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Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators

N.A.R.C. Troopers: Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators

By P. Pesqueda

N.A.R.C. provides information to facilitate learning and healing from abuse betrayal following relationships with cluster B disordered individuals (narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths as well as comorbidities like addiction). Content will cover carefully researched material, collaboration with mental health professionals, and interviews with both victim-survivors and experts in the field of NPD. There is a lack of information and a lot of misinformation, so our task is to shine a light on the topic so you may make informed decisions about your healing journey.
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N.A.R.C. Troopers: Narcissistic Abuse Recovery CollaboratorsJul 26, 2020

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The Hobosexual Narcissist

The Hobosexual Narcissist

A hobosexual does not necessarily have to be a narcissist, but many times they are. The somatic narcissist is an alpha predator and opportunist, so the idea of leveraging their bodies to receive "fuel" is quite understandable. Welcome to the first episode of season 10!

Mar 22, 202429:17
PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY-THE NARCISSIST;S SECRET WEAPON

PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY-THE NARCISSIST;S SECRET WEAPON

Understanding this concept helps to understand how the narcissist operates and what to watch for. As people with Cluster B disorders increase in number, it is good to now who you're dealing with and what to watch for.


* Last episode of season 9

Est. 20 podcasts per season

Mar 15, 202440:11
The 10 Things That Get in Your Way in Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse

The 10 Things That Get in Your Way in Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse

The things to avoid in the journey to wellness after a relationship with a narcissist.

Mar 05, 202442:54
Is a Narcissist Made or Born? How Much is Genetics?

Is a Narcissist Made or Born? How Much is Genetics?

Research shows that narcissism is heritable. Let's see how much is in our genes.

Mar 02, 202420:48
Adjusting to reality after the narcissist

Adjusting to reality after the narcissist

When you are cast out of the shared fantasy, and you hit the ground with a thud, it is tough to stand up, dust off, and keep going. But that is exactly what you have to do.

Feb 20, 202418:36
Spatial and Language Deficits in Narcissists-NARC Troopers

Spatial and Language Deficits in Narcissists-NARC Troopers

The person with NPD has spatial and language deficits that shape their disorder. Let's unpack the fundamental beggings of these impaired individuals.

Feb 09, 202424:16
Public Enemy #1 Our Growing Mental Health Crisis

Public Enemy #1 Our Growing Mental Health Crisis

Not only do we need to work on healing ourselves, we need to work on healing the world around us. . . and by doing so, we will get better.

Ending suffering is important as a fundamental human right for all peoples, and that is a great thing to work towards.

Jan 25, 202441:48
Letter to Potential New Partners After Narcissistic Abuse

Letter to Potential New Partners After Narcissistic Abuse

I think this what we all want to say to all the people out there who may be potential new partners in our lives. Feel free to share it with them, then use it as a springboard for conversation. Their response might be quite telling!

Jan 21, 202419:01
THE EPIC HERO QUEST: THE NARCISSIST AS DON QUIXOTE

THE EPIC HERO QUEST: THE NARCISSIST AS DON QUIXOTE

The narcissist is Don Quixote

from Man of La Mancha


To dream ... the impossible dream ...To fight ... the unbeatable foe ...To bear ... with unbearable sorrow ...To run ... where the brave dare not go ...To right ... the unrightable wrong ...To love ... pure and chaste from afar ...To try ... when your arms are too weary ...To reach ... the unreachable star ...This is my quest, to follow that star ...No matter how hopeless, no matter how far ...To fight for the right, without question or pause ...To be willing to march into Hell, for a Heavenly cause ...And I know if I'll only be true, to this glorious quest,That my heart will lie will lie peaceful and calm,when I'm laid to my rest ...And the world will be better for this:That one man, scorned and covered with scars,Still strove, with his last ounce of courage,To reach ... the unreachable star ...

Jan 14, 202411:54
Enmeshment, Entrainment, and How the Narcissist Stole My Mind

Enmeshment, Entrainment, and How the Narcissist Stole My Mind

These two concepts are instrumental in understanding what happens in a relationship with a narcissist. I share how it happened to me. Please learn more. Dr. Vaknin has many great lectures on entrainment.

Jan 13, 202425:05
New Year New You After the Narcissist

New Year New You After the Narcissist

Six steps to get you going down the right road following narcissistic abuse.

