this is it actually.

tingly hands, vibrating body, loopy lightheadedness... and not in the good way. anxiety is a mothereffer but man, is there strength in numbers. with special guests: @theoftenunseen, @justbreathemama, @allyse_has_anxiety & shan. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

this will come as no surprise. i love words. especially the good ones. with special guest: @aceisjoy. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

one sweater, brown cords, a rain jacket, hiking boots, birkenstocks, dress, a bunch of tshirts, shorts & a 'let's go europe'. that's all i packed & it's all i needed. with special guests: @bcraiganderson, @jonodowler, @haleyy.bee, @samanthajhall, @baybargy. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

valentine’s day. you either love it or hate it. for a sweet little calendar date all about love, It’s kind of a hot button topic. my valentine's story may not be what you think. plus stories about love, roses & being stood up in the 5th grade. x. with special guests: @beautifully.monica, @oleander_floral_design, @jonodowler, @davelembke & berenike. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

we talk university life, big cities, small towns, road trips & how jay went from counting pills to hosting one of the biggest shows on TSN. my special guest: @jayonrait x. follow this podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

yep. i forgot stuff again. here's some stories i failed to mention in episodes 22-40.  & this is the final episode of season 1! thanks for being here.  x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

well 2020. that was it. the year that nothing & everything happened.  x. with special guests: @cloudydayclothing_, @beardedbakerto, @ms.rush, @poplarandbirch, @handldtoronto, @torrensjonathan. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

the holidays can be a giant jumble of feelings. funny, sad, heartsick, wonderful. this episode has a little bit of all of it.  love to everyone.  x. with special guests: @jennytryanskycoaching, @pattigrileyatthelake, @_angelayoung_, @schaaptop & @mbesworth. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

music's so nice, i had to talk about it twice. this time it's music festivals & life-changing performances, the lessons learned when writing songs & the year's top artists, with a tip of the hat to nostalgia & remembering the gift that was lilith fair.  with special guests: @ericaehm, @mattawells, @hannsung, @parkdalepanther & @billwelychka. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

would you change an event of your life if you knew it was all going to turn out the same way anyway? do you dream about a life that didn’t happen based on a turn you didn’t make? and if you got an answer to the what if you’re dying to know about the future, would you really change your course? x. with special guests: @catherine.soyoung, @melhore, @kerilovestrees, @theslickestrick & @thatgirlmaureen. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

every day or super. it all counts. with special guests: michael, willow, lola, izzie, abby, jack, claire, stan & eleanor. thank you to their parents for being my story collectors! x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

ok i know. this may be a silly subject. but come on, it's pizza. everyone has a story. with special guests: @coachrsg, @ms.rush, @hmuir10, @aciggulden & @thosepizzaguys. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

respect your elders. that’s a rule as old as, well, old people. but what about celebrate your elders? enjoy your elders? spend time with the people who have a million stories and lived a zillion lives. that kind of life experience is nothing to shake a stick at. the sweet sweet life of 65+. with special guests: poppa hank, nana adrienne, bubba roger, mama sue & daddio ken. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

it's a cold hard fact that we need human connection. now, more than ever. with special guest: @shopblueberrymoon. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

bodies. glorious gorgeous weird wonderful unique beautiful bodies. everyone's got a story. with special guests: @robnardecchia, @michellemelles, @rjcity, @mellymah, @itsminagerges. x. follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

whether we like it or not - and trust me, i don't always like it - change = growth.  LEAN IN.  with special guest: @iamjessejones / @thehouseofkuumba. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

it gives us permission to feel. whether the feelings are happy & high, or lowest of the low, music always meets us there. music is religion. it's medicine. it's pure magic.  with special guests: @josiedye, @kim_stockwood, @nubs416, @janinamariejaninamarie, @kid247 & orin isaacs. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

it doesn't cost a thing & it can turn a whole mood.  kind people are my kinda' people. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

finding balance - especially these days - seems next to impossible. everything is topsy-turvy. i've been asking myself what balance even means to me now? this episode won't have any answers :) but hopefully it will make you feel less alone in your lopsidedness. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

movies make us reflective, hopeful, gutwrenchingly sad. they offer perspective and escapism & sometimes they help us process our own difficult stuff. there are movies that drive social change & there are some that just allow us to appreciate art. there is nothing quite like getting lost in a movie. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

i love stuff & i'm gonna' tell you all about it. PLUS, i'm teaming up with my friend sylvia - from the podcast BEAUTY & STUFF - to get some of our fave things in YOUR hands. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow beauty & stuff on instagram: @beautyandstuffpod

boobs. jugs. melons. knockers. chest. bosom. bazooms. bazookas. whatever you call them, however you relate to them & whether you have them or not, there's just a thing about breasts. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

