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Exposing Isolation

Exposing Isolation

By Rebecca E. Webber
Exposing Isolation is a very personal art project, made necessary by my many health conditions which keep me housebound. This has been my state since 2015 and while there is no end in sight, there has been some profound meaning and insight gained along the way.
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Developments in the Right Direction
This week I talk about being on an SSRI, continuing to work on finding a new home, developing the systems to make Sapient Living a success and the latest Parts Work session with Thomas. Facilitated Awareness Session with Rebecca
13:56
February 17, 2021
Finding Help
This morning I met with a new therapist, this time one who is clearly trauma informed. It was a wholly new experience and I look forward to working more with her in the future. Also, Happy Inauguration Day!!
15:35
January 20, 2021
Seeking Balance and Progress
In today's episode I document what it feels like to be at the beginning of a depressive episode. It might be productive, but it isn't very pleasant.  S.2 E.1 Tending Trauma
14:01
January 19, 2021
What's Next?
In today's episode I give an update on priorities, projects and just where I am at right now. I want to focus on my health, but I also need to start making money or at least help Thomas make more so that we can have a home of our own one day. 
15:00
January 18, 2021
Update from Mania
In this episode I talk a bit about what I am coming to learn to be a manic phase. I also update a bit about my new doctor and what went wrong when I went on a supplement that I didn't need.  Episode Brought By - BeScentFree.com
12:34
January 13, 2021
New Year New Care
Today I talk about meeting with my new naturopathic doctor for the first time and really loving it. 
10:38
January 6, 2021
TW - Suicidal Ideation
This is a pretty heavy, but also just informative episode about my struggle with suicidal ideation and how I have a new therapist who asks every session about it. In the past, it wasn't asked and I didn't tell people. Now I know that it is a common symptom of a few of my conditions.  Episode Brought By - BeScentFree.com
14:27
December 21, 2020
Meeting Anthea
On today's episode I talk about meeting my new therapist and how I am feeling about all the changes afoot. 
14:18
December 17, 2020
Missing Liz
Until yesterday, Liz was my therapist. She went into labor really early, cutting off our sessions weeks before we expected. I talked to her every week for the past 16 months and she's really been my rock. We didn't get the chance to wrap anything up, nothing to keeping me going into the future. So, I'm left feeling grateful for her help, concerned about her wellbeing and in essence lost for what to do to feel better. Time, I guess. 
11:09
December 16, 2020
But Not Great
For sake of science, I thought it was important to note how I am feeling some hours after waking up today. Still mentally better than usual, but physically I'm really starting to go through it. Delayed reaction is even weirder than immediately getting triggered.  Sponsored by Tending Trauma and BeScentFree.com
05:29
December 4, 2020
Better Than Expected
Today I am pleased with my stable mood. I had a filling replaced yesterday and while the results seem okay, the woman who installed the new one was very scented. On top of that they filling somehow didn't address my entire issue with the tooth. My optimism today is that even though I was exposed and stressed, I don't feel as bad today as I would have going through similar experiences in the past. Mostly just sore and weak, but mentally stable. Yay progress! Sponsored by Tending Trauma and BeScentFree.com
12:51
December 4, 2020
Feelin' Glowy
Today I feel really good. Like REALLY good and there are a bunch of reasons why. In this episode I share some of my thoughts and generally just give an upbeat update which is super rare for me. Cheers! Sponsored by Tending Trauma and BeScentFree.com
14:39
December 2, 2020
Thanksgiving Eve
Post-therapy pre-Thanksgiving musings.
16:33
November 25, 2020
Challenging Myself to Make Progress
This week I went to look at a house for sale and mostly just ended up learning what I don't want, but enjoyed the drive with Thomas. I don't think I did a very good job explaining what I am trying next, but that's just as well because I can't say I really know. Things aren't necessarily looking up but I am choosing to believe something will work. 
10:38
November 23, 2020
Another Bad Day
What else can I say?
