Stroke Survivor Podcast Ministry

Reflection.

The journey begins. Where I am and what I've learned thusfar.

Only He can judge

My CT results are all a part of God's plan.

God knows why.

Healthcare. My Bible. My Lord.

God is trying to tell you something

Expect the unexpected when it comes to disability insurance. A little bit about my current status in the dating department. Managing your health in this terrible healthcare system we have in this country. Lastly, financial tips when and if you are approved for disability.

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Sprinkle a little God on everything you do. Lead with love.

First dates can be scary with all the baggage you bring with you to the table. Imagine dating after a failed marriage, multiple health problems and completely restarting to build financial security. This is my reset button and my first date. God is so good. He said, "I know all of your obstacles and I never promised you life would be easy." I know God. If it were there would never be growth from the lessons you have prepared for me. I'll do anything for love. Especially yours.

How life is for me today.

Walking in faith. The journey along with a bonus ending. Love.

The healthcare system is disgrace against people of color and low income families. The system doesn't want to help individuals who have gone through something traumatizing in their life whether it be a financial or in regards to health. Society wants us to get back to work but Society has to realize that we'll get back there faster with assistance and with the proper Healthcare treatment. We can't just be the group you point your finger at we have to be the group that you help support and build up to make this country stronger.

My love podcast to Hip-Hop and my heart breaks for all artists. Then and now.

God hears you. Sister Renata transitions to paradise. Praise Bible study in remembrance of ou beloved sister. Paradise found. What's it like?

Being judged as a stroke survivor trying to get my life back and how being a survivor affects other areas of your life. The meaning behind invisible disability and why spending 5 minutes with someone can lead to judgement and being labeled fraudulent. The role of God plays in my life.

Happy Heavenly Birthday William. Happy Heavenly Birthday Grandma. Happy 3rd Stroke Anniversary. Happy Rebirth. What God and all of this means to me.

My medical journey and navigating through a system that treats you like you are an inconvenience. A system that believes everyone wants a free ride. Listen to what was done to me so it will never happen to you. God bless. God will see you to it and through it. My apologies for the light obscenities.

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I got the job. More words can not do this episode justice. It must be heard.

What does the crucifixion and the resurrection mean to you? This is what it means to me.

Women are always expected to be strong and for the most part we are. When we are not we hide our weaknesses or obstacles because of pride. Living in between being healthy and recovery is a complicated and confusing place to be. Constant shame and asking, "Why me?" The day after will always remain. Unless a doctor or medical procedure can reverse my stroke I'm living in the day after EVERY DAY.

My experience going back to work after my stroke. Completing daily tasks, dealing with co-workers, and the public. My experience from an able body to a not so able body. God is so good. He is all I need.

Imagine working a job for until retirement and only receiving a watch for all the work you have done over the years as a parting gift. Welcome to divorce. This is the most transparent I've been about my pending divorce. I mean no malace. I know this because there is no anger attached to this episode. These are my thoughts with volume. Peace, resolution, and understanding are the only requests.

My mental health state when my 1st two brain aneurysms ruptured. Daily stress-related issues in your personal and professional life can kill you. Stress is the devil and it can take you out. I apologize for the notifications during this episode. My family and I are very excited about this prospective new job opportunity. God is oh so good.

This is a detailed explanation of my medical experience. The reason why I called it sins is because God gave us a temple and it is our job to take care of our temple. Our temple is our bodies we have to take care of our bodies physically and mentally. I've had quite the experience and sometimes I feel like when I tell my story it's so incredible that many people would probably never believe me. What I'm sure of is God is great and he puts you in these experiences so you can learn from it and grow. Lord I want you to know that I hear you. My body is my temple, it is a gift from you and I am taking care of it the way I was destined to.

Hope City Church in Texas is where my favorite pastor is from. Pastor Jeremy Foster is no longer with Hope City. When he resigned I resigned. I loved him and I could not connect with the new pastor. This episode explains why I was so connected to him. I also explain my sins of the past. How I was so checked out of my marriage that I cam close to committing the same sin he did. This does not absolve me from anything. Marriages crumble and neither party is innocent. If I could change anything in my past I would use kinder language. Words are weapons you can never take back. I am guilty of this. I am no longer that person because I am no longer angry. Once you replace anger with God's love a change occurs from the inside out. God is so good. I've learned from my mistakes. My next human love will be my best love because the spirit of God fills me a guides my steps. I still pray for my family of the past and God has forgiven me. I pray they have as I have forgiven them. God bless.

Experience this new life in a social setting. Stepping out of the box of independence, yet staying guarded with making intimate connections. While others are mapping out their lives I am learning who to map my from one end of the bar to another without spilling my drink and avoiding any physical catastrophe. I was a billboard for being my mother's child who survived a stroke. I felt good, looked good, and enjoyed being tracked by a select few. From the hunter to the hunted. This new experience was great. This was a night to remember. Happy birthday mom.

Be patient. God is so good. Say yes when it makes sense and not because you have no other options. Be honest with what you want in and for your future. Make sure your love language exudes integrity. To date or not to date? No. Not yet. Getting to know my new self first.

