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It’s Not All Rainbows: Surviving Abusive LGBTQIA+ Relationships

It’s Not All Rainbows: Surviving Abusive LGBTQIA+ Relationships

By Lindsay Goodman

It's Not All Rainbows is a podcast hosted by Lindsay Goodman, a trauma recovery coach & survivor of narcissistic abuse in a queer relationship. Many licensed professionals have called narcissistic abuse "the most severe form of domestic violence" and yet, most survivors of this insidious abuse suffer behind closed doors. Most people, including mental health practitioners and first responders do not understand what this type of abuse can look like and how it can affect survivors. INAR will explore different aspects of narcissistic abuse, how to get out, and how to begin your healing journey.
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Why Does My Abuser Look SO Happy!?

It’s Not All Rainbows: Surviving Abusive LGBTQIA+ Relationships Apr 17, 2024

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Why Does My Abuser Look SO Happy!?

Why Does My Abuser Look SO Happy!?

In this episode I talk about why abusive people LOOK so happy after your relationship with them ends.

Website: thelindsaygoodman.com

1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Apr 17, 202417:53
You Only Like it the way I Do It: Gaslighting & Sex

You Only Like it the way I Do It: Gaslighting & Sex

In this episode, I talk about how some abusive people will tell you that you won't like sex with anyone else. Why do they say this? Is it true?

Website: thelindsaygoodman.com

1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Mar 20, 202414:32
Why Does My Abuser Always Walk in Front of Me?

Why Does My Abuser Always Walk in Front of Me?

In this episode, I talk about what it can look like when your "partner" is always walking in front of you, and why an abusive person might do that.

Mar 13, 202419:56
Do You REALLY Know Your Abuser?

Do You REALLY Know Your Abuser?

In this episode I talk about how we can't really know our abusers because they most likely don't even know who THEY are.

Mar 06, 202419:59
AM I Healing?

AM I Healing?

In this episode I talk about how sometimes, as you continue to heal from abuse, you might even start to miss moments of testament to your healing and why that's a wonderful thing.

Feb 28, 202417:37
Did You Notice Things Change When Their New "Partner" Came Around?

Did You Notice Things Change When Their New "Partner" Came Around?

In this episode I talk about some little things you might notice when someone starts dating a potentially abusive person.

Feb 21, 202416:49
Valentine's Day and Abuse

Valentine's Day and Abuse

In this episode I talk about several scenarios that might go down on Valentine's Day, or any special day, with an abusive person.

Feb 14, 202416:48
Do They REALLY Like the Same Things as You?

Do They REALLY Like the Same Things as You?

In this episode I talk about how an abusive person can pretend to be everything you are/have so much in common with you, at least for a short while...

Feb 07, 202418:07
Mysterious Physical Issues?

Mysterious Physical Issues?

In this episode I talk about some of the mysterious physical issues I experienced while being abused and how YOUR "mysterious" issues might not be so mysterious. Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Jan 03, 202419:43
When You Try to Leave and Abusive Person

When You Try to Leave and Abusive Person

In this episode I talk about a few of the times I attempted to leave my abuser and how eventually I learned (was trained) not to even try to leave. TRIGGER WARNING: physical abuse


Website: thelindsaygoodman.com

1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Dec 27, 202323:28
Using Finances to Control You
Dec 21, 202318:54
Abusers Will Use Helplessness to Control You

Abusers Will Use Helplessness to Control You

In this episode, I talk about how abusive people will use your helplessness (which they will bring out in you) to control you.Website: thelindsaygoodman.com1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Dec 13, 202315:26
Abusers Will Tell on Themselves

Abusers Will Tell on Themselves

In this episode, I talk about how quite often abusive people will tell on themselves. It's very hard to keep up with all the lies they tell, and if you pay attention, they'll give themselves away! Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Dec 06, 202317:36
EPISODE 100! What Have I Done Since Episode One?

EPISODE 100! What Have I Done Since Episode One?

In this episode, I talk about 100 things I've done since I started recording and sharing this podcast with you! Just kidding, that would take too long, but I talk about a few of the big things! Thank you for being on this journey with me. Website: thelindsaygoodman.com1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

In this episode, I talk about 100 things I've done since I started recording and sharing this podcast with you! Just kidding, that would take too long, but I talk about a few of the big things! Thank you for being on this journey with me. Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman







Nov 29, 202322:09
Am I A Fool for Not Knowing it was Abuse Sooner?

Am I A Fool for Not Knowing it was Abuse Sooner?

Many people tell me they feel like a fool for not recognizing the abuse sooner. In this episode, I talk about why it doesn't make sense for us to feel that way! Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Nov 22, 202318:04
Traumaversaries!
Nov 15, 202316:20
They’re ALREADY Dating Someone Else! Noooooo!
Nov 08, 202321:55
Why Should I Stay Single After Abuse?

Why Should I Stay Single After Abuse?

In this episode I talk about several reasons why it's so important to not rush into another relationship, especially after abuse (I KNOW you don't want to hear this but it's important)! Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman


Nov 01, 202320:10
PET THAT DOG! Pets in Abusive Relationships

PET THAT DOG! Pets in Abusive Relationships

In this episode, I talk about two reasons why I DON'T pet the dog in my viral birthday video (here: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8rqpPKS/). Pets are used as pawns in relationship and here I dive into what that can look like for a victim.


Website: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman


1:1 coaching/group coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman


Oct 25, 202320:40
TWO YEARS NO CONTACT Q&A
Oct 18, 202330:08
Do You Mistake the Push-Pull for Love?