16:51
November 19, 2020
Remorse, Regret and Indecision
I was up a lot in the night essentially learning more about myself and not really liking what I saw. Today I begin to get to the bottom of why I focus so much on the bad and can't seem to find the good that often. I know I can change my mindset once I identify what is happening that doesn't serve me.  #Sponsor - Brought to You By the Tending Trauma Podcast
14:19
November 18, 2020
Experiencing Dissociative Shutdowns
In this episode I talk more about my current mental state and how I keep being triggered into "dissociative shutdowns", which in the episode I simply refer to as going unconscious for short amounts of time. This is possibly linked to a "freeze" style fear response, but could be something else. We are trying to keep me safe and protected! More about "dissociative shutdowns" from psychotherapynetworker.org. Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching
11:45
November 12, 2020
Struggling (But Determined) to Be My "Self"
Today I am in a new mindset, a new perspective. I want to know what would happen if I put more energy into being my authentic self and less energy into finding my place in the existing systems available to me. It isn't always fun and rarely easy to be me and I think that avoiding doing so has been quite appealing up until now. I'm glad to have support in this.  Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching
13:46
November 11, 2020
I'm Shutting Down and it Could be a Good Sign
Today I am shutting down because I am safe. This is a common phenomenon for me and can be a good sign if the safety lasts, but I still down know why it happens exactly or I should say, I don't totally understand the science. I'll keep you posted.  Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching
13:13
November 10, 2020
Politics, Personal Pain and Promise
On today's episode I discuss where the nation is at after Joe Biden and Kamala Harris' win on Saturday as well as update y'all on the current state of my mental health. Everything feels raw, but promising and that is a lot better than not.  Brought to You By - BeScentFree.com and Thomas F. Webber Coaching
13:06
November 9, 2020
What Can Be Done About CPTSD?
On today's episode I discuss the start of my commitment to finding a sensible treatment plan for CPTSD. My husband Thomas is working alongside me on this one. He is working from a clinical perspective and I am working from a socio-cultural perspective. We both have CPTSD and struggle to be people because of it.  Live Research - Parts One & Two
16:36
November 2, 2020
Full Moon Halloween
I apologize for the poor audio quality in this episode but I think the message is lovely all the same! I am sitting in the last light of the full moon, early in the morning on this Halloween, releasing that which no longer serves me. Blessings to you!
11:18
October 31, 2020
Am I the Only One Panicking?
So currently when I stop and think about my life I start to panic. Sometimes I would describe it as terror. Anyone else experiencing this? Today I go over my story a bit and confess where I'm at. RebeccaEWebber@gmail.com
14:18
October 16, 2020
With Love
I felt the need to record a follow up from last week's episode. Things are developing and I feel so much love, it's worth documenting!
14:26
October 14, 2020
Ouch, But Okay
Today was already such a doozy I couldn't not make an episode. Mostly I'm talking housing struggles and being real with my family about my pain. Thank you to the Youper App for getting me through my fear. 
15:36
October 5, 2020
Finally An Answer! PMDD
Yesterday after a bit of research I learned that I have nearly all the symptoms of PMDD! Not that it's good to have PMDD, I'm excited because it's an answer and something I can work to treat. It's a good day. 
11:24
August 31, 2020
I Know I'm Not The Only Lonely One But...
Here I go again being overly insightful while still not knowing what to do. The joys of mental and physical illness that has no answers and an insufficient support system. I feel like a brilliant cave hag with no power. 
16:22
August 30, 2020
Reflections After Inner Child Work
Hello Humans! This morning Thomas was generous with his time and facilitated a very long (100 min) parts work session for me so that I might reconnect with my exiled younger self, namely the 4 year old.  It was one of the more transformative therapeutic experiences I've had thus far! To watch the full session - Parts Work by Thomas F. Webber | Inner Child Reintegration To connect with Thomas for coaching - ThomasFWebber.com To leave a donation - paypal.me/sapientliving
14:38
August 28, 2020
My Challenging History [Part 2]
In part one I discussed my story up until going to college. In this episode I talk about the beginning of college until now. I am documenting these hard truths to simply not have to hold onto them alone anymore. Also to acknowledge myself where no one else has seen my truth.  Please consider supporting my work! Become a Patron Make a Donation
14:15
August 25, 2020
My Challenging History [Part 1]
In this episode I talk through a bit of my parent's past up until going to college. In part two I will talk about college until now. The intention behind these recordings is to get these events off my chest. I feel the need to put them in the light if for no other reason than for me to stop hiding them as I silently blame myself. Please consider supporting my work! Become a Patron Make a Donation
13:59
August 25, 2020
Being Honest About My Why
This is my first try using just my phone to record and post an episode. So easy!
