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Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

By Lisa Meister
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Getting Through October with Mary DeMuth
October is a hard month for sra survivors, as is November, December and January. Mary Demuth is an author, artist, literary agent, and podcaster who has a "Pray Every Day Podcast" and brings her expertise in helping us to find comfort in God to help us through this difficult time. You will find her amazing quotes like "fellowship of the rescued" and " you have moved from victim to carrier of light" highly motivational to help you through the difficult moments. She shares that there is no shame to have the dark times and that Jesus is there to help us through. You can find all that Mary has to offer at: https://www.marydemuth.com/   If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening!
29:39
October 03, 2022
Monica on Stopping Generational SRA
Monica married into a Masonic family through the Greek Orthodox Church. She had no idea what she was getting into. After her son started showing incredible signs of stress and abuse she was able to start putting pieces together. Hear how she got her son out and put together what happened to her son. This is another courageous mom who believed her child and was able to rescue him.  If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening!
49:35
September 23, 2022
Lisa's World: Identity
In today's episode I am thinking through identity. It's so much easier to figure out who we aren't than who we are. Here's who I am. 
09:17
September 17, 2022
The AmyJo Experience
Today's episode is all kinds of fun. AmyJo has a podcast on Rumble called "AmyJoGodLuvsU." She is working tirelessly to educate the public on the demonic realm, fighting spiritually, the New Age movement, sex trafficking and satanic ritual abuse. AmyJo is a strong Christian on the front lines as well as a ton of fun to talk with. You can find her show at: https://rumble.com/user/AmyJoGodLuvsU.  If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening!
49:38
September 16, 2022
Writing a Memoir with John Smith and Lynn Sutherland
Writing a memoir is not an easy undertaking. In today's conversation, we have back with us John Smith (Episodes: Season 1 Episode 11 and Season 1 Episode 24) and Lynn Sutherland (Episodes: Season 1 Episode 29 and Season 2 Episode 18). They are both in process in writing and wanted to share their experiences. Some important questions that are tackled are: Why is it important to find your voice? Is it dangerous for victors of satanic ritual abuse to write their story? What should you expect along the journey? I thoroughly enjoyed this conversation and hope you do as well. Thank you for listening!   If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening today!
56:26
September 05, 2022
The Freemasons with Courtney Epps
The Freemasons are a secret society that practices satanic ritual abuse. Courtney Epps gave her testimony of SRA and MK Ultra on season 2, episode 27, so if you missed her story, I highly encourage you to go back and listen to that first. Courtney has studied the history of the Freemasons because her grandfather was a 33rd degree Mason and she wanted to understand that connection with her abuse. Here are some links to her research: The Truth 9/13/21 - Secret Societies Part 1 https://rumble.com/vmh6ix-the-truth-shall-set-us-free-91321-find-more-truth-email-at-courtneyotbtax.c.htmlTHe Truth 9/14/21 - Secret Societies Part 2 https://rumble.com/vmr3yr-the-truth-shall-set-us-free-91421-find-more-truth-email-at-courtneyotbtax.c.html If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening today!
49:43
August 31, 2022
Courtney Epps, SRA Victor
Courtney was 39 years old when her memories of SRA came back. Her life had so many missing pieces with so many things that just didn't make sense, and the missing understanding of SRA brought it all into a cohesive picture. Her picture perfect, church going family was actually a high level cult family that participated in satanic rituals and MK Ultra programming. Courtney had to leave her family of origin and lost everything she had in the process. God took care of her and her children, and brought her to a place of self-sufficiency with her own tax business. She became a tax strategist, author and speaker. Today she tells her story of abuse and how God brought her healing.  If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening today!
42:37
August 27, 2022
Catching up with Bruce Hecht
Today we have back with us Bruce Hecht. He is popping into tell us what is on his heart right now. You can find Bruce’s whole testimony in Season 1 Episode 36. Thanks for listening!
19:05
August 22, 2022
Deborah, SRA Victor
40 generations passed satanic ritual abuse down to their children. Deborah was neglected, tortured, raped, forced into rituals, and sex trafficked. During abuse as a young child, a light came into her room as Jesus reached out to her. He gently told her He couldn't stop the abuse, but that He would always be with her. She found that to be true through the years as she should have died many times, but didn't. Her family led a double life in the church, looking like an upstanding family, but many rituals took place in that church they attended. They tried to confuse Deborah through the years by telling her Jesus was bad and satan was good. As confusing as it was, Jesus was with her and brought her through. She found inner healing and deliverance and her heart was to help other survivors. She became a part of Dr. Larson's Spiritual Freedom Church where she was trained to help others. They have ministries throughout the United States and around the world. If you would like to reach out to them for help, you can contact Pastor Edra in Vancouver, Washington at 503-819-3376 from 9am to 6pm Pacific Standard Time. You can also contact Dr. Larson at 303-980-1511. They may be able to do zoom sessions for those not near a ministry team.  If you would like to support this podcast, there are several options. For $5.99 you can get a subscription to "Lisa's World," which are extra podcasts each month. You can access these through the Anchor or Spotify platforms. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod, you can buy a coffee, purchase a monthly question and answer session with Lisa, or buy an hour chat with Lisa.  Thank you for listening and for your kind support!
48:46
August 18, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir 9
Today we pick up in the memoir "Only God Rescued Me: My Journey Through Satanic Ritual Abuse," on page 129 talking about the Custody Battle between my brother and his wife over my police report of SRA. This was such a painful time in my life. Thank you for listening!
