Welcome to the podcast One Inch Past Scary where I talk about going one inch past safe, stuck, and scared to leave behind habits and limiting beliefs in order to grab all the good stuff that's been ready and waiting for you. In this podcast I talk candidly and hopefully about healing from PTSD and taking claim of a joyful life. Practical, proven concepts, encouragement, tried and true tips are always included. I believe that no matter how dark things are, you should laugh. Because you don't laugh you will cry. And nobody likes to be a crybaby.
Long distance running is the perfect metaphor for life. Here are some of the most important nuggets of truth and wisdom I have gleaned on my long runs which anyone can apply to the Marathon of Life. Alternatively titled: I run long so you don’t have to ;)
In this episode I talk about the simple epiphany I recently had which instantly allowed me to become drastically more resilient to former triggers, far less affected by the actions of others, and infinitely more confident in my ability to handle whatever life may bring.
In this episode I talk to my Brazilian Jiu Jitsu/MMA teacher and friend Joe Garcia about the mentality of being a fighter and how the lessons from the ring (and before and after) synch up perfectly with anything we are facing in our life. We also talk about my experience with using BJJ as therapy for PTSD and what I gained from going One Inch Past Scary and being embraced by a Fight Club Family.
In this episode Ben who will be 21 in a couple of weeks speaks candidly of his struggles with perfectionism, burden of being a habitual high achiever and the ensuing depression and burnout he experienced in college. With his life in a state of hedonistic disarray, m and his attitude apathetic at best, he signed on for an intense summer job of field coursework in the Mojave desert. There he struggled with anxiety and Imposter Syndrome and resolved to give up before even starting. Instead he made a drastic mental adjustment and literally overnight began discovering reserves of strength and coping skills he forgot he had and a renewed zest for life and sense of direction as well as a deep testimony of the gift of vulnerability.
The next episode in my series of “What If” questions.: What if you stopped trying to control your life and instead chose to participate in it? A lesson in radical acceptance of WHAT IS and how it’s healing and changing me, recharging my physical energy, my relationships, (and helping me to be the parent I wish my kids had always had). I surprised myself by crying (with joy!) in this one.
A year ago my friend Jennifer Knowles made a simple set of 4 daily goals to make the most of her Summer. This quickly exploded into a 1000+ person strong incredibly active online community which is making a profound difference in countless lives. Based on radical kindness with Mr Rogers as their mascot this group is changing the world in the best possible way. Prepare to be inspired!
Are you paralyzed by the fear of criticism? Are you stuck in life and not progressing the way you should because you are terrified of being “caught” in your imperfections? Are you waiting to be “enough” of something before you put yourself or your work out there? It’s a trap! Asking myself this second “What If”question and implementing these mindset adjustments has freed me up to do my thing and respect myself so much more,
I was wallowing in insecurity and fear of failure when I woke up and wrote a question to myself in my journal. I answered it and within that same day my life had completely changed in trajectory. Does that sound like clickbait bullshit?! The good news is that it’s totally true and can work equally well for you too!
How being vulnerable and making human connections with total strangers helped me through some tough spots recently and some strategies for asking for help and being vulnerable while protecting yourself.
My podcast baby turns one today and I have big plans for it as a toddler! ALSO!!! Do you have anxious sensations which lead to negative thoughts which quickly lead to downward spirals? This one is for you!
Are you in the driver's seat of your life or are you at the mercy of moods and motivation? Here are some of my tried and true tips for effectively negotiating with your sometimes bratty, sometimes frightened, sometimes just OVER IT inner child to keep it safely strapped in its car-seat and allow you to the freedom to drive your own life . Practical ideas for pushing past fear, apathy and inertia, to get the results you want out of yourself.
Any growth, healing and major accomplishment requires us to look ahead and commit to the process. But we also have to be ready and willing to move “one inch past scary”. In this episode, I talk about a couple of recent experiences where I used intentional (and slightly scary) methods to break lifelong patterns and reach the next level in both my healing and my goals.
Do you have a sense of being stuck and unable to get out of your own way? Do you sense that you could be doing more with your life? Maybe you are trapped in the cycle of addiction or feeling helplessly weighed down by depression and anxiety. Do you start a lot of things and never finish or are you maybe too afraid to even start, or even to dream if more? It’s shockingly common and there are scientific ways to overcome it. This episode talks about why we do this and gives helpful concrete steps for overcoming these cycles. Life is short, let’s break the self defeating cycles and get on with it! It’s not very complicated once you figure out where it’s all coming from!
My 18 year old son Gabe chats with me about what he’s learned so far about life, and what he has found valuable in his upbringing. Kids don’t come with personalised manuals, and none of us have all the right answers but Gabe is doing alright so far, and I think his wisdom is well worth listening to whether you are a parent, a teen or anything before, after or in between. I’m really super glad to call him ours. (We discuss home culture/environment/supporting your kids’ dreams (and not), social media, addictions, depression and the upsides of a big family living in a small house.
The holiday season can be difficult for many people but it can be notoriously painful for people who have experienced trauma. Practical ideas for how to proactively recognise and manage triggers for yourself and others you may gather with this season. I include many tips for handling stress, depression and anxiety in general during this intense season. This is for anyone and everyone who wants to have a happier and more functional year end regardless of whether you choose to celebrate or not.
My awesome friend Doug Lang and I chat about how to be a helpful support to people when they reach out to us in crisis. Doug was such a stalwart, creative super support to me during the worst phase of my PTSD. We also talk about the importance of taking care of ourselves, and how to create boundaries to avoid helper burnout.
