Dropout Philosophy

do u like where ur at on the chain

sleepy talk

sweeping the studio, healing, revolution… theyre a forever thing, a till death do us part thing. a worthwhile form of silent love. plus some nonsense rambles

a two part chaotic ramble with 3/10 audio quality and 9/10 anarchy score but 10/10 still highly recommend these revelations from the mountain

headphone usres beware. this is madness

no conmrnt, lol

i can’t bring myself to cut out the part i did specifically for the video… like the real podcast doesn’t start till like 7? minutes in or something? i can’t be bothered unfortunately to fix it, hope somethint worked in there. i won’t use that mic set up again lmao don’t worry

enter if you dare. i also didn’t realize that little reverse sound effect would be so loud so sorry in advance for the production/listening experience but anywho. lately i’ve been re-listening to Atomic Habits by James Clear and been thinking about how often i neglect my own systems and focus on critiquing the systems of others (yeah, i know. i’m working on it) + a bonus part 2 after i chicken out of going full sherlock holmes on the mysterious noise in another room. yeah girl idk. love you byeeee

i was chaotically drawing on IG live today (check it out and follow @officialshmay on the gram ma’am) and talked about what im noticing is necessary for my progress, prioritizing space and time for step 1 (and sometimes step zeroooo)

a chaos filled car ride to a semi clear destination

youre not “wrong” about your experience but you’re not as good at predicting the future as you may think you are (note to self)

my misconception and cowardice exposed and plus also i have a yucky outtake that i share with you. enjoy. be good. bye bye.

there are surface filters (instagram filters, LUTs and presets), experiential filters (substances, ego, content, proximity, environment), and underneath everything there are core filters (the code and operating systems installed and hacked into over time, the machine behind everything, the beliefs that hold your reality in place).

from this side of the coin, i present: a true shmay babble, mania flavored trip down dropout philosophy lane. dumpster fires, unreasonable metaphors, snacks and curse words brought to you by me and generous viewers like u. thank u

a sleepy girl ramble/suggestion about refreshing your conscientious list of “what matters to me?”

ai art is garbage

i can’t remember what this one is about but its a draft so here u are

Rest in Peace Joel

girl… i’m sorry for the throat clearing sounds

a conceptual word dump on two forms of “being ready for something new” in my opinion. sorry to alex honnold, for forgetting your name, keep up the great work darling. it’s chaotic, but it’s not wrong!

fixing stuff for grams and thinking about thinking. took me a few tries.

representation matters to meeeee

i swear i love my grams, i’m not complaining go subscribe to her youtube channel

is that your thought or feeling? do you want to feel that way? do you know which part of you is in the drivers seat. very very rambly and such. expand your vocabulary, awareness and power

joining in any trend (no matter how long standing and innocent it seems) in this era is a risk. i don’t trust gen pop, so i’m not about to join the holly jolly charade and force these weird capitalism lies on a kid in their formative years

ur gunna have to do it anyways, move a muscle change a thought and other gems. what’s my fave quote from this episode you ask? “capitalism is in that ass”

i honestly just forgot to post this so i can’t remember what its about fr just listen and enjoyyyyy

like you have access to a lot of thoughts and performance art but 1 on 1 time? nah, it’s not that easy. stay in GA if you want OR should i start a patreon acct?

shmay in bed talkin science and yawning, don’t worry.. tomorrow will be juicy

pleasant surprises and other yummy things. enjoy your time, use your rituals. i love you!

honestly… i apologize for this 😂 i know better and imma do better, next episode is gunna be the audio and content quality experience you deserve

the mind is sneaky, life is less frustrating when you work from awareness and truth and your own power

i made fancy grilled cheese and explain why it makes PERFECT sense for me to make a fort on a friday night. don’t be discouraged by my initial thought about states and cheese, i get on track (kinda) eventuallyyyyy

multitasking and bad audio and rambles!

and negatively why r u being mad so passionately when u havent an ounce of passion in your own life and if beibg big mad worked baby why hasn’t it

this is so wild… the feeling of familiarity is so wild

don’t beat yourself up bro that makes no sense. don’t sabotage. feeling good and connected to God/good is important. little chaotic but… oh well

chaos and good things + life update

let’s not reduce every culture to a negative thing. (or gentrified aav “slang”, corporate social media account lingo, girlboss email list template, buzzfeed quiz). this might sound chaotic but i think i said some good things.

your attention is like fertilizer

it’s time!

i like how life works when i genuinely want to feel good. God is good.

just do it

a very cap venus sleepyhead ramble about what i think desire/want is or at least how it’s showing up in my immediate experience

just a lil quickly

i’ll retitle it later

idk i’m tiredddds