21:06
August 15, 2022
SRA and the LBGTQ Community with RR
RR joins us again today to discuss her time in the LGBTQ community and how it is connected with SRA. Hear how the pain from her childhood trauma made it difficult to find peace in life. RR shares wisdom and first hand experience along with a heart for the community that helped her to feel safe for many years. If you would like to support this podcast, you can do it in a number of ways. You can visit https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod where you can donate a coffee, subscribe to a monthly Q&A with Lisa, or have a one hour conversations with Lisa. You can also subscribe to "Lisa's World," an extra subscription podcast through Spotify or Anchor. Thank you for your encouragement and support.
26:26
August 08, 2022
Judith & Jimmy, SRA Couple
Judith and Jimmy are a couple from the Netherlands who found each other in a Christian group in college. Judith needed deliverance and Jimmy jumped in to help. Through the process of healing Judith realized she was an SRA survivor. This was a shock because she grew up Christian with no memories of abuse. Jimmy went to God to find out how to help Judith and was instrumental in helping her to heal. They married and have been on a journey of continued healing and following God wherever He leads them to go. Hear their story as they go through revelation of intense ritualistic abuse, through healing in Christ Jesus, learning how to traverse marriage when one of them has had severe abuse, and how God is using them to help others. Their heart for the Lord and each other will encourage you wherever you are in life. This is an important interview that will leave you praising God for His goodness. You can find Judith and Jimmy through their website at: https://www.royaltyfineart.com/english/. She also has a book of her artwork available on her website called: "Evidence of Hope." If you would like to support this podcast, there are a number of options available. At https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod you can buy me a coffee, subscribe to a month Q&A with Lisa, or purchase a one hour conversation with Lisa. On Anchor or Spotify you can subscribe to Lisa's World, which give extra podcasts where Lisa talks about personal parts of her life. Thank you so much for listening today!
01:17:51
July 28, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir 8
Today we talk about trying to decide how to protect my nieces and nephews from the same abuse I went through. I write a letter and have a retaliating letter sent back by my brother. I also discuss learning how to process the trauma through a therapy called EMDR. Thank you for listening! 
16:28
July 22, 2022
RR, SRA Victor
RR is a SRA victor who grew up in the Mormon church. As a child she thought it was normal to fall asleep in trees that she would climb. Only later when the abuse she suffered as a child was revealed did she realize it was actually a defense mechanism to be able to get safe sleep. RR's story is complex with being angry at God, addictions, loss of children and joining the LBGTQ community before finally finding Jesus through a near death experience in heart failure. RR has been saved now for two years and has been on a journey for intimacy with Him which facilitated the healing she would need from the abuse she suffered as a child. Her book, "The Broken Hearted Captive," can be found on Amazon and Kindle at https://www.amazon.com/Broken-Hearted-Captive-story-daughter/dp/B09PHBVR6F/ref=sr_1_1?crid=X1EP9RLJ9RC4&keywords=r+ramah&qid=1658516157&sprefix=r+ramah%2Caps%2C241&sr=8-1. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. You can also get a subscription from Anchor and Spotify for Lisa's World, which include extra podcasts that go in depth with Lisa's own story. Thank you for listening! 
48:58
July 22, 2022
Abortion is a Ritual
The Satanic Temple is suing the United States government for their right to religious abortion ritual. This backs up what sra survivors have been saying all along that teens are impregnated and then forced to give birth to a baby who is then killed in rituals. In today's episode, we discuss why all abortions are rituals, whether they take place in a cult or not. This episode carries a trigger warning for discussing how different abortions are performed. https://www.foxnews.com/politics/satanic-temple-abortion-ritual-supreme-court If you would like to support this podcast, please go to https://www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your ongoing support.
14:59
July 14, 2022
Lynn Marie, Deaf SRA Victor Calling for Understanding Among Interpreters
Lynn Marie is a deaf SRA Victor who was deeply hurt by her interpreter at a healing conference due to lack of compassion, not accurately translating what Lynn was saying, and ultimately leaving Lynn alone at the hotel when she was supposed to help Lynn get home. This stirred up feelings from her childhood abuse that led to months of healing to get back to a feeling of safety and control over her life. Lynn is asking for interpreters to have a deeper understanding of SRA survivors along with having special needs to help them as part of their team of healing instead of causing more issues that what was there to begin with. You can find Lynn Marie's testimony in season 1, episode 29 of this podcast.  If you would like to support this podcast, you can subscribe to Lisa's World through the Anchor or Spotify platforms for extra episodes each month, or go to buymeacoffee.com/onlygod to make a donation, subscribe to a monthly Q&A with Lisa, or buy an hour of talking with Lisa one on one. Thank you for listening and for all of your wonderful support. 
23:46
July 07, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir 7
In today's episode, we talk about losing the family I grew up with and realizing I had never "had" them to begin with. We also delve into the pain of being "not invited" to my brother's wedding. James and I talk with the District Attorney about my case and end up pregnant with our fourth child. Timing wasn't great on that one, but God sure was good with the blessing our daughter has been. I hope you enjoy the show!
