Holy Sh!t We're Alive

Welcome back to Holy Sh!t We’re Alive!

We’ve got a double podcast this week with this episode going live both here on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive and on the Look Up Podcast with Marc Weinstein.

Marc and I met at an Ayahuasca ceremony 4 years ago and then reconnected about a year and a half later at another ceremony.

At that first Ayahuasca ceremony, we both had incredible experiences that have played a large role in our own individual journeys of self-growth, and we’ve enjoyed staying in contact over the years to share our experiences with each other.

In this episode we’ll be talking about psychedelics, self-love, relationships, the success void, my new book, and more.

We’ll be sharing personal experiences on our different paths to spiritual growth, mindfulness, and overall wellness, as well as tackling some of the inner stories we’ve had to overcome.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients? 

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call. 

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Caleb Campbell.

Caleb grew up in a Christian home on a farm in Texas with a deep fear of never being enough.

His high school football career led him to West Point where he made national news and eventually was drafted as a linebacker into the NFL.

Despite his success and fame, nothing could satisfy his deep longing for acceptance, approval, and belonging.

The NFL applied just enough pressure to leave his life in fragments, so he left it all behind.

Through a series of unexpected events he ended up moving to Canada on a whim, and began a journey to heal the emotional trauma that was keeping him stuck and miserable in life.

In this episode, Caleb shares the raw, gripping, emotional journey that led him from a life full of rage, disappointment, and suicidal ideation to a life of radical self-acceptance and deep satisfaction.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients?

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Michelle Mercier

Michelle is a successful business strategist, a sought after public speaker, a podcaster, a mother, and more. In her life and in her business, Create Honesty, Michelle focuses on the

“intersection of the human and the business” striving for a life of balance and fulfillment.

In this episode, Michelle shares her story of growing up in an addiction fueled household, how that shaped her into an overachieving hustler who felt she had to prove her worth, and how she overcame those tendencies to build a balanced and happy life.

Michelle talks about the myriad of obstacles she has overcome on her way to figuring out what she really wants out of life and the legacy that she wants to leave behind.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients?

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

Holy sh!t, Alli York is alive.

Alli’s story is incredible. At a young age, she started to believe that there was something wrong with her and that God made a mistake.

This led her down a path of denial — denial of her of sexuality, identity, beliefs, and purpose.

Alli went through EIGHT rounds of rehab treatment struggling with heroin and alcohol addictions until finally living on the streets in Salt Lake City for over a year.

Alli shares her experience begging for a few dollars a day to feed her habit and ultimately coming to the realization if she stayed on her path, she would end up dead.

She finally said a sincere prayer… She said, “If I have a purpose, I need to know.”

Alli’s story of recovery is incredible — she breaks down how she learned to love herself through the 12-step system, her own journaling, and her “mirror work.”

You’ll love this episode. Can’t wait for you to get to know Alli.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

Happy June 10th, the most beautiful day of the year!

For those that don’t know, 4 years ago, on June 10th my life changed overnight. Still, to this day, it is the most profound, most insane, most beautiful experience I’ve ever had.

Back in 2016, I had begun to really set focus on personal development, healing, and more interpersonal (rather than external) performance.  I was focusing on habits and goals, but I was so asleep at the wheel that I needed something to rock me to my core, something so big and so significant to really get my attention, to continue down my spiritual path.

It all started with a random audible credit and a book called Stealing Fire that opened my eyes to the benefits of psychedelic medicine.

In this episode, I share the story of my June 10th awakening.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients?

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

What’s it like to live a life without consequences?

Frank Rich grew up in a home where he had very few consequences for his actions… Drinking, smoking weed, drugs, pornography and more were all part of his life from a very early age.

But does he have regrets?

Absolutely not.

Through his own experience with addiction, money, and chasing success he learned what works for him and what doesn’t.

After leaving a high-paying job, Frank developed curriculum to help men battling addictions to pornography — focusing not on the MORALITY side, but on the SCIENCE behind what pornogrphy does to your brain and how to UNWIRE learned beliefs.

So what does he say about regret?

Everything in our lives leads us to where we are now.

This episode is a great listen and Frank shares his seven-step method for overcoming addictions and rewiring any negative behavior.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients?

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

I’m BACK in the US of A.

For those who don’t know, I just returned from a spur-of-the-moment trip to Dubai…

A few weeks ago in a mediation, I had the urge to go to Dubai as an experiment — could I travel somewhere where I have no friends and no connections and make a beautiful memorable trip for myself?

The trip was incredible — great friends, memories, and experiences.

This experiment reminded me of the importance of FULLY embracing and engaging with our lives.

There are so many twists and turns and unexpected upsides in my life I can trace back to the willingness to jump when the universe has pushed me.

In this episode, I share a few stories from the last couple of years where the dots have lined up for me.

Also, did I mention that I have space for two new private coaching clients?

If you’re interested in finding out more, DM me on Instagram and we can set up a call.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive it’s a solo episode!

