coming out of fear
By Paul Satchwill
coming out of fearJan 20, 2019
4: the hero
"I have no road map for this journey, but I think I can gauge my success by the fruit this life is bearing. The conversations, the messages and phone calls, the opportunities to share my story are all mile markers that I’m making my way in the right direction. And as long as I follow the path I’m on, forging the way for myself and those behind me, I can only anticipate the most beautiful destination."
This is the final installment in "Coming Out of Fear." I share where I'm at now, what I hope for the future, and how this is just the beginning of a beautiful journey.
3: the summer
"with hands shaking, heart pumping, and mind racing, I pressed post. And just like that I had just announced to over 2500 people that I am gay."
The summer of 2018 was an incredible time of growth in my life. But that growth didn't come without a fight. In this installment of "Coming Out of Fear" I share my experience fighting for happiness and creating boldness. What started as a social media coming out post turned into some of the most valuable life lessons I've ever learned.
2: the help
I knew that therapy was what I needed, but it was far from what I’d wanted. Next only to fear, pride had made a comfortable home in my mind and controlled many of my decisions. I was proud that no one had unlocked the inner rooms of my mind that contained my truest identity deep within. I was proud that I had always stood my ground when questioned about my sexuality, happily offering up a lie for silence. It was easier than telling the truth and at one point I’d convinced myself that the lie was the truth. coming out of fear installment two: the help tells the story of the impact that therapy has had in my life, and how my fight is far from over.
1: the fear
coming out of fear installment one: the fear tells the story of how I found myself in the darkest place of my life, with seemingly no escape.