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this is it actually.

this is it actually.

By jeni b.
in my life i’ve heard hilarious, heartwarming, heartbreaking, sad & beautiful stories. they connect us to one another. they're yours, they're mine... we're all stories worth telling.
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this is BEING FREE actually.
the definition of freedom is: having the ability to act or change without constraint.  & obviously being free means different things to different people... which is pretty cool. with special guests: @mytvan.adventures, @nicolabee, @steventwigg @varnerprodco @barbnoordover x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
25:21
April 8, 2021
this is MY GUESTS ARE THE BEST actually.
when I’m putting the voicemails together for each episode, i laugh & cry & FEEL all the feels 'cuz my guests are the best & their stories are solid gold. so, for this 50th episode, i decided to grab words from some of the most listened-to shows. i appreciate every single story told. with special guests: @momma.barbosa, @aragonnfld, @rjcity, @sharronmatthews, @mattawells & poppa hank.  x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
25:43
April 1, 2021
this is LOSS actually.
along with life, comes loss. that's just the deal. it's kind of all around. i know from experience that it’s ok to feel broken by loss & sometimes being reminded that we're not alone can help in dark days. with special guests: @kath.films, @julieinthesix, @ferrostudios & @ms.rush. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
21:10
March 25, 2021
this is LASTING IMPRESSIONS actually.
i like to think that we get to learn from the people who have made a lasting impression on us and then in a dreamy world, we adopt those good qualities and pay them forward. with special guests: @jcoopstagram, @michelle_daly1, @jessica.m.wright & willie. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
29:35
March 18, 2021
this is A LATE NIGHT TALK SHOW actually.
this is the behind-the-scenes of the behind-the-scenes of a late night talk show. it's larry sanders... but in real life. working on a late night talk show was pretty much the most fun thing i've ever done & on this episode, myself & some former coworkers lay a few epic stories to rest.  with special guests: @thatgirlmaureen01, @suebrophey, @tiffanyfrench86, @keithtomasek, greg eckler & orin isaacs. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
27:30
March 11, 2021
this is ANXIETY actually.
tingly hands, vibrating body, loopy lightheadedness... and not in the good way. anxiety is a mothereffer but man, is there strength in numbers. with special guests: @theoftenunseen, @justbreathemama, @allyse_has_anxiety & shan. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
24:46
March 4, 2021
this is the ART OF WORDS actually. feat CANDACE HOWZE
this will come as no surprise. i love words. especially the good ones. with special guest: @aceisjoy. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:13
February 25, 2021
this is BACKPACKING AROUND THE WORLD actually.
one sweater, brown cords, a rain jacket, hiking boots, birkenstocks, dress, a bunch of tshirts, shorts & a 'let's go europe'. that's all i packed & it's all i needed. with special guests: @bcraiganderson, @jonodowler, @haleyy.bee, @samanthajhall, @baybargy. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
32:44
February 18, 2021
this is VALENTINE'S DAY actually.
valentine’s day. you either love it or hate it. for a sweet little calendar date all about love, It’s kind of a hot button topic. my valentine's story may not be what you think. plus stories about love, roses & being stood up in the 5th grade. x. with special guests: @beautifully.monica, @oleander_floral_design, @jonodowler, @davelembke & berenike. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:22
February 11, 2021
this is JAY ONRAIT actually.
we talk university life, big cities, small towns, road trips & how jay went from counting pills to hosting one of the biggest shows on TSN. my special guest: @jayonrait x. follow this podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
29:24
February 4, 2021
this is THE STORIES I FORGOT TO TELL TOO actually.
yep. i forgot stuff again. here's some stories i failed to mention in episodes 22-40.  & this is the final episode of season 1! thanks for being here.  x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
16:52
January 7, 2021
this is WHAT HAPPENED actually.
well 2020. that was it. the year that nothing & everything happened.  x. with special guests: @cloudydayclothing_, @beardedbakerto, @ms.rush, @poplarandbirch, @handldtoronto, @torrensjonathan. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
26:45
December 31, 2020
this is THE HOLIDAYS actually.
the holidays can be a giant jumble of feelings. funny, sad, heartsick, wonderful. this episode has a little bit of all of it.  love to everyone.  x. with special guests: @jennytryanskycoaching, @pattigrileyatthelake, @_angelayoung_, @schaaptop & @mbesworth. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
26:19
December 24, 2020
this is MUSIC TOO actually.
music's so nice, i had to talk about it twice. this time it's music festivals & life-changing performances, the lessons learned when writing songs & the year's top artists, with a tip of the hat to nostalgia & remembering the gift that was lilith fair.  with special guests: @ericaehm, @mattawells, @hannsung, @parkdalepanther & @billwelychka. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
25:04
December 17, 2020
this is WHAT IF actually.
