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Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about a mother's grief.

Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about a mother's grief.

By Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about grief

Grieving Insomniacs is a podcast about grief. I was living an average life. Married with two children working as a counselor in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed. My oldest son died unexpectedly. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew grieving moms need support. I created this podcast to help support others, so they are not alone like I was.
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Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about a mother's grief. Jul 24, 2022

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The granddaughter episode, managing your grief when you are separated from your grandchild.

The granddaughter episode, managing your grief when you are separated from your grandchild.

Today marks my granddaughter's 13th birthday, a day etched with profound significance in my son's tumultuous journey. It ranks as one of the toughest days he ever faced, second only to the heart-wrenching news of a cancer diagnosis on his 25th birthday. My granddaughter, just three months old when he passed away, remains a poignant symbol of love and loss in our family's narrative.

For many years, I found myself estranged from her family, unable to partake in the joyous moments of her growing up. Not once have I had the opportunity to celebrate her birthday in person. Instead, this day acts as a precursor to the crescendo of grief that peaks on June 19th, laden with anniversary dates and haunting memories. With each passing year, the burden of navigating through this emotional terrain grows heavier.

In this episode, I contemplate what I would convey to my granddaughter if she were to unexpectedly appear at my doorstep on her 18th birthday. I grapple with the complexities of absence, longing to bridge the chasm that separates us, yearning for the chance to share in her milestones.

It pains me to acknowledge that my experience is not singular. Many grandparents find themselves distanced from their grandchildren following the loss of their children. I wish this were not a topic I needed to podcast about, yet here we are. Join me in this conversation, and share your thoughts on this journey of grief and separation.


Also, listen to "In the beginning there was death." Episode 1


Mar 17, 202425:25
Friends, family and Grief
Mar 10, 202424:11
Riding the Waves of Grief
Feb 11, 202427:50
Journal with me #3; the year of no resolutions.

Journal with me #3; the year of no resolutions.

Jan 15, 202427:21
Journal with me series episode 2: A Christmas letter to my child.
Dec 17, 202322:24
Journal with me about missing your child at Christmas.
Dec 03, 202325:13
Random musings about death, dying and grief at Thanksgiving.

Random musings about death, dying and grief at Thanksgiving.

This week's podcast does not have a theme or a particular message. It is more random thoughts and experiences from the week surrounding thoughts about death, dying, and particularly grief at Thanksgiving. I realized this week that we live in a society that does not allow anyone to be sad. It seems like sadness is being equated with depression and as such is being treated as a mental illness. Sadness is not the same as depression. As I moved through the week toward a holiday that is not particularly friendly or welcoming to grieving people; I began to think about death and dying. When I think of Christopher my concerns over how he died are never far away and in my opinion perfectly normal. As you listen to the podcast today, I hope it helps normalize any thoughts or experiences you had surrounding Thanksgiving that you hide from others. We are all on this journey of grief together but separately.

Nov 26, 202324:28
When grief has a place at the Thanksgiving table, it can bring both darkness and joy.

When grief has a place at the Thanksgiving table, it can bring both darkness and joy.

The message "The dark night of the soul" popped into my head when I was thinking about an appropriate topic for the Thanksgiving holiday podcast. In researching, I found several references to the Dark Night of the Soul. One was from Dr. Gerald May, and the other was from Eckhart Tolle. I will link both of them below.

As I explored the concept of the Dark Night of the Soul, I realized that the holidays symbolize the dark side of my grief and the dark side of my emotions.

As I made these connections I wondered what these three things: The dark night of the soul, the dark side of grief, and the dark side of one's personality have in common that they would present themselves as a topic for a holiday podcast.

The answer is that the concepts of the "dark night of the soul," the dark side of grief, and the dark side of your personality share common themes around intense and challenging experiences that involve deep introspection, struggle, and transformation.

The dark night of the soul refers to a spiritual crisis where a person loses their identity and their connection to who they are along with their connection to what they believe.

The dark side of grief refers to the intense and painful emotions experienced during mourning. This can include anger, guilt, depression, and a sense of disorientation or lack of direction in life following a significant loss. The dark side of grief involves grappling with the depth of pain and sorrow associated with loss.

The dark side of personality refers to aspects of one's character or psyche that are typically hidden, repressed, or less socially acceptable. These aspects may include traits such as aggression, jealousy, selfishness, or other negative behaviors that can emerge in certain situations. Understanding and integrating these darker aspects of the personality is often part of psychological growth and self-awareness.

