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Melanin In Maine

Melanin In Maine

By René Goddess
This delicious podcast asks questions and amplifies Black, Brown, Asian, Indigenous, kin of color living on stolen First Nation's Lands. Where racism is manifested in daily white violence, this podcast hopes to inspire BBAI kin of color as we flawlessly and difficultly maneuver WHITE TERRORISM. You are NOT ALONE KIN. Every week I bring listeners through my personal journey of internal epigenetic narrative changes, carefully detaching from my toxic trauma responses, and building personal wealth while dealing with daily experiences of white racial emotional labor. Let's transform together KIN.
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Will you make the change?
In this week's 25 minute episode I talk about why changing your mind is an important skill to have. I'm excited about our black business and black movie of the week and as always I want to know what is your wellness practice?
February 14, 2022
How are you honoring what you have already accomplished?
In this 25 minute episode I get right to the point. Everyone is sitting in a chaotic world whether you are doing healing arts work or not whether you are in therapy or not whether you are doing anti-racist or decolonizing work or not, the world is chaotic as f***. Let's talk about it, don't do this s*** alone. I give you a black business as well as a great black series to watch, spoiler it's South African. And of course our wellness of the week discussion, which is a continuation of our goddess talk conversation.
February 07, 2022
What anchors your power?
In this 20 minute episode I talk about power, and the conversation I'm having with myself about what my power is tied to. Business and black movie, I'll give you a hint it's got Tessa my love in it, and of course this week's wellness.
January 24, 2022
Am I choosing trauma bonding, or am I choosing epigenetic narrative change?
In this 30 minute episode I talk about the difficulty of continuing to build new narratives for my nervous system. This week's exciting black movie of the week is a must see, and this week's black business of the week is a Duo like none I've ever met before.
January 15, 2022
Sis, are you good?
In this episode I talk about this week's black business of the week as well as our new black movie of the week. I'm speaking directly to black, brown, indigenous, asian sis folk this week. Also this week's question is relevant for anyone and everyone.
January 05, 2022
Are you the most important to you?
In this 28 minute episode we say goodbye to 2021. I talk about the values of the embodied Equity play tools and why these 12 values are so important to my work in anti-racism and decolonizing as an indigenous queer fem goddess on stolen wabanaki land. Also a new black business of the week and an exciting black movie of the week.
December 27, 2021
Do you have strategies?
In this week's Short episode I talk about the importance of having a plan. Not just for white terrorism. I also asked about who's part of that plan. Also check out this week's black business of the week and our new black movie of the week. I'm finally caught up with our movies, and looking forward to the new series, I'm slightly obsessed with Nollywood right now.
October 11, 2021
Is your urgency violent or productive?
In this very short episode I talk about where your sense of urgency lies as you're doing anti-racist and or decolonizing work. A lot of you, well to be honest your priorities are very f*****. We check in about aligning those priorities with the work that needs to be done. And not the work that feels the most comfortable to you. Also a new black movie of the week as well as a nod to a very special black business of the week.
September 15, 2021
Keeping it in the family
In this episode I continue to talk about white culture parenting and the importance of relationship buildings. My questions are rooted in how are you perpetuating systems harming everyone not just black brown indigenous asian can of color. I give you a new black business of the week as well as a new movie of the week.
August 31, 2021
Do I have a positive developed personal identity?
In this episode I talk about what it might look like or feel like to develop a positive identity. Specifically for white folk, we know your culture does not give you any tools to really do this work confidently. Black, brown, indigenous, asian people of color, well we have more practice. White terrorism forces it upon us. In this episode I talk about why developing a positive identity is so important for the future liberation of those historically underrepresented in most white terrorist driven systems.
August 25, 2021
There is a formula you can follow.
In this episode I talk about some of the steps you could be taking toward I'm doing your white culture parenting standards. Whether you are raising children or not you are indoctrinated in this system especially if you live in United States of america. How are you changing that, what is your anti-racism practice? What is your decolonizing practice? What is your daily work toward not perpetuating terror?
