Hunting down your BLACKBOX
By Maria Lopez
We all want to have the “perfect” spiritual journey .. but in the spirit world we control zilch.. it’s ugly messy heart breaking & miraculous - we carry secrets hidden in a infinite universe we have no access to.. until the universe pushes us off a cliff..welcome to “the path” NOT
Hunting down your BLACKBOX Apr 17, 2022
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In the healing of trauma you are given so much information about divinity
If you do plant medecines to heal trauma you get so much information about “the world” - the constant transformation of life - the dissolution of blockages - the truth of your fears - the limitations of apes - the world expands everywhere in your healing - as you heal the injury
Apr 17, 202247:21
The totality of you returned from trauma
Trauma fragments you - you’re shattered - in pieces - you need to be whole - in wholeness your power returns - you’re here again - that’s your healing
Apr 15, 202242:34
In healing you are being put back together like a shattered cup - you’re being made whole
To heal you must be made whole - you you need to be accompanied into the dark by a force a light greater than the dark - the shattered pieces of you lit in the shadow - your fear dissolved - & your soul that goes returned
Mar 27, 202247:24
Because in trauma you are severed from love & divinity - the healing is home - love & reconnection
In trauma you have been evicted from home- from love - from divinity - the long arduous journey is to go home - whatever your vehicle slow or fast - it’s to get you home - to live to connection to divinity - it’s a journey from the dark to the light
Mar 26, 202201:09:57
Your trauma is not your truth - but to get to your truth you must face it
Your trauma is not you - it’s a disfigurement - a shape that can be readjusted - cleansed but first you must meet with it before you get to your truth
Mar 21, 202246:20
You don’t get to run the world when you heal but you do get to be whole -at peace with u
You don’t get the Tesla after your healing - no - the gift is you - you value you - love you - connect to you - the lottery is the cleansing of all the trauma ‘ the reconnection to your soul - your authenticity - your wholeness .
Mar 19, 202201:00:08
There is always another version of you .. always
In trauma there’s one “stuck” version of you - but there are many versions of you unfolding as you face each fear - each time you come head to head with a fear a wall is removed & a bigger version of you emerges - the plant world helps you remove the obstacles ..
Mar 10, 202241:31
Expect the unexpected in healing trauma - surprise is not an option - it will happen
Expect the unexpected if you’re healing from trauma - if you want it fixed completely it will be but not without paying the price of becoming someone new / are you willing to live without trauma?
Mar 05, 202240:31
So many chances to heal & live again with love -
You can’t see the trauma but you will - you’re immersed in the trauma & you can’t see it - but you will see all of it - like a zillion bacteria - you will see it all & then leave
Feb 22, 202237:22
No matter your trauma, you can heal / just ask for help - it will come & not in the way you imagined
No matter your trauma, you can heal & no it won’t be anything like you imagined - & you will ask for help - surrender, ask & let the universe take you on your healing journey - it might happen in other dimensions but you are not lost - just raw away from your true home
Feb 19, 202246:24
There’s always something bigger going on - it’s not just the trauma
You think it’s an unseen trauma … but actually it’s always something sooo much bigger - it’s the battle between the light & the dark - love or no love - to release your child from its captivity you must return to the moment you were stolen & reclaim your power
Feb 13, 202239:42
You will heal - whatever happened - whenever it happened - it’s all possible
You will heal - you just need to want it enough - to go into the dark - to rescue your child - to let the medecine heal you - on its schedule in its way - you won’t understand & it doesn’t matter - you don’t have to - you just need to surrender
Feb 12, 202251:33
Locate your child - whatever happened to them - they’re blacked out shut down - go wake them up
You need to locate your child - yes - that’s the journey - they blacked out - shit down - disappeared - the journey is to go through the clutches of the trauma & find your child - therein the win
Jan 18, 202240:48
There are layers to be torn down to get to the prison where you’ve been held hostage
There are walls to get through to get to the prison of your trauma - the closer you get the more will rise - be scared keep going - you’ve trained for this with the medecine - you’re ready to be free
Jan 16, 202242:39
You the predator & the trauma cook together - all of it needs to be expelled
It’s ALL cooked together - you - the trauma - the predator - it’s all alive in a frothing sewer that’s ignited by fear - for it to be removed the medecine pulls you out - & cleanses the fueled sewer - no question it’s a sewer
Jan 15, 202249:11
Yess.. it’s a departure .. you will have to leave or metaphorically “die” - all of your trauma clean
If you decide to heal you will need to “leave” - collapse the blockage - “die” metaphorically - it’s a process - a long unknown mystery but it’s possible - you will return as “you” aligned with you - & then your journey begins
Jan 13, 202249:50
You are the gift but like the lotus flower you might need to nourish in the dark
To heal trauma you must become the lotus flower - you need to dive into the dark to emerge resplendent - don’t turn away from the dark .. don’t numb - you’re nature - you can endure everything
Jan 10, 202256:30
Trauma is contradiction - deceit - you’ve left home - you have to get home
We live in contradiction - we can do it easily but trauma is a monumental deceit & contradiction - to leave us an odyssey - a true journey of love
Jan 09, 202245:30
You’re energy & trauma is “blocked” energy - it’s a boulder in your tea cup - it needs extraction -
Trauma = blockage - freezing - a boulder in a teacup - it smothers everything - it’s dense energy - we are just energy either in the flow or not - you’ve been ambushed at the gates of life - but energy can be dissolved
Jan 07, 202242:05
You got nothing on the technology of the plant medecine - it is the trauma revolution
You think a chip is the future ? That’s child’s play - the trauma revolution is the plant medecine revolution - it’s the most powerful technology available to heal trauma - if you’re stuck - you don’t have to be - the collective wants to make a buck - but trauma healing isn’t owned by apes - it’s directly connected to the true healers that get you to the trauma - but you have to enter that shadow
Jan 06, 202241:14
It’s a practical process in healing - it may feel unknown but it’s happening ..
