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"She Seems So Normal" 
by Leigh Mackenzie

"She Seems So Normal" by Leigh Mackenzie

By Leigh Mackenzie, author/podcaster

Looking for biblical answers to hard faith questions about trauma? Wanna know you're not alone, there's hope, help, and healing & more from someone who's been there and survived? This vulnerable, transparent podcast documentary is written and narrated by megachurch sermon researcher, magazine writer, and author: Leigh Mackenzie-The Church Girl Writes. Topics: Trauma Healing for Women (PTSD/anxiety/panic attacks); Grooming; CSA; Marriage; Family+Friends+Faith Leader Support; EMDR Therapy. **PG-rated, trigger material suitable for age 16+ https://www.buymeacoffee.com/leighmackenzie
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Episode 29: Don't Let Go (a creative fictionalized story of hope)
Episode 29: Don't Let Go (a creative fictionalized story of hope)
A little girl abandoned in a dark cave, afraid she's all alone until she encounters a shining man with kind, gentle eyes with scarred feet and wrists. Can she trust him? **TW: While this is a creative fiction story, it may be triggering for anyone who has endured CSA, considered su!d!dal ideation, or felt isolated in the extreme.   In this episode, I also speak about the very public su!c!des of Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade in 2018. Article on Anthony Bourdain by the New Yorker Magazine. Article on Kate Spade by the New York Times. RESOURCES:  National U. S. 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline--Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. Learn more DIAL 988
09:40
December 29, 2022
Episode 34: WHOOP WHOOP! Earnest Prayer PLUS BONUS INTERVIEW with Christopher
Episode 34: WHOOP WHOOP! Earnest Prayer PLUS BONUS INTERVIEW with Christopher
"I just know (praying earnestly) really DOES work... I didn't care that I didn't know (all the details); I just needed it to work so that's what I prayed for. I don't understand, but God does, and so that's what faith is." *** What's the difference between praying and EARNEST praying? Ask Christopher Mackenzie. I'm bringing my sweetie on the podcast after the narrative and you're in for a treat! (You won't get THIS in the book. Aren't you excited?) SHARE this episode... we all could use a little more "Christopher Wisdom" in the world about how to love and pray for one another... #prayinghusband #christianmarriage #30yearsmarried #ChristianCouples #Christiantestimony #ChristianPodcast #healingpodcast
15:33
December 29, 2022
Episode 11: Is Mental Health the New Leprosy in Church? (Part 1, Condemnation is not a Spiritual Gift)
Episode 11: Is Mental Health the New Leprosy in Church? (Part 1, Condemnation is not a Spiritual Gift)
***WARNING: Though there is nothing explicit or overly descriptive, this episode contains material about su!cide ideation and depression.*** As someone who's struggled with mental health and trauma, I often wondered if I was disqualified not just from Christian service, but from being Christian... (Did I mention we're tackling hard questions here?)  *** I wonder if mental illness struggles are the "new leprosy" inside the Bride of Christ. No one wants to talk about or touch it, and if you say you’re getting counseling, people appear nervous or seemingly avoid you each time you enter the room. -->>The National Su!cide Prevention Lifeline is a United States-based suicide prevention network of over 160 crisis centers that provides 24/7 service via a toll-free hotline with the number 1-800-273-8255. It is available to anyone in su!cidal crisis or emotional distress.>If You Know Someone in Crisis Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (Lifeline) at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or text the Crisis Text Line (text HELLO to 741741). Both services are free and available 24 hours a day, seven days a week. All calls are confidential. Contact social media outlets directly if you are concerned about a friend’s social media updates or dial 911 in an emergency. The Veterans Crisis Line connects Service members and Veterans in crisis, as well as their family members and friends, with qualified Department of Veteran’s Affairs (VA) responders through a confidential toll-free hotline, online chat, or text messaging service. Dial 1-800-273-8255 and Press 1 to talk to someone or send a text message to 838255 to connect with a VA responder. #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #mentalhealthandchurch 
05:58
December 29, 2022
BONUS EPISODE: A Son's Perspective on His Traumatized Mom -- An (Entertaining and completely UNEDITED) Interview with Julian Mackenzie
BONUS EPISODE: A Son's Perspective on His Traumatized Mom -- An (Entertaining and completely UNEDITED) Interview with Julian Mackenzie
I am honored to share an interview with my son, Julian Mackenzie. (Follow his crazy antics on IG at jouglas_t!) ******* This one hurts. It hurts because it's raw and real. Really.  I could've deleted this episode or changed my mind about leaving it unedited so you'd think better of me, but that wouldn't be authentic or real. You need to see how the after-effects of initial sin trickle down to poison the generations of our loved ones in different ways. You need to see my mistakes and how I've hurt my beloved family, particularly my 20-year-old son who I love and adore.  You also need to see how amazing Julian is, how forgiving and kind and sweet our ManCub turned out after surviving my parenting! :) (lots more stories about him at www.leighmackenzie.com. You can also read a special post I wrote about us HERE. Go check out Deuteronomy 5:8-10 about God's view of curses and blessings... #adultification #raisingchristiankids #traumaparenting #hopeandafuture #jesuslovesyou
25:47
December 20, 2022
Episode 46: Warping the Image of God (Just when I thought it was getting easier to podcast... )
Episode 46: Warping the Image of God (Just when I thought it was getting easier to podcast... )
TW: Dysfunctional food and eating issues are covered in this episode along with body dysmorphia and how it tied to my childhood grooming. *** Gah. Still struggle with this. That's why it's so HARD to release this one.  There are some things that might always be broken in my brain. Can we ever heal from trauma? Anything's possible with Jesus, but I believe we just get better as we follow Him.  If you love these episodes, I’m fueled by coffee! You're welcome to buy me a cup HERE! If you struggle with eating disorders or body dysmorphia, get support and help: National Eating Disorders Hotline  (None of the recommendations or suggestions I give are meant to substitute for professional therapy or medical help, they are simply options for people to consider.) #healingpodcast #eatingdisorders #CSAsurvivor #biblicaltraumahealing #sheseemssonormal 
11:34
December 20, 2022
Episode 56: My Husband's Toes (MANY COPING STRATEGIES IN THIS "Where's Waldo?" episode )
Episode 56: My Husband's Toes (MANY COPING STRATEGIES IN THIS "Where's Waldo?" episode )
Yeesh. Feet.  Who knew they were such a massive trigger for me?  It all goes back to childhood memories and flashbacks I could never resolve until now. Friends, I am so thankful to know the truth, to find understanding, and to gain power over my past through the wisdom, knowledge, and love of the Holy Spirit and others.  LOTS OF COPING STRATEGIES IN THIS EPISODE! It's like "Where's Waldo?" Can you identify and list them all? Be on the lookout for a BONUS episode... and grab your own copy of She Seems So Normal. #traumatriggers #traumacopingmechanisms #sheseemssonormal #traumasurvivor #traumawarrior
05:37
December 13, 2022
BONUS EPISODE: Ewwwww, more toes. However... this is funny. I'm growing up.