This time of darkness from Thanksgiving to March symbolizes rest and restoration for nature. When spring comes the land, animals, and plants will be refreshed and renewed with new growth.

In our grief, we can take this same time to use it to go within ourselves to understand our grief, find our purpose, and begin anew again after the holidays and into spring.

https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Night-Soul-Psychiatrist-Connection/dp/0060750553

https://eckharttolle.com/eckhart-on-the-dark-night-of-the-soul/

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Nov 19, 202324:23
Exploring the Paradox of Grief and Gratitude on Thanksgiving"
Nov 13, 202326:39
The changing seasons and grief changes.
Nov 05, 202328:43
What I wish you knew about being a grieving mother?
Oct 15, 202320:56
Exploring Tonkin's Model of Grief and the criticisms of grief theories.

Exploring Tonkin's Model of Grief and the criticisms of grief theories.

In today's episode, we delve into the subject of Tonkin's Model of Grief. When exploring various grief theories through a Google search, Tonkin's Model of Grief may appear as a potential option. However, it is essential to clarify that Tonkin's model primarily pertains to the experience of parental loss, specifically the loss of a child, and emphasizes the process of adapting and growing while carrying the weight of grief. Therefore, it is not entirely accurate to categorize it as a comprehensive grief theory.

This distinction holds significance because numerous online sources erroneously label Tonkin's model as a theoretical framework. In the realm of academic discourse, a genuine theory is founded on rigorous scientific evidence and offers a systematic framework for comprehending facets of the human condition, including grief. Mislabeling models as theories can lead to misconceptions and misapplications.

Furthermore, we explore the transformative influence of social media on the experiences of grieving mothers. The digital landscape has emerged as a catalyst for social change, where each narrative shared and every grief-related meme disseminated contributes to the creation of a supportive and empathetic community. This communal sharing of grief narratives has facilitated a societal shift, making it more acceptable today than a decade ago to openly acknowledge enduring grief over a lifetime, a stark contrast to the era when grief was often concealed and unspoken. https://www.instagram.com/grievinginsomniacs/?hl=en


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Oct 09, 202325:39
Guiding Grief: Navigating the Path to the Perfect Counselor
Oct 01, 202325:49
Therapists often use the Dual Process Model of Grief as a tool in counseling grieving people. Listen as we discuss what this model is and how it is used in grief.

Therapists often use the Dual Process Model of Grief as a tool in counseling grieving people. Listen as we discuss what this model is and how it is used in grief.

Welcome to another episode of Grieving Insomniacs, the podcast where we explore the complex journey of grief and healing. In today's episode, we'll delve into the Dual Process Model of grief. In this episode we break the Dual Process Model down into its key components. Developed by Margaret Stroebe and Henk Schut in the 1990s, this model suggests that grieving individuals oscillate between two primary processes: loss-oriented and restoration-oriented activities. We'll explore how these processes are like two sides of a coin, each playing a crucial role in helping individuals adapt to their new reality. Loss-oriented activities involve directly confronting the emotional pain associated with the loss. On the other hand, restoration-oriented activities focus on the practical aspects of life, like work, relationships, and daily routines. The Dual Process Model hypothesizes that finding a balance between these two processes in grief helps people cope with grieving. We discuss the pros and cons of this model in the loss of a child. Additionally, we discuss how a therapist might guide someone who lost a child through grief using this model.

Bio:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I needed community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the suffering of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here, and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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We hope you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Sep 17, 202326:51
The Healing Power of Continuing Bonds: Navigating Grief with Resilence
Sep 10, 202328:15
I didn't get to say goodbye: What now?

I didn't get to say goodbye: What now?

In today's episode, we dive deep into the profound impact of unfinished farewells and the complex emotions that come with not getting the chance to say goodbye. Life often interferes with our ability to say goodbye, leaving us with unsaid words, unexpressed feelings, and a longing for closure. Your host Cristi Habermann explores the impact of the weight of unfinished business with the untimely death of her son, and other relatives. In her attempt to seek closure for herself, she shares tips on how to navigate the transition of death. Cristi learned how to develop a connection with her son through the love they shared and memories. Listen in as she shares what she has learned in this podcast.