03:45
August 24, 2020
Medical Stories w. Thomas Webber
Today I felt like bringing Thomas on for a first attempt at telling people how we got where we are now. I hope you enjoy the chaotic thought processes! In essence, we've both been chronically ill most of our lives and have to take our healing into our own hands.  Questions: SapientLiving@gmail.com Donations: paypal.me/sapientliving Schedule: calendly.com/sapientliving Community: patreon.com/SapientLiving
17:22
August 23, 2020
Back to Basics
I tried. I learned. I will keep learning. 
10:41
August 6, 2020
Energy Work Works
These last couple of weeks have been quite eventful. We are prepping to move soon and I have launched some energy work services through Sapient Living! I now offer 15 minute distance energy sendings as well as 30, 60 and 90 minute energy sessions. For the time being I offer everything by donation, that just feels right while I still feel like a novice. It's an honor to get to work on people at all.  Scheduling: calendly.com/sapientliving Donations: paypal.me/sapientliving Contact: SapientLiving@gmail.com
11:16
July 30, 2020
Surrendering to My Self
Today I had a fabulous session with my therapist Liz where we discussed the philosophical shift I am currently experiencing. I am so relieved that I have been so wrong about how things worked and how I would heal. I feel blessed, but also extremely challenged.  To Schedule with Me - https://calendly.com/sapientliving
15:06
July 7, 2020
Emotional Alignment
Still in quarantine with plenty of time to figure out next steps. How about taking what I've learned about mental health and helping Thomas start his own emotional alignment practice? Sure. 
11:46
June 9, 2020
Living in the Covid-19 Pandemic After 5 Years Already in Isolation
For all the new people here, hello! My name is Rebecca and I have been living in isolation for over 5 years due to mental and environmental illnesses keeping me housebound. Now that so many of you are in quarantine because of the coronavirus, I thought I would get back online and see if I can help in some way. I look forward to hearing from you. #ExposingIsolation  Exposing Isolation is brought to you by BeScentFree.com, a Sapient Living production.
13:54
March 17, 2020
Stepping Into a Higher Self
TW: Nightmare This week I have become a Certified Reiki Master and Teacher as well as a Ordained Minister. I am working towards a goal that I have had a hard time acknowledging before now... I want to be a ceremonial priestess. I want to facilitate important events such as births and baptisms, weddings and other unions and well as loss and funerals. I feel more motivated than ever to get healthy so that I can work with people in person. 
17:31
February 5, 2020
Working While Disabled
I want to get a job. I haven't worked for anyone other than myself since before I became disabled over 5 years ago, but I want to try. I qualify for jobs that I am not sure I am ready to do yet, but they excite me. I'm going to try to talk to prospective employers about accommodating me and see how that goes. Wish me luck!
10:28
January 31, 2020
Going Back to Work?
I am all over the place today. I know I need a break from how I've been thinking and what I've been doing, but I don't know what that means exactly. I am exploring past interests, but also trying to make room for the unexpected.  Exposing Isolation is funded by BeScentFree.com
13:14
January 30, 2020
At Least There's Andrew Yang
On today's episode I talk about feeling lost. I didn't think that I would cry, but I did. I don't know how to create a functional life being chronically ill, needing my husband to make all the money and trying to be happy all at once. I really want to be able to afford a home with him, for us to be financially safe. I know I'm not alone in this and I just wanted to put a story to the sea of struggle. #YangGang Exposing Isolation is brought to you by BeScentFree.com
14:51
January 28, 2020
Being Told I'm "Too Skinny"
This morning kind of shook me up because my grandma came home from a 10 day vacation and wasted no time telling me I'm too skinny and must not be eating. It was a lot for me to hear, because I think I am doing really well, even having gained a bit of weight back over the last few weeks after it dipped. I can handle the concern, what I can't handle is being told that I am not eating full meals when I am and that she would be nagging me to eat more calories when I already eat 2,200 a day most days. I had therapy right after recording this and I am doing better. Mostly I am just proud that I stood up for myself and let the conversation when I didn't want to have it any more. 
13:05
January 22, 2020
Emotions Around Housing
Today Thomas and I went to look at a property for sale, this is the first place we've looked at so far to buy. It was fun to poke around and think about living there but ultimately we needed to admit that it would be a very uncomfortable, in some ways almost impossible life for us to keep up. Have a listen to all my thoughts around housing. 
