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Destination Begin

Destination Begin

By Kristen Smith
I’ve lost over 250 pounds and changed my life radically many times over. I’ll be detailing my life as a child in a religious cult, growing up as a fat kid, losing weight, bariatric surgery, fitness hacks, meal and life planning strategies and real life, tough love cheering you on to achieving your goals and aspirations. I don’t pet. I am silly. I am fun. And I am simply ordinary. Which means I am qualified to convince other ordinary folks how to do the extraordinary.
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Nothing Tastes as Good as Paris Feels
My Paris trip adventures including my experience honoring my inner self instead of eating my way through the treats of the city every day.
52:35
September 22, 2022
The Windows Tell the Story
I’m in Paris! Part 1 of my European travel experience! I landed in London and had a quick visit before Paris! The stained glass in Saint Chappell cathedral offered a beautiful perspective on the chapters of life. Struggle to reconcile painful chapters? Me too. Listen.
39:24
September 12, 2022
Amanda and Kristen and The Minnesota State Fair - The Great Minnesota Eat Together
My intentional food plan deviations at the Minnesota state fair and letting the “pig” out of the cage. Also a special treat, Amanda joins me to tell all about our epic run to the fair and everything we are.
56:60
August 30, 2022
Be a Honey Bun and Lose Some Butter
Operation Honey Bun explained, plus thoughts on how to see slow weight loss in a new way, what your purpose is and the Minnesota State Fair
35:58
August 25, 2022
Snack-cidents, Cheats and Pig Slop
Cheating on your diet, breaking your commitments and eating off plan is discussed along with “what is pig slop?”
31:41
August 14, 2022
Visualization and Pretending
Miami update, post-show binges, friends who call you higher and using visualization to create a new reality.
40:04
August 07, 2022
Story time with Kristen - Post Show Pendulum in MN
My show is over and I spent a week in Minnesota having fun and dealing with post-show diet reverse. The pendulum swing of the hyper restriction to “food party” is a process to manage. All the fun, GI distress and food treats plus how I’m dealing two weeks later with my physique changes.
01:07:13
July 24, 2022
Nutrition Questions and Answers
Nutrition Q & A- Macro-based eating, protein options, eating out on a diet, water intake, how to start a weight loss journey and more.
39:46
July 24, 2022
Krissy the Bodybuilder
I took the stage again in my third bodybuilding competition at The NPC Twin Cities Open on July 9th. It was my first time competing as a Wellness competitor and my experience was fun and full of learning as my prep culminated in a full, fun, winning day!
49:40
July 19, 2022
3 Days Out - Final Shred for NPC Twin Cities Open
An update on my final 10 days before show. It’s Wednesday of snow week so 3 more days to stage. Weight loss, salt and more salt!
24:33
July 06, 2022
6 Days Out and Summer Rules - Hold Your Position
6 days out from my NPC Twin Cities Open competition update. Plus, how to hold your position this summer using food rules you actually follow. Information on my summer session of the mindset training program is also included. For more information email kristen@kristensmithonline.com.
44:32
July 04, 2022
NPC Show Prep Update - 9 Days Out
The latest on my bodybuilding prep process as I am approaching show day for my NPC Twin Cities Open Wellness & Bikini show. What I’m eating, my mindset and how I’m feeling as the show approaches. To order 1st Phorm supplements.. https://1stphorm.com/?a_aid=DestinationBegin
29:49
July 01, 2022
My Best 44
44 nuggets of advice, lessons learned and life strategies from my first half of life. Food, fitness, mind, heart and cooking. All of it here in little bites. Book referenced: Seth Speaks by Jane Roberts Air fryer model to buy: Ninja DZ201 Foodi 8 Quart 6-in-1 DualZone 2-Basket Air Fryer with 2 Independent Frying Baskets Amazon $189
56:42
June 27, 2022
Mindless Eating Strategies: Using All 5 Senses, Not Just Taste
We have five senses and yet we go to the sense of taste constantly for soothing, distraction, pleasure, fun, joy and more. Make a list of ways you can use the other senses to enjoy being a human, experiencing life and adding goodness without food and taste ruling. Also my show prep update and my strategies for reverse dieting and eating fun foods again after prep dieting.