29:23
July 05, 2022
Lily, SRA Victor
Lily grew up in a "good Catholic family" with lots of expectations to look perfect on the outside. She looked perfect and excelled at school to pacify her demanding and abusive father. The emotional problems she began encountering in her 20's just didn't make sense. Lily wasn't able to get the help she needed until she finally found a body of Christians that would pray with her and finally find Jesus as her Savior. As she healed, Lily became determined to help other survivors find healing and deliverance. She is part of a ministry called "Powered by Jesus Christ 333" where she helps bring all the deliverance Jesus has to offer. You can contact Lily at: pbjc333@gmail.com. If you would like to donate to this podcast, please visit: buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your support! 
54:32
June 17, 2022
Inner Healing with Scott Bitcon
Inner healing is important to all Christians, but is especially important to sra survivors. Dr. Scott Bitcon has successfully helped over 500 sra survivors in his ministry, and thousands of others as well. Today we discuss the especially tricky parts of deliverance for sra survivors. Scott offers free training videos to anyone who wants to learn how to experience inner healing for themselves by bringing Jesus to the root wound. If you are interested in his free training videos, you can find them: http://innerhealinganddeliverance.org/spiritual-warfare-training/. If you would like to support this podcast, please find me at: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/dashboard. Thank you for listening, your prayers and support.
37:12
May 31, 2022
Shaking the Luciferian System with Scott Allen
God is speaking directly to us today through a vision given to prophetic intercessor Scott Allen. Scott had a vision of Jesus taking him into a control room where there were many dials. One dial was for the Luciferian Kingdom. Jesus gave Scott the words to say to shake that kingdom. Scott gives his vision to us today and leads us in that prayer. God sent Scott specifically to this podcast to give it first to those who were the most hurt by the Luciferian Kingdom through SRA. This is important because God is calling in a prophetic shift from being a survivor to going on the offensive. Put on your armor of God and pray  this prayer daily and watch the demonic shake as God brings in the victory. If you would like to contact Scott Allen, you can email him at: scottallen1131@gmail.com. Link to article: https://www.elijahlist.com/words/display_word.html?ID=27242 So together, as one in Him, let's do it and speak in unity from the mountain of God (say it out loud): "From where we are seated in Christ Jesus at the right hand of the Father, THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY SAYS: THE TIME HAS COME FOR THE LUCIFERIAN KINGDOM TO BE SHAKEN! WE DECREE: LET THE GREAT SHAKING OF ALL WHO WORSHIP LUCIFER BEGIN!"YOUR SORCERIES AND SACRIFICES WILL NOT HELP YOU! YOUR PROTECTION IS REMOVED! LET THE SHAKING OF THE LUCIFERIAN KINGDOM INCREASE!"
53:08
May 27, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir, Part 6
In today's episode we talk about finally going on the offensive. Hear about the decision to press criminal charges and the initial contact with the detective. The small town I grew up with immediately makes challenges with the people involved with the case. 
40:16
May 23, 2022
Dr. Kandiss Taylor on SRA and Politics
Dr. Kandiss Taylor is running for the Republican nomination for governor of Georgia. She is campaigning courageously as she calls out the Luciferian system and is determined to tear down the demonic Guidestones in Georgia. This is God calling out satanic rituals and SRA from a politician! She needs our prayers and support. Please share this video on your platforms and talk to your friends in Georgia. This is a huge move of God in shaking the Luciferian system and we need to get behind Dr. Taylor as she battles this goliath. You can find her at: https://kandisstaylor.com/ If you would like to support this podcast, you can find me at: buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Have you found "Lisa's World" yet? You can subscribe in the Spotify and Anchor platforms for $5.99 per month for special shows that give you a more personal look at my life.  Thank you for your ongoing support!
22:00
May 19, 2022
Dr. Alaine Pakkala, SRA Victor with Lydia Discipleship Ministries
Today we are joined with SRA Victor, Dr. Alaine Pakkala. Alaine shares her SRA journey and healing with us. She is the founder and director of Lydia Discipleship Ministries where she and her team train counselors and ministers in helping DID survivors. She creates helpful tools to teach and help survivors.  You can find her at:   Lydia Discipleship Ministries: https://www.lydiadm.org/   Tiny Talks: https://www.lydiadm.org/store/mini-videos/   Abbys's Safe Place: http://abbyssafeplace.homestead.com/  Memoir: "Laura" https://www.amazon.com/Laura-A-True-Story/dp/0889652074/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1HRY36KJ9J197&keywords=laura%2C+by+Alaine+pakkala&qid=1652464759&s=books&sprefix=laura%2C+by+alaine+pakkala%2Cstripbooks%2C96&sr=1-1  Thank you for your support! If you would like to contribute to this podcast, please go to:  buymeacoffee.com/?via=onlygod
53:08
May 18, 2022
Lisa's World: Meet Pastor Molnar, My Spiritual Father
In today's episode we are joined with Pastor Clifford Molnar, the man who led me to the Lord at the age of 7. He came into my life at a critical time. While he did not know about the SRA I was experiencing, he was able to sow Jesus into my life and train me up in the ways of the Lord. Without his intervention, I do not think I would have survived the abuse I was going through. As always, thank you for your amazing support. If you are interested in a zoom questions and answer session with me on the last Wednesday of every month, please go to buymeacoffee.com/?via=onlygod.
