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Trans and Caffeinated

Trans and Caffeinated

By Arielle Rebekah
This podcast is rooted in a singular dream – to aid our culture’s growth by fostering collective education, encouraging open discussion, and most importantly nurturing and inspiring new generations of my transgender siblings.

Here’s to a transer future.

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Created by @ariellergordon (IG and Twitter)
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Cheyenne Xochítl Love (she/her) on rejecting your bullshit “inclusive” paradigm
It’s never easy to navigate the dichotomy of upholding anti-capitalist principles and beliefs while running a for-profit business—but Cheyenne Xochítl Love remains mindful of this balance, while learning new skills along the way. Cheyenne is the Indigenous, two-spirit, non-binary trans girl behind Queer Wave Coffee, where she roasts Honduran coffee on Chochenyo Ohlone land or precolonized Oakland, CA. For her, being queer means that we create new avenues that allow us to break free from the straight, binary, and oppressive path we have been taught. This goes not only for gender and sexuality, but also for the fundamentally anti-nature manner of existence to which we are expected to adhere. Cheyenne contests the notion that diversity and inclusion efforts are a panacea for workplace oppression, instead challenging employers to emphasize which groups they exclude. She proudly displays “1312” in the bottom corner of each of her bags, and publicly shares her commitment to dismantle patriarchy, white supremacy, and other oppressions in both her professional and private life. This episode mentions police violence, white supremacy, violence toward and erasure of Indigenous people and identities, COVID-19, and patriarchy. This is Cheyenne Xochítl Love on rejecting your bullshit “inclusive” paradigm SOCIAL Personal IG: @cheyenne_xochitl_love Business IG: @queerwavecoffee LINKS Queer Wave Coffee
57:23
January 16, 2021
Bex León (they/them, fae/femme) on being the monster that’s under your bed
Bex León is a lot like nature: their gender cycles with the passage of each season, they are justifiably angry about the impact of capitalism, and they are tired of white people-centric approaches to problem-solving. Bex is raising their voice and fighting for justice in the face of oppressive systems designed to disempower their communities. As a disability justice advocate, Bex’s efforts are focused through the lens of community care, interdependence, and communal abundance-making, with the understanding that scarcity is falsely created by state control over our resources. Through their poetry, Bex highlights their experiences as a disabled, gender cyclical, non-binary Boricua in the often visceral texts of “bible perverses” and monster literature, in which they reclaim the ableist trope of “monsterhood.” I learned a lot from Bex in our time together, and I’m confident that you will, too. This episode mentions ableism, codependency, police brutality, environmental racism, and white supremacy. This is Bex León on being the monster that’s under your bed. LINKS Patty Burns — 10 Principles of Disability Justice (Sins Invalid Art Performance Collective) Mutual Aid is Abolition Work — Slides & Recording (Black Abolitionist Network) *”Communal abundance-making” is a term originally coined by Ameenah Rashid SOCIAL IG: @onmybex_behavior Vemmo: @BexLeon
45:44
January 2, 2021
Em Rabelais (they/themme, fae/femme) on white feminist violence in nursing
Em Rabelais is the white, disabled, queer, trans feminine, and non-binary ethicist, nurse, scholar, white feminism dismantler, and potential kept themmebian you never knew you needed. Until now. WHOOO that was a mouthful. As an academic, their scholarship is rooted in disrupting and dismantling white supremacy in nursing—but Em’s work doesn’t end there. They are deeply committed to pushing back against all forms of oppression, including the rampant ableism and transmisogyny they regularly endure. Em has no desire to play nice with oppressors—they know that the nursing status quo of niceness and civility have not changed anything. Instead, they are intense, intentional, and direct as they push back against oppressive systems designed to harm marginalized and minoritized groups and individuals—even when their methods result in immense personal backlash. This episode mentions sexual assault, white feminism and white supremacy, racism, transmisogyny, and ableism. This is Em Rabelais on white feminist violence in nursing SOCIAL Venmo: @fernian IG: @dr.whomever Twitter: @dr_whomever LINKS Mia Mingus on how to give a good apology, Part 1 and Part 2 The Master's Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master's House Transmisogyny-exempt (TME) vs transmisogyny-affected (TMA) - Terms defined here
1:01:44
December 19, 2020
Faith (she/her) on freedom, self-discovery, and Wish Me Luck Tattoo