46:20
June 14, 2022
Who Says You Can’t Come Home? A Love Story
A personal podcast highlighting the power of love and starting over as evidenced by my recent trip to Minnesota for my niece’s wedding celebration. Also discussed: staying on diet track while traveling and my visit to NYC en route to Minnesota.
51:60
June 05, 2022
Skinny to Healthy with Sarah
Sarah Kouri is my guest this week to tell her story of her relationship with food, her body and overcoming an eating disorder and regain health. Follow her on Instagram @sarahkouri at www.miamifitnesscoach.com
45:46
June 01, 2022
Lessons From the Ocean
A collection of lessons from the ocean about body love, perspective, setting down food obsessions and faith.
33:54
May 22, 2022
Love Your Inner Krissy
An update on prep, my dating life and a conversation about how to live from a place of true connection with your soul. Life happens and we can live jaded and programmed by those circumstances or we can live according to who we are in our soul - our inner child, truest self, most innocent and optimistic voice.
48:45
May 15, 2022
How Many Donuts Are in Your Yogurt?
Update on Miami Life plus a dive into added sugar and where it hides in “healthy” foods. There’s 10 grams of sugar in a Krispy Kreme donut. Let’s see how many surprising “healthy” products have more sugar than that!
59:10
May 10, 2022
Beating Bulimia - Paige’s Story
This week my friend and client Paige shares her experience with bulimia and anorexia and subsequent recovery. Frank conversation and potentially triggering subject matter may not be suitable for all audiences. Please listen with caution if you are triggered by this topic or similar.
59:26
May 01, 2022
Amanda and Kristen Prep Again
Amanda joins me for this episode and we talk about our body building show last year and how we responded in the off-season. We are prepping for another show and dig into the experience of the highs, lows and calorie hacks along the way.
01:08:02
April 24, 2022
Destination Date - Archie and the Brit
More dating adventures in Miami with Archie Bunker and the Brit.
30:58
April 20, 2022
The Other Side of Deserve.
Spin around the idea of deserving what you have and apply it to deserving what you don’t like. The concept being that you deserve to be where you are based on how you have shown up.
22:06
April 10, 2022
My Brother, My Hero
A tribute to my brother Allen on his birthday plus, how I feel about my new prep life for another bodybuilding competition.
38:22
April 04, 2022
Make Now Happen
The past tells us we can’t. The future never arrives. All we have is now to create the weight loss and lifestyle we want. Strategies on how to make “now” happen.
49:02
March 27, 2022
Thank U
Have you ever thanked the pain in your life? This process allows you to see the other side - what you gained from it - and leads to forgiveness and compassion.
43:31
March 20, 2022
I’m Not a Hero - It’s Just Food
Losing 250 lbs requires saying “no” many times when faced with delicious foods. In this episode I talk about the reality of the power we have over food.
44:06
March 13, 2022
Three Things That Hold You Back
All about the new love of my life, and the three most common reasons we get stuck and don’t self-actualize. Empower yourself with this episode!
57:27
March 05, 2022
What I Do - Mind Tricks, Methods and Strategies I use to Chase my Goals
Valentines Day, Minnesota visit update and some examples of how I think, shop and live life according to my goals and health.
41:09
February 25, 2022
Destination Date - The Ghost & TFL
A spin-off episode all about my most recent date. The ghost and subsequent TFL.
13:44
February 17, 2022
Breakup Stories
The story of your breakups and loves of your life can limit you or empower you. In this episode I tell the story of my relationship and subsequent breakup with Randy and talk about how toxicity from your past can steal your future.
56:11
February 13, 2022
What’s Your Brand?
A new start with my sister, dating fun, neighbor Dave, and an exploration of how to find your brand. How do you show up when you’re representing YOU?
01:04:10
February 06, 2022
Reset and Recommit
It’s a few weeks into the new year and your motivation may be fading and you may be ready to say “screw this!” This episode talks about why you may feel this way and how to adjust, reset and recommit!
