Making Love with the Muse

In November last year I went to a Family Constellations workshop. If you haven't been, it's a healing modality which involves mapping out your family dynamics using other people in the group. When it was my turn, I was shown how I'd been neglecting my inner masculine in favor of my wildly creative, idealistic "PHWOAR" feminine. I'd been so wrapped up in dreaming a new world into being, I forgot I needed a bridge to bring it to life in the world.

Unsurprisingly, I had a few physical symptoms - a pterygium on my left eye and an overgrowth of candida - that pointed to an over-active feminine. I was also outsourcing a sense of support, as you'll hear in this episode, by dating more and more men, even though I knew (deep down) a new intimate relationship isn't actually what I wanted or needed. Men were stepping in to play this role temporarily, but they weren't a match for my vision or real standards.

When I tuned into my inner masculine (poor guy) He had this to say... I’m here to love you, unconditionally. Lean on This, the as the Source of your Love. Fill up with Me, first. Then you’ll go into the world, overflowing.

The masculine is the embodiment of all the things I know and love about the men in my life; their wisdom, strength and ability to push through and hold strong, regardless of the circumstances. When they're working together (my masculine and feminine), I can live and create with security, and a solid foundation. All parts of me are on the same team. I can just sparkle and shine, because I Am always there, appreciating me.

It's hard to rely on something that feels unstable and shaky. As you'll hear, I've had to train myself to make going within my default and train this part of myself to come through.

When I was a part of a Christian church, I remember connecting with Jesus (an archetypal representation of the Divine masculine) and then feeling so mad at myself when things didn't work out. Did I not pray hard enough? Did I get distracted and miss a clue? Am I not really hearing the voice of God? Ironically, I have a little more Grace with this part of myself now as it comes back online, recognizing - as much as it Knows All - it's on a learning journey. (#paradox)

I also had to break a spell from a New Age teaching along the way that said allowing and training this part of myself meant I'd repel masculine men, because... polarity??? Obviously, this played into a deep-seated fear I'd never end up with a soulmate (the fear that, ironically, had me seeking out this teaching in the first place) and that my safety was somehow derived from proximity to men. (#patriarchy)

Thankfully, I've been looking through the illusion, and have come to understand wholeness is where it's at. The more I connect to and rely on this part of myself, the more the "absence" I was seeking to fill has disappeared along with - honestly, still a little surprising - my desire to date.

If this vibes, reach out. I'd love to hear your journey with this. What relationship do you have with the part of you that knows, that protects, that comes through? Do you feel believed in, supported and provided for? Send me a DM or leave a comment. Jae

I used to have this fantasy someone would discover all my work one day and publish it for me. The reality is, it's my responsibility to share what I create with the world. That's why, in the middle of a conversation with my Self in the car, I grabbed my phone and hit record on this episode. It was one of those times when honoring the value of what I have to say, is more important than having all the fancy equipment and premium audio quality.

This episode is about how to let go of unmet expectations. You know, all those things you thought would happen by now? The things you're secretly getting salty over and letting brew in your subconscious? The same things that are now leaking out and bashing you around. "Do more" "Be better" "If you had've done it like this, then we'd probably have that by now." Yeah, it's incredibly annoying. These beliefs are probably keeping you stuck in a holding pattern, stopping you from seeing the incredible experiences and opportunities that are already all around you right now.

If you derive your entire sense of self from your achievements, more specifically, the things you haven't achieved yet but want to, this episode is for you. If you have a hard time trusting Life and believing things are working out in your favor, this episode is for you. If you care more about how other people see you, than how you feel and live your Life, this episode is for you.

The book I reference is called "The Surrender Experiment" by Michael A. Singer.

You are a worthwhile human. Your contributions to the world are valuable, and you are worthy of respect. Not just in ten years when you do all the things you want to do, right now. What you thought would happen is a tiny subset of what you're capable of. You didn't miss your chance, blow your shot or mess it up. You ARE good enough.

Stop getting lost in the fantasy of how things could have been and learn how to navigate the experience in front of you. It's safe to let go of the expectations you had about how things should be, and finally see what's been there all along.

