Yogabud

I fall, I fall, I try again / I fall, I fall, to fail's a friend / for failing to fall, is not trying at all

How to write again
Is Simple
Its done one line at a time

Or verse by verse
And slowly

Like a valentine, divine

Though
I must scrub clean, the brine
For she's been at sea - that muse of mine

Traversing the oceans
A ghost ship
Blown by emotions

Wishing to sail smooth
Well, that wish is granted when I move

I haven't had patience
Which got me discouraged

I was drifting and aimless
Didn't even pay mortgage

I took care of my body
Nourished my mind
But sadly
I left my courage behind

To not give a shit
Cuz at least I was tryin'
I handled it
Till lost to a lion

A beast in my head
Which all started with
A procrastination tactic
Now look where its led..

Back to square one

No; square two

For the foundation's been done

Back to work, like a tool

My lungs don't want me to smoke
So I don't

I vape

I inhale the subtle hints of pine and grape

The blue dream and varieties of ape

And when I vape

I feel great

But let's step back to when I was young
And dumb

When I smoked to avoid feeling numb

When Mary was my number one
And Jane, my number two

Bong rips after school

Grinding bowl after bowl
Getting high
But diggin myself into a hole

When I felt it's just a habit
But I had to have it every day
Whether I work or whether I play

Eighteen was a different scene

But I'm a man today

No longer a kid
No longer just chillin and listenin to Wiz

I use the same green bud
That had me choking back then

To supplement my life

To be my aromatic friend

The difference now is I'm mature

I no longer want to smoke more and more and more

I just want enough

To spark creativity
To see deeper into me

To move and breathe freely

No blocks in my flow
No voice in my head

Just me, my body

And with heavy indicas
My bed

The tid

We know the potential of this plant
Spread the word, it's essential
But so many feel that they can't
Despite the high the bud can grant

Though elemental
Decades of stigma have made people mental
The misinformation's been incremental
The scope of the lies has been monumental

But it's no surprise
Cuz money's the prize
And big pharma wants to keep it
Truths been in front of our eyes

Now we can finally rise
And position ourselves to defeat it
But we must be wise and let cool heads prevail
Just trust and enjoy the highs - cannabis will not fail

The reefer madness still exists
In some ways
The trusting masses were convinced
And outraged

But what if she were portrayed
Accurately
Rather than with misinformation, betrayed
Spectacularly

How many people in pain could be aided
How many artists, inspired
Why is this being unduly debated
If only justice worked as we desired

102 day streak broken
Where New Years Resolution fell flat
But the lesson here's to stay floatin'
Not sinkin', so run with that

The habits been built
But I wanted a break
No sad bits or guilt
I relaxed for growth's sake

It's not a mistake
But a chance to have a new take

For me to see its okay
To take a day
Away

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If you truly believe
The air over there's better to breathe

If a good lesson is
Offered to combat weaknesses
From geniuses
Through the ages

And thousands of years later
We call them sages
It may be advantageous to put eyes to paper
Absorb the wisdom in those pages

For if knowledge is power
Then wisdom is might
Leverage your hours
So your mind may burn bright

The number one key is to breathe
Brings you back to the present moment
Better to be done than believed
So for a second or two, just do it

Inhale

One mindful breath a day
Helps keep the dark at bay

It's as if time itself has slowed it a bit
And gotten sweeter
Can't resist this boon to health cuz its lit
Between past and future we teeter

The results of your decisions
Can result in your submission
Not knowing your Life's Mission
Or getting lost in indecision

First hand results are better than belief
So simply decide to breathe

This is the foundry
From which ideas are made
The process did'nt find me
But - the plans, they were laid

Some might say I'm late
Like the voices with their games
But the past, to me was fate
Same reason my name is James

I'm not at this game for fame
But instead to clear my head
Sometimes sappy, sometimes lame
I'd like to be happy before I'm dead

Literally
As in, I take my last breaths
Joyfully
And I'm laid to rest

Mournfully
But ultimately
Leaving the world a better place
And seeing that happen - what it meant to me

Carl Keith
Helen Loeffler
Rest In Peace

I thought if I wrote you a poem
You'd feel better

Cuz you're lookin sadder than Autumn
Or a crumpled love letter

And you tell me I caused it
And I say my flaws did

But because of it
Your trust - I lost it

At least for the moment
But I'm confident

We can make this right
We both hate to fight

Prefer to keep things light
Refer to mems? Alright

The time's we've laughed
All night
And our romance
You perpetual polite...ness

Smiles and hydrangeas
Hugs and mochi

You're miffed, I don't blame ya
I know how selfish I can be

You know well my crazy

Just like I know yours
And ours

But the love is there, you see

Your soul was made for me

And mine for you
Simply put, I love you

You grow into the skin
You put the work in
To get
Wisdom's earned, don't forget

But thats not always motivational
Though it can be inspirational
Be wary, the sensational
The mind is a creation pool

Or one of cess
Like when your mind's possessed
A cesspool
Go confess

To your god
Or to your muse
Ice, be thawed
It's the thoughts you choose

And emotions
Used
As the tools they are
My belief is it'll take me far

Cuz I wanna impart
The lessons written on my scars

What do I say?
The blocks are in the way..