31:20
May 13, 2022
A Call to Pastors to Step into SRA Ministry with Pastor Cliff Molnar
Today we are talking about the great need for survivors to have pastors that know about SRA and are willing to step into acceptance of survivors and to encourage them in the Lord in their churches. Most survivors meet with pastors and congregations that will deny their abuse and make them very uncomfortable in the church. It's time to change that. Pastor Molnar brings his knowledge and wisdom into this discussion as well as talking about his intersections in my personal story. If you want to hear more about Pastor Molnar, step over to Lisa's World and listen to how instrumental he was in bringing me into the saving knowledge of Jesus. To access Pastor Molnar's sermons, visit https://www.facebook.com/Victory-Center-Ministries-Live-Stream-109587117260884/. If you would like to support this podcast, please visit: buymeacoffee.com/onlygod for donations or a Q&A session with me on the last Wednesday of every month https://anchor.fm/lisa-meister/subscribe
40:56
May 13, 2022
Mother's Day with Hero Mom Jennifer
Ritual abuse is generational because there is no one to stand up and declare it to be wrong. Sometimes a survivor will, and is quickly labeled as "crazy" and kicked out of the family with black sheep status. But every once in a while an unsuspecting, non-cult ties person marries into a family and finds themselves in the middle of a nightmare. Jennifer is just such a mom. Her two young daughters were brave enough to risk the wrath of their abusers to disclose sra to their mom. Jennifer did everything right. She went to the police, forensic doctors and psychologists to get help for her children only to end up having them taken completely out to her custody. In today's episode we hear Jennifer's horrific journey (and you can get the entire story in Season 1 Episode 17) and try to imagine what the lives of survivors would have been like if they had experienced a loving mom like Jennifer. I dedicate this episode to all the brave parents of sra survivors who are fighting legal systems to get safety for their children. If you would like to hear my personal ruminations of my own mom, subscribe to "Lisa's World" on the Anchor or Spotify platforms for $5.99 per month. To support this podcast, please go to www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for listening to today's important Mother's Day special.
57:38
April 29, 2022
Lisa's World: My Mom
I haven't really talked about my mom much. With Mother's Day coming up she is on my mind, so now is the time. Trying to figure out a mom who was okay with or complicit in SRA is complicated, but I am giving it a try. Thank you for your ongoing support!
26:48
April 27, 2022
Sisters of Silence
Today we are joined by sisters Merita Atherly Engen and JerryAnn Berry. JerryAnn was chosen to be used in satanic rituals where Merita was not. They grew up in a family with a strong code of silence, yet Merita was watchful and knew something was wrong. When JerryAnn finally confronts her abuse at the age of 45, Merita is there to walk along side her with love and support. This is a powerful episode of true sisterly love that is lacking in so many families that endure sra. You can find Merita and JerryAnn through their facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/MERITAandJERI/ (Sisters of Silence), JerryAnn Berry on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCnnWH0IhjZTfliP58mR-vNg, and through Merita's website at www.MeritaAtherlyEngen.com. If you would like to support this ministry, please go to buymeacoffee.com/onlygod or subscribe to "Lisa's World" through this podcast on the Spotify and Anchor platforms for $5.99 a month which will give you access to special episodes. Thank you for you amazing support! 
53:37
April 14, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir, Part 5
Join me today as I continue to read from "Only God Rescued Me, My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse." I talk about getting the first ritual flashbacks and the strong desire to prove myself crazy. My quest for proof takes me back to the city I grew up in and talk with someone actually involved in the rituals. Thanks for listening! 
32:55
April 13, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir, Part 4
Join me today as I continue to read my memoir, "Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse," pages 51-68. You will hear about my meeting telling my parents I remembered the sexual abuse and hearing their response. I also talk about going back to my childhood pastor to see what he knew or didn't know. 
27:27
April 01, 2022
Rebecca Bruce, SRA Victor
Today we present the story of SRA victor Rebecca Bruce. Rebecca was abused through her entire growing up years. Like most survivors, she wasn't cognizant of it until later. A life filled with self harm, addictions and eating disorders couldn't be explained by the life she felt she had lived. Follow Rebecca on her road to understanding and healing from SRA. If you would like to support this podcast, you can find me at www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod or for $5.99 a month you can buy a subscription to "Lisa's World," through the Anchor or Spotify platforms. Thank you for listening!
01:06:02
March 29, 2022
Spiritual Abuse with Sandra Eileen
Sandra Eileen is a survivor of spiritual abuse, otherwise called a "high control group." SRA is definitely under the topic of spiritual abuse, but degrees of it also go on in many churches. Sandra Eileen shares her journey through spiritual abuse with us today in an opening of the conversation on this podcast. I know you will love Sandra's deep and insightful thoughts on spiritual abuse and why it is so dangerous. The sooner we can spot it, the sooner we can deal with it. You can find Sandra's own podcast called: Healing Forward with Sandra Eileen. Instagram: @intentionalwellnesswithsandra. Please give Sandra a listen and subscribe! If you would like to support this podcast: www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod or you can subscribe to "Lisa's World" for $5.99 a month to access some extra podcast episodes. You can access these through the Anchor or Spotify platforms. Thank you for listening and your continued support!
36:42
March 28, 2022
Lisa's World: Meet My Husband Patrick
In today's episode I introduce you to Patrick, my husband of 30 years. We discuss our early years of dating and marriage and find out why he believed the sexual abuse and the sra. I hope you enjoy hearing our journey of discovery of abuse from his perspective. 
