 Final Words of Wisdom

To learn more about today’s guest, Dr. Emma Jones:

In this episode, Sydney Curtin shares her inspiring journey of overcoming personal trauma and her dedication to child-centered adoption practices. Growing up with a mother struggling with addiction, mental illness and dealing with significant family challenges, Sydney chose to channel her experiences into actionable advocacy. Through her work, including drafting a powerful adoption reform book, she aims to educate and guide both biological and adoptive parents to ensure ethical adoption practices. Sydney discusses the importance of legislative changes, her advocacy efforts in Idaho, and how her faith sustained her through hardships. With a focus on healing and growth, Sydney's story serves as a beacon of hope and transformation for others navigating similar struggles.

00:00 Introduction to Sydney Curtin

01:22 Sydney's Early Life and Family Struggles

02:48 The Impact of Labels and Misdiagnoses

04:21 Turning Pain into Purpose

12:36 Challenges with Adoption and Advocacy

24:14 Ineffective Communication in Relationships

25:19 A Life-Changing Sermon

27:16 Struggles and Rebellion

28:14 The Adoption Decision

32:56 Adoption Reform Advocacy

39:11 Challenges in Adoption Reform

46:31 Final Words of Wisdom

To learn more about today’s guest, Sydney Curtin:

In this episode, host Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, welcomes De’Ann Richter, head coach at Breast Cancer Conqueror, to discuss the interplay between traditional and holistic approaches to health, particularly in the context of breast cancer recovery. De’Ann shares her journey from working in health food stores with her grandmother to becoming a surgical trauma nurse and advocate for integrative medicine. The conversation turns to the 'Seven Essentials System,', which includes guidelines like using food as medicine, reducing toxic exposure, balancing energy, healing emotional wounds, and more. De’Ann emphasizes the importance of personalized care, stress management, and the mind-body connection in cancer treatment. The discussion also covers common misconceptions about holistic medicine and offers advice for those newly diagnosed with breast cancer to empower themselves and take control of their healing journey.

00:00 Introduction to Deanne Richter

01:23 Deanne's Early Influences and Nursing Career

03:33 The Seven Essentials System

08:19 The Importance of Emotional Health in Cancer

18:11 Advice for Newly Diagnosed Breast Cancer Patients

23:39 Effective Stress Management Techniques

24:03 Exploring EFT Tapping for Stress Relief

25:26 Tailoring Stress Management Approaches

26:43 Monitoring Inflammation and Health Markers

31:52 Balancing Traditional and Natural Treatments

34:29 The Importance of Belief Systems in Healing

36:48 Staying Informed and Expanding Knowledge

38:03 Future of Integrative Medicine

41:06 Empowering Patients in Their Health Journey

45:03 Conclusion and Contact Information

If you've contemplated leaving a toxic relationship but then get confused and question your decision because of the 'good times,' then this episode is for you. This episode explores the fluctuating dynamics of toxic relationships, focusing on the cycle of extremes in good and bad experiences, which leads to abuse and trauma bonding. The host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS, discusses the psychological tactics used by abusers, including intermittent reinforcement and love bombing, to maintain control over their victims. The discussion includes insights from the book 'Why Does He Do That?' by Lundy Bancroft and findings from Chuck Derry’s research on abusive men. The episode emphasizes the ways to influence the release from the cycle and the importance of recognizing these manipulative behaviors, setting boundaries, and reclaiming one's sense of self. Deborah offers advice on moving forward and the benefits of cutting ties with manipulative individuals.

00:00 Introduction to Toxic Relationships

00:46 Understanding Trauma Bonding

01:49 The Cycle of Abuse

03:31 Do Abusers Know What They're Doing?

05:29 Benefits Abusers Gain

11:49 Motivations to Stop Abuse

14:35 Empowerment and Setting Boundaries

18:17 Personal Reflections and Moving Forward

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In this episode, our special guest Corey Levy, co-founder of We Inspect and a leading expert in indoor environmental health, shares his journey and insights into the profound effects of mold and other hidden environmental toxins on our physical and mental wellbeing. Levy discusses the history of his family's involvement in indoor air quality, the evolution of his company, and the critical connection between environmental health and chronic illnesses. He explains the various ways mold can impact the body, the importance of identifying signs of mold in homes, and effective strategies for remediation. Levy also addresses the challenges of acknowledging environmental factors in health issues and provides advice for those suspecting mold-related health problems. The episode emphasizes the importance of awareness and proactive measures to create healthier living environments.