Holly Hinckley and I have been acquainted for years but our relationship really became cemented as I became increasingly public and even vitriolic on social media about the Mormon faith after I left it. I lost most of my Mormon friends during this time which was not unexpected nor surprising but it was and continues to be painful. I was increasingly intrigued though as I watched Holly remain steadfast in her affection and interactions toward me. She didn't unfriend, she never unfollowed. She never had an angry retort. What was weird is that nobody I knew had higher personal stakes in the Mormon church than her. Her beloved grandfather was world famous and popular LDS Prophet Gordon B.Hinckley, Mormonism's equivalent of Pope Francis. Her great grandfather was head of LDS Business College. Her father has always held prominent positions in the church. Holly herself is a returned missionary and devout member of the faith. I reached out to express my gratitude for her friendship and ask her how she managed to maintain it given how angry and relentless I have been in decrying the church and it's leaders. In this conversation we talk about that, about maintaining relationships despite huge differences in beliefs (she married into a non Mormon family) her time spent in my Homeland, her parenting, and what it was like growing up as "Mormon royalty". I hope you will find this episode as fun, informative, helpful and life affirming as I did.
In this episode I cover some major points of progress for me recently in my recovery from C-PTSD. I’m also talking about how my debilitating and abject phobia of facing the reality of my abuse has been replaced with the ability to observe it objectively and cope with it fearlessly and constructively.
A conversation with my friend Jen about our opposite experiences starting and ending in Ohio respectively with us meeting in the middle in the African Kingdom of Swaziland when we were 18. We talk about the gift of travel, it can change the entire trajectory of your life no matter what your age , surviving and enjoying parenting by becoming accepting of pain and discomfort and how going to a college dive bar together fulfilled one of my lifelong ambitions. This conversation covers it all and was so much fun. Jen is wit and wisdom personified and I know you will find a nugget to enrich and enhance your life in this one!
A conversation with my new friend Diane Nielsen, who was perfectly happy and unquestioning in her role of being a devout, believing “perfect Mormon wife and mother” until her husband (also a devout member from a highly prominent Mormon family), decided to brush up on his study of church history. As Diane joined him in that quest she found a lot that didn’t add up. She was also told by her Bishop to divorce her husband rather than be “led astray by him”. This is her story of navigating her sudden loss of faith free-fall, falling out of grace with the Mormon community (where they had been shining stars) and finding themselves happy and whole at the end of it. Do not miss Diane’s poignant and hilarious Hop on Pop Conference talk parody at the end. Never Mormons, faithful Mormons and ex-Mormons alike should find this one enlightening and fun.
Abuse victims are often subject to secondary abuse when they reveal the truth to a source they should be able to trust. My experience with the devastating consequences of that over the years, and why I ultimately felt forced to expose my abusive parents publicly. This is an important episode for survivors and allies alike.
Childhood development expert and one of my best friends Cindi Baum talks to me about how she creates a peaceful, intentional classroom. I modelled much of my home environment with a batch of little kids and my child rearing ethos on her methods after watching her introduce 4/5 my kids to the wonderful world of learning!
I received confirmation of my resignation from the LDS (Mormon) church this week and it stirred up some stuff. I think this is a very balanced podcast and it has messages for those in and outside of the faith. Please check out ProtectLdsChildren.org. It's so important to support these changes!
Raw and uncut. YOU ARE WARNED. The story of my families deportation (they did everything legally) and why it took me 20 years to get my citizenship even though I was married to an American all that time.
My luminous friend Lucia joins me from Dubai and talks about her colourful past, growing up in extreme poverty in a Mormon/Catholic household, dealing with acute rheumatoid arthritis as a young mom of four kids aged 6 and under, her struggles with profound depression, finding herself in her 30’s pursuing her musical career with fresh gusto and even singing on the same stage as Ricky Martin. She will have you laughing, crying, in awe and absolutely uplifted and inspired. What the world needs now, is Lucia, sweet Lucia. This is a long one but it goes so fast!
Carolyn and I met as newly weds and young moms while living in the SF Bay Area 20 years ago. We have remained friends ever since. In this episode we chat about her slow exodus from the LDS (Mormon) faith, her activism with LDS (and all) LGBTQI youth, parenting a child through a cancer diagnosis and so much more. Her upbeat outlook and genuine love for all of humanity is inspiring, uplifting and infectious. We laugh a LOT in this one. It’s a must listen!
By the time C.J was 13 he had been held against his will by the police for the crime of playing basketball, by the time he was 15, he had a gun pressed to his back by the police while standing in line to buy ice cream. At the age of 26 he's had 4 such encounters with the police. He has never broken the law. He's hilarious and thoughtful and his story is one every American needs to hear.
A fun and fascinating chat with my long-time friend, Dr.Nathan Richardson regarding his insights into where we are going wrong with organised youth sports, specifically soccer and how it is affecting our children and families.
Young entrepreneur Isaac Rogers talks about his journey from being kicked out of church at the tender age of 6 to living a full, present, joyful and authentic life. He’s chosen to be refined rather than defined by Cystic Fibrosis, We talk about the glorification of Disabilities (his pet peeve), shaking free of the toxic trap of comparison (he’s a twin), his spiritual journey and travel dreams. Don’t miss this one!
In this incredibly inspiring episode Joe husband, father of three young kids, high school teacher who has been fighting stage 4 cancer for the last seven years talks about living with the “Terrible Privilege” of a diagnosis which puts his future in a constant state of uncertainty and how he has embraced it and made every moment count.
May is mental health awareness month and Spring in general is a tough time for many people including myself. Here are some strategies for surviving periods of times when PTSD is particularly bad or we tend to experience cyclical depression.
In this episode we will chat about a couple of micro epiphanies that have had a major difference on how I approach my relationships, tips on surviving and thriving Winter’s last gasps, and how choosing to be choked (by taking up Brazilian Jiu Jitsu) has taught and helped me in my PTSD recovery and life in general.