Faith woke up one morning with a single thought weighing heavy on her mind: “I don’t even know who I am.” For years, she internalized the resounding sentiment of those around her that it was not okay to be herself - until one day, she came to a crossroads wherein she could no longer bear to live as anybody else. Now the owner of Wish Me Luck, Chicago’s very first Black, trans, queer-owned tattoo shop, Faith demonstrates the healing power of community spaces, especially for people who have historically been erased or made to feel uncomfortable by the status quo. Faith’s story shows us that there is nothing quite so powerful as chasing one’s truth, wherever that may lead - and that it is not the job of Black people, of queer people, or of trans people to make themselves more palatable for others. This episode mentions conversion therapy, weaponization of religion against marginalized groups, mistreatment of trans prisoners, and suicidal ideation. This is Faith on freedom, self-discovery, and Wish Me Luck Tattoo. SOCIAL @americanflesh @wishmelucktattoo LINKS Nickhole Arcade Prisoner Correspondence Project - Find a trans penpal in prison Dr Lori Kohler (San Francisco Public Health Network) - Healthcare professional dedicated to providing gender-affirming care to prisoners. TGI Justice Project Critical Resistance Transgender Law Center (TLC) Sylvia Rivera Law Project (SLRP)
57:13
December 5, 2020
Mya Petsche (she/her) on loving yourself and others
Growing up in a conservative, evangelical home, Mya suspected that coming out as trans could mean parting ways with her parents. However, she firmly rejected the notion that it was her responsibility to adjust to the comfort of those around her. She felt, rather, that it was their responsibility to adjust and accept her for who she is. Mya always says that her number one goal in life is to help people. And even at times when Mya has faced immense hardship, she has continued to lead with her empathy and compassion first. This shines through in everything that she does - from serving on a council working to bridge the gap between religious folks and trans folks, to fostering community with other trans feminine people, to educating those around her about trans identities. This episode mentions discrimination on the basis of religion, familial rejection, homelessness, racism, transphobia, and cissexism. This is Mya Petsche on loving yourself and others. SOCIAL IG: @myaisnotfunny LINKS Disclosure documentary | Leading trans creatives and thinkers share heartfelt perspectives and analysis about Hollywood’s impact on the trans community Donate to Dallas Hope Charities | “Dallas Hope Charities unites to care for those in need throughout our social and geographical communities. By collaborating and hosting several programs, we are fulfilling our mission of providing food, shelter, and services that instill dignity, stability, and hope for all.”
37:53
November 21, 2020
Fiora Wise (she/her) on Being Pretty but Also Kind of a Bada**
Like many trans people, Fiora spent her formative years consuming media where cisgender actors repeatedly played transgender characters, usually in a very unflattering light. After her marriage ended, Fiora relocated to New York City and enrolled in an acting class. Suddenly and to her initial surprise, she found herself surrounded by queer and trans actors, in a city where directors not only respected but actively sought to cast trans people. Though she fully acknowledges that TV and film still have a long way to go before reaching true gender equity, she envisions a bright future for herself and her industry. Her upcoming film Boarder centers Fiora as a feisty trans hit woman hoping to pull off one last job before her past catches up with her. This episode mentions transphobic tropes and practices in media, family trauma, and divorce. This is Fiora Wise on Being Pretty but Also Kind of a Bada** SOCIAL IG: @FioraTheWise IG: @BoarderTheMovie feathersthewise.com LINKS Why Scarlett Johansson — Or Any Cis Actor — Should Never Play Trans Roles
53:09
November 7, 2020
Jesse Lee-Young (they/them) on That Good Gay Manga
As a child, Jesse found respite from their religiously conservative community within the pages of manga. Hidden in those words and images were tales of unapologetic queer love that affirmed their identity, even when their family would not. Jesse always knew that they felt attraction to people of different genders, and when they first heard the word “pansexual” as a teenager, something just clicked. These days, Jesse channels their “queer angst” from high school into everything they do; be it by drawing canonically trans and gender non-conforming characters, writing their identities into music, or teaching their coworkers about queer and trans lives. This episode mentions intersex surgeries, familial rejection, conflation of queer identity with pedophilia, and discrimination on the basis of religion. This is Jesse Lee-Young on that Good Gay Manga. SOCIAL Twitter: @OliveDKnight Bandcamp: Fempathy; Twitter: @FempathyBand Facebook: @FempathyBand LINKS InterACT | Advocates for Intersex Youth’s guide to being an ally to intersex folks Annet Negesa - Intersex athlete suing World Athletics after being coerced into surgery