As a side note, I’m lining up our next set of guests and I’d love your feedback. If you know someone who’s had a “Holy Shit I’m Alive” kind of moment or you know an expert you think would be great for the show I’d love to hear your thoughts. DM me on Instagram and let me know!

I’m excited about our chat today — this has been something showing up over and over in my world. Sometimes when we are working hard, striving, and pushing for improvement and more results, we can become RESTLESS with where we are now.

As we start making progress instead of feeling satisfied, we start noticing everything else that we’d like to be doing or have as well.

In this episode I’d love to share this simple message with you: Stop being so hard on yourself!

It’s ok to be where you are now — it’s ok to not be all the way there yet. Just enjoy the process and stop being your own worst critic.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Rosie Card

Rosie has an incredible background — she’s been a model, a founder, a missionary for her church, an author, a voice, and she’s even ran for public office.

She is the voice behind the Q Noor movement — a brand, podcast and more that helps and inspires women to feel more comfortable and more confident where they are in life.

Rosie shares her story of experiencing her own spiritual struggles and doubts in the Mormon church where doubts are not encouraged and they are looked down upon.

Rosie has been an incredible voice for women and an ally and supporter for LBGTQ voices specifically in the Mormon church.

I love hearing how Rosie fully lives life — when we were talking about starting her business she said, “The ultimate failure is the lack of trying.”

She truly tries it all and lives life to the fullest.

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Jimmy Rex.

Jimmy has built an amazing real estate company, he’s the author of books, speaker at events, and he inspires thousands through his social media…

But just like any other “overnight success” his journey started in a much different place.

Jimmy grew up following the straight and narrow path laid out for him by the church he was raised in…

After seeing so many twists and turns in his life and doubling down on self improvement he learned one simple idea:

He could learn a lot about the direction of his own life by understanding the thoughts, opinions, and experiences of others.

Jimmy talks about his journey of leaving his religion, diving into plant medicine, studying and researching self-improvement, launching businesses, and finding empathy for others.

You’ll love when he talks about something he’s been doing recently on his Instagram: The $100 dinner club.

For more information about Jimmy, take a look at his website and his social media below:

Jimmy’s Book:

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Mitch Matthews.

Mitch is a former college and NFL football player turned entrepreneur.

As a natural-born leader, Mitch has built an incredibly successful sales business with a trajectory to change the world.

Mitch shares his story of resilience after the passing of his mom and moving on from an NFL career, all while starting a new business.

Instead of wallowing in fear and doubt, he used these challenges as defining moments to channel these emotions into energy to fuel his business and life.

Mitch has great insight into how to hack your own energy and use it to positively influence your own life.

For more information about Mitch, take a look at his website and his social media below:

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking with Sean Whalen.

Sean has built an incredible business that involves an apparel line, coaching, live events, his Amazon best-selling book and more…

But it wasn’t always great for Sean.

He shares his story of building his life based on comparison and ego and watching it all come crumbling down as he got divorced, changed careers, and found meaning.

As his life was unraveling he started to realize how angry he was… Angry at God, angry at his business partners, his ex-wife, everyone.

He shares the moment when things changed for him — and he realized that he had the choice to change the direction of his life. When he embraced the truth and owning who he was his entire life changed.

Sean has some great insight into the process of “turning the lights on” and being authentically you.

For more information about Sean, take a look at his website and his social media below:

This week on Holy Sh!t We’re Alive we’re talking to Erin Monson.

Now here’s the thing about Erin… Erin and I used to date and we were almost engaged. If you know my story, you know that when my relationship with Erin ended, that was the start of some major self-work in my world…

In this episode, Erin shares her journey of battling an eating disorder for a good part of her life.

It started when her college tennis career ended and she found herself in the middle of a good old-fashioned identity crisis.

“Who am I? What makes me happy? What should I be doing to make a living?”

All of these feelings of uncertainty and LACK of control drove Erin to find control in her life.

She learned that she could have control over how she ate.

This turned into an eating disorder and body dysmorphia that came and went through different relationships and life events…

This is when our stories collide and we found ourselves BOTH seeking external validation from the other person and that turned into a beautiful mess.

Erin shares her story of hitting rock bottom and realizing that she didn’t need to have complete control to live a happy life.

I love Erin’s approach to finding balance and happiness because she is REALLY good at the little things. She talks about finding happiness through breathwork, and journaling, and just BEING.

Erin has an amazing business coaching men and women to feel better physically and learn to love themselves along the way.

Welcome back to Holy Sh!t We’re Alive!

I’m excited to let you in on a conversation this week with a great friend of mind, Sierra Schubach.

First off, thank you so much for your love and engagement on this podcast! The response so far has been amazing and I appreciate your messages and DM’s.

Let’s tackle a big question today: What is the purpose of life?

I have spent so much time in my life trying to “figure it all out” and solve all the problems in my life. But is that really our purpose?