Jan 08, 202417:48
Dream Clues: 5 Things That Hold You Back After Narcissistic Abuse

Dream Clues: 5 Things That Hold You Back After Narcissistic Abuse

We begin with a dream that illustrates the layers of unresolved torment that lurk in our subconscious and the deepest parts of our brains. Then we discuss the 5 major things that hold us back from a full recovery following abusive relationships with those who have NPD>

Dec 18, 202328:49
INTERVIEW: Amy Punt-Systems Failing-The Spiritual Narcissist

INTERVIEW: Amy Punt-Systems Failing-The Spiritual Narcissist

Amy Punt is my guest and the topic is about the infiltration of narcissists into every major system including the church. She discusses her experience with spiritual narcissism. We explore the cult-like conditioning, the support of the masses, and the consequences of a culture that glorifies narcissistic traits. Winning is everything, regardless of how you do it or who gets hurt on that road to victory.

You can find Amy Punt on Medium and other writing platforms.

Dec 15, 202356:21
Loneliness After Narcissistic Abuse

Loneliness After Narcissistic Abuse

Why do victims of narcissistic abuse feel so lonely and have trouble connecting with others after their experience with them? It is quite typical, so how to we end the loneliness during what can be a lengthy recovery.

Bonus: What is PNSD?


Dec 10, 202317:19
The Solopsistic Narcissist

The Solopsistic Narcissist

Solipsism and narcissism have quite a bit in common. Let's take a look at what that means with a brief philosophical examination.

Nov 29, 202313:31
Interview: Co-parenting with Kshama Singhi
Nov 23, 202355:19
The Narcissist is a Parasite That Lives Inside of You!

The Narcissist is a Parasite That Lives Inside of You!

The narcissist may be gone, but they live on inside of you. Because of the enmeshment, brainwashing, entrainment, intermittent reinforcement, parentification, and more manipulative and predatory techniques, you are poisoned. You are filled with introjects (the narcissist's voice), ruminations, peptide addiction dopamine cravings, trauma bonding and the list goes on!

This explains in part why recovery from such a relationship is so difficult and unlike any other!

Nov 09, 202339:21
Can We Be Healthy in Such a Sick World?

Can We Be Healthy in Such a Sick World?

Welcome to Season 9! Each season has about 20 episodes and we are now approaching 250 podcast episodes.

"Holy trauma, Bayman!"

Today, we take an expanded 45-minute deep dive into the failing systems and warnings that should compel us to do better. The time is ripe for narcissists to rise to power and we are rapidly producing a new crop of them continually with our misplaced priorities and bad choices. Probably a bit preachy at times but painfully true all of the time. Not just opinions but facts about where we are headed and why. Even some tips on how to turn it around. Enjoy

NOTE: The podcast begins after a 5-minute explanation of where Narcissistic Abuse Recovery Collaborators (N.A.R.C. Troopers) is at this juncture and where I am headed.


Nov 04, 202355:11
1,527 Days After the Discard: What I Have Learned

1,527 Days After the Discard: What I Have Learned

A reflection on the valuable lessons I learned in the months and years following the discard.

Oct 24, 202325:13
The Narcissist is an Lethal Alpha Predator who is Smarter Than You

The Narcissist is an Lethal Alpha Predator who is Smarter Than You

"You're in the jungle, baby. I'm gonna watch you bleed."

It's hard to believe that your dream come true could shapeshift in the most heartless cold-blooded predator you could ever imagine.

It's nothing personal. It's just what they are.

Oct 16, 202313:52
Fear and Loathing in Narcopath Land

Fear and Loathing in Narcopath Land

The person with NPD with a splash of psychopathy may have no fear, but they sure know how to loathe you. It's a wild trip to Fantasy Island, then a mysterious death.

Oct 10, 202321:30
SADISM Is a Component of Narcissistic Personality Disorder

SADISM Is a Component of Narcissistic Personality Disorder

Sadism and Narcissism are "close cousins" in every sense and often overlap in pathological ways. Let's explore the sadistic narcissist.

Oct 04, 202326:18
How Could Such a Sweet and Charming Person be So Deadly?

How Could Such a Sweet and Charming Person be So Deadly?

The shy vulnerable covert narcissist is often adorable, polite, charismatic, and helpful. Beware, they even convince themselves they are the good guy, but make no mistake. They are missing key components of humanity and are actually empty hollow actors only playing a part in a play.

Sep 30, 202323:06
If You Love a Monster. . .

If You Love a Monster. . .

How does the world perceive someone who stays with a mentally ill predatory beast and chooses them over their friends and family? You know the answer. It is not kind. But they will never really understand, so who can blame them? What you can focus on instead. . .

Sep 29, 202342:08
Self Trashing After Narcissistic Abuse

Self Trashing After Narcissistic Abuse

After the narcissist, it is not uncommon to experience a period of self-trashing, and this self-trashing often involves unsavory sexual liaisons. Forgive yourself, find your boundaries, and create a safe space to recover fully before rushing out into the world. It is dangerous out there.

