N.A.R.C. provides information to facilitate learning and healing from abuse betrayal following relationships with cluster B disordered individuals (narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths as well as comorbidities like addiction). Content will cover carefully researched material, collaboration with mental health professionals, and interviews with both victim-survivors and experts in the field of NPD. There is a lack of information and a lot of misinformation, so our task is to shine a light on the topic so you may make informed decisions about your healing journey.
When recovering from narcissistic (or sociopathic/psychopathic) abuse, it is important at some point to turn away from the dysregulated partner and turn inward to heal and become whole. A critical part of that healing comes from work done with the wounded, injured child within. It may seem like an insurmountable task, but it is a necessary one. Give her(him) space and time to tell you what they need. It will be the most meaningful friendship you ever have.
Why are you must die for them. A partnership with a personality disordered narcissist always has an expiration date. The only way that it can end is with your death, either metaphorically or literally. We will discuss the dead mother syndrome and the reasons why the narcissist must demand this sacrifice.
When we understand the insatiable hunger within, we can achieve wholeness. When we befriend our inner child and nourish him/her, we can achieve healing. Abuse from a disordered partner with a Cluster B disorder (narcissism, sociopathy, psychopathy) wll create a trauma induced reaction that can only be addressed by self-partnering and learning to parent our own inner child.
There are many reasons why establishing a successful no contact regime following trauma from a relationship with a narcissist or sociopath, but it is one of the single most important things t implement if you want to get free and recover. We talk about ways to achieve success and how to self-partner for wholeness and healing.
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Join us on January 9th 1:00-3:00 for our live workshop called Warrior's Path to Wholeness.
Teahna is my guest today as we discuss the different parts of the person that must heal after the trauma and grief following abuse from a relationship with a narcissist, sociopath, or psychopath. Mental health is only one component. Restoring the energetic body is another facet of recovery that cannot be ignored.
Join us on January 9, 2021, from 1:00-3:00 for "A Warrior's Path to Wholeness" https://teahna.com/warriors-path-to-wholeness/
Here we will create a safe space to explore tools to reimagine a life without the need to seek external validation or unhealthy attachments.
Later in the month, Teahna will offer a course to keep you moving in the right direction. https://teahna.com/the-feminine-current
Together, we can accept the past, let it go, find peace with the present, and create a free and beautiful future.
The narcopath always wears an elaborate and well-constructed mask, yet like Darth Vader, there is nothing with a shriveled, quivering, gelatinous pile of goo at the core--destroyed long ago by the ones who were supposed to love and protect but could not or would not. What do we have to do to break free of this nightmare? Look behind the mask, accept the truth, and let it go.
Contempt is a primary feature in the narcissistic cycle of abuse. The disordered individual must demonize and shift the blame to their partner so they can play the victim and walk away with their good-guy image intact. They actually believe in their own revisionist history and altered reality. Because they do not have object constancy, their significant source of fuel intimate partner is either painted black or white and out of sight out of mind. Actually, they are completely out of their mind, always down the rabbit hole with magical thinking and no concept of reality. They said they loved you yesterday, but today...they hate everything about you?
This is how the world ends with a narcissistic sociopath. It comes out of nowhere. You don't know what hit you. And the contempt, hatred, and murderous cruelty are unbelievable. You did nothing wrong, yet they demonize you in the worst ways imaginable, then they often ghost you and disappear like magic.
Following abuse from a person with a personality disorder like the narcissist or sociopath, the abuse often continues. Whether you escaped or they discarded you, there are ways that you continue to be abused. There is only one way to stop the madness.
The somatic narcissist weaponizes his body, and sex addiction often manifests as comorbidity. It is a dangerous duo, as deadly as taking your partner by the hand and tumbling headfirst into the Grand Canyon.
The narcopath manufactures a false self in order to survive unbearable trauma and abuse in their early years, and they also create a false belief that they are their own God as they worship their own ego and their own delusions in their alternate universe where they dwell.
I married a covert somatic mid-range narcissist and stayed with him for 16 years while the world burned down around me. I loved him without boundaries and San Francisco became our Camelot. I had planned to go there my whole life, and now I had a partner who could share the magic with me. But love with a personality disordered person does not ever have a happy ending. This is my story of Love and California and the fairy dust that makes some things impossible to give up.