36:50
January 30, 2022
Q&A Creatine, Workout Clothes & MYOB
An update on Miami life and answering your questions about supplements, workout clothes, motivation and how to talk to your family about weight and wellness.
50:41
January 23, 2022
Christmas and New Years
Christmas in Miami and a creating a vision for the New Year.
29:35
January 16, 2022
Story Time with Kristen - Homeschooled Church Stories
My Youtube Channel features a series of Story Time episodes, where I get comfy on my couch and tell stories. This week's podcast features my latest Story Time chat, telling stories about watching TV (the Helevision) at K-Mart, covering up my sinful elbows and more.  Watch the episode on YouTube at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI2jvDR5QGE
41:47
January 16, 2022
KISS. Keep It Simple Sweetie
Ignore the hype and focus on these four tried and true lifestyle components for good health and weight loss.
35:45
January 10, 2022
Two Tips for Your New Year’s Resolutions
I learned a lot in 2021 so I give you a brief recap and also give you the two most important tips for achieving your 2022 goals.
46:31
January 03, 2022
Rest in Rio
The importance of rest and recovery is known but not followed by me. So on my recent week in Rio I rested and also learned some valuable truths via an encounter with Christ the Redeemer via helicopter. There are no coincidences.
54:06
December 08, 2021
My Mom and Me - My Second Story
My story of my mom has been all over this podcast and it is time to tell the second story. Love is all that matters, in the end, as it is in the beginning. It’s pure and has healing power that overwrites the narrative we write. Watch the YouTube of this episode here: https://youtu.be/u7tRQ_6OyO4
31:07
November 07, 2021
Last Place Bikini Girl
I did another NPC Bikini competition and learned why these are fun for me and also why I won’t be doing more. I’m pretty sure. I think. Watch this podcast recording on YouTube: https://youtu.be/nYHt67LIi5Y
01:00:22
September 30, 2021
Hypnotized by Sandwiches
Growing up in church I was told to never let anyone hypnotize me. But I did it anyway and confronted my lonely, sad, isolated 11-yr old self in a way I never could have done any other way. The results blew my mind and changed my heart forever.
30:52
September 10, 2021
Hurtful No to a Powerful Yes
In this episode I get a little bratty but overall, explain my gratitude for the universe having a much bigger plan than I could have imagined. The most hurtful and inexplicable “NO” led the way to the most powerful opportunity of my life. At the time it was a tough pill to swallow but I fought to keep a good attitude and in the end…magic happened.
21:21
August 31, 2021
Don’t Shrink in Ukraine
I went to Ukraine and I got a message from the universe that changed me. I hope it changes you. If not, at least enjoy hearing about this Minnesota girl on her first trip out of the country…alone. Squatting toilets and free food and Kamelot and the most beautiful wedding in the countryside of Ukraine.
01:10:09
August 28, 2021
Surgery Saga and Life Stuff
A bit about my final and most recent skin removal surgery plus general life updates and what my coaching is all about. Get caught up on life stuff with me and this episode is recorded on video so you can also watch on YouTube and IGTV
38:32
July 04, 2021
Pendulum
Three weeks post-bikini show reflections on the pendulum swing coming off of a prep diet and back to normal life.
38:13
May 31, 2021
Bikini Girl for a Day
My detailed telling of my experience as a bikini competitor at my first NPC Bodybuilding Competition.
01:06:40
May 09, 2021
Lies That Keep You Stuck
There are lies and half truths we believe about weight loss and diets that are convenient excuses or actual bad information and these lies keep us stuck and frustrated. I debunk the most common ones I have heard and encourage you to star over with a new set of truth bombs so you can win your weight battle for good.
40:33
May 02, 2021
Changing Your Identity
“Have you always been a fit person?” “No, I used to be an obese person.” In this episode I talk about the process of changing your identity and the multiple times you already have done so. You have the credibility needed to believe you can indeed change your habits and behaviors so much so that your identity can change yet again. If I can, you can.
35:12
April 25, 2021
I’m a Mom - The Steven Story
The story of becoming a mom, navigating being a single mom and the healing that is possible after being an imperfect mom.
