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Exposing Isolation

Exposing Isolation

By Rebecca E. Webber

Exposing Isolation is a very personal art project, made necessary by my many health conditions which keep me housebound. This has been my state since 2015 and while there is no end in sight, there has been some profound meaning and insight gained along the way.
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Doing . May 24, 2019

Exposing IsolationMay 24, 2019

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Endings and New Beginings

Endings and New Beginings

I've graduated from therapy with Liz and am starting Animist Minister training today. What a great time it is!

Nov 05, 202315:19
LOVE LOVE LOVE

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Big pink bubbly wonderful shroom trip!

Jul 29, 202327:57
Turning In

Turning In

Why is this so difficult? TW: Emotional Abuse/Depression

Jul 25, 202324:25
The Next Era of My Life

The Next Era of My Life

This past week has been FULL of love and socializing. It was a real reset for me and I am happy to be exploring this next phase in my growth.

Jun 26, 202322:19
Breakthrough Over Pho

Breakthrough Over Pho

This episode is about having lunch with my mom and step dad and learning some very healing truths. They were also super supportive of my new diagnosis and everything I'm doing with my life right now. 

Feb 18, 202315:37
Trip Notes on Our 10 Year Meet-iversary

Trip Notes on Our 10 Year Meet-iversary

These are my end of trip thoughts from February 15, 2023. Definitely my most significant insights and shift so far. This also happened to be the 10 year anniversary of Thomas and I meeting.

Feb 16, 202324:52
Embracing All of Me

Embracing All of Me

Thoughts on what it means to be me. Deep yet uplifting episode. I like where this is headed. Take care of yourself.

Feb 04, 202329:30
The "Too Much Shrooms" Trip of 2023

The "Too Much Shrooms" Trip of 2023

Please note any and all trigger warnings before listening to this. This was deep, heavy and sad. Please take care of yourself. Know that I am doing well.

Jan 16, 202328:44
If I Could, I'd Be There

If I Could, I'd Be There

Today's episode is about my relationship with disaster and my nervous system dysfunction that keeps me from being able to do the work I feel called to do. Thank you for listening. 

Apr 04, 202220:26
Ukraine, Climate Change and LGBTQIA+ Rights

Ukraine, Climate Change and LGBTQIA+ Rights

Today I woke up in a mood after yet another rough night of intense dreams to then found out that not online is Russia actively attacking Ukraine but that Florida is passing a law to restrict students from accessing sex and gender information. Great day today all around. I also threw in a ted talk about climate change just to really get my blood boiling. Does this mean I'm finally going to start having a public opinion? Time will tell. 

Feb 24, 202214:20
Applying for Work?

Applying for Work?

Will I be able to do this?!

Jan 13, 202207:42
New Directions

New Directions

Today I talk about taking a break from service, wanting to get into product and noticing the limits I still have while exploring what is possible. I'm leaning towards writing articles, product recommendations and working on my cookbook. 

Dec 13, 202112:05
Self Sabotage

Self Sabotage

Today's episode is about a breakthrough I'm having. I am noticing that the "break" I'm trying to take at the end of the day involving weed, sometimes alcohol, YouTube videos and snacks is really just setting me up for chaos the next day. I don't feel great, the house is a mess and I just start the cycle all over again to want another "break" again. Instead of denouncing this as just bad, I try to look at what it's giving me. The insight I found is that it is protecting me from making progress, or having the time and space to make progress on the big questions like who I am, what my purpose is and how I want to spend my life. 

Dec 02, 202115:25
Accepting Feelings of Loss, Grief and Disappointment
Nov 12, 202114:28
Settling In and Getting to Work

Settling In and Getting to Work

Today's episode is mostly an overview of where I am at, my current goals and mindset and well as a bit of backstory on how I got here. A longer episode than usual, I just really wanted to voice some of the changes I am experiencing in order to feel a bit more grounded in my decisions. 

Nov 01, 202117:13
The Truth Comes Out | My First Hypnotherapy Session
Oct 20, 202118:50
The Time My Body Shut Down

The Time My Body Shut Down

10 years ago my body shut down for the first time. 4 years later it would shut down again leaving me disabled, but this time I really had no idea what was going on or what to do about it. I thought I could just keep pushing through. This is that story.

TW - I talk a bit about mental illness and disordered eating in this episode.

Oct 18, 202118:54
Doubt & Confusion

Doubt & Confusion

Just a down day.

Oct 12, 202110:21
The New and the Old

The New and the Old

Hello Humans! This episode is kind of all over the place, but it helped me process some of what I am thinking on this new moon. I'm kind of in transition between getting really excited about new ventures and connections while also being nervous about what will happen with old connections, mainly my family. I just want to stay motivated and feel good but there is still plenty of shadow to tend. 