28:33
March 21, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir, Part 3
Today we continue to read "Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse." We begin with the summer before the repression broke. I chronicle the ups and downs of trying to figure out my life and am shocked to see that my life is beginning to make sense with the piece of sexual abuse in it. The time of trying to figure out flashbacks and what they mean is excruciating and confusing. I hope you enjoy the show!
35:23
March 03, 2022
Chandra Moyer, SRA Victor
Chandra Moyer is an author, speaker, coach, minister, and advocate that you are going to love hearing from. She shares her story of life in three phases: the "perfect" childhood and life before the memories came out, the horrors of the healing years and the victory she walks in now. Chandra's relationship with God helped her to have a strong platform that she needed for the trust in God that allowed her to follow His leading in giving up the very things that made her feel safe throughout the years of abuse. He gave her new tools to heal and to overcome and looking back she now sees that she never was safe where she thought she was. The safety for the child was merely the means of surviving the abuse. Chandra is a wife, mom and grandma enjoying life like she never knew could be hers and she is thrilled to help us to see how she got to this place. You can find Chandra at www.chandramoyer.com or email her at chandra.moyer@yahoo.com. If you would like to support this podcast, you can find "Only God Rescued Me" at www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod or buy the "Lisa's World" subscription to bonus episodes on this podcast, available on the Anchor or Spotify platforms for $5.99 per month. Thank you for listening! 
01:04:49
March 02, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir, Part 2
Join Lisa as she reads and discusses her memoir, "Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse," available on Amazon, Kindle and Barnes and Noble online. Today we discuss the event that started the repression to break and how the first flashback started. Thank you for your ongoing support! If you have questions you would like answered or have ideas for further podcasts, please contact me at: onlygodrescuedme@yahoo.com and write "Subscription" in the subject. 
26:50
February 16, 2022
Pat Hayden, SRA Victor
Pat Hayden has an interview that is raw and powerful. Confined to her bedroom for decades due to programming, she has insights and wisdom from finding healing with God and freedom from horrific abuse. Hear about the box she inherited from her father and grandfather and what it contained. Follow her journey of devastation that led her to a decision to kill herself but found her getting saved instead. Listen to the grief of the decades lost and the hope as she opens the curtains for the first time and notices the softly falling snow landing on a forest of pines under her window. There is a trigger warning for this episode as she talks about some hard rituals. If you are a survivor and would like to join a support group, go to Christian Women SRA Survivor Support Group on facebook and ask to join. If you would like to support this coffee, find me at buymeacoffee.com/onlygod or find the support button on Anchor or Spotify where for $5.99 you can access special episodes called "Lisa's World." Thank you for your ongoing support and encouragement.
56:01
February 12, 2022
Exciting New Opportunity
Presenting paid subscriptions in Lisa's World. Today I explain this exciting new opportunity. For $5.99 you can support this podcast and get access to locked content where I explore my thoughts and feelings in a more intimate setting. This enables me to fund new and exciting projects that are coming. Thank you so much for your encouragement and continued support!
03:56
February 11, 2022
Lisa's World: Memoir Part 1
Welcome to Lisa's World! Thank you so much for subscribing and for your support and encouragement. I am excited to bring to you my thoughts in a more intimate setting. Today's show is me discussing my memoir, "Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse," available on Kindle, Amazon, and Barnes and Noble online. I give you the background of the difficulties in writing the book. I read through the forwards by Dr. Willa Wertheimer and Catherine. As I read, I stop and discuss each my thinking along the way as I wrote. I hope you enjoy It! As a subscriber, if you have any questions or thoughts about what to include in the podcast, you may contact me at: onlygodrescuedme@yahoo.com. In the subject, please write "podcast subscriber" so that I make sure I answer you personally. 
28:14
February 11, 2022
Mary Knight, SRA Victor and Film Producer
Mary Knight is a very gentle powerhouse of a survivor. She shares her story of ritual abuse and her very vulnerable journey to validate and understand it while documenting the journey in a film that she has put out for everyone to see! Talk about amazing. She talks about connecting with Marilyn Van Derbur (Miss America 1958 who came out with her explosive memoir about her father sexually abusing her growing up and her having completely repressed it), Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk (author of “The Body Keeps the Score”) and Dr. Elizabeth Loftus (“expert” on “False Memory Syndrome” and expert witness for the Ghislaine Maxwell and Harvey Weintstein). If you would like to connect with Mary, she would love to hear from you. If a survivor watches her film and would like to talk with her, she is willing to have one conversation for free. Ways to connect with Mary: Maryknightproductions.com maryknighthappy@yahoo.com (If you email her, she will send you free essays she has written) Film: “Am I Crazy? My journey to determine if my memories are true.” Youtube: https://youtu.be/lwIuG4g2QiI Interview with RealWomen/RealStories Memoir coming soon: Becoming Mrs. Brown: Essay by a Child Sex Trafficking Survivor Thank you for listening! If you would like to support this podcast: buymeacoffee.com/onlygod
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January 25, 2022
Can God be good if SRA exists? with Charisse Milan
Can God truly be good if SRA exists? How could a good God not stop the evil that we have had to endure? Today, we are joined with SRA Victor, Charisse Milan, Author of, "For the Silenced Ones," (available on Amazon, Kindle, Audible). I believe this is a very important episode, as we wrestle with these questions. We have to be able to answer these questions to find out if we can serve God and trust Him. Without complete trust, we cannot get close to Him. Charisse mentions an article she wrote on her website, (www.forthesilencedones.com), and the article is entitled, "Will the Real Jesus Step Forward." If you are interested in exploring more on this topic, Lisa Meister has recently published, "You've Got the Wrong Guy," available on Amazon and Kindle. To support her Podcast, please find me at buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your kind and generous support and for listening! #onlygodrescuedme #lisameister #christianity #isgodgood #forthesilencedones #charissemilan #podcast
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January 19, 2022
Kate, SRA Victor
Today I am delighted to bring you Kate, an sra victor. She found out she had DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) a few years ago, but was terrified to find out what had caused it. A life-long relationship with God has helped her to trust Him to bring to her the information she needed to find out what the abuse had been. Learning about sra was difficult, but you will be amazed at the healing Kate has found in the few months she has been working on healing. Find out how she did it in today’s episode. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for listening!