01:00:45
April 19, 2021
Reversing Fear and What I eat
Fear steals joy and momentum and in this episode I talk about how to turn that fear into statements of confidence. Also in this episode I answer the common listener questions of what exactly I eat and what to eat when going out to a restaurant. Also a recommendation to follow Mike Bledsoe on social media to learn and grow in new ways and my current read, The Mastery of Self by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. Mentioned in this episode: Catalina Crunch cereal https://us.catalinacrunch.com
58:55
April 04, 2021
Prep Life - Amanda and Kristen prep to take the stage (in bikinis)
Amanda joins me to talk about our current “hard thing” we are doing together; prepping for our first bodybuilding competition. At six weeks out from show, we talk workouts, diet, the mental challenge and the crazy things we didn’t expect to need to learn or buy to be prepared. Posing, bikinis, spray tans and funnels...to name a few.
01:05:16
March 28, 2021
Food Hacks and Empty Wells
This week I talk about calorie-saving snacks, time saving tips for food prep, and various items I use to add flare without calories to my food. I also talk about the importance of knowing what people in your life are empty wells and which ones can offer to fill your cup. Links to mentioned items: Guar Gum https://amzn.to/399NOXZ. Ninja Air Fryer https://amzn.to/3d1c9QO Fish Delivery https://www.fishlevelcorp.com
52:37
March 25, 2021
It’s Today
The story of some recent life changing and exciting news and how it came about. I also answer a couple questions you sent in and recommend you read everything written by Glennon Doyle, specifically Love Warrior and Untamed.
42:55
March 14, 2021
Composition Diet - Body and Mind
In this episode I talk about how to change your body composition through macronutrient control as well as what the scale does and does not tell us. All of this relates to the composition of our hearts and minds based on what we put into our mind and our own conversations with ourselves. It all comes down to diet.
50:19
March 07, 2021
Are You Willing?
In this episode I talk about the idea of being willing to do the things you must do to get the things you most want. Most recently prepping for my first bikini competition and the effort and willingness required to do the hard things over and over again. I also talk about the recent change in how I pray and how you too can find prayer empowering instead of wistful.
55:07
February 28, 2021
Top Tips
I share in this episode the top mantras, facts and methods for successful weight loss and permanent lifestyle change.
51:26
February 21, 2021
Never Broken
In this episode I talk about the birth of Miami Beach Boot Camp as well as my recent huge epiphany about my childhood relationship with my dad. This gets raw, emotional and real and I hope it lands on hearts that need it just like mine did.
51:45
February 07, 2021
Holiday Miracles and Mabel
The Four Agreements by Don Ruiz was a read that changed everything for me. It brought the biggest gifts I could have ever asked for: Reconciliation and Healing. In this episode I catch you up on Miami life, my holidays in Minnesota and tell you about my dear Grandma Mabel. To support this podcast you can become a monthly supporter via anchor or be a customer of my two partner companies Smart Baking Company (discount code Destination_Begin) and Built Bars (discount code Destinationbegin)
52:14
January 31, 2021
Amanda Does Hard Things
This episode features my friend Amanda as my guest to discuss her personal story of transformation from an obese, drugs and alcohol addicted young girl to a fit, healthy, endurance athlete, career woman, wife and mother of three. Amanda has completed multiple Ironmans, triathlons, ultra-marathons, and other big adventures which has translated to career and life achievements that otherwise would have been outside of her imagination to strive for. Doing hard things has become her lifestyle. After listening to this episode you will be inspired and motivated to find and do your own hard things!
01:00:28
November 22, 2020
Loving You
In this episode I talk about why it's important to love yourself, what self-love is and is not and how a lack of self-love leads to bad decisions. I can trace most of mine back to a lack of self-understanding and self-love. I also talk about how I have cultivated a deeper sense of self, learned to recognize my inner child and talk about how you can start to love, defend and nurture your own soul. 
