Confessions of A Reformer
By Mike Maeshiro
Confessions of A ReformerMay 13, 2024
Stories that Represent: Call Me by Your Name
Season 4: Episode 17
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey.
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Stories that Represent: Little Fires Everywhere
Season 4: Episode 16
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey.
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Stories that Represent: The Happiest Season
Season 4: Episode 15
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey.
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Stories that Represent: Buffy The Vampire Slayer
Season 4: Episode 14
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this episode, Mike talks about the impact of powerful women in shows he watched as a kid.
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Stories that Represent: Rocketman
Season 4: Episode 13
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this episode, Mike shares the impact of the real life stories of Elton John and Freddie Mercury.
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God Made Me Gay - Substack
Stories that Represent: Introduction
Season 4: Episode 12
Movies and shows were a significant part of Mike's coming out journey. In this series, Mike will talk about some of those stories and how and why they impacted him the way they did.
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Exiting the CCM World: Derek Webb
Season 4: Episode 11
In this episode, Mike interviews Musician, Derek Webb. Derek began his career in the 1990's as part of the Contemporary Christian Music band, Caedmon's Call. After 10 years in that world, he stepped out to follow his own way and to take the risk to speak and sing his truth. He continues to pursue authenticity in his music today.
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Journal Entry #2: Racism in the Algorithm
Season 4: Episode 10
Journal Entries: Reflections Around Politics. It's an election year and that means some crazy stuff is about to happen! This series will show up, as needed, to pull apart, poke at, and examine political adjacent happenings.
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God Made Me Gay - Substack
Deconstructing Jesus
Season 4: Episode 9
In this episode, Mika Perrin, Mike's sister and the host of Numa's Decunstruction Group, Ashes, joins Mike to discuss what it means to deconstruct Jesus and to share some of their own processes and pain around this topic.
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Journal Entry #1: Trans Allyship
Season 4: Episode 8
Journal Entries: Reflections Around Politics. It's an election year and that means some crazy stuff is about to happen! This series will show up, as needed, to pull apart, poke at, and examine political adjacent happenings.
The Real Lives of Gay Men: Colton Underwood
Season 4: Episode 7
Mike wraps up this series with special guest, reality star, Colton Underwood (The Bachelor, Coming Out Colton). Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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The Real Lives of Gay Men: Ben Cardenas
Season 4: Episode 6
In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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God Made Me Gay - Substack
The Real Lives of Gay Men: Ben Thomas
Season 4: Episode 5
In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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God Made Me Gay - Substack
The Real Lives of Gay Men: Dylan Miller
Season 4: Episode 4
In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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God Made Me Gay - Substack
The Real Lives of Gay Men: Eric Ellis
Season 4: Episode 3
In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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The Real Lives of Gay Men: JB Somers
Season 4: Episode 2
In this series, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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The Real Lives of Gay Men: Introduction
Season 4: Episode 1
In this, the first series of Season 4, Mike hosts short conversations with gay men in order to hold space for their stories to be told; stories of being gay in a straight man’s world. Get ready to learn, to be uncomfortable and to laugh your head off as these men talk about life, love, sex and being gay.
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Screw Christmas!
Season 3: Episode 43
It’s Christmas and Christmas often means family … or does it? At the back-end of deconstruction, Christmas is complicated and it doesn’t mean what it use to mean for many of us.
In this episode, Mike explores some of the disappointment and pain that comes from the silence that expressing the wish for something else brings this time of year.
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2024 Goal-Setting Workshop
Conservatives Got Something Right
Season 3: Episode 42
A lack of meaning and direction in our lives can create mental and emotional suffering. As I look towards the beginning of 2024 I find myself wanting to reclaim something from my capitalist, career-obsessed past. Let's Go!
2023 Year In Review
Season 3: Episode 41
2023 has been a great year! As Mike prepares to wrap up the year and Season 3, he reflects back on some of the most impactful and meaningful podcast moments.
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A Coming Out Story with Tyler Williamson
Season 3: Episode 40
In this episode, Mike interviews one of his coaching clients about his deconstruction and coming out journey amidst the healing of spiritual and emotional trauma.
Betraying The Bible
Season 3: Episode 39
Many of us have been taught to come to the Bible with a very specific expectation and bias. In this episode, Mike shares how he betrayed the Bible by demanding things from it that were never true and how his deconstruction process has let the Bible be what it is rather than trying to control with he was told it had to be.
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My Memoir and Other Shameless Plugs
Season 3: Episode 38
It’s November and Mike is already planning for 2024. With that, comes a new writing project - one that many of you have been waiting and asking for! In this episode, Mike lets you in on some of his excitement for what’s to come and his journey in getting here.
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My Memoir Substack Waiting List
The Afterlife: Adam Harris
Season 3: Episode 37
What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike speaks to Adam Harris, Associate Pastor at GodWhy Church in Hendersonville, Tennessee regarding his extensive study and exploration of Near Death Experiences.
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NDE Information:
Is There Life after Death? Fifty Years of Research at UVA
Dr. Bruce Greyson: Nour Foundation
The Handbook of Near Death Experiences
Irreducible Mind
The Afterlife: Kevin Garcia
Season 3: Episode 36
What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike speaks to Kevin Garcia, author of Bad Theology Kills, and Spiritual Recovery Coach helping people create sustainable spiritual practices.
The Afterlife: Josh Scott
Season 3: Episode 35
What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. In this episode, Mike interviews Josh Scott, Lead Pastor at GracePointe Church in Nashville, Tennessee.
