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Nia Conversations with Siya Ben

Nia Conversations with Siya Ben

By Siya
The Nia Conversations Podcast was inspired by my own journey as a rape survivor. After going through this traumatic experience in 2013, I struggled to find content that I could resonate with and that made the healing process very lonely. The podcast is aimed at reaching out to others who’ve been through, or are still going through life-changing traumas. Through my journey, I hope to shine the spotlight on healing, mental health, wellness, meaningful conversations, wellness and and my walk with God.
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4. Beauty for Ashes

Nia Conversations with Siya Ben

20. A reminder of God’s love
Today I was reminded of God’s love for me. This came unexpectedly while I was listening to one of my favourite gospel songs, Kirk Franklin’s “Hold Me Now”. It took me back to a very dark, painful and difficult season and was a reminder of how faithful and loving God. It might now look like it when you’re going through dark times, but God’s hand is always upon your life. He has promised to never leave nor forsake us.
August 21, 2020
19. How I’m keeping sane during lockdown
It’s been a rather challenging time. A lot has changed in the world in the last couple of months. Here, I share some of the things I’ve been doing to keep myself afloat.
July 14, 2020
18. How gratitude changed my life
Keeping a gratitude journal has truly changed my life. Practicing gratitude has shown me that I have so much to be grateful for, every single day, and that I already have everything I need.
June 29, 2020
17. Self-love: You are enough
You are enough, just as you are. There’s this misconception that worldly success somehow increases your value as a person. But that couldn’t be further from the truth. Nothing can ever take away from the fact that you are enough, and your value as a person should never be attached to external factors.
June 16, 2020
16. Why victims don’t report rape
It’s 2020 and I cannot believe that there are people who still blame and shame victims after they share their stories. There are many reasons why people who’ve been sexually violated decide not to report their experiences, and this episode will discuss a few of those reasons.
June 9, 2020
15. Healing comes in waves
This is a reminder that healing is not a linear process. Sometimes you’re okay, and other times you’re not okay. And that’s perfectly normal.
June 2, 2020
14. God meets you in your brokenness
Have you ever been so broken that it felt like your whole world was ending? I’ve been there and I know how painful and confusing that season can be. I’ve learned, though, that God always meets us right in our brokenness. So, even if your world is falling apart, trust and believe that God is with you and that He will see you through whatever you’re facing.
June 1, 2020
13. You can’t give what you don’t have
This episode talks about the importance of pouring into yourself first, before giving to others. You can only give to others what you give (or have given) to yourself.
May 25, 2020
12. God is the ultimate healer
It’s amazing what God can do with our pain. Over the years, I’ve come to truly know Him as a healer. This episode details on my experience with God’s healing power and how He has, and continues to make me whole.
May 18, 2020
11. Why I’ve forgiven the man who violated me
I really do believe that hurt people hurt people. It’s taken me a few years to understand this and to be able to forgive the person who raped me, and release him. It hasn’t been easy, but it has helped me to move forward in my healing journey. Forgiveness is a gift that you give to yourself.
May 13, 2020
10. The importance of confronting unhealed trauma
I think we can all agree that we’ve experienced at least one thing that has left us with scars. We’ve been through things, whether from childhood or adulthood, that have negatively impacted the people we are. Today I speak about unhealed trauma and the importance of confronting it. I used to be called all sorts of names when I was younger and they really affected my self image. I had to unlearn certain things that I believed to be true about myself. The rape incident also really left me with emotional scars that I’m still confronting today. I’m committed to choosing to become a better version of myself every single day and that’s why I believe in confronting your trauma.
April 28, 2020
9. Choosing to live my truth (even the ugly parts)
Have you noticed how we’re not allowed to talk about things that are deemed as “shameful”? This is a sad reality for many of us and we end up having g to carry the weight (or shame) of things we didn’t choose. We carry the pain and burden for years because, “no, you can’t talk about that.” I do, however, believe that you can’t experience your highest and most authentic self without dealing with the messy parts parts of your life.
April 20, 2020
8. Where do you draw your strength from?
They say you can’t give from an empty cup. I totally agree with this statement! This week, I chat about what I do when I find myself in a place where I can no longer give to others (and myself). For me, when I get to that place, it’s all about working on filling my own cup first, before I can be anything else to other people.
April 7, 2020
7. Checking in + vulnerability
Are you in a good space? A lot is happening in the world right now and I’m going through all kinds of emotions. On this episode I share my current mental space and the things that are coming up in terms of my healing. I’ve been presented with yet another layer of healing and I won’t lie, it’s taking me to a very vulnerable space.
March 30, 2020
Supporting someone with depression
When your loved one has been diagnosed with depression, a lot of things probably go through your head. On this episode I share a few ways in which you can support your loved one. I also reached out to LifeLine Western Cape and one of their counsellors, Glynis Depper shared a few tips.
March 23, 2020
5. Becoming: Let’s talk about therapy
I believe that therapy is one of the most beautiful gifts you can give yourself. On this episode I speak about what made me go to a therapist. I share my experience and unpack some of the things I’ve learned so far. The journey hasn’t been an easy one, but it has certainly been worth it.
March 17, 2020
4. Beauty for Ashes
This time I talk about how a bible scripture became my theme in 2018. It was all about Isaiah 61:1-3. God proved to me that He was listening to my prayers — He sent people and resources my way in order to not only confirm and fulfill His word, but to also heal and restore me.
March 10, 2020
3. What healing really looks like
I’ve learned that healing comes in layers. It’s certainly not an easy journey and process — some days are better than others. Here, I talk about what my healing journey has looked like. It’s been filled with a lot of ups and downs, overwhelming moments that have led me to a psychiatric hospital. The journey has been tough, but it’s always resulted in this version of myself — the most beautiful and happiest I’ve ever been.
March 2, 2020
2. Life after rape: how my healing journey started
Trauma does really change a person’s life. It’s just one of those things that comes unexpectedly and you have no choice but to accept it. For me, my life changed drastically after I was raped in 2013. This episode is about the day that incident happened, what was going through my mind at the time and what my life looked like after that incident. There were many ups and downs, highs and lows. I also share a bit about how this led to my relationship with God.
February 24, 2020
Nia Conversations With Siya Ben
On this first episode I introduce the Nia Conversations Podcast. This podcast was inspired by my story as a rape survivor and it’s aimed at reaching out the thousands of rape survivors and other people who’ve been through life-changing traumas not only in South Africa, but in the of the world. I want to shine the spotlight on my own experiences — whether good or bad — my healing journey, therapy, wellness, mental health and other real and meaningful conversations. I also want to talk about my walk with God because I believe that I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for Him. It has been a journey filled with ups and downs and I’m happy to share it with the rest of the world.
February 18, 2020