Hurting to the core
And I yet I ask for more

Cuz knowledge is power
Communication is key
Though the thoughts, they devour
Unceremoniously

Pitilessly
As if that's what the brain does
Surreptitiously
Until it becomes

Too loud to ignore
Bombastic
Voices, tragic
I knew what was in store

Dramatic emotion fanatic
I still ask for more

Flowing is about going with the flow – go figure
Deal with the past but don't be rash

Disfigured

Is the way you see it
thought distorted
Falsely reported
by the organ

That does thought

Figuring out itself
Battle's not yet fought

Anti-– instinctual

This is why we created ritual
And archetypical stories

Our attempts to combat worries

Though, the lessons are somewhat blurry
These musings cannot be hurried

But dissected
Then put into action
That's how they become perfected

Maybe

If you're lucky
And you thrust that luck toward something

Life's there to fuck
And make love
Make her scream
And moan

As if
Y'all were left alone

You, and life
Left to your own
Devices

Enjoying like fine vices

Each other

I love to study
The human body
Which is why I majored in kinesiology
But those five years are behind me

As are five in my twenties
And though I know that I'm young
I must learn to fight like Ares
Cuz time is more deadly than any gun

The facade of youth
Can lull you into complacency
A paradigm defined and used
As "wait and see"

As if life brings
Anything but suffering

It doesn't
Cuz that's what life is

So we strive - not in spite of
But because of it

THAT is life, well lived

Water and sunlight
Soil and earth
From seed to delight
The story of bud's birth

You start in your shell
A pinpoint of potential
And if all goes well
You grow up presidential

Your scent gets loud
As you mature
And then we're endowed
With gifts for the green epicure

Cannabis connoisseur
Or perhaps
Cannisseur
Some like the dabs

But call me a dinosaur
I'm old school
Volcano's my favorite tool
To savor the sweetness of vapor

Straight from the bud
That grows in nature

Leaves of green
With edges serrated
Lessons to glean
From your bud - not faded

Cuz "faded" implies
A degree of stupidity
So I prefer "high"
When Mary Jane visits me

Important are the words we use
So as a community, let's wisely choose

We can say stoned and we can say blazed
We can say high, even turned up for days

But here's the thing we must understand
That stigma exists for our favorite plant

Though fair, it is not
It's the hand we've been dealt
If the ball's in our court, it wont be dropped
Cuz the goodness of bud can be heard, seen and felt

Do I have a gift?
Perhaps
But a gift with no grind is shit
Through the a lens, time-lapsed

What am I to do
Just write?
Or be a media company too
Alright..

But who am I?
Just some guy
Working on his craft
Sharing my life,

Both present and past
Not in stone
But in code
It is cast

These things I've learned
And continue learning
What I've earned -
The fuel that I'm burning

Brightly
Working nightly
Writing, rhyming
Teaching, flying highly

Not trying to cry me
A river, creek, stream
Just build a permanent dam
For emotion to speak -
The Power of Man

Writing is easy
Sharing's the hard part
Cuz sometimes it makes me queasy
To share the words from my heart

When the poetry
Is sparked
With a blow to me
And I impart

The emotions as they come
When it's time to record
The raging waves are done
Which is why I have all these poems stored

Despite posting daily
I've at least a hundred waiting

And I'm left contemplating
If and when and why
They should ever see the light of day

Patience can be hard to have
In a world with such convenience
Discipline you wish you had
But your whims demand obedience

When seen from afar
It's almost a tragedy

The way your fingers magically
Make their way to your favorite escape.

Haters be mad at me
But.. Wasting time is a big mistake

At least
Making a habit of it
But please
Indulge only when you have to have it

Earn your reward
For a day of hustle
Learn something new when you're bored
And go build some muscle

This New Years resolution
To post a poem a day
Has one easy solution
With dues to pay

I use the hay
To flow and play
And move in a way
That's good, I'd say

Great for the body
And grounding the soul
Shapin' your body
Is only one role

The infinite more
Remain to be seen
So get on the floor
And move and breathe

I find myself again
In a perilous position
One in which
I say I'm sorry
For the thousandth time
Multiplied
By more digits than pi

But who am I
To ask for forgiveness
A selfish guy
With you as my witness

You try and try
Butt heads with hard-headedness

You don't know why
I seem to take Us and threaten this

This beautiful thing that we've built
The way that I tarnish it
I'm racked with guilt
While you try to varnish it

Why do I harm this shit
And make simple things hard
When we could just harness it
And make the world ours

Sometimes I need to squeeze me
Like give myself a hug
For the thoughts, they only please me
When I feel as though I'm risin' above

Not chasin' the horizon
Futilely
But recognizin' the flies in
The ointment - so to speak

I see where I'm weak
And struggle to improve
Focusing on strength
Like the way that I move

But how do I use
My talent and fruits
Of my labor
To give something greater

And how do I build
Something sustainable?