"Death is but a transition from this life to a shared connection of love and memories. "

Biography:

Cristi was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I needed community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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We hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Sep 04, 202324:32
Grief Nightmares

Grief Nightmares

I had a grief nightmare last night that sent me on a quest to research them. In the podcast today I discuss what areas of the brain are active when we sleep that are involved in dreams and nightmares. Nightmares occur during REM sleep. We have about four cycles of REM sleep a night. The longer we sleep the longer the REM cycles last which results in more nightmares and dreams in the early mornings. Several things can cause nightmares such as stress, medical disorders, medications, and bereavement. Using my dream as an example we walk through how to use the information obtained in the dreams to highlight areas that need attention in our lives. Our dreams and nightmares are often symbolic of our past experiences and current stressors combined with the current moment. Using these symbolic messages we can learn to cope with the nightmares. Several techniques are discussed for coping with nightmares. One technique is practicing an alternative outcome to the situation. A second technique is coping with the emotions that are triggered by the nightmares. Finally, use all the information from your nightmares to help you find a path to resolve the conflict or experience that is interfering with your sleep. Listen in and let me know what you think.

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Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.



Aug 13, 202324:43
Not all grief is the same.

Not all grief is the same.

Any Google search on grief will display multiple types of grief, from the loss of a job to the break up of a relationship to the loss of a loved one. All these grief experiences are different, and we need to quit discussing them as if they are the same. In today's episode, I discuss all the reasons why the loss of a job is not similar to the loss of a child. My first reason is the physiological response after the loss of a child is significantly different than when you lose a job. The second reason is that the brain changes in response to the traumatic loss of a child. The second reason is that putting all grief types in the same category ensures that a therapist or other professional will treat them as all the same. This is why grieving mothers become so frustrated with therapists who minimize their grief. It is because they believe it is the same. We can change this by telling your story. Come on the podcast and be a part of the change by telling your grief story. Contact me at grieving insomniacs on Facebook or Instagram.

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

We hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message

Aug 06, 202325:33
What is validation and why is it important to someone who is grieving?

What is validation and why is it important to someone who is grieving?

Validation is when you accept someone's emotions and experiences. How many times have you heard someone say "It's time to get over your grief?" This is an invalidation of your grief experience. There are messages everywhere about grief, and how people are to respond to grief especially when it comes to losing a child. Most of these messages are invalidating.

Why do we care?

Because when a person feels invalidated they question their reality and start thinking something is wrong with them. When the truth is nothing is wrong with them. This invalidation can worsen the grief a person is experiencing and can lead to worsening emotional health. Validation matters.

Validation is when someone feels confirms a person's emotional experience even when they don't UNDERSTAND the experience. The grief after the loss of a child is hard to understand. There are physical, emotional, and cognitive changes to the person experiencing it. The beauty of it is a person doesn't need to understand it to validate a person's experience.

A simple "I hear what you are saying." "I see that you are sad" is all that is needed to validate someone's grief.

Silence is validating too. Just being present can sometimes be enough.

Listen in to more tips and get a better understanding of validation and grief.

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed, and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I needed community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

We hope you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Jul 16, 202324:23
Grief and the Family Reunion, how do you survive it?

Grief and the Family Reunion, how do you survive it?

I attended a family reunion for my father's 80th birthday party this week. I was excited to see family and spend time with them. I did not expect to have my grief triggered by being with family. I was naive about my own grief and grief triggers. I tend to feel my grief as physical symptoms therefore, I was more tired than usual which led to irritability. After my experience, I want to share some times in hopes you can avoid being triggered as I was.

First of all, expect to be triggered.

Second: Have an escape plan for when you are triggered.

Third: Be honest about your grief.

Fourth: Surround yourself with emotionally safe people.

Lastly, You are not responsible for managing other people's grief or emotions surrounding the loss of your child.


Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Jul 09, 202323:35
Your attachment style affects how you grieve.
Jul 06, 202324:50
Grief can be confusing. Healing does not mean forgetting.

Grief can be confusing. Healing does not mean forgetting.

Grieving is confusing. Your feelings are all mixed up into one ugly ball of pain. It can be challenging to move out of the emotional pain into acceptance. Many people believe that to remember their loved one they have to have pain. This is not the case. You can move to a place of acceptance of the grief and having grief be a significant part of your life without pain. When our love is great, so are our memories. When you find yourself feeling stuck in your grief, find ways to have a connection with your deceased loved one. Use your imagination. Your signs from your loved one are different than everyone else's. It all depends on what you believe and on what your memories of your loved one are. Grief is a journey into ourselves. We learn to accept that we will grieve a lifetime once we accept ourselves as grieving people. Much love and acceptance to you as you listen. Reach out to me on Instagram, Facebook, or email.