13:01
January 21, 2020
Trying to Work with My Spouse
I think it is inevitable that spending several uninterrupted days alone with my husband will result in having conversations that are uncomfortable, but quite needed. In this episode I talk about the argument we had last night and where we are at now. More to come I'm sure. Thank you Milo and Kwabi for supporting this production!
13:27
January 20, 2020
Thinking About My Next Steps
In today's episode I go over some of the latest in my journey, how my health is doing and my plans for the coming weeks. #YangGang
14:56
January 17, 2020
What Self Care Means to Me
Hello Humans. Thanks for coming by to check in. Self care is really important to me and I recommend finding ways it can be important to you.
16:58
January 14, 2020
Getting Triggered Really Bad
Today I got triggered so I recorded myself talking so you could see the difference.
04:46
January 11, 2020
Doing My Work for Me
I didn't think I was going to do Exposing Isolation anymore because I am doing The Sapient Living Podcast now, but last night I changed my mind. This show is different, it's off-the-cuff, cathartic and good for my overall mental health. Even if no one listens, it's just nice for me to have a place to talk about what's going on in my life. If you are listening, thank you. I hope it helps in any small way.
15:49
January 9, 2020
Am I Sick Enough?
In today's episode I talk about thinking I am not sick enough to be an advocate or activist in the chronic illness community. That is how I was feeling yesterday and coincidentally today I feel absolutely horrible. I'm laughing for doubting myself. We are all on our own paths, we don't need to compare ourselves to each other, we need to support each other as best we can. Take care of yourselves today!  Please consider joining my Patreon community for just $5 a month.  Chronic & Invisible Illness Support (Facebook Group)
12:29
January 3, 2020
Welcome to the Future
Happy New Year! In today's episode I talk about what my goals are for 2020. I am working to build up a safe, supportive and inclusive community online for my fellow chronically ill people and their allies. I am working to earn an income for the first time in 6 years. I will be putting all the energy I can into find a new home for Thomas and I this year. Let's do this!
13:10
January 1, 2020
Reflections . December 30. 2019
On today's episode (the last episode of the year) I take some time to reflect on 2019. This year has been full of ups and downs, there have been many opportunities for personal development and I think I am better for it. I also think that my marriage is stronger for it and I am really proud of both of us for being able to get through all we did with out ship pointed in the right direction. I appreciate all that I have and even the difficult perspectives that my chronic health limitations have granted me. Thank you for being a part of my 2019!
11:39
December 30, 2019
Christmas . December 25, 2019
Merry Christmas! In today's episode I talk about my mental health and how much better off I am today than I was last year. A combination on setting boundaries,  committing to self care, going to therapy and maintaining my priorities has helped me have the calm day I am having right now! Thank you for listening to my ever-developing story. 
10:26
December 25, 2019
Family . December 23, 2019
In this episode I share what family Christmas was like a few days ago. What it's like to still have family that wear fragrances around me and also how my family is supportive of my current work. I want to spend my time sharing my stories, documenting my life and increasing representation of chronic illness. Ultimately I hope to monetize my content creation so that Thomas and I can one day buy a safe and healthy home to live and recover in. 
12:00
December 24, 2019
Work . December 20, 2019
The last few days have been a challenge, but also an important time of lessons and reflection. Thomas and I have been on this path, trying to help him make more money for years now and we are both exhausted. The hard truth of it is, it's nearly impossible (and has been impossible for us) to figure out how to live on just his income. We were homeless before my grandparents let us move in so we wouldn't have to worry about rent. If we are going to find a way through this and find any grace or dignity for our future, I have to make money too.
14:07
December 20, 2019
Plans . December 18, 2019
Today I am joined by Thomas, well he's in the room at least. His back is out. So I thought I would take 10 minutes to talk about the work that I want to do next, isn't going to be today. Thank you for listening. ScentNeutrality.com
10:23
December 18, 2019
Community . December 17, 2019
I love all the inspiration I have been receiving from the Adult Nerdfighter community on Facebook. I asked them to share with me any chronically ill content creators they follow and the response was awesome! I am diving deeper into my own content creation journey and I appreciate your support. I plan to keep going with my podcast and start my vlog back up. Check out my YouTube Channel!