would you change an event of your life if you knew it was all going to turn out the same way anyway? do you dream about a life that didn’t happen based on a turn you didn’t make? and if you got an answer to the what if you’re dying to know about the future, would you really change your course? x. with special guests: @catherine.soyoung, @melhore, @kerilovestrees, @theslickestrick & @thatgirlmaureen. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
23:01
December 10, 2020
this is HEROES actually.
every day or super. it all counts. with special guests: michael, willow, lola, izzie, abby, jack, claire, stan & eleanor. thank you to their parents for being my story collectors! x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
16:05
December 3, 2020
this is PIZZA actually.
ok i know. this may be a silly subject. but come on, it's pizza. everyone has a story. with special guests: @coachrsg, @ms.rush, @hmuir10, @aciggulden & @thosepizzaguys. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:49
November 26, 2020
this is SENIORS actually.
respect your elders. that’s a rule as old as, well, old people. but what about celebrate your elders? enjoy your elders? spend time with the people who have a million stories and lived a zillion lives. that kind of life experience is nothing to shake a stick at. the sweet sweet life of 65+. with special guests: poppa hank, nana adrienne, bubba roger, mama sue & daddio ken. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
22:28
November 19, 2020
this is HUMAN CONNECTION actually.
it's a cold hard fact that we need human connection. now, more than ever. with special guest: @shopblueberrymoon. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:50
November 12, 2020
this is BODY STUFF actually.
bodies. glorious gorgeous weird wonderful unique beautiful bodies. everyone's got a story. with special guests: @robnardecchia, @michellemelles, @rjcity, @mellymah, @itsminagerges. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
28:01
November 5, 2020
this is CHANGE actually.
whether we like it or not - and trust me, i don't always like it - change = growth.  LEAN IN.  with special guest: @iamjessejones / @thehouseofkuumba. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
19:36
October 29, 2020
this is MUSIC actually.
it gives us permission to feel. whether the feelings are happy & high, or lowest of the low, music always meets us there. music is religion. it's medicine. it's pure magic.  with special guests: @josiedye, @kim_stockwood, @nubs416, @janinamariejaninamarie, @kid247 & orin isaacs. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
31:36
October 22, 2020
this is KINDNESS actually.
it doesn't cost a thing & it can turn a whole mood.  kind people are my kinda' people. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
24:22
October 15, 2020
this is BALANCE actually.
finding balance - especially these days - seems next to impossible. everything is topsy-turvy. i've been asking myself what balance even means to me now? this episode won't have any answers :) but hopefully it will make you feel less alone in your lopsidedness. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
23:11
October 8, 2020
this is MOVIES actually.
movies make us reflective, hopeful, gutwrenchingly sad. they offer perspective and escapism & sometimes they help us process our own difficult stuff. there are movies that drive social change & there are some that just allow us to appreciate art. there is nothing quite like getting lost in a movie. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
23:35
October 1, 2020
this is STUFF I LOVE actually.
i love stuff & i'm gonna' tell you all about it. PLUS, i'm teaming up with my friend sylvia - from the podcast BEAUTY & STUFF - to get some of our fave things in YOUR hands. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow beauty & stuff on instagram: @beautyandstuffpod
20:42
September 24, 2020
this is BOOBS actually.
boobs. jugs. melons. knockers. chest. bosom. bazooms. bazookas. whatever you call them, however you relate to them & whether you have them or not, there's just a thing about breasts. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
29:33
September 17, 2020
this is DATING actually.
today's stories include celebrities, accidental overindulgence, the pitfalls of online dating & peeing in a bush. & those are just mine! ah, dating. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
25:09
September 10, 2020
this is FOLLOWING MY BLISS actually.
dr. jeremy goldberg (LONG DISTANCE LOVE BOMBS) wants you to live a life that would make YOU jealous, get UNstuck & follow your bliss. x. find & follow jeremy on instagram: @longdistancelovebombs  find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
19:36
September 3, 2020
this is SUMMER JOBS actually.
every summer job has a story. good or bad... they were always memorable. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
23:49
August 27, 2020
this is THE STORIES I FORGOT TO TELL actually.
sometimes i forget stuff. here's the stories i forgot to tell in episodes 1-20. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
16:37
August 20, 2020
this is SEX actually.
growing up, sex was a non-topic in my house. no birds, no bees... BUT, there was a book on hamsters.  let's talk about sex, baby. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
25:02
August 13, 2020
this is BEING BEAUTIFUL actually.
everyone has their own definition of beauty. inside, outside, it matters to us all in different ways. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
19:51
August 6, 2020
this is THE AFTERGLOW actually.
the afterglow is many different things. an italian rock band, magic hour, a taylor swift song.  liz & julie, co-owners of the afterglow yoga studio in toronto & co-hosts of the afterglow podcast, believe that the afterglow happens in the second half of life and that it gets really good. they want you to believe that too. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find liz & julie on instagram: @theafterglowpodcastofficial
16:25
July 30, 2020
this is TATTOOS actually.
