Introversion

Happy new year?!  Okay it's perhaps a little too late for that, but oh well... it's been a happy new year for me thus far, and I hope for you as well.  

Today I am finally back with the Introversion podcast, although kind of putting this baby to rest... as I share my realization as to what this podcast IS... and ISN'T.  As much as I may have had some lofty aspirations for it in the past, I've realized that this podcast, at the end of the day, is really just for *me*... a place to vent, to pontificate, to get ideas out of my head and out there into the ether, where I can reflect on experiences and explore ideas, etc.  I've realized that there really is no "target audience" for this podcast, hence... it only makes sense that this would never explode / go viral, etc... doing long form rambling about what's on my mind while living amongst a Tik Tok generation of 10-second attention spans.  Yeah... this was never really gonna "work".  Although, depends how you define "work".  If it's worked *for me* (and me alone), well... that's something at least.  It helped me retain *some* level of sanity throughout 2020, but hey... we're well beyond that point now.  It's 2023.  I need to let go and move on... and this is what today's episode is all about.  

For any of you who have read this far and care about this podcast, I hope you've enjoyed it on some level this past 3 years, but alas... this will now be a total sideshow for me... just a place where I can occasionally post some thoughts about life, society, etc... but I cannot afford to put more time into this, when there are OTHER things I really should be prioritizing.  Speaking of which...  

A lot has transpired in Irina's life since last we spoke on the Introversion podcast a year+ ago. Today she gives us an update...

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I've been infected by World Cup Fever this past couple weeks... hence I've fallen behind on pretty much EVERY aspect of my life.  Been enjoying the games, but... with my black pill heart, it's not like the good old days. 

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Today I actually dare to question the wisdom of Yoda's "Do or do not... there is no try."

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I may have underestimated the power & significance of introversion (being introverted), as well as underestimated the lack of knowledge that extroverts have about us introverts. Now that I've been "going out" a lot more this past few weeks, it's dawning on me just how very super introverted I (still) am, despite having developed all my social skills and confidence and "I don't give a f*ck" attitude this past few years.

It's not just that I *want* time to myself, it's that I fundamentally *need* time to myself.  I reckon this is the case for most all introverts, and it's something extroverts need to understand & respect.

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Sucks to be ghosted... *especially* by a BFF.  How do you (best) carry on when you've invested so much of yourself in a person, or two, or three, and then all the sudden they're no longer in your life?

Although it may have worked for a time, I'm starting to realize that spreading my metaphorical water out across many many small cups may not be the best way for me to move forward *today*. Perhaps it's time to consolidate most or all of my water into one cup. Question is, what should that one cup be?

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I finally popped my cherry... performed stand-up comedy at my first ever open mic this past Saturday in NYC!  In this episode I share about that experience + talk about the struggle (especially for us introverts) with continually reaching out to people. It's exhausting, and often not rewarding, but what is the alternative... more social isolation and reclusive lifestyles?

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Picking up where I left off with "Easy Come, Easy Go"... it's been grey days here in Philadelphia this past week, and yet some positive social developments and a couple things on the horizon (other than women & dating) to give me reason to remain steadfast & disciplined.

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Was a rather interesting week as I matched with 3 actually *attractive* girls on the dating apps. Immediate potential with one of them in particular, but well... you see the title of the episode: "Easy Come, Easy Go". Here's how things went down... 

Yeah it's been a minute, but I'm BACK... and with added CLARITY about where I'm taking the Introversion podcast. I'm foreseeing a nice balance of confidence & vulnerability between Introversion and FMAO. And not just with juggling podcasts, but I explore the notions of confidence & vulnerability with regard to dating & relationships... the upsides & downsides of being vulnerable.