BONUS EPISODE: Ewwwww, more toes. However... this is funny. I'm growing up.
Gross--more toes, but I laugh through the entire episode at the back-and-forth between Christopher and me on this one. #traumahealing #ChristianMarriage #lovingyourhusband #loveoneanother #healingpodcast 
03:30
December 12, 2022
Episode 55: Sabotage Narratives We Write About Others (without their permission...)
Episode 55: Sabotage Narratives We Write About Others (without their permission...)
How many times do we write narratives about ourselves or others completely SABOTAGING our relationships? We make assumptions not based in reality or fact, we think we "know" someone when we haven't even given them the benefit of the doubt or a chance to prove us wrong... My session started with being married to Christopher for almost three decades... and ended up someplace WILDLY DIFFERENT, WAY BIGGER, and RIDICULOUSLY REVOLUTIONARY. Go Get The Book: on AMAZON. #traumatriggers #learnedhelplessness #traumahealing #healingpodcast #sheseemssonormal #christianmarriage #christianrelationships
04:56
December 09, 2022
Episode 56: Powered by Pickle Jars and Family Support--The Glass Smash
Episode 56: Powered by Pickle Jars and Family Support--The Glass Smash
This one is a long one. Split it into two if you must.  However, stand amazed at the love of a husband for his wife and how one little family practically supported a survivor through her healing process. I'm thinking I need to get Christopher a "PICKLE JAR POWER!" t-shirt now. Anyone have a good logo or design suggestion? :) #traumasupporter #biblicaltraumahealing #traumahealing #traumasurvivor #traumahealingpodcast #traumahealingtechniques #picklessavelives #vlasicpickles
15:29
December 06, 2022
Episode 53: Tools of the Trauma Trade "God's Toolbox" (Part 3)
Episode 53: Tools of the Trauma Trade "God's Toolbox" (Part 3)
K, I'm so excited about this one! It's the last of the Three B's, BLESSING, and then we're gonna look upward toward heaven to examine God's Unlimited Toolbox!  **** Did you know the book, She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith is available on Kindle and in print at Amazon, Barnes&Noble, and Christianbooks? #traumahealing #traumawarriors #traumatoolbox #sheseemssonormal 
05:30
November 29, 2022
Episode 52: Tools of the Trauma Trade: BREATH + BRAIN + BLESSING (Part 2 of 3)
Episode 52: Tools of the Trauma Trade: BREATH + BRAIN + BLESSING (Part 2 of 3)
Three B's for your Anxiety Toolbox: BREATH + BRAIN + BLESSING = DE-ESCALATION. Chatting about the first two of three B's today. You won't wanna miss this... ***** Did you know She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith is now in the top fifty of Amazon Bestsellers for Abuse Self Help Books? Go order yours today. 
09:09
November 25, 2022
Episode 51: Tools of the Trauma Trade, Part 1
Episode 51: Tools of the Trauma Trade, Part 1
This is a 3-part series on trauma. Today, we talk about negative coping tools. ****** Did you KNOW? You can now buy the book, She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith!! In it you'll get the FULL MEGILLAH, the whole story. I'm excited for you to read it.  #sheseemssonormal #traumatools #traumacopingmechanisms #abuseselfhelp #biblicaltraumahealing
05:55
November 22, 2022
Episode 50: The Three Ways the Enemy Isolates; Isolation --> "I Solution"
Episode 50: The Three Ways the Enemy Isolates; Isolation --> "I Solution"
There's a HUGE difference between the spiritual practice of solitude and the enemy's methods of isolation. In this episode, I'm gonna share a few secrets of how d'Evil plays his wicked game and how you can defeat him. ******* Did you KNOW??? You can now BUY THE BOOK! ;) Read and then donate to a woman's shelter, your pastor or church library, or your therapist's office, or leave it at your local laundromat or on the bus for someone else. xoxo You're blessed to become a blessing for someone else.  While you're at it, come follow me on IG @xoxo_leighmackenzie or visit my website at www.leighmackenzie.com. #spiritualwarfare #thedevilsucks #sheseemssonormal #howtonotisolate #isolationisdangerous #spiritualbattles #spiritualwarfareteaching #traumawarriors #biblicaltraumahealing 
05:55
November 18, 2022
Episode 49: Do A New Thing
Episode 49: Do A New Thing
Can you do a new thing, pivot, and go in a new direction? OF COURSE YOU CAN! I did. Just ask NICODEMUS... Speaking of NICODEMUS, this religion-led dude figures it all out after a fifteen-minute convo with the Savior, but takes a "piano, piano" approach over time--little by little growing his courage of conviction. It's a rockin story. I think you'll dig it. We can stop cycles if we choose to CHANGE instead of leaving things to CHANCE... ******** To know more about Jesus as Lord and Savior: View the Story: Click HERE Amazing film shorts and testimonies with Peter Craig at MovingWorks.org: Click HERE #healingpodcast #traumawarrior #biblicaltraumhealing #sheseemssonormal #doanewthing  #CSAsurvivor 
05:48
November 11, 2022
Episode 48: Underdogs Part 2. True Colors (Worship, Poverty, Suffering)
Episode 48: Underdogs Part 2. True Colors (Worship, Poverty, Suffering)
One of my favorite teaching moments is in this episode. Honestly. I've wanted to write an entire book about the ladies of the Gospels for YEARS and I finally found a way to slip them in here. Maybe this needs to be another signature talk cuz I LOVE THEM! #traumahealing #healingpodcast #biblicaltraumahealing #storiesfromIndia #ministryinIndia #CAREINDIA #POVERTY #worship #suffering
05:54
November 08, 2022
Episode 47: Underdogs, Part 1 (Gideon)
Episode 47: Underdogs, Part 1 (Gideon)
SHARE THIS ONE. RATE THIS PODCAST. LEAVE A COMMENT how much you're enjoying it, okay? Ohhhhh, does God love the UNDERDOG? Yaaaasssss, Baby! You gotta hear this one. I loved how this turned out, Friends. Won't you LMK your thoughts here?  #underdogs #traumahealing #traumawarriors #gideonteaching #growingfaith
06:26
November 04, 2022
Episode 45: What is "The Beautiful Fight"?