Sep 12, 202320:25
How to Keep Going After the Music Ends with a Narcissist

How to Keep Going After the Music Ends with a Narcissist

How do you summon the will to live after a brutal discard?

Many of us find it hard enough to get through the daily anxieties and injustices of every day life. When the narcissist abandons you, there is usually a scorched earth policy where they burn your whole life to the ground with you in it, then erase you like it never happened.

How do you rise from the smouldering ashes to start again?

Aug 25, 202321:02
While I Was Sleeping. . . Lost Time When Away with the Narcissist

While I Was Sleeping. . . Lost Time When Away with the Narcissist

When you are in the shared fantasy with the narcissist, time keeps moving on without you. It is as if you were in a coma and when you awaken, everything is different and the people who were most important to you have gone on with their lives without you. It is a confusing and heartbreaking loss. The sooner we get back to reality, the better!

Aug 19, 202319:59
When You've Lost More Than You Can Bear

When You've Lost More Than You Can Bear

8/episode 11 looks at what happens after narcissistic abuse. You lose everything and have a really hard time getting up and getting on. What can we do about it?

Aug 11, 202328:09
Are You Alive?

Are You Alive?

What does it mean to be alive? The person with NPD is not truly alive by most definitions. Let's take a look at what it means to be alive and what separates the narcissist from a neurotypical healthy human.

Aug 03, 202331:31
Anxiety - The Beast that Must Be Tamed

Anxiety - The Beast that Must Be Tamed

After a relationship with a disordered narcissist, it is common to have anxiety and even panic. We discuss 5 maladaptive bad ways to respond to anxiety that can lead to the bad place. Then we discuss better alternatives to get a positive outcome.

Jul 29, 202330:12
Ding Dong, the Witch is Dead. Now What?

Ding Dong, the Witch is Dead. Now What?

A relationship with a narcissist is all about death. Their death (they killed themselves a long time ago), your death (the narcissist must "kill you" to separate and individuate), the "dead mother (that caused all this in the first place), the death of your identity and agency, and the death of everything around them.

So when they are gone, why is there still a problem? And what can we do to get past it!

Jul 14, 202329:18
Are You a Narcoholic?

Are You a Narcoholic?

There are soooo many effects that a covert malignant narcissist has aon their significant other. And the worst part is that all of this abuse can cause an addiction to them which in turn causes emotional, psychological, physiological, neuro-chemical, energetic, and just about every other type of disruption, sickness, and injury in the victim.

Jul 05, 202317:10
The Sound of Silence

The Sound of Silence

The silent treatment is one of the narcissist's favorite weapons to use against you at different stages in the relationship. At some point, we need to accept what they are and let them go- knowing they are very sick people. In the meantime, getting to know our own silence spaces can bring us peace.

Jun 24, 202325:45
Interview with Teahna N. Edralin: Disempowerment and Powering Up
Jun 17, 202353:23
Attachment Styles Impact Trauma Recovery

Attachment Styles Impact Trauma Recovery

THE TYPE OF ATTACHMENT STYLE we have influences how we RECOVER from relationships with MALIGNANT NARCISSISTS. Neurotypical people can modify or change their attachment styles, but the narcissist has flat attachment and can never change.

Jun 13, 202329:33
Object Constancy & Object Relations: The Root of Most Narcissistic Disorders

Object Constancy & Object Relations: The Root of Most Narcissistic Disorders

What is at the heart of narcissistic personality disorder? Understanding Object inconstancy, discontinuous memory, and object relations will make everything come into focus.

Jun 05, 202338:12
Stop Re-Traumatizing the Victim of Narcissistic Abuse

Stop Re-Traumatizing the Victim of Narcissistic Abuse

Well meaning people may do more harm then good when they try to support the narcissistic abuse victim. It's important to understand the unique journey to recovery.

May 15, 202329:34
Interview Phoenix Gould: They Change Us- How They Do It & How We Heal
May 10, 202301:05:16
Collateral Damage

Collateral Damage

There are casualties in a relationship with a person with NPD. Everyone goes down, and the narcissist rides into the sunset to live hollowly ever after.

May 05, 202347:44
The Dark Passenger that Inhabits the Narcissist

The Dark Passenger that Inhabits the Narcissist

My assertion is that all narcissists and psychopaths are walking invitations for dark forces to inhabit them. I believe they carry a "Vacancy" sign that draws entities to them who crawl into the empty space within them and proceed to influence their decisions, perceptions, behavior, etc. . .

I have witnessed this phenomenon face to face. This is my testimony and a cautionary plea to protect yourself.

