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Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about grief.

Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about grief.

By Grieving Insomniacs, a podcast about grief
Grieving Insomniacs is a podcast about grief. I was living an average life. Married with two children working as a counselor in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed. My oldest son died unexpectedly. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew grieving moms need support. I created this podcast to help support others, so they are not alone like I was.
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Happiness and grief, can they co-exist?
On today's episode of Grieving Insomanics a podcast about grief, I discuss happiness. Is it possible for someone to be happy after the loss of a child? What happens when a grieving mother does not feel that they are allowed to be happy because their child died? Our society expects perfection from mothers. Any mistake on the part of the mother and the mother is judged immediately and harshly. This is true in grief. Grieving mothers are told we grieve too much or we don't grieve enough. There is no balance. Many grieving mothers including myself feel as if we did something wrong and that is why our children died. I fight this belief system daily within myself. In this episode, I talk about how I am trying to move from the feeling of having to be sad all time to allowing myself to feel happy again.  Bio: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.
27:56
September 25, 2022
Why me? Why him? The mantra of the grieving mother.
This week was an awful week. My family had a health-related emergency of one of our family members that took me down the spiral into my grief. Spinning out of control the fear and anxiety binds your throat and cripples the mind. I overshared at work about grief. I felt vulnerable and afraid of their judgment. I tried to call my dead son. I had that phone in my hand looking for the number before I realized he was dead. That was only day 1 of the awful week. I spiraled all day Thursday holding in my tears. By Friday, I was sick. I left early on Friday only to find another horrible event had happened. I cried for hours asking "Why me?" "Why do these bad things happen to me?". Isn't that the question every grieving parent asks?  The one thing I learned from this week was that grief has robbed me of my ability to cope with these hard bumps in the road.  Listen in as I discuss it. Leave me a message and let me know. Do you cope better now or less after the death of your child? Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message. Advertisements
28:14
September 18, 2022
The changing faces of grief since 09/11
21 years ago the United States witnessed the fall of the twin towers in New York City. As a nation, we were grieving the loss of life that occurred during this event. For years afterward on 09/11 memorials were held for the families that lost loved ones. Tributes were created. This outpouring of grief changed the grief culture in America. Even in the 11 years since my son died, I have seen grief becoming more normalized. In 2011 I did not see the outpouring of grief on Facebook. It is only in recent years on Instagram have I seen where grieving has become acceptable. 09/11/2011 has personal significance to me for it was the first day of my first job as a counselor. Every year as I celebrate my career development and milestones I mourn the loss of innocence that occurred on 09/11. As I recorded the podcast today I discuss the changes I have seen in the grief culture over the last 11 years and the hopes I have for future changes. I made a mistake in the podcast today. It was 21 years ago that I graduated from Chapman University not 22 years ago.  Bio I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.
30:59
September 11, 2022
Mourning ourselves after the death of our children.
Today's episode is about mourning who we once were before death robbed us of our children. When my son died I did not realize that parts of me would die that day too. They were parts of myself that I valued, and appreciated. Over the years I have been angry about it, frustrated about it, and have now moved into acceptance of losing myself. I recently realized that I need to mourn myself too. The me I once was is never coming back. The me I am now is valuable but not the same. I talk about the process of mourning myself and ways to do that while still honoring my sons memory. Bio I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. Leave me a message: https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingoutloud #grievingjourney #grievingprocess #griefclub #grievingparent #grief #griefsupport #griefhealing #griefhurts #griefandloss #griefandlosssupport #griefandhealing #griefandgratitude
28:22
September 04, 2022
Grief changed my relationships.
Two weeks ago I was lucky enough to go to the Pacific Northwest. It was an amazing trip. I swear there was something magical in the air where I was at. Of course, I said that out loud to my peers.  Often times I am not aware that some of the things that I say set me apart as being "different" until I say it. This was one of those times. During this trip, I met some new friends. As we went through the get to know you phase of a new friendship, I experienced a feeling of extreme fear. For the first time since Christopher died, I was allowing myself to be "seen" as I truly was. I keep this facade up all of the time with everyone. It has evolved over time, but it is a place I feel safe. As I processed this experience of allowing myself to be seen, I began to realize how much Christopher's death has changed my relationships with myself and the rest of the world. Listen in as I discuss these changes in today's episode of Grieving Insomniacs.  Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message. #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingoutloud #grievingjourney #grievingprocess #griefclub #grievingparent #grief #griefsupport #griefhealing #griefhurts #griefandloss #griefandlosssupport #griefandhealing #griefandgratitude
36:24
August 28, 2022
Grief anniversaries, are hard. It is the day our life ended and our life as a grieving mom began.
