Letters To Myself Over Tea

Well... I never said my life was anything perfect. Definitely far from it to include my love life and the tangled webs I've found myself in. This episode includes two good friends of mine... One being my roommate Logan and our dear friend Rineta.... dive into the mess with us!

The fear of getting older.... Who made it so scary to get older? Why are we so afraid?

Have you faltered in your steps forward? Looking back all the time and feeling like life is on a repeat of those mistakes or things your grew from.... What steps are you taking to keep moving forward? Why are you stopping yourself from your progress?

Baby, the night before the New Year and the drinks are being poured, outfits looking fly, bar lines are long and folk are complaining about the entry fee. But of course that psycho that is so set on a New Year kiss is lurking like a psycho. Well before the night is set are you actual prepared for the new year, have you faced your mess you thought about leaving behind in the past year. Let's get that shit cleaned out ready for the new year cause we aren't missing out on our blessings this season!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Sometimes we forget about the control we have within our lives. I'm not just talking about self-control, I'm talking about the legit control of the situations around you and how we find ourselves trapping ourselves in thing that we could've taken hold before thing got outta control.

This episode is very raw and directed to my hero... my mom. This note I wrote long ago would've been the last note ever written but was the one thing that saved me from myself. If you didn't know my mom is my world and as many know we may bump heads but have grown so close over the years. In this world when you're in such a dark place it isn't easy to find a reason to stay tethered to this world but sometimes in a moment you don't see the light that has always been there. So mom brace yourself and the world open your minds cause I will tell you I was lucky to see this light than just the darkness I was in.

The scariest moment in persons life in the LGBTQ+ is their coming out moment.... For me sadly the story is boring but one of the uplifting moment in my life.

A scary part of my life in which I talk about, my life and the impact of suicide. Suicide has been and still is a battle I fight daily from fighting the noise of a voice that lingers with me that life would be better without me.

Have you ever just been so tired of the relationships period that you're tired of swiping, grinding, scruffing, POF'ing, or etc.... to invest time into something that becomes nothing.... at a point you just want to build you ideal person shoot I am!

Have you felt people coming and going as they please in your life, taking and pouring into your life more than you can handle, how about always missing when you need them most. With season come seasonal people and those who will take the fruit from the tree and never replenish. This letter takes me back to when I was allowing people to choose when I relevant, wanted to be present, and take value from me. Ever felt this???

At the age of 18, I experienced a very traumatic experience in which it took years for the words to ever become real and talk about. I experienced true abuse on a level within my own community that would change my life that it took year before I faced through therapy and truly heal from.

3 years ago today I went to my first therapy session at mental health and was diagnosed with a special type of depression and anxiety. The answer to years of emptiness and me finally working towards a better me.

The story behind the making of this podcast and introduction.

This is the very first episode in which I talk about the feelings of being undesired, unloved, untouched, and the feelings of being so alone when all I want is love. This letter I talk to myself to regain the live within me.