Episode 45: What is "The Beautiful Fight"?
If this sounds familiar to anyone, it's part of a talk on Suffering I gave years ago to more than 500 people at a women's conference. Though it's been modified for the book and my present circumstances, I remember praying and fasting in the 40 days before I gave this presentation. (check out the link HERE--no judgment, please for the hair and all from 2015!) *** Friends PAIN and TRAUMA  are  PAIN and TRAUMA... it all hurts. There is no COMPARATIVE SUFFERING.  #biblicaltraumahealing #thebeautifulfight #comparativesuffering #traumawarrior #sheseemssonormal 
05:04
October 28, 2022
Episode 44: What's Beautiful To God?
Episode 44: What's Beautiful To God?
beau·ti·ful /ˈbyo͞odəfəl/ adj. 1. pleasing the senses or mind aesthetically; 2. of a very high standard; excellent. *** A lotta people think they know what's beautiful. I thought I did.  Boy, was I wrong.  #traumahealing #godlovesyou #youarebeautiful #itsnotwhatyoudid #sheseemssonormal #healingpodcast
04:59
October 25, 2022
Episode 43: New Normal - Embracing Authentic Faith (loads of Scripture for ya!)
Episode 43: New Normal - Embracing Authentic Faith (loads of Scripture for ya!)
Where does God reside in our BROKENNESS?  How does JESUS feel about our suffering?  What does the Holy Spirit say about YOUR Broken Self? You might be surprised. Permit me to speak words of LOVE and HEALING over you in this short lil episode. (Then go read Psalm 103 in The Passion Translation!) Muah~leighxoxo ******** You want resources and more sunshine and happiness? Of COURSE you do. Guess what? The brand new Leigh Mackenzie website is live, rife with great stories, Bible teaching, and empowering encouragement. Sign up for the VIP list for the latest from Leigh. #traumahealing #PTSD #traumawarrior #CSASurvivor #sheseemssonormal #healingpodcast #JesusLovesYou #
04:32
October 18, 2022
Episode 42: He Sings Over Me - Christopher Gives Me A New Song...
Episode 42: He Sings Over Me - Christopher Gives Me A New Song...
Music trips my trigger like nothing else.  See, my solo school singing stopped after my preschool graduation when I was just five years old.  However, you're gonna hear me sing twice on this episode... yeah, it's scary and vulnerable to do it here, but you're getting the real vintage me.  +++ DID YOU HEAR? The "She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith" book is now available for PREORDER in Kindle and paperback on Amazon! Go get yours right now while you listen!  --leighxoxo #traumahealing #PTSD #traumawarrior #CSASurvivor #sheseemssonormal #healingpodcast #christianmarriage 
09:55
October 14, 2022
Episode 41: When It Feels Like There's Too Much To Fix
Episode 41: When It Feels Like There's Too Much To Fix
Friends, there are times when you're healing that it seems like there's just too much to fix. You wonder if you'll ever be better, ever have your ISH together...  I got to the point of asking God if I was just too screwed up to be normal.  (Are we allowed to say "screwed up" as nice Church people? Heck, yeah, on this podcast we are!) However, there are stories throughout the Bible to strengthen us, friends surrounding us who are cheering us on, and maybe even family members who really need us to keep going and following Jesus. Scripture says we overcome d'Evil by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony about Jesus (Revelation 12:11). So that's what I'm gonna keep doing. +++ DID YOU HEAR? The "She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith" book is now available for PREORDER in Kindle and paperback on Amazon! Go get yours right now while you listen!  --leighxoxo #healingpodcast #sheseemssonormal #donotgiveup #traumawarriors #honesttalkabouttherapy
05:46
October 11, 2022
Episode 40: (Whaaaaat?!? 40 episodes?) Overcoming SHAME in Sacred Circles of Support
Episode 40: (Whaaaaat?!? 40 episodes?) Overcoming SHAME in Sacred Circles of Support
Shame sucks.  Research professor Dr. Brené Brown says to overcome shame, you have to speak what's unspeakable. What are we waiting for?  ++++ DID YOU HEAR? The "She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith" book is now available for PREORDER in Kindle and paperback on Amazon! Go get yours right now while you listen!  --leighxoxo #overcomeshame #healincommunity #traumawarriorsunite #biblicaltraumahealing #healingpodcast #sheseemssonormal #showyourcrown
06:38
October 07, 2022
Episode 39: Prayer of the Loved and Lovable + the SHAKE IT OFF power of Jesus
Episode 39: Prayer of the Loved and Lovable + the SHAKE IT OFF power of Jesus
This is the second part on PRAYING... and the power of healing. "Thank you, Father for loving me and creating me to be lovable. Help me to overcome these lies. Your almighty power and glory are overwhelming and I bow down at the throne before you. Jesus, that you protect me from wrath by your blood. Lord, light me on fire like your burning ones! Light my soul on fire with your love!" #powerfulpraying #justsayno #iambeloved #jesusheals #traumahealing #biblicaltraumahealing
05:45
October 04, 2022
Episode 38: Hey! Change How You Pray--Loved and Despised
Episode 38: Hey! Change How You Pray--Loved and Despised
How do you pray for OTHERS? How do you pray for YOURSELF? While I was perhaps good encouragement to those around me, I rarely encouraged myself in a truly godly way as I prayed. Instead, I spiritually poked “Me” with a stick, like a caged animal that is despised and hated, but one you put up with in hopes of the beast doing something good someday.  In the back of my mind, I thought this was how God saw me, but it is TOTALLY not true. I mean, he saw the thief being crucified on the cross next to him, loved him, didn’t despise him, and promised that man eternity. Doesn’t he love me like that, too? What I realize now to be part of the predatory sexual/emotional abuse cycle, for the abused to simultaneously be the object of “love” and derision, is not actually love at all--it’s wrong and sinful and sick. And it 100% does not reflect God’s perfect love. In the Father’s eyes, am I simultaneously loved AND despised? Nope. I am a beloved and adored child of God. Have a listen. Isaiah 43: 1, 4 and 12. 1 Corinthians 13.