I got up at 4 a.m. to record this episode. That always seems to be the way with Madelain; calling me out of a deep sleep, and into the land of darkness before daylight, where only a few are awake and truly living.
Mads - as I call her - has been a mentor, friend and guide through the wilderness as I traversed some of the most difficult terrain I have encountered. She has helped me unlock my authentic voice, liberate my psyche and call home the pieces of myself I rejected. This is a broad, and also incredibly localised conversation. We cover a lot, but also barely anything at all. Among other things, we talk about... Mads' upbringing in a religious cult & how it relates to covid, mind control & being a savvy consumer, how company power structures often unwittingly favour dominance and submission, and (as a coach) how to spot when you're enabling someone to get your own needs met, rather than genuinely showing up to serve them.
Feel like you're digging a hole rather than building a kingdom (putting endless time and energy into something with little to no yield)? We also touch on how culture conditions us to create from a "lack" place and how to re-wire your psyche to acknowledge your own innate value and brilliance. I recorded this episode in a period of struggle. When it comes to re-alignment, Mads is one of the best. We ended up working together again for another six months after this conversation, and I barely have to glance at the notes from one of our calls, for something to jump out that puts me straight back into a place of curiosity, play and a relaxed sense of awe, wonder and delight at this whole "Life, experience". I am a little freaked out by this episode. I think that's a good thing.
In a culture where the pressure to be "someone" is ever-present, I think you'll find Mads' attitude and outlook on life, a much-needed relief. You can connect with Madelain on Facebook and Instagram - Madelain Burgoyne.

7KY (pronounced Sky) is a producer, composer, and singer-songwriter. Making music consistently since he was twelve, he is now opening the gates of his creative kingdom to reveal the fruits of his labour to the world. In his words, "I'm trying to launch this ship into space." In his first-ever podcast interview, we chat about creating with Soul in a soulless industry, using creativity to manifest and blowing people's minds with new sounds and pure frequency. For Sky, our world is smack bang in the middle of a musical renaissance, and he's determined to break through the cultural monotone and, "blast music that wakes people up and gets them ready for the day." His latest song EDC is about to drop, and he is releasing a song a week for the next five weeks. You can follow along with his journey on all the socials @earthto7ky. He loves DM's on Instagram. We'd love to hear from you. Let us know what inspired you in the comments. "I need to go shine now." - 7ky. Intro music by Joel Sunny, In This Shirt.

Ever felt like your creative process is WAY harder than it needs to be? If your creativity is feeling stifled and strained, it could be because conflicting subconscious desires are draining your energy and keeping you stuck in a loop. In this episode, I share how I was finally able to finish the book I'd been working on for seven years, by clearing up my motives for creating it. I invite you to dive deep into WHY you make what you make and ask the key questions to unlock your outdated subconscious compulsions and bring them back into alignment with the whole. If you're sick of getting in your own way, this one is for you. Ready to debug your creative process, and release more of your own energy by acknowledging your intentions? Listen in, and enjoy the ride. If you love this episode, leave a review and share it with a friend.

Ever wondered why you're so afraid of being who you really are, and showing up wholeheartedly in the world? It might be because you haven't yet learnt how to have your own back. Never fear! This started out as a casual chat and turned into an EPIC transmission on how to hold yourSelf in the face of other people's projections. Make sure you listen til' the end, subscribe and leave a review letting me know what you thought.

I am so excited to be joined in this episode by one of my beautiful girlfriends - Tegan Cork. Tegan is a psychosomatic self-love coach. She inspires, guides and supports pioneers of change into lives of empowerment, pleasure and purpose, by calling us out of frustration and pain - and back into the wisdom of our bodies. I am so excited for you to receive her wisdom. You can check out more of her work over on Instagram - @tegancork.

Ever felt caught out, unable to express what's alive for you in the moment? Ever feel like you need to modulate yourself so you don't upset or disappoint others? In this episode, we dive deep into the tension that arises when inner authentic expression meets with external conditioning and the keys to unlocking your truth no matter what is happening or who is around you. It's a process, and it doesn't happen overnight. Like this episode? Subscribe and leave a review below. 

In the first ever solo episode of Making Love with the Muse, I talk about why I created it, what it means to me and what you can (or cannot) expect from the show.

Keezia Leigh is a business alchemist & self-expression activist. She guides badass women to unlock their feminine magic. She’s here for it all. The depths, the heights, far reaching corners of our human experience and the magic in the mundane. She is a social media personality, honest AF woman, and a leader on a mission to see 100 million women fully expressed in her lifetime.

Tashka waves spirit into sound. She has a special gift in initiating people into their creative calling and amplifying their impact in the world. Her breath of experience spans over 20 years through many cultures and contexts, and she fuses science, sound therapy, quantum visualization and tantric self pleasure in her sessions to create profound results in moving energy through the body. Tashka's work helps us to activate our superhuman selves.

Kylie is an exotic empowerment coach who's vision is to bring love, light and consciousness into the sex and adult entertainment industry.

She works mainly with the women of sex industry however, she's also here to serve men and women in reconnecting them to their sexuality so they can call in the life they choose.

Kylie has been a sex worker for 5 years and she's motivated to serve those who participate in this very misunderstood industry to create an empowering new paradigm that relieves guilt and shame and replaces it with the beautiful power of the life-force energy that created us all.

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