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Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

By Niko
A 100% true life account of what it’s like being a heroin addict in the United States. Dealing with ups and downs no censorship here folks. You’ll catch me at my most unfiltered emotional times. And my happiest of times. I encourage anyone to reach out to me via facebook page tumblr Instagram whatever it’s all under thoughts of a relapsing drug addict or gmail is
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Ep 34 and we talk with author Lorraine Reguly

Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

Ep 34 and we talk with author Lorraine Reguly

Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

Update on life with Unc from nodsquad
OK and I reconnect after not speaking with each other for fuck probably almost 2 years and we both been through a lot in those two years and as usual we talk about everything from the college duty toxic gaming community to talking your family about your drug use and everything in between so here is another unedited unfiltered uncensored long ass talk between us.
October 11, 2021
The roughly 100th episode extravaganza
in this episode Lee and I catch up after what feels like way too long. Lee shares his medical issues with us on top of still working full time, we discuss a new withdrawal medication lofexidine that is essentially Tylenol for withdrawal. As well as the usual touch on topics of drug use such as  what type, how much, how we administer, and a lot more you'll have to listen to find out. And we bring a new guest on named Cody Mendoza whom I met on instagram after reaching out to me, not doing so well because of a mutual friend that we both lost way to soon. If you're a regular listener than Im sure you know who that friend is. RIP Kennedy. join us for you're morning dose of laughs and inspiration and remember life is shit sometimes but being rich with homies like this makes the shit smell like roses. 
October 9, 2021
New relationship episode
New relationship status and hardships we are facing early on but overcoming and getting through it
July 23, 2021
The current updates and status of my experience in this simulation of life as to now
Talk about lots of things from secret conspiracies to video games to a new lady in my life. On the last segment I am going to say trigger warning of all sorts of things I know my podcast has trigger warnings all the time but we get into all sorts of sexual innuendos abuse rape male and female domination and others so listen with care I’m not trying to offend anyone the views and opinions expressed in this podcast do reflect my beliefs and that’s all I have to say about that
July 3, 2021
Meanwhile in my simulation scenario
Just me venting about some stuffs. Then me fucking with my computer
April 24, 2021
my life up until now
some random stuff
March 31, 2021
Roommate peril
Bitch about roommates talk gaming alil about life and a lot of nothing
February 26, 2021
Podcast gaming cereal interface os
In this episode we talk about everything from my new PC gaming addiction to Reese’s purse to operating systems to Anna the girl he bailed out of jail and her birthday she’s been a guest a handful of times we talked about how we need a new cohost for different podcasts and God knows what else so just check it out
January 30, 2021
New year same shit let’s do better in 2021 2020 set the bar pretty low
Had a different episode recorded but decided to not release that one so here is a short new year update
January 11, 2021
In the meantime… There is a new woman in my life who is rad as fuck
So in this episode I elaborate on the story started last week about my new girlfriend and talk about the new sensation of blues and traveling and being the rock it a girlfriend family funeral. I’m on all our other normal shenanigans
December 10, 2020
The first day together
I just update alil and talk about my new friend and we talk about a crazy thing that happened through the night
November 26, 2020
The election episode that’s not about politics
Me and a friend Just talk back and forth about a lot of stuff. Sorry for sound quality i didn’t have the mic with me.
November 5, 2020
Season 4 opener
My first episode in quite awhile so I talk about the election halloween and then I went off on my beliefs about religion.
October 3, 2020
Milestone 10K
Well I’ve reached 10000 listens so thanks everyone and I’ll get a full episode up in the next few days I love you all
September 10, 2020
Tryin to stay cool in this fuckin heat
We talk methadone updates shout outs more shout outs updates and general ramblings
July 19, 2020
Recovery? Trying again... maybe it’ll go better this time around
We talk methadone treatment and how my early recovery is going. The 1 year anniversary of when Kennedy passed away. The state of the world along with van updates and a bunch of nonsense rambling as usual.