got a tattoo? want a tattoo? love ‘em? loathe ‘em? don’t really care either way but like good stories? this episode’s for you. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
19:11
July 23, 2020
this is CANCER actually.
both of my parents had cancer. i grew up thinking it was just a part of my DNA. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
17:26
July 16, 2020
this is our GENERAL STORE actually.
there is something so special about a small town's general store. the people, the charm, the feeling of home.  i grew up with one attached to my house & it is a huge part of who i am today. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually
21:24
July 9, 2020
this is a SMALL TOWN actually.
i was born in a small town... & i'll never not love talking about small town life. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:19
July 2, 2020
this is a GIVEAWAY actually.
when things don't quite go as planned, you should just do a giveaway! listen for details & good luck! x. follow TIIA on instagram: @thisisitactually follow rustic fever on instagram: @rusticfever find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth
03:09
June 25, 2020
this is PRIDE actually.
i'm lucky to be surrounded by diverse & beautiful humans who belong to the lgbtq2+ community. here are some of their stories. happy pride! x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
20:00
June 18, 2020
this is love actually: ALL KINDS OF LOVE.
there is no end to the amount we could talk about love & i certainly didn't cover it all in the last 3 episodes but i sure loved talking about it. it's safe to say we need it now more than ever. all kinds. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
19:54
June 11, 2020
this is love actually: ONE GOOD REASON.
alcohol addiction, a deeply-hidden secret & one great big love. séan mccann and andrea aragon co-write the story of their lives & the things they have had to overcome as a couple, in their memoir ONE GOOD REASON.  they each take turns writing their own personal stories & they do not shy away from the truth. andrea's chapters offer a unique & intimate spousal perspective & act as a reminder that love is worth fighting for.  enjoy my chat with andrea! x. find séan & andrea on instagram: @seanmccannsings get your copy of ONE GOOD REASON: https://seanmccannsings.com/the-book find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
25:54
May 28, 2020
this is love actually: NEW LOVE.
ah new love. the sexy new relationship kind, the exciting fun newlywed kind, the smell of a new baby kind... there's nothing quite like it. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
19:41
May 21, 2020
this is MY DEFINING MOMENT actually.
how often do you find yourself wondering about the left or right turn your life did or didn't take & how you ended up exactly where you are? our lives are full of defining moments, thank goodness for that. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
17:02
May 14, 2020
this is MOTHER'S DAY actually.
some moms are dads, some dads are moms, some moms are moms on their own and some moms aren’t even our moms, they’re just special people who fill the role. there's birth moms, adopted moms, stepmoms, and even the moms we inherit through friends or marriage. this is a love letter to moms. happy mother's day! x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
18:26
May 7, 2020
this is GOOD NEIGHBOURS actually.
we gossip. we share & exchange stuff. we wave from our front steps. you can’t choose your neighbours but lucking into good ones is kind of like winning the lottery. actually, even the wacky ones can be pretty awesome. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
16:41
April 30, 2020
this is MINDFULNESS actually.
if there were ever a time to practice mindfulness, 2020 may just be it. i chat with my yoga teacher & mindfulness coach, greg klym, to find out what it is, how it helps & why we should all be doing it. deep breath in, long breath out. x. find greg on instagram & FB: @gregklymcoaching find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
26:54
April 23, 2020
this is DIVORCE actually.
growing up, divorce seemed like a dirty word. i vowed to never let it happen to me. until it did.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
13:10
April 16, 2020
this is MY STOLEN BIKE actually.
being raised in a small town, bikes were everything. they represented fun, freedom & a kid's single mode of transportation. so when i grew up, moved to the city & had several bikes stolen, i couldn't believe someone would want to take that away from me.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
18:03
April 9, 2020
this is MARK GROVES actually.
mark groves is a human connection specialist - he connects humans to each other & back to themselves. he's helped me through many a dilemma (debacle?) and he's not afraid to speak & live his truth. he is a modern day love & relationship guru & a dear friend.  enjoy our chat!   x.  find mark on instagram: @createthelove  find mark on apple podcasts: Mark Groves Podcast  find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth  follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually  follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
17:05
April 2, 2020
this is FINDING DIMES actually.
maybe you've heard about the magic of discovering dimes & what it means when they cross your path. admittedly, it's a little huh? does it actually mean anything? it most certainly does. here's my 10 cents on finding dimes.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
10:21
March 26, 2020
this is MY MOM'S DEAD actually.
in this inaugural episode of TIIA, jeni tells stories about living without parents & gets others to share their stories as well. all the heart stuff.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual
18:20
March 18, 2020
this is THE MANIFESTO actually.
stories told, connections made... that's the hope anyway.  this is the WHY of THIS IS IT. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual 
04:11
March 17, 2020