13:32
December 17, 2019
Food . December 16, 2019
This is a "food for thought" kind of episode but I also mainly talk about my food system, what I eat and don't eat as well as what recipes I'm trying to put together next. I'm in an uncomfortable situation at the moment. I want to figure out a way to make money so all the pressure isn't just on Thomas to pay for everything, but my energy and moods are so inconsistent that I've just been using what energy I have to manage our home. Anyway, I go back and forth constantly about making a cookbook. Right now I feel like I could/should but I'm nervous. I really don't have the spoons to put work out right now.
12:50
December 16, 2019
High . December 4, 2019
I went back and listened to the beginning and noticed I said 2016. Wow. I thought about editing it out, but that wouldn't be authentic. Let it go down in history that the experiment was a success. I got high. I rambled. I published it. Peace.
15:33
December 4, 2019
Sober . December 4, 2019
So... I'm bored. I want to be more creative. This is another update about my life. I recorded this with the intention that I will take a hit of cannabis after and then immediately record another episode. I'll be curious to know if anything is different or if anyone can even tell. ScentNeutrality.com
11:11
December 4, 2019
Strategy . December 1, 2019
Today my mind is all over the place. I want a lot and I don't know how to navigate my limitations to achieve my goals. Mainly I want a meaningful life and I intend to take my chronic environmental illness and do some good with my story.   ScentNeutrality.com 
11:36
December 1, 2019
Resolution . November 21, 2019
Last night I had Thomas facilitate a Parts Work session on me and it went extremely well! Internal Family Systems Therapy | Full Session If you are interested in learning more about IFS/Parts Work check out the main website: https://www.selfleadership.org/
12:02
November 21, 2019
Parts . November 19, 2019
I'm going to give this podcast another chance. A new friend of mine has encouraged me to get creating and to not over think it so right after we ended our call I recorded this episode. I hope to work through the parts in me that are trying to hold me back so that I can make some progress on my best and highest vibrational path. Thank you for listening!
11:01
November 19, 2019
Resource . September 21, 2019
Today what started as a joke turned into a extremely straight forward explanation of what I do. My company, Sapient Living, is a resource for people who feel shitty, who want to feel less shitty, run by people who know what it's like to feel shitty. You know from listening to this show that I have been housebound due to chronic illness for over four years. My husband and co-founder of Sapient Living, Thomas, grew up with Junior Rheumatoid Arthritis which we only got under control a few years ago with the Sapient Diet. Whether you are struggling with your physical or mental health, lifestyle, job, motivation or anything else, there is a good chance we can help. We certainly want to try. SapientLiving.com Patreon.com/SapientLiving 
13:48
September 22, 2019
Up . September 19, 2019
Today I have energy. Today I feel optimistic. If I am being brave, which I suppose I am, I might even venture to say that today I am feeling at peace. I don't remember a time where I felt this good just being myself or had such a clarity about how to navigate the world in a way that I enjoy no matter what anyone else could possibly think of me. It's refreshing to say the least. 
13:31
September 19, 2019
Episode . September 17, 2019
Possibly my most raw and vulnerable episode yet, me in the middle of a mental illness meltdown. How does anyone live like this? Today I am really struggling and even though I thought I was getting better, I'm seeing that really, I haven't. I've had some good days to be sure, but the last two have been nearly as bad as they come and so I am just... lost. 
10:52
September 17, 2019
Care . September 17, 2019
Yesterday got pretty scary when my body tried to shut down again. This has happened before when I felt totally safe for a moment, like my body doesn't know how to stay animated if not for the stress hormones making it go. Luckily Thomas was there for me which allowed me to feel safe in the first place and showed me just how loved and taken care of I really am. Today I am doubling down on taking care of myself and I am happy to have this "second chance" to show myself the love I wish I had the first time something like this happened. 
12:33
September 17, 2019
Again . September 15, 2019
It has been over three months since I published an episode of Exposing Isolation, but it feels right to start again. I have a few new projects going that I think will benefit from these recordings as well as a new mindset that will be fun to document. Thank you for joining me (again) on this journey! To learn more about my latest work please visit SapientLiving.com.
12:46
September 15, 2019
Now . June 5, 2019
I need to focus on the now in order to prepare for what is next. Not feeling physically fit today and wondering how long it will take to achieve a sense of peace and harmony within my own body. Must focus on healing, mostly in terms of eating and keeping priorities in check. Also, note to self - please stop going on Facebook, there is nothing for you there. 