Bio: Cristi Habermann was living the average life. She was married with two children working in a profession that she loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and she became another person. Her oldest son died unexpectedly. Her son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but she didn’t know that then. She thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately she felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. She believed she should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. She felt alone. She developed insomnia and the people around her began to disappear. She wanted to develop a grieving community. 10 years later She put this believe into practice and started the Grieving Insomniacs podcast where she is trying to build a community. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.


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Jun 25, 202327:48
Have you heard of a death anniversary?

Have you heard of a death anniversary?

Kia, the wonder dog is getting ready to cross the Rainbow Bridge. She has been my best friend, supporter, and grief companion since Christopher died. His death anniversary is on June 19, 2023. As we approach that day, the nightmares increase, and so does my sadness. Kia has been the one who gets up with me at night when I can't sleep. As June 19, moves closer I wonder if she will make it to that day. She is 13 years old and lived a good life. I just wonder what I am going to do without her. I, also, wondered about the meaning of her dying so close to Christopher's death day.

I don't want to say I celebrate the day Christopher died, but it is a day that impacts me every year. I honor his memories, his life, and my love for him. Please understand that all grievers' have similar difficulties on death anniversaries. Be kind. Be understanding.

Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

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Jun 11, 202326:47
What is Complicated Grief Disorder and other random thoughts?

What is Complicated Grief Disorder and other random thoughts?

I took the week off because Christopher's birthday was last week. I spent my time recharging and re-engaging in the grief talk. In today's episode, I discuss Complicated Grief Disorder. What are the symptoms and why they created this disorder in the first place?

In all mental health treatment diagnosis drives payment and treatment. It used to be that insurance would not pay for grief counseling. Now, there is a disorder called Complicated Grief Disorder. I have some thoughts about this disorder as a Grieving Mother, which I share in the podcast. We discuss coping with grief and how to help someone feel better when grieving.


Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

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https://cristihabermann.com/home/grieving-insomniacs-podcast/


Jun 04, 202325:24
A Grieving Mother's Grief on their Child's Birthday

A Grieving Mother's Grief on their Child's Birthday

May 27th, 2023 is Christopher's 37th birthday. It is the day I became a mother so many years ago. Now it is a day that brings both sadness and happiness. I am happy that I can remember Christopher and all the joy he brought to my life. But, I am also sad because he is dead. The nightmares have started as my brain tries to cope with the feelings that always run underneath my thoughts this time of year. I often wish I could see him as he would have been at 37 years old. How would he look? How would I be if he hadn't died? These thoughts and much more race through my mind. Concentrating the closer it gets to Saturday will become harder and harder. I become more irritable and sad. There is no cure. I can only get through it. In addition, to his birthday May 27th is the day he found out he had Hodgekins Lymphoma stage 3 B. It is the last day I talked to him. He died three weeks later on June 19, 2011. Listen in as I talk about how I survive the next three weeks.

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Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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May 21, 202329:07
A Grieving Mother's Day Episode
May 14, 202322:47
Coping with your grief on Mother's Day.

Coping with your grief on Mother's Day.

In this episode of Grieving Insomniacs, we discuss Bereaved Mother's Day and Mother's Day. Do you wonder how you are going to cope with that day? Listen in as we discuss how to cope with our feelings and emotions surrounding the loss of our children. It is one of the most stressful holidays for a grieving mom.

The first and most crucial coping technique is to take care of yourself. This may mean staying home alone or taking extra time to have a cup of coffee/tea before the day starts.

  • Buy your own bouquet of flowers.
  • Don't have expectations of other people.
  • Don't over-schedule yourself.

These are just a few ideas. Do you have some of your own ideas?

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I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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May 07, 202329:43
The painfulness of small talk while grieving.

The painfulness of small talk while grieving.

On today's episode of Grieving Insomniacs, I discuss how painful small talk can be while you are grieving. I used to be this outgoing person making friends everywhere I went before Christopher died. The most painful social interaction after he died was meeting new people, who asked within minutes of meeting you "How many children do you have?" I dislike this question so much. I will do almost anything to avoid it. I am not sure whether it is because I don't want to deal with their reactions when they ask it or my feelings when they ask it. Either way, it is painful.

Here at Grieving Insomniacs, we are trying to change the social norms surrounding grief. One of the social norms that are most in need of change is asking someone how many children they have. If we understood the pain, and heartache that this question causes for so many people, would we stop asking it? Of course, we would. Let's start now. The next time you meet someone connect with them in a different way.