today's stories include celebrities, accidental overindulgence, the pitfalls of online dating & peeing in a bush. & those are just mine! ah, dating. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

dr. jeremy goldberg (LONG DISTANCE LOVE BOMBS) wants you to live a life that would make YOU jealous, get UNstuck & follow your bliss. x. find & follow jeremy on instagram: @longdistancelovebombs  find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

every summer job has a story. good or bad... they were always memorable. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

sometimes i forget stuff. here's the stories i forgot to tell in episodes 1-20. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

growing up, sex was a non-topic in my house. no birds, no bees... BUT, there was a book on hamsters.  let's talk about sex, baby. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

everyone has their own definition of beauty. inside, outside, it matters to us all in different ways. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

the afterglow is many different things. an italian rock band, magic hour, a taylor swift song.  liz & julie, co-owners of the afterglow yoga studio in toronto & co-hosts of the afterglow podcast, believe that the afterglow happens in the second half of life and that it gets really good. they want you to believe that too. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually find liz & julie on instagram: @theafterglowpodcastofficial

got a tattoo? want a tattoo? love ‘em? loathe ‘em? don’t really care either way but like good stories? this episode’s for you. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

both of my parents had cancer. i grew up thinking it was just a part of my DNA. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

there is something so special about a small town's general store. the people, the charm, the feeling of home.  i grew up with one attached to my house & it is a huge part of who i am today. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually

i was born in a small town... & i'll never not love talking about small town life. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

when things don't quite go as planned, you should just do a giveaway! listen for details & good luck! x. follow TIIA on instagram: @thisisitactually follow rustic fever on instagram: @rusticfever find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth

i'm lucky to be surrounded by diverse & beautiful humans who belong to the lgbtq2+ community. here are some of their stories. happy pride! x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

there is no end to the amount we could talk about love & i certainly didn't cover it all in the last 3 episodes but i sure loved talking about it. it's safe to say we need it now more than ever. all kinds. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

alcohol addiction, a deeply-hidden secret & one great big love. séan mccann and andrea aragon co-write the story of their lives & the things they have had to overcome as a couple, in their memoir ONE GOOD REASON.  they each take turns writing their own personal stories & they do not shy away from the truth. andrea's chapters offer a unique & intimate spousal perspective & act as a reminder that love is worth fighting for.  enjoy my chat with andrea! x. find séan & andrea on instagram: @seanmccannsings get your copy of ONE GOOD REASON: https://seanmccannsings.com/the-book find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

ah new love. the sexy new relationship kind, the exciting fun newlywed kind, the smell of a new baby kind... there's nothing quite like it. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

how often do you find yourself wondering about the left or right turn your life did or didn't take & how you ended up exactly where you are? our lives are full of defining moments, thank goodness for that. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

some moms are dads, some dads are moms, some moms are moms on their own and some moms aren’t even our moms, they’re just special people who fill the role. there's birth moms, adopted moms, stepmoms, and even the moms we inherit through friends or marriage. this is a love letter to moms. happy mother's day! x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

we gossip. we share & exchange stuff. we wave from our front steps. you can’t choose your neighbours but lucking into good ones is kind of like winning the lottery. actually, even the wacky ones can be pretty awesome. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

if there were ever a time to practice mindfulness, 2020 may just be it. i chat with my yoga teacher & mindfulness coach, greg klym, to find out what it is, how it helps & why we should all be doing it. deep breath in, long breath out. x. find greg on instagram & FB: @gregklymcoaching find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

growing up, divorce seemed like a dirty word. i vowed to never let it happen to me. until it did.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

being raised in a small town, bikes were everything. they represented fun, freedom & a kid's single mode of transportation. so when i grew up, moved to the city & had several bikes stolen, i couldn't believe someone would want to take that away from me.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

mark groves is a human connection specialist - he connects humans to each other & back to themselves. he's helped me through many a dilemma (debacle?) and he's not afraid to speak & live his truth. he is a modern day love & relationship guru & a dear friend.  enjoy our chat!   x.  find mark on instagram: @createthelove  find mark on apple podcasts: Mark Groves Podcast  find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth  follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually  follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

maybe you've heard about the magic of discovering dimes & what it means when they cross your path. admittedly, it's a little huh? does it actually mean anything? it most certainly does. here's my 10 cents on finding dimes.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

in this inaugural episode of TIIA, jeni tells stories about living without parents & gets others to share their stories as well. all the heart stuff.  x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual

stories told, connections made... that's the hope anyway.  this is the WHY of THIS IS IT. x. find jeni on instagram: @jenibesworth follow the podcast on instagram: @thisisitactually follow the podcast on twitter: @thisisitactual