The Pedophile Huntress

Join Carol Boyce, Emily, and me as we chat through the various triggers we encounter, the DNA results that demand a better understanding of babies born through incest, and more.

We share the candid journey of what it looks like to heal from incest.

Lin joins me in a candid discussion of growing up in the Bronyx with a mother that wouldn't protect her from her step-father. She shares her courageous journey and tells us where she is today. You can follow Lin here: YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@UCP7pqfcmSTIGXhX4n9ZbQhQ

Panel discussion with Carol Boyce, author of First, I Believe You, and Emily Parker. We continue our discussion about leaving families that hide incest.

What are we really leaving behind? We define "love" in families of incest.

Join us for this heartfelt, raw discussion.

I received an email with this discussion topic: Good morning, Jodie – I thought of a topic for discussion: the process of deciding to break ties with family of origin. When I was in that process I wished there were resources to help me - resources that weren’t just full of anger and contempt. So, I’d like to share my journey a bit to try to help others who might be considering staying or going in terms of connections to parents, siblings, etc.

We discuss this and more.

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Judy is the author of "The Art of Bristle."

Judy Kowalsky’s life is filled with alcoholism, suicide, and tragic loss. As an adult, the author encounters more heartbreaking catastrophes before realizing that she has spent a lifetime meeting the same personalities, experiencing challenging emotional years of learned behaviors and actions that go well beyond childhood. 

Join us for this very real converstaion.

You can purchase Judy's book on Amazon and other retailers.

From the full interview discussion with Joeann.

Joanne Hall Crafton joins me to discuss grieve. She lost her husband over six months ago unexpectedly. We explore who we as children of childhood tragedy navigate these waters today. Of discussion veres of in many directions. It was a joy to have her.

Joanne also has a YouTube channel here: https://www.youtube.com/@joeannhallcrafton3014

Living through childhood sexual trauma and rape leaves children with the inability to process there environment, the surroundings, culture and family they find themselves. Given to silence, our bodies create and try to release our trauma. Body tremors, leg pains, night terrors! All to try to tell someone we need help. We discuss this and much more.

I read a blog journal about the cost of delaying my healing journey.

What about suicide?

Dissociation is a childhood friend to victims of childhood sexual abuse. We chat about that here. Listen to the entire episode.

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Seek justice! Protect the children and yourself.

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Triggers are very personal; different things trigger different people. Sensory memory can be extremely powerful and not feel logical. We are triggered through sight, sound, taste, touch and smell.

In incest is often a parent or grandparent that was the abuser. Often someone who resembles the abuser or who has similar traits or objects (i.e. clothing, hair color, distinctive walk) can be very triggering.

So, what happens when you resemble the abuser? You trigger yourself. We discuss what this looks and feels like in the life of a incest survivor.

We finish our conversation and it was good.

** Is it demons or symptoms of PTSD

** Our mental abilities start to wane when we keep on with blocked memories.

** When we fail, put more good in … the only thing that changes us is self-forgiveness and love.

Tonight's panel talks about childhood submission and how that carries through into our adulthood decisions. The inability to unmingle the abuse from daily living. We chat about the frought worries of forgiveness.

What about trauma and our sexuality? We talk about that commingling, too.

The panel discusses the impact of incest. Each of these panelist lived in a home of abuse where the father was the hunter. We discuss: 1) Why don't we seek justice for these crimes? Is our justice seeker broken? 2) What would justice look like? 3) What about our anger? Does our fear silence our anger? Our guest panelist wrote me and asked to participate. She said, "It's a shared type of understanding that I've rarely had in life." That is precisely why we are here.

Joanne honestly shares how she came through a life that started rough. She is such a genuine soul. At a very young age she walks herself to the police station to protect her cousins. Thank you, Joanne for your courage.

We discuss how a loving Father God gives us a lifetime filled with his loving embrace. He doesn't have an expiration for healing -- the spirit of religion does.

Jeanette Finn joins us on today's episode. She is the author of Girl Distorted Joy Restored. Her abuse began around the age of 10 years old when her biological father began to moleste and groom her. It continued until she was 15 when she brought it to a dramatic end. Join us in this conversation.
You can find Jeannette at innocentagain.com, Divinelyempoweredonlinedating.com and by searching "Getting To I Do" on Facebook.

Candid discussion with Terry Jo. Please subscribe!

This is a clip from Latarsha's full interview. Please subscribe to keep us going.

Even triggers can be denied.

Carol and Sylvia join me for a very candid look into the mystery that surrounds incest. We discuss what the ordinary life of being raped as a child looks like, the confusion that brings as we grow, the consistent denial and so much more. Join us to learn, heal, and love.

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Relationship is a pedophiles greatest weapon!

Have you ever wondered why it is so hard for a victim of incest to leave their family? Are you a victim of incest and struggle with walking away from your abuser(s)? Family members enslaved to each other. Relationship is the pedophile's strongest weapon. I talk about that reality.

Joeann Crafton Hall, Carol Boyce, and Jodie Tedder discuss the aftermath of coming through childhood sexual crimes.

This interview with Bill Murray is a candid look at his childhood sexual abuse that began in 1965 and continued into his school years at a Catholic church where he was again abused by priests and fellow students. Bill continues his story with "you have to work at recovery" which he has done for the last 40 years. Now 70, his courage to share and confront childhood sexual crimes is so encouraging. Bill founded NAASCA in 2009: Adult Survivor web site www.NAASCA.org Talk show home page www.BlogTalkRadio.com/NAASCA

1) Police Case: PI brings my file to the Vancouver Police Department. They open a case in 2008. My father dies in 2010, VPD closes the case. 2) The Grave: Pictures of the the attempted excavation of the dumpsite where the body still remains; 3) Recording of Visit with the Accomplice: The actually recording where I go visit Craig Holbrook in an attempt to gain his help. He never denies the reason for my visit, but simply tells me multiple times to let it go; that he wouldn't remember her "if he was married to her" because it was a long time ago." He tells me, "I don't have to do anything. Just let it go." Would you let it go?