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January 11, 2022
Chantelle Camareno, SRA Victor
Chantelle Camareno is an sra survivor with a family that has ties with Freemasons and Santeria. Hear about her story of abuse and the healing God has helped her to find in this episode. If you would like to support this podcast, you can do so at buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for listening and for your continued encouragement and support. 
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December 21, 2021
Rebecca Davis, SRA Prayer Minister
Rebecca Davis is a Spiritual Coach and Prayer Minister who God has called to help minister to sra survivors. Join us today as she talks about the need for helpers in the sra healing field, how to help survivors as well as why she personally believes sra is real. Rebecca has so much wisdom to share with us and I know you will enjoy this very informative session. You can find Rebecca at https://heresthejoy.com/. She has her books on Amazon at:  https://amzn.to/3lADfU3. Her facebook contact: https://www.facebook.com/Rebecca-DavisUntwisting-Scriptures-106852598281521/. For more information on sra, she suggests: https://ritualabuse.us/ http://ra-info.org/ https://www.rcm-usa.org/index.html. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your continued support.
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December 14, 2021
Rebecca Davis, SRA Prayer Minister
Rebecca Davis is a Spiritual Coach and Prayer Minister who God has called to help minister to sra survivors. Join us today as she talks about the need for helpers in the sra healing field, how to help survivors as well as why she personally believes sra is real. Rebecca has so much wisdom to share with us and I know you will enjoy this very informative session. You can find Rebecca at www.heresthejoy.com. She has her books on Amazon at: https://amzn.to/3lADfU3. For more information on sra, she suggests: https://ritualabuse.us/  http://ra-info.org/  https://www.rcm-usa.org/index.html. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to www.buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your continued support.
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December 13, 2021
Bruce Hecht, SRA Victor
Bruce lived next door to family who were involved in the occult. Bruce's parents felt sorry for the family, which gave the occultists room to manipulate and abuse Bruce without his parent's knowledge. Find out about his story and the healing power that God brought into his life in today's recording. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. Thank you for listening and your ongoing support! 
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November 22, 2021
Deliverance with Pastor Tony Sluzas
Pastor Tony was my pastor back in 1999 when SRA memories were fresh. He was instrumental in helping my husband and I traverse the difficult days of healing and deliverance. Hear how he stepped into our life and helped bring the saving power of Jesus into our situation. We also delve into deliverance for all survivors in this episode. Pastor Tony has a book called "Deliverance Handbook" available on Amazon and Kindle and is a must read for all survivors looking for deliverance and wholeness. It is a clear and concise book on everything you need to know from the Bible and step by step how to implement it in your life. You can find more from Pastor Sluzas in his podcasts: Our Place of Grace; Unchurched. He is a powerhouse and has a wealth of information on the Word that you will learn much from. As always, if you would like to help support this podcast, you can find me at: buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. Thank you for listening!
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October 28, 2021
Abraham, Lot and Halloween with Lisa Meister
The church has allowed the creeping of the demonic into its doors and Christians into their homes by celebrating Halloween in any capacity. While we may justify how far we go in what we do in celebrating this holiday, our children won't get the distinction. Abraham was called by God to be separate. Lot chose to go back into the evil culture that God had called Abraham out of, in the process losing his entire family. We cannot afford to make a Lot decision in celebrating Halloween. Chose to consecrate you and your family to God by boycotting Halloween in every way. Your kids walk with God depends on it. If you would like to support this podcast, please go to buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. Thank you for listening! I so appreciate your support, time and very encouraging words.
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October 13, 2021
Kimberli Koen, SRA Victor and Advocate
The enemy made a tactical error when he brought Kimberli into SRA abuse. She survived and is now an advocate bringing change to the industry that was supposed to help her heal but instead brought more harm. Join us today as Kimberli talks about the anguishing years of healing and the strength with which she advocates for others. Kimberli is starting a nonprofit to raise money for a facility that can bring comfort and compassion to survivors in those early, terrifying years of healing. You can find Kimberli on facebook as Kimberli Koen, write her at Kimberli.HCCT.com, website at anunexpectedlight.com, or find her artwork at herobands.com. As always, if you would like to support this podcast, you can find me at buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. 
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September 18, 2021
The Basics of Demonology with Brian, SRA Victor
Brian has a passion for ministering the delivering power of Jesus to those oppressed and possessed by demons. He is an sra survivor who was abused by Catholic priests. Thinking that Christianity was at the root of the abuse, he chose to go into demonology to try to get help. Instead he found himself in a dangerous world that he had to flee. He found safety and deliverance in the love and power of Jesus. Today's episode is important for us to understand what we are spiritually up against and to know how to fight it. If you would like to support this podcast, please find me at buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. 