Do You Mistake the Push-Pull for Love?

In this episode I talk about how so many of us confuse the push-pull abuse dynamic with love and why it is NOT love. Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Oct 11, 202319:40
Triangulation
Oct 04, 202316:16
Abusive People Will Come Between You and Your Kids

Abusive People Will Come Between You and Your Kids

In this episode I talk about how an abusive person may try to sever the connection between you and your kids and I give several examples of what that can look like. I'll also dive into why they do this insidious abuse tactic. website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching: thelindsaygoodman.com/thelindsaygoodman

Sep 27, 202318:40
Things Have Gotten Better! Should I Stay?
Sep 20, 202316:11
Retraining Your Brain After Abuse
Sep 13, 202320:31
Recovering From Child Abuse (by Proxy)
Sep 07, 202322:15
Mysterious Physical Issues?
Aug 30, 202318:05
They're Suddenly Being SO Nice!
Aug 23, 202312:10
Dating Green/Red Flags (with Kids)

Dating Green/Red Flags (with Kids)

In this episode I go over some of the green and red flags to look for when dating when children are involved (but honestly this can apply without children too). Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Aug 09, 202324:34
Covert Abuse in a Viral Video
Aug 09, 202317:06
Is it Bad That I'm Grieving my Abuser?

Is it Bad That I'm Grieving my Abuser?

In this episode I talk about grief. Often we feel (or society makes us feel) like we shouldn't be grieving for someone who has harmed us so terribly. Let's talk about it!Website: thelindsaygoodman.com1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Aug 02, 202316:21
Abuse in LGBTQ+ Relationships
Jul 26, 202323:36
Help! I Want to go No Contact but I Don't Want to Hurt THEM!

Help! I Want to go No Contact but I Don't Want to Hurt THEM!

In this episode I talk about the survivor tendency to be hesitant to go no contact with our abuser. I'll talk you through some of the considerations and hopefully help get you off the fence and on the road to recovery. Website: thelindsaygoodman.com 1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Jul 19, 202316:15
Do We HAVE to Forgive Them to Heal?

Do We HAVE to Forgive Them to Heal?

In this episode I talk about the idea that we have to forgive our abuser in order to heal. Is it required? is there something else that can help instead? Website: thelindsaygoodman.comIG & TT: lindsaygoodmancoaching1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Jul 12, 202316:58
Is My Partner a Narcissist?
Jul 10, 202307:01
Abusive People Will Find Ways to Keep You Attached

Abusive People Will Find Ways to Keep You Attached

In this episode I talk about ways abusive people will find little things that keep the two of you "attached." You can't go no contact because you're always still waiting for this or that to be resolved. They don't want it to be resolved for a reason.


Website: thelindsaygoodman.com

1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Jul 05, 202314:03
Monday Mini: No Contact in a Nutshell

Monday Mini: No Contact in a Nutshell

In this episode, I talk about some of the things that helped me go no contact and speed up my own healing journey.
Jul 03, 202308:30
Is THIS Physical Abuse?

Is THIS Physical Abuse?

In this episode I talk about physical abuse and what actually "counts" as physical abuse. There is so much more than we as a society understand as physical abuse.


Website: thelindsaygoodman.com


1:1 coaching/LGBTQ Support Group: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

Jun 28, 202320:14
Monday Mini: You Can SHOP for Therapists/Coaches

Monday Mini: You Can SHOP for Therapists/Coaches

And this Monday Mini, I talk about your option to shop for the right therapist. You do not have to work with the first person who comes along.
Jun 26, 202309:37
STONEWALLING
Jun 21, 202316:08
Attachment Issues or Abuse?
Jun 14, 202323:39
MONDAY MINI “I’ll never leave you”

MONDAY MINI “I’ll never leave you”

On this Monday mini episode, I talk about how often abusive people will say things like “I’ll never leave you” and why they say it.
Jun 12, 202305:06
What's Yours is THEIRS
Jun 07, 202318:23
MONDAY MINI: CPTSD Flashbacks
Jun 05, 202308:15
Post Separation Abuse
May 31, 202318:11
Sharing My "Escape Plan"
May 24, 202319:34
Power Imbalances in Abusive Relationships

Power Imbalances in Abusive Relationships

In this episode, I talk about some of the things that can contribute to power imbalances in abusive relationships, especially those those that are less obvious to society. Power imbalances are an essential tool in abusive relationships.Website: thelindsaygoodman.com1:1 coaching: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

May 17, 202314:37
INAR Monday Mini: Success Double Standards

INAR Monday Mini: Success Double Standards

In today’s Monday Mini, I talk about how an abusive person can react to YOUR success vs how they expect you to react to their minor achievements.
May 15, 202306:13
Did You Lose Your Ability to Make Decisions?

Did You Lose Your Ability to Make Decisions?

In this episode, I talk about how often in abusive relationships, survivors lose their ability to make decisions, both big and small.

May 10, 202318:20
Abusive People May Use Your Struggles to Abuse You

Abusive People May Use Your Struggles to Abuse You

In this episode I talk about how abusive people may use your struggles to abuse you. Any struggles (mental/physical/financial) that you came into the relationshiop with or any that pop up during the relationship are fair game.


Website: thelindsaygoodman.com


1:1 coaching/LGBTQ Support Group: calendly.com/thelindsaygoodman

May 03, 202320:48