Recovery following abuse by a personality disordered individual such as the narcissist or psychopath can be a long and arduous process. Many modalities must be explored in order to heal the many damaged parts of the mind body and soul. This trauma and resulting PTSD affects millions if not billions of people per year.
What if the perfect pandemic isn’t who you’re hoping for? What if it is someone you really need to get to know. Spend some quality time. Show them love and kindness. Look in the mirror. It’s time to do the work to get healthy and whole.
People with personality disorders like the narcissist may seem too good to be true when they are feeding off of your delicious fuel. But at some point, it ends, and you run dry. Overnight, they become savage butchers who know how to slice and slash their way to the bone when they are ready to devalue or discard and when they suffer a narcissistic injury. Prepare to bleed. It's nothing personal. None of it is really about you. It's just what they have to do. A leopard cannot change its spots, a zebra cannot change its stripes, and these magnificent beasts cannot change the fact that they are the most deadly animals in the jungle.
Following a relationship with a narcissist or psychopath, there is trauma that forces you to decide. You can allow the former self to die and accept and allow a rebirth or new creation of a new self OR you can do nothing, cling to the past, surrender to your addicted brain and stay stuck in an endless loop of despair and depression. By not choosing, you effectively choose to die.
The narcissist is an empty vessel and must fill the emptiness with fuel from external sources. This moral deficiency and "lack of being" constitutes a form of evil that may make them vulnerable to entity possession. We examine what is at the core of a narcissist and how dispelling the demonic influence cannot be achieved without their participation and consent, and it will not heal them or be enough in the end. They are hollow and must acquire a false self, large amounts of fuel, and magical thinking that allows them to live in a world of illusions. . . always convinced that they are the good guy and they are the victim.
The traumatic relational experience that causes recovery from narcissistic abuse to be so difficult can be overcome by channeling the power of love through God energy and light. It can be healing to repeat affirmations about love and your need to turn inward for answers, not look to external forces outside yourself for validation or to complete you. Practice this meditation twice a day and add your own affirmations. Habits like this can really speed up recovery and set you free.
Rob Brown is my guest today from the Lonestar Music Fest podcast series and flips the script by interviewing me. We discuss N.A.R.C. and Narc Troopers including the mission and the history of the work.
Some types of narcissists weaponize courtesy, charm, and charisma to achieve their single-minded goal of receiving fuel in the form of attention, adoration, validation, etc... In many ways, they are like the blind man on the beach. There is a lesson to learn here that might just help you see things more clearly yourself.
Nihilists believe that life has no true meaning or purpose, there is no true moral imperative, and that God does not exist. The narcissist believes that meaning is what they design, there is no right or wrong or moral compass, and that they are God.
Let's examine these ideas and use them to help ourselves break the addiction to these sick and disordered Cluster B partners.
Using the elements to ground yourself during times of stress, anxiety, or sadness has been a common practice that spans all times and cultures. This grounding meditation brings in the energy of earth, water, wind, and fire to settle the spirit and power up your core energy flow for feelings of relaxation and empowerment.
Love is everything. When healing from trauma, PTSD, abandonment, addiction, insomnia, attachment issues, emotional dysregulation, and excessive rumination following narcissistic/sociopathic relationship abuse, focusing on energy, divine light, and the restorative power of LOVE can help you manage the pain.
The "trauma brain" is dysregulated and a tremendous source of pain and despair following abuse from a Cluster B disordered partner. The mind and the body have been annihilated on so many levels. We examine the science behind it and look at my personal experiences to illustrate the phenomena.
Narcissists , sociopaths, and psychopaths often have co-morbidities such as addiction, and one of the most common is drug addiction. They love to push boundaries, break rules, and make their own code to live by. Hallucinogens are a popular accompaniment to anti-social personality disorder. If that weren't enough, they also live in a delusional world of illusion, projection, and deflecting that cause them to lose touch with reality and indulge in a false self that is only real to them.
The first few 7-8 minutes offer an explanation on the benefits of meditation following emotional trauma and abuse, and the last 20 minutes offers a guided meditation to phelp you on your recovery journey. If you'd like more healing resources, visit my website www.narctroopers.com
Understanding the brain is key to recovery following emotional and psychological trauma following a relationship with a narcissist, sociopath, or psychopath. In fact, they can murder your brain. Healing the brain and learning to manage it is super important.