01:07:52
November 08, 2020
Dressing your Body
My history with clothes from cult church, dressing identically like my mom as a teen, clothing my 400lb body and learning how to shop and dress all over again as I lost weight. I also share my favorite tips, shopping hacks and fitness clothing brands and styles to keep things sucked in and looking your best! Favorites mentioned in this episode: Maiden Form thong body suit shaper: Spanx leggings; Old Navy - Elevate Compression Leggings and Bermuda Shorts: Fabletics VIP membership and Sculptknit leggings; Target All in Motion Sports Bras; Balega socks; Hoka One One shoes: Allbirds Dashers and Runners
01:06:57
November 02, 2020
Miami
My move to Miami and how it came to fruition plus the dangerous trap of comparison I found myself in during Week 1.
42:39
October 29, 2020
Live Hard - Completed
Randy joins me to discuss the entire year of the Live Hard program, how it changes our lives and what the power of this program can mean for you.
53:53
October 24, 2020
Listener Questions
Today is a hodge podge of topics, Q&A style. I cover your questions about raising kids with healthy food relationships, weight loss surgery, mantras and motivation with some other fun topics too.
59:45
August 30, 2020
Should, then Would
In this episode we talk about taking an honest look at how you eat and move your body.  By assessing where you fall on the spectrum of a healthy lifestyle, you can find the small changes you can make to move in the right direction.  Making a list of what you should change but then choosing the things you WOULD change, empowers you to act and execute. Grab a notebook or your notes app to follow along.  After listening you will have a list of the ways you are going to execute those changes as well as how you'll reward yourself for the efforts.  Don't forget to share this podcast with a friend and/or to your social media! Word of mouth is how this podcast spreads to those who need to hear it! 
49:04
August 09, 2020
Lessons from a Mountain
I recently hiked Pike's Peak in Colorado with my bestie and as usual, I found lots of life lessons in doing something hard.  A weight loss journey or road to better health is a very hard thing that can take a long time, much like hiking to the top of a 14,000 foot mountain.  On today's episode I tell the story of our trip and hopefully you will find a parable in this story that helps you in your journey. 
01:01:55
July 26, 2020
Weight Loss Strategies
Losing weight is science but how you do it can vary exponentially. There are many strategies for making a diet fit into your lifestyle and ways to ease the struggle and make new habits part of who you are.  In this episode I reveal some of the most powerful strategies I have implemented over my weight loss journey to lose weight and keep me engaged, as well as the most popular strategies of my coaching clients and friends I have helped along my journey.  Grab a notebook or your notes app and get ready to jot down some new tips and tricks for helping you reach your weight loss goals.  Resources mentioned: www.MyFitnessPal.com Jillian Michaels The Six Keys: Unlock Your Genetic Potential for Ageless Strength, Health and Beauty https://bookoutlet.com/Store/Details/9780316448642B?source=ppc&ppc_campaign=u1407004000&gclid=CjwKCAjwmMX4BRAAEiwA-zM4JvRMFzpbncXYrCya5uCByQK0K84y3x-SdNJKiydKHFe6yUebra2onRoCCHcQAvD_BwE
46:54
July 19, 2020
Live Hard
Randy joins me again to discuss our experience with Phase 1 and Phase 2 of the Live Hard program. If you are considering 75Hard or LiveHard, this will push you to dig in and have your own experience with personal toughness and commitment to hard things. To learn more about 75 Hard and Live Hard, follow the hashtags #75hard and #livehard on Instagram and listen to the linked episodes of the MFCEO Project here: 75 Hard https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/real-af-with-andy-frisella/id1012570406?i=1000468529541. Live Hard Phase 1 https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/real-af-with-andy-frisella/id1012570406?i=1000442089959
52:04
July 14, 2020
Preparation, Motivation and Protein
In this episode: Preparing for opportunities that present themselves, the unnecessary idea of motivation, protein supplements and pre-loading happiness. Links from this episode: Protein supplements I love  www.1stphorm.com  Online learning tool   www.udemy.com  Smart Baking Company  www.smartbakingco.com/destination_begin  CODE: Destinationbegin
36:33
June 22, 2020
Plastics
2019 was a year of change for me including four plastic surgery procedures to remove excess skin. In this episode I talk about the importance of finding a good surgeon, the process, recovery and emotional and mental impact of it all. *this episode includes some references to surgical procedures and while I attempt tact and avoid details as much as possible, if you’re disturbed by such topics please be aware*
01:03:16
April 26, 2020
Sunrise
Reflection on the goodness that comes after darkness and what I’ve been learning about love, moving, life on life’s terms and an announcement about the podcast format.