00:00 Introduction to Corey Levy and His Work

01:07 Corey's Journey into Indoor Environmental Health

05:08 Understanding Mold and Its Health Impacts

12:30 Identifying Mold in Your Home

14:57 Steps to Address Mold Issues

21:35 Challenges in Recognizing Environmental Toxins

26:07 Advice for Suspecting Mold in Your Home

30:03 Resources and Support for Mold Issues

41:24 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

To learn more about Corey Levy:

In this episode, we are joined by Diana Esther, an acclaimed author, poet, speaker, transformational coach, and inspirational teacher. Diana shares her remarkable life story, including her recovery from lymphatic cancer and her extraordinary journey from the dark times in the Soviet Union to becoming a beacon of light and wisdom. She discusses her path to discovering the importance of inner light, her battle with cancer, and how she uses her personal experiences to help others transform their lives. Diana also speaks on the power of self-love, understanding, and the innate potential every individual has to connect with their true self for healing and growth.

00:00 Introduction to Diana Esther

01:15 Diana's Early Life in the Soviet Union

03:18 Struggles and Inner Strength

09:34 Journey to Freedom

16:31 Discovering the Diamond Within

24:52 The Power of Connection and Transformation

28:41 Understanding Innate Awareness

29:28 Breaking Free from Limiting Beliefs

30:38 The Power of Desire and Free Will

31:09 Elevating Consciousness

32:58 Connecting with Inner Light

34:50 Overcoming Adversity: A Personal Journey

38:42 Miraculous Recovery from Cancer

46:01 The Role of Diet in Healing

53:10 Empowerment through Self-Love

54:58 Final Thoughts and Resources

To contact or learn more about Diana Esther, or her book, The Diamond Within visit:

Breaking Free: Embrace Your True Self and Let Go of These Toxic People

In this empowering episode, we dig into the hard part of the journey of healing, which is letting go. You have to set boundaries in order to reclaim your authentic self. The focus is on letting go of toxic relationships and people who thrive on your submissive and people-pleasing nature. As you start putting yourself first and saying 'no' without guilt, some people will undoubtedly get upset. However, this transformation is key for your mental, emotional, and physical health. 

Learn to identify the signs that you are being used. Celebrate your growth as you let go and embrace the inevitable changes that come with setting boundaries. The changes are sometimes hard, but always beneficial to you.  This episode encourages you to push past the fear of judgment and criticism to become the most authentic and inspired version of yourself, ultimately attracting genuine support and healthier relationships.

00:00 Empowering Yourself Against Naysayers

01:35 Recognizing Toxic Relationships

02:22 The Cost of People Pleasing

03:00 Embracing Your True Self

03:53 The Transformation and Its Impact

05:39 Facing Resistance and Manipulation

07:26 Breaking Free and Setting Boundaries

19:01 The Importance of Self-Improvement

21:03 Practical Steps for Self-Care

23:27 Conclusion: Embrace the Change

To learn more or connect with host, Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS visit:

In this episode, Lori Pappas, a humanitarian and entrepreneur, shares her inspiring journey of overcoming personal struggles and transforming them into catalysts for growth and positive change. Lori's life story includes surviving a tumultuous childhood and being forced in to a mental institution in the 1960s by her over-religous parents. Pioneering as one of the first women in computer sales, and founding an international charity in Ethiopia, her insights on inner peace, self-discovery, and resilience are deeply explored. Her book 'The Magic of Yes,' offers pathways for finding inner peace through self-reflection and the 'DREAM' framework. Lori also touches on concepts such as self-compassion, forgiveness, and overcoming negative self-talk. Listeners are encouraged to reflect on their own journeys and leave feedback to help further the discussion on achieving inner peace and happiness.

00:00 Introduction to Lori Pappas

00:56 Early Life Struggles and Resilience

04:27 Breaking Barriers in the Tech Industry

07:53 Humanitarian Work in Africa

12:23 The Magic of Yes: Lori's Book

17:18 The Dream Framework Explained

20:36 Cultivating Courage and Setting Boundaries

24:50 Reincarnation and Past Lives

25:37 The Power of Reflection

26:18 Visions of Past Lives

28:42 The Difference in This Life

29:50 Inner Peace and Self-Reflection

30:43 Sticky Thoughts and Self-Love

34:11 Overcoming Negative Self-Talk

36:27 Fostering Self-Compassion

42:14 Final Thoughts and Resources

To learn more or contact Lori Pappas:

In this episode, award-winning and best selling author Kennerly Clay discusses her memoir, 'Letters from East of Nowhere; Daddy’s Words to Live, Drink & Die By' offering valuable insights into forgiveness, dealing with family complexities, and the journey of personal growth and healing. If you’re a fan of ‘The Glass Castle’ and ‘Lit’ then you’ll love hearing about Kennerly’s life. She shares her personal experiences with recovery, the impact of past traumas, and the challenge of navigating toxic relationships. Kennerly highlights the significance of authentic communication and resilience in the face of adversity while recounting the compelling influence of her father and the power of letter writing. Kennerly offers her wisdom on the challenges of healing from toxic abuse. This conversation offers timely advice for anyone facing unresolved familial and emotional issues. 