June 18th is the 1-year anniversary of the "discard'" when my ex-husband with narcissistic personality disorder kicked me to the curb. I have suffered the worst year of my life and am actually a bit surprised that I survived at all. He recently denied that he has NPD even though he admitted it the day he discarded me suddenly and ruthlessly. My long term therapist who also saw him confirmed the diagnosis years ago, but I did not listen. Now, I pay for that every day. A recovery from narcissistic abuse looks nothing like a regular divorce or disengagement. The trauma is consuming and life-threatening. The advice of the day: "When you know, you go."
ST Rappaport is Relationship Photographer, Creative Journal Expressive Arts Coach, founder of Genius Relationships and host of the LifePix Relationships Podcast. After observing, listening, and connecting with so many couples, ST is on a mission to find out what makes relationships work and how they can become extraordinary and is here to help as many couples as possible.
We discuss CJEA is a technique that uses creative endeavors and non-dominate hand exercises to guide clients toward resolving the issues that the inner child holds in the body.
For your free mini session, go to LifePixRelationships.as.me
Link to other therapists and more information: LuciaC.com
The world is a dangerous place. In the summer of 2020, there are several things that could actually kill you. The global pandemic is worsening in many places and is far from over as people rush out to enjoy the reopening of everything after months of quarantine fatigue. Then there are riots and civil unrest following centuries of systemic racism and inequality that make it unsafe and even lethal to go to the grocery if you are brown or black. Let's also throw in climate change and a killer hurricane season with what looks to be an economy teetering on the brink of collapse. One helluva time to be alive, right? But wait, there's one more thing. Yep, you guessed it...oh you know me so well. The narcissist with a personality disorder who is the ultimate predator, beautiful but a deadly predator nonetheless. Sometimes, they actually kill their victims, but as we all know, there are many ways to die and many ways to murder someone. They are experts at destroying you so completely that there is nothing left but ashes and a few bone fragments. Not for the faint-hearted, Cluster B personality disordered predators are masters of annihilation and then blame you for forcing them to destroy you then erase all memory that you ever existed at all.
A mirage is not real, and neither is the narcissist. The 3 stages of narcissistic abuse are idealization, devaluation, and discard. In the first stage, seduction is a powerful hurricane filled with an intensity that binds you to the narcissist in ways that tie you to them forever. They need your fuel, and the only way to be sure you lavish them with gushing delicious fuel is to seduce you and take ownership of their new supply. You may be thinking, "It will be different with me. I will tame him, fix him, save him, change him, etc..." Think again. You will not come out of this alive. The euphoria and bliss at the beginning will not be worth the thousand deaths you will experience at the end. One word of advice. RUN.
Interview with guest Shane from the land down under with the ocean at his doorstep and the infamous annual penguin parade. His experience in a long marriage with a partner suffering from NPD illustrates how narcissism is a global epidemic with deadly fallout. Shane discusses the dynamics of life with a narcissist and the road to healing after an unexpected and brutal discard.
People with narcissistic personality disorder create a false self and live in an illusion, an imaginary world filled with magical thinking. They are incapable of authenticity, intimacy, and real human emotions. They are often quite skilled at creating a false self, but sooner or later the mask slips off and the true composition of the narcissist is revealed. It is a devastating moment that will be imprinted on you forever, but we must accept reality and be careful to stay firmly grounded in it.
Trauma is not just a mental or emotional phenomenon. It can be stored in the body over years, even decades. Understand how it works and how to release it so you can have freedom from repetitive destructive patterns. It gives a whole new meaning to baggage, and it must be unpacked and put away once and for all.
The road to recovery after a relationship ends with a narcissist or psychopath is filled with crazy ups and downs, victories and defeats. People often say, "Healing is not linear." I know I have battled with my best effort to stay alive and put myself back together, better than before. But sometimes, we do some crazy stuff. This triggering tale tells of my post discard decision to remove the parts of my body that he oh so delicately tortured me with. But it was torture and abuse and shame and degradation and hurt. The surgeon's knife was so much less painful than the way my narcopath carved me up. Needless to say, there is quite a bit of regret and a warning to everyone not to jump out of the plane without a parachute.
People with personality disorders cannot take care of others when they become sick or injured or acquire a disability. Let's explore the top 10 reasons they cannot take care of you, then discuss how impactful this can be in a relationship with a narcissist, sociopath, or psychopath.