July 18, 2020
A Smokey evening
A talk with my friend Smokey about all sorts of everything from the beginnings of addiction to everything else
June 18, 2020
A long conversation with miles
sex,Hookers,needles,death,love,and a lot in between
June 3, 2020
Ad for the live stream
Just letting everyone know that I’ll be going live on Facebook at 10 PM mountain time roughly and hope to see everyone there
May 22, 2020
Shoutouts to al
I don’t remember what I talked about i recorded this a few days ago
May 10, 2020
Mic check
I just thought id do a quick little episode to test my new microphone out which i think sounds great
April 28, 2020
Moving onward and upward
We talk plans what’s going on or mental state and all in all just positive outlook for the future
April 16, 2020
Just a grand ole morning
Random talk about the state of the world and basic everyday stuff Anna banana makes a quick appearance and we take Phelony on a walk
April 5, 2020
The little bit about me
Can you talk a bit about me and some things about how I am becoming more comfortable with who I am and we talk about some societal changes as far is the world being more open to certain things and a talk with my friend oh I was away from for a bit and now we’re back together
March 28, 2020
My view from the end of the world
Just alil about how the pandemic is going
March 21, 2020
Before court update
A brief update of my situation before court. I’ll update when I get out.
March 9, 2020
The Valentine’s Day episode
Just babbling on about my arrest and clean time
February 17, 2020
Ramble on Ramada
We talk about life and it’s goings ons and we have special guest back nodded out Anna mumbling alil bit and we about my talk sexual preferences among other things
January 29, 2020
First full 2020 season 3 opener just ramblings about stuff
Just 3 parts of me rambling about what’s going on sorry took so long been super busy and will get all the affiliate links up and going on the next episode I’m sorry I’m slacking today
January 15, 2020
Leaving 2019 in the rear view and entering 2020 with an open heart and eyes wide
We talk about how van life is treating me. How christmas was for me. We look back and remember Kennedy for the beautiful human that she was. We talk vein health and some harm reduction stuff.part 3 up on the roof top oasis in downtown
January 1, 2020
Pre-Christmas episode we went from stuck in a hotel parking lot to stuck in an auto shop parking lot
Well it’s me ranting about stuff while driving and then alil talk about the current situation of my #vanlife adventures
December 22, 2019
It’s not all fun and games
We talk about some serious shit so trigger warning please respect and be nice
December 5, 2019
Thanksgiving episode
Talk about holidays and all sorts of things
November 30, 2019
Guardian angels all around
My arrest story beginning of my book Walmart shoplifting incident
November 19, 2019
November 10, 2019
November 10, 2019
We vent
We vent about road partners and talk about how I helped a family
November 10, 2019
A morning talk with James from Korea
I finally talk to James from Korea about nitrous mafia football handicapping teaching becoming drug therapists and more
October 30, 2019
Promo for the retreat week episodes!!!
check out the episodes ive already started making and planning for this week im at this buddhist retreat place its possible ill leave here a better person maybe ill work through some issues or something who knows.  I do know that I will 100% run out of stuff with no way anywhere to go so there for forced to stop using for alil bit which is good and I have subs and bas and other meds to make detox a bit easier well enjoy the episodes.     
October 30, 2019
Preparing to retreat to the land of buddha
I am just sitting in my hotel room and talking about my upcoming spiritual retreat and my upcoming plans and I talk about and just general babble about what’s going on and more updates of my life we’re still alive to be continued
October 29, 2019
And so the world turns...The world has gone so fuckin soft on us it’s insane
On this episode I talk about how sensitive people in the world have become and how the so many people are just oh woe is me and me me me and fuck it’s really getting to me lately and I’m over being sensitive to it and placating everyone’s feelings.
October 27, 2019
Here we are now
Just random talks 2 guests Rj who I’ve been homeless with and a friend I’ve known for almost 20 years
October 27, 2019
the bluegrass conspiracy episode
the guest host MasterBlaster and I talk about so many things from rehab to yelp reviews to dairy queen ice cream sundaes.