August 17, 2021
How are you perpetuating violent, toxic, racist white culture parenting tools.
After 7 weeks off, of much needed emotional rest, I'm back! In this episode I talk about how difficult it is to continue to watch how little people are being affected by white culture parenting styles. I also talk about all of the black movies we watched since the last time we were together, and I asked you to discover a new black business.
August 09, 2021
White people stop coming to my door empty-handed.
In this episode I discuss how important it is for white people to stop asking us for our help without a clear stipend, honorarium, or payment system. No more dinners, no more coffees, no more can we just talk. Also I reveal our black movie of the week as well as our black business of the week.
June 15, 2021
Radical is the only way!!!
In this episode I talk about radicalism, and why it's the only form of expressionism for me. I also reveal this week's black business of the week as well as our black movie of the week. As always we end our sessions with honoring, wellness, and lots of love.
June 08, 2021
I left my apartment, and I think it was a bad idea.
In this week's episode we get a new black business of the week, a new black movie of the week is revealed, and goddess talk is all about how leaving my apartment was probably not a good decision. More specifically how whiteness is crushing me on a regular basis, but we already knew that.
May 31, 2021
With this kind of power, what is my responsibility?
In this episode I have a conversation with myself about my responsibility to my community, and the world. As someone who understands her power not fully, but through embodiment, I recognize it is my duty to use my power to help the world. But at what consequence to me? And possibly what consequences to other folks. Also I reveal the black business of the week as well as the black movie of the week. Don't forget to check in with our Wellness segment, my new favorite segment.
May 17, 2021
What are you actually ready for?
In this episode I bring you a new black business of the week, I reveal the movie of the week, I asked you a very important question during goddess talk, and I remind you why personal wellness is priority.
May 01, 2021
René Goddess's Embodied Equity Play Tools
In this episode I introduce myself to those who don't know me or my work. I explain why the embodied Equity play tools are so important, and how I use them in my daily life. Also I reveal this week's black movie of the week.
April 17, 2021
I f***** up again, now what do I do?
In this episode I discuss how I harmed someone in my own community, and the consequences. I feature a new black business of the week, and reveal this week's black movie of the week.
April 10, 2021
Being lightning, is not sustainable.
In this episode I talk about how important it is for me to keep recognizing that empathy, patience, rest, and belief in myself, are tools I will need to work through my black self-hate over and over again.
March 27, 2021
In this episode I talk about how hard decolonizing my body is, specifically how hard it is trying not to do the wrong thing. What is the right thing? Assimilation, and white terrorism have me so bound in needing to do the right thing. What happens when I do the wrong thing, can I handle the consequences?
March 20, 2021
What is assertion without consent?
This week I talk about why it is important for us as kin to be having conversations with our Littles. How are the ways that your child selves are affecting your adult lives in negative ways, and what are you doing to change it?
March 13, 2021
CW: I talk about my attacker a predator in our community.
I open up about the need for community resting and community healing. I talk about how the scary thinga we don't want to go near, need to be dealt with, as a xommunitt. There is a need for collaborative community understanding of leadership and leadership roles and responsibilities. I talk about collective repair and understanding of how we perpetuate white terrorist systems.
March 04, 2021
My experience as a Black human Star Child is real.
In this episode I talk about the Black liberation summit of Maine and how important the work being done at this event is for the future of Maine's Black, Brown, Indigenous residents of color. I encourage each of us to get a skin routine. Your skin is your largest organ, it needs serious hydration y'all!
February 27, 2021
Mother and daughter dealing with identity, healing, rest.
In this episode I give an update of last week's episode to bring to light again how black women are being attacked for being themselves I talk about identity healing and rest and how my 74-year-old mother is still struggling with those very things.
February 20, 2021
When white people aren't centered, what happens?
in this episode I talk about how a recent interaction with a CIS white male and the ways he took up space in a room that I created make me feel. Don't forget to check out black business of the week and the black movie of the week.