Healing with plant medecines is nature - you don’t have the answers or the schedule - but it’s happening - you will reach milestones until you finally meet the little sweetheart that got traumatized & reconnect ..
Jan 04, 202240:02
You’re the perfection disfigured by trauma - & then you’re perfect again
You’re the perfection of nature disfigured by trauma & then you’re perfect again - you just have to face the shadow .. you will re recreated returned to your perfection
Jan 02, 202246:47
The trauma is bad but it’s the refusal of your life force your divinity that’s the damage
It’s not the trauma that’s the damage - it’s the separation - the refusal of your life force - it’s an invasion - & accommodation of the dark - to heal you must see the process of the takeover & refuse it .
Jan 02, 202241:04
Yachts armor & dark energy .. it’s all part of the healing of trauma.. waking up
Of course you want to be on that yacht .. but you’re not .. you don’t believe you should .. perhaps you don’t deserve it .. your trauma is your spokesman .. your darkness festering .. you finally want out .. you finally acknowledge your in the sewer - that you been lost & then the healing begins
Dec 28, 202101:04:02
There’s a choice - a real choice when u face trauma - it’s YOU that finally matters
In trauma - you don’t exist - you have chosen the trauma over you - in this defrosting of the trauma you have chosen YOU - it’s painful, challenging - like an old creaking ship breaking apart - you will not play “a role” you’ll finally “show up”
Dec 22, 202158:14
Darkness can’t exist in the light - that’s where the medecine comes in
Darkness can’t exist in the light - when the trauma happens it’s left in the dark - the light of the medecine & the love dismantles the “everything” of you & the voyage home becomes the expedition
Dec 19, 202157:08
39 trillion microbacterial bugaloolas all over you - you can’t see like - like the shadow
There’s so much you can’t see .. trauma luces in that no see place
Dec 18, 202147:04
You’re here .. stuck, unstuck .. big .. small - it’s your journey .. live it
You’re here .. stuck unstuck .. traumatized or not - it’s your path .. if you need to heal.. you will find your way out .. but never forget your nature you come from it - your trauma is an experience you heal it with “experience” trust the intelligence that lives within you .. & heal
Dec 12, 202158:57
Pretty straight up procedure in trauma to be unwrangled
You need to decipher & dismantle to release trauma - you’ve arrived .. helpless vulnerable - you’re counting on love .. you can’t count on those who you arrive to ..
