Dropout Philosophy
By Official Shmay
the current system has failed black people. i’m just vibing and rambling, trying to cope with the simulation and figure out how i feel.
Dropout PhilosophyFeb 07, 2024
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05:39
back like i never left
i had my shoes off, back on the middle console, toes up to the sunroof yawns a plenty, forgot the topic. just me @ my finest
May 19, 202403:03
robot rant
i curse a lot, so you have been warned but DAWG I AM MAD OK. that is ENOUGH input and suggestions from the robots & apps
Feb 17, 202424:58
the difference is there
do u like where ur at on the chain
Feb 10, 202409:27
your own captions?
sleepy talk
Feb 07, 202405:39
shmancient proverb
sweeping the studio, healing, revolution… theyre a forever thing, a till death do us part thing. a worthwhile form of silent love. plus some nonsense rambles
Jan 19, 202433:47
ds #302 margaret’s q (part II)
a two part chaotic ramble with 3/10 audio quality and 9/10 anarchy score but 10/10 still highly recommend these revelations from the mountain
Dec 30, 202326:50
ds #301 good question & CHAOS
headphone usres beware. this is madness
Dec 13, 202319:19
ds # 300 chaotic car ride
no conmrnt, lol
Dec 09, 202311:40
the worst podcast ever? lmao
i can’t bring myself to cut out the part i did specifically for the video… like the real podcast doesn’t start till like 7? minutes in or something? i can’t be bothered unfortunately to fix it, hope somethint worked in there. i won’t use that mic set up again lmao don’t worry
Nov 11, 202322:18
ds #291 yikes, a habit ramble
enter if you dare. i also didn’t realize that little reverse sound effect would be so loud so sorry in advance for the production/listening experience but anywho. lately i’ve been re-listening to Atomic Habits by James Clear and been thinking about how often i neglect my own systems and focus on critiquing the systems of others (yeah, i know. i’m working on it) + a bonus part 2 after i chicken out of going full sherlock holmes on the mysterious noise in another room. yeah girl idk. love you byeeee
Aug 15, 202347:52
ds #290 (LIVE) making space for the first step
i was chaotically drawing on IG live today (check it out and follow @officialshmay on the gram ma’am) and talked about what im noticing is necessary for my progress, prioritizing space and time for step 1 (and sometimes step zeroooo)
Aug 14, 202344:39
ds #289 | standards pt 1
a chaos filled car ride to a semi clear destination
Jul 27, 202321:36
ds #288 | truth minus assumption
youre not “wrong” about your experience but you’re not as good at predicting the future as you may think you are (note to self)
Jun 17, 202305:05
ds #286 | current learnings + bloopers
my misconception and cowardice exposed and plus also i have a yucky outtake that i share with you. enjoy. be good. bye bye.
May 14, 202321:31
ds #285 | filters & compound growth
there are surface filters (instagram filters, LUTs and presets), experiential filters (substances, ego, content, proximity, environment), and underneath everything there are core filters (the code and operating systems installed and hacked into over time, the machine behind everything, the beliefs that hold your reality in place).
May 07, 202341:57
ds #284 butterfly POV
from this side of the coin, i present: a true shmay babble, mania flavored trip down dropout philosophy lane. dumpster fires, unreasonable metaphors, snacks and curse words brought to you by me and generous viewers like u. thank u
Mar 30, 202330:01
ds #283 spring cleaning priorities
a sleepy girl ramble/suggestion about refreshing your conscientious list of “what matters to me?”
Mar 28, 202312:34
ds #282 clogging the system
ai art is garbage
Mar 24, 202312:27
ds #281 chaotic kitchen talk
i can’t remember what this one is about but its a draft so here u are
Mar 23, 202318:16
ds #280 the in between
Rest in Peace Joel
Feb 23, 202304:27
ds #279 ready for new pt 2
girl… i’m sorry for the throat clearing sounds
Feb 20, 202332:20
daily shmay #278 being ready for the new
a conceptual word dump on two forms of “being ready for something new” in my opinion. sorry to alex honnold, for forgetting your name, keep up the great work darling. it’s chaotic, but it’s not wrong!