00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome

01:16 Kennerly’s Journey to Sobriety

02:05 Writing as a Healing Process

03:28 Father-Daughter Relationship Dynamics

06:19 The Power of Forgiveness

11:22 Navigating Complex Family Dynamics

20:01 Embracing Sobriety at a Young Age

23:03 Exploring Resilience and Overcoming Disappointments

25:44 Introducing the Book: Letters from East of Nowhere

26:01 The Story Behind the Book's Title and Content

29:11 Impact of a Troubled Parent on Family Dynamics

33:17 Understanding Forgiveness and Personal Growth

36:41 Recognizing and Dealing with Triggers

39:16 Final Thoughts and Where to Find More Information

To learn more about Kennerly Clay:

In this episode, host Deborah introduces Melanie Weller, a pioneer in mental health and holistic healing. Melanie discusses her approach of integrating intuition into clinical practice and how she has evolved her unique practice over 30 years. By focusing on the vagus nerve, Melanie reveals the profound connection between physical and emotional wellbeing and discusses the significance of time perception and processing in various health diagnoses. The conversation delves into the integration of ancient mythology and astrology with modern science, offering transformative solutions for those struggling with chronic pain, mental health challenges, and the aftermath of toxic abuse. Melanie shares practical exercises like helical breathing and discusses the broader implications of her work, aiming for a deeper understanding and healing of the mind, body, and soul.

00:00 Introduction and Guest Welcome

01:13 Melanie's Journey into Integrating Intuition

04:56 Understanding the Vagus Nerve

08:28 The Connection Between Intuition and the Vagus Nerve

14:54 Practical Techniques for Vagus Nerve Decompression

18:55 Ancient Wisdom and Modern Science

25:43 Imaginal Exercises and Metaphors in Healing

27:34 Astrology and the Body's Clock

27:50 Time Perception and Mental Health

28:38 Cerebellum and Emotional Coordination

31:54 Finger Tapping Exercise for Healing

40:33 Astrology, Mythology, and Healing

42:55 Healing from Toxic Abuse

46:26 Conclusion and Resources

To contact Melanie Weller:

www.melanieweller.com

You can also listen to Melanie's podcast: Fearless Presence

To contact Deborah Ashway:

Exploring Neuroplastic Pain: Insights from Dr. David Clarke

In this episode, host Deborah interviews Dr. David Clarke, President of the Association for Treatment of Neuroplastic Symptoms (ATNS). They discuss the chronic pain epidemic, neuroplasticity, and its link to stress-related and brain-generated medical conditions. Dr. Clarke highlights various conditions such as fibromyalgia, migraines, and chronic fatigue as examples of neuroplastic pain. He emphasizes the importance of understanding one's life stressors and adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) in diagnosing and treating these conditions. Deborah and Dr. Clarke also delve into the effectiveness of pain relief psychotherapy compared to traditional CBT. They underscore the essential role of self-esteem and the accurate understanding of personal experiences in relieving chronic pain and stress symptoms. The conversation sheds light on the necessity for modern healthcare to incorporate these insights for better patient outcomes.

00:00 Introduction to Dr. David Clarke and ATNS

00:58 Understanding Neuroplasticity

03:04 Chronic Pain and Stress Connection

05:52 Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) and Chronic Illness

12:56 Pain Relief Psychotherapy and Its Effectiveness

18:31 Differences Between CBT and Pain Relief Psychology

24:54 The Language of Physical Symptoms

28:28 Protective Programs and Boundary Setting

29:01 Impact of Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs)

