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Spectacle: Discovering a Vibrant Life Through the Lens of Curiosity

Spectacle: Discovering a Vibrant Life Through the Lens of Curiosity

By Nat M. Esparza

Embark on a journey through the beautiful chaos of humanity—our podcast embraces curiosity, challenges social norms, and explores uncharted ideas, celebrating the messy and authentic experience of being human.
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S2E4: G Williams - Decorating Time & Experiencing the Divine via Media

Spectacle: Discovering a Vibrant Life Through the Lens of CuriosityFeb 16, 2024

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S2E4: G Williams - Decorating Time & Experiencing the Divine via Media
Feb 16, 202459:45
S2E3: Tracy Peterson - Interfaith Oncology Clinic Chaplain

S2E3: Tracy Peterson - Interfaith Oncology Clinic Chaplain

Tracy Peterson is an interfaith oncology clinic chaplain, a family friend and my mentor. While visiting her in AZ we captured a conversation about what she does and what we’ve learned from each other over the last year and a half.
Feb 01, 202401:12:43
S2E2: Rob Bell - Love, Loss & Bread
Jan 25, 202459:29
S2E1: Phoenix Mendoza - The Carnal, Compostable, and Corporeal
Jan 04, 202401:06:45
A Person, not a Project

A Person, not a Project

Sometimes, there’s nothing to fix.
Dec 12, 202308:60
Welcome in! Prepping for 2024.

Welcome in! Prepping for 2024.

Just a little trailer!
Dec 12, 202303:26
I pray that what isn’t for us, composts with ease.

I pray that what isn’t for us, composts with ease.

The typical ramble of where I’m at right now. Hopefully it’s useful to someone, and it’ll make for one hell of an audio journal as I keep going on this journey.
Nov 14, 202320:46
3% is Better Than 0%

3% is Better Than 0%

Thoughts on perfectionism and community.
Oct 06, 202316:54
Live Your Own Destiny Imperfectly

Live Your Own Destiny Imperfectly

A few thoughts on internal work and community building as well as an audio journal reflecting on the last few months and what I’ve been learning.
Sep 29, 202315:22
Transitioning Out of Crisis Mode

Transitioning Out of Crisis Mode

Life update and ramblings
Jun 13, 202326:43
I’m Starting a Master of Arts in the Fall!

I’m Starting a Master of Arts in the Fall!

Some life updates and thoughts :)
Apr 27, 202319:23
LIfe Said: “Pause.”

LIfe Said: “Pause.”

It’s with a heavy heart that I share that I’ve decided not to move to Colorado right now because it doesn’t feel like a financially or emotionally responsible thing to do right now. As I process everything that’s happened over the last year I will likely be MIA for a while. While I might not be active on my creative projects like this podcast for a bit, please feel free to message me privately to stay in touch. Love you guys 💜🫂
Mar 22, 202305:17
Lil Life Update: Legally divorced, tired, but excited

Lil Life Update: Legally divorced, tired, but excited

If you are new here - hello! My name is Nat and I am a non binary creator. I am here to build community through curiosity and communication. And, I hope this episode is useful.
Mar 08, 202311:36
Imbolc, Leadership & Uncertainty

Imbolc, Leadership & Uncertainty

A culmination of thoughts. Today is Imbolc! The celebration of Imbolc originates from the Celts. Imbolc symbolizes the halfway point between the winter solstice (Yule) and the spring equinox (Ostara). The word "imbolc" means "in the belly of the Mother," because the seeds of spring are beginning to stir in the belly of Mother Earth. Also, a few thoughts on leadership and uncertainty as I reflect on what I want to do this next year.
Feb 01, 202322:03
January Update 🚚 (I’m MOVING!)

January Update 🚚 (I’m MOVING!)

Omg. I have been away for a while. But I’m back my sweet friends.
Jan 25, 202322:04
A Note for the Holidays

A Note for the Holidays

A few thoughts about the holidays.
Dec 23, 202221:53
Live the Questions Now

Live the Questions Now

A quote from Letters to a Young Poet, and some thoughts about life.
Dec 09, 202228:08
There’s no Obligation to Feel a Certain Way

There’s no Obligation to Feel a Certain Way

A few thoughts on feeling your feelings. Giving yourself space to grow and change. And the regular self care reminders 💜
Dec 06, 202220:13
December 2022 Life Update

December 2022 Life Update

I’ve been gone a bit, but here’s a small update. I’m holding to be back with more consistency but life overall is a lot right now. Don’t forget to take care of yourself!
Dec 02, 202215:17
Steps Forward Often Involve Disruption

Steps Forward Often Involve Disruption

A few thoughts on what I’ve been learning lately.
Nov 12, 202217:44
I quit (my job)!

I quit (my job)!