19:49
April 12, 2020
Happiness is an Inside Job and Holding Your Position
This week I talk about holding your position versus making progress during this crazy quarantine crisis. I also talk about how to cultivate personal happiness - it's an inside job. And happy birthday to my big brother. I said the word "fart" in this episode in his honor. I hate that. But he's worth it. 
37:44
April 05, 2020
Naysayers and Family
Many people who live a healthy lifestyle or who have radically changed their lives for the better deal with or have dealt with family and/or friends who are not only unsupportive but are downright determined to tear them down.  This is frustrating, hurtful and can be incredibly counter-productive. In this episode I talk about my experience with unsupportive people in my life and how I have learned to understand the why behind their unkind words and behaviors and how I have set up boundaries and healthy ways to respond. 
46:05
March 30, 2020
Coping Skills
The Covid-19 situation has caused a lot of fear, anxiety and uncertainty and has changed our daily lives dramatically. In this episode I address how I'm coping with the changes and managing the new, if not temporary, normal.  Listen in for 10 practical ideas I personally have implemented to navigate these uncharted waters.  
33:34
March 23, 2020
Marriage...Again
I decided to tell the story of marriage number two. I had said I never would but there have been so many women I have met lately who have found themselves in my shoes. There is merit to sharing in the hopes you learn something or see something relevant to your life. This episode deals with recovery and addiction and it is my intent to be respectful and only tell my perspective without making assumptions or casting judgement on others in recovery or battling addiction. This is MY story and I strive to only tell my story and not his.  
46:55
March 15, 2020
Coffee Filters and Listener Questions
What I’m up to, my thoughts on toilet paper and other random topics including answering listener questions from previous episodes.
44:28
March 09, 2020
Losing Weight for the First or 500th Time
Losing weight that you have regained from a previously successful diet is especially hard. The defeat and frustration having to dig in and do the hard work all over again when you feel like a failure can be overwhelming.  It's not unlike having to lose weight for the first time  - weight gain after an injury or a baby can be shockingly hard to lose and start a frustrating cycle of self-loathing and comparison that is hard to overcome.  In this episode I go over strategies for addressing tackling the weight, habits and thoughts for good so your weight loss is permanent and you don't have to keep battling and fighting to lose the same pounds over and over again.  
48:51
March 09, 2020
Weight Loss Surgery
In July of 2011 I had a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. and I spend this episode discussing what the process was like before and how it affected me afterwards.  Rapid weight loss affects hormones, metabolism and body image, and requires a new commitment to a brand new way of life.  Loose skin, sliding back into old junk food habits and continually tweaking my response to all of it are among the challenges I faced and still have been addressing over 8 years later.  
51:11
March 01, 2020
Alaska is Connected to Canada and Other Fun Facts
This week I simply recap some of the stuff I've been up to, which invariably leads to some tangents involving catching up on pop culture, meal plan tweaks, the two-sides of deprivation, and enduring hard things.  I talk about my recent Miami trip, starting Phase 1 of the LiveHard program including those dang 5 minute cold showers, and the glee of holding my first workshops to teach about overcoming binge and emotional eating. 
43:45
February 23, 2020
How to Never Binge Again
After I lost over 200 pounds I found myself in a cycle of restrictive eating and strenuous exercise followed by weekend food binges and junk food indulgences that ensured I started my week bloated, frustrated and buried under shame and guilt for not sticking to my best-laid plans.  I could get to the gym and work hard but couldn't solve my eating hangups no matter what I tried. The Never Binge Again plan by Dr Glenn Livingston changed my relationship with food and my ability to finally reach my fitness and weight loss goals once and for all.  In this episode I go through the mental trick I learned from Dr Livingston to separate my constructive mind from my primal, binge-eating mind so I can stay in control of what I eat at all times and reach my goals.  Writing your own personalized food rules will set you up for success, teach you how to shake off the shame blanket of emotional, boredom and binge eating and reach your goals. 