Read or listen to the book or audiobook "A Prisoner by No Crime of My Own"

https://www.amazon.com/Prisoner-No-Crime-My-Own/dp/B0BRBV3TGG/ref=sr_1_1?crid=2AIRIE4M8UN4V&keywords=a+prisoner+by+no+crime+of+my+own&qid=1695743488&sprefix=%2Caps%2C208&sr=8-1

I visit with Sylvia Tervino about her experience. She was sexually abused by her father beginning at the tender age of 4 or 5 years old. She shares her story and the budding of a new life through the process of healing. She shares a strong story of faith -- moving away from religion.

Incest, rape, murder. Then, I turned four. I have unfinished business and I need your help. I witnessed a woman be raped and then murdered. I watched my father and his best friend bury her on my parents' property and her body remains there to this day. My father is deceased but the accomplice is not. In Episode 2 we discuss the facts of the case, the investigation as well as cover the sequence and timeline of events as they unfolded. The facts of this case found the the missing woman, not the other way around. We will be back with Episode III. We will get into the life and untimely death of Madeline Babcock. Jodie will describe the process of hiring a PI to investigate the missing woman's family, how she built a three-year relationship with Madeline's sister.

Kevin Boyd discusses that there is healing in deep honesty. He shares the moment of his choosing not to continue in the steps of his father. He chose not to become a pedophile. Loves his courageous testimony. Make sure to listen to his entire interview. He's amazing.

Kevin Boyd is the author of Blessings in Freedom: Dispelling the Myths. A candid conversation about father/son incest. We explore his feelings of "it's my fault," his promiscious hidden sexual lifestyle that ensured in his adult years and how he moved into freedom. Follow Kevin Boyd on his social media platforms: Instgram @Kevboyd777 Facebook - Kevin Boyd TikTok - kbsetfree

PART 1: This interview is with Jodie Tedder. Jodie Tedder is the author of A Prisoner by No Crime of My Own. Incest. Rape. Murder. Then, I Turned Four. Available on Amazon in Paperback, Kindle & Audiobook.

Jodie witnessed her father rape and murder a woman in the Riverside Motel on Highway 14 in Vancouver, Washington, on June 18, 1964. This interview goes over the events of that fateful day.

This is a four part series. Watch all four episodes here: https://www.youtube.com/@amissingpersonsstory-madel2815

Kaely Taylor shares the complicated journey of a life that was introduced to incest from her brother at the tender age of 5. She stayed close with her brother until his murder. This is an honest look at sibling incest and complicated relationship it brings.

“Kaely Taylor has been a certified Christian Life Coach for the past 7 years helping individuals work through trauma and abuse, addiction, grief and life transitions. She has led support groups for the past 5 years helping women overcome wounds of childhood sexual abuse with Journey to Heal Ministries. She also creates programs and host events to help individuals heal and grow in faith. You can find her on YouTube, Facebook or Instagram Shining light into darkness and planting seeds of hope.”

Kevin Boyd, author of Blessings in Freedom: Dispelling the Myths, joins this episode to chat about his childhood sexual abuse that started with his father around the very young age of five and continued well into his teen years.

His story is one of overcoming years of sexual addicition, social partying, and religion to move into a life that is now full.

Follow Kevin on social media @ kevboy777

Juanita joins us from Wales UK to discuss the abuse she received from the Head Master of her childhood school that carried until she was 13. She contiues her brave story with more sexual abuse in her life and the journey she is now on to regain, heal, and restore.

Interview with Shannon Page | Surviving Childhood Trauma | Sharing Thoughts Over Coffee Shannon shares her story of incest that began at the very tender age of 5 or 6 with her paternal grandfather and ended around the age of 12. Candid discussion about the healing process, EMDR and more.

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Clip of interview with Latarsha Haughton, author of Breaking the Silence. We discuss the complicated love card that exists in incest. Love/hate commingled.

My guest Laura Ann Duran joins me today to talk about generational abuse. There are parts of her story that she remembers. There are also parts of her story she does not remember.

She share her story about fighting for justice and protection for her children in world that doesn't want to listen.

Triggers, triggers, oh, yes - triggers! What do they look like? How do we response to them?

Clip with Latarsha Haughton, author of Breaking the Silence. We discuss how her father groomed her with drugs and how the abuse ended in trauma amnesia after the birth of her son.

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This is a clip of our interview with Latarsha Haughton, author of Breaking the Silence. In this clip she discusses how her father started the process of grooming, how he moved into her bedroom to rape her, and how she ended with trauma amnesia to survive and move on with their son.

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Latarsha Haughton, author of Breaking the Silence, joins me today to discuss her journey through severe childhood trauam. After years of being raped by her father, Latarsha gives birth to their son. Join the discussion as we talk about breaking generational curses, grooming, and the complicated love/hate relationship with the abuser, her father. You can follow her son, Tracy, on TikTok @Everybodylovestracy.

This is a compiliation of interviews with clips discussing where was God during your abuse and where is he now.

Destimgatizing Childhood Sexual Crimes

Where is justice for these crimes?

Watch entire interview here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5meF1lmQPC62FfSXagh7JQ

Destigmatizing Childhood Sexual Crimes

What does grooming look like? Here's a clip of that discussion.

What does a trigger look like? How does it affect our relationships? How can triggers be good?

Carol discusses how her father's suggestion triggers her memories.