Today's grief episode was inspired by a fellow grieving mom that is experiencing an angelversary. She requested that the podcast be about anniversaries in grief. As I thought about her request, I realized I had not talked about grief anniversaries. These dates are ones that have special meaning for the griever. These dates can be birthdays, the date of death, or the beginning of the illness that killed them. We all cope with anniversaries in different ways. Some of the tools we use to cope are self-care, communication, and ritual. Listen today on Spotify, Google Podcasts, or Apple Podcasts.  Have an idea for a show leave me a message here I was living the average life.  https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs #grievingoutloud #grievingjourney #grievingprocess #griefclub #grievingparent #grief #griefsupport #griefhealing #griefhurts #griefandloss #griefandlosssupport #griefandhealing #griefandgratitude
28:09
August 21, 2022
What do the stages of grief have to do with it?
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross is known throughout the grieving community as the founder of the five stages of grief. Did you know that she actually never intended for her research to be about grief? Her book on Death and Dying was written after conducting interviews with terminally ill patients while she was working at the University of Chicago. She discussed the stages of dying not the stages of grief. Her research has been misapplied to grief for over 4 decades. These stages of grief have now become a part of pop culture. Why does that matter to a grieving mother? Because these stages are how people understand our grief, and relate to our grief. This can cause significant problems in communicating about grief with grievers and non-grievers alike. Listen in as we discuss Elisabeth Kubler Ross's life and how this relates to being a grieving mother.  Biography: I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly from the chemotherapy that was supposed to cure his cancer.  It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.
29:42
August 14, 2022
Understanding why it's so hard to part with your child's clothes when you are grieving.
Today's episode was inspired by my husband, who asked me to talk about why families fight after the funeral over material items. This happened when my son died, and when my husband's parents died. I did some research on Google Scholar and found articles about how our clothing defines who we are. Often times identification with different groups and different decades can be done purely by looking at what someone is wearing. The same can be said about the type of house someone lives in, the type of car they drive, and the neighborhoods people live in. Here in South Dakota, we have plugs attached to our car batteries for wintertime. California doesn't need them. I found an article on Google Scholar that sums up why clothing is important to grieving people. I discuss this article in the context of my own grief experiences and how keeping my son's things was a way to still stay attached to him.  I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs
28:23
August 14, 2022
When medical professionals get grief wrong, and how to respond. Probably not by laughing at them, but that is what I did.
Grieving Insomanics is a podcast about grief. Today we are discussing the medical profession and how they get it wrong about grief. During a medical visit, I was told that I needed to "put my grief down for a little bit" The assumption being that I would feel better not working with grieving parents, or recording my podcasts. I literally laughed in her face. She clearly does not understand grief or the loss of a child. Today, I talk about the unrealistic expectations of non-grievers when it comes to grief. Listen in as I discuss why it is not possible to put "my grief down for a little bit." I was living an average life until June 10. 2011. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly from the treatment of cancer.  Chemotherapy killed him. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.
26:24
July 31, 2022
Are you considering getting a mediumship reading to help you cope with your grief? Learn what to look for on today's podcast.
Grieving Insomanics a podcast about grief. Join us today as we discuss mediumship. Mediums or psychic mediums as they might be called have the ability to communicate with deceased individuals. If you are considering hiring one in an attempt to communicate with your deceased child, there is some information you need to know. You must practice discernment and be open to the information provided. You can not go to a psychic medium and have expectations about what you want to hear. Want to learn more? Listen to today's episode.  I was living the average life. I was married with two children working in a profession that I loved. On June 19. 2011 that life was destroyed and I became another person. My oldest son died unexpectedly. My son did not die from cancer. Chemotherapy killed him. It is a common experience, but I didn’t know that then. I thought that chemotherapy was going to save him. Almost immediately I felt betrayed by my profession because I was a counselor. I should have known how to handle his death. The loneliness started almost immediately. I felt so alone. I stopped sleeping and the people around me began to disappear. I knew I need community. 10 years later I am finally in a place where I am trying to build the community that I so desperately needed when Christopher first died. We can’t change that our children died, but we can help each other through it. Join me in creating a community for grieving mothers to share our stories with each other creating a sacred space for authentic grieving. It is my mission for the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.  #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs
28:21
July 24, 2022
The spiritual crisis in grief.