We are witnessing an epic opportunity to let go of a toxic past and embrace a new reality that is healthier and holds more promise and potential than the last. This is happening in the current global transformation as well as with the recovery experience after a narcissistic relationship. Getting there is no picnic. There will be grief as we release that which is broken and fear of a future without it. But if we can hold on, life can be better. A new 2.0 version of economic, political, health systems and more. . . and a new improved version of life without the narcissist offering false promises and empty love.
Teahna is a survivor of narcissistic abuse, an energy worker, and a healing facilitator. Coming to us originally from California and most recently from Maui, Hawaii, Teahna brings her experience and gifts to the discussion of recovery. We examine how energy work is often a necessary component of a fully developed recovery program. She comprises one of my own teams who has worked to piece me back together after a brutal narcissistic discard in June 2019. I have much gratitude and respect for her work since I have personally benefited from it. You may contact her at www.teahna.com
Being discarded by a partner with a personality disorder like narcissism or psychopathy is a degrading and humiliating experience that will take years to fully process and overcome. It tears away at the very fabric of your reality and destroys you in ways that you cannot imagine. Victims must reject victim status and fight to reclaim some sense of normality and well being.
Welcome, Stephanie from Austin, Texas. You may contact her at Cactus Bloom Healing Alternative & Holistic Health Service on Facebook or Instagram. Her healing modalities can guide and support the recovery process following abusive relationships and assist in the integration and healing of childhood programming that may not be serving your highest good. Website: http://www.austinhealingcollective.com/
Misty is a survivor of domestic abuse and advocates for women who are victims of domestic violence. Doing outreach from her home in Alabama, we can see how the challenges to recovery and freedom are difficult regardless of geographical location.
The relationship between demonic influence and mentally disordered individuals has been a subject of exploration for years. My husband allowed dark forces to come in, not consciously choosing it, but by passively allowing it due to impure intentions and narcissistic personality disorder. I was surprised that it could infect me through him, but it did.
My narcopath Ex-Husband and I share a bond that enables us to share energy and thoughts with over 1000 miles between us. I am an empath and pick up these things easily, and he is a dysregulated, maladapted person with a personality disorder and powers that are substantial. But the crossroads that we both discovered simultaneously last week are not the only message here. As a planet undergoing transformation, we are all at a crossroads. We can choose to do better or to continue a downward spiral. The clock is ticking.
We all have thought about this at one time or another. Who do we want beside us if the world were coming to an end? My husband unexpectedly discarded me nine months ago. It is March 31, 2020, and I face the current pandemic and possible end of my life alone. Completely alone. Life continues day by day, and the silence and solitude can be unbearable. Think about the person you plan to stand shoulder to shoulder with through any apocalyptic event. If they are a narcissistic sociopath, they will save themselves and leave you for dead. Be careful who you believe in. Listen to your intuition. . . you know what they are.
The nasty little buggers that linger after narcissistic abuse are deeply embedded in every nook and crannie, and it will require a strong pesticide to kill the virulent pestilence that infects the victim. It is important to identify the culprit for what it is and exterminate it. More deadly than imaginable, you must defeat it if you hope to have a full recovery.
Regardless of the source of your pain whether it comes from a relationship with an abusive and dysregulated partner or loss and fear from the aftermath of Covid-19, what we need most is strength, trust, and faith that comes from a higher power.
While life-threatening events can bind people together, for those who are recently single and recovering from relationship trauma, a crisis and subsequent isolation can feel exceptionally lonely and difficult.
An intimate look at my story and the trauma bonding that has kept me tethered to my covert narcissist ex-husband for the past nine months since he suddenly discarded me. Perhaps my experience and insight can give validation and hope to those experiencing a similar struggle and also serve to educate their friends and family about the need to support those who have been trauma bonded to abusive, brainwashing conditioning at the hands of a narcissist or sociopath who may or may not understand the cycle of their own dysfunction.
People are so hung up om what serves them and so determined to get rid of anything that does not "serve them." What a ridiculous and shallow way to live. Whatever happened to forever love and forever family? You do not discard them like the weekly trash. In the end, that attitude will leave you empty and alone.
Narcissistic injury inevitably happens and results in cold fury experienced by the covert narcissist, but their final discard allows survivors the opportunity to create a life that is free of dysfunction and unlimited in possibility.
I am a love junkie. And on the road to recovery, I am on the lookout for pink clouds that will impede my sobriety and hinder my progress. Why the gritty inner work is necessary, even when the pink frothy, fluffy yumminess calls to us.