29:42 Rebuilding Self-Esteem

30:51 Therapeutic Techniques and Exercises

31:56 The Role of Affirmations

33:42 Understanding False Belief Systems

34:10 Brain and Body Connection

35:49 Journey into Gastroenterology and Neuroplasticity

43:52 Challenges in Modern Healthcare

45:26 The Importance of Collaboration in Healthcare

46:05 Subtle Forms of Toxicity

47:17 Patient Resistance and Acceptance

49:27 The Power of Placebo and Effective Treatments

51:20 Success Stories and Transformations

In this episode of the 'Healing from Toxic Abuse' podcast, Deborah welcomes Sean Kenny, author of 'Out of Step: A Memoir of a Life Misled.' Sean shares an emotional and introspective account of his personal journey, touching on themes of family, identity, and the long-lasting impact of toxic abuse. His memoir covers the eye-opening realizations that led him to rewrite his understanding of past events, revealing multiple layers of hidden truths about his family dynamics, particularly focusing on the revelations about his father and sister. The conversation delves into Sean's journey of self-discovery, the challenges of sharing deeply personal experiences, and the transformative power of writing.

00:00 Introduction to Sean Kenny and His Memoir

01:05 Sean's Dual Life: Engineer and Author

02:27 A Family Vacation That Changed Everything

03:36 Revelations and Family Secrets

06:30 Questioning the Past: A New Perspective

09:16 The Impact of Writing on Healing

16:25 The Role of Memoirs in Healing

36:15 Final Thoughts and Resources

'Out of Step: A Memoir of a Life Misled' on Amazon.

The Hidden Dangers of People Pleasing: Identifying and Overcoming People Pleasing Habits

In this episode, we dive into the complex world of people pleasing, a behavior often linked to toxic relationships. We explore the origins, signs, and detrimental impacts of people pleasing, including how it fosters low self-esteem, burnout, and unhealthy relationships. Key points include the importance of identifying personal needs and boundaries, and the necessity of self-compassion in overcoming these habits. The episode also highlights the skills developed by people pleasers and the importance of shifting from external to internal validation to foster genuine connections and personal growth.

00:00 Introduction to People Pleasing

00:15 Defining People Pleasing

02:19 Signs You Might Be a People Pleaser

04:51 The Consequences of People Pleasing

09:19 Skills and Misconceptions of People Pleasers

21:03 Root Causes of People Pleasing

24:21 How to Stop Being a People Pleaser

26:47 Setting Boundaries and Practicing Self-Compassion

30:58 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

In this episode, we meet Mark McNicol, the creator of Anonymous Drama Therapy, an innovative program making profound impacts in prisons and rehab centers by fostering emotional resilience through creative expression. Mark shares his journey from mainstream theater to developing this groundbreaking approach, addressing inherited trauma among individuals with substance use disorders. He delves into the unique processes and therapeutic intent of the program, the role of anonymity, and the integration of AI tools to assist facilitators. This episode offers insights into the powerful intersection of art, psychology, and healing.

00:00 Introduction to Mark McNicol and Anonymous Drama Therapy

01:03 Mark's Journey into Drama Therapy

01:35 First Experience in Prison Theatre

02:48 The Impact and Evolution of the Program

10:24 Therapeutic Intent and Anonymous Drama

11:19 Differences Between Psychodrama, Drama Therapy, and Anonymous Drama

15:30 Challenges and Safeguarding in Sessions

17:12 Participant Feedback and Program Expansion

25:49 Incorporating AI Tools in Drama Therapy

33:46 Personal Inspirations and Spiritual Connections

50:40 Conclusion and Contact Information

In this compelling episode, Gloria Grace Rand, known as the Light Messenger, discusses her path of self-discovery and spiritual awakening. Gloria shares insights from her life, including her journey with her sister’s cancer diagnosis, her divorce, and her upbringing in a challenging family environment. She reveals how these experiences influenced her work as an inspirational speaker, author, and spiritual business coach. Gloria talks about the importance of overcoming limiting beliefs, trusting one's higher self, and creating a life of joy, love, and abundance. She also touches on themes from her book 'Live, Love, Engage,' detailing her strategies for healing and personal growth. Tune in for a deep dive into her methods for helping mission-driven entrepreneurs and individuals heal and transform their lives.

00:00 Introduction to Gloria Grace Rand

01:25 Creating a Dream Life

01:42 Navigating Divorce and Personal Growth

07:22 Childhood and Family Dynamics

17:15 Impact of Sister's Cancer Diagnosis

23:13 Writing the Book: Live, Love, Engage

27:02 Finding Inspiration in Music

27:49 Overcoming Writing Obstacles

30:02 The Power of Dedication and Timing

33:25 Helping Others Through Coaching

36:29 The Importance of Asking for Help

42:11 Connecting with Higher Power

45:00 Advice for Those in Manipulative Relationships

48:45 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

In this episode, our host welcomes Kimberly Grustas, the inspiring founder of Good For You Girls, a natural skincare company for young girls. Kimberly shares her journey from working in the fitness and advertising industries to creating a line of healthy skincare products driven by her daughters' severe allergies and asthma. She discusses the importance of self-care, the psychological transformations during puberty, and how her products are designed to empower girls by promoting healthy habits. The conversation touches on the challenges of entrepreneurship, marketing strategies, and the significance of respecting and supporting the needs of young girls as they navigate puberty.