I’ve been gone a while but I look forward to the content I plan to make in the future!!! Here’s a little life update.
Nov 03, 202221:20
Butterfly Goop - Accepting “the Middle” of a Journey
Oct 18, 202211:26
Belonging

Belonging

A few thoughts on what it means to belong in as a queer, multiracial, neurodivergent human being in a society that wasn’t built for us. Especially seeing representation in things like film - I just watched “Bros” and really enjoyed it. But it got me thinking about how important it is to see ourselves represented in media…and how much work we still have to do.
Oct 10, 202217:53
Here is What I’m Learning About Community

Here is What I’m Learning About Community

This is a longer one!! I chat about community, self care and what it means to show up and stop people pleasing. I hope this is useful 🍂
Oct 07, 202247:01
Healing and Creativity

Healing and Creativity

A few new projects I’ve been working on! They aren’t done yet but I’m so excited to share. Also, a few little reminders for you as you continue your day!
Oct 06, 202208:30
Unmasking & Authenticity

Unmasking & Authenticity

Less organized today but wanted to be sure to get an episode out 🫶🏼🥰
Oct 03, 202214:60
Mess, Embarrassment and Progress

Mess, Embarrassment and Progress

Hello beautiful people 💜🦋

Today I share some of the lore embarrassing things I’m working on including the fact that I left six black garbage bags full of trash and two piles of boxes sit in my living room to the point of smelling up the apartment (it’s been dealt with now). Reminding myself and you all that being a human is a messy business.

Reminders:
💧drink some water
💊 take your meds
🍪 eat some food
😴 get some rest
🧶 do a hobby or other comforting activity
💯 you’ve made it through 100% of your bad days so far! Good job!
🌻 you’re doing your best with what you have, and that’s enough.
Sep 29, 202218:58
What is it for?

What is it for?

A bit more of an offbeat existential episode. But, important things to explore and be curious about.
Sep 28, 202218:59
I Am Here.
Sep 26, 202214:16
2022 New Moon in Libra: Finding Balance
Sep 25, 202212:24
Mini Series! (Self) Love Languages - Gifts
Sep 23, 202207:04
The Struggle of Emotional Boundaries
Sep 23, 202212:19
Mini Series! (Self) Love Languages - Acts of Service
Sep 22, 202209:20
Mini Series! (Self) Love Languages - Quality Time
Sep 21, 202206:28
Mini Series! (Self) Love Languages - Words of Affirmation
Sep 20, 202213:11
Mini Series! (Self) Love Languages - Physical Touch
Sep 19, 202206:09
Making Space for Peace
Sep 18, 202214:55
Tool: Body Scan & Emotions Manifesting in your Body (Cortisol etc)
Sep 17, 202222:23
Confidence Deck: Accepting Difficulty & the Ubiquity of Imposter Syndrome

Confidence Deck: Accepting Difficulty & the Ubiquity of Imposter Syndrome

Hello beautiful people 💜🦋 Today I chat about one of my favorite self care tools: Confidence Prompt cards from the School of Life (https://www.theschooloflife.com/shop/confidence-prompt-cards/?setCurrency=USD&gclid=Cj0KCQjwvZCZBhCiARIsAPXbajutSxti_WCmyxwoJ7xde849B9wJL3hrG9xHb5I-scSwLJ9fmOREPLIaAv5fEALw_wcB). Reminders: 💧drink some water 💊 take your meds 🍪 eat some food 😴 get some rest 🧶 do a hobby or other comforting activity 💯 you’ve made it through 100% of your bad days so far! Good job! 🌻 you’re doing your best with what you have, and that’s enough. I’m so proud of you. Question of the Day: How can I remind myself that everyone is as anxious, uncertain and wayward as I am? And. How can I make sure that imposter syndrome and self disgust doesn’t get in the way of progress? Love you all SO MUCH! Consider joining my discord (MisfitMayhem) for more Nat/MisfitMaiden content and community. https://discord.gg/AcFCXuQQ You can also follow me on Twitch at MisfitMaiden.
Sep 16, 202209:33
A Different Vibe: Struggling with Negative Self Talk
Sep 16, 202215:08
C- (minus) Self-Care
Sep 15, 202218:48
Together We’ll Make Our Way Home
Sep 14, 202220:09
Psychopath Free and Rediscovering Intuition

Psychopath Free and Rediscovering Intuition

Hello! Yea I guess it’s another two episode day. I’m reading this book recommended by my therapist and I HAD to share it with you all. I read the introduction and then share a bit about my life. I love you beautiful humans!! The book is: Psychopath Free by Jackson MacKenzie.
Sep 13, 202225:21
Iffirmations 2.0

Iffirmations 2.0

Apparently the last Iffirmations episode has been an incredibly useful tool for y’all, so I made some new ones today. I hope this episode is another one you can bookmark and pull out when you need it. I love you all so much. Drink some water, stretch your body, you’re beautiful!
Sep 13, 202207:48
Infinitely Ordinary - A freight train learning to recalibrate their breaks.

Infinitely Ordinary - A freight train learning to recalibrate their breaks.

I guess I was extra inspired today, here’s a second episode!
Sep 12, 202207:37
Neurospicy Nonsense

Neurospicy Nonsense

Hello my beautiful human. Here’s a breathing exercise and a few thoughts on how to be a little more present. Also, some new projects coming down the line! Much excite!
Sep 12, 202218:56
Grief, Joy and Insomnia

Grief, Joy and Insomnia

Hello there
Sep 01, 202211:02
Divorce & Burnout

Divorce & Burnout

Shout out to everyone who knows this podcast from WhatonAarth. They are a dear friend. Here’s a little life update about why I’ve been gone for so long. I love you all!
Aug 24, 202226:00
The Last Screw in the Office Chair

The Last Screw in the Office Chair

This is a free form podcast by Natalie Esparza Gaar, author of “Spectacle: Discovering a Vibrant Life through the Lens of Curiosity.”
May 18, 202209:18
The Magic of Iff-irmations

The Magic of Iff-irmations

Let’s flip affirmations on their head with this new thing I discovered. Hopefully this helps!
Apr 20, 202220:25