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Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

Thoughts of a relapsing drug addict

By Niko

A 100% true life account of what it’s like being a heroin addict in the United States. Dealing with ups and downs no censorship here folks. You’ll catch me at my most unfiltered emotional times. And my happiest of times. I encourage anyone to reach out to me via facebook page tumblr Instagram whatever it’s all under thoughts of a relapsing drug addict or gmail is thoughtsofrelapingpod@gmail.com
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Thoughts of a relapsing drug addictMay 24, 2019

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Just an update

Just an update

Not much but I'll do a real episode later
Jul 22, 202215:47
The new crew

The new crew

Son doing imaging episode with some new people and if you like the personalities let me know I’ll get them back and all that stuff so thank you everyone
Apr 22, 202201:09:51
In the bedroom of the new apartment

In the bedroom of the new apartment

Just me talking about life and what’s going on well I can’t get a new bedroom in the new apartment in order and that was before I found out I had to leave said new apartment
Apr 12, 202214:35
We out here

We out here

We’ll talk about YouTube channels, codependency relationships rock bottom rehab and some other things as usual
Mar 18, 202237:57
Post arrest update

Post arrest update

Just a boring update about the going ons of me
Feb 25, 202219:16
shout outs for the group

shout outs for the group

shouting out people

Jan 30, 202201:43
Let’s just talk about stuff in the cold

Let’s just talk about stuff in the cold

Just a few segments of talking about stuff got stuck out in the cold and was thinking about a lot of things
Jan 30, 202227:28
Another run at the clarion

Another run at the clarion

Rambling about what’s been happening And how I don’t know if I should be worried if I should be mad
Jan 23, 202222:36
Episode coming today about me and my break cause I was in jail again

Episode coming today about me and my break cause I was in jail again

Update
Jan 15, 202200:11
2021 into 2022 NYE annual pod party

2021 into 2022 NYE annual pod party

Just a quick talk with knight rider right after midnight so are the first hours of 2022 we talk about all sorts of things like imagine if someone was living in your attic and you didn’t know about it
Jan 01, 202250:16
The Christmas episode that’s not really about Christmas

The Christmas episode that’s not really about Christmas

Just a multi segments of randomness and updates about my life and goings-on followed by the segment that I’m calling late night talks with nico and Millie
Dec 27, 202141:13
Just a talk with the old cohost

Just a talk with the old cohost

Just a great telk
Dec 26, 202101:44:49
Riding in cars all the time

Riding in cars all the time

Just me and my girlfriends bullshitting while driving around and running errands
Dec 03, 202139:47
Update on life with Unc from nodsquad

Update on life with Unc from nodsquad

OK and I reconnect after not speaking with each other for fuck probably almost 2 years and we both been through a lot in those two years and as usual we talk about everything from the college duty toxic gaming community to talking your family about your drug use and everything in between so here is another unedited unfiltered uncensored long ass talk between us.
Oct 11, 202102:44:43
The roughly 100th episode extravaganza

The roughly 100th episode extravaganza

in this episode Lee and I catch up after what feels like way too long. Lee shares his medical issues with us on top of still working full time, we discuss a new withdrawal medication lofexidine that is essentially Tylenol for withdrawal. As well as the usual touch on topics of drug use such as  what type, how much, how we administer, and a lot more you'll have to listen to find out. And we bring a new guest on named Cody Mendoza whom I met on instagram after reaching out to me, not doing so well because of a mutual friend that we both lost way to soon. If you're a regular listener than Im sure you know who that friend is. RIP Kennedy. join us for you're morning dose of laughs and inspiration and remember life is shit sometimes but being rich with homies like this makes the shit smell like roses. 

Oct 09, 202101:50:48
New relationship episode

New relationship episode

New relationship status and hardships we are facing early on but overcoming and getting through it
Jul 23, 202119:29
The current updates and status of my experience in this simulation of life as to now

The current updates and status of my experience in this simulation of life as to now

Talk about lots of things from secret conspiracies to video games to a new lady in my life. On the last segment I am going to say trigger warning of all sorts of things I know my podcast has trigger warnings all the time but we get into all sorts of sexual innuendos abuse rape male and female domination and others so listen with care I’m not trying to offend anyone the views and opinions expressed in this podcast do reflect my beliefs and that’s all I have to say about that
Jul 03, 202101:05:22
Meanwhile in my simulation scenario

Meanwhile in my simulation scenario

Just me venting about some stuffs. Then me fucking with my computer
Apr 24, 202129:09
my life up until now

my life up until now

some random stuff

Mar 31, 202148:45
Roommate peril

Roommate peril

Bitch about roommates talk gaming alil about life and a lot of nothing
Feb 26, 202131:33
Podcast gaming cereal interface os

Podcast gaming cereal interface os

In this episode we talk about everything from my new PC gaming addiction to Reese’s purse to operating systems to Anna the girl he bailed out of jail and her birthday she’s been a guest a handful of times we talked about how we need a new cohost for different podcasts and God knows what else so just check it out
Jan 30, 202144:01
New year same shit let’s do better in 2021 2020 set the bar pretty low