42:38
February 17, 2020
Vacation Without Remorse
A vacation should be enjoyable in all ways, including your meals and activity. Often it can be counter-productive to go into all-out vacation mode and eat ALL THE THINGS which leads to feeling sick, tired, bloated and coming home with excess weight gain.  In this episode I talk about making a vacation plan for your movement, meals, desserts, hydration and overall vacation vibe so you enjoy yourself thoroughly with no guilt or remorse. I also go over my sure-fire plan for getting rid of vacation bloat and weight gain in just one week. 
31:31
February 09, 2020
Unstuck, The Relationship Edition
In this episode I go into detail about my first marriage and the factors that played into my decisions to get married, the dysfunction of our dynamic and how I eventually got out.  Getting unstuck from any relationship is not just about breaking up or getting a divorce. I also talk about the work involved with getting emotionally unstuck so a relationship from the past doesn’t steal from the future.
54:05
February 01, 2020
75 Hard
75 Hard is a challenge of 75 days to develop mental toughness. On this episode I am joined by a fellow 75 Hard alumni, Randy, as we tell about our respective 75 day experience. If you have completed 75 Hard, are currently attacking the challenge or are contemplating it - take a listen to get some insight, encouragement and incentive to indeed invest in your life in this powerful way .
43:11
January 27, 2020
Cult Church - The Story According to Me
On this episode I talk about my childhood raised in a religious cult, including how the church began, how it shaped our home-life and family dynamic and led to my home-schooled education. I tell the stories of the biggest events and beliefs that shaped who I am and detail the doctrine, fear-based manipulations and "no way out" ideas that kept me stuck. Ultimately forgiveness is the path to being 'unstuck.' My life mantra as it pertains to my upbringing is: I start now. Forgive Hard. Repeat.   *This episode is highly personal and does not cast many people in a positive light. Therefore I did not name names or places and tried very hard to be sure that my opinions and ideas are noted as such and I am not slandering, accusing or calling out any person for any crime or wrong-doing.  This is just a story of my experience for the sake of telling it in the hopes that it encourages the listener to shake off the chains of their own childhood if needed, and to go out and live a life more abundant.  This episode involves a lot of raw emotion and is not as professional-sounding as i would wish. It was a balance between editing it and letting it flow. I hope you enjoy and I hope you bear that in mind when listening. 
01:05:40
January 19, 2020
Lies
Reaching your goals is a challenge and if you're like me, you have tried and failed at many weight loss attempts.  In this episode I go through the ways that I have lied to myself, let myself off the hook and slid backwards in my many attempts to stick to an eating plan.  It's only when I have been honest, drawn a clear line in the sand and stopped treating myself that I have been able to successfully change my habits and reach my goals. Listen and see if you can hear these lies resonate in your own mind. Perhaps being honest with yourself on these points will be the key that makes you successful in 2020. 
27:27
January 13, 2020
See Something, Say Something
It's January - that means the gym is full of New Year's Resolution-ers. You may have to wait for a treadmill or your favorite squat rack, your classes may be full and it may frustrate you. But you can make a huge impact on the lives of those people who are trying to make life and health changes. In this episode I talk about the moments and people who made the biggest impact on my ability to push through the embarrassment of being the largest person in a big-box gym, receiving a life-changing compliment and the way a gym community changed my identity forever.  
40:31
January 06, 2020
How
Here I tell the story of my weight loss journey from 405 pounds to having lost 250 pounds. I also give a list of the most powerful keys to weight loss from my experience and how to lose weight and keep it off.
01:02:57
December 29, 2019
Just Begin
This first episode gives a broad overview of who I am and why I have something to say. I tell the story of the three main ways I have gotten free of a 405 pound body, the mental and emotional trappings of being raised in a religious cult, and a subsequent abusive and controlling marriage. If I can get unstuck...anyone can.
18:39
December 16, 2019