Trigger warning. I cry while talking about women who are silent.
Today, I released the screenshots between me and David after he caressed the small of the back while I was bending over to get my shoe where he tries to get me to be silent.
I'm very sad that so many women out there are walking around in silence over being violated.
It is your right and you are strong as fuck to be walking around every day carrying a load like that with you.
I just don't want the world to be like this.
Recording from November 7th, 2019. Prior to talking to David Silverman about what happened and prior to him trying to silence me, I was in a PTSD nightmare.
I recorded this approximately 5 hours before I reached out to him and he attempted to silence me.
David Silverman touched me on November 2nd, 2019.
Kalisti and I made this recording on November 4th to record every detail while it was fresh in our minds. We decided we would hold it unless we needed it.
David Silverman, after this point, tried to silence me.
He failed at his attempt.
He is still trying to control the narrative, so here is the recording we made with every detail, prior to him trying to silence me and prior to me knowing that he had massive identity issues that he needs to work on.
Podcast only. While missing the first Halloween of her son's life, Rebecca discusses the phrase, "I'm proud of you... The truth is, if most people really knew your story and all of the things you've been through, they'd probably wonder how you're still smiling."
She also discusses laughing and decides that she's going to outline her personal outline of trauma. She finishes off with meeting her needs for food and water and discusses the problem with gulping and guzzling.
Podcast only. In the first of many daily logs, Rebecca discuss the lessons she learned from her abortions that came into play in the loss of Cutie Lark Finchmun. Warning: plenty of tears.
Rebecca is somewhat cryptic at a few points in this recording and we will be revisiting this topic in a future episode.
"Not stated, but referred to more than once:
I wanted to keep the second pregnancy, but the "father" did not. I aborted for the child's sake, not for my own. When I say, "I didn't do it for me", it's because I sacrificed what I wanted for what I believed to be what was in the child's best interests."
Podcast only. The following is the audio from the Facebook livestream we did shortly after Rebecca's miscarriage. A couple hours after this, Rebecca had to go to the ER for fluids. Audio provided in its original unedited form.
Kali and Rebecca talk about the list of needs they have created for the show called The Well-Being List. You can find the list at https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tEQzTZXwCgjfzzxid29KVeK9zUcJD1MNLKyvM2QrkUo/edit?usp=sharing
In this impromptu episode, Kali and Rebecca dive into what it feels like to be triggered(while triggered), the very real affects of "harmless" posts that deny the needs of others, and the PTSD/CPTSD freeze response they've deemed feeling like a potato. To learn more about Reality Therapy/Choice Theory this is a good place to start: https://positivepsychology.com/reality-therapy/
Kali and Rebecca discuss the signals human brains send us when our needs are not met.
The Displaced African's Comprehensive List of Emotions, https://web.archive.org/web/20110203055509/http://www.thedisplacedafrican.com/2008/04/how-rich-is-your-emotional-experience/
Hoffman Institute Foundation's Feelings and Body Sensations List, https://www.hoffmaninstitute.org/wp-content/uploads/Practices-FeelingsSensations.pdf
Kali and Rebecca discuss various lists of human needs and weigh the pros and cons of each as they begin to compile and organize the needs every human has to some degree.
CNVC Needs Inventory: https://www.cnvc.org/training/resource/needs-inventory
BayNVC Universal Human Needs - Partial List: https://baynvc.org/list-of-needs/
Manfred Max-Neef Fundamental Human Needs: http://www.moozedesign.in/images/portfolio/actual/bhn.jpg
Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs: https://www.danmartell.com/hierarchy-of-entrepreneurial-needs
From Conflict to Connection: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/27227658-from-conflict-to-connection