00:00 Introduction to Kimberly Grustas

01:10 Kimberly's Career Journey

02:35 Challenges and Inspirations

04:39 Founding Good For You Girls

07:06 Product Development and Philosophy

09:17 Empowering Young Girls

13:44 Marketing and Distribution

18:34 Challenges as a Female Entrepreneur

21:46 Reflecting on Fearlessness in Business

22:33 Turning Down Target: A Bold Decision

24:33 Challenges with Big Retailers

26:25 The Power of Social Media and Personal Branding

29:47 Support Systems and Family Influence

33:02 Facing Competition and Staying Positive

39:43 Inspiring Stories and the Importance of Self-Care

42:18 Final Thoughts and Gratitude

www.goodforyougirls.com

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In this episode Deborah Ashway, LCMHCS, LCAS looks at the complexities of gaslighting, one of the most insidious and difficult forms of manipulation to detect and combat. Discover how programming from gaslighting often originates in childhood, particularly in environments where parents or caregivers use this tactic. Explore the deep psychological impact it has on self-doubt and distorted reality, making victims vulnerable to further manipulation in adult relationships. Practical examples illustrate how parents and significant others might use gaslighting to avoid accountability, twist reality, and shift blame. The episode also introduces ways to counteract gaslighting and begin the healing process, emphasizing the need for boundaries, self-awareness and research of the common tactics to reclaim and trust your own reality. The insights of British neuroscientist Anil Seth are incorporated to explain our brain's perception of reality and how it can be distorted by consistent gaslighting.

00:00 Understanding Gaslighting: An Introduction

01:00 The Impact of Gaslighting in Childhood

04:25 Recognizing Gaslighting in Relationships

05:07 Examples of Parental Gaslighting

10:12 Gaslighting in Romantic Relationships

15:17 The Neuroscience Behind Gaslighting

17:43 Strategies to Counteract Gaslighting

18:20 Conclusion and Next Steps

In this episode, I talk with Stacy Blemaster, author of the transformative book 'To Be or Not to Be, Shedding Innocence'. Stacy shares her journey from growing up in a family with generational secrets and emotional withholding, to enduring the struggles of a personality forged to please others. She discusses the critical turning points in her life, including her experiences in college and therapy, and how she took leaps of faith to find healing and authenticity. Stacy provides invaluable insights into breaking free from toxic relationships and rebuilding one’s life, offering hope and guidance to anyone struggling in similar circumstances.

00:00 Introduction to Stacy Blemaster

00:59 Stacy's Childhood and Family Secrets

02:31 College Struggles and Realizations

04:35 Therapy and the Journey to Authenticity

07:12 Breaking Free from Toxic Relationships

10:23 The Role of Faith and 12-Step Programs

17:10 Writing the Book and Family Reactions

28:01 Final Words of Wisdom and Encouragement

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Website: https://stacyblemaster.com/

Talking Trauma with Cindie Henry, LMFT, BCETS: Exploring Therapeutic Approaches

In this episode, Cynthia Henrie, founder of the Los Angeles Therapy Network, joins the discussion on her extensive experience and multifaceted approaches to PTSD treatment. Cindie talks about various therapeutic methods such as EMDR, ketamine-assisted psychotherapy, and sensomotor therapy that she uses in her practice. The conversation touches on the challenges faced in high-profile cases, the importance of cultural competency in trauma treatment, and broader societal impacts. Cindie also shares insights on navigating toxic relationships, the impacts of political climates on marginalized communities, and the potential benefits and risks associated with innovative treatments like ketamine therapy. This comprehensive conversation provides valuable tools, strategies, and support for healing and resilience in the face of trauma.