I, also discuss someways to cope with how to answer the question of "How many children do you have?" in this episode.

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I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Apr 30, 202329:26
An interview with Angie Hanson of Butterflies and Halos about changing the conversation about grief.

An interview with Angie Hanson of Butterflies and Halos about changing the conversation about grief.

On today's episode of Grieving Insomniacs, we interview Angie Hanson of Butterflies and Halos. Angie is a grieving mom and widower who lost her brother to cancer. All of these deaths occurred in a short amount of time. Angie became frustrated with the greeting cards currently available about grief. She had been looking for a way to give back to the grieving community. She found her purpose in creating grieving greeting cards. We talk about grief, including her favorite saying "Always better together".


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I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Apr 17, 202346:60
A grief meditation

A grief meditation

Meditate with me in this week's episode. I wrote this meditation years ago early on in my grief. I missed the physical feeling of Christopher so much. I missed his hugs. I missed where I fit into his shoulder when he hugged me. I missed the smell of him. It was an ache that was deep and unrelenting. This meditation helped me focus on a specific memory of him hugging me. Using all our senses we re-create the physical and emotional connection to our loved ones. Listen in and meditate with me.

Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

My mission for the podcast is to provide grieving mothers everywhere with a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Apr 02, 202327:30
Grief destroyed my trust in the world and myself.

Grief destroyed my trust in the world and myself.

Today our podcast is about trust. Before my son died I moved through the world trusting that things would work out. That any problem that came my way could be solved. After Christopher died, I don't believe that anymore. I don't trust people. I don't trust that things will be okay. I plain don't trust in anything. This causes a problem though because I find myself isolated from people, events, and the world. I have not found a way to move beyond fear. I want to learn how to take a risk. In the podcast, I discuss how this lack of trust shows up in my life. I also, want to know do you struggle with trusting others after your child died. Do you struggle with taking risks and trusting in a positive outcome? Please dm me and let me know. I would really like to know is that a struggle for everyone or just me.

Thanks for listening. I appreciate everyone that shows up every week to listen.


Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Mar 26, 202323:16
Finding your pathway through grief.

Finding your pathway through grief.

On today's episode of Grieving Insomniacs, I discuss finding your pathway through grief. Your pathway is simply what you use to help you cope with your grief. The pathway consists of the tools you use to navigate. I used the following quote as a metaphor “And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person who walked in." by Haruki Murakami to describe the pathway. One thing that we guaranteed in grief is that we are moving through a storm. Your pathway can be how you navigate speaking with people about your deceased loved one. It can be how you chose to remember them. No matter how you chose your pathway it can shelter you from the storm at least temporarily. There are times in grief when we need that break.

I also, talk about judgment in grief. Grievers receive enough judgment from non-grievers that we don't need judgment in our community. Please, please be kind.

Grieving Insomniacs is an inclusive podcast. All are welcome here.

Biography I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I needed community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Mar 19, 202328:12
How to develop your ability to get signs from your loved ones.

How to develop your ability to get signs from your loved ones.

The question I most frequently receive from listeners is how do I get signs from Christopher? The answer is a belief that I can and lots of practice. Several paranormal experiences shaped my belief system surrounding supernatural events as a young child. I was an avid reader throughout my life and fantasy has always been a top favorite. I was watching Ghost Adventures, and Ghost Hunters long before Christopher died. The morning after Christopher died I was googling how to see an orb. I made the decision that day that I was going to find a way to talk to him. In the podcast, I describe what this journey looked like for me.  It began with reading anything I could get my hand on the paranormal. I began journaling and meditating. I had a journal where I documented all of my Christopher signs. Listen in as I give more tips on how to connect and strengthen your belief system in getting signs from your loved ones.  

Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community I desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

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Mar 12, 202329:52
Moving on is a myth in grief.

Moving on is a myth in grief.

It occurred to me this week that it is difficult to watch my son's friends move on with their lives when Christopher's life has ended. Christopher had a core group of friends that have gotten married, had children and moved on with their lives. This activated my grief again realizing that Christopher will never have these experiences. For those non-grievers out there it is critical that you understand that mourning what he didn't get to experience is as important as mourning him. I can not possibly move on with my grief. When he died the opportunity to grow in my relationship with him ended. I will never be a grandmother to his children. I will never see what he would have looked like at 35, 45, or 50 years old. I grieve these things as much as I grieve his death. As a culture let's move beyond the concept that moving on from grief is the goal and instead accept that grief is our lifelong companion. Listen in as we discuss in more depth how to accept that we have not moved on nor do we need to. 

Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

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Mar 05, 202330:19
Grieving Insomniacs, a year in review.

Grieving Insomniacs, a year in review.

Thank you, Thank you to everyone that listens to my podcast. I couldn't have done this year without you. There were many times I didn't feel like I was doing any good by recording, but then someone would reach out and say "your podcast helps me." That has always been my goal. I wanted to help people feel like they were not alone in their grief. Coping with grief is easier when a person feels understood in their community. We have created a community here in our corner of the internet. Thanks for being here.  If you are interested in coming on the podcast, email me at grievinginsomniacs@gmail.com. Send me a message on Instagram @grievinginsomniacs or on Facebook at Grieving Insomniacs.  

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message

Feb 26, 202327:47
Death anxiety is a real thing and can you prepare for the grief wave it creates?

Death anxiety is a real thing and can you prepare for the grief wave it creates?

It's the year anniversary of Grieving Insomniacs on Feb 28, 2023. My first episode was published on 2/28/2022. To celebrate I am doing a giveaway of Beats Studio Buds. To enter the giveaway, please like my Instagram page Grieving Insomniacs and answer the question in the podcast. After listening to the podcast and answering the question, please send me a private message on Instagram saying done. I will draw a name from everyone that enters the giveaway and announce it on Feb. 28, 2023. 

In the podcast today, we are discussing whether we can prepare for grief waves. Grief is often triggered by environmental events and can come crashing in often referred to as waves. These waves are uncontrollable and frequently take us by surprise. For me, these grief waves are often associated with death anxiety. I define death anxiety as fearing that someone is going to die at any moment from anything. But, especially from medical procedures. Death anxiety is not something I see talked about very much in grief. Death anxiety has become a trigger for my own grief waves. Ways to cope with death anxiety are discussed in the podcast and knowing that acceptance of death is one of those ways to cope.     

The question to answer for the giveaway is do you have death anxiety? 

If you are listening on a different platform than Spotify, leave me a message here:  https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message or you can include your answer in the dm you send on Instagram saying done. 


Feb 20, 202329:27
Coping with your grief using music can assist you in feeling closer to your deceased children.

Coping with your grief using music can assist you in feeling closer to your deceased children.

This week I had a profoundly spiritual experience with my deceased son. Music has been my go-to for feeling expression when I didn't have the words or when I was in a place where I could not express my feelings. In the podcast, I go into detail about a bad day because a little bit more bearable through music. I have always believed that my son communicates with me through music. As I was listening to the music I could see him in my mind's eye supporting me. As you listen to this podcast, think about the music you listen to. Does it speak to you? Does it bring back memories of your loved one? If it does, intensify those feelings and memories. Over time just the sound of the music will provide those feelings for you. 

Feb. 27, 2023, is the one-year anniversary of the podcast. I will be doing a giveaway next week for all the podcast listeners. Tune in to next week's episode to hear all the details. 

I have some links to amazon products that I use to listen to the podcast over on Facebook at Grieving Insomniacs. I do receive a small commission if you purchase the product. 

There is a Grieving Insomniacs playlist on Youtube. One playlist is meditations that I enjoy and the second one is music that reminds me of Christopher. Go on over to Youtube and listen to the music playlist. 

Feb 12, 202328:04
Grief and Anger

Grief and Anger

There are elements of grief that we talk about that are considered acceptable such as missing our loved ones, or only memorializing the good memories of our loved ones. Then, the unacceptable parts of grief don't get talked about much. One of those inappropriate topics in grief is anger. My feelings were complicated because I could not accept that I was angry at my son for some of his choices that led to his death. I was angry at his choice to not allow the family to be around or to even talk to him weeks before his death. I found that I could not be angry with him out of fear that I was being disloyal to his memory. 

 After I accepted that he was human and made mistakes. I was able to appropriately feel my anger towards him and work towards resolving it. After resolving it I could work on forgiving him and myself for our mistakes. 

I talk about these topics in an effort to normalize the grief experience and to educate others on the real effects of grief. Losing a child is the worst possible experience that someone can have, but is minimized in our society. It is only through our collective expression of experiences can we change the perceptions of society toward grieving mothers. 

Listen in today as I talk about my experience with grief and anger. Send me a message if you would like to share your thoughts.