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Returned home just before my dear friend passed. RIP Toni God's timing is always perfect.

My first first post since relocating from California. I haven't been home since 1997 not 2009. That is a correction. What it feels like to be home again. The struggles of living with mom at the age of 51. Adjusting to my new life and finally living loved. New York New York a he'll of a town. I love being here. I missed you New York

My last night in Sacramento. Feelings insight perspective

I will discuss the process of relocating from the place I live now in Sacramento to go on back home to live in Yonkers with my mother. What it feels like to give away and sell everything you've worked for. The joy of receiving and giving blessings. Excitement and joy knowing a new chapter is finally going to happen. Why living your life chasing someone else's dreams is a recipe for a destruction of your joy. I'm filled with joy and hope. God did this I'm merely along for the ride. To God be all thr glory.

12 years a slave. The Help. This is my testimony. Addiction, sacrifice, struggle, infidelity, finance, career, family, health issues, goals, marriage, abandonment, divorce, financial ruin, separation, facades, final chapter, new beginning, faith, home, excitement, and fear. From beginning to the soon to be end. Almost free. Freedom will be achieved when God carries my over this last hurdle. Footprints in the sand.

This episode will describe how my week turned out. I did not have any setbacks physically. I did mentally and with my family. There was a death in the family on the day of my stroke anniversary. A graduation of my oldest stepson that I did not attend because he did not want me there. How my anger almost got the best of Me and how I was helped through family, friends, and Bible study. Which helped to get past my anger and not lash out.

Being cordial has it setbacks. These are the days of lasts. Last days of marital status. Last birthdays and holidays. Last days of communication with a family I thought I had. Last days of 12 years of my former life. Last days on this emotional roller-coaster. I still have hopes and dreams. What I need to do to get the last days of my life back. These are my last days to live and find happiness within me. Last days to receive and accept love.

This episode will describe where me and my soon to be ex wife are in the divorce process. How we are being cordial to each other and trying to have a relationship while our marriage of 5 years and relationship of 12 is coming close to an end. This episode will also describe how being respectful to each other during the divorce process is important to having a peaceful divorce. I will discuss where I am now mentally, emotionally, and physically while rehabilitating from a stroke. I will also discuss my hopes and plans for the future.

This episode is about the rejection I feel everyday because of my stroke. Rejection from my mother. Rejection from my soon to be ex wife and kids. All the reasons why am feeling rejected in detail. Why I am such a dark season and my hopes of finally getting out of this season. I will also discuss a new drug I plan on trying called DMT. It's a risk I'm willing to take because I don't want to be disabled anymore. I'm tired of being rejected. ig Desiree.celestethemiraclechild

This episode would talk about how I spent my Valentine's Day with my soon to be ex wife. This episode will describe in great detail how I thought the focus would be completely on us this Valentine's Day. Not us as a couple. Us as a soon to be severed partnership. The ability to have a last nice cordial Valentine's Day. A ending to 12 years. A ending to 12 chapters of our lives. Unfortunately, it turned into her life, her new life, and nothing about us. She got what she wanted as she continues to seek revenge and hurt me. This is me finally letting go after so many attempts. I deserve happiness. I deserve more. It starts AGAIN 😔 today. Come on Des you can do this. 🙏🏽

What stage I am in. All the consequences of our actions.

This episode will describe the details of my divorce. How it has effected me and the family I was with for 12 years. I will talk about what is happening currently in my home and theirs. Alcohol abuse, mental abuse, infidelity, and destruction of a family I was previously the head of. The repercussions of revealing our dirty secrets in court documents. How my soon-to- be ex-wife is threatening to ruin me financially. Broken vows and my mental health. How my previous life has officially ended. Is it a sin to start a new relationship while you are still married, yet separated? How my life is better and I am finally free. What I hope my future will bring. My new life. A new chapter.

How my vision board will guide me through and to the creation of my book. A synopsis of what my book will entail. How my life story unfolded and what led me this moment of being alone while recovering from a stroke.

A step-parents story of not being loved and making the decision to let it all go. What life was like before I moved out and what it is like now. The consequences of disciplining your step-children. Making the tough decision to let your step-kids go because they don't love you like they use to and finally letting go because it's what is best for you.

My path to Psalm 8:1

This episode will go into detail in regards to the 1st conversation I had with my soon to be ex wife after the bad and correspondence via text that we have the conversation was civil and important. You hear details of what was relayed in what was expected in some information in regards to what we've been through in the past. You also hear what I expect in the future in what motivates me to be good with where I am in my life.

This episode will describe in detail the steps I am taking to get my divorce and the backlash and I am receiving from the person I am divorcing. It's pretty simple. Where I am today and where I'm going. Why it's taking so long to get there. Also, I discuss my morning routines as far as the Lord and prayer routines. God is so good to me

First a brief description of our background and journey to friendship. Amazing Thanksgiving with friends. God has blessed me. Family and friends. Lots of love. Still remaining faithful to God and what he has blessed me with. Short follow-up to yesterday's episode.