February 13, 2021
My body is not politics it is stardust!
In this episode I talk about how politicized black female bodies are. Sparked by what's happening to Chloe Bailey and the way that it made my body react, I dig a little deeper into how intergenerational perpetuated white terrorism affected me. How it still affects me.
February 05, 2021
Yep, still talking about sleep...
In this episode I talk a little bit more about what I do for work as an Embodied Equity Consultant specifically for Black, Brown, Indigenous People of Color,and I talk about why rest is so important for us, again.
January 31, 2021
White women stop bringing your lies to my door.
In this episode I speak directly to white women about how harmful they're entitlement is. As my body starts showing sign of severe stress I recognize how much whiteness affects me. Both physically and mentally.
January 22, 2021
Collective energy work for the human race
In this episode I talk about being a human flesh bag, being a star child, and how important collective energy work and grieving is right now. The pandemic is a wake-up call for all of us to be resting more, now is the time to imagine what our future could be and start making plans for it to be so.
January 16, 2021
Sleep is what we need in 2021.
In this episode I talk about why sleep is important for us as americans, and as consumers. Capitalism, white terrorism, and consumerism, are dangerous and they are slowly killing us everyday. Go to sleep!
January 09, 2021
Do you know who I am?
In this episode I update you on my current housing situation spoiler alert it's good news! I also cover how my black self hate is affecting me, and how difficult it is to live with such a low self-esteem. I open up in a big way about how little I think about myself, why that's a problem and how I'm changing it.
December 21, 2020
How Shonda Rhimes prepared me for the most caucacous f****** to date.
In this episode I discover that Shonda Rhimes has been preparing me for the white patriarchy and white matriarchy f****** for a while. I give an update on the white harm that I am currently experiencing with my fiscal sponsor.
December 12, 2020
40% of white women were slaveowners.
In this episode we talk about the fact that white womxn are perpetuators of white terrorism. I’m feeling unsafe and needing to discuss why white womxn make me feel unsafe.
December 04, 2020
White fragility strikes again... The Bowden house is closed
In this episode Nicole Chioma joins us again. She gifts us with updates on what is going on at the Bowdoin House, I warn you it's white fuckery!
November 29, 2020
Whoops, I couldn't use that audio, so here you go.
This episode is a quick 30 minutes of me updating you on my current housing which is an Airbnb here in Portland on Spring Street. It has leaked water from the ceiling twice since being hrte. I also update you on what's going on with Melanin.
November 22, 2020
A Mother and Daughter duo, Portland's Housing Crises, and yt F***ery.
I talk for thirty minutes about some current events, and my housing crises. I introduce an artist I admire and I disclose why therapy is my favorite thing ever!
November 13, 2020
The Art of Devine Living Part 2
In our fifth episode, a continuation with last week's guest Nicole Chioma Antoinette Mokeme. We talk about gardens, plant sharing, and juicing, the day after the 2016 elections and the future of RISE AND SHINE YOUTH RETREAT!
November 06, 2020
The Art of Devine Living Part 1
In this episode we meet the one and only Nicole Chioma Antoinette Mokeme. Nicole has been living in Maine for 12 years, she has a delicious nine-year-old child, and she is one of my favorite people in the entire world. Enjoy getting to know the Art of Devine Living.
October 30, 2020
Money and I deserve each other.
René Goddess talks about why building generational wealth and health is important for all Black, Brown, and Indigenous People of Color.
April 22, 2020
Representation matters.
René Goddess discuses, coming to America as a refugee in 1991, and how her small PoC community was a heavy part of assimilating to becoming black in America. She talks about Maine’s racist and violent history, which has created shame and avoidance around the topics of race and racism.
October 02, 2019
I love you Stella.
In this short episode René Goddess, our host, introduces herself and one of the inspirations for starting this delicious podcast. Her mother Stella.
September 29, 2019