Josh Scott: Instagram: GracePointe Church: Bible Stories for Grown-Ups
The Afterlife: Introduction
Season 3: Episode 34
What happens after we die? Is there life beyond this? In this series Mike gathers input and thoughts from some of his favorite deconstructed theologians to grapple with these questions. But first, in this episode Mike shares some of his own thoughts and opinions on the matter.
Gender: Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza
Season 3: Episode 33
Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike interviews Dr. Roberto Che Espinoza, non-binary trans guy, professor, theologian, and author.
Gender: April Ajoy
Seaon 3: Episode 32
Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike interviews April Ajoy, Influencer and Co-Host of @evangelicalish regarding her experience navigating gender issues within her marriage.
Gender: Introduction
Season 3: Episode 31
Gender is a complicated topic in today's world. Implicit bias and an unwillingness to call into question fundamental beliefs, leads to many dismissing the topic altogether. In this episode, Mike shares his thoughts as someone who has been doing the research and the work of connecting to and listening to those who don't fit into the traditional male/female role.
Atheists: Adam Frost
Season 3: Episode 30
In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with Adam Frost from the Curiocity Podcast.
Atheists: Heretical Theology
Season 3: Episode 29
In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with Will @Heretical_Theology.
Atheists: Eve Was Framed
Season 3: Episode 28
In the Atheists series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways. This week, he talks with @evewasframed.
Atheists: Introduction
Season 3: Episode 27
Allowing people to represent their views even when those views contradict our own, is of high value at Numa. In this series, Mike shares his thoughts on connecting with atheists in his journey and interviews a few whose work has impacted him in significant ways.
Sex After Church: Eric Feltes
Season 3: Episode 26
What does sex look like as we step outside of purity culture in the evangelical system? In this episode, Life Coach, Speaker and Self Love Advocate, Eric Feltes returns to explore this topic with Mike, pushing him to uncomfortable places.
Sex After Church: Kat Harris
Season 3: Episode 25
What does sex look like as we step outside of purity culture in the evangelical system? This week, Mike visits with Kat Harris, Coach and Author of the book Sexless in the City as they explore what sex looks like in and after the deconstruction process.
Sex After Church: Nick Gulick
Season 3: Episode 24
What does sex look like as we step outside of purity culture in the evangelical system? Sex and Relationship Coach, Nick Gulick joins Mike this week for an in-depth discussion where Mike surprisingly cries.
Queer People in the Church: David Gushee
Season 3: Episode 23
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series, Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. This week Professor of Christian Ethics, Dr. David P. Gushee joins Mike. Dr. Gushee authored the book Changing Our Minds, and is a leading activist on LGBTQ+ inclusion.
Queer People in the Church: Eric Feltes
Season 3: Episode 22
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series, Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. In this episode, Eric Feltes, Life Coach, Speaker and Self Love Advocate joins Mike to share his story as a gay man in the Church.
Queer People in the Church: Colby Martin
Season 3: Episode 21
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series, Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. Colby Martin, pastor, ally and author of UnClobber and The Shift joins Mike this week.
Queer People in the Church: Alicia Johnston
Season 3: Episode 20
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series, Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. This week, Mike explores the topic of liberation theology with Alicia Johnston, Mdiv, Seventh Day Adventist Pastor.
Alicia Johnston: Instagram; YouTube
Queer People in the Church: William Matthews
Season 3: Episode 19
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. In the 2nd episode of this series, Mike speaks with William Matthews, successful Christian singer and songwriter, regarding his perspective of the church and how it pertains to the queer experience.
Queer People in the Church: Introduction
Season 3: Episode 18
There's a culture war between the church and the queer community. In this series Mike showcases voices from both people in the queer community and allies who have done work to integrate the two. In this episode, Mike invites his good friend, Mica Nueda to share her story of discovery.
Pride Month! Brita Filter
Season 3: Episode 17
It's Pride Month and as part of the celebration, Mike is hosting a special series featuring the voices of Drag Queens! In this episode, Mike talks to Drag Queen, Brita Filter.
Pride Month! Flamy Grant
Season 3: Episode 16
It's Pride Month and as part of the celebration, Mike is hosting a special series featuring the voices of Drag Queens! In this episode, Mike talks to Drag Queen, Flamy Grant.
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Pride Month! Tracey Ottomey
Season 3: Episode 15
It's Pride Month and as part of the celebration, Mike is hosting a special series featuring the voices of Drag Queens! In this episode, Mike talks to Tracey Ottomey, Drag Queen host in Nashville.
Tracey Ottomey: Instagram; The Big Drag Bus
Numa Coaching
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Pride Month! Introduction
Season 3: Episode 14
It's Pride Month and as part of the celebration, Mike will be hosting a special series featuring the voices of Drag Queens! In this introduction episode, Mike shares his heart and vision for his work in the LGBTQ+ Community and a new opportunity for all allies to partner towards that vision.
Numa Coaching
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Christian Nationalism Revisited: Josh Scott
Season 3: Episode 13
Back by popular demand! In response to intense opposition to reels from their previous conversation on Christian Nationalism, Mike brings back Josh Scott, Author of Bible Stories for Grown-Ups and Lead Pastor at GracePointe Church in Nashville, Tennessee. Mike and Josh dig in even deeper to the uncomfortable topic and the emotions the conversation brings to the forefront.
Josh Scott: Instagram: GracePointe Church: Bible Stories for Grown-Ups
Stories of Deconstruction: Tamice Spencer-Helms
Season 3: Episode 12
In the final of 3 bonus Stories of Deconstruction episodes, Mike speaks with Tamice Spencer-Helms, Author of the Book Faith Unleavened, The Wilderness Between Trayvon Martin & George Floyd.
Tamice Spencer-Helms: Sub:Culture Website; Instagram; TikTok