07:44
September 30, 2022
Episode 37: The Power To Choose
Episode 37: The Power To Choose
Words MATTER. What we say about OURSELVES matters. How long will we allow ourselves to be infected with what others have said about us or spoken over our lives? In Christ, we have the power to CHOOSE. "My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,  because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you. Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.  Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do. "Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless."  James 1: 19-26 (NIV)
05:48
September 27, 2022
Episode 35: Su!c!de Is Off The Table (and how this affects your kids when they know it)
Episode 35: Su!c!de Is Off The Table (and how this affects your kids when they know it)
The day I took su!c!de off the table for myself changed my relationship with my son. For those of you who know him, if you thought you loved my son Jug-Bug before, you'll see now what an absolutely remarkable young man he really is.  Special Announcement: Bonus Episode of my interview with Julian Mackenzie about this story coming up! Stay tuned and sign up for podcast notifications to know when that one drops...
07:38
September 23, 2022
Episode 33: Writing Through Su!c!de, Important Information and Coping Mechanisms
Episode 33: Writing Through Su!c!de, Important Information and Coping Mechanisms
*****TW: Since it's National Suicide Prevention Month, I'll discuss about my own un-aliving struggles.*** If you or someone you know are struggling with this issue, please seek support and help immediately. Share this podcast episode--it's a little longer, around ten minutes, but it's worth it if it saves someone's life. RESOURCES:  Click HERE for a list of worldwide suicide hotlines.  Please dial "988" in the United States for the National Suicide Prevention Hotline. For toll-free European access to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline and Veterans Crisis Line, all active-duty military, civilians, family members and contractors can reach the Lifeline by dialing DSN 118 from any Army garrison DSN phone or commercially via a toll-free European number, 00800-1273-TALK (8255) and live chat at www.militarycrisisline.net.
10:48
September 16, 2022
Episode 32: Avoid Isolation: It's Dark and Dangerous (plus a little about LIONS)
Episode 32: Avoid Isolation: It's Dark and Dangerous (plus a little about LIONS)
"There's a big difference between quietly communing with the Father on a hilltop (solitude) and sharing communion with the enemy in our heads (isolation). One spiritually blesses and builds us up; the other spiritually bludgeons and bleeds us dry." How do YOU handle stress and anxiety? 1 Peter 5: (NIV) "Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings." (vv 8-9) Research about solitary lions:  National Geographic LINK  Smithsonian LINK 
07:41
September 13, 2022
Episode 31: Unholy and Made for Destruction?
Episode 31: Unholy and Made for Destruction?
TW: Description of potential physical mutilation. ************************************************ d'Evil--my name for satan... he is evil... and he doesn't deserve a capital letter indicating proper noun cuz there's NOTHING proper about his tactics and attacks.  Spiritual Warfare is wicked. The enemy is a liar and a thief. He seeks to destroy our families. He seeks to destroy us. He almost succeeded with me.  #panicattacks #parenting #anxietyattack #maritalissues #christianmarraige #christianfamily #spiritualwarfare 
07:16
September 09, 2022
Episode 30: Jeremiah's Broken Pot
Episode 30: Jeremiah's Broken Pot
Can God piece me back together? Is there any way to be valuable after trauma?  The answer to both questions is a resounding YES! Click to see images of Japanese wabi-sabi kintsugi. Click and read Jeremiah 18.
02:32
September 06, 2022
Episode 28: God and I Share Different Views on Brokenness
Episode 28: God and I Share Different Views on Brokenness
Sometimes you're too far into therapy to step back out again or stop, but it seems like you'll have to endure an epic odyssey to get through it. This is where I found myself at this point of the narrative, desiring to go back to who I was before (she was at least "functioning") but knowing I couldn't.  I remind myself a little bit of the Israelites traveling with Moses longing to return to slavery in this episode.  Start in Exodus 14 for reference... Be sure to rate /review the podcast and share it with others! #traumahealing #traumawarrior #traumatherapy #sheseemssonormal #exodus14 #keepgoing #youcandoit
08:16
August 30, 2022
Episode 27: Halfway, The Worst of the Red Room
Episode 27: Halfway, The Worst of the Red Room
***TW: This episode alludes to a very short portion child r@pe and s*xual vi0lence without describing it in detail and includes my PTSD/trauma reactions to finally unraveling the mystery of the Red Room.*** Have you or someone you know been the victim of CSA? What advice do you have for others who have survived? While this is very short, it was one of the hardest to read aloud. There are no details of what happened bc I wanted to shield anyone listening from the horror of knowledge of my Red Room experience, however, it is a pivotal place for me in therapy and in the narrative knowing, wait, no, UNDERSTANDING the reality of the past and yet knowing Jesus Christ has been with me through it all. (See a new translation of Psalm 23 in the TPT.) RESOURCES: RAINN Statistics Every 68 seconds, an American is sexually assaulted. And every 9 minutes, that victim is a child. National Sexual Assault Hotline--Hours: Available 24 hours, 1-800-656-4673. Learn more https://www.rainn.org/ 
03:55
August 26, 2022
Episode 26: Back to the Living Room w the Littles: Fiends Masquerade as Friends
Episode 26: Back to the Living Room w the Littles: Fiends Masquerade as Friends
"... even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light." 2 Corinthians 11:14 (NASB) Have you ever been duped by a demon? Ever considered spiritual warfare? Let's just say that satan is a dirty dealer, a liar, and the master manipulator, shall we? When he convinces little girls to isolate, to covet, envy, and hate all the good in others' lives because she wants what they have for herself, you see him for what he is: evil. EXCITING NEWS: She Seems So Normal: Shatter the Plastic Princess, Embrace Authentic Faith will be published in November 2022! Follow me on IG @xoxo_leighmackenzie and on FB at Leigh Mackenzie.  SPIRITUAL WARFARE RESOURCES:  Mark Bubeck's classic on spiritual warfare: The Adversary: The Christian Versus Demonic Activity (Moody Publishers, 1975). The Bondage Breaker by Neil T. Anderson (Harvest House, 2019). Deep Wounds, Deep Healing by Charles H. Kraft (Chosen Books, 2010).