New year same shit let’s do better in 2021 2020 set the bar pretty low

Had a different episode recorded but decided to not release that one so here is a short new year update
Jan 11, 202124:43
In the meantime… There is a new woman in my life who is rad as fuck

In the meantime… There is a new woman in my life who is rad as fuck

So in this episode I elaborate on the story started last week about my new girlfriend and talk about the new sensation of blues and traveling and being the rock it a girlfriend family funeral. I’m on all our other normal shenanigans
Dec 10, 202001:26:35
The first day together

The first day together

I just update alil and talk about my new friend and we talk about a crazy thing that happened through the night
Nov 26, 202032:34
The election episode that’s not about politics

The election episode that’s not about politics

Me and a friend Just talk back and forth about a lot of stuff. Sorry for sound quality i didn’t have the mic with me.
Nov 05, 202001:16:52
Season 4 opener

Season 4 opener

My first episode in quite awhile so I talk about the election halloween and then I went off on my beliefs about religion.
Oct 03, 202054:27
Milestone 10K

Milestone 10K

Well I’ve reached 10000 listens so thanks everyone and I’ll get a full episode up in the next few days I love you all
Sep 10, 202002:28
Tryin to stay cool in this fuckin heat

Tryin to stay cool in this fuckin heat

We talk methadone updates shout outs more shout outs updates and general ramblings
Jul 19, 202032:05
Recovery? Trying again... maybe it’ll go better this time around

Recovery? Trying again... maybe it’ll go better this time around

We talk methadone treatment and how my early recovery is going. The 1 year anniversary of when Kennedy passed away. The state of the world along with van updates and a bunch of nonsense rambling as usual.
Jul 18, 202028:17
A Smokey evening

A Smokey evening

A talk with my friend Smokey about all sorts of everything from the beginnings of addiction to everything else
Jun 18, 202001:26:42
A long conversation with miles

A long conversation with miles

sex,Hookers,needles,death,love,and a lot in between
Jun 03, 202003:06:35
Ad for the live stream

Ad for the live stream

Just letting everyone know that I’ll be going live on Facebook at 10 PM mountain time roughly and hope to see everyone there
May 22, 202001:41
Shoutouts to al

Shoutouts to al

I don’t remember what I talked about i recorded this a few days ago
May 10, 202032:14
Mic check

Mic check

I just thought id do a quick little episode to test my new microphone out which i think sounds great

Apr 28, 202018:09
                        Moving onward and upward

Moving onward and upward

We talk plans what’s going on or mental state and all in all just positive outlook for the future
Apr 16, 202030:27
Just a grand ole morning

Just a grand ole morning

Random talk about the state of the world and basic everyday stuff Anna banana makes a quick appearance and we take Phelony on a walk
Apr 05, 202047:53
The little bit about me

The little bit about me

Can you talk a bit about me and some things about how I am becoming more comfortable with who I am and we talk about some societal changes as far is the world being more open to certain things and a talk with my friend oh I was away from for a bit and now we’re back together
Mar 28, 202043:06
My view from the end of the world

My view from the end of the world

Just alil about how the pandemic is going
Mar 21, 202027:32
Before court update

Before court update

A brief update of my situation before court. I’ll update when I get out.
Mar 09, 202003:15
The Valentine’s Day episode

The Valentine’s Day episode

Just babbling on about my arrest and clean time
Feb 17, 202038:40
Ramble on Ramada

Ramble on Ramada

We talk about life and it’s goings ons and we have special guest back nodded out Anna mumbling alil bit and we about my talk sexual preferences among other things
Jan 29, 202056:43
First full 2020 season 3 opener just ramblings about stuff
Jan 15, 202029:15
Leaving 2019 in the rear view and entering 2020 with an open heart and eyes wide
Jan 01, 202001:50:23
Pre-Christmas episode we went from stuck in a hotel parking lot to stuck in an auto shop parking lot

Pre-Christmas episode we went from stuck in a hotel parking lot to stuck in an auto shop parking lot

Well it’s me ranting about stuff while driving and then alil talk about the current situation of my #vanlife adventures
Dec 22, 201921:48
It’s not all fun and games

It’s not all fun and games

We talk about some serious shit so trigger warning please respect and be nice
Dec 05, 201929:28
Thanksgiving episode

Thanksgiving episode

Talk about holidays and all sorts of things
Nov 30, 201927:55
Guardian angels all around

Guardian angels all around

My arrest story beginning of my book Walmart shoplifting incident
Nov 19, 201930:02
November 10, 2019

November 10, 2019

Nov 10, 201900:56
We vent

We vent

We vent about road partners and talk about how I helped a family
Nov 10, 201940:06
A morning talk with James from Korea

A morning talk with James from Korea

I finally talk to James from Korea about nitrous mafia football handicapping teaching becoming drug therapists and more
Oct 30, 201951:11