54:16
October 24, 2020
Special Edition | Trans and Gender Non-Conforming Poets
Cheers, queers, and welcome to the very first Special Edition episode of the Trans and Caffeinated podcast. Today, I have the unique honor of sharing with you the words and stories of six trans and gender non-conforming poets. Spoken word poetry is one of my absolute favorite art forms. It is uniquely powerful in that it conveys meaning and emotion both through the text itself, as well as the intonation, inflection, punctuation, and feeling that that author provides in their reading. These poets have spent years developing their craft, and I encourage you to tip each of today’s performers using the payment handles in the info section below. PAYMENT INFO Jeslyn Jacob Randall: @sapphirexsparks (Venmo) Petal McNaughton: @Lillianmcn (Venmo), $Lillianmcn (CashApp) Myles Taylor: @mylesemtaylor (Venmo), $MLEtaylor (CashApp) Ness Doughty: @Ness-Doughty-1 (Venmo), $nesspie (Cashapp) Joey Matt DiPeri: Paypal.me/JoJoMah, $J0w0ey (CashApp) Yaz: @pjtadross091796 (Venmo) SOCIAL: Jeslyn Jacob Randall: @sapphirexsparks Petal McNaughton: @Coffeepot.lilies (IG) Myles Taylor: @mylesdoespoems (IG) Ness Doughty: @queernaturalist (IG) Joey Matt DiPeri: @NoraQRosa (Twitter) Yaz:  @yasminet1996 (IG) CREDITS Closing Music: Helena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
46:18
October 10, 2020
Jeff Guillermo (he/him) on almost crying at the dinner table
Jeff Guillermo was 13 years old when he first learned that gay people even exist. Growing up as the child of religious immigrants, LGBTQ+ people were rarely the topic of discussion - and when they were, it was most often within the context of queerness as a sin. When Jeff began to realize that he himself was queer, he feared that he would not be accepted by his community. As his journey continued, Jeff began to understand that he was transgender - but when he came out, it seemed difficult for those around him to see him as the man that he is. Still, he pressed on, and decided to transition in spite of his fears. Nine years later, Jeff says that transitioning has been a “breath of fresh air,” and he is happier now than he ever thought possible. Though the journey has at times been incredibly challenging, he has found support and community in the most unlikely of places. This episode mentions anti-trans violence, transphobia, misgendering, and religious discrimination. This is Jeff Guillermo on (almost) crying at the dinner table LINKS Callen-Lorde Community Health Center Planned Parenthood - HRT Capsule Pharmacy SOCIAL IG: @jeffrey.scott91 CREDITS Closing Music: Helena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
35:16
September 26, 2020
Daya Deuskar (she/her) on feeling God again, at an all trans Kabbalat Shabbat
Daya always knew that coming out as trans might force her to reexamine and restructure several parts of her life. As a classically trained vocalist and a music minister in a Protestant church, the communities in which she was involved did not always create space for trans and gender non-conforming people to thrive. When she began to transition, she realized that maintaining her connection with God would mean converting religions— and that maintaining employment would mean pivoting careers. Daya handled this rapid change with immense resilience and grace, and she is now using her experience to help other trans folx find fulfillment in their own lives. This episode mentions passing, gender dysphoria, cissexism, transphobia, and homophobia. This is Daya Deuskar, on feeling God again at an all trans Kabbalat Shabbat. MORE ON DAYA IG: @mirabai.me Website: www.mirabai.me (for transgender vocal training, poetry, and more!) CREDITS Closing Music: Helena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
56:19
September 12, 2020
Payton Sliepka (they/them) on turning their pain into power
From the time they were young, Payton knew they were different from those around them. They didn’t have words to describe exactly how, and living in the politically conservative, hyper-religious, suburban town of Plano, TX, people weren’t exactly open to helping them explore. When Payton was 15, they mustered up the courage to come out to their family as gay. After that, they were quickly admitted to conversion “therapy,” a manipulative and egregiously harmful abuse tactic to which many young LGBTQ+ kids are subjected as a method of scaring them into believing they are cisgender and straight. At the time of this recording, conversion therapy remains legal in 30 U.S. states, but the fight continues to outlaw this practice nationwide. In the years since, Payton has committed to using their experiences to improve the lives of others, and has witnessed how their own life has improved in the process. At just 19 years old, Payton speaks with the wisdom and clarity of a much older queer. This episode mentions sexual assault and conversion therapy. This is Payton Sliepka, on turning their pain into power. SOCIAL Facebook: Payton