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September 10, 2021
Lynn Marie, SRA Victor
Today we are joined by SRA victor Lynn Marie. Finding a voice for Lynn the podcast was a delight because Lynn is deaf. We are joined by interpreter Arelene Wright. You will hear pauses in this podcast as my questions are signed to Lynn and you will hear Lynn herself answer. She is a courageous woman of God who has survived the isolation of not only SRA, but also being deaf. If you would like to support this podcast, please find me at buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. Thank you for listening!
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August 11, 2021
Robyn Kranig, SRA Survivor
Robyn Kranig shares her story of overcoming sra with God's help. Hear how God healed her and helped her to start a ministry called Ritual Abuse Refuge. I found Robyn in a video series she has on what the church needs to know about sra. This is an important vision that she has that we all need to hear. You can find her at ritualabuserefuge.com, on instagram and on youtube. Please give her a listen and a follow. If you would like to support this podcast, please find me at buymeacoffee/onlygod.com. 
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July 29, 2021
Isibeal, Voodoo and Sex Trafficking Survivor, Part 3
In this episode we find how Isibeal found healing. We are joined by Brian and Pastor Patrick, two men who were willing to walk into Isibeal's life and bring Jesus to her. This powerful episode will change your life. You can contact Pastor Patrick for help. Facebook Live:- Patrick Nnadi WhatsApp:- +447930677143 Tweeter;- Patrick Nnadi Website:- www.pillaroffiremin.org. If you would like to support me in this podcast ministry, you can find me at buymeacoffee/onlygod.com.
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July 22, 2021
Isibeal, Voodoo and Sex Trafficking Survivor, Part 2
Isibeal continues with her difficult story of abuse and horror in her life. Today we see how Isibeal finally begins to connect with the right person who is going to finally bring the change she needs. This is part 2 of a 3 part series. This is triggering, so please be careful as you listen. Today I have also started with the Buy Me a Coffee campaign. If you would like to partner with me in this cause, you can find me at buymeacoffee.com/onlygod. Thank you for your amazing support!
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July 16, 2021
Isibeal, Voodoo and Sex Trafficking Survivor
Isibeal was born in Africa and dedicated in a voodoo ceremony. Hear her journey from Africa to England with a tale of bullying, isolation and sexual abuse. This is part one of a three part series. ***Trigger warning***
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July 06, 2021
Understanding Dissociative Identity Disorder with Survivor John Smith
Dissociative Identity Disorder is a complex idea for survivors and non-survivors alike. Join us today as John Smith explains DID and how he brings God in to help him heal.
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June 25, 2021
An Analogy for Understanding SRA with Charisse Milan
Seeing a friend or loved one going through the process of healing from sra is very difficult and the love for the person can make one impatient for the time it takes to hurry up. Charisse Milan has an amazing analogy that she has published on her blog called "A Snake in the Path," and can be found at www.forthesilencedones.com. The layers within this analogy gives a much better understanding of what the survivor is going through and why it takes as long as it does. God's process can be trusted, even in its length and intensity. 
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June 21, 2021
Hope, SRA Survivor and Hero Mom
The worst part of life for Hope is the fact that she has been unable to rescue her son from the very group that satanic ritually abused her as well. In a cruel court fate, her son was given complete custody to her ex, making Hope have to find healing for herself so she can help her son as soon as he is free. Hear the harrowing story of how Hope was unable to get free of the cult until she was 40 years old. Hear her courage as she finds Jesus to heal and to stand in the gap for her own son. Listen to her passion as she explains how you can have the very same God helping you in your life. This is an episode you don't want to miss.
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June 16, 2021
Jon Wedger, ex-detective and sra hero, with Isabella and Brian
Jon Wedger is an ex Scotland Yard detective and sra whistleblower. Jon explains why he believes in sra and how he sees it functioning in top levels in society in England and around the world. Isabella and Brian join him with their expertise in voodoo and explaining satanism at high levels worldwide. Hear how the church needs to stop being afraid and take the demonic head on in this end times battle that is happening. As Isabella says, "How can you be a part time Christian with a full time devil?" 
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June 13, 2021
Drew and Lacey, SRA Survivor Support Heroes
Drew and Lacey took Kitt into their home 3 years ago. A year later they realized she was an sra survivor. Not sure what to do, they looked for information on how to help. They found a teaching series by Russ Dizdar called Freedom Encounters at www.shatterthedarkness.net. It gave them a start on how to help an sra survivor, but the rest they had to go to God on their own for wisdom and guidance. Through very difficult circumstances, they found God able to heal the dissociative parts Kitt had and bring joy to her previously tortured life. Only God can bring that healing. Join us today as we hear how God did it with the help of two courageous helpers.
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June 08, 2021
Josephina and Joe, SRA Survivor and Hero Husband
For the first time publicly, Josephina shares her story of sra. Joe, her husband, joins her by telling his thoughts and feelings along the way. Growing up in a Christian looking family, Josephina was subjected to sra. Her parents also accessed her and Joe's two young daughters. With all three women in his life healing, Joe strongly leans on his Lord and Savior Jesus Christ to get them through. Follow this amazing family on their healing journey. 