10:25
June 5, 2019
Center . June 4, 2019
Yesterday I got a letter in the mail asking if I would please consider becoming a chaplin to the United States Air Force. While that isn't a path I would have ever considered for myself, I would be very curious to see if they take Shamans. Otherwise, I am now thinking about what being a spiritual leader would be like and how much I would enjoy starting the Center for Sapient Living. 
10:41
June 4, 2019
Family . June 3, 2019
Things are back to normal this week in terms of everyone in my family being home in their own houses, but we all went through so much this week that nothing is really the same. We are definitely all closer than ever before and as I continue to focus on my health, I look forward to seeing the family we will continue to become. 
10:08
June 3, 2019
Light . June 2, 2019
Though the power of a horrific dream and being forced out of bed this morning with the beginning of a UTI (which I hope I have now cured) I learned some very important lessons. Mostly that if I don't take myself seriously, take control of my own well-being and maintain exceptionally high standards for what I accept as right and good, I'm going to end up living in a future that I did not help create. If I do not do this I will end up leading my people though the dark instead of leading them (you?) into the light. So, I now commit myself to the most rebellious act one can commit in today's society, I will unapologetically love myself first. 
09:47
June 2, 2019
Fresh . June 1, 2019
Welcome to June everyone!! It has been quite a week and I am looking forward to having a nice, calm, healthful weekend at home with my family.  If you would like to sign up for my monthly update, emailed out on the 1st of everyone month, you may do so  →  HERE
10:50
June 1, 2019
Healing . May 31, 2019
I did some more healing magic on the world this morning. Thomas felt it, I'm curious if anyone else did? I am feeling much better today, day 6 of withdrawal from marijuana use disorder. I'm getting to know myself like I never have before. I am certainly a much different person than I was last time I was sober. 
10:42
May 31, 2019
Me . May 30, 2019
Today I want to love myself in ways I have been waiting for others to love me. Thomas suggested a "creative date", I also want to read and do healings on myself. It would be great to know how you all take time to care for yourselves. Tweet me @RebeccaEWebber!
10:01
May 30, 2019
Eating . May 29, 2019
I have a eating disorder. It's really bad. I've asked for help for over a decade and finally got some unexpectedly yesterday. Thank you Christina.  Christina's Instagram:  @phoenixrisingstories Vote for Christina (People's Choice Awards, Mrs. BC):  Christina W. - Port Alberni
12:45
May 29, 2019
Release . May 28, 2019
I think that we have gone so long feeling like it is not okay to love ourselves that we have forgotten how to do it. The collective narrative has us tearing ourselves apart in pursuit of accomplishments that will never satisfy us all to the detriment of our home planet. If we can be very very brave, there is still hope for creative a life worth living for everyone. 
10:21
May 28, 2019
Shaman . May 27, 2019
Have you ever avoided a truth because you just weren't ready to be honest with yourself? I have been doing that for a very long time now. In this episode I share where I am at in accepting the shamanic path. 
10:20
May 27, 2019
Weed . May 26, 2019
I have been smoking weed nearly every day for the past five years and recently it has become an all day/every day event. I'm calling it quits for many reasons and also simply because I just don't think it's working/helping enough anymore. This makes me nervous, weed has been my crutch, but I'm also happy to be trying to create a life for myself that I truly love. 
11:30
May 26, 2019
Better . May 25, 2019
Last night I found myself on the floor in my bathroom praying, saying "Thank you God for this pain, I'm sure you are teaching me something extremely important" and I was completely right. 
11:36
May 25, 2019
Doing . May 24, 2019
I certainly have a lot of things I could be doing, but which will I do? Am I to stay low, pray and let others take care of me or should I find a way, however seemingly impossible, to make a living so as to provide for myself and buy a house with my own effort? Many questions on today's episode.
10:30
May 24, 2019
Men . May 23, 2019
If you've never heard of the Modern Masculinities Movement, this episode gives you your first taste. 
11:16
May 23, 2019
Safe . May 22, 2019
Today I talk about a site I built, ScentNeutrality.org, which serves to help my community go fragrance free. I also discuss why it is not totally appealing to move out of my grandparent's house. 
10:58
May 22, 2019
Food . May 21, 2019
I have struggled with disordered eating since I was 14 years old. I am now 28 and I still don't know how to fix it, but damn am I trying!
10:51
May 21, 2019
Extra . May 20, 2019
I simply had to record this extra content today because I just healed some of my parts! In trauma work this means that I am a little bit more free. This is a very long, particularly unique episode. 