Nothing makes you question your faith more than the loss of a child. The spiritual crisis that accompanies the death of a child takes many different forms for different people. Some people can turn towards their faith and find support in the fellowship of their various religions. Others like Cristi do not find that support. It is during this darkest time that the burning question "why me?" can become overwhelming. Cristi describes her journey through this crisis of faith and how she came through to the other side with the absolute conviction that life after death is possible. Cristi believes that everyone regardless of faith has a spiritual crisis after the death of their child. For some people, they may move through it quickly for others it may take longer. It is essential that each individual do their own exploration into their own belief systems about faith, about life after death, and use these beliefs to help develop ways to continue the bonds of love with their deceased child.  https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message #grievingmom #grieving #grievingpodcast #griefawareness #grievingmother #podcastforwomen #podcastersofinstagram #grievinginsomniacs
30:25
July 17, 2022
Can you really heal from a grief?
Today Cristi talks about healing from grief. What does it look like and how do you know you are healing. She offers two definitions of healing. Using these definitions she walks the listener through why there needs to be another word for healing when it comes to grief. Healing implies that somehow a person will be made whole after some intervention. Cristi maintains that the only way to become whole again after the loss of the child is to have the child returned to earth. This is not going to happen. Listen in as Cristi discusses the ways that can help move a person forward on the path of grieving.  I had some problems with recording today on my episode. I had to get creative in order to get this out. Also, that is my dog snoring in the background. She insists on being present for all my podcasts and counseling sessions. She is not a therapy dog per se, but she definitely thinks she is.  It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story.  Leave her a message.  Please like and subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, and Spotify.  https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.
35:21
July 11, 2022
Death came to our house again. Lessons learned from my dog crossing the rainbow bridge.
Today's episode is about the lessons I learned from my dog dying last night. I learned that my grief is compartmentalized so well that I can experience two competing emotions at the same time. As the memories of my son's death flooded my mind I was trying to be present for my dog as he passed away. It is in these moments that I learn that grief will be my permanent companion for the rest of my life. It is always there and always present. It is the single most critical thing that non-grievers need to understand. Listen in as Cristi talks about these lessons learned.  It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. If you have questions or concerns, send us a message at grievinginsomiacs@gmail.com or leave us a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message. https://cristihabermann.com/ https://grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com/ Please like and subscribe. #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
26:41
July 03, 2022
Grief and mental health, the secondary losses of being grieving mother.
In this episode, Cristi talks about mental health and grieving. She talks about how in many cases mental health professionals fail grieving mothers in helping them through the grief. She talks about being a mental health professional and experiencing grief. It is the duality of being a griever and mental health professional that gives Cristi a unique perspective of the intersection between grief and mental health. Listen in as she describes the mistakes that many mental health professionals make in trying to help grieving mothers in their grief.  It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://cristihabermann.com/ https://grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com/ Please like and subscribe.   #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
27:12
June 26, 2022
The loss of your physical health while grieving the loss of a child.
In this episode, Cristi discusses the loss of physical health that has occurred after the loss of her child. She discusses her experiences with physicians and their lack of understanding of the connection between the physical, emotional, and spiritual loss that occurs with the death of a child. Cristi believes that there is an energy exchange between the mother and child that exists from the time of conception. This energy exchange fuels "mother's intuition" and allows the mother to have an extra sense when caring for their child. When this energy connection is severed by the death of the child the resulting absence of the energy creates illness. Our genetics determines which illnesses we are susceptible to and the death of a child creates the environment with allows these illnesses to manifest. Listen in as Cristi discusses her theory on why after the death of a child many mothers begin to experience chronic illnesses. Ways to cope with illness are discussed and several book recommendations are made.  It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.   #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief Please like and subscribe on Instagram and Spotfy. 
30:02
June 20, 2022
Secondary losses when grieving the loss of a child.
Secondary losses are a seldom understood aspect of grief. These secondary losses often come as a surprise to both the person experiencing the loss and the people around them. Secondary losses in child loss can include the loss of family, the loss of friends, the loss of physical health, and the loss of mental health. Today, Cristi tells her story about her secondary losses. This is the first episode discussing the loss of family and friends. Cristi describes how she learned through journaling and self-introspection that the crumbling of her belief system after the death of her child led to her realizing that her friends and family did not change. She did. It was the loss of her child that changed how she viewed the world. Listen in and learn about the secondary loss in the loss of a child.  The Grieving Insomaniacs Podcast is available on Anchor, Google Podcasts, and Spotify. Connecting, Caring, and Listening at Grieving Insomanics, a podcast about grief.  It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other. I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com It is our hope that you will like and subscribe to get regular updates on our show. #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
34:39
June 16, 2022
Dreaming in grief provides a bridge between our loves ones and ourselves.