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Feb 05, 202330:01
Understanding the differences between Grief, Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Understanding the differences between Grief, Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

In today's episode, I discuss the differences between Grief, Depression, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. At some point, a grieving mom might want to go to counseling. This podcast provides education and insight into how these three disorders differ from each other but are intertwined making diagnosis difficult. Why is diagnosis important? Diagnosis determines treatment and insurance reimbursement.  Listen in as we talk about mental health and the various treatments available.

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

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Jan 22, 202328:46
The story of Hannah from one grieving mom to another.

The story of Hannah from one grieving mom to another.

In today's episode, we have Trudie, Hannah's mother, discussing her experience with losing a child. Trudie tells her story about how she became a grieving mother and the different ways she copes with her grief. It has always been the goal of Grieving Insomniacs to normalize the conversations surrounding the death of our children. This was an opportunity to begin that conversation between two women with similar but different experiences and how a connection with another person can help with the grieving process. 

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. Through the podcast, the culture of silence surrounding the mother's grief will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Jan 17, 202355:40
What does a new year look like for someone experiencing grief?

What does a new year look like for someone experiencing grief?

It's 2023. Everywhere there are posts about new year's resolutions. As I read these posts, memes, and blog posts I began to think about what it means to start a new year for a person, who is grieving. A new year without our loved ones is not a positive thing. We want to hang on to the previous year. We can't possibly imagine another year without them. But time like everything else marches on with or without us. A new year for me means another six months of grief triggers. Another year of making memories without my son. A new year of worries about who will not make it to 2024. Listen in as we discuss how to survive the new year by listening to your heart and intuition. 

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. Through the podcast, the culture of silence surrounding the mother's grief will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.


Jan 08, 202326:34
How to use discernment when evaluating grief quotes and information?

How to use discernment when evaluating grief quotes and information?

In this episode, I talk about the quote " hold on to the love, not the loss". This quote is attributed to Eva Longoria. It came from a podcast where Eva Longoria talked about her divorce. This quote is posted often on different social media platforms and is applied to grief. I believe it is misapplied because going through a divorce and the death of a child or loved one is significantly different. During the episode, I discuss how to use discernment when reading grief quotes and grief information. 

  • Discernment is evaluating the information presented
  1.  by researching the author, 
  2. recognizing that it is an opinion, 
  3. evaluating your reaction
  4. cope with the feelings it evokes
  5. don't like it scroll past it

Biography

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Jan 02, 202330:05
The body remembers.

The body remembers.

This week on Grieving Insomniacs we discuss how the body remembers our grief even when we don't want to. 

The connection between the mind, heart, and gut affects how we experience our grief and how we cope with our grief. Much of the information in this episode comes from the book The Body Keeps Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk M.D.  

According to Dr. Van Der Kolk our mind, gut, and heart are connected via the pneumogastric nerve. The pneumogastric nerve is involved in the expression and management of emotions in humans and animals. This means our emotions are felt viscerally and people will do anything to escape these visceral feelings."  

Grief is visceral meaning that it involves body expression along with cognitive expression of emotion. Listen as we discuss how the body remembers our grief. 

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Dec 27, 202229:39
My secret shame.

My secret shame.

Losing a child is traumatic and the triggers from this trauma last a lifetime. Today, I discuss a significant trigger from my own grief experience that took me down the rabbit hole of grief last week. Not only did I get triggered but all the shame, guilt, and regret I had from Christopher's death was reexperienced all over again.

Getting stuck in grief is a common problem that many people experience when they are grieving. My secret shame was a place where I got stuck for many years. Listen in as I discuss what my secret shame was when Christopher died and why I am coming clean now. 

Biography

 I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Dec 18, 202230:17
The Christmas Blues

The Christmas Blues

Once you experience a traumatic loss such as the loss of a child, Christmas is never the same again. Part of our mourning process is mourning the traditions and experiences that won't be possible anymore without our beloved children. In today's episode, I discuss the current difficulties I am having with the Christmas Blues and ways that I try to cope with this difficult time of year. Listen in on your favorite podcast platform. We are available on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, and Spotify. Please like and subscribe for current notifications of new episodes. 

Biography:

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

I also have a book available on Amazon called the Solitary Journey through the Loss of a Child. It can be purchased here.

 https://www.amazon.com/Solitary-Journey-through-loss-child/dp/151932071X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1539387829&sr=1-1&keywords=the+solitary+journey+through+the+loss+of+a+child


Dec 13, 202230:04
Understanding the concept of privilege in grief.