26:41
May 20, 2019
Love . May 20, 2019
Welcome to week 4 of Exposing Isolation. I am so proud of where I've gotten to so far! This episode is about the day I shared with Thomas yesterday and how optimistic I am about the future.
10:39
May 20, 2019
Next . May 19, 2019
I honestly don't know what is next for me and Thomas. Our latest round of plans has come to an "unfortunately this isn't working and isn't likely to work any time soon" end and will join her dozens of sisters on the pile of "close but no" ideas. Thank you all for being here to discover with us.
10:58
May 19, 2019
Source . May 18, 2019
Easily the most challenging episode I have ever made. The muse of storytelling woke me at 3:00 AM and would not get off me until I got out of bed just after 4:00 AM to create this piece. This feels like true therapy through art. Now that I've exposed more of my past, I am optimistic that positive change is coming. 
10:45
May 18, 2019
Alone . May 17, 2019
There must be a very important lesson in here somewhere, right? Today I'm already quite lonely and it is barely past 7:00 AM, nothing very new or groundbreaking about that I'm afraid. 
10:21
May 17, 2019
Dreams . May 16, 2019
Have I ever told you that I have all my senses in my dreams or that I am usually a captain of some army or league? It's never a dull night in my brain, listen for last night's adventure and a dream from a few years ago that was one of my all time favorites. * I have an upbeat attitude about the dreams today, but it can be very overwhelming to experience these narratives every night and sometimes I'm afraid to go to sleep. 
12:03
May 16, 2019
Simple . May 15, 2019
Today has already been a good and productive day and it is only 10:00 AM. I feel like today I can relax into what is and not worry so much about what was or will be. I'm optimistic and enjoying the process. 
10:20
May 15, 2019
Forgive . May 14, 2019
I have to let a lot go. First, I need to know what those things are which means thinking about some very unpleasant things. There is hope and I am feeling more up to the work than yesterday. 
10:42
May 14, 2019
Days . May 13, 2019
Today is one of the challenging ones. I definitely cry a lot in this episode. 
10:12
May 13, 2019
Moms . May 12, 2018
Thank you and Happy Mothers Day!
10:16
May 12, 2019
Energy . May 11, 2019
Where will I put my energy, the little that I have, in order to create the best life that I can? Choosing how I want to feel seems to be a good first step in figuring this out.
10:35
May 11, 2019
Space . May 10, 2019
Today I am consideration of my physical space and creating peace in my mind. As within, also without or some such wise concept. Google Memory Reconsolidation for more information.
10:25
May 10, 2019
Love . May 9, 2019
What do I love? What do I want? How am I teaching Thomas to want things? Find out today.
11:25
May 9, 2019
Doctor . May 8, 2019
Today I visited my doctor and made some next step decisions with her and Grandma Mary to try and help me get better. I really appreciate all the council I'm being gifted with these days. 
11:25
May 8, 2019
Thomas . May 7, 2019
Happy Birthday Thomas! We might not have gotten along well all day, but we are certainly madly in love and trying our best. I hope you enjoyed the food.
11:08
May 8, 2019
Intentions . May 6, 2019
My intentions for week 2 of Exposing Isolation.
10:29
May 6, 2019
Home . May 5, 2019
I don't know where we will live next, but I am definitely thinking about it. 
10:34
May 5, 2019
Woozy . May 4, 2019
I am optimistic that today will be a great day even though it is starting out with less than ideal physical symptoms. Today we will be moving the garden shed to the other side of the yard followed by a pizza party for Thomas's birthday. I was eating ginger ALL DAY!
10:04
May 4, 2019
Nurturing . May 3, 2019
It must be Spring! Today I am thinking about the life I want to pass on to those I get to help raise. 
11:18
May 3, 2019
MCS . May 2, 2019
Have you ever been listening to Exposing Isolation and wondered why I'm isolated? I'm not sure that I meant to, but in today's episode I talk about chemical fragrances and how my body reacts so negatively to them that I have to avoid them as much as I possibly can. 
11:25
May 2, 2019
Peace . May 1, 2019 [Poor Audio]
What a beautiful day in the neighborhood! I'm feeling good today.
12:05
May 1, 2019
Trying . April 29, 2019 [Poor Audio]
This episode is the first in what I hope will be a cathartic production of my inner world turned audio experience. 
10:02
April 29, 2019