Grief is not something that can be ignored. Grieving people need to talk about their loved ones. Grieving Insomiancs is a podcast that normalizes the experiences of grieving mothers and provides a platform for their stories to be told. It is the mission of the podcast to provide grieving mothers everywhere a safe, sacred space where their grief is accepted. It is through the podcast that the culture of silence that surrounds the grief of the mother will be dismantled, and a culture of support will be created. It is our vision to create a community where we can share our questions, and concerns, and support each other.   Today's episode is about the role of dreams in grief. It can be difficult at times to tell if you are dreaming about your loved one or if it is your loved one coming to visit you in your dreams. As the host describes the dreams she has had about her deceased son, she makes connections to how these experiences can assist the grieving in coping with her their grief. Cristi would love to hear about your dreams. You can email me at grievinginsomanicas@gmail.com or leave her message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message.  Please rate us and leave a review on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Google Podcasts, and Amazon podcasts. Follow grieving insomniacs on Instagram or Facebook.  https://wordpress.com/view/grievinginsomniacs.wordpress.com I am here and I am listening. I am honored to hear your story. #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
18:33
June 05, 2022
The second half of the interview with Matt's mom. We talk about the importance of support of each other while on our grieving journeys.
This is the second part of the interview with Matt's mom.   Her message to all of the grieving parents out there is that support for each other is critically important while on this journey. We also discussed the importance of support for grieving fathers. Thanks again @mattsmom for being willing to come on the podcast and talk about her experiences on the grief journey. Grieving Insomniacs is a podcast about grief, particularly the grief surrounding the loss of a child. We discuss the reality of grief. We get in the trenches and speak about the unspeakable. For many grieving parents, the message we receive is to not talk about our pain and we learn to hide how we feel. This podcast is designed to change this culture of silence surrounding the loss of children and to build hope that one day we can freely share how much we miss our children and need to talk about their memories. #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
34:29
May 30, 2022
An interview with Matt's Mom, a grieving mother who shares her story to help others.
Today on our podcast we interview Matt's mom. I met Matt's mom when she reached out to me on Instagram on a post that I had created when I was missing my son. She is truly an inspiration to others as she travels her own grief journey she offers support to other's along the way. This is the first of a two part interview. We started talking and found that we had many similar experiences in our grief journey. It is my hope that other's who might be listening finding the same kind of support and sharing that I did in creating this episode.  Grieving Insomniacs is a podcast about grief particularly the grief surrounding the loss of a child. We discuss the real about grief. We get in the trenches and speak about the unspeakable. For many grieving parents the message we receive is to not talk about it, and to hide how we feel. This podcast is designed to change this culture of silence surrounding the loss of children and to build hope that one day we can freely share how much we miss our children and need to talk about their memories.  #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
36:56
May 22, 2022
Nightmares and grief, how our nightmares became reality when our children died.
Anniversaries dates such as birthdays, death days, and holidays can trigger nightmares. Listen in as we discuss nightmares in grief. Your host Cristi Habermann discusses nightmares and what it is like waking up every morning realizing that her nightmare has come true. A common nightmare for parents is dreaming that their child died. Try to imagine what it is like waking up every morning and knowing that your nightmare came true. Cristi discusses Edgar Cayce and his use of dreams to make psychic predictions and Raymond Moody who explored near-death experiences and the afterlife. Follow her on Instagram at Grieving Insomanics, or www.cristihabermann.com. Please like and suscribe. 
28:52
May 15, 2022
The use of ritual in Grief
Ritual is an important part of grief. The funeral is a ritual. A wake is a ritual. Did you know that you can cope with grief using ritual. Today, on Grieving Insomanics we talk about creating rituals that help us express our grief. When using ritual before use intention and infuse each element with the love and care that you would express to your loved one if they were alive. Leave me a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message. Let me know what rituals you use to honor your loved ones. Contact me at grieving insomniacs on Facebook and Instagram or www.cristihabermann.com. #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney #podcast #podcastersofinstagram #podcastforwomen #nomorehidinggrief #gettingrealaboutgrief
24:50
May 08, 2022
Coping with Grief on Mother's Day.
In this episode, Cristi talks about Bereaved Mother's Day and Mother's Day. Grief can be triggered at any moment and in any day. She discusses societies' desire to not speak or say the word dead. Many people feel uncomfortable when saying someone's dead. They prefer cliches like "they passed away".  When talking about grief it is imperative that we use words that accurately describe reality. Her son did not pass away. He died. In the conversation she discusses how to cope with the upcoming Mother's Day and self-care. 
28:13
May 01, 2022
Grief and the unfairness of the death of a child.