00:00 Introduction to Cindie Henrie and Her Expertise

00:54 Discussing the Impact of Recent Events on Mental Health

02:03 Exploring Trauma Responses and Marginalized Communities

04:17 Cindie's Journey into Trauma Treatment

05:57 Insights into Hollywood's Dark Side

12:00 Understanding Toxic Relationships and Attachment

20:29 Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy and Other Treatments

28:07 Integrating Mind, Body, and Soul

28:28 Ketamine Therapy: A Faster Path to Healing

29:48 The Importance of Reinforcement and Introspection

31:11 Avoiding Toxic Influences During Reprogramming

31:38 Personal Experiences and the Power of Ketamine

35:28 Navigating Trauma from Powerful Predators

42:05 The Impact of Political and Social Issues on Mental Health

44:17 The Role of Community and Connection

51:22 The Wisdom of the Body in Healing

53:40 Final Thoughts and Contact Information

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Is it worth calling out a Narcissist? This episode looks at the pros and cons of calling out a narcissist.  We explore how it impacts both the victim and the abuser. This covers strategies like gray rocking and other possible approaches that you can use to help secure your emotional wellbeing. You will be guided on how to set boundaries and break the cycle of abuse, while being aware of the potential risks of retaliation and emotional toll. Alternatives to direct confrontation and the necessity of professional support are also discussed, ensuring a holistic approach to dealing with toxic relationships.

00:00 Introduction to Narcissism

00:40 Understanding Narcissistic Behavior

04:40 The Power of Indifference

05:56 Benefits of Confronting a Narcissist

08:22 Downsides of Confronting a Narcissist

14:07 Alternatives to Confrontation

16:35 Gray Rock Method

20:13 Seeking Support and Professional Guidance

23:59 Recap and Final Thoughts

In this episode, we sit down with life coach Michelle Gauthier, who specializes in helping overwhelmed women find peace and purpose. Michelle shares her inspiring journey from a 20-year corporate career to becoming a life coach and highlights the challenges and rewards of making such a life-altering decision. We discuss the impact of people pleasing on personal and professional life, look into Michelle's own experiences and insights, and provide valuable advice on how to break free from the cycle of people pleasing to live a more authentic and fulfilling life. 

Additionally, Michelle offers practical tips such as the Love and Fit method and the importance of self-awareness and mindfulness in overcoming people-pleasing tendencies. This episode is an eye-opener for anyone struggling with putting others before themselves and looking to reclaim their own happiness.

00:00 Introduction and Special Guest Announcement

01:00 Michelle's Journey: From Corporate to Life Coach

04:33 Challenges and Major Life Changes

07:00 Helping Clients Overcome Overwhelm

08:24 Understanding and Addressing People Pleasing

16:48 Impact of People Pleasing on Relationships

21:38 Recognizing People Pleasing in the Workplace

22:46 The Impact of People Pleasing on Personal Life

26:42 Self-Awareness and Mindfulness in Overcoming People Pleasing

28:59 Distinguishing Between Authenticity and People Pleasing

31:11 Long-Term Effects of People Pleasing on Identity

35:19 Transitioning from Corporate Career to Coaching

37:37 Advice for Overcoming People Pleasing Tendencies

40:38 Conclusion and Resources

In this episode, Deborah welcomes Barbara With, an internationally renowned peace activist, award-winning author, and psychic channel to the brilliant mind of Albert Einstein. Barbara shares insights into her transformative work, particularly the Conflict Revolution process, which integrates intellect, intuition, and emotion. Drawing from her own experiences of personal trauma and healing, Barbara details how aligning these human dimensions can lead to profound personal and societal change. The conversation delves into her connection with Einstein, the scientific underpinnings of her methods, and the broader implications for global peace.

00:00 Introduction and Guest Mix-Up

00:41 Introducing Barbara Wythe

01:54 Barbara's Journey and Conflict Revolution

06:07 The Three Human Dimensions

08:41 Applying Conflict Revolution

16:30 Personal Trauma and Healing

31:52 Channeling Albert Einstein

34:59 Global Impact and Final Thoughts

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This episode explores the concept of ghosting within narcissistic relationships, termed 'The Phantom Menace.' Ghosting is when a narcissist abruptly cuts off all communication, leading to feelings of confusion, abandonment, and self-blame in their victims. This episode delves into why narcissists engage in ghosting to assert control, avoid accountability, and manipulate their victims. We also discuss the emotional turmoil experienced by those who are ghosted and provide strategies for healing, setting boundaries, and protecting oneself from further harm. Additionally, the episode addresses how to effectively cut off contact with a narcissist and the potential risks involved. Lastly, listeners are encouraged to share their experiences and engage with Season 2 of the podcast, which will feature dramatized stories of toxic abuse.