May 01, 202349:30
INTERVIEW Betty Jo Greenlee Discusses Shame, Blame, & Advocacy
Apr 23, 202301:00:13
INTERVIEW Dr. Praveena Rajendra on PARENTAL NARCISSIM

INTERVIEW Dr. Praveena Rajendra on PARENTAL NARCISSIM

Today's guest speaks about parental narcissism, the shame and blame , and ways to move beyond the abuse.

Dr. Praveena is a Certified Mental Health & Awareness practitioner and works with parental narcissistic abuse victims. She uses various techniques and coping mechanisms, including her personal life experience, to help victims recognize abusive behaviors, heal and live an empowered life. She has also created a framework known as the Narcissistic Victim Empowerment Technique (NVET) to help victims find freedom from manipulating and controlling thoughts of toxic parenting. She understands that many may find it difficult to speak about parental narcissistic abuse due to the trauma bondage and societal perception associated with it, hence Dr. Praveena takes it as a personal mission to empower as many individuals out there to take the reins of their own life.


Dr. Praveena has a dedicated column called “Mind the Mind” in The Sun; Malaysia’s national daily where she writes about mental health awareness. Also, Dr. Praveena sits on the board of the Malaysia Mental Health Association (MMHA)


On the professional front, Dr. Praveena wears various hats. As an engineer, academician, researcher, and avid animal activist, Dr. Praveena holds notable positions in multiple non-profit organizations and serves as a voice for issues pertaining to the environment and animals. She is currently a senior lecturer at Taylor’s University.


For her numerous contributions to society as a whole: people, environment, and animals namely, Dr. Praveena has received Malaysia's Women Leaders Award from the World Women Leadership Congress.


Website - 
https://www.dr-praveena.comLinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/praveenarajendra

Apr 17, 202301:00:08
The Power of Imagery to Heal Trauma

The Power of Imagery to Heal Trauma

Imagery is another tool for your toolbox that works wonders for many who are suffering from the aftermath of narcissistic abuse.

Apr 08, 202328:04
How to Prepare for What's to Come While Recovering from Trauma

How to Prepare for What's to Come While Recovering from Trauma

Tough times are here and you may be recovering from a relationship with a narcissist. Double whammy!x!

So how do you navigate these perilous waters? I have some tips for you.

Mar 27, 202313:32
Tit's Up

Tit's Up

When the going gets tough, the tough put their tits up. It's all about being resilient and plucky.

Mar 14, 202335:24
Mental illness is contagious

Mental illness is contagious

Narcissist, another Cluster Beach, Disordered Center, visuals in fact, their partners, in a way that makes them sick. Even after they’re gone, the infection lives in the body like a chronic, inflammatory disease. Understanding this may give you an edge to heal effectively.
Mar 12, 202350:01
Time is Marked by Memories, but Not for the Disordered

Time is Marked by Memories, but Not for the Disordered

Continuous memory is an essential to emotional empathy, compassion, and reflection. Cluster B disordered people who do not have it are lacking a core quality that makes them human. When they leave, and they all leave sooner or later, they hit the delete button and you disappear as if you never existed. No memories, no regrets, not accountability, no sadness- just instant erasure and complete amnesia. What could be more soul-crushing to their partner than to be deleted and forgotten with absolutely no reflection or remorse? It is a fate worse than death. We remember the dead with respect and kindness. Not so with the narcissist, sociopath, or psychopath. You disintegrate in a moment, and there is nothing to remember.

Mar 06, 202340:50
The Narcissist's Role in the Great Awakening

The Narcissist's Role in the Great Awakening

I begin with 3 perspectives about what the narcissist is ranging back into the past 1902-1907. There was an awareness of "their kind" even 100+ years ago. But where do they fit into the picture of current change. Is that where we are headed? Into a collective consciousness of hollow remorseless callousness? Are they simply an adaptation that was necessary to survive the modern world? Or are they harbingers of decay, depravity, emptiness,  and soullessness that seem to increase every day?

Mar 01, 202339:50
The Cluster B Disordered Lack a Constellated Self

The Cluster B Disordered Lack a Constellated Self

Jung described a constellated self where the individual is ordered and everything works in taddem with everything else in a natuarl, organized and constant way. Narcissists and other Cluster B disordered people do not have this design.

Feb 20, 202341:16
Shift Happens

Shift Happens

Recovery from a relationship with a person within PDA is a complex and layered experience. You spend a vast amount of time, trying to figure out what just happened to you, what they are, and what made you susceptible to it in the first place. At some point, we will need to turn away from that, and begin to focus on yourself. It is only through introspection and self reflection that we can grow and mend and heal and become whole and happy.
Feb 05, 202315:47