Episode 4 discusses how unfair death is when you have a child die. It is not fair to the person who died early nor is it fair to the people left behind. Join us in and share your own thoughts about how unfair the death of your child was.  https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message grievinginsomniacs #grieving #grievingmother #grievingprocess #grievingpodcast #grievingmom #grievinginsomniacs #grief #griefjourney
24:07
May 01, 2022
Death, guilt and grieving, why?
This episode is the second in a four-part series of podcasts leading up to Mother's day in which we discuss the role of guilt in grief. There are different types of guilt. A grieving mother may feel guilty because they believed they caused the death of their child or they may feel guilty because they feel they did not fulfill the role of being a good mother. As women, we are socialized as all mighty and the protector of our children. When we fail in our eyes in this role we judge ourselves. It is important that grieving mother understand their early childhood experiences and other traumatic experiences that contribute to their feelings of guilt. Once these experiences are understood in the context of their life the guilt can be managed. This episode discusses the role of acceptance of death and accepting that as grieving mothers we were powerless in the death of children. Listen in as Cristi shares her story and encourages others on their journey to coping with grief.   Leave me a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message
29:00
May 01, 2022
Grief, and guilt in the death of a child.
Hi, I am Cristi Habermann, the host of Grieving Insomanics a podcast about grief. In 2011 I lost my oldest son to cancer when he was 25 years old. Immediately, upon his death, I felt guilty about everything I could have, would have, or should have done. The guilt and shame I felt about his death became my constant companion. It is a subject that is whispered but never fully acknowledged in child loss. This first episode in a series titled Mom's guilt explores the definitions of grief and shame and the role of childhood experiences in the ability to cope with the death of a child. Cristi uses her own experiences to encourage others to get real about their grief. It is only through sharing our grief stories that the culture of silence surrounding the loss of a child will be changed. Cristi uses the #nomorehidinggrief as a way to encourage an open expression of grief surrounding the loss of a child for as long as a person chooses. Grieving a child is not complicated, nor is it a mental illness. It is an open expression of love. 
28:56
May 01, 2022
Grief, and Guilt, how to cope
Guilt is one of the most complex issues in grief. Our life experiences shape how we experience grief, and what types of guilt we have surrounding the loss of a child. This episode discusses the role of radical self-acceptance of ourselves when it comes to grief. Not only does the host Cristi Habermann discuss self-acceptance she discusses the role of acceptance in grief. When a person accepts that death is something they were powerless over, there is freedom. It relieves a person of the burden of believing they could, have, and would have done something different to prevent death. Cristi discusses the use of Reality Therapy by Albert Ellis, and EMDR to promote brain healing in grief. Leave Cristi a message at https://anchor.fm/grievinginsomniacs/message and tell her what you think. Like and subscribe to hear more. Follow her on Instagram and Facebook at Grieving Insomniacs. Check her out at www.cristihabermann.com 
27:37
May 01, 2022
The identity crisis after the death of a child.
One of the major struggles after the loss of a child is the impact the death has on the identity of the mother. A grieving mother struggles with how to answer questions about "How many children do you have?" "Where do your children live?" These simple questions become triggering landmines in the journey through grief. Listen in and hear how one mother worked through the identity crisis after the loss of her adult son. If you are a grieving mother, listen and get support for your struggles in grief. If you love a grieving mother, this podcast will provide the listener with ideas on how to help the grieving mother.  
25:08
March 27, 2022
Episode 2 Abnormal reaction to grief or not?
Welcome to Grieving Insomniacs. A podcast for grieving mothers by a grieving mother. In this episode, we talk about people's reactions to when you tell them your child has died. We continue the story of the narrator's journey through having to hear the words "your child died" and the natural reactions that occur from hearing that.  If you know someone that has lost a child or lost a child this podcast is for you. It will help you navigate your way through the difficult moments and conversations surrounding grief.  Thank you for showing up. I am glad you are here. 
34:58
March 09, 2022
In the beginning there was death.
Welcome to Grieving Insomniacs episode one. All grief begins with a death. Tonight, I am telling the story of how I became a grieving mother, and how those experiences have shaped the last ten years of my life.  Listen in with me as we create our community by sharing our stories. I am honored you are here. 
22:03
February 28, 2022
Introduction to the Grieving Insomniacs.
An introduction to the Grieving Insomniacs podcast. A podcast about grief. Listen to see how you can share your stories, questions, or comments with me about grief. Listen to how I and others have survived the devastation of losing someone they loved to death. Listen to us on all your favorite podcasts sites.  grievinginsomniacs@gmail.com grieving insomniacs on Facebook and Instagram
05:24
February 21, 2022