00:00 Introduction to Ghosting

00:37 Understanding Narcissistic Ghosting

02:50 Emotional Impact of Ghosting

06:37 Reasons Behind Narcissistic Ghosting

10:31 Cowardice in Ghosting

15:18 Emotional Turmoil and Healing

23:12 Examples and Tactics of Ghosting

25:27 Understanding Narcissistic Ghosting

26:12 Steps to Heal After Being Ghosted

27:45 Setting Boundaries with a Narcissist

28:24 Reframing the Experience

29:13 Cutting Off Narcissistic Supply

30:43 Ghosting a Narcissist: Taking Control

32:36 Potential Risks of Ghosting a Narcissist

35:41 Safety Tips for Ghosting a Narcissist

40:27 Emotional Impact on the Narcissist

47:41 Final Thoughts and Season 2 Preview

This episode looks at the bewildering experience of being in a relationship with a covert narcissist. Unlike overt narcissists, covert narcissists are master manipulators who subtly erode your sense of self-worth and agency. This episode covers the warning signs, the impact on your mental health, and strategies for regaining your sense of self. We also discuss the normalization of toxic behaviors and provide insights into what covert narcissists truly want from you. If you've been wondering if you might be in a relationship with a narcissist, but can't be sure due to the covert level of manipulation, listen in. Uncover these hidden dynamics and start your journey towards healing and empowerment.

00:00 Introduction: Identifying a Covert Narcissist

00:39 The Subtle Manipulation Tactics

01:36 Signs You're in a Toxic Relationship

03:16 Questioning Your Reality

05:44 Recognizing Manipulative Behaviors

08:37 Emotional Drain and Dependency

13:36 Toxic Relationship Habits

24:09 What Do They Want from You?

29:31 The Path to Healing and Recovery

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In this episode, Kyle V. Robinson, author of Wandering Spark, shares his transformative journey from a tumultuous childhood marked by abuse and toxic relationships, through a tumultuous adolescence and young adulthood filled with rebellion and legal troubles, to ultimately becoming a licensed attorney and author. Kyle discusses the pivotal moments that inspired his change, including influential mentors and self-discovery through writing and therapy. He offers practical advice on overcoming toxic relationships, the importance of positive influences, and the power of self-belief. Despite his challenges, Kyle emphasizes the significance of perseverance, self-care, and the search for personal happiness.

00:00 Introduction and Initial Conversation

01:04 Correcting the Introduction

04:19 Kyle's Early Life and Family Struggles

07:11 High School Rebellion and Turning Points

14:33 College Challenges and Realizations

18:11 Journey to Law School

19:19 Law School and Career Beginnings

26:16 Finding Positivity and Starting a Business

26:55 Struggles with Fulfillment and Van Life

27:45 Writing as a Path to Healing

29:06 Therapy and Self-Discovery

31:26 Identifying and Overcoming Toxic Patterns

43:22 The Importance of Positive Relationships

46:53 Advice for Leaving Toxic Relationships

52:55 Final Thoughts and Contact Information

In this episode of the Inner Source Healing Podcast, host Deborah Ashway, a licensed clinical mental health therapist, and addiction specialist, discusses symptoms of toxic abuse and healing strategies. Joined by multi-talented guest Greg Benick—musician, activist, filmmaker, and author of 'Reclaim the Moment, Seven Strategies to Build a Better Now'—they explore Greg's diverse endeavors, the importance of creativity, and maintaining self-esteem. Topics include his activism with Seattle's teen dance and all-ages dance ordinance, strategies for focusing and centering oneself, and his personal journey with sobriety and veganism. Listeners are encouraged to foster self-esteem, build healthier relationships, and find joy in creativity to reclaim their moments.

00:00 Introduction to Inner Source Healing Podcast

01:22 Meet Greg Benick: Musician, Activist, and Author

02:42 Greg's Journey and Philosophy on Creativity

05:35 The Importance of Focus and Self-Esteem

08:15 Reclaim the Moment: Seven Strategies to Build a Better Now

17:41 The Teen Dance Ordinance: Changing the System from Within

26:46 Aligning on Youth Protection

27:07 Balancing Safety and Cultural Access

28:11 Navigating Opposing Forces

29:08 The Path of Least Resistance

29:58 Personal Choices and Sobriety

32:49 Facing Social Norms and Challenges

34:30 Toxic Relationships and Self-Reflection

42:40 The Metaphor of Juggling

45:07 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

In this episode of the Inner Source Healing Podcast, licensed clinical mental health therapist Deborah Ashway talks with Laura Rhodes-Levin, author and founder of The Missing Peace Center for Anxiety. Laura shares her personal struggles with anxiety and how generational trauma and modern stressors impact mental health. She discusses her book 'The Missing Peace' and explains her unique approach at the center, combining traditional therapy with spirituality and modern technology. The conversation also delves into strategies for overcoming toxic abuse, recognizing self-worth, and using expressive arts for healing.