Elon Musk did a Clubhouse last night and he said something really cool:

“Life cannot just be about solving one miserable problem after another. That can't be the only thing. There needs to be things that inspire you that make you glad to wake up in the morning and be a part of humanity.”

Even the most “successful” people I have met feel like there is always a thing — there’s always something to solve, some problem that needs fixing…

What if there is no finish line?

What if the purpose of life ISN’T to figure it all out?

For a long time in my life, I didn’t have this perspective. I needed to figure it out, get the success, and receive the recognition. I had this burning desire to achieve more and more and more.

Where did this land me?

I call it the “Success Void.” I was chasing solutions, chasing success, and chasing happiness and it just felt like I would never find it.

This all changed for me one night during an ayahuasca ceremony. I remember writing this note in my journal:

“I'm always trying to solve the problem from dating to finances and everything in between. I'm always looking for the solution, in reality, there is no solution and there is so much beauty in the present moment. The present moment is where we learn the most. This has given me an entirely new outlook on life. I see the world completely different. Now I can notice the small details and a sense of awe and everything. It's like, I have a new set of eyes. There is so much freedom and actually letting go and realizing there is no formula or no solution to life. This is so liberating and free. It's the equivalent of discovering an entirely new world. Just let it happen. The universe is in charge.”

The purpose of life is to better ourselves and experience what it feels like to be human.

I think we don’t live like this because we are trained to live in a problem/solution mindset and we think, “I’ll be happy when _____.” The problem is that feeling never comes.

What’s the solution? Surrender to the flow of life!

This doesn’t mean we give up. This means that we let go of our desires and preferences.

When we get SO riled up about what we want — which team we want to win, how we want the meeting to go, what we expect out of circumstances… we end up with an expectation for our life that we are always comparing the ACTUAL events against.

And if anything is different, we are unhappy!

The reason you suffer is because there is something you want and you're afraid it's not going to happen. Or there's something you don't want and you’re afraid it's going to happen. That's it. That's why we suffer.

Just remember this: You have no control over the price of gas. You have no control over how fast the person in front of you drives. You have no control over the weather.

If we can just accept these things for what they are, we won’t feel so much emotion and anger inside.

The purpose of life is life.

Questions, Comments? Thank you for listening!

We are back! This week I’m going to share a story with you… TWO stories actually.

I’m going to share two stories that I had been carrying around. These stories affected how I showed up in the world, what I prioritized, and how I acted around other people.

All of us carry these beliefs or “stories” we tell ourselves about ourselves and without even knowing it, these beliefs limit the entire trajectory of our lives.

Today we’ll talk about the two categories that these stories fall in:

CONSCIOUS and UNCONSCIOUS.

A conscious story is the one we are aware of… It’s the “I’m not pretty enough, I don’t have enough money, I’m not as smart as everyone else…” type of beliefs.

So what was my conscious story? I was always the fat kid. That meant something was wrong with me and I wasn’t worthy of love and validation.

I carried that story well into my 20’s and it impacted my relationships, my actions, and my sense of self-worth.

Don’t think you have a conscious story?

Ask yourself this question, “What is the thing you are MOST embarrassed about and try to hide when you meet new people?”

In this episode, I’ll break down the simple question you can ask to identify the source of your story and I’ll tell you about a story I told myself for over 20 years.

And here’s the thing, most of time our stories come from a comment that someone else made and this comment likely came from them projecting their own insecurity on you!

So what’s an UNCONSCIOUS story?

This is a belief you have that you’re not even aware of!

I’ll tell you the emotional start of my unconscious story

When I had the awareness of my unconscious story and the realization that I could let it go, my life started on a new track.

Unconscious stories guide our lives without us even being aware of them.

I love this quote from Carl Jung, “Until you make the unconscious conscious

it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”

So what happens when we unearth our stories? Our entire lives are freed up to make new decisions!

Wow. We are here!

I’ve had a podcast on my mind for a long time and it’s something I’ve always had a lot of resistance to… but the time is now.

This is the first episode of my new weekly podcast called, “HOLY SH!T WE’RE ALIVE.”

My hope is that the thoughts, stories, and ideas I’ll be sharing and the guests I’ll be bringing on will help you change old paradigms and look at the world differently.

A lot of time we get caught up in the stresses of life and the stories we tell ourselves… for me it’s been sexual abuse when I was a kid, being the “fat kid,” feeling like I couldn’t share emotion when my dad died, feeling the depths of depression and more…

We all have experiences in our lives and we create stories around them.

My goal is to help us break down those stories so we can leave them behind and step into the most authentic version of ourselves.

I believe that there is a best version of YOU deep down inside and when we tap into the incredible flow of life we’re able to enjoy life and enjoy the beauty around us without feeling bogged down by all the stories and the circling thoughts in our heads.

Let’s stop FIGHTING with life. Let’s start letting go and surrendering ourselves to this universal flow of life.

You ready?

Thanks for being here for episode ONE! I can’t wait to spend more time with you.

Questions, Comments?