Ever wonder what is going on inside the head of a narcissist or sociopath? The way their brain interacts with the world around them is both sublime and horrific. They are both gifted exceptional intuitive humans who spread joy & bliss and also dangerously remorseless, amoral destroyers without emotional empathy or mercy for their victims. They sleep differently, dream differently, and even possess superhuman abilities that separate them from the rest of us.
After a relationship with a cluster B individual (narcopath- narcissist-sociopath), the road back to wholeness and wellness is treacherous and agonizing. There are things that might make it easier like routines, emergency go-to strategies, and repurposed mindsets. Let's take a look at some of the things that can help.
Today we talk to Amy in Austin, Texas who shares her experience with divorce court and the aftermath following the final end of her 26-year marriage to a person with a narcissistic personality disorder.
We made it to a new decade of hope and healing for ourselves and the planet. In the spirit of new beginnings, I share 5 intentions I bring forward to 2020. Creating the best version of ourselves possible is no easy task. May we all experience great success and abundance, and when we fail, just get up and get on. We will eventually arrive at our destination.
This episode offers a tool for self healing brought to you by B.Emery. It is a tool that she developed on her healing journey. It brings awareness to your natural traits that attract narcissistic people to you. Try it, it's pretty enlightening. Peace and love
B. Emery shares a recovery technique that enables individuals recovering from abuse to lay their pain to rest. The letter to the offender is written for therapeutic benefit but never actually sent. It worked for her, so perhaps you can add it to your recovery toolbox.
Recovering from narcissistic abuse is no easy task. It is important to move through the phases of healing so that you do not become stuck and fail to move on and be free from the pain. It is possible to claim survivor status and eventually get to the thriving stage if you know what to look for and give it the time and attention it deserves.
Do you have a recovery tip to help others navigate this tough journey? If so, email me at NARC2Thrive@gmail.com
Help comes from the most unexpected places. In today's episode, we look at how mind mapping and other techniques can be used to override your brain in ways that can help subdue the ever-present anxiety and potential panic attacks that happen when going through withdrawal from a relationship with a disordered individual. If you would like to share strategies that work for you in calming, grounding, and centering yourself, please share at: NARC2Thrive@gmail.com
At what point after a breakup do you try to move on with another partner? Will physical intimacy help you detach from the one who broke you when you just can't seem to let them go? This episode explores the idea that we will know when we are ready to begin again and until then, any effort to rush recovery and replace the one we loved and lost will be counter-productive and even harmful in your recovery process. Email us and share your experience at: NARC2Thrive@gmail.com
There are cyclical patterns in narcissistic abuse: ideation or love-bombing, devaluation, and discard. Without exception, the cycles happen at varying speeds from mere weeks up to decades depending on what type of narcissist or cluster B individual you are in a relationship with. It is crucial to understand these three stages of the relationship even if your narcissist is unaware of them themselves. Only a small percent of narcissists are fully aware of what is happening and understand what they are doing and why they are doing it. In that sense, they are also victims of this relentless and tragic devolution of all of the relationships they will ever experience. Be prepared, have an exit strategy, and,"Once you know, you go." It's the best advice you'll ever receive.
Welcome to 2020!
My new year's gift to you is 20 affirmations to bring in a new decade of health and happiness. Listen to them as reminders and reassurance as often as you are so compelled. And if you think of new affirmations that I may have overlooked, please email me and I'll add a few here in the notes. Send to: NARC2Thrive@gmail.com
Introduction to N.A.R.C. Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators.
P. Pesqueda and collaborator B. Emery will take you on a weekly journey to understanding, healing, and thriving after experiencing betrayal trauma and abuse from Cluster B disordered individuals (narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths with comorbidities such as addiction).
Join us as we explore topics gathered through rigorous research & deep-dive investigations, conduct interviews with victims/survivors, mental health professionals and other experts, and unpack the top recovery strategies offering a variety of effective methods to navigate to and through recovery.
Stay tuned for an upcoming YouTube video channel, Facebook group, free webinars, and recovery kits. The official website with the N.A.R.C. blog will be live by Valentine's Day, and you may contact us anytime at NARC2Thrive@gmail.com.
The covert narcissist is a unique individual who is not like a neuro-typical person nor are they like any other narcissistic personality disordered individual. They are often the most insidious and dangerous of all cluster B dysregulated people. Learn what the red flags are and how to prepare for the ultimate ending in the cycle of narcissistic abuse (idealization, devaluation, and discard).