00:00 Introduction to Inner Source Healing Podcast

01:01 Meet Laura Rhodes Levin: Author and Therapist

02:21 Understanding Anxiety and Its Generational Impact

05:22 The Role of the Frontal Cortex in Anxiety

06:38 Creating The Missing Peace Center for Anxiety

09:56 Harnessing Anxiety and Shifting Focus

16:34 The Role of Spirituality in Healing

19:29 Integrating Modern Technology in Therapy

24:38 The Power of the Senses

25:22 Mindfulness and the Body

26:05 Healing the Wounded Child

27:08 Expressive Arts in Therapy

29:09 Developing Healing Strategies

30:13 Raising Your Frequency

31:55 Understanding Self-Worth

34:27 Healing from Toxic Abuse

40:11 The PHEW Foundation

42:13 The Journey of Healing

44:14 Conclusion and Contact Information

In this episode of the Inner Source Healing Podcast, host Deborah Ashway discusses the journey of healing from toxic abuse with esteemed yoga instructor Fiji McAlpine. Fiji shares her story of overcoming a back injury and mental health struggles through yoga, offers insights into the chakra system and its role in emotional healing, and explains how yoga can help develop healthy boundaries and resilience in relationships. The conversation highlights the transformative power of yoga, the importance of balancing energy, and practical ways to incorporate yoga into one's healing process.

00:00 Introduction to Inner Source Healing Podcast

00:59 Meet Fiji McAlpine: Yoga Instructor and Healer

04:08 Fiji's Journey into Yoga and Healing

09:05 The Power of Yoga in Healing Emotional Trauma

12:04 Connecting Mind, Body, and Emotions Through Yoga

23:40 Developing Healthy Boundaries and Resilience with Yoga

28:26 Navigating Yoga with Injuries

29:58 Personal Journey of Healing Through Yoga

32:20 Understanding Pain and Resistance in Yoga

36:08 The Chakra System and Its Role in Healing

38:10 Exploring the Seven Chakras

51:12 Incorporating Yoga into Your Healing Process

53:12 Conclusion and Resources

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In this profoundly moving episode, we explore the power of resilience, healing, and self-discovery through the lens of poetry and personal narrative. Our guest, Cheryl Bannerman, author of "Words Never Spoken," shares her harrowing journey from the depths of hidden abuse to finding her voice and empowerment. Cheryl's story is not just one of survival but of transformation, illustrating how writing and faith can be potent tools for overcoming trauma. 

Through her poetry journal for healing, Cheryl offers insights into the therapeutic process, encouraging others to find their own path of resilience, self awareness, and identity. This episode dives into the pivotal moments that led Cheryl to break the silence surrounding abuse, the role of spirituality in her healing journey, and how she utilizes her experiences to advocate for mental health and self-expression. 

You will find a powerful testimony to the strength of the human spirit and the transformative power of self-expression and faith. Cheryl's openness about her struggle and subsequent recovery offers hope and a blueprint for anyone navigating their own path out of darkness. Join us for an inspiring conversation that highlights the importance of finding one's voice, setting boundaries, and rediscovering oneself through the healing power of writing.

00:00 Introduction to Cheryl Bannerman

00:25 Cheryl's Personal Journey and Inspiration Behind 'Words Never Spoken'

01:45 The Impact of Emotional and Verbal Abuse

02:24 Healing Through Writing and Faith

04:20 Encouraging Readers to Find Their Voice

06:22 Understanding Boundaries and Personal Growth

11:19 The Role of Faith and Spirituality in Healing

18:46 Challenges in Writing and Overcoming Trauma

20:31 Themes of Resilience and Self-Discovery

22:58 Reprogramming and Overcoming Negative Self-Perception

28:59 Understanding the Complexity of Toxic Relationships

30:02 The Role of Vulnerability in Writing

30:17 Balancing Authenticity and Emotional Well-being

30:58 The Power of Metaphors in Poetry

31:30 Surviving and Obscuring in Abusive Relationships

32:19 Public vs. Private Personas of Abusers

32:32 Reconnecting and Setting Boundaries

33:18 Mental Health Advocacy and Writing

37:31 Advice for Aspiring Poets

39:39 Exploring Other Works and Inspirations

41:13 Understanding Monsters Through Writing

43:50 The Importance of Empathy and Boundaries

46:27 Resources for Self-Discovery and Healing

48:49 Where to Find More Information

49:34 Conclusion and Final Thoughts