02:01:35
June 03, 2021
Protecting Children with Becky and Bridget, SRA Heroes
Hundreds of thousands of children disappear every year. Sex trafficking and sra are a real threat that we need to guard our kids from. Today Becky and Bridget join us from Save Our Children Podcast to teach us how to monitor social media and how to educate our children from the real threats of our culture. Hearing survivor stories is important, but even more important is saving our children from being satanic ritually abused in the first place. You can find Save Our Children Podcast on your favorite podcast platform and you can find them on instagram. 
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May 30, 2021
Jennifer, SRA Hero Mom
Jennifer is a mom of two precious girls who is fighting to get them away from their sra abusive father. This is her first ever interview telling her story about their sra disclosure and the horror the last 5 years has been since they were taken away by the courts. Share this interview far and wide so we can get the case reversed and get these darling, beautiful girls back home to the safety of their mother's arms. 
01:59:55
May 26, 2021
Emma Pietrzak, SRA Hero on Helping Survivors
The amazing Emma Pietrzak shares her journey of learning about sra and figuring out how to help sra survivors. Finding little on sra in her quest for education, she created a space for survivors to share their stories on her podcast. Emma also shares how to return to basic human compassion and emotion in helping survivors to heal. Emma gives lots of good ideas to help get our minds running with new ways to jump into this battle and help to call society's attention to the plight of survivors, which will eventually lead to helping to save children out of the cult active families that are abusing them. You can find Emma at: The Imagination Podcast, youtube and spotify; theemmapreneurofficial on instagram; yourimaginationisreal.com for her website.
01:24:09
May 23, 2021
The Bascis of Healing from SRA
It is overwhelming to have to handle flashbacks of SRA and find ways to heal from it. Today we discuss what we need to know, beginning resources to get and basics for staying safe. Healing from SRA is not easy but it is doable. Let's get this journey started.
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May 19, 2021
Mother's Day and SRA
Mother's Day is coming and with it a tangle of feelings for sra survivors dealing with moms who didn't protect them or abused them, moms of sra survivors fighting courts to get their children out of sra situations and survivors trying to be moms themselves. 
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May 07, 2021
Understanding the Demonic with Patricia Baird Clark, SRA Hero
Patrica Baird Clark has ministered to SRA survivors for decades. She shares with us the Biblical understanding of what SRA is and what Satan is attempting to do through the rituals. Her website is hispresenceonline.org and her book, "Sanctification in Reverse: The Essence of Satanic Ritual Abuse" can be found on Amazon. 
01:00:40
May 03, 2021
Samantha Baldwin, SRA Hero Mom
Samantha Baldwin is the mother of two little boys who began to disclose sra to her by their father. Hear her harrowing account of what happened as she fought valiantly to keep them safe. She is the author of "everything is going to be okay," which can be found on Amazon. You can also contact her at www.samanthabaldwin.co.uk.
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April 28, 2021
SRA Survivors Speak Out
Hear what SRA survivors want you to know. 
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April 26, 2021
John Smith, SRA Survivor
John Smith shares his journey with us today as a survivor of sra. Listen as John uses his "stubborness" to come to Jesus and find his healing. If you would like to contact Fractured Hearts Ministries, please email fhmministries@yahoo.com. 
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April 21, 2021
The Cost of Telling
There is a huge cost for survivors to tell their harrowing story of satanic ritual abuse. Today we discuss that cost and why survivors have such a hard time to speak out. What can you do to support the survivors? Listen and find out how you can make a difference.
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April 14, 2021
God is Lifting the Hoods
Robes and hoods give ritual abuse perpetrators a perceived feeling of safety and anonymity. God has seen and is now in the process of exposing the perpetrators. We are in a season of of the hoods being finally taken off and truth revealed as survivors are courageously speaking their horrendous experiences of abuse. 
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April 12, 2021
Susan Belrose; SRA Survivor
Susan Belrose shares her journey with us today as a survivor of sra. Listen as this tenatious survivor takes her abuse to Jesus and allows Him to lead her to a place of healing. 
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April 09, 2021
God vs. Satan: The Great Juxtaposition
There is no better way to understand the difference between God and Satan than at an occult ritual. Learn how it influenced Lisa and how she responded. This episode is triggering, so please use care if listening.
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April 06, 2021
Charisse Milan, SRA Survivor
Charisse Milan shares her journey with us today as a survivor of sra. Listen as she shares her heart, explaining how she navigated through her recovery with God by her side. This episode is not triggering and an easy way to ease into this terrifying topic.
55:47
April 01, 2021
My Quest for Justice for Satanic Ritual Abuse
Lisa went to the police and filed a report against her sra perpetrator. Find out what happened and how Lisa sees justice now.
11:08
March 29, 2021
What is Ritual Abuse
****TRIGGER WARNING**** This episode can be very upsetting to some viewers.  Join Lisa as she discusses the basics of what rituals are and why they are done. 
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March 26, 2021
Does the Bible Back Up Satanic Ritual Abuse?
****Trigger Warning**** Today's episode dives into the Biblical accounts of Satanic Ritual Abuse. The Bible is graphic in its depiction of the abuse, so please have care if you choose to listen to today's podcast. 
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March 25, 2021
Ritual Abuse and Good Friday: What the Church Needs to Know
Good Friday is the most difficult Christian holiday for ritual abuse survivors. Join Lisa as she explains the difficulties survivors have with the blood and sacrifice of Jesus and how the church can help them through.
11:51
March 19, 2021
Lisa Meister, SRA Survivor
This is my story of growing up and dealing with sexual abuse and SRA.
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March 17, 2021
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