With questions, I'm filled..
To find answers
Thrilled

Mind is full of images
But mindful livin is
In the present
But my, how easy we forget it

A small thing, how we sweat it
A big mistake
How we we regret it
But the lessons we take..

That's where the bread is
The ambrosia to feed your hungry soul
It's up to you to take a bite - don't forget it
Cuz lessons alone don't make you whole

You are amazing.
The way you awake
Before birds start to sing
Despite being tired - open eyes sort of sting

You still GSD
So to pursue
Your masters degree
These lessons accrue

Learning daily
The ins and outs of your field
Anything but lazy
You are your own shield

And sword
Going out into the world
With all this info you have stored
Your drive just leaves me floored

You inspire me
Greatly
More than you can currently see

To have you, I am blessed
Someday, you'll be impressed
Where that inspiration leads

Sounds nice to put your heart on the line
Until its ripped out and taken
By a plan of your own design
Left thyself forsaken

Embarking on a path not taken
Not fully fleshed out
Though my heart will be breakin
I'll map that shit out

And learn from
And grow
From the fuel of emotion
I'll let this flow go

On this planet of ocean
Choosin' wisely devotion
Toward the aim of greater good

I dont seek to be boastin'
Just not to feel frozen

I wanna be understood

Flow smooth
Like butter melted, not frozen
Just move
Let the flow be felt and not chosen

Move in a way
That enhances your day
You listened
And heard what your body had to say

Submission
To intuition

Embodiment of emotion
Makes for good rhyme
Quieting all commotion
Just being here, in time

Feeling near
To where
Heart
Meets mind

But when I
Start
To fall
I must remind

That to have it all
Requires time
Patience and truth
To self, no lyin

Cuz self delusion
Is no illusion
Consequences - real

With truth
Form a fusion
An unbreakable deal

Dark crystal
A universe within
Gravity irresistible
Storm is brewin

Things are boomin
And bangin big
New universe is bloomin
But I'm hangin in

Though I'm scared of it
Of getting bit
By the monstrous
Unknown

I can handle it
I can eat the shit
Let emotions not get
Overblown

She laughs with wild abandon
More than any person I've known
The snow white Jasmine to my Aladdin
A life lived with levity, I've been shown

To describe her with brevity
Cannot be done easily
As words themselves fall flat

But oh, what she means to me
Raising my frequency
Like an energy thermostat

And that's what laughter does
Don't think of the why, like "because"

Laugh like it mattered
Like a manic Mad Hatter

Laugh to combat the strife

Laugh like the Joker
Or man bad at poker

Laugh like it saved your life

Thoughts racing
Contemplating
Decision debating
Future creating

Speck of stardust
Roaming Earth's crust
Trying it's best
To work it's hardest

Achieving it's dreams
By any means

Or not

It seems to be our last spring break
At least together while college aged
A golden opportunity to take
To write out this chapter page by page

Day one was to drive
From Texas to Colorado Springs
So grateful to be alive
With you, to see what this week brings

For after this week
We've a great change ahead
For now, I just seek
To leave nothing unsaid

To ensure that you know
How much you mean to me
That I love your soul's glow
With it's sweet and kind vibrancy

And our radical honesty
What a gift that has been
I can say honestly
My time with you's been my biggest win

New forms of writing
Experimentation

Striving and fighting
To build a great nation

Things are wrong with society
But so much more's right

Free speech, like don't quite me
Have humble insight

You know what's right
And if you don't, you can learn

It takes a mind, bright
To learn to discern

And a soul on fire
To go out and earn

Like get on your feet
While the wind's at your back

Have humility in defeat
For the next great attack

So you're stronger then
Life is long, my friend

But my, how time flies
Wisdom to hold - that I recommend
You're gonna grow old
Even the greatest man dies

I love you
Why do you think I hug you
As if time, with all its might
Paused in those moments of ecstatic delight

Where it's irrelevant
If it's day or night
Filled with warmth and benevolence
As if your soul fits just right

Just like
Your body on mine
I just might
Think you're a gift divine

And the fact that you're mine
Makes me feel like a lion
The king of his pride
Thanks for making my life

One hell of a ride