October 6, 2019
Mashup of segments from over the last year
A collection of Segments from the last year of doing this thoughts of a relapsing drug addict
October 2, 2019
Bonus lost missing Alicha episode
Just found this recording with Alicha don’t believe it’s ever been published so here ya go
September 26, 2019
Poppin that shit
Just going over some things and talking about life
September 21, 2019
And now for your education ep6 s2
On this episode and you talk overdoses double overdoses and mental health and honestly I don’t remember
September 15, 2019
Ep 61 ep5season 2 lets talk about feelings
Nightrider talks with me then Kelsey from Florida comes in to talk about losing her boyfriend to an overdose Podcoin
August 18, 2019
A night with Alicha
Just talking with my new friend and it’s about being followed and oh so much more
August 14, 2019
Podcoin Sunday night feeling alright. S2Ep3 ep59
Just some talking about the week a reading of something i found on reddit and some shoutouts check this out along with amazon fresh and amazon prime both are free trials just sign up and get them for free then cancel easy as that
August 12, 2019
Ep58 chatting on the porch
In this episode I talk about how my life is going right now some talk about online drama so questions concerning recovery and I prepare to start working for the day
August 7, 2019
Ep57 season 2 ep 2
Talking while driving around multiple segments talk about smoking crack with bums begging for change from me
August 5, 2019
Im sorry for whining lately and making it sound so bad I’m not troubled or anything and we are available on PODCOIN now
August 2, 2019
Ep56 a lovely day
Just me scootering around downtown doing errands and visiting the needle exchange we do fan shout outs and harm reduction talk
August 1, 2019
Ep 55 but Episode 1 season 2 let’s talk to the world
I read some mail from fans that has come from Facebook reddit and Instagram I read something I wrote and normal stuff
July 31, 2019
Ep 53
Just me being a sad boy trying to figure out how to pick up the pieces
July 29, 2019
Ep 52 a walk into nothingness Podcoin
I got off at wrong train stop and just walked and it’s middle of night and there is nothing around
July 21, 2019
Ep 51 trains and other vehicular transports
Some talk about what’s going on talking about night rider knocking out his stepdad my current mental state all while I’m waiting for and riding the train dedication to memory of Kennedy Sophia Warren my fiancé that died of herion overdose on July 5 rest in paradise love bug until I see you again
July 21, 2019
Ep 48 lifestyles of the drug and addicted
Just talking about some random stuff it’s a short one but I’ll do a full one here in a day or so
July 15, 2019
The day that shattered my life
I’ll talk about Kennedy my girlfriend who died of a herion overdose yesterday afternoon.
July 6, 2019
Can babies talk about our relationship plan with the future the little surprise at the end
July 1, 2019
Ep 46 mission in the rain
We talk about my shitty sobriety and holding me accountable for my herion addiction we talk marriage and reviews from apple podcasts
June 22, 2019
Minisode ep 46
Just talking anout detox
June 21, 2019
Already out
A talk with a friend
June 20, 2019
Ep45 waiting to walk in to detox
Me and girlfriend outside before I walk in detox
June 18, 2019
Episode 44
Preview of next few we have a lot in the works we talk overdoses new relationships what’s next In life
June 9, 2019
Ep 43 Minisode about what’s coming up
Talking about what’s coming up on the episode tomorrow
May 24, 2019
Ep 42 farming simulator
Just talk about a few random things and talk about my new Facebook presence
May 16, 2019
A lazy Sunday
Episode 41 just so talk and the first part of my interview with Lazy
May 13, 2019
This is the introduction for my Facebook group
I have a new Facebook group in Facebook page go there I can come in whatever and this is just a little audio intro for that it’s Facebook and her relapse a very poor so it’s over… Drug attic’s I hope to see you there
May 12, 2019
Ep40 birthday update and things
Not much but a birthday update and legal update
April 21, 2019
Ep39 unk talks about what’s next
We talk with unk the night before he goes to inpatient
April 8, 2019
Off probation
Just a quick story full episode this weekend
April 5, 2019
Episode 38 we are fuckin world wide kiddos
Just trying to get back on track and get back to steady regular episodes so driving and talking the move, our reach all over the world and a failed call to nightrideer
March 24, 2019
Ep 37. Getting back on track
basiclly talking about what’s to come and announced new podcast news and talked about a lil bit of everything and og drops one of his biggest secrets and also reads his Apple reviews
March 15, 2019
We hit 1000 listens so far
March 7, 2019
I’m sorry everyone
Just a message saying I’m sorry and I’m alive
March 5, 2019
A random chat with new friend
February 18, 2019
Ep 34 and we talk with author Lorraine Reguly
A long talk about addiction abuse life coping skills and life in general.