Sliepka Twitter: @twinkpay IG: @paytonsliepka ON CONVERSION “THERAPY” Conversion Therapy PATRON SHOUTOUTS If you'd like early access to future episodes, shoutouts, Trans and Caffeinated goodies, and more, join us on Patreon! Thank you, Em Rabelais (they/themme). Follow @dr.whomever on Instagram, @dr_whomever on Twitter, and follow their Health Ethics Book Club, which is linked in the information for this episode. Season 1 of their series is focused on Racism and Whiteness in the health profession. Thank you, Sarita Sinha (she/her). Follow @saritarosedesign on Instagram, where you can view and purchase designer face masks. She’s an up and coming designer, so stay on the lookout for other great designs in the future. Thank you, Stephanie Muttillo (she/her). You can follow @_stephaniesara on Instagram. Stephanie is extremely outspoken about environmental sustainability, and I encourage you to support her favorite environmental organization, @4ocean. Each of these amazing individuals is also featured in the “Shoutouts” highlight on Trans and Caffeinated. CREDITS Closing Music: Helena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
31:13
August 29, 2020
Aryan Rayborn (he/him) on choosing happiness
When Aryan Rayborn first came out, he had to reckon with the realization that transitioning might mean losing the support of his parents. For quite some time, his parents held firm that they could not support his transition, and begged him to reconsider. Aryan knew that for him, living his truth was a matter of life or death. He chose life, in spite of how his parents may react. Aryan has been out as trans for several years now, and has taken it upon himself to share about his journey with others. He works in the coffee industry, where he wears many hats, from barista to technician. As for his parents? Well, their journey might surprise you. This episode discusses suicidal ideation, family rejection, misgendering, and surgery. This is Aryan Rayborn on choosing happiness. SOCIAL Personal @lilsaffron_ Coffee @creativechemex Linkedin Aryan Rayborn PATRON SHOUTOUTS If you'd like early access to future episodes, shoutouts, Trans and Caffeinated goodies, and more, join us on Patreon! Thank you, Elaine Kohler! Follow @laineyofshalott on Instagram to view and purchase her beautiful mosaics. Thank you, Umeko Motoyoshi! Follow @umeshiso_ on Instagram, and head to umeshiso.com, to purchase Umeko’s beautiful coffee cupping spoons. I personally have about 15 of their rainbow cupping spoon, and I use it every single time I brew coffee. Thank you, Jeffrey Guillermo. Follow @jeffrey.scott91 on Instagram. Jeff is a dear friend of mine, who you’ll get to meet as a guest on a future episode of this podcast. Each of these amazing individuals is also featured in the “Shoutouts” highlight on Trans and Caffeinated. CREDITS Closing Music: Helena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
43:58
August 15, 2020
Sophie Kozub (she/they) on why it's okay to take your time
When Sophie Kozub was growing up, she often felt out of place - she was a legacy student in an all boys’ catholic school, a long-time Boy Scout, lined up with the boys when she knew she should be in line with other girls. Though she found subtle ways to transgress the confines of her prescribed roles in high school, it wasn’t until college that she truly allowed herself to break from masculinity. As she rowed through the uncertain waters of her gender, she tried on a number of labels to find one that worked for her, increasingly thriving as she did. As she prepared to leave the queer utopia of college, Sophie was unexpectedly named her class’s valedictorian and was featured in a New York Times article on trans New Yorkers. Sophie is kinder, wiser, and more insightful than many her age. She is powerfully candid with her story, and speaks of her experience with a level of insight that has and will continue to touch the lives of many. This is Sophie Kozub, on why it’s okay to take your time. For further exploration, check out: Sophie's Twitter @ko_zub The Line on the Right ‘Gay,’ ‘Femme,’ ‘Nonbinary’: How Identity Shaped the Lives of These 10 New Yorkers Credits: Closing Music: Elena Dryjanski (she/they). You can follow them on Instagram and Bandcamp. Sound editor + Intro Music: Joey DiPeri (she/her). You can follow her on Twitter @NoraQRosa. You can also follow her band Fempathy on Facebook, Twitter, and Bandcamp.
38:01
August 1, 2020
Welcome to Trans and Caffeinated!
This podcast is rooted in a singular dream -- to aid our culture’s growth by fostering collective education, encouraging open discussion, and most importantly nurturing and inspiring new generations of my transgender siblings. Don’t forget to subscribe to and review this podcast, so you can stay up to date on the latest episodes. If you feel inclined to support this work financially, you can head to our Patreon. You can follow my personal accounts on Twitter and Instagram @ariellergordon, and you can follow @transandcaffeinated on Instagram and Facebook. Here's to a transer future.
03:25
July 27, 2020