Dec 07, 202154:25
Power- yes .. it’s part of the big theme of fear - your traumatized .. your powerless
Power goes hand in hands with fear - all fear no power - you’re a boat without an engine in a raging sea .. at the mercy of everything - to reclaim your trauma is to reclaim your power - fear eviscerates it..the aya returns it
Dec 05, 202158:32
Fear - an interesting dilemma - an energetic cauldron & a force to be battled
Fear - it paralyzes - it’s a power to be reckoned with - a stealth bomber - a prisoner - how does your child overcome it? How do you understand it & leave - all possible in the aya world
Dec 02, 202149:36
You can’t be “half” of anything - like pregnancy - like an avalanche - everything must be seen
You can’t avoid anything because all of you must be healed … how long how deep .. you won’t know if you’ve been blinded - the medecine if ata will extricate cleanse & put you in the car wash of her love
Nov 26, 202152:12
You’re nature - every single piece of you is nature .. but you’re severed from your spirit
Trauma steals your spirit - your nature - you can’t deny it - but you have - in the healing with nature you are healing your spirit - the spirit of the plant heals your hijacked spirit - frozen by the dark
Nov 25, 202101:02:05
If there’s trauma you’re blinded by terror - that’s the source - shutdown
If there’s trauma - you’re a vault - in that vault lies the truth - the memory - everything oh but EVERYTHING is a defense system built to REFUSE that place that is too terrifying to open up - there’s only one journey into the depths - the dragon must surface
Nov 24, 202139:57
And then the moment comes when the first terrifying wound is faced - the universe is healing
& then you face the first overwhelming wound - it will be the hardest moment of your life - & it will be in an altered state but it will be more difficult than this reality - you’re a rat in a lab being taken apart & you will know it ..keep sitting .. keep seeing & face the dragon - in its lair all wounds are healed
Nov 23, 202155:29
Yes we’re nature - all the information you need lives there - that’s where I can heal
Nature is everywhere - we can’t see it’s magic it’s healing power it’s everything - unless we journey into it - it’s there where the ultimate healing can happen
Nov 21, 202101:07:59
Yes.. your energy .. every last cell is carrying every part of you including le trauma
Yes.. there’s only one place to look to heal inside - inside the vault of you - your a light body .. the aya aligns you & throws out the distorted energy .. it might be a few years but just be grateful she moved in
Nov 19, 202150:30
It’s subtle entangled sophisticated & sick - but traumas are real life stories
Your trauma if tricked is subtle sophisticated & sick., something is holding on because the subtlety of the trick is believed by the child - you are the heroine of your trauma & the victim - now you must leave
Nov 17, 202152:05
The most powerful initial weapon in healing is meditation
Meditation is awareness - the platform of awareness - rooting - with that tool you can sit through anything - see anything - you are the seeing - Niobe but the seeing - with that tool you can be completely dismantled & the poison or the dark exposed & expelled
Nov 16, 202148:25
Here it is - the code .. where are u?
You disappeared with the trauma.. that’s where your nuclear power is hiding.. you just got to go in..scared?? Absolutely .. going in Totally
Nov 15, 202145:41
So many lessons in the dark.. so much repair - seriously it’s like an emergency ward
The aya repairs you from top to toe … it replaces the broken parts - all navigational tools like a compass fixed - if you’re willing to sit in her emergency room she will put you back together like jump tu dumpty
Nov 14, 202131:04
Expose & expel - that’s how trauma heals - are you ready?
Expose & expel is the raison d’etre of trauma - to dissolve it - you must see it - how are you going to see it if you’ve severed? By bringing in an ally … Aya is a great one
Nov 13, 202150:05
Your trauma has a character - an understanding - it needs to be understood to be healed
Your trauma has a root -an understanding -a character ..you need to u detest and all of it so you can separate the socks from the tshirt in the spin dry cycle - only then can true release happen
Nov 11, 202149:20
No point pulling out your guitar to twang your way back to healing - the path is fierce
Don’t underestimate what you’re going into. It gets harder the closer u get to the origin of your wound - more entities will frighten you but you must persevere - it will frustrate you, frighten you challenge you .. but the diamond is not easily won - & that diamond is your soul - your exiled soul
Nov 10, 202151:54
Energetic imprinting us real & needs to be cleansed
Trauma is energetic imprinting that sinks deep into your system & holds you hostage - it’s energy - it’s dark - the medecine cleanses - locates the imprinting exposes and exodus’s its relentlessly - then reconnects you with the seed that got wiped out so it can blossom
Nov 09, 202141:57
& then the universe shows up & dissolves you & then huh??
If you ask for help it will show up & it will heal you .. but there’s no going back to who you were.. & you will have to face being the you you never knew wrapped in armor & that’s a whole other journey
Nov 08, 202137:35
You have to risk all of you to get all of you back
Yes.. if there’s severe trauma you have to risk all of you to get ALL of you back - you will have to break with convention & challenge the collective - it’s just the nature of true conviction & will to heal - your oath is your reward !!
Nov 06, 202101:04:26
The journey home is the reconnect with your little munchkin
It’s your little munchkin you’re rescuing - your little trembling scared innocent little toddler .. child - it’s him/ her you need to connect with .. to do that you must overhaul the invaders
Nov 04, 202148:17
How do you know your healing? Your beginning to feel the truth .. messy difficult but true
How do you know your healing? - the truth is bigger than the fear & yes you are feeling your truth - feeling the most difficult feelings that were always there but smothered & yes your healing
Oct 28, 202150:48
Evil is ether - it weaves into you & you can’t see it - until you can
Evil is ether - trauma in childhood - a shutdown - an overwhelm - evil seeps into you - into your energetic bring & owns your - the aya is an ally in its removal & eviction
Oct 27, 202153:06