February 12, 2019
Ep 33 A nice little Monday morning chat
a chat with Christina From tumblr sorry for the delay but it’s Monday so here we are
February 11, 2019
Sorry but no delay but it’ll be out tomorrow
Just letting everyone know that this weeks episode will be a day late
February 10, 2019
Ep 32 sad boy Saturday’s
Me and unk talk about recovery and how we feel sorry for ourselves when we shouldn’t because early recovery has too many feelings and other things like microdosing and free time
February 3, 2019
Ep 31 a special Friday from the wonderful world of reddit
Talking with Peter who is someone who I connected with on reddit and he has 15 years clean so wanted to talk to him about that so that’s why dropping a special Friday episode
February 1, 2019
Ep 30 here i am
Just a lil talk while I’m sick about myself and what I need to do to get and stay clean thank you everybody
January 31, 2019
29quick update
Nothing really just a boring Saturday night update
January 27, 2019
Ep 28 new stuff
What’s coming up In the future
January 24, 2019
Ep27 Part 2 of talks with unk from nodsquad
Just talking about what there is to look forward to and some new ideas
January 24, 2019
Monday night podcast episode 26
Just an update of stuff and things talking about a friend in inpatient therapy right now and this will be a thing every Monday night from now on so stay tuned
January 22, 2019
Episode 25 talking with nod squad host unk
Just a get to know you talk between unk of nod squad and me just a free flow get to know each other talk
January 20, 2019
Let’s talk about stuff episode 24
Just rambling about nothing in particular talking about a Facebook post I made and what’s headed for the future of this podcast
January 19, 2019
Promo for new roots ibogaine center tell them I sent you
New roots ibogaine center and treatment facility
January 17, 2019
A talk with number one fan Lauren and the social worker I’ll be starting a new podcast with
A brief talk with both of these and how Lauren has seen me clean and now not clean over the years on social media platforms
January 17, 2019
Quick update
A few quick ramblings about life right now
January 16, 2019
Og introduces muddog
A one on one improv talk about music life and death dealing with death and staying alive
January 16, 2019
Late night bail lights
A friend is on who was bailed out of jail
January 14, 2019
Short Friday night update
Talking about my interesting evening and sound quality isn’t very good I thought headset was around my neck but it was t
January 12, 2019
Friday morning update
Moving to Phoenix to help get clean
January 11, 2019
Promo of the new new
New type of episode where I’ll be talking to people who volunteered to do a talk with me about whatever
January 10, 2019
Tub and talk episode 1 with special guest Bi6Pa9a
A random type of episode where me and a friend will get in the tub and a friend will sit and talk about whatever is on our minds from real life serious events to getting fucked up in the tub
January 7, 2019
Sunday’s morning report
Just touched on the new podcast today me and A buddy are starting and talked about ex’s And boring Sunday morning
December 30, 2018
Saturday afternoon report
Just rambling about music and it’s importantance to the world
December 30, 2018
Friday night foil lights
Me and night rider talking about his relapse and a variety of other topics
December 29, 2018
Friday morning rambles
Just me talking about life and what’s going on in my life right now if you want to interact I’m ogwinner on reddit and ogking_710 on Snapchat and Instagram
December 28, 2018
Thursday morning update
Just a brief update about my morning and explaining the last episode a little bit
December 27, 2018
A journey to hell from the tip of a needle
This was me trying to do here at 453 Juno 59 minutes and took him to hit and this is a safety episode on why not to use intravenously
December 27, 2018
And we’re back sorry the lapse In episodes
Christmas episode 1 just letting you all know that we are back and will continue to do regular episodes again
December 23, 2018
Intro to new cast
Can’t recover old account so having to start fresh
October 28, 2018