Understanding the concept of privilege in grief.

Many of my podcast ideas come from my own experiences during the week. This week I spent a significant amount of time thinking about privilege. Privilege is when one group has an advantage over another group. Privilege is not having to worry about health issues because you have always been healthy. Privilege is never having experienced going hungry, being homeless, or not being cared for. Privilege is having your children still alive and walking the face of the earth. How would our cultural conversations surrounding grief change if we talked about the privilege of having your children be present for Thanksgiving and Christmas? Would parents complain less about cooking for Thanksgiving for their adult children or buying them Christmas presents? Would non-grieving people understand us, grievers, better if we discussed our losses in terms of privilege? When my son died I lost my health, my family, and my sense of identity all in one moment of time. People who have not lost these things are privileged. On the flip side of privilege is gratefulness. I am more grateful for what I do have because I lost so much. I would do it all over again even if I lost him again. 

The Grieving Insomaniacs Podcast is available on Anchor, Google Podcasts, and Spotify.

Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message

Dec 04, 202230:01
Do you really need to recover from grief?

Do you really need to recover from grief?

The holidays are always tough for grievers. We spend much of the day wearing a mask around people, then when we are alone feeling the loss of our loved ones acutely.  Thanksgiving begins the holiday season. The holidays were never pleasant when I was growing up and grief has not helped that situation any. I have found unique ways to cope with my grief. One of them is believing that my son communicates with me through signs.  In this episode, I talk about the concept of Recovering from Grief and what that means to me as a grieving mother. When you say I need to recover from my grief. I hear you say that I need to stop missing my son or feeling sad that he is not here. I can't imagine doing that. What is helpful to me is developing a deep connection to him through spirituality. My spirituality is not religious. It is the belief that I can not still have a meaningful relationship with my son even in death. In many ways, this connection to my son has enhanced my connection to myself and helped me see the gifts of grief. I will always be sad. I will always miss my son. I don't believe that is something I need to recover from or heal. 

Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Nov 27, 202229:55
How to get a sign from your deceased loved one?

How to get a sign from your deceased loved one?

Signs from Christopher are an important part of coping with my grief about his death. I have seen and spoken with different people who say they do not have signs from their deceased loved one. When I hear someone say that I feel sad for them. There are three things that I believe get in the way of people receiving signs from a loved one. In the beginning, your grief is internalized within yourself. Your focus is on trying to cope with the pain of losing the loved one. During this time it is hard to pay attention to the environment around you because of this. Secondly, you have to believe that it is possible that you can get signs from your loved one. Several things interfere with this belief system. One is the fear that you might be considered crazy if you believe you can communicate with someone who is deceased. The second one is that several religious belief systems say that communicating with someone who is deceased is wrong. Lastly, you must have faith that it is possible to talk to them. Faith comes first. Many people look for absolute proof then they will believe. It is actually the other way around. You must believe you can first, pick the sign and then look for it. 

Be careful about what you ask for though, because you might get it. Then, you are saying Goodbye again. 

Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Nov 20, 202233:19
The First Thanksgiving after the loss of a child.

The First Thanksgiving after the loss of a child.

It has taken 11 years to be able to talk about the first Thanksgiving after my son died without crying. Every year around the first of November the anxiety and stress surrounding whether I will be alone for the holiday. For some reason, Thanksgiving is the worst holiday for me and my grief. Thanksgiving was my first real experience with the abandonment of family while I was grieving. I thought I was the only one until I started attending support groups for mothers that have lost children. I really didn't want to talk about this, but I feel compelled to. I have found throughout this grief journey that I am not the only one that is having these experiences. The telling of these stories is both painful but so healing. I want to encourage anyone listening that if you want to tell your story. I am listening. I can be that ear for you that so many of us don't have. Listen in, and reach out if you need. 

Biography: 

I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

The Grieving Insomaniacs Podcast is available on Anchor, Google Podcasts, and Spotify.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Nov 13, 202236:57
The ugliness of death.

The ugliness of death.

A listener reached out and told me the following story. Her mother-in-law died two years ago. The mother-in-law's sister reached out on her sister's birthday to complain about how the life insurance policy was divided between the children. This conflict with her mother-in-law's sister devastated her. She was upset because it had been two years. How come it came to a head now? Listen in as we discuss how come this might have happened.

Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving.

It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.

I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.

https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com

It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show.

If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com  or at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.

Nov 06, 202228:08