Feb 18, 202306:38
daily shmay #277 | adhesive & goals
fixing stuff for grams and thinking about thinking. took me a few tries.
Feb 12, 202308:42
ds #276 | lady electrician pls
representation matters to meeeee
Jan 17, 202306:28
ds #275 caution vs worry
i swear i love my grams, i’m not complaining go subscribe to her youtube channel
Dec 28, 202219:21
ds #274 God Compost
plans are silly & divine fertilizer
Dec 27, 202212:55
ds #273 | recognize that voice
is that your thought or feeling? do you want to feel that way? do you know which part of you is in the drivers seat. very very rambly and such. expand your vocabulary, awareness and power
Dec 18, 202225:46
ds #272 anti santa & roasting society’s ignorance of the internet
joining in any trend (no matter how long standing and innocent it seems) in this era is a risk. i don’t trust gen pop, so i’m not about to join the holly jolly charade and force these weird capitalism lies on a kid in their formative years
Dec 14, 202236:35
ds #271 stop not doing the thing
ur gunna have to do it anyways, move a muscle change a thought and other gems. what’s my fave quote from this episode you ask? “capitalism is in that ass”
Dec 12, 202206:27
ds #270 have faith or whatever?
i honestly just forgot to post this so i can’t remember what its about fr just listen and enjoyyyyy
Dec 12, 202209:40
ds #269 internet intimacy
like you have access to a lot of thoughts and performance art but 1 on 1 time? nah, it’s not that easy. stay in GA if you want OR should i start a patreon acct?
Dec 08, 202212:44
ds #268 | conversations and science
shmay in bed talkin science and yawning, don’t worry.. tomorrow will be juicy
Dec 07, 202211:03
ds #267 | happy & rituals
pleasant surprises and other yummy things. enjoy your time, use your rituals. i love you!
Dec 06, 202221:13
ds #??? | kitchen mumble chaos
honestly… i apologize for this 😂 i know better and imma do better, next episode is gunna be the audio and content quality experience you deserve
Nov 28, 202223:12
ds #265 | what r u rly after
the mind is sneaky, life is less frustrating when you work from awareness and truth and your own power
Nov 17, 202206:38
ds #264 | post fort clarity
i made fancy grilled cheese and explain why it makes PERFECT sense for me to make a fort on a friday night. don’t be discouraged by my initial thought about states and cheese, i get on track (kinda) eventuallyyyyy
Nov 13, 202210:37
ds #263 would u be a fun teammate in the apocalypse?
multitasking and bad audio and rambles!
Nov 12, 202208:38
ds #262 weird parent vibes
and negatively why r u being mad so passionately when u havent an ounce of passion in your own life and if beibg big mad worked baby why hasn’t it
Oct 28, 202207:57
ds #261 deja vu????? no beyoncé
this is so wild… the feeling of familiarity is so wild
Oct 18, 202208:18
ds #260 idk who (me) needs to hear this
don’t beat yourself up bro that makes no sense. don’t sabotage. feeling good and connected to God/good is important. little chaotic but… oh well
Oct 13, 202211:48
ds #259 | crazy is cool
thanks for 10k plays & here’s my take on insanity
Oct 08, 202204:05
ds #258 | grease ya mind
chaos and good things + life update
Oct 05, 202219:60
ds #256 | shift the dialogue forward
let’s not reduce every culture to a negative thing. (or gentrified aav “slang”, corporate social media account lingo, girlboss email list template, buzzfeed quiz). this might sound chaotic but i think i said some good things.
Oct 03, 202207:46
ds #255 | redirect to what is
your attention is like fertilizer
Sep 28, 202205:28
ds #254 | freelance $ chaos
it’s time!
Sep 17, 202209:42
ds #253 | ease please
i like how life works when i genuinely want to feel good. God is good.
Sep 11, 202213:45
ds #252 | bless errythang
just do it
Sep 10, 202205:34
ds #251 | want
a very cap venus sleepyhead ramble about what i think desire/want is or at least how it’s showing up in my immediate experience
Sep 04, 202219:32
ds #250 | prepare if u dare
just a lil quickly
Aug 31, 202203:52
ds #249 | i can’t remember
i’ll retitle it later
Aug 31, 202209:32