09:25
August 23, 2022
Episode 25: Racehorses & Dancing with the d'Evil
Episode 25: Racehorses & Dancing with the d'Evil
It was never about the effing horse.  There I said it.  If you need to unfollow this podcast I understand, but NOTE: I never actually say or write the real cussword... *** Dasanka was a beautiful beast who embodied, yea, personified evil to Little Me. God bless that equine, her memory became the safe place for anger, fear, and rage along with a whole host of other big emotions and thoughts over which Little Me's mulled. Embarking upon EMDR trauma therapy, the horse was the "safe" memory where my brain began while we picked locks to my deeply hidden and repressed mental vaults. Who is the author of evil? Its name is satan, or who I call d'Evil. (I refuse to offer capital letters for this fiend's name, to offer an apostrophe to offer possessive with "it's",  or to recognize a "proper noun" or "title" because there is NOTHING proper about evil or from where it comes.) #TRAUMAtherapy #EMDR #emdrtherapy  #misplacedanger #traumahealing #christiantraumahealing #biblicatraumahealing #traumainformed #spiritualhealing #traumahealingforwomen 
08:47
July 12, 2022
Episode 24: Cancer SUCKS - Becoming Orphans
Episode 24: Cancer SUCKS - Becoming Orphans
FORGET 50/50. Marriage is always 60/40. You never know who's giving what or where you're sliding on the scale in that 20% spread, especially when you've been married 30 years like Christopher and me. "Cancer SUCKS - Becoming Orphans" is about the TRAUMA of losing a parent inside of the TRAUMA of a world pandemic inside the TRAUMA of reconciling my own history as an extremely shattered Christian. This is a BREAKING POINT stretch, Friends.  However, it's also where we see what kinda man my husband Christopher is--listen in and love him. He's a freakin champion. ********** RESOURCES: These are suggested resources, not endorsements, I thought could be helpful if you or someone you know is grieving. Focus on the Family (Grief and Loss) Lifeway Books on Grief Christianbook.com (growth through grief) Best and Worst Things To Say To Someone Grieving (secular article) GriefShare  #christianmarriage #christianrelationships #christiantraumahealing #losingaparent #losinglovedonesinpandemic #christianlove #married30years #lovemyhusband #bestfriendishusband #besthusbandever #deathgrieving #death #grieving #loss 
08:03
July 08, 2022
Episode 23: The Baklava Day Analysis. What the Heck.
Episode 23: The Baklava Day Analysis. What the Heck.
Yeah, I know. Baklava comes up a lot, doesn't it? (Click on the LINK to discover a recipe for it!) What do you do with a PTSD event?  Analyze it.  ******* RESOURCES: all resources are suggested resources I found that might help you. They are not endorsements. Mayo Clinic information on PTSD Intrusive Events National Institute of Health (NIH) on PTSD EMDR Therapy and Treating PTSD Intrusive Events  Medical News Today article on EMDR and PTSD Treatment
06:51
July 05, 2022
Episode 22: The Children At War Within Me - Teen Me (part 2 of 2)
Episode 22: The Children At War Within Me - Teen Me (part 2 of 2)
**TW/CW: This episode contains discussion of ED (specifically an0rexia and bul!im!a), and vague su!cide and runaway ideations.** Any parents or tweens or teens here? (Raise yo hands! We need prayer!) The TEENAGER. She's a toughie, huh? I lived 35+ years with mine inside my head and she was a DOOZIE!  This episode's a little longer, but PLEASE listen till the end. It'll be worth it.  xoxo,Leigh **************** RESOURCES: Parenting Teens (WebMD) Raising Godly Teens (Focus On The Family) Bible Verses (Bible Study Tools)
09:33
June 29, 2022
Episode 21: Children at War Within Me - A Red Karmann Ghia and The Little Me's in the Living Room of My Mind (Part 1 of 2)
Episode 21: Children at War Within Me - A Red Karmann Ghia and The Little Me's in the Living Room of My Mind (Part 1 of 2)
Ever been emotionally hijacked... by your OWN BRAIN?  **** My husband Christopher tells me he's leaving for business. A month in advance. Cuz he's thoughtful and kind like that.  I completely WIG OUT. WHY? It all goes back to Little Me's memories of her daddy driving away in the Red Karmann Ghia. Her cries tr!gger Adult Me.  What can I do with THAT? Looks like I have to re-parent all the Little Me's in the Living Room of My Mind. *** RESOURCE IDEAS: Resources are only suggested to help and not endorsed... Crosswalk.com  Healing Your Inner Child (Healthline.com) CPTSD Foundation #traumatherapy #traumahealing #reparenting #parentingyourself #christianparenting #christianliving #CSAsurvivor #overcomingthepast #abandonment #abandonmentissues #childhoodabandonmentissues #christiantraumatherapy #biblicatraumatherapy #biblicaltraumarecovery #biblicatraumahealing 
11:15
June 24, 2022
Episode 20: Red Christmas Trees and Perfectionism
Episode 20: Red Christmas Trees and Perfectionism
Recovering from trauma isn't all serious business, even when you're doing it before a world lockdown. Back before Christmas 2019 and before we had any inkling of the brewing pandemic a mere three months later, I began EMDR trauma therapy. Perfect timing. From a distance, it's good looking back and laughing at some of these stories, seeing how far (and how NOT far!) I've come through the valley.  Maybe you'll be nodding in agreement, understanding what happened that morning because you've done the same thing. Or maybe you can laugh and understand better the next time it happens to someone you love.  *** #traumahealing #christmas2019 #anxiety #mentors #perfectionism #perfectionist
06:14
June 21, 2022
Episode 19: If It Were A Snake... It Would Have Bitten You! (Look for support God is sending.)
Episode 19: If It Were A Snake... It Would Have Bitten You! (Look for support God is sending.)