Oct 06, 202114:41
Getting Back at It | Much Belated Update
Sep 27, 202116:28
TW: Suicide Attempt (Not Mine)
Mar 22, 202122:13
Developments in the Right Direction
Feb 17, 202113:56
Finding Help

Finding Help

This morning I met with a new therapist, this time one who is clearly trauma informed. It was a wholly new experience and I look forward to working more with her in the future. Also, Happy Inauguration Day!!

Jan 20, 202115:35
Seeking Balance and Progress
Jan 19, 202114:01
What's Next?

What's Next?

In today's episode I give an update on priorities, projects and just where I am at right now. I want to focus on my health, but I also need to start making money or at least help Thomas make more so that we can have a home of our own one day. 

Jan 18, 202115:00
Update from Mania
Jan 13, 202112:34
New Year New Care

New Year New Care

Today I talk about meeting with my new naturopathic doctor for the first time and really loving it. 

Jan 06, 202110:38
TW - Suicidal Ideation
Dec 21, 202014:27
Meeting Anthea

Meeting Anthea

On today's episode I talk about meeting my new therapist and how I am feeling about all the changes afoot. 


Dec 17, 202014:18
Missing Liz

Missing Liz

Until yesterday, Liz was my therapist. She went into labor really early, cutting off our sessions weeks before we expected. I talked to her every week for the past 16 months and she's really been my rock. We didn't get the chance to wrap anything up, nothing to keeping me going into the future. So, I'm left feeling grateful for her help, concerned about her wellbeing and in essence lost for what to do to feel better. Time, I guess. 

Dec 16, 202011:09
But Not Great
Dec 04, 202005:29
Better Than Expected
Dec 04, 202012:51
Feelin' Glowy
Dec 02, 202014:39
Thanksgiving Eve

Thanksgiving Eve

Post-therapy pre-Thanksgiving musings.

Nov 25, 202016:33
Challenging Myself to Make Progress

Challenging Myself to Make Progress

This week I went to look at a house for sale and mostly just ended up learning what I don't want, but enjoyed the drive with Thomas. I don't think I did a very good job explaining what I am trying next, but that's just as well because I can't say I really know. Things aren't necessarily looking up but I am choosing to believe something will work. 

Nov 23, 202010:38
Another Bad Day

Another Bad Day

What else can I say?

Nov 19, 202016:51
Remorse, Regret and Indecision
Nov 18, 202014:19
Experiencing Dissociative Shutdowns
Nov 12, 202011:45
Struggling (But Determined) to Be My "Self"
Nov 11, 202013:46
I'm Shutting Down and it Could be a Good Sign
Nov 10, 202013:13
Politics, Personal Pain and Promise
Nov 09, 202013:06
What Can Be Done About CPTSD?
Nov 02, 202016:36
Full Moon Halloween

Full Moon Halloween

I apologize for the poor audio quality in this episode but I think the message is lovely all the same! I am sitting in the last light of the full moon, early in the morning on this Halloween, releasing that which no longer serves me. Blessings to you!
Oct 31, 202011:18
Am I the Only One Panicking?

Am I the Only One Panicking?

So currently when I stop and think about my life I start to panic. Sometimes I would describe it as terror. Anyone else experiencing this? Today I go over my story a bit and confess where I'm at. RebeccaEWebber@gmail.com

Oct 16, 202014:18
With Love

With Love

I felt the need to record a follow up from last week's episode. Things are developing and I feel so much love, it's worth documenting!

Oct 14, 202014:26
Ouch, But Okay
Oct 05, 202015:36
Finally An Answer! PMDD

Finally An Answer! PMDD

Yesterday after a bit of research I learned that I have nearly all the symptoms of PMDD! Not that it's good to have PMDD, I'm excited because it's an answer and something I can work to treat. It's a good day. 

Aug 31, 202011:24
I Know I'm Not The Only Lonely One But...

I Know I'm Not The Only Lonely One But...

Here I go again being overly insightful while still not knowing what to do. The joys of mental and physical illness that has no answers and an insufficient support system. I feel like a brilliant cave hag with no power. 

Aug 30, 202016:22
Reflections After Inner Child Work
Aug 28, 202014:38
My Challenging History [Part 2]

My Challenging History [Part 2]

In part one I discussed my story up until going to college. In this episode I talk about the beginning of college until now. I am documenting these hard truths to simply not have to hold onto them alone anymore. Also to acknowledge myself where no one else has seen my truth.
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Aug 25, 202014:15