How many times has the LORD sent someone to help and YOU MISSED THEM? *** Huge shoutout to my 2019-2020 posse by name: Dr. Michele Novotni; Allison Harris; Tara Krueger (my EMDR therapist); Robin Wisner (compassionate processing partner); Tina Chambers Smith and Judy Dunagan (spiritual warfare teaching); Delphine Kirkland (all-night, any-time prayer support); Wilma Hollis (butt-kickin' love)...  #mentorship #prayerwarriors #battlebuddies #traumahealing
04:10
June 17, 2022
Episode 18: Big Emotions and my "Disneyfication" of Scripture
Episode 18: Big Emotions and my "Disneyfication" of Scripture
You might think I'm crazy for asking, BUT... Have you ever  imagined people from the Bible as Disney characters OR applied a rose-colored kaleidoscope to Scripture  when it comes to strong emotions like ANGER? I laughed writing this episode thinking about Moses and meditating on King David. Sadly, I had to cut one of my favorite illustrations about Jonah's anger... so here's something special that can only be found in the podcast notes! : "Even surly, barfed-up Jonah, after reluctantly preaching repentance for three days throughout Ninevah to save the evil empire, vomits his own anger onto God for not witnessing the judgment and instant destruction of 120, 000 Assyrian city-dwellers. Jonah did NOT do anger well, and personally, I won’t copy his example, but God listened to his chosen prophet’s outrage, quietly responding without words using a hungry worm. (Let that be another warning to us about living in anger!)" Jonah 4 *** Psalm 23 (AMP); Psalm 13 (NIV).  #traumahealing #bibleteaching #honestemotions #god
06:18
June 14, 2022
Episode 17: Never Jump Scare Me! Never. (... and Back to Baklava)
Episode 17: Never Jump Scare Me! Never. (... and Back to Baklava)
If you're losing your ISH all over the place as I did, you might consider some professional help. ;) Wisdom matters: Proverbs 15: 22; 11: 14; 20: 18. *** Yeah, it's not a pretty story, but I'm still calling out my buddy Johnno in this episode. Funny, I think he now works for the sheriff... #traumahealing #tramastory #churchantics #ouch #angrymomma #angerissues
06:07
June 10, 2022
Episode 16: Burned Hands and Baklava
Episode 16: Burned Hands and Baklava
Hey, Friends! It's Leigh. I took a few weeks off to finish up edits on the book, "She Seems So Normal: Shattering the Plastic Princess, Embracing Authentic Faith" but we're back on track for more podcast episodes! **All you bakers out there gonna be shakin yo' heads...** (PYREX FOLLIES) Maybe I'm the only one,  but have you ever overreacted to something that shouldn't be a big deal and wondered, WHAT was THAT about? +++++++++ Here's a cycle I've found in my trauma: Calm —> Pain—> Surprise —>Anger —> Panic In this episode, look for the coping mechanisms I use to bring it back from  Panic --> Pain --> Calm. #trauma #traumahealing #copingmechanisms #bakingdisasters #christianparenting #traumacycle
07:08
June 07, 2022
Episode 15: One Night Changed My Future - Why Didn't I Leave The Room? (Part 2 of 2)
Episode 15: One Night Changed My Future - Why Didn't I Leave The Room? (Part 2 of 2)
A walk into darkness. Learned Helpless and Trained Powerlessness. Elephants. Pointed questions answered. * **POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING EPISODE** Though there is no explicit content, some listeners may have a trauma-triggered response.  Subject matter contains vague descriptions of SA, r@pe, intimidation, and coercion. * I thought my experience was a relic of a bygone era. Sadly, we haven't come very far. Earlier this year in January/February 2022, every major online news source reported a startling epidemic of more than 150 SA cases at the US Air Force Academy at Colorado Springs, US Military Academy at West Point, and US Naval Academy at Annapolis. These are just the cadets and midshipmen who felt safe enough to come forward to report their abuse. Cadets and midshipmen at all three principal service academies reported more incidents of sexu@l @ssault than in previous years. --By Karoun Demirjian Washington Post article (February 17, 2022) Click HERE to read more. “The women in the Class of 1980—the first to include female cadets—were able to say unequivocally they were treated differently because of their sex. They spoke of the @ssaults and harassment they faced both at the academy and once they entered the Army. “Brig. Gen. Cindy Jebb, who now serves as the Dean of the Academic Board at West Point, arrived two years later as a member of the Class of 1982. Looking back at her cadet career she said, ‘I think it’s safe to say we were probably all sexually harassed.’” (https://www.army.mil/article/236362/the_army_is_changing_current_female_cadets_will_enter_the_army_with_more_career_options_than_ever) * SEXUAL ASSAULT SUPPORT RESOURCES: Click HERE for Resources on R@pe, Sexu@l Ass@ult, and D0mestic Vi0lence Get help 24/7 1-800-656-4673. (National Sexu@l Ass@ult Telephone Hotline)  Call: National Center for Victims of Crime, Victim Connect Resource Center 1-855-4-VICTIM (1-855-484-2846)  Call National Teen Dating @buse Hotline: 1-866-331-9474 National Child @buse Hotline/Child Help: 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453) #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #mentalhealthandchurch #sexuala@ssault #usmilitaryacademy #westpointmilitaryacademy #womeninthemilitary #soldierSA #usmacadetr@pe #noisno 
12:09
May 17, 2022
Episode 14: One of the Hardest Stories I've Never Shared--Why Didn't I Leave The Room? (Part 1 of 2)
Episode 14: One of the Hardest Stories I've Never Shared--Why Didn't I Leave The Room? (Part 1 of 2)
**POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING: Contains potentially mature content. Vague descriptions of hazing, intimidation, and coercion.** What do grenades have to do with a trauma journey? In 1989, I received my congressional nomination for the prestigious US Military Academy at West Point, and though I believe the culture has changed in the decades since I attended, my story focuses on what it used to be back then and how the system solidified parts of the Plastic Princess I became. * * “The women in the Class of 1980—the first to include female cadets—were able to say unequivocally they were treated differently because of their sex. They spoke of the @ssaults and h@rassment they faced both at the academy and once they entered the Army. “Brig. Gen. Cindy Jebb, who now serves as the Dean of the Academic Board at West Point, arrived two years later as a member of the Class of 1982. Looking back at her cadet career she said, ‘I think it’s safe to say we were probably all se#ually harassed.’” (https://www.army.mil/article/236362/the_army_is_changing_current_female_cadets_will_enter_the_army_with_more_career_options_than_ever) #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #mentalhealthandmilitary #SA #usmilitaryacademy #iamvanessaguillan #westpointmilitaryacademy #westpointstory #metoomovement #womeninthemilitary #soldiersa 
09:18
May 13, 2022
Episode 13: Is Mental Health The New Leprosy Inside The Church? (Part 2: What Is Courage?)
Episode 13: Is Mental Health The New Leprosy Inside The Church? (Part 2: What Is Courage?)
People say it takes courage to go through therapy and tell their story. I haven’t felt courageous whatsoever. Mostly, I've felt terrified, afraid of really knowing - and afraid of never knowing - what my issues were.  If courage is the ability to persevere and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty, any courage that people see in me is the Holy Spirit. I just keep clinging to him, clinging to the Cross and Resurrection of Jesus Christ, knowing that if God has the power to raise a man from the dead, he can raise me up, too. And, as in the book of Ezekiel, if he can raise my dry and dusty bones up out of the grave, he can use me to help encourage others to do it in their own lives as well. #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #jesusheals
05:01
May 06, 2022
Episode 12: A Dragon Below The Ice (Anxiety)
Episode 12: A Dragon Below The Ice (Anxiety)
How do you describe severe anxiety or how trauma makes the body feel to someone who’s never experienced it? With a DRAGON, of course! So the LORD God said to the serpent: “Because you have done this, cursed are you above all livestock and every beast of the field! On your belly will you go, and dust you will eat, all the days of your life. And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed. He will crush your head, and you will strike his heel.” Genesis 3:14-15 (NIV) #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #predatorygrooming #jesusheals #ptsdepisode #learnedhelplessness #understandinganxiety
03:46
May 03, 2022
Episode 10: The Plastic Princess Origin Story (What used to be my "Normal")
Episode 10: The Plastic Princess Origin Story (What used to be my "Normal")
Is there any such thing as the PERFECT CHRISTIAN WOMAN? (If you're nodding in response, please don't press play.) *** Today's story is rife with a little mannequin history, tongue-in-cheek stereotyping, and animal analogies, but the mic drops might make your jaw unhinge.  "Putting lipstick on a pig doesn't make her a lady." Deep inside was a mess I couldn’t identify or fix no matter how much I served Jesus or the church. While I was doing all the right things to act like a good Christian woman, our works don’t heal the shame or fix what's broken.  Since "mannequins mirror the 'ideal standard' of the season in figure, form, and fashion" I became  a  Plastic Princess. ** ALSO: SUPER exciting ANNOUNCEMENT, but you'll have to listen to find out more! #transparencymoments #beingrealinchurch #ThePerfectChristianWoman #NoPerfectChristians #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #predatorygrooming #jesusheals #ptsdepisode #learnedhelplessness #ironstreammedia 
07:22
April 26, 2022
Episode 9: Can I Be Honest With God?
Episode 9: Can I Be Honest With God?
This one's short and sweet. Give it a listen, give it a share.  *** "Master, all my lands are yours, every space in my life.  Anything I have—be they gifts, talents, sin, history, whatever!—is yours. There is nothing, no portion of my life, that I want to keep from you in this season... I am finally yours, holding nothing back from your work and examination... Just heal me! Take it all!" I've played hide and seek with God. The only problem? He sees and knows everything, even what I tried to keep in the dark. Wherever I go, there He is. He is Savior, but is He LORD over all? Desperate for healing, here's where I finally got HONEST WITH GOD. “When wisdom enters your heart, and knowledge is pleasant to your soul, discretion will preserve you; understanding will keep you, to deliver you from the way of evil.” (Proverbs 2:10-12) #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #honestwithgod #jesusheals 
04:41
April 22, 2022
Episode 8: How I Met The Doctor (The Importance of Godly Mentorship)
Episode 8: How I Met The Doctor (The Importance of Godly Mentorship)
Can God confirm a prayer request with jewelry? Haha, I know you might wanna a reason to buy a new pair of earrings, but that's not what I mean here... ;) Around her neck, I noticed a woven silver necklace from Antigua, Guatemala. I knew she was the ONE I asked God to provide. Dr. Michele Novotni was my God-sent mentor in this season and we immediately began talking weekly to pray and ponder the future work God was establishing for us. Who knew it would be absolute healing from trauma and abuse?!  Here's the funny thing:  I resisted almost all her attempts to talk to me...  ... until I saw silver. Three Takeaways: 1. Mentors can take your farther faster. (Affirmation, Advice, Processing, Role-Modeling, Encouragement, Accountability, Wisdom) 2. Look around to see who could mentor you... or who you could help disciple. 3. You don't have to (have) be an expert; you just need (someone) to be a little further along in the valley. Online articles for finding a great Christian mentor or accountability group: re:Generation is a biblically-based discipleship program offering healing, recovery, and freedom from any type of struggle.  (Find accountability and help groups at re:Gen) Lifeway: Finding The Mentor you Need GCU Benefits of a Spiritual Mentor #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #jesusheals #godlyrelationships #Christianfellowship #Christianmentorship #mentoringrelationships 
08:14
April 19, 2022
Episode 7: De-escalation Coping Mechanisms, or, "The Monkey's Swinging"
Episode 7: De-escalation Coping Mechanisms, or, "The Monkey's Swinging"
How can you go from full-on panic mode to  calm,  cool,  and  collected? Three Ways: Breath - Brain - Blessing.  Today, you're getting a BONUS EPISODE: PRACTICAL TOOLS!! This is not medical advice. I am not a doctor, therapist, or physician. These are tools I've used to help myself and others overcome their overwhelm. I wasn't planning on doing an episode on a few of my "tried and true" anxiety/panic attack/PTSD event de-escalation techniques...  ... until I walked a friend through them over the phone last week. I realized others really might benefit from listening. PTSD Coping Mechanisms RESOURCES:  Focus On The Family: CLICK HERE National Alliance on Mental Health (has a link to EMDR info) Veteran's Administration:  CLICK HERE   Psychology Today: CLICK HERE #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #jesusheals #PTSDcopingskills #anxietyattacks #panicattack #Christian 
10:60
April 15, 2022
Episode 6: Baklava Day (Part 1), or, Triggered--My First PTSD Event
Episode 6: Baklava Day (Part 1), or, Triggered--My First PTSD Event
**TW: Contain vague descriptions of CSA, intimidation, and potentially frightening imagery. Alludes to real-life p3dophiles, ch!ld m0lest3rs.** "How curious is the body's response to memory... " In Episode 7, I'm gonna detail 3-4 of my basic, tried and true trauma/PTSD/panic attack coping mechanisms for ya. Until that's released Friday, here are a few notes on this episode: 1.) This part of the story is a strange confluence of * two distinct times (me at age 7, then age 5) * two distinct memories * two distinct people. The second memory--the one that creates the PTSD event--becomes a SOURCE MEMORY, or, POINT OF ORIGIN. (
06:34
April 12, 2022
Episode 5: Can I Be Angry With God?
Episode 5: Can I Be Angry With God?
Am I a heretic for asking? Are we allowed to be completely honest with God? SHORT ANSWER? Yes. From the start, I told you we'd be tackling some difficult faith questions. Here are two more I ask in this episode: 1. If God is GOOD (kind and loving), why did He let terrible things happen to me? 2. If God is GREAT (all-powerful), why didn't He stop them from happening? Listen till the end to see where I land. ;) Scripture text is from Jeremiah 33: 3, 6-10. "This is what the LORD says, he who made the earth, the LORD who formed it and established it—the LORD is his name: ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’... Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security. I will bring Israel and Judah back from captivity and will rebuild them as they were before. I will cleanse them of the sin they have committed against means will forgive all their sins of rebellion against me. Then this city will bring me renown, joy, praise and honor before all nations on earth that hear of all the good things I do for it; and they will be in awe and tremble at the abundant prosperity and peace I provide for it. “This is what the Lord says: ‘You say about this place, “It is a desolate waste, without people or animals.” Yet in the towns of Judah and the streets of Jerusalem that are deserted, inhabited by neither people nor animals, there will be heard once more...”  #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #christianwriter #faithstory #predatorygrooming #jesusheals #uvalde
06:58
April 08, 2022
Episode 4: Everyday Monsters "Groom The Room"
Episode 4: Everyday Monsters "Groom The Room"
***CW: Though there is nothing explicit or overly descriptive, this episode contains potentially triggering material for CSA survivors. What can we learn from a story about predatory grooming? You might be surprised. 1. Predators aren't always who or what you might expect them to be. 2. Predatory abusers carefully choose their targets. [Can you name the reasons he might have chosen me?] 3. Predators "Groom the Room" - training people by normalizing questionable behavior over time (months, even years). 4. Trust your gut if something's not right and begin asking questions (especially if you're a parent, teacher, mandated reporter, responsible adult, or a peer/friend). 5. Honor our children's boundaries, affirming their personal radars and "Hard No's". (Just because they say "No" about someone doesn't mean there's been abuse; this is about helping them learn to trust their instincts. :)) Don't you love how my friend stood up for her cousin? We all need someone like her in our corner. (Jeannette, YOU ROCK!)  #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare #predatorygrooming #teenpredatorygrooming #childhoodsexualabusesurvivors
11:15
April 05, 2022
Episode 3: What Would YOU Give Up For Lent? My hands around her throat...
Episode 3: What Would YOU Give Up For Lent? My hands around her throat...
**TW: Contains vague description of mild violence, f@ntasy mVrd3r id3ation.** If you're a high-falutin' Christian who's got her "ish" together and your life has been a sweet box of chocolates, this probably ISN'T the podcast for you. *WARNING: You might not wanna press play.* See, you gotta know the REAL ME from the start--and I'm a hot mess. With that plastic princess smile, I looked like I had my "ish" together, but this bit of the story is the ugly that lurked under the surface. It was UNFORGIVENESS--miserable, murderous, and menacing, it grows bitterness, rage, anger, slander, and every form of malice.  No pedestals here--we're kicking those out from the get-go and getting down to the shameful and the dirty right from the start. You're gonna hear all about the vulnerable and messy me.  Sorry, not sorry. Someone's gotta go first... #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare
05:56
March 29, 2022
Episode 2: "The Shattering" + "A Run Through The Valley of the Shadow of Death (part 1)"
Episode 2: "The Shattering" + "A Run Through The Valley of the Shadow of Death (part 1)"
Landmark trauma therapist Dr. Dan Allender says if we want to create a different future, we have to have the courage to look at the past. Funny, I had no memories of the past. Until now. While "The Shattering" introduces recurring elements and sets the stage for our narrative, "A Run Through The Valley of the Shadow of Death" divulges the end at the beginning... in a way.  Sit back. Listen to the stream-of-consciousness flow as our story begins.  #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare
15:42
March 29, 2022
1. You're gonna talk about WHHHAAAT?!?
1. You're gonna talk about WHHHAAAT?!?
I'm Leigh (rhymes with "bee"). Seven years ago, I began officially writing as a Christian mommy blogger, The Church Girl Writes, narrating personal anecdotes of Jesus in Everything which eventually led to articles, communion meditations, and monthly Bible study questions published in magazines. If you met me, you’d probably think, “She seems so normal!” but I carried secrets of trauma I was too afraid to share on Sundays in church (or anywhere!) for fear of rejection or judgment, or, whatever… until now. Now, it’s time to give testimony to the goodness and greatness of God in the land of the living. It’ll be a documentary-style script coupled with personal reflections on all he has done to heal me. My highest prayer is to offer you ideas to help YOU own YOUR journey to inspire each of us to become part of a greater support network for one another and eventually, for it to help others as well. What should you expect from this podcast? Expect a messy, vulnerable narrative. Expect hard, honest questions about faith in Jesus, and God’s character. Expect Scriptural answers and application, too. Expect to see yourself or someone you know each time you listen–and please share that episode when you do. The worst feeling in the world is believing You’re All Alone. You’re not alone. Welcome to the Podcast. #traumawarrior #traumainformed #ptsdwarrior #traumarecovery #traumasurvivor #survivor #ptsd #ptsdisadailybattle #ptsdawareness #ptsdsurvivor #csasurvivor #recoveryjourney #